#i feel paralyzed

[hauntedwoman]

there's a very certain sharp sorrow that comes with the death of a childhood friend. my stomach feels like it's been punched and my memories are starting to blur together and i cant separate them. i can see the flood of the streetlights on a summer night, i am blinded by their timed proclamations. but i can't see him. i can't see him anymore.

#and i was feeling so hopeful that today was going to be goo #i feel paralyzed #i feel lost

[radmista]

Losing my mind because my dog has been vomiting for the past 24hrs and I'm terrified he has a foreign body bc I can't afford a surgery. But this dog means so much to me, he is literally my soul dog. He just keeps getting worse and idk what to do. Why did this happen on my last day off, I look so shitty asking to have today off to deal with my dog after having the weekend off

#life posting #I'm literally so fucking scared #i feel paralyzed #idk what I'm gonna do my family wont help me they said #im gonna call the emergency vet but ik itll be expensive and ik i wont be able to afford it at this time

[oliviassunrise]

me @ my self esteem and general well-being: when will we return from the war (being unable to create or even so much as respond to the AO3 comments that have been sitting in our inbox)?

#kayli talks #every time I go to open a doc #I feel paralyzed #like I physically have nothing in me to give #on top of fighting comparison jealousy

[sociotropy]

yesterday sucked and i dont know if i can come into work tommrow. i will, but i will need to properly heal myself beforehand.

#my low self esteem takes hard blows whenever something bad happens #i feel paralyzed

[chiricat]

acheswan 🔥

#cat’s art #penacony #honkai star rail #hsr #hsr fanart #acheron #black swan #acheswan #it's been a while... alas #i've either been super busy or having generally less than pleasant feelings about my art ... #enough about that though #MY PROTAG NUIS CAME!!!! THEY ARE SO CUTE AND LOVELY AND SOFT #and i'm almost finished with p3re! I'M SCARED... EVERYONE ALWAYS SAYS THAT THEY WERE BAWLING AT THE ENDING SCENES #also what is wrong with ryomina. RYOJI IS SO FUNNY LIKE BRO... BRO? ARE YOU G #will i be able to ryomina or will i get paralyzed by “they're too beautiful and i could never do them justice” ... find out next time

[couchie]

everything is so much and im not equipped to deal with all that. i want to exist solely on social media and as a black smoke entity but unfortunately i have to live the life im in and deal with my fucking family and mental illnesses and physical illnesses and im not okay. im not okay.

#in a ripping my hair out mood #this is me whenever my fathers voice reaches me #as in right this fucking moment #moments of panic that im trying to drown in detachedness #its not working #i need to get out of here #i cant make myself move #getting out of the house includes too many things to do #shits getting bigger inside my head #i feel paralyzed

[echeveriia]

god help me amcas opens today and for the last few weeks i’ve been in such a terrible headspace and feeling completely unprepared for it. add to that the fact that i’m still exhausted and reeling from losing omen, and i’m straight up not having a good time 🫠

#i’m really afraid that i’m not ready and i’m not working hard enough on my application compared to everyone else #i feel paralyzed #side note: new favorite emoji 🫠 #speaks

[the-punforgiven]

Hey, I'm really sorry to have to ask y'all, but my family and I are being evicted from our home and we can't really afford to live anywhere else.

We've been saving up for a while and we've found a place we can almost afford, but we're still short about $4,400. So like, if you have anything you can do to help I'd greatly appreciate it, but like, I get that times are tough all around so I totally understand if you don't

Here's a link to my paypal, but like, please only donate if you've got the cash to spare, I don't want anyone to go hungry on my account

#I'm sorry to have to do this y'all ;-; #Idk what else to even do though #like this shabby little trailer we're looking at is like the second cheapest place in the entire town #we're getting kicked out of the first #the rent was dirt cheap due to the asbestos and ghosts and even then we could barely afford it lol #I wish I could offer emergency commissions or something but I've been so paralyzed by the stress of this whole situation #it's hard to do shit like draw and I'm afraid if I do the emergency commissions thing the stress'll just crush me #as if it hasn't been already lol #and I feel bad because there's like #so much more important shit in the world going on rn #and more important voices that need to be heard than mine #but also like #we need a place to live #y'know? #sorry for this again ;-; #pun's text posts #help

[artbyace]

RETURN TO TRENCH

lil tyler doodle as i (patiently) await new music drop

#plot twist yes i’m a tøp fan #i missed out on sai because i was #going through it #but WE BACK BABEY #i feel like im 12 again #the Good Days #i like doing doodles #it helps me fight the perfectionism that paralyzes me in art block #tøp #i am clancy #twenty one pilots #tyler joseph #clikkie #tøp art #tøp fanart #tøp clique

[suntails]

a father's love

#SNIFFLIGN AND WEEPING. IM SO FUCKNH NORMAL ABT THE KNIGHT OF DAWN. SNIFFLES. I LOVE HIM #guys u dont get it anytime i think abt him i start tearing up its so TRAGIC. being essentially pushed into the role of a knight for his kin #and pushed to kill briar valley's princess when he clearly doesnt want to. for the sake of a POTENTIAL to save the man who took him in. for #the sake of keeping his love happy and saving her father. to have a kid who you care so deeply for that u both give him up to a better futu #putting him to sleep for who knows how long so he can live in peace. even if it means you wont be in the picture. even if ur dead. SNIFFLES #im CRYIGN im MUSHY ABT IT. FUCKJIGN SUE ME #twst #twisted wonderland #twst silver #silver vanrouge #knight of dawn #ch 7 spoilers #book 7 spoilers #UUAGAAGAHHHHHHHHH #suntails #AND SILVER!!!! so resentful of what his og dad did. so guilt ridden of being his descendant. bearing the pain of a crime he didnt even comm #of leaving malleus with no parents. of killing the PRINCEiSS of his KINGDOM that hes been sworn to protect. the feeling of treason in his < #him trying desperately to push this away while completely paralyzed over the weight of his realization and crumbling to it. AUGGHGHH #sorry im normal (lying) (lyign) (extra lying)

[canisalbus]

Currently suffering an ear infection and all I can think is how you said Vasco is prone to them. Does he get miserable and exhausted from the pain or is he more the type to get short tempered and cranky?

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#I'd say a little bit of both but he tends to get more testy than dejected #because there aren't really any effective treatments for ear infections #he's gotten very careful about cleaning and maintaining his ears and trying to make sure they never stay moist for very long #and that has helped somewhat but he can't avoid them completely which frustrates him greatly #Vasco usually manages to react to adversities with prolonged and stubborn optimism #he generally takes setbacks as a challenge instead of a personal failure #but after his patience and good will finally run out he gets upset #he gets angry but usually in a constructive way and it gives him another boost of energy to attempt to fix things #Machete gets paralyzed by sadness but Vasco rarely does #he just doubles down #answered #werewolfteaparty #Vaschete lore #ear infections are terrible I hope you feel better soon

[daylighteclipsed]

killing mnyseld

#oh the forbidden expressions !!!! I’m gonna puke !!!! #‘riku I’m scared ! what if a shooting star hits the islands?’ #’if a shooting star comes this way I’ll knock it right back into outer space ! I’ll protect you i promise’ !!!! #kingdom hearts #soriku #sora’s expression oh my go d oh my god #weakly raising his hand a silent plea that is so loud #he has to be so fu cked up from this #this specifically but also watching all of his friends die in less than five minutes #all the people he was supposed to protect. everybody was counting on him to be their hero #and he couldn’t stop any of them from being killed. rapidly. right in front of him #he barely had time to react like oh. my god what a horrible horrible horrible feeling #andd then the last friend left - riku - dies for him. and sora can only sit there paralyzed #ohhhhh. oh. god. i know this fucked him up good

[rhymesswith]

20 year old Rin ilysm

(The demon/human cultural dissonance of Rin wanting to learn self defence so that she "doesn't have to rely of Lord Sesshomaru". To demons, the stronger ones in the clan protect the weaker ones and that's how it's supposed to be. The idea of Rin not wanting to be a burden doesn't quite compute to poor Sesshomaru. He's like tf? does she not think me capable any more ?? What have I done to lose her faith ??? )

#usual preface i have never watched/read yashahime #i'm simply obsessed with the post canon adult rin that lives in my head #inuyasha #rin #sesshomaru #jaken #sango #kagome #my arts #rhymeswithinuyasha #i feel like a classic older-rin trope is having her train to fight with sango #i'm feeling sess commissions her a pair of tanto knives made from his claws #please forgive me if i've botched the names but i like 'full moon' and 'new moon' #'Mangetsu' and 'Shingetsu' #both have poison blades #one is lethal the other is temporarily paralyzing

[all-yourn]

destiel & zach bryan feat. kacey musgraves "i remember everything"

[on youtube]

#yall know i am always thinking about dean winchester and lot's wife and how he is haunted by and paralyzed by loss #anyway its the fifth so happy despair #“theyre trapped caught in the same loops replaying the same tragedies over and over” #quotes are from feeling backward: loss and the politics of queer history by heather love #and a substack by amelia k "i: vision - eurydice mangans sister and lot's wife #nov 5th #destiel #destiel confession #spn #supernatural #spnamvarchive #zach bryan #kacey musgraves #i remember everything #deancas #castiel #dean winchester #lots wife #spn edit #web weaving #lots wife coded #15x18 #2x16 #e #my amv

[spitblaze]

Cannot overstated how gutting it feels to know how much of my life and charity has, in fact, gone to destroying the lives and personhood and ecosystem of Palestine while being told all my life that it was for the sake of MY people, that it was good, that Israel needs to exist. No it doesn't. It never did. Jerusalem is a holy site but it's not our site alone. For millenia 'israel' wasn’t supposed to be a place, it was supposed to be the people. I knew the Israeli government was held hostage by fascist ghouls, but I feel betrayed not knowing just how deep that bile runs.

But, well. Sitting here and being depressed about it won't help anything. I have no reason to support a country that does so many of the things to its native population that the US did to ours, that recreates so many of the actions that we promised would be 'never again', a country that was only ever an apartheid state at best. Healing the world is a core tenet and I intend to abide by it.

#spitblaze says things #i fuckin. sure hope i can anyway #its easy to be paralyzed and be all talk and no action #i. hope ive been uplifting voices and spreading the word enough #idk. theres always more i can do #im not writing this to be self aggrandizing or for glory or clout or w/e im just expressjng how i feel #knowing. every single fucking organization i have ever contributed to that claimed to help israel was only hurting palestine #idk man it kinda sucks knowing so much of what you were told was built on a foundation of fascist lies to start #but like i said! being said wont do shit #palestine

[sbd-laytall]

Warrior Nun | 2.08 | "Jeremiah 29:13"

X-Men: First Class (2011)

#I know this parallel might be a reach but hear me out here #both ships have them feeling so alone and after meeting each other they end up growing closer and closer #until these scenes where they're separated (Ava needing to go into the other realm to survive and Cherik by their ideological differences) #also like #Bea and Erik first came off as cold reserved people but end up showing their compassionate sides #and Ava and Charles start off as sort of naive yet kind people but they end up as true leaders #also Ava used to be quadriplegic and Charles ends up paralyzed and wheelchair-bound #but they do have their contrasts #Beatrice always helps Ava up whenever she falls and catches her #whereas Erik tends to be the one to cause Charles to fall (referring to Erik accidentally causing his paralysis) #and honestly Avatrice is really healthy while Cherik is well kind of not #anyway I digress #avatrice #ava silva #sister beatrice #warrior nun #cherik #charles xavier #professor x #erik lehnsherr #magneto #x men #x men first class #x men movies #gifs are mine #my post