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lilysniche · 2 years

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Alright nerds I'm back with more ROTTMNT content and this time we're talking about turtles being left alone

Spoilers ahead for seasons 1 & 2 and the movie

On yet another Monday evening I was thinking about the season 1 episode 'Man vs. Sewer' (which they really should have been called Turtle vs. Sewer c'mon now) and Raph's reaction to being left alone.

So naturally my mind wandered down the path of how the other three turtles would react to being left all alone. So I am here to present my headcanony thoughts similar to my other post about the turtles rankings of fav brother which I'll link here.

This post is going to be very long. I apologize now.

Now in the episode 'Man vs. Sewer' (btw I understand this is supposed to be a play on how every story is one of four or something story types, e.g. Man vs. Man, Man vs. Nature etc.) I'm rambling again!

In 'Man vs. Sewer' the other turtles make it seem like Raph is the only one who has a reaction to being left alone, and while I'm sure Raph is the only one with such a... dramatic reaction we'll say. I feel that the other three would likely still have a reaction to being left alone given the fact that all four of these turtles have been raised in an EXTREMTLY close knit family. I mean prior to meeting April their only friends were each other and were likely the only other living beings they saw. After all in the episode 'Hot Soup: The Game' it's said that Raph was 13 when he got to go on his first solo topside mission. Now while it is possible the boys went topside prior to this as a group it wouldn't surprise me if this was the first time any of them were allowed to leave the sewers given their likely overall lack of um... stealth at such a young age since they barely have stealth as teenagers lol.

I'm getting off track though! My point is that because this family is practically always together I find it hard to believe that if any of them were left alone they'd be perfectly fine and so I will now present my headcanons/ hypothesis' about each turtles reaction to being alone.

Now Raph has already been cannonically shown in his reaction to being alone. He goes savage caveman brain, thinks everything is a threat and believes he'll die alone.

Next up we'll look at:

Leo

Now I know you could point to the movie for examples of Leo being alone but that is such an extreme situation in comparison to Raph getting lost in a sewer for like an hour or so that I don't feel the movie is a great comparison for "being left alone" so for this post when I'm talking about "being alone" I don't mean the others are dead, or kidnapped or anything really angsty. Think more lost in the sewers, or some of the family went to visit Todd for the weekend and one stayed at the lair alone and realized that was a mistake because separation anxiety and codependency lmao.

Now Leo is arguably also left alone in the episode 'Portal Jacked' (portal jacked is such a good episode for Leo character analysis I'm telling you) Now I know what you're thinking "Lily he literally is with Senor Hueso practically the entire episode" and you're right. Leo is technically only alone for maybe ten seconds between him exiting his portal outside Run of the Mill Pizza and entering the restaurant to find Senor Hueso but he's left without any of his family with him almost the entire episode and it leads to a lot of discussion about them and him being without them so I feel it will help support my argument.

Anyway!

In 'Portal Jacked' Leo whilst still being himself starts to show some of his insecurity in the episode. He admits to "being nothing" without his brothers and continuously brings up how he's better with his brothers. I feel based on these comments and this episode as a whole that if Leo were left alone for likely a longer period of time than Raph (let's say a day or two at the minimum for an effect to really set in) he'd likely let his insecurities get the best of him. As without his brothers as an audience to entertain, taunt, and distract himself from his own insecurities he's left with only himself to be his hype man and back up.

If you don't agree that Leo has insecurities I'll point you in the direction of the episode 'Minotaur Maze' and Leo's reoccurring need to prove himself to others and have them see him as important.

This insecurity is also what plays into Leo's behavior as leader in the film as he clearly doesn't view himself as worthy/ready for the title of "leader" at the start of the film.

Using these points I feel that without his brothers to back him up and perhaps cover for areas Leo lacks in he'd quickly spiral and become very unsure of himself and his actions. As Leo (prior to the movie especially) comes across as someone who does not want to take credit for something until it has already happened and succeeded. (e.g the episode 'One Man's Junk' where Leo literally waits to pick a side on the mystic meatal shop idea until after it fails and sides with Raph) Leo needs to be able to shift blame and "hide in the crowd" if you will in order to not feel like he's failing during a mission (which most the time he's actually succeeding just maybe not how he envisions himself doing so). So if he were to be left all alone with only himself to blame if a mistake was made I feel he'd become very unsure of himself and perhaps rather nervous his portals perhaps become more unreliable than normal (if we are setting this post season 2 finale then it would probably more like him earlier in the show where his portals don't always work. If we're pre-season 2 finale where his portals barely work on a good day then he'd likely cease making useful portals all together lol) and is continuously cracking jokes to whoever is around to listen (even if it's just himself) because to quote Leo: "That's how I cope!"

Final analysis of Leo alone: Very insecure, Nervous, desperately trying to find someone to hang around so he can throw his one liners to try to cope, and anxious to have his brothers back to back up him and his crazy ideas.

Whew! That was a very long research paper I just gave you and that's only the first one!

Again I am so sorry for the length of this post lmao I enjoy doing character analysis too much I'm so sorry.

Moving on to my favorite turtle we have:

Donnie

While it seems that Donnie enjoys being alone I find that because of this close knit family upbringing he'd still be affected by being alone. After all there's a difference between:

alone and lonely and

choosing to be alone and being left alone.

Donnie has plenty of hobbies that prompt him to be alone e.g. he has a video game addiction; or want to be alone e.g. He's the family genius/inventor whose in his lab for extended periods of time to try an accomplish something and anyone disturbing him is an unwelcomed distraction.

An example of this is the episode 'Mind Meld' when Donnie-fied Leo, Raph and Mikey try to get rid of Donnie when he asks them to come eat pizza with him. To quote Donnie "Hey wait! You're trying to get rid of me! That's what I do but... but to you!"

'Mind Meld' is a great episode for Donnie character analysis since there are basically 4 of him in this episode and we get to see how Donnie's character isn't just the smart inventor guy but also a normal teenager who likes to do normal teen things

While Donnie likes being alone and working in his lab, when he wants to see people he wants to see them and not be alone. This is shown in an earlier scene in 'Mind Meld' when Donnie excitedly asks if his brothers are ready for their game of skateboard ball. His Donnie-fied brothers give a very Donnie response and shrug him off saying they have better things to do and Donnie is left really disappointed. Leo, Raph and Mikey are acting like Donnie when he's in "genius tech guy mode" rather than "I'm ready to have fun with my brothers mode" like actual Donnie is in this scene.

Honestly the whole episode is a great example of how Donnie is a well rounded character and how he'd be very different if he only had one facet to his personality. With Leo, Raph, and Mikey all Donnie-fied but seemingly only to possess Donnie's intellect you see that Donnie is more than his brain and has other sides to his personality. That was a side tangent sorry! I really love the writing of this show! Back to my actual point!!

When Donnie wants to work on something people are a nuisance but when he wants to have fun then people better be around or Donnie will be sad.

Now that I have prefaced the circumstances, I will dive into my headcanon/hypothesis about how Donnie would react to being alone.

Now Donnie's reaction is entirely hinged on what mode he is currently in. If he is in work mode it would probably go something like this:

Like I have just stated Donnie is in his lab a lot working on various projects, be it improving his battleshells, working on his drill, working on the Turtletank etc. And based on Donnie's character he seems the type to hyper-focus on his work and not realize how much time has passed *cough* me on any passion project *cough* With this being said I feel that Donnie probably wouldn't notice he's been left alone at first lol. He'd probably hyper-focus for an entire day, forget to eat, maybe remember to go to sleep in a bed or just pass out in his lab, wake up and repeat the process until he finished his project or remembered to take a break. This would likely cause a decline in Donnie's overall well being and is why I think Donnie shouldn't be left unsupervised for extended periods of time lmao. So his family would likely have to be gone at least a week for Donnie to notice if I'm being honest. But that is only if Donnie were in work mode!

If Donnie was left alone in the lair and he was in social mode, I feel that he'd likely be pretty bummed that no one was around to bug him. Between Leo razzing him, Mikey always coming around to cuddle/get affection from each of them and just Raph's overall presence and dumb ideas like trying to shove something up his nose. Donnie would likely feel like he's actually alone. Like entirely alone. There's no hum of energy from his brothers, no slight annoyance just silence and emptiness. And he might relish it for a moment but after a few minutes of uninterrupted silence he'd realize that he can't take it and needs the energy to fill the space again. And knowing Donnie (and depending on how long the fam was gone for) he'd try to substitute it with tech. Causing a new start of work mode that was trying to fix the lack of socializing he craves.

Final analysis of Donnie alone: He doesn't immediately notice that he's alone but once he's made aware of the growing silence and actual solitude with no disruption it starts to get to him and makes him anxious for some social stimulation from others specifically from his family because turtle fam is best fam

Alright! We have made it through two turtle boys and only have one left! you know him you love him! He's the sunshine baby iiiiiiiiiiiittttttt'sssssss:

🅼🅸🅺🅴🆈

Now Mikey is a lil bit more difficult for me to figure out how he'd react to being alone and this is mainly because I find it hard to imagine a normal situation that would cause him to be left alone. If we went with my everyone went away for the weekend idea I said at the start I find it highly unlikely they'd let Mikey of all people stay home alone. Simply because he's the baby and they don't like to leave him without supervision/back up (I mean just look at the episode 'Hot Soup: The Game' they literally watch him on security cameras like new parents watching a baby monitor) Like hell he's being intentionally left to his own devices for a whole weekend.

Which makes me think Mikey being alone would have to be accidental like Raph's in 'Man vs. Sewer' be it he got lost in the sewers, or like a proper younger sibling wandered off without paying attention and lost the group in: the Hidden City, Big Mama's building, the Sewers, New York City itself or whatever setting the boys are currently in.

Mikey likely wouldn't be alone for long since you know Raph will be on a rampage to find his baby brother, unless Mikey got hella lost and Donnie couldn't just track him lol.

So for this hypothetical scenario we'll say Mikey wanders off and Raph notices after several minutes and in classic turtles fashion hijinks ensues. Since this alone time will likely be brief and accidental I imagine Mikey's reaction (since he's played as the very emotional one -in a good way- and also for a little bit of comedic purposes) to be similar to a toddler who get's lost in a store.

Everything's fine before he realizes he's lost then he looks around doesn't recognize where he is or see his brothers he starts to freak out a bit and maybe get a bit teary eyed thinking he's been abandoned when really it's his own fault for getting lost. Y'know just normal baby sibling who's constantly supervised things ✌️

It's a lot of meekly wandering around calling out his brother's names hoping they'll magically appear before him and getting scared by anyone who approaches him, because even though he could definitely kill you since Mikey can throw a whole ass cargo ship around, now that he's scared he can't even lift his weapon high enough to seem like a threat.

This line of reasoning is mainly coming from the episode 'The Gumbus' where when frightened Mikey would rather hide and escape even if he has more than enough skill to defend himself from a normal threat lol.

Final analysis of Mikey alone: He's a frightened baby ready for his big brothers to come charging in to take him home and shower him with affection because while Mikey acts like he's big man on campus he is still bebe

And with that I conclude my long monologue about these turtle boys for another night! I will likely return with another thought soon as Rise has taken up every space square inch of my brain lately lol! Anyways as always these are just my opinions you are free to disagree with me this has just been rattling around in my brain for the past week and I had to share! I love all of these characters and I think Rise did a great job at revitalizing them to a new generation. With that I bid you all farewell! Until next post!

~ Lily's Niche

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freckledgeto · 1 year

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this weeks chapter was very... :/

i don’t even hate the chapter this week like content wise i don’t think it’s a bad chapter i just think that the lead up (the entirety of the culling game) and the pacing and gojos reaction to everything is making it all very. meh to me :/

the whole culling game wasn’t my favorite for a lot of reasons and i don’t necessarily blame gege for it completely. i think that there isn’t an arc better than hidden inventory and there aren’t any fights better than the ones in shibuya, so following both of those really incredible arcs with another that is supposed to be equally as good or better does not seem like an easy thing. (spoilers for CG and new ch. under the cut)

one of the reasons the fights in shibuya are sooo good to me is because they are fights that are deeply rooted in character and character development. maki killing the zenin clan, megumi fighting toji, etc. the itadori-mahito fight at the end of the shibuya arc is entirely a character/meant for character development fight for itadori, with his whole "i am you, you are me" realization/acceptance, and it is arguably the best fight in the manga like it is sooo good.

but there arent any fights built around character in the culling game and like. given that gege has made such amazing, character oriented fights in the past. it is a little bit disappointing. esp since i don’t personally want to just watch/read a bunch of fights repeatedly like i WANT there to be some kind of deeper meaning/purpose to them (outside of trying to end the culling game/free gojo obv). makis fight in the CG is probably the most “character” oriented fight and i was just very eh about it :/ but i love maki <3

the treatment of the women in the CG recently has just turned me away from the manga in general too. scorpion hair remi girl was fucked, uro not having more of a role was disappointing, yuki DYING wasn’t great.

tsumiki was the reason i didn’t stop reading the manga earlier in the arc because i was looking forward to her having her moment for LITERALLY THE ENTIIREEEE ARC. just for gege to do that to her and it reallllyy pissed me off.

as much as i hate how tsumikis arc went, i think i could’ve been a liiittle bit more accepting of it if the whole yorozu-sukuna thing was done well. but i didn’t like that either LMAO. i think the whole “yorozu loves sukuna and she sees how lonely he is etc” is like. a cool concept overall and i think if it was done right it could’ve been a good addition to the plot. even if there was just a little bit more of a flashback of yorozu and sukuna from that era with more information and context i think it would’ve made it a lot better. and i could’ve been like. a tiny bit less pissed about tsumiki. but the fact that it wasn’t a very satisfying arc for tsumiki OR yorozu just made it all very underwhelming to me. esp since tsumiki was what i was looking forward to the most in this arc 🙃🙃🙃

so yeah this chapter wasnt the worst thing in the world its just very underwhelming bc everything that led up to this was really underwhelming for me too :( and gojos reacction in this chapter is. upsetting. esp following the whole yorozu-sukuna thing and the "sukuna is lonely" part of it. like sukuna and gojo are meant to be foils of each other. gojos character is built around the fact that he has those connections and relationships with his friends and the students and he fell in gay love with geto and he "wont let anyone else be lonely" like the relationships he has is WHY HES LIKE THAATTTTT. him having no reaction to nanamis death and nobaras condition and maki and megumi and ALL of his students feels like a very surface level "gojo is a funny silly goofy guy" thing to do. but i would like to believe that gege knows and cares about his characters more than a surface level interpretation but. idk well see i guess. i just would have liked to see the sukuna-gojo being foils of e/o actually being played out narratively in these past few chapters more. but hopefully there'll be more of that during the next arc.

anyways so like. the chapter itself is not necessarily bad i just think that the CG itself was really abrupt and lacked a lot emotionally/character wise (for me at least), and then the pacing of this whole thing has been really off for me so its hard to look at the whole thing collectively and actually like it lol.

i feel like gege is really just trying to speedrun the rest of the manga and move onto something else which SUCKS bc it has soo much potential to be sooooo good. whatever anyways goodnight.

#here is my jay jay kay think piece for everyone im gonna hibernate from the manga again until it gets good again #asks #anon #jjk 222 #jjk spoilers #giving gege the benefit of the doubt sound off in the comments if thats a good or bad idea #gonna chose to believe this whole thing will be explained and dvlpd through flashbacks in the next arc #and yuki will be alive actually and nobara will come back <33 #and tsumiki is alive too🤩🤩🤩🤩#(<delusional)#cant believe they actually did a time jump to dec 24 lmfao gay ass battle #anyways final review of the chapter:#favorite part was ino <3 my boy who ill protect with my life #and shoko <3 my wife #cons too much inumaki

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alovelyburn · 10 months

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Rambles about the Millenium Falcon Arc Part 5

...long time no see.

I actually did start writing this a month ago, but it took a bit to get my brain back in the right place after so long away. BUT I’M BACK hi.

Rambles about the Millenium Falcon Arc Part 5

Even though I do think Isidro is meant to evoke Guts he’s obviously not a 1-to-1 comparison, like he’s much more of a chaos imp than Guts ever was. Also he’s scrawny – I do wonder if he should focus more on ranged combat given how good he is with missile attacks. This doesn’t matter at all, but I’m warming up, lmao.

One of the things Miura talked about when he discussed the reason for the reaction for whatever such and such a character was this idea of designing characters to bring out different shades of Guts in order to make him a more multidimensional character. I think this is something he really excelled at – it’s interesting to see his more mentorly side coming out, not to mention the difference between the way Guts treats Isidro and, say, the way Gambino treated him does highlight Guts’ generally better... nature.

And that’s interesting because I’ve talked a lot before about how post-Eclipse (and pre-meeting Griffith) Guts had taken on a lot of Gambino’s traits and attitudes... which is arguably not the best way to navigate the world. But that’s a side of him that comes out mostly when he’s alone and frustrated – when he’s a kid on the road, for example, or after the Eclipse but before meeting Puck. Which is to say, it’s a self-defense mechanism for when he feels lost or angry and lonely without a lot of outlet. When he has people around he chills out considerably, which makes his attempts at being a lone wolf feel a little self-destructive.

I just love how Guts is completely disinterested unless there’s some kind of fight involved. More than that, though, as a pretty straightforward person I suppose he doesn’t have a lot of interest in interacting with people who are wearing a civil mask and carrying ulterior motives.

As for Serpico, it must be odd watching her change so quickly and so completely. This is the beginning of a longer subplot with him watching being weirded out by it and I guess kind of jealous and kind of saddened that Guts and their companions were able to change Farnese in ways he was unable to and thus make her a much healthier and less troubled person.

Okay so as a sidenote, I do really get tired of this. I understand that Casca and Farnese are the most helpless in the group, but the thing where they are constantly the ones targeted for danger is a little meh. You could argue that in the case of trolls it makes sense – given what we later learn about their actions and breeding habits – but it’s still repetitive because they end up being swept up and pulled into troll haven or whatever together again in the future, so like maybe a different plot point? Like the trolls’ presence could have been announced with a battle scene and then Casca and Farnese could have been separated from the group later without eliciting a kind of “oh this again?” type of response, I’m just saying.

Anyway, you know the deal, me and fight scenes are like, eh.

The introduction of magic definitely changed the tone of Berserk. Miura did mention that he made it difficult to manage and slow to start up for balance reasons, and I do think the balance has been largely maintained but it obviously did change the scale of the series and the battles – same with the Berserker armor, for example. This isn’t actually a problem for me in theory but I think the one thing I wish he had done is... I guess better foreshadow the existence of all these things, right?

Like I don’t expect him to have witches in the BSM arc for example – he hadn’t even thought of it yet, he didn’t even know what the main conflict of the story would be until volume 3. But it would have been cool to have more of a buildup leading into Flora and Schierke’s introduction.

Anyway it doesn’t bother me that much, it’s more like the existence of the Hawk prophecies – a missed opportunity that was probably missed just because he hadn’t thought of it yet.

I wonder if Ivalera is going to like, make more of an impact on me during this readthrough. Because honestly, this is volume 24 right? She’s been with them for almost 20 volumes, and I never remember that she exists.

Ah, Schierke. It’s almost fitting that the kind of lighter/less grim tone came in with her because the anime vibes kind of did, too – green hair and all that. I should clarify that I don’t actually mind the lighter tone or the magic or anything, I just think it’s interesting how quickly Berserk went from like grim gritty low fantasy that borders on horror to like epic fantasy adventures. This arc is kind of a transitional point since the trolls are very old Berserk, but obviously the introduction of Schierke and Ivalera really bridge into new Berserk.

Okay this is a little bit of a tangent, but it’s something I was just thinking about today.

So Casca is, for me, uhh... so many a series has a character in it that’s like a major part of the story but you just can’t warm to them and kinda wish they weren’t there because they feel kind of like baggage. That’s how I feel about Post-Eclipse Casca. Like during the Golden Age she served a narrative purpose right, she’s a foil for Guts and then his love interest and then one of his greatest losses. Cool.

Post-Eclipse though I’m just not sure. Don’t get me wrong, I know she’s involved in the story, like half the story is about getting her to Elfhelm. But – and im not sure whether I can articulate this properly but I’m trying – I feel like even though the story revolves around her, she is nonetheless an extra appendage to the plot. She’s a MacGuffin. Her existence causes people to run around trying to do things but she herself is not involved in those things or even really important to them and there’s no purpose she serves in the story that couldn’t be served by something else without much of a change to the core of the plot.

Guts could get to Conviction any way – he could just go there because of the revelation from Griffith, he could get dragged there by Farnese and then escape, he could just be led there by fate – there’s nothing inherent to the Conviction arc that requires him to be chasing Casca. You could say her biggest contribution to the plot post-Eclipse is as a Griffith-obsession-meter, like if he doesn’t care about her, then he’s in full Griffith-fixation mode, and if he’s focused on protecting her, his Griffith obsession is waning.

I don’t know. There is a large part of the fanbase (most of it in the English speaker quarter, in fact) that perceives her as the third protagonist and really puts a narrative weight on her but I honestly think it’s mostly headcanon and cope, lmao. She’s a MacGuffin.

Anyway the reason this section kinda set me off on it is because Casca gets kidnapped or spirited off to Trollhaven twice in this one arc, and she was sexually assaulted twice since Conviction, and she was sexually assaulted and pushed around and used as a MacGuffin for most of Conviction and while this is somewhat true of Farnese as well at this point (the troll thing anyway)... Farnese then becomes a much more formidable person under her own power whereas Casca languishes, gets her memory back, has multiple unconsciousness-inducing flashbacks and then gets kidnapped.

Hmm, I guess the gist of this rant is just “Casca is a character Miura randomly decided to hook up with Guts for drama and then kept around so that Guts would stay mad, and it shows.”

And of course it helps that Casca ends up spending more time with Farnese than Guts so that relationship isn’t’ really emphasized very much outside of a “what is she to you? Oooohh I think I know....” comment every like 8 real world years.

Anyway if she turns out to be crucial in a way that is unique to her later, I’ll be relieved but for now I’m eh.

/rant mode off

So one of the things I really enjoy about Berserk is this feeling that Griffith’s presence, or even the promise of his arrival, inherently changes the world. Before the Eclipse, apostles became more active, and after it they were obviously more present than they had bene before. And after Griffith’s reincarnation, the barrier between the physical and the astral planes start to blur a bit, bringing the monsters out and strengthening the magical gifts of people like Sonia. His presence is such that he changes the world simply by being there... in various ways. Obviously things like bringing the trolls into the world aren’t great, lmao.

And, of course, Guts understands what’s going on even if no one else does yet.

Establishment shot! I’m sort of fascinated by Flora’s mansion if only because it doesn’t actually exist in the physical world.

Now that I’ve gone into that whole rant about Casca, I will take a moment to say it’d be cool if there turned out to be a reason she randomly went digging in the golem – an instinct through her connection to the Moonkid/Griffith, maybe, or just an instinct in general. It’s not something I expect to come up, to be clear – she’s probably just being a curious child since she’s mentally a toddler. But you know, wishful thinking.

This image really sent me off on a death spiral into one of my more obscure theories, which I’m not going to talk about because I hate being wrong about things I’m not ready to be wrong about. But anyway I did look a bit into the meaning of the pentagram which told me... first of all that the use of the pentagram seems to precede any of the meanings we know to ascribe to it, which make sense. But also, that the points of the pentagram represent either the wounds of Christ, the senses, or five elements.

This sent me into a rabbit hole of reading up on elements as understood in different cultures. What I found interesting was like, it seems most places (most) have the same four elements we still talk about today at least to some degree (like it might be wind instead of air, but you know), but there’s sometimes a fifth thing – spirit or heart, for example, in the case of neoplatonic elements, or void/emptiness for Japanese philosophy.

And then I thought about the way Miura liked to combine the philosophies and religious tenants from different cultures instead of trying to fully replicate a specific perspective in his work. Rather the cosmology of Berserk is a little bit of everything, you know? Which made me think... considering the fifth element in Berserk’s world to be Spirit or Emptiness works very well with the way Berserk is set up but it also tends to imply that there’s a fifth elemental lord, unless the joke is that the element is emptiness so the spot for the lord is empty. I’ll probably yada yada more about this when I get to Schierke’s spell in the village because she does say something interesting that I think bears commentary.

But the way Miura repeatedly put the pentagram in a prominent position - even having a whole panel that was nothing but the pentagram, strikes me as interesting and significant.

But one of the things is this: I believe that all religions in Berserk are faces for the same underlying powers – IoE and the Godhand (and perhaps some other servants who fulfill different functions but we don’t know about that). It explains why the old Godhand look like ancient gods, and it explains why Flora triggers Guts’ brand, which is supposed to react to demonic power. Because in the end, she’s still drawing from the same well but in a different way.

Guts being polite as usual, lmao.

It’s interesting that Flora seems to know she’s going to die soon. I know that you could interpret it as her knowing that she is just getting too old and weak, but considering she tells Schierke that they’ll meet again, which refers to the Casca’s Mindscape sequence 30+ volumes later, I assume she has some kind of plug into the future, albeit in a limited way. Skull Knight seems to be similar.

After this Guts says, “It’ll protect against that” with the image of his beast self raping/killing Casca. Which makes me think this scene fuels people’s assertion that he was possessed when he did that, which he wasn’t. But I do think the possessions prior kind of kicked him in that direction and he was unable to extricate himself from it until he was made violently aware of his own dark side and how dangerous it was.

Okay so now we’re going to talk worldbuilding, its my favorite thing.

Bringing this back.

Okay so, I’m just going to break this down into a form I can better reference, rofl.

The Astral plane is, as Griffith would say, where they become one – the afterlife, and also the home of supernatural forces and beings. When someone senses/believes in something that is technically part of the astral world hard enough the thing becomes visible in the physical world, which is why elves have become recognized in the physical world. Later we’ll find out that the astral world’s... stuff used to be a much greater part of the physical world but started disappearing from the physical realm as people drifted from the perspectives that allowed them to be perceived, which continues right up until Griffith brings them back together.

Then the Realm of Idea (the graphic misnames it) is... it kind of reminds me of the concept of the Root in the Fate franchise (and also several actual world religions nevermind that though). The origin of all existence, the blueprint of reality.

And subrealms:

Physical Realm – where people usually are.

Interstice – a shallow level of the Astral Plane that mostly just looks like the physical realm. This is where Guts and Casca are because of the brand. Also where things like ghosts come from when they haven’t realized or accepted their deaths and headed back to the Vortex.

Nexus – a deeper part of the Astral and the space opened by the Behelit/location of the Sacrifice ceremonies. This is interesting to me because Miura once said that in order to injure an astral body, the person trying to injure them has to be in the astral plane as well. Which brings to mind the arguments over whether the Godhand can actually be hurt – people say they must be mortal to some degree because they protect their bodies – e.g Void deflects Skull Knight’s blow and the only time Femto ever defends himself vs Guts is during the BSM arc when the Slug Count uses the behelit to bring the Godhand out. But it makes sense that they defend themselves during Eclipses or Sacrifice ceremonies because during those moments, the entire area is sucked into the Nexus, which means they can be injured in ways they cant be if they’re just walking around on the physical world. Thus, for example, the impossibility of injuring Griffith in the physical world.

The Vortex – A deeper level of the Astral Plane where the megapowers are, e.g. the Godhand, the Element Kings etc. The sea god from the pirate arc, like that.

The Abyss – where the Idea of Evil hangs out.

This page is often cited as proof that there is a heaven and hell, but Flora really is just engaging in conjecture. That said, it does seem like there are places that are more or less pleasant within the astral plane, at least on lower levels like the Interstice, so I suppose its possible that they exist in the Vortex as well. This is one of the areas where I’m the most conflicted because there’s a pretty strong indication that post-death humans lose their sense of self and join the sea of souls where no one has any individuality or identity, but there’s also this comment about karma and such. Plus we do know that some humans do not just melt into the vortex because Flora herself instead became a Daimon although we don’t find that out for a long time.

Right now, I’m sort of operating with the idea that post-death a person retains a sense of self for a certain period of time, during which their experience is dictated by their karma, before they eventually break apart and join the sea. But that’s just a fan wank it’s really an unknown at this time.

This comment is interesting because it brings to mind Schierke’s later comment that the four elemental kings are the same beings that are named in scripture as the four cardinal angels of God. As I said earlier, all religions are one religion.

What did I say the other day? Even witches refer to Griffith as an angel. This kind of burns my bum because people focus on the demon thing very strongly and tend to either ignore the other side of them or suggest that they’re not really angels but are pretending to be – I think Guts even suggests that at one point. But Guts is biased and Flora would know better than he does.

Not for nothing but Guts is being stupid here. Not too surprising, but like what is he going to do, summon them and launch himself at them? They’d crush him like a bug without moving. Come on, man.

But in all seriousness, Guts’ absolute faith in his ability to find a way to win is one of my favorite things about him, but it’s also what leads to him having a mental breakdown when he cant hit Griffith later. I don’t think he’s ever considered the possibility that there’s something he can’t fight his way through.

This also confirms, btw, that Guts hasn’t given up on revenge just put it on hold until he can get Casca to Elfhelm. Otherwise why would he still be trying to figure out how to get at the Godhand? It’s also the best indication that he isn’t only angry at Griffith but at the entire group of them. I assume it’s not dissimilar to the way Skull Knight runs straight at Void if he’s there, but he wont turn down an opportunity to throw a blow at any of them.

So, one of the things that fuels speculation that Casca might be destined to use that Behelit is that... when it comes out, and they’re talking about it, she seems to be drawn to it for no real reason, right, like she just comes walking toward them making interested noises and Farnese has to pull her away.

The obvious counter would be that she comes out because Flora is about to talk about her and Guts’ mission to protect her, but she didn’t really need to be there for that – people talk about Casca and Guts’ relationship or his intentions with regards to her without her being there all the time.

It’s interesting. It doesn’t necessarily mean anything, but given Miura’s ways it wouldn’t surprise me if it did.

He didn’t listen when Godot told him this before, no way he’s listening now.

But really she doesn’t seem to be trying to tell him to give it up, which doesn’t surprise me – she’s a friend of Skull Knight’s, so I’m sure she understands how pointless arguing with someone in this situation can be.

“The fate associated with it rests in the hands of its master who sent it.” I assume that’s IoE but it does highlight the fact that Slan seemed to be able to affect its reaction/availability to Guts.

When I try to figure out who the behelit might belong to, though, I admit I have a kind of difficult time imagining who it could be aside from Casca or Guts. If it’s Guts, then I would expect it’s there for him to ultimately resist, thus finally breaking the chains of fate that he’s been fighting but accidentally getting further caught in for years. If it’s Casca, on the other hand, I think that ends badly for her. There’s a small chance that such an option could appear for her to give her the chance to turn it down as well, but I’m not sure I believe that she has it in her.

I also can’t think of anyone else that the behelit would really fit in a way that advances the story/moves toward the fulfillment of the narrative promise, really. So I still think the best bet is Casca, though that doesn’t guarantee it obviously. If it’s Guts, on the other hand... well, I guess he’s craving his power right now, isn’t he? I mean in current chapters.

I feel you, Guts.

But no, I gather she means that they’re the servants of the Idea of Evil (unnamed but still), and that they’re mysteries because humans can’t go to where they are, even in astral form, thus they remain mysterious.

Okay translation rant. I wanted to make sure that “If he is the Hawk of Darkness, then he is dreadful” was actually accurate, which it is KIND OF?

What Schierke is saying is

あの者が黙示録に記された五番目の御使いが受肉した姿。。。闇の鷹なのだとしたら者恐るべきことです。

That person is the [incarnated form] of the fifth angel written down in the [Book of Revelation]. If (he’s) the Hawk of Darkness he is.... [dreadful]

So a couple of things. I’m showing dictionary definitions because it’s good to show receipts, lmao.

-The word translated as incarnation is specifically the incarnation of Christ.

-The word used for revelation is specifically the Book of Revelation, though it also means Apocalypse – Utena fans may remember it:

-Finally, the phrase translated here as “dreadful”,

So it does mean dreadful but also fearsome, formidable, like a dangerous or difficult adversary.

So okay one thing I notice about Miura is that he liked to use ambiguous phrasing – the phrase translated as “you’re the only one who made me forget my dream” for example, also means “you’re the only one who let me forget my dream.” Similarly, the word translated as “evil” in a lot of places in Berserk also means “magic” or a supernatural force of some kind, and sometimes it makes more sense that they’d mean magic but the translation still says evil.

I’ll be honest, I think he did it on purpose. Because for example a sentence that means both “let me forget” and “made me forget” reflects the conflict within Griffith himself about Guts’ impact on him and how it affected his goals, which were both burdensome and meant to be his most important thing. So in the discussion of which way it was intended to be read, my main thought is “both.”

How this relates to this sentence is just this: It’s translated as dreadful which isn’t inaccurate but in the context of the discussion Schierke and Flora are having, Schierke isn’t talking about how awful and deplorable the fifth angel is, she’s talking about how Guts has to be crazy to go against him because he’s absurdly powerful. But that doesn’t mean I don’t think her statement is meant to evoke how terrifying he is, either. But even so, and this isn’t the translator’s fault because English doesn’t work the same way Japanese does, but... I can’t help thinking that just saying “dreadful” makes it sound like she’s just saying “he’s awful and deplorable” rather than that he’s a frightening opponent or person. And that doesn’t make sense because Schierke was previously shown to be sort of unsure about whether he would be the savior or (something) else.

It’s also interesting that he doesn’t name some random prophecy but rather the biblical Book of Revelation. And that he didn’t have Schierke refer to Griffith with a normal “incarnation” or “bodied form” or whatever – because there are words for that – but rather as specifically the incarnation of Christ. It does make it very clear (VERY clear) that Griffith here is envisioned as the Berserk equivalent of a Christ-figure as predicted by the Berserk equivalent of the Bible. The fact that he’s served by, you know, apostles should also be a clue about this, but I know people like to suggest he’s an antichrist instead, but I mean...

He’s both isn’t he? I mean I know I’ve talked about this enough but it does make sense that in a world where God is the Idea of Evil, the Christ-equivalent would be a more complicated figure as well.

I just think it’s interesting like... Miura uses a lot of Catholic concepts and imagery in Berserk, but they don’t always mean the same thing as they do in the real-world religion. People often try to read Berserk with I guess real world Christianity in mind, and I get it because of the very obvious parallels, but I do think it’s a bit of a trap.

The thing I wonder a lot – although I guess it’s more like I think about it a lot than that I wonder about it – is the relationship between Skull Knight and Flora. Later I’ll ponder on it in greater depth but it’s interesting to me that even after seeing what happened to Gaiseric she still has this belief that fate can be countered. It’s very different than, say, Skull Knight who kind of lets slip during the death of Elfhelm that fate often cannot be overcome, but that people fight anyway because it’s just the nature of humanity to fight fate (and lose).

Flora’s view echoes Guts’ though, from the Conviction arc when he said he doesn’t believe in causality because he and Casca were meant to die but didn’t. On the other hand... is that really true? Like, Zodd said death would come for him – a death he cannot escape. But Skull Knight was the one who implied to him (right after he left the Hawks) that he could survive it. And if you think about it, given that the demon child/moonkid became Griffith’s vessel there’s a good argument that Casca was always meant to survive, too.

So. I know a lot of people take Flora’s word as gospel, but a lot of characters say things that contradict so they can’t all be right. Though I do think there’s a decent argument that she’s the least biased and her view possibly reflects the attitude that Miura himself brought to the table since he did say he wanted there to be hope in the story, as well.

This has nothing to do with anything but the sylph thing kind of freaks me out. I don’t think I could wear clothing that’s coated in little “living” things, eep.

And honestly, wtf is wrong with Puck? HOW DOES HE NOT KNOW THIS, HE’S FROM ELFHELM.

I have such conflicted feelings about how Farnese and Casca just got some silver shirts (and a silver knife). Because the thing is, I understand that Casca uh probably can’t trusted with a weapon right now, and that Farnese isn’t a fighter at all. But I still feel like some kind of, say, elementally empowered weapon would be helpful for Farnese at least, considering how often these two get kidnapped or spirited away or trapped in dangerous situations.

I wonder what the axe did.

This lead in to the thing where his sword is kind of magical from fighting magical things is pretty interesting to me because... for years the theory was that his sword could hurt Griffith because of that. And it seemed like a decent theory but of course is proven completely wrong on every level. Misdirection! That is, unless the “he cut a hair off of Griffith’s head” theory turns out to be true but that seems increasingly unlikely since it hasn’t come up at all.

By having the brand, Guts and Casca are basically just walking around in the afterlife all the time – at least the edges of it, so I guess they ended up in tune with the dead even though they themselves didn’t literally die. It seems the Apostles also kind of walk that line, which makes sense given their connection to “hell” or whatever. It’s kind of wild to think about the house they’re hanging around in not technically existing in a physical sense.

I mean in fairness he only left her behind once, it was just a really long time.

Anyway, this just reminds me of the time I got that Ask from someone kind of ranting about how Guts has to be with Casca because she’s the only reason he’s still human, which was kind of stupid. Don’t get me wrong, I recognize that protecting her is a strong motivating factor for him, but obviously he was already fighting to remain human for the entire series and I also think... the path he has chosen as a defender and as someone who no longer throws his connections away is as much a part of his continued humanity as Casca herself, specifically – that’s why the Beast always tells him to ditch the whole crew not just Casca.

Also, as I recall, Flora had some knowledge that she was going to be killed soon which... I imagine made it somewhat relieving for her to not have to explain why Casca couldn’t stay there. Also...

It lends this bit a poignancy.

Okay so... I often wonder about the specifics of Flora and Skull Knight’s relationship... and to be more specific whether her role in his life was similar to Schierke’s role in Guts’ life. Was she his spiritual anchor before he got eaten by the darkness? If so then you could say she failed, which Schierke is also in danger of doing in current canon since Guts is losing his shit.

There are so many things that make me sad about Miura’s passing. There’s the obvious human element in itself, but there’s also things like how he talked about doing an arc of the Skull Knight’s history, and how on the DVD for the memorial edition ova, a note came up saying things he says may no longer be applicable. I mean for obvious reasons. But does that mean we’ll never know the deal? I hope not. I want to know what Flora did that got her exiled from Elfhelm and what Skull Knight’s goal really is... I mean this is whiny because everyone has the same concerns and thoughts, but you know, just thinking.

And there it is – bringing to question whether Guts is actually acting in free will or not. Because what I get from this is that Flora asks him why he’s trying to get Guts to do certain things or go certain places, and whether it’s because he feels sympathetic or for some selfish reason, and Skull Knight is basically like, even if I didn’t personally lead him around, he may well be led by causality anyway.

It reminds me of the guidebook noting that Skull Knight seemed to be trying to lead Guts in a certain direction.

I think Skull Knight is ultimately meant to be a cautionary tale for Guts, like... this is what he becomes if he doesn’t let go of his anger and choose his connections and humanity instead... which is not what Gaiseric did back in the day. This does kind of make me wonder to what degree I just talk myself around thinking Guts primarily relies on Casca for humanity though, because one major difference between them seems to be that Casca didn’t die but Skull Knight’s wife or whoever that was did.

Although I guess that’s odd too because Dannan seems to be his ex in some way that isn’t wholly literal.

And this is a really interesting bit for me, because it’s Flora continuing/finishing her comment earlier about God giving them fate – the fate called encounters. So when she tells Schierke God gives us fate and we humans choose it, you can suppose that she isn’t so much talking about Schierke being destined to do such and such but rather she’s talking about Schierke having the option to accept the opportunity to know and involve herself in this story or not.

Also, a final little thought-break – the way the witches here talk about God is interesting to me because it does seem like they buy into the “religion” of the world in a way you wouldn’t necessarily expect, right, like Flora directly references fate being sent by God. They also refer to the God Hand as angels, and later Schierke will explain that the element kings are basically biblical archangels by another name.

And that goes back to all religions are one religion – the same elements with different names and viewed through different prisms but nonetheless the same beings. I kind of think of the different religions within Berserk’s world as... looking at something from one angle vs another angle. Like if you stand in front of something it looks one way and you can only see the front and part of the sides, whereas if you stand to the side you see its side and only part of its front and back, etc. Point being, it’s still the same thing, it’s just that different perspectives or belief systems “see” and name different parts of it.

That thought leads me down some interesting rabbit holes with Berserk though.

Anyway, next up, trolls.

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So Freddy can go Nightmare and Foxy can detect ghosts and other things. We know Bonnie has super hearing while Chica's great with cooking but can they do any weird Magic Things too? Or are they on the more normal side of animatronics (as much as they can be)? I mean, it would make an interesting balance.

I gotta list of general powers and stuffs in my notes, all the way back from Devil's Spine and Ghost Strings :D This list also includes Goldy since I hadn't set a ton of rules inline for him until I saw down to work on DS. I've scanned it and it looks all good. Max and Scrap's are on my work pc, like I said these are oooold notes from 2015 >>;

Buuut they've got the general feel for what I wanted to portray over the fics...years lmao.

Freddy Fazbear: Leader, especially when Goldy's not around or on the floor. This natural commanding force even keeps many human employees in line--or perhaps they're just too scared to start shit around him. Arguably the only one who can get Bonnie to take things seriously which is a priceless skill all it's own. Nightmare mode includes the irksome trio of Fredlets, although he cannot maintain this form in the real world, just the Crying Child's/Limbo. His 'camouflage' helps Nightmare ignore him/assume he's part of the world.

Sturdy, excellent strength and medium stamina. Not terribly fast, and can be clumsy in tight maneuvers. Freddy's the one you can out run, but know he'll have the others attention at the snap of a finger to chase you down.

Bonnie the bunny: Those ears ain't just for show! Bonnie excels at seeing without his eyes--due to his time as Withered Bonnie, where he had to really master his sonar and mapping skills to survive in the second restaurant. Bonnie is a quick-thinker, only his limp slows him down. He follows Freddy loyally, and always moves first in a situation, not unlike a scout that will report back. His dim reactions to light does mean he can have a light in his face and stay focused--and not lose you in his cameras, since they go off sounds, not sight.

Not very sturdy, his limp is a liability if you know which knee to go at. He's more flexible than Freddy though, and despite his joint slowing him down he can shuffle quickly when need be. Bonnie is typically the one making noise so that you're focused on him...and not looking behind you as someone else creeps up.

Chica the chicken: Her delicate wrist joins and crafted endoskeleton under her suit makes her stand out amongst her brothers. She also comes with Cakey, who can act as a second set of eyes wirelessly when in range and show her another angle of a situation. Without her special equipment, she shares some of Freddy's heavy set similarities. She likes moving after/with her bunny brother though.

Similar to Bonnie minus the limp. It's arguable her complex wrists do limit her--she's fearful of straining them, or struggling prey ruining them. Flexible but more studious than reactive Bonnie. Her eyesight is also much better than Bonnie's in terms of far-sight.

Foxy the pirate: Foxy was haunted by an older spirit--teenager or not. He's just as sensitive to bright lights as he is to spiritual fluctuations and appearances. He often 'sniffs' the air, pricking his ears and turning until he narrows in on the strange electrical scent he swears by. He's so good, even the Marionette, Springtrap (Afton) and Goldy have trouble masking themselves from his attuned sixth sense.

Incredibly, dangerously fast moving. He often tosses the concept of surprise out of the window, unable to do sneak attacks like Freddy and instead plowing forward into a situation and attacking the first enemy that presents itself. It's unknown if Alexander taught him this, or Foxy picked it up himself. You can't over power Freddy, and you can't out run Foxy.

The Marionette: The Gift Giver, able to anchor deceased souls to items to house them. Horror incarnate. Likes being a string puller, not a doer unless his hand is forced. He's a powerful being charged by the intense, emotional spirit of the Crying Child, with little regard to others and their needs/opinions, often being outwardly selfish but hides under the guise of protecting the restaurant. Has 5 strings normally, but can make extras, up to five on each limb. They can stretch as far as 30 feet, as can his arms. Can teleport, move things with telekinesis, and connects closed, box shaped things with his box, creating small portals to move items around where he wants them. For example, a pen dropped into his box can show up in the desk drawer in the Office. Can shift between his normal form and Nightmaronnie regardless of his setting, whose strings are replaced with snake like stripped appendages with pointed tips.

Although creepy and off-putting, he is the smallest animatronic by a LOT, and made of brittle wood and porcelain. His speed and quick thinking are his biggest assets, and he's most fluid of the animatronics, able to fit himself in tight spaces in hiding or pursuit. His music box will put him to sleep, and he can be trapped in crates that mimic his box.

Fredbear/Goldy: The lead bear, head honcho. He carries a creator-given string of coding that all other newer animatronics created by the company will instinctively bend to. (Some can fight, but it takes effort and Goldy has plenty of stamina to make them crumple under him. Afton has tried countless times to combat this, with mixed results but never perfection.) He can control any animatronic if given enough time to interface with them. This and the following are automatically granted to the Suit he wears to hide in the day time.

Incredibly, unearthly strength. Primary ideas of attack are punching or biting, his jaws retained their powerful force. Immense stamina, erasing the need for average sleep, his Suits can subsist on much less for much longer. Electricity manipulation and control, the ability to siphon energy from batteries/even other Animatronics and convert to ghostly power. Requires tons of raw material to stay powered, turning a human Suit into a bottomless pit. Limited telekinesis, not a range as big as Marionette but works well enough. Heightened senses, mostly on eyesight and the sixth sense of seeking fellow ghosts and animatronics. Mind sharing--can communicate with his Suit to create more complex plans, since Fredbear is typically fine with asserting his domination instead of working things out through talking.

Regeneration, and self healing. He's been know to fix organs, reset bones, and alter physique to create a stronger Suit to live in. He favors speed over perfection, causing rough scars to appear on both himself and the Suit. And though it may be uncomfortable, the Suit will never know Death or human limitations until they part ways...what happens after is anyone's guess.

Goldy is meant to be top dog in the series but has his limits. He's such a smothering, overpowering force that many humans cannot house him for long without their souls being snuffed out or engulfed by accident. Too much anger echoed between Goldy and his Suit, and he will transform into the cruel, incensed and devastating Nightmare Fredbear, incapable of seeing reason and hungry for blood and revenge when he feels wronged.

#kga #knight guard au #answered #long post #im sorryyy

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so ultimately I really enjoyed season 5 as a whole and think it might be my new favorite season of ml in general since most episode were bangers and the finale eps weren't really any different lmao

but there's two elements that - like other folks I've seen - are kinda bugging me and bog it down a good bit I feel and I kinda wanna ramble about em. ml spoilers below (no salt tho I am complaining somewhat)

the first thing was something I'd caught a glimpse of just before I passed out last night thanks to some lovely blogging from a few mutuals and that I caught onto midway thru the second part of the finale and that is of course the weird attempt at seemingly redeeming? Gabriel in some capacity

now of course he's not at all redeemed to us, the audience, and it doesn't feel like a redemption so much as like. absolving him? but either way like....why at all? 5 seasons (2 specials and a video game too) across like 8 years I feel sorta showed that the guy legit could not be redeemed, especially S5 itself with multiple instances of him doing just. unforgivably heinous things to everyone including that son of his he kept talking about protecting and like for a time in the show maybe I could have seen that path where he was genuinely doing this to improve Adrien's life but that was tossed a long time ago lmao, he's actively tormented Adrien more than anything and that's without factoring in his beatings of Chat Noir, threats towards Marinette, etc.

Gabriel sacrificing himself at the end was something I sorta always knew was coming bc nothing else really made sense. no way he'd go to jail, he couldn't just be absolved of all he'd done and there was no real other option and yet they tried to absolve him anyway?? not to mention how little sense I feel it makes for Adrien to believe this in the least after even just the last few episodes, let alone the season and then some

Paris in general treating Gabriel like a hero sucks - most of the class at least should know better - and while I think there's a chance it'll lead to some juicy drama between Marinette knowing the truth and Lila knowing what she knows, one of them feels bound to take it to Adrien, I'm concerned it'll just be a flat point never to be addressed again

now I've often felt the show is more clever than ppl give it credit for but idk. something about it just feels weird and wrong and not just bc of what it is on the surface - Marinette building a lie into her relationship with Adrien is fascinating and it should absolutely come up in the future, but I'm worried it won't

and the reason I'm worried is bc of how Adrien was handled in the finale - in that he wasn't really handled at all

I understand that the story had him locked up in a cube, I get that he was purposefully tossed aside by that same father he supposedly believes is heroic now but like....why did we get nothing from him past him forfeiting the ring? why did he give up so easily? why was he a total nonentity in the finale of what is, essentially, his arc? in this story that has the most bearing on Adrien, Adrien himself was just....gone for most of it, arguably all of it

I feel like it flies counter to a lot of what the show's been doing especially lately with him in how Adrien is basically stripped of any and all agency by the end of the finale and honestly I hate it lol. him having no say on anything, no knowledge of anything or any real reaction to....anything that happened. we don't see him really react to the lie of what his father did, to Nathalie being returned to health or to the mysterious blonde woman at the pool who may or may not be his actual mom (the storyboards and deleted scene apparently confirm it was, at least, at some point), we don't even see him get his ring back. like I wasn't expecting a reveal at this point - I don't think we're gonna get one tbh - but....nothing??

which is part of why I feel the stuff at the end with him and Marinette in the garden - while very nice and cathartic after 8 years of watching - felt so off, almost hollow. Adrien didn't really get to be a character in the finale and just sort of reappears to finally kiss Marinette again? that's it? he's all smiles and sunshine again after being genuinely, undeniably tortured by his father that he again somehow believes is heroic in some manner? huh??

I think I'd feel better about things if we at least got his reaction to things - if he somehow rolled up on his destroyed house or found Nathalie walking around under her own power or w/e but there's just nothing. like he's an action figure that got lost under the bed for a bit. and again there's a chance we get some of that next season but like, not only do I think we shouldn't have to but I also see it as less likely than the Gabe stuff proving to be a plotline since that feels much more like a lingering presence that sorta needs to be dealt with and honestly Tomoe needs to be dealt with too idk how Kagami could ever go back to her after this

which really has me excited about season 6 more than I was - I admittedly kinda groaned when they revealed there'd be more seasons since I knew about the 5 season arc (especially since main villain Lila did not interest me in the least at the time lol, and still kinda doesn't tbh) but if I'd sorta softened on the decision across the last few years, I've fully turned around with this - so long as they address some of this stuff going forward at least bc I feel like if nothing else there's some really juicy drama and story potential in the Gabriel lie coming undone

ultimately again I loved this season and felt the finale was appropriately crazy - the kwamis in their ultimate forms, Gimmi's appearance, Bug Noir and the fight across the mansion, it all worked really well imo and there was a lot of payoff still in the finale even if I feel they didn't really stick the landing with a couple of rough edges and odds and ends hanging out

I also wanna say that I kinda like the ideas I've seen floating around about how the epilogue might not be what it seems - that Gabriel's wish wasn't so pure in nature, it kinda fits him to warp reality in just such a way after all but idk if that's what's going on here for sure yet. think it'd make a really cool twist if that evil AU special thingy came straight off of this tho, or if we got midway thru S6 and it's like, oh dang we're living a total fabrication!! I love stuff like that lol

also also ngl I am not excited about the whole team being back at all in any capacity lol. think a smaller team - which would now be Ladybug, Chat, Carapace, Rena, Ryuko and Argos maybe - just works better

also also also - addendum that ties into the Adrien stuff - it feels really weird that Chat Noir wasn't present at all during Monarch's defeat right? like. idk that just doesn't sit well with me, like he should have had some impact there, some role. maybe he could have broken out and given Ladybug the ring himself (albeit in a mask or something) or done literally anything. idk. really weird

#noble ml catchup 2k23 #not gonna tag this as spoilers so as to not clog the tag too hard but like. ml spoilers #just me kinda talkin for a bit

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I think he liked that someone from Kinn chose him, it seems I'm the only one who thinks that he would have married Tawan and had him as a trophy husband if his ridiculous plan to be the head of the family worked, because he thinks that in reality his dad would accept that he was gay. But I don't think she was in love with him either.

Hi Anon!

Thank you for the ask! I’m definitely exploiting it to give my over analysis of their relationship (sorry).

Let me just say with this pairing my reaction is first and foremost Thanks, I hate it.

I think you’re totally right though when it comes to Vegas liking that someone tied to the major family chose him. I think he revels in the fact that Tawan chose him and was willing to betray Kinn for Vegas, even if Tawan is unstable and likely not a reliable partner when it comes to complete loyalty. Ultimately, I think that Vegas wants to be seen as smarter, better, faster, stronger than Kinn.

I agree with you he totally would’ve kept Tawan as a husband (partially as a trophy husband because of Kinn) but I think there’s also a lot to unpack there.

So here stops the part where I’m directly responding to your ask, and starts the part where I devolve into my own disastrous meta.

I want to say that I don’t think Vegas feels true, undying, selfless, disney princess love for Tawan. But I do think he genuinely cares for him and on some level loves him. Which is terrifying, because he’s capable of a very twisted, corrupted type of love. And we see what he’s willing to do even when he knows what those emotions are (ex. Using love against Kinn even though Vegas would know what that feels like).

There are a few things that I think point to Vegas’ love for Tawan in the first scene where they reveal the plot mostly that Vegas reassures Tawan that he doesn’t feel anything for Porsche and the fact that he tolerates Tawan hugging him in front of everyone (until he throws a temper tantrum) even though he clearly doesn’t want to be seen being hugged.

The thing for me that makes me think some of Vegas’ feelings were genuine were when he shot Tawan (oohh this show has skewed perceptions of love lmao). Vegas took the time to make Tawan feel comfortable and loved before he shot him. He says thanks for putting up with me, which seems like gratitude for Tawn’s love in this case. It’s admitting a flaw, which for someone like Vegas doesn’t seem like something he would do even when he’s manipulating someone. We see him give the Italian mafia leader a similar pause before death, but again that was in some ways a sign of respect due to his position. Arguably, it could just be a Vegas’ likes to be dramatic before killing people thing, but I think in the case of the mafia leader it was a sign of respect because of his position and ultimately might be a sign of respect for Tawan here too.

Most importantly, VEGAS KNEW HE WAS WEARING A BULLET PROOF VEST AND STILL SHOT HIM IN THE CHEST! Like he had just been hugged by this man and very clearly would have felt the vest. And Vegas, trained killer and torture enjoyer, chose to shoot him in the chest not in any other part of the body. I don’t think he really wanted to kill Tawan even if he was ready to abandon him.

Lastly, and this is me grasping at straws and having read one too many theories for multiple fandoms, the mirror scene with the engagement. It’s possible that mirrors represent Vegas’ true self (and we won’t get into THAT metaphor). The only other time we see Vegas in front of a mirror is his creepy little dungeon scene after he attempts to assault Porsche. And he’s happy in that scene, he’s truly just being him. In a demented, creepy, way but still being him. It’s the first time we really see Vegas as Vegas. Then we have the engagement scene framed in a mirror. We see Vegas (narcissistically) staring at himself in a mirror again, but then Tawan comes up and he doesn’t move. We get to see a more honest side of him where he’s talking about loving Tawan while looking himself in the eye. That whole lying to yourself and everything. I’m still not sure on my feelings on it and I would probably have to rewatch the scene a couple of times to really know my feelings but that’s what my general overview is.

I think the father accepting them was more about Vegas than it was about Tawan. I’m guessing it is because Vegas is queer (which could lead into resentment of the major family being more accepting/less horrible), and wanting his father to accept who he is and who he loves. But it could also have been because of Tawan’s ties to the major family and Vegas wanting his father to see him as a leader who can take down (Kinn) and take over (Tawan) the major family. There’s probably a lot more to unpack there but that’s my initial thought.

Thank you so much for this ask and giving me a place to ramble anon! I hope you have a fantastic day!

#kinnporsche #kinnporsche meta #also thank you for the ask!#😊

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Dolly & Adonis Pt.3

Adonis: [kissing the top of her head when she nudges him with it because just love this gal actually, don’t mind us ‘They’ll have to sleep eventually’ like don’t worry we can still have all the moments in my bed too cos we’ve got all night]

Dolly: [crossing your fingers like maybe the goss is that good though, boy but we’re just laying our head on your shoulders now instead of lowkey headbutting you so you know we’re chilling ‘they probably think you’ve got with all your friends that are girls’ just as an FYI like we’re sure they think we’re not just hanging out but they’re adults so they could hardly be like OH OKAY lmao]

Adonis: [a noise that very much means yeah because they were slags back in the day and they are still extra now, soz ruster but where is the lie actually now we’ve got you together older and given you both pasts and this boy do be judging cos he’s trying to be different and better]

Dolly: [kissing his neck softly because obvs you don’t wanna think about that, soz, ignore us]

Adonis: [playing with her hair because it’s either tickling him in such a nice way as she does that or a water droplet from it got him and made him shiver or both, either way doing a lil happy sigh about it]

Dolly: [‘I’m glad you haven’t’ as we’re watching and feeling this adorable reaction ‘it’s nice, knowing things no one else does’]

Adonis: [‘me too, no offence to [namedropping whatever his friends who are girls are called cos it’s not relevant enough for me to pick some atm]’ when he’s absentmindedly braiding her hair but he knows how to do black boy braids so she’s starting to look like a white girl on holiday in the 00s which is not the mood ever, undoing them like oh, but amused, when he realises]

Dolly: [‘what are you doing to me?’ through laughter ‘cos we can feel how tight those braids are in comparison, as is the point, rubbing our scalp like ow sir, giving his hair a lil pull as faux retaliation here]

Adonis: [‘Accidental gap year prep?’ through his own laughter like if you were having one full of cultural appropriation I’d be doing you a favour, but he could not be running his fingers through her hair faster to get rid of the evidence and then kissing her scalp better everywhere with soft little kisses like I’m sorry]

Dolly: [😲 like I can’t believe you’d accuse me of being that girl with a smirk ‘cos it’s such a posh girl cliche, you would both know many rah types ‘I’d get awful sunburn in Thailand’ like it’s not going to work for so many reasons]

Adonis: [his not jokey enough 🥺 face at the thought of her being sunburnt like no no I hate that, kissing her everywhere she’s most likely to in this hypothetical like her nose and cheeks and shoulders and the top of her chest and her arms etc etc to kiss that all better too]

Dolly: [doing your own happy sigh that turns into a contented sort of hum you’re just carrying on because he’s not stopping kissing you all over ‘be my suncream’ in the way he said he’d be your pyjamas earlier]

Adonis: [really wrapping her up in his body as much as physically possible like yes of course I will, still doing little kisses in places he can reach ‘I’ll protect you from whatever you need protecting from’ in french]

Dolly: [when you’re obviously both still naked so that’s hitting different and you are, ironically, getting more red about it right now; never mind the reaction when he says this because who has ever promised you such a thing? Not even your parents who are arguably the people who are meant to mean that over anyone ‘where did you come from?’ also in french by default after his]

Adonis: [‘I’ve often asked myself that question’ just in french continuously at this point unless I specify otherwise because those bitches and in this mood, when you hardcore feel like you don’t fit in with your fam and you know she feels the same ‘but it doesn’t matter any more, not now I’m here with you’]

Dolly: [‘people like you… I was losing hope you existed’ just maintaining the deepest eye contact of all time right now and not even blinking is how it feels, like you can’t or it’ll ruin the moment]

Adonis: [‘People like you don’t exist, it’s you and you alone’ like there is no plural, because it genuinely feels like he has never met anyone like her before and never will again, maintaining that insane level of eye contact of course]

Dolly: [‘you need to fuck me now’ yes a need, sorry not sorry]

Adonis: [go find your clothes wherever you abandoned them in that en-suite and retrieve the expensive af condoms with all the bells and whistles that you must have made that poor driver stop at some point so you could buy, as if it wasn’t enough you insisted he turned around and went back the way he came, sorry to that man, giving one to her so she can put it on because that’s cute and romantic but also those nerves do exist in the background and how embarrassing if you messed that up]

Dolly: [jump at the chance to do this literally so because you clearly forgot to bring any so good thing he has some and you need to show him you’re serious too, not doing the whole putting it on with your mouth trick but we’re kissing down his stomach to get there and then across both his thighs as we do it, almost having to catch our breath here already]

Adonis: [it’s so mutual, he’s definitely forgot how to breathe, despite the fact he’s doing a hot move of picking her up so that he can lower her down onto this bed with him in an embrace while having more insane eye contact about it, because always highkey]

Dolly: [laying back and maintaining this eye contact to show that you don’t need to look away this time]

Adonis: [saying her name because he has never said it, almost as a GASP like can’t believe this is about to happen omg because all you’ve both been THINKING about for hours and hours by now]

Dolly: [pulling him closer to you a fraction because he said your name and you’re !! but you still want him to be the one to do it so not fully grabbing him here]

Adonis: [do initiate this, however tentatively at first because nerves cannot change the fact you really really wanna do this, obviously such a quiet but !! noise about it]

Dolly: [the intake of breath and widening of your eyes that you eventually have to close, however briefly, because it’s too intense to not blink about it this time, really slowly make a countermove against him, as tentative about it]

Adonis: [we all know he was watching her really intently so he didn’t miss a single second of that reaction because EVERYTHING but he’s gotta close his own eyes for a sec when she does that move because OH OKAY, doing such a deep breath about it to try and steady himself from immediately losing it here ‘of course your insides are as flawless’ like I should have known they’d match your outsides duh, the last word in English because I don’t know the word for flawless so I don’t think you would, boy, especially in the heat of this moment, moving with intent about it cos gotta go deeper to show how much we mean what we just said]

Dolly: [making the loudest noise you have so far because if not now, when, and you can because they are a whole floor down, you’re okay ‘for you’ also in English because just changing fluidly at this point, however the mood takes us and we wanna be talking in English right now, clearly, just in case there was any confusion]

Adonis: [when I know for a fact you weren’t as loud as some of the insane characters we have, love you nerds, nevertheless he’s reacting like it’s the best thing he’s ever heard because it is, looking at her like make that sound again please rn immediately, as his body can’t help but do the most to try and make her]

Dolly: [lifting your body to meet his not only because you wanna give your all to his first time but because it feels as involuntary as his own movements and there’s no way you can just lie here right now, wrap your arms around his back so you can scratch him again with much less chill this time ‘I want it all, I want you’]

Adonis: [it can’t be overstated how into every single thing she’s doing he is, literally wrapping himself around her as dramatically as he did in the be my suncream moment, and kissing her with all the feeling ever but as quick frantic pecks almost because there are so many breaths and little sounds that need to escape on every thrust, cos they literally feel like they’re being forced out of him along with every ruster pet name in french like earlier + darling with the most !! because it’s purely theirs that one, hence he’s saying that one in english too]

Dolly: [when you’re missing every vaguely intended spot with your kisses but you don’t even care because that’s how frenzied you feel right now, trying out the french pet names too, obviously changing princess to prince lol but settling on darling and repeating that one essentially in time to what you’re doing for a moment here, totally lost in it ‘I want to do this the whole [the amount of time he said aka 2 years left at school and the 4 at uni]’]

Adonis: [likewise settling for and repeating calling her darling in different combinations of french and english, with and without my and her name added in different places because can’t shut his mouth, it’s all quiet and intense though so it’s FINE ‘I don’t know how long I can last’ the last word being a moan to really make that point as if she means continue this specific sesh for like 6 years without stopping lol, but he’s also saying it like this feels incredible and I NEED you to know how much I’m dying about it all]

Dolly: [‘I don’t care, I want that too’ pressing your heads together so you’re hearing all these noises and he can hear yours, as well as feel your breath too, how erratic it is ‘you should-’ moving one of his hands to your boobs ‘-touch me’]

Adonis: [kissing her forehead so dramatically, again with the vibe of almost missing it, pulling her hair with his other hand where the kiss landed more, like it’s her hair’s fault his aim is frantically off lol, doing a manic eskimo kiss about it as well, but obviously he’s taking direction here and putting both hands on her boobs to do the most ‘like this?’ back to french just because]

Dolly: [making a !! noise of surprise because the hair pull was also a mood and you need to let him know that you’re down for that too, pushing your body harder into his hands so he’s doing it with more force ‘just like that’ throwing your head back so your body is fully pushing against him the most you physically can]

Adonis: [making the loudest noise he has so far about all of this because how could he not, but getting the memo so not only touching her boobs harder and fucking her harder but doing a hair pull to bring her head crashing back towards his to kiss her really hard]

Dolly: [when your eyes are popping out of your head again, the only reason you aren’t fully screaming is how fiercely you’re pushing your mouth against his, putting most of the energy from the noises you wanna make into making out like you’ll not get the chance to again and he needs to know right here right now how into him you are ‘all I can think about is you inside me’ looking down between you to watch the fucking that is happening, getting even more turned on somehow, really gently in comparison touching yourself, because you can only handle so much more stimulation]

Adonis: [me like thank god your parents are rich and this is an expensive guest bed because don’t break it lads there’d be no explaining that away, because he’s putting all his energy into giving her all the stimulation possible with all the force she wanted, likewise looking, his own eyes widening comically about it and I’m sure going darker green, putting his hand over hers so he can be the one to move it because he simply must ‘I don’t want to be anywhere else but inside you, ever’ in english again because too !!]

Dolly: [despite the fact we were trying to avoid over-stimulation when we did it, we could not be more overjoyed at you taking control of the situation and thus giving us said over-stimulation ‘don’t we look good together’ as a statement as we’re continuing to watch with a ridiculous level of concentration]

Adonis: [not this boy literally dragging her to where there is a mirror because it’s a ruster decorated room, of course there is, to carry on going at this where they can fully see themselves, you can’t escape being their child sir, haha]

Dolly: [my boo says deal with it, honey and she’s so real for that lmao, the way this girl is DYING, gonna have to clean the mirrors when you’re done too because leaning fully against it is the only way we’re staying upright right now I’m soz about it ‘you make me look smaller and paler’ said as a good thing like we love the contrast hen and also we’re clearly straight so the things we did with girls when weird twinning and boarding school were not hitting for us]

Adonis: [‘you are small and pale’ said with the same kind of energy of when he said he’d protect her because duh, fully pushing her against this mirror like she needs a closer look at herself]

Dolly: [‘you like that’ as more of an assurance than an accusation at you, ‘cos we can’t quite believe that you do like us as much as you do]

Adonis: [‘I like everything about you’ no notes, he really does and I’m hardcore back to stopping myself saying ILY]

Dolly: [hard same, you wouldn’t be the first people to say it in the throes of passion and then pretend you didn’t or whatever but for now ‘how many rooms does this place have?’ very much like I’m going to need you to fuck me in every one thank you]

Adonis: [tell her but not just how many rooms because you’re extra, also what rooms and therefore the surfaces/places you could fuck in each because you’re really thinking about and imagining it]

Dolly: [making 🥺!! Eye contact via this mirror because you are being killed by all these added visuals and the way his voice sounds giving you all the details ‘where do you want to most?’ which, by this point, obviously takes you forever to get out for all the usual reasons]

Adonis: [taking a sec to seriously consider this, telling her about the merits of that family room kitchen area they were talking to ruster in earlier having all the windows and doors you could be seen from and the unspoken but clear vibe that it’s the hub of this fam which she would have picked up on obvs like that means we need it for us, but then ultimately picking the lil reading area on the landing because he’s that bitch and it’d be his fave place even more so than the playroom when he can have it to himself and bitches aren’t coming up and down the stairs to get to their bedrooms all the time, I would’ve fully picked the library on the plan but I feel like in the ruster house it’s probably used as Buster’s office instead so he wouldn’t want that lol]

Dolly: [‘there then’ said in the tone of you can do it tonight even though you absolutely can’t/that is the riskiest risk ever because you’re both heavily imagining it all now so you don’t care if you’re talking nonsense]

Adonis: [‘Tonight?’ lowkey as a statement more than a question though because he can’t stop running his mouth about how it’s basically opposite his parents room and how quiet they’d have to be and how they’d have to do it because there’s probably like a couple of armchairs at most/maybe a loveseat and you’re thinking how y’all are gonna end up on the floor, all these deets just getting blurted out in his by now hoarse voice]

Dolly: [‘now’ like you can get down the stairs in the state y’all are in but that’s how badly you’re making us want it with everything you’re saying and how you’re saying it ‘you can have me anywhere’ so seriously because we mean it]

Adonis: [‘Right now’ because hard same on wanting that really badly ‘I’ll carry you’ picking her up and just continuing to fuck her while seeing how close they can get to the door, which won’t be very but it’d be a fun mood]

Dolly: [the way you’d feel like you were genuinely screaming there by how loud you got for y’all and the way you then have to clamp your hand over your mouth with a look like lmao how quiet do we have to be again but it’s only making you more turned on, of course]

Adonis: [putting his hand over her hand that’s over her mouth not because you want her to be quiet remotely ever but just to do it because you both like it, LOOKING at her as you do, obvs]

Dolly: [gesturing with your free hand for him to try getting them to the door again, as if you were the only reason y’all stopped and now that’s been dealt with you can totally carry on]

Adonis: [do try, but you’re definitely gonna fall and end up on the floor which again is a mood and will remind y’all what he was saying about going at it on the floor of the reading area as you go at it here]

Dolly: [‘show me why you own me, give me carpet burn’ could not be more thrilled to be here, getting on our hands and knees to change the position and your view]

Adonis: [when you were just looking at her skin thinking about how pale she is again and thus how vividly that would show up and that was sending you, watching as if you could see it happen, but then she changes up the position and that REALLY sends you, saying her name the way he said it right at the very start in case it wasn’t obvious that he’s absolutely losing it like !!]

Dolly: [‘I’ll beg’ as a whine as you’re shifting even closer to him, so your body is all that he can see at all ‘be my-’ cutting yourself off and instead doing some more whimpering like please]

Adonis: [saying ‘please’ himself as soon as she’s said she’ll beg so it’s not at all clear if he means yeah do it or excuse me I also have to beg you rn, it could be both, the boy is dying here, seriously panting about this because all his energy is in doing the most from this new position and trying to kill her before he dies]

Dolly: [‘you make me wanna live on my knees, all I care about is serving you, being the perfect slave’ because taking it as you want begging and we are too ready because we’re too close from all your efforts ‘nothing matters when you’re inside me, nothing but making you cum’]

Adonis: [pulling her hair from this angle whether it’s to try and pull her closer to him or try and ground himself or just because he knows she’ll be about it, who can say ‘I need you to first’ yes he said need like she did earlier]

Dolly: [we know that will not be difficult to comply to, and good thing you’ve pulled our head up or we’d be getting carpet burn on our face which might be a mood in the moment but a bit tricky to conceal after]

Adonis: [she’s gotta because he’s gotta immediately after because determined not to before despite it being his first time and all of that being ridiculous in the best way]

Dolly: [god bless you boy, you’ve so obviously surpassed anyone’s expectation of a first time here, find us dead on the floor]

Adonis: [likewise dead on the floor but using strength he doesn’t have to pull her to him and just hold onto her for a sec because that was truly insane and god knows how you’re supposed to recover]

Dolly: [hooking the blanket like towel from the bed with your foot and haphazardly covering you both again like it’s okay, we can stay here, attempting to get your breath back and not look like a tomato]

Adonis: [when he can speak ‘What am I going to do with this?’ at this condom y’all really got your money’s worth out of cos can’t just throw it in the bin in here or in the en-suite, not romantic but again practical]

Dolly: [looking down like oh and doing a little laugh ‘tie it up, I can take it out when I leave’ gives you had to do that with the teacher hookups how easily that came to you but we’ll just act like you’re smart for it lol]

Adonis: [‘I don’t want you to leave’ so sincerely]

Dolly: [‘not ‘til morning’ again, resting your head on his shoulder so you’re fully cuddled into him]

Adonis: [shaking his own head like no not ever but without actually saying that]

Dolly: [brushing his hair because it just tickled your face but also because you want to and you know and feel what he meant with that head shake without words needing to be exchanged ‘if you wanna go to your black bin right now, you better at least put pants on’ like if the condom is gone then she has absolutely no reason to leave]

Adonis: [this boy literally getting up to do that rn immediately like okay I shall because picking up what she meant, but instead putting on a dressing gown moment from the back of this bathroom door because it’s clean and your clothes are not, we all know ruster are doing the most for any guests so that would exist ‘wait for me somewhere you want to’ not him giving her the run of this house to remind her of what they were talking about before]

Dolly: [sitting up on your elbows to watch him because this sudden burst of energy is adorable and amusing at the same time, he will also look unfairly cute in that dressing gown, gesturing like aren’t you going to pass me one? ‘I can’t leave the room like this’]

Adonis: [passing her the tiniest hand towel there is, playfully, soz he gotta]

Dolly: [just looking at him like oh really, giving some examples of how little we can cover with that ‘is that what you want?’]

Adonis: [shamelessly pulling it away from her and letting it fall to the floor like that’s what I want, you naked in this gaff ‘very much so, yeah’]

Dolly: [nodding because words fail us and we’re fully STARING at you 😳 but we’ll do it]

Adonis: [‘actually’ as a new idea comes to him, and he closes whatever gap there is between them and undoes this dressing gown, cuddling her to him and wrapping them both up in it like problem solved you’ll have come with me and I’ll have to come with you]

Dolly: [‘you are so-’ and cutting yourself off to kiss him passionately about this because it’s a mix of hot and cute that we’re totally fine with, excuse you]

Adonis: [kissing her back with the same intensity because not over anything that just happened yet remotely, then putting the dressing gown on her and making her all snugg before grabbing a normal sized towel he can just wrap around his waist to go to the bin and wherever else they end up wandering because it’s his house and he would rather than have the question be asked of who has worn the other guest room dressing gown and why, even though it’s literally december]

Dolly: [let’s be honest, y’all have got hot and sweaty enough that cooling down on this brief foray to the bin is going to be appreciated, no matter how cold it is, and it won’t take you long to warm back up when you feel you’ve sufficiently hidden this condom amongst the trash]

Adonis: [mhmm, it’s a mood actually, you can put your cold hands on her when you get back in, always a vibe, and you will just run so, go do that before you start making out with her again]

Dolly: [meanwhile you go chill in the family room of it all]

Adonis: [meanwhile I’m cackling because there’s a film that may or may not still be playing in the playroom along with an untouched charcuterie board and drinks, plus y’all’s clothes in the en-suite and towels all over that spare room, the casual carnage one hookup in, also love that y’all were so ready to do this bin run when that blatantly isn’t the only hookup you’re gonna have, but anyway, come in and grab her, fully picking her up and spinning her around before you do a ‘hi’]

Dolly: [my boo says either fully sort your mess out or wait, and she’s right for that, your parents aren’t gonna sneak and see the carnage though so you have plenty of time, it was his first time, I understand it probably feels pretty grim to you to let the condoms stack up, which it kinda is but you know, reality when you have to use ‘em and it’s not a one and done lol; be spun around like some kind of princess in this dressing gown and koala onto him like that isn’t gonna mean you’re ass out of said dressing gown and his towel is only still up ‘cos you’ve pinned it against his body with yours ‘hi’ with 😋 this energy]

Adonis: [You’ve simply gotta grab that booty with both hands and hold her up that way, I don’t make the rules hun, it goes without saying he’s also kissing her hello like he hasn’t seen her in years]

Dolly: [making a noise that’s like a hey! but in an, I actually enjoyed it, way ‘cos duh, of course asking ‘how are you?’ when you break from this kiss]

Adonis: [‘I’m good’ could be casual but it’s not at all, we know because never gonna be over his first time being like that ‘how are you?’]

Dolly: [scanning his face to make sure he means that as uncasually as he does because important to us ‘me too’ because couldn’t be realer]

Adonis: [smiling big and carrying her to the fridge and gesturing for her to open it and grab him a bottle of water (which is rich people nonsense) because he’d be thirsty after all that but why put her down when she can just be your arms and you can kiss her neck and shit on route]

Dolly: [give him at least his first sip because started all this by feeding you something on that charcuterie that has since been abandoned so it’s a vibe and full circle]

Adonis: [I love that, and so does he so smiling again as he says ‘thank you’ giving heart eyes]

Dolly: [‘thank you’ as you’re wiping his lips to cover them in some of that much needed water]

Adonis: [excuse us ruster fam because he will be putting her on a kitchen counter or something to STARE at her while he takes a massive drink of this water he actually does need ‘Can I get you anything?’ when he’s drank like half of this bottle in a oner I’m sure like such a boy]

Dolly: [time to hide in your hair because you can’t deal with how he’s looking at you or the effortlessly attractive way he’s even drinking water, but gesturing for the other half of this bottle by putting a hand out ‘cos it won’t hurt for you to hydrate either hun]

Adonis: [unnecessary for you to feed her it when you could just pass it to her but of course he will]

Dolly: [doing your best to do this whilst maintaining eye contact whilst also not dribbling it all down yourself]

Adonis: [‘okay?’ genuinely because why would you have done this before so like is this cool am I going too fast or not giving you enough or whatever because not trying to drown or deny her here]

Dolly: [just nodding and showing by doing so you could rest it on your lips if you needed to as well as tip it further into our mouth, which we’re doing to finish with a smile like all good]

Adonis: [there’s no need to kiss her immediately but he is, with such unspoken good girl energy because not even aware how daddy he is being]

Dolly: [it’s okay, we won’t bring our glaring parental issues into this right now, in my head the teacher insisted on it being v vanilla and lowkey kinkshamed to make himself feel better and like it was so normal and he wasn’t any kind of creep, okay, hence we’re holding back in some places although lowkey not noticeably lol]

Adonis: [You’re so so real for that, boo, that’s such a legit vibe for that flop and soz but we know Gabe is vanilla too hence Lulu literally having to hold back there as well, in the sense that he didn’t think he was being and he thinks he’s so cool and such a stud yet he has a v fragile ego and no saucy skills lol, but still, the end result is the same, ugh, these men, anyway, this boy is helping her down from the counter and how he does and how they end up standing reminds him what he said about them owing each other a dance so asking her ‘What’s your favourite song?’ like she asked him his fave colour]

Dolly: [mhmm, the tea, honey, good sex has not been served and the best was probably shit with other girls and you weren’t attracted to them so that can only be so good; ANYWAY, hit him with the type of fave that’s all-time and thus easy to say when asked this question, opposed to a song you’re currently fucking with]

Adonis: [command that to play with your voice because I’m sure all the rooms have speakers or some rich people nonsense, the volume on low even though your parents are a floor up because it’s somehow more of a mood anyway, and have a little dance together]

Dolly: [when you didn’t clock why he was asking until the music starts so now you’re dancing with your arms around his neck with the BIGGEST heart eyes ‘how am I ever meant to leave?’ like stop being so perfect]

Adonis: [it’s hilarious to me he’s in a towel for this, just btw, peak romance happening nevertheless ‘don’t’ with his own big heart eyes but such a serious face, really emphasising that he means it by then playing his fave song after hers ends so they can keep dancing]

Dolly: [ah the confidence of a hot boy, we love to see it, literally because we can shamelessly check you out this whole time, not adding anything and keep on dancing because you don’t have to leave right now so it doesn’t need to be addressed]

Adonis: [nowhere to hide when he’s blatantly getting turned on by y’all’s v romantic dance interlude because not only is he in a towel but we know how close you are proximity wise for said dancing so, thank god he isn’t embarrassed by this]

Dolly: [taking this opportunity to lead him over to the sofas and gently push him down ‘get comfy’ as you’re kneeling down between his legs on the floor]

Adonis: [do, in that exaggerated but yet not a pisstake manspreading and reclining type way only teenage boys are capable of, LOOKING at her but with heart eyes, throwing her down a cushion to lean on like you too because he’s just nice like that]

Dolly: [when that’s so hot you have to rest your head on his thigh to literally gaze up at him for a moment like oh my god ‘where were we?’ like literally tell me because we like it when he does and you know exactly when we mean, we’re making up for letting ourself get interrupted in the car]

Adonis: [tell the tale like it’s your oxford imagine story, just reliving it in as much detail as you can recall given how insane the day has been, manoeuvring her into position as well obviously how they both like him to do]

Dolly: [replicate it as best as you can given the setting has changed and he’s gone from entirely clothed to not at all so you have a lot more freedom than you did, obviously, so you can actually do more but we can both imagine you did and would do this in the car, given the opportunity]

Adonis: [and you don’t have to be silent and bite the inside of your mouth to shit again so enjoy that even if you’re still mostly whispering/being v quiet about your sounds and breathing for the imagining we are in the car mood]

Dolly: [not at all casually looking up at him sporadically to watch his reactions because want to witness all of them and make sure he’s into this too]

Adonis: [idk why him holding her hand throughout this, and fully linking their fingers together and everything properly, not just squeezing hers sometimes and then letting go as is the usual vibe is making me emosh but it is lol]

Dolly: [that probably means you’re sleepy my bae but we love it for y’all, especially as you can’t exactly talk and check in during a blowjob unless you’re using a lot of licking and hands about it]

Adonis: [me like okay they’re in LOVE as if that’s news]

Dolly: [god bless, do give yourself the break of being extra with kissing and licking etc to say ‘I really, really like you’ because yeah, love do be in the air lads]

Adonis: [‘I more than like you’ cos as close as I can get to ILY without being insane rn but I have gotta show his feelings do be escalating because they are]

Dolly: [you can do a lil smirk like that’s purely because you’re down here doing this but we all know it is not, get back to it like get ready to like me even more]

Adonis: [a GASP when she gets back to it ‘I more than really, really like you’ like okay damn, with all the reallys he can keep on adding as per]

Dolly: [pushing yourself as far as you’re capable purely because of what he’s saying and ergo how much you want him to like you]

Adonis: [‘You’re going to have to do this for [adding a year on to the 6 I think y’all already committed to like I absolutely need longer if it’s going to be like this]’]

Dolly: [nodding in a very deliberate way to change where he is in your mouth for every possible sensation like yes, please]

Adonis: [shamelessly adding another year on when she does that for how it feels, barely able to get the number out coherently]

Dolly: [do it some more, obviously, no hiding how buzzing we are, the way we’re humming against your skin here, pressing our legs together and apart for the sensation]

Adonis: [‘Do you want me to promise you a decade?’ because y’all are at 8 now so it’s not a big jump, very much like I will because you’re killing me here]

Dolly: [making the mhmm noise but it doesn’t sound close to casual, the way our voice is managing to crack at the end]

Adonis: [‘I swear it then’ like please stop killing me but also don’t ever]

Dolly: [doing such a big grin at you, even though it means we have to briefly stop what we’re doing, because we gotta]

Adonis: [do one back even though I’m sure you both look cray as hell again, no fucks given, taking the opportunity while she has briefly paused to really dramatically kiss her somewhere he can reach]

Dolly: [‘I love this’ because it’s the closest you can get to saying it again without actually saying it, because the way we’re blurting it out in response to this dramatic kiss is so blatant]

Adonis: [‘So do I’ because it’s mutual sis and I shan’t deny it]

Dolly: [get back to your mission sis, ‘cos it’s also not a lie that you do and you need to go in and make him cum ‘cos he did you]

Adonis: [‘I love everything you’re capable of doing and making me feel’ it’s the pause after I love for me though before he says what he says because for once it isn’t just how long it takes him to get his words out]

Dolly: [when you’re feeling like you might cry or do something else weird in reaction so you just have to go as feral as you can because that’s a lot easier to deal with]

Adonis: [you’re gonna have to cum sir with how feral she’s being, how could you not, at least it’ll distract you from running your mouth cos you won’t be able to speak]

Dolly: [no condom this time, y’all are welcome, slowly get up off the floor and come curl up beside him on this sofa with your head on his knee]

Adonis: [stroke her hair the softest you ever have and lean down to kiss her on the head ‘you couldn’t mean more to me’ so quietly, in her ear almost]

Dolly: [‘you’re so nice’ quietly, stroking up and down your leg, changing the direction of the hair, somewhat distracted]

Adonis: [‘I’m happy, that it’s you I’m having all these firsts with’ like no it’s these moments and experiences that are nice, not me ‘and I rarely feel happy because of another person’ cos usually he feels like he’s gotta make it happen for himself or it won’t]

Dolly: [sit up, carefully, so you don’t headbutt him by accident lol ‘why didn’t you and your ex work out?’ a look like if you don’t mind me asking]

Adonis: [‘it’s a short flight but not one my parents were willing to allow me to make alone often, if at all, purely to see a girl I liked’ with a shrug because that’s pretty responsible of you ruster and therefore he clearly respects it as a move which is apparent in his tone ‘absence didn’t make the heart grow fonder, we drifted apart instead, which I think is what’s actually inevitable, missing each other’s day to day lives to such an extent, until we were just friends, and after a while, not even that’]

Dolly: [nod because you see, even if the debbie downer in you is like well, how often can we see each other because like he said, that sort of thing is inevitable at a certain point ‘at least it was mutual, that way’]

Adonis: [‘I’ll be able to make time for you, consistently, there aren’t any airports involved, they can’t stop me’ because reading her mind there]

Dolly: [‘I’m not going to get in the way of your Oxford plans’ nudging him a little like that’s your priority first and foremost]

Adonis: [‘You’re part of my Oxford plans’ nudging her back like and don’t you forget it missy]

Dolly: [‘there’s things you don’t know about me yet, that might change your mind’ sounds very ominous but obviously it’s true]

Adonis: [‘Well, are you willing to elaborate on what your warning means yet?’ looking at her like genuinely not trying to pressure you on day one but I do wanna know ‘because I’ll try and have an open mind, whenever you want to’]

Dolly: [‘if I don’t, someone else will’ by which we obviously mean Lulu ‘cos who else has the tea and desire to fuck with your life ‘but, no, not right now’ ‘cos we also do not wanna tell you until we have to ‘cos where to even begin lol]

Adonis: [a nod because we know you mean your terrifying sister obvs ‘it doesn’t need to be tonight’ again so genuinely like it’s okay we can just enjoy being together with nobody else interfering in any way]

Dolly: [‘she doesn’t know as much as she thinks she does’ with a shrug like, don’t listen to her if she tries to tell you anything anyway ‘cos god knows how accurate it’ll be]

Adonis: [‘I don’t listen to hearsay, I’ve been victim of enough of it to know how little any degree of nuance matters, regardless of how accurate something may be, if it manages to be in the first place’ because lord knows your fam gets talked about ‘and that’s usually a big if’]

Dolly: [give him an appreciative look because you can’t say any fairer than that ‘you’re very measured’]

Adonis: [take her hand and hold it the same way he did throughout that blowjob but I like to think it’s the opposite one so they’ve now both been held ‘no amount of shared experiences grants your sister entitlement to speak over you, I won’t allow it, it’s your past and I want to hear the details from you, when and whatever you feel comfortable telling me’]

Dolly: [‘I was a different person back then’ after a relatively long pause, thinking about back then with suitable horror and shame ‘Shared experiences were the only kind she accepted- I had to change that, have something of my own, be a person not a twin’]

Adonis: [the way he’s just genuinely and patiently listening ‘change is an inevitable part of more than just my breakups’ because true, soz Lulu y’all have to have your own lives and grow apart like normal siblings naturally do as they get older and twins are just siblings, a rant I’ve had before lol]

Dolly: [Mhmm lol but we all know that is not how Lulu was trying to live and wanted y’all to marry the same man and be those kind of weirdos but no thank you, we had to do something about it even if that wasn’t the only reason, it was lowkey the primary one if we’re being real ‘it was just a lot of change all at once’]

Adonis: [go from holding her hand to putting an arm around her and pulling her in for a snugg in a comforting manner cos again, genuinely soz you’ve clearly had to go through so many life changes in such a short space of time cos would be a lot for anyone to move schools to a new country etc never mind anything else and the whole weird twin vibe]

Dolly: [‘it’s okay’ from within this hug, in a slightly detached way because we don’t really get upset about things, and especially not this, because it’s such a mess where would you even start ‘I didn’t mean to bring the mood down’]

Adonis: [‘it’s okay’ not intending to automatically echo what she just said, smiling when he realises he has, making a noise like silly me, despite how sincerely he meant that it is okay because it is ‘you haven’t done anything wrong’ again so sincere because he’s glad they’re talking, always, whatever the subject is]

Dolly: [a noise like hm ‘cos like lowkey yes I have but you can’t undo this little freakout now ‘do you wanna get the food?’ because you’d probably be hungry by now and it gives you both five minutes to reset]

Adonis: [I agree, because there’s no way he wouldn’t be starving teenage boys always are anyway and that hookup was a sesh and yeah she can take a sec]

Dolly: [compose yourself sweaty, it’s been a day]

Adonis: [go grab that charcuterie board from right at the top of the house hun, you could also grab some clothes so you aren’t still chilling in a towel even if it’s just your own dressing gown from your own room]

Dolly: [when you are back, doing a little awh like how devastating but we’re also doing a little smile and reaching for something as you’re walking by to put this charcuterie down on the coffee table or whatever]

Adonis: [once you’ve put it down also go and get her another drink like some juice or something idk, bring that back and hand it to her and then finally have a lil scran sesh]

Dolly: [ask him how he’s liking school, not like a distant relative but because he’s just started sixth form the term you’ve just had and the jump from GCSE to sixth form is bigger than the sixth form to uni one, arguably]

Adonis: [nerd out about your subjects and all the things you would love about 6th form because your school doesn’t suck remotely lol that isn’t why we’re moving you, this is when it’s gonna really hit the subjects and extra-curriculars you have in common because of course he’ll be asking her how school is going for her and what she’s thinking about studying at uni after her gap year]

Dolly: [it would be v affirming to find out how much you have in common in that very concrete and real way, and you can tell him about your extra school because you’re not pining for the Swiss boarding school and can see this one has a lot of merits, especially to someone like him ‘I just want to keep learning, I’m not like, priming myself for any one career, which is what it seems like most people are doing’ because whatever you wanna do, even if you’ve not fully decided because you hadn’t fully picked any one uni, is very scholarly and like, what do you do with that beyond be an academic or whatever]

Adonis: [don’t mind him accidentally asking her a million questions about her school and lowkey gushing about how good it sounds because we’re not trying to say he purely goes because she’s there either, he’s a nerd and he wants all the tea lol, then when they get onto uni subjects suggesting all the things we know could be a good fit for her that she didn’t pick as well as what she ends up doing, telling her what he knows about the course he’s already decided he wants to do along with all the courses he’s suggesting for her, having a ramble]

Dolly: [can let him know all the goss and the what’s what in turn for all this knowledge, commenting on how you could do the same course as him ‘definitely be a massive stalker then’ like lol imagine but we are fully nerding out here too]

Adonis: [‘After hearing all about your school, I’m tempted to beat you to it’ half joking at this point still because not actually yet suggesting for real he’ll move schools rn but there’s sincerity in how cool he thinks her school is as well as the way he’s looking at her thinking about seeing her every day]

Dolly: [meet his eye as you answer ‘Mattie would be thrilled I finally made a friend’ oh your poor sister, the headaches y’all give her]

Adonis: [‘Would you like to meet my friends tomorrow?’ seriously, like in the time he arranged to move whatever about OG so they could see each other before y’all shamelessly did this instead]

Dolly: [‘would they mind?’ as a genuine question like don’t let me gatecrash something if it should just be y’all but although we’d be a little nervous we’re clearly not like GOD NO]

Adonis: [‘I’ll mind more if any of them do’ like would be genuinely offended at y’all actually if you don’t wanna meet and hang with my new gf]

Dolly: [pick up his hands and squeeze them because he’s so cute ‘I don’t know, I’m used to girl’s school politics, which is entirely unhinged’ because imagine how bitchy it could get, yikes, would have died ‘if you think it’s okay’ like let’s do it then, don’t think your parents are even home, your sister does not talk to you so it’s only your grandparents you need to inform of your plans]

Adonis: [mhmm, I’m sure your parents have gone away together for christmas as if they are a childless couple and aren’t planning to be back until new year’s for their party ‘you could meet the girls first?’ with a smile because fully joking knowing what you’re getting at about unhinged an all girls school would have been based on his experience of 2 sisters]

Dolly: [yeah that’s definitely what we said when we’ve Sulu’d and it is just your parents whole vibe so it stands ‘wouldn’t look strange, at all’ with a smirk like what kind of home-schooled weirdness would that give off like please, no men ‘are we allowed to be…’ trail off ‘cos how to word it, don’t wanna give yourself away here ‘not a secret, around your friends?’]

Adonis: [‘it would look like you’re very intent on stalking me before I have the opportunity’ again joking like you’re gonna grill these gals to see if they are just friends after all, looking at her when she trails off waiting to see how she’s going to word it ‘I’d allow it’ because the only reason for any secrecy is Lulu finding out and unlike the possibility of her finding out via ruster saying something to Sekhmet in passing or whatever cos mums CAN’T keep a secret, his friends don’t know and aren’t gonna tell his sister or hers]

Dolly: [raise your brows like oh you think I’m THAT sort of girl but we are amused too ‘obviously, they’ll have almost as embarrassing dirt on you as your sisters’ giving him a little tickle under his chin vibe like lol, gonna find it ALL out, boy but then you’re back to LOOKING at him lowkey ‘well, if you allow it’]

Adonis: [taking her to where there are baby pics of him whether that’s literally a nearby wall depending how ruster have decorated and how extra they are trying to be or just where some are kept in albums or something, giving a softer and slightly more chill version of when he dragged her to the mirror mid hookup, especially if they are on the walls and he’s literally leading her there]

Dolly: [the memories do be hitting, memories like it was any length of time ago but you know what I mean, hence we’re just looking in our slightly !! silence so we can feel like we’re not bright red when we do reply ‘just as I suspected, always cute’ ‘cos where’s the lie]

Adonis: [picking her up like she’s a kid at the zoo needing a better view but it’s purely for the mems, as is the way she’s not at all casually being pressed against this wall in his arms like when they were all up in that mirror, returning the LOOK she gave him before]

Dolly: [the dramatic intake of breath like it’s in reaction to being pressed into this wall, which it is, but not in that way]

Adonis: [saying cute in french almost like he’s asking her if that’s what the correct word is, but actually he’s v much just calling her cute because he’s still LOOKING at her like no, you for that sound you just made]

Dolly: [‘you know I like you more than anything’ returning this LOOK like we’re not fully dying at how hot you’re being and have some level of chill left, which we’re immediately contradicting by letting our dressing gown fall to the floor]

Adonis: [he is not even entertaining the notion of having chill, catch him making out with her against this wall hardcore from the second that dressing gown is undone never mind waiting for it to hit the deck]

Dolly: [the way we’re coming at this with so much intensity, you would think it’s been forever, ‘cos how it feels, calling him my love in French ‘cos still not technically saying it just being the most affectionate with the pet names]

Adonis: [matching her intensity if not upping it as the only suitable response, calling her my love in english, again almost as if he’s checking he understood her french but blatantly not]

Dolly: [‘god yes’ as a blatant moan but it’s also a response in itself, wrapping your legs around him tighter, kissing down his neck like you expect him to say more and you can’t risk stopping him]

Adonis: [saying her name so indecently in response to all of that + then my love in french like he’s trying it out and not just shamelessly saying he loves her as he lies her on whatever surface in the family room/kitchen/hub of this home is the most scandalous whether that’s a kitchen table or an island because they had that whole talk about in here and he’s gotta soz fam]

Dolly: [lifting your head to first LOOK at him, then to look in the direction of the stairs and then all the windows and doors, literally here panting like you’ve already been at it for a hot minute because so turned on ‘I’m so exposed’ giving him the most in terms of a show, however briefly, like see]

Adonis: [when you can’t help but start touching her, both to feel how turned on you know she is and to expose her more, excuse us everyone, thank god neither of his sisters is going to appear to see her with her legs open where y’all have fam time and eat meals]

Dolly: [‘I missed you’ yes indecently but also just want to say it and mean it too, whilst we’re still vaguely coherent and not an absolute mess thinking of those possibilities which we thankfully aren’t making reality]

Adonis: [‘I got these too’ taking the condoms out of his dressing gown pocket with his free hand and putting them next to her on whatever surface she’s on so they can both think about the possibility of fully hooking up here while he’s doing the most to kill her with all his touches and a makeout]

Dolly: [when your eyes are so heavy with desire but you’re still able to look at him so 😈 about this ‘nothing could be hotter to me than you knowing I’d let you fuck me again, even after my freakout’ showing him by deepening this makeout to the messiest of levels, slamming your hand over these condoms like you gotta put one on him right now immediately]

Adonis: [‘anywhere’ when he can get the word out through this feral makeout sesh y’all are having, even then it’s lowkey a moan, but gotta say it because remember when you said that earlier gal, he do]

Dolly: [‘everywhere’ and calling him sir in french like that makes it less obvious how you feel about this current energy]

Adonis: [letting his own dressing gown fall to the floor to make it as obvious how he feels and how willing he is to do exactly that, just standing there, LOOKING at her lying there, oh the confidence]

Dolly: [when your mouth literally falls open about it ‘I need it, here’ meaning in this room for all the reasons you wanna do it here but could not be pushing our legs apart any wider at this point ‘you’ll think about me every time you come home’]

Adonis: [talking about everything he does here like I’ll think about you when I eat breakfast, when the fam has a family game night, anything and everything they could possibly do here activity wise is being listed so she knows just how much he’ll be thinking about her as he deals with putting this condom on]

Dolly: [just getting more and more impatient and wriggly as he goes, lowkey torturing us but we love it so much ‘thinking about making you hard in front of them makes me so-’ don’t finish but we know by the sounds you make instead of words]

Adonis: [doing the most !! wrist grab he ever has to pull her up and off this surface and against him to kiss as !! for a second about that as a visual before he’s then lying down where she was and pulling her back towards him so she gets to be on top for this hookup because he was before]

Dolly: [the heart eyes and 🥺 sounds ‘let me show you how I should’ve rode your dick in the car’ because another place we’re obviously thinking about now, gasping as we do the tiniest first move because was too ready before we even started, our whole body trembling from the effort of making this last here ‘I should be taking every inch of you every second of every day, love’]

Adonis: [trying to say something, no doubt about how much he wants that but her tiny initiation move from this new angle + her gasp has him shook in the best way and therefore unable to speak or breathe, making a quiet but utterly indecent noise at what she said next, fully 🥺 himself]

Dolly: [‘you want that?’ as if that sounds could have sounded anything like that, purely because you want him to say he does because you do, keeping the very slow and gentle pace of your movements going here, clearly waiting for him to answer to go any harder]

Adonis: [telling her he wants her in every place at her school she gave him the tea about earlier, again like a list, unable to not blurt that out and therefore confess that you’re still thinking about her school and being with her in it]

Dolly: [tell him how you’d have to sneak and what time and all the logistics of that because despite not being a girl’s school I am so sure it’s not easy to be left alone just you two to make this happen, gradually picking up your pace the more excited you get about the prospect]

Adonis: [join in with the whole sneaking, likewise doing more about it the more into it you get, obvs saying ‘our secret’ how he do like again seeing as it won’t be a secret with his friends tomorrow, best of both worlds sis]

Dolly: [kissing him in the coming at you so hard you’re almost getting headbutted way because 1000% what we want ‘it’ll be no secret how much I need you near me always’ like people aren’t going to know the whole story but they’re going to know I’m in love with you, basically]

Adonis: [‘you are my girlfriend’ like that won’t ever be a secret because could not be happier or prouder about it, in his tone and the way he’s kissing her back]

Dolly: [can only respond by fully allowing yourself to do the most and completely wild out for the moment]

Adonis: [go with it and let yourself be the loudest you have for the longest you have]

Dolly: [trying to ground yourself by repeating boyfriend over and over, like that isn’t doing the opposite, go for it]

Adonis: [hitting her with all the you’re my love and you’re my darlings he can get out in both languages + an ‘I need you’ in english like because you are the love of my life, cos likewise can’t chill out about it]

Dolly: [‘have me’ whilst you could not be being more uncontrolled about this, entirely unaware and unconcerned about your surroundings in this current moment]

Adonis: [thank god we’re being kind to y’all on this day because he is unbothered as she is right here and right now about the fact his parents are upstairs and could appear at any point and so could your sisters or hilariously, any pets y’all have, all he cares about is doing the absolute most to do exactly that without either of you falling off this surface]

Dolly: [ah to be young and in love and extra af, that would kill this dead in its tracks so you’re very welcome we’re not letting you be interrupted because it is a holiday so your sisters are actually around but not today thank you ladies, we don’t need that whilst it’s still so new]

Adonis: [they’d both DIE and not in a good way which is what is gonna be happening instead lol, another trip to that wheely bin do be looming cos y’all can’t go on like this]

Dolly: [warning you of as much because we were really concentrating on not losing it before and now we’re not so it’s inevitable]

Adonis: [slightly rude of me to do this to you gal but I do feel like that warning, with how it’s said and everything she’s doing will make him cum before you do, soz but not really]

Dolly: [watching him, BEYOND !! but touching him as equally softly, barely running your fingers over his chest and stomach here]

Adonis: [kissing her as softly like excuse me I did not mean to do that as soon as you said you were going to, in his I could not help it though manner]

Dolly: [just stroking his hair casually and making him hold you ‘I-’]

Adonis: [even though he is DEAD, touching her indecently the way he did when he first lay her down here, as !! because determined to make her as dead but with a softer energy to match what she is giving and because he is full of love ‘I know’ like whatever you were going to say, I’m right there with you on it]

Dolly: [shaking your head like no I can’t the way you do when you were too overwhelmed but then lost it so now you’re just very overstimulated but obviously it’s not a legit no and we’re not making any other attempt to get away from your touch]

Adonis: [‘I’ll be careful with you’ like it’s okay don’t worry, being so gentle yet deliberate with every single touch, again daddy vibes he doesn’t know he’s giving]

Dolly: [‘I know’ like that is what I’m afraid of ‘cos immediately 🥺 over everything you’re doing and how ‘you don’t even know how good you are’]

Adonis: [doing little kisses along with the touching he’s doing the way he did when he was doing all that underwear foreplay before ‘thanks to you I do’ because she lets him know how good he is]

Dolly: [‘I should’ve told you sooner’ like that’s a thing that you could’ve done, somehow, ‘cos it’s that important and you’re that special ‘I’m so glad it’s me’]

Adonis: [‘Tell me every day’ when you’re asking her permission to seriously go to her school ‘let me be with you at [school name I can never remember] as well as oxford’]

Dolly: [the ‘PLEASE’ hitting so hard ‘cos it’s way louder and more indecent than you have ever]

Adonis: [putting a finger from his free hand to her lips, pressing so lightly in contrast to how much more feral he’s now being with the other one because that was EVERYTHING hence he doesn’t actually want her to shh at all he’s just being hot about it and a lil bit surprised in the best way hence he’s fully looking at her like 🥺]

Dolly: [kissing said finger as softly and closing your eyes like you’re being the most sorry but shamelessly you just can’t handle how he looks along with the feral moves he’s making ‘I think you should come’ meaning to our school but shoutout to the operative word always]

Adonis: [really softly kissing her closed eyes and then just everywhere on her entire face tbh like he’s trying to get every freckle ever, again in contrast to his feral antics ‘I will’ like that’s a done deal and ruster have no say lol cos when have they told you no in your life ‘so I think you should imagine me there and cum for me’ in her ear as a whisper as if y’all haven’t been loud and it’s such a secret]

Dolly: [ruster like excuse us, we didn’t even want you going to Dublin on your own sir haha we care not and you’re gonna let him because it isn’t a catastrophically bad idea by any means, catch us doing our own dramatic as hell wrist grab on the hand you’re using to take control and make this happen literally on command for you, keeping on this island or whatever by having your other arm around his neck so you don’t fall and die in that way]

Adonis: [hold her up as you watch this unfold sir, you have a free hand too it’ll be fine, and he really is WATCHING cos he loves to see this]

Dolly: [opening your eyes up purely so you can see this and make EYE CONTACT before you fully die and have to lie down wherever he lets you land lmao]

Adonis: [pick her up and take her back to the sofa or something so she can lie and recover somewhere softer, also on his dressing gown cos 1. It’s soft and smells like him and 2. You can’t be getting your bodily fluids all over this sofa, while you, boy literally find cleaning supplies and wipe down this island, looking accidentally hot doing it how you did drinking water I’m sure]

Dolly: [cuddle up in this dressing gown just peeping at him being all responsible and cute ‘will you really consider it?’ about changing schools, of course]

Adonis: [turn to look at her while still being a domestic goddess lol ‘my mind’s made up, unless it’s only something you wanted in the heat of the moment’ because it could be and that’s valid]

Dolly: [just shake your head because it wasn’t and that’s all that we were checking for you too ‘what do you think your parents' stance will be?’ ‘cos we barely know them, we don’t know how likely or unlikely this is]

Adonis: [‘they’ll share ours once they’re aware what a good school it is, my dad really values academic excellence, which it’s offering, and my mum will be happy if I am’ said like ruster make a good parenting team with that balance because they do]

Dolly: [when you realise it’s way more possible than you had suspected so you’re like oh wow ‘are we crazy?’ because how many life changes and plans do you wanna make in one day guys and like yes you are but if not at this age, when lmao]

Adonis: [‘folie a deux is extremely rare’ with a smile like no no we can’t possibly be because we’re feeling the same way and also you clearly feel like you’re doing the right thing, and if you’re gonna go why waste time when you can probably sort it in time for the new term]

Dolly: [smile at him like that’s okay then and snuggle back down in response like that’s sorted and we don’t need to discuss in any further, doing a little happy sigh]

Adonis: [get her dressing gown from where it was discarded and put it on so you can go and do your second condom bin run since you’ve finished cleaning the island or wherever, practical yes, but also adorable that you’ve switched, then come back once your chores are done and cuddle her obvs]

Dolly: [just cuddle and tell him about the teachers you know that he’ll have for his subjects, about the houses he could be in because I’m sure they all have reps to a degree if not totally uni vibes and promise to give him a tour]

Adonis: [again being a nerd and asking lots of questions, idk if your school you’re at now has houses sir but if it does tell her about all the house points you’ve already earned and if it doesn’t tell her about the sports matches you’ve played and debates you’ve won for the school etc, things like that, just giving that you’re gonna be head boy without fully being your father and making that boast haha, ask her about the teachers she has now that’ll be yours next year, we know the vibes]

Dolly: [‘you’d have got on with Lulu’ which sounds like such a drag written out but we just mean that’s very her vibe aside from also being unhinged lol]

Adonis: [making a noise like she is dragging him, but only playfully, hence also giving a comically OTT face of being way more afraid of her sister and hating that comparison than he actually is or does]

Dolly: [‘I’m just glad she’s sent the tall European away, it’s very tiresome ignoring his invitations’ accidentally letting that slip without realising because you’ve clearly forgot how un-normal that part is]

Adonis: [when you have to just look at her like excuse me? Because taken aback by her saying that but also how casually she said it]

Dolly: [when you could lie and just imply Gabe is just that letchy guy trying it on with his girlfriends’ sister but you do want to be honest with him so you just have to go for it ‘I used to date him as well, when we lived out there’ shrugging to maintain that casual vibe but you sound more sheepish]

Adonis: [‘Before Lulu did’ said not as a question because of course you think that’s what she means because her sister is 100% that bitch to steal her man or date her sister’s ex after they’ve split ‘it must be uncomfortable for you when he’s around’ genuinely like girl I’m soz that sucks and is rude of them to do]

Dolly: [‘It was kind of like double dating but with one guy’ because that’s the least graphic way you can describe what it was but still getting the point across and not lying ‘but yeah, it’s pretty shit’]

Adonis: [‘oh’ not in the shady or omg way that sounds typed just like oh okay I see, because what can you say, your family has done some wild shit throughout these 4 gens and you also need to process that info ‘does she invite him over often?’ genuinely asking because don’t know how often you’re forced to see this man and thus put in this weird position]

Dolly: [let him, it is a lot to process, we’re aware ‘not really, holidays, if she does’ shrug because you’re not privy to her why and why nots anymore ‘she shot herself in the foot for keeping him interested though’ drag but clearly kinda true like you can sleep with twins no now it’s just me soz hun]

Adonis: [‘Well, you’re welcome here for those holidays’ no notes, it’s the exact same energy of wanting her here tonight because her sister is weird and we don’t stan her having to be there and involved, directly or indirectly]

Dolly: [doing the sort of smile that is like that’s a sweet offer but we don’t fully think you’re being serious because we’re so used to being left with her weirdness alone as a default ‘cos boarding and neglectful parents]

Adonis: [looking at her like I do be serious though, cos he is]

Dolly: [‘she does it really loud on purpose’ just blurting that out because you can see he’s serious and you’re like let me tell you what it’s actually like instead of being vague]

Adonis: [snuggling her closer and tighter automatically because we hate that for you, but keeping his mouth closed for rn instead of popping off shading Lulu or calling out how weird that is because nothing she doesn’t already know and he’d rather listen to what she wants to say]

Dolly: [‘like, does she want me to suffer, be jealous or come in and tell her to shut up?’ not you having a free therapy session about it lying here snuggling]

Adonis: [‘It could be any or all of the above’ because you don’t know her sister well enough to comment but you wanna say something so she knows you’re listening and bothered ‘I know you’re concerned about what could happen if she finds out, but I think-’ a pause as you try and phrase this but then you just end up blurting out ‘please stay with me’ a breath like okay oops that was a lot ‘or with your grandparents if I’m being too pushy’]

Dolly: [‘but she’ll be alone’ which is far more concern than your sister shows you when Sulu pops off but I get it, the levels of cunty it would feel to fully run off and have a life when she’s fully iced you out for just having a different, albeit secret, boyfriend to the one she picked for y’all]

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timingmatters · 1 year

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i think you’re very right about all of the ways that the bucktaylor relationship was failing because of buck, but i feel like your analysis missed the key point which was that the relationship was a device used specifically to break buck out of his “clinger” role

in season five is dynamic with maddie was all about the fact that he stays too long and she runs too early, so their respective romantic arcs reflected the changes they both needed to make in order to fix those flaws in their persons

i disagree with the idea that taylor was faultless for the jonah thing but that’s just my opinion and you can have yours, however the important takeaway from that i think was that buck finally realized he needed to walk away from something, even if it was comfortable and easy. i don’t think it matters if taylor was objectively or ethically right, so much as what she did was wrong in bucks eyes and he needed that in order to finally realize he’s capable of walking away. (because both him and taylor were clingers, neither of them could step out of that toxic toxic relationship, someone had to break first)

i do think it was shitty to use the taylor kelly character in this way as nothing more than a plot device for bucks character development but on the other hand this show has given us no evidence that they’re capable of doing anything else with that man’s love interests lmao

I mean i don’t disagree lmao. I agree Taylor as well as any other girl (including lucy) that comes into contact with buck are just plot devices for his character arc. That doesn’t annoy me too much because i think you can say the same with most assemble shows?? If you aren’t a main with your own storyline, chances are you are just a character used for plot device to make the main character grow🤷🏽‍♀️ is not a rule but you surely see it in most assemble shows. Especially when its not an ongoing drama show (like idk gossip girl or money heist). 911 is a show with some season long arcs and ongoing storylines, but overall is a kinda ep by ep has different storylines. Is not one main story like idk stranger things. (Does that make sense??). So them using characters as plot devices isn’t surprising at all?? I just think they could then have made taylor be actually morally wrong??? Or selfish??? I dont even think they were in a toxic relationship lmao. Is as simple as he liked her and she loved him. And he wasn’t willing to put in the work in the relationship the way she was. All their fights were because of him, the moment she pissed HIM off he called it off. Idk if i would call that growing even if he accepted walking away for once.

And like as a buddie shipper i do gotta say, all buck’s growth comes from his interactions with eddie and chris lmao. With taylor he was just an ass.

But beyond all that, me defendinf taylor doesn’t come from me shitting the writers. I think the way she was portrayed as bad and buck as rightful at the end was shitty, but what pisses me off is people’s reaction lol. The way that Taylor’s character is called egotistical by some fans when like arguably she put aside too much of her pride to console buck’s ego. I said it with another anon but is not even the cheating. Buck admitting he asked her to move in because he feared being alone and not out of love was enough for me if i had been taylor to drop glitter in all his shit, key his car, and leave lmao. Which is ooc for taylor because she was such an independent character. What do you mean she didn’t leave???? Or even the fight at the end would have been better if after he said something had to change they would have broken up because taylor could have refused to want change and then buck walks away. But not even??? Taylor had said “fine lets change it” and then buck walked away regardless.

Its the ending for them that made me mad bc even if it needed to happen, it was just bad how they did it. And i didnt even like them together like shdjdjdjd its just the audacity of men like i WANTED to side with buck but I couldn’t bc i know damn well if taylor were my friend in real life i would have keyd buck’s car lol

The relationship wasn’t toxic it just wasn’t right. The same amount of effort wasn’t there by both parties. He fucks up and she forgives him, she fucked up (in his eyes) once and then he immediately dropped her. He said they go in circles with their first fight but???? They had that fight before they were ever in a relationship??? And then he agreed he knew what he was getting into but thought what??? He could change her???? Again it wasn’t toxic. The relationship did not hurt buck like lets be real. It just fucked up taylor. Girl got cheated on, lied to, manipulated into leaving her apt (they talked about selling or giving away things they had doubles of, which means she prob lost some things too), and then broken up the first time she made him mad like lmao. I still wouldn’t say it wasn’t toxic because is not like they were becoming other people or doing worse with each other. The relationship simply wasn’t right. And i wanted them to break up. Just wish taylor had at least call him out or stood her ground at the end, not immediately fold just for her to be dropped either ways.

(But i love what you said about his storyline mirroring maddie’s!!!)

#I WOULD!!!!#would have signed up his phone number to like 2848484848484884 of those automated ad calls #I WOULD HAVE SIGNED UP HIM FOR 38(848484857574 subscriptions like #buck was the enemy here i am sORRY #911onfox #911 show #evan buck buckely

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sypnosis : life with your five lovers has been more than fulfilling, but when you're paired with a student from general studies for a project, your quintet seems a little less full

word count : 4000+

warnings : mutual pining, gender neutral reader, relationship insecurities, bakugo tries but. . .it doesn't go as well as he planned, grammar errors and spelling errors, it's . . . a long one, a bit rushed at the end so uhh pls don't mind that :)

parts : [ 𝐈 ] [ 𝐈𝐈 ] [ 𝐈𝐈𝐈 ]

a/n : so sorry for the long wait LMAO- i know i said my bokuto fic would be coming out today but uhhh ahaha my depression hit me full force this weekend and i didn't even look at the dock because i was too busy sleeping, but uhh enjoy this :D

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- WELCOME TO PART THREE sorry for the log wait 😭 life has been kicking my ass but we're not here to hear me complain, we're here for the tea

- so, it's a couple months after you joined the bakusquad and their relationship. and let me tell you, it has been nothing but amazing. 😩 your days are never quiet and they're always filled with some sort of excitement and love.

- you kaminari and mina often get into trouble for leaving the dorms late at night because you want snacks and there's nothing in the kitchens. you become kirishima's pillow, don't matter about your size or whatever, you are his pillow and you better not argue 🔫 sero always puts on some type of bachata or reggaeton or some spanish song and dances with you in his dorms. and bakugo is your go to person to cook with and just generally annoy or prank since it's so easy to get a reaction out of him.

- and you couldn't have asked for a better relationship. you all are so communicative and talk about your feelings often and how you're doing. every saturday or sunday, you all go to a dorm (usually it's bakugo's cause it's the cleanest) and have a huge cuddle pile and talk about your mental states, how you're doing, what you have problems with, etc etc.

- like damn ok i see you with the mentally and emotionally stable relationship 🤪🤪

- it's so refreshing too because sometimes you'll have a tough week and you jsut need to let it all out, and you can in the comfort of bakugo's dorm and you know none of them will judge you because they're all so open about their love for you (and vise versa)

- anyways, yeah y'all got the best relationship

- you never thought about anyone else in a romantic sense because the squad took up nearly all of the space in your heart. but when you teacher announced one day the general studies kids would be coming in to have a joint project to create gadgets for the hero course students, you had no idea your life would suddenly be turned upsidedown.

- you were paired with a guy named shinsou. he looked friendly enough and returned the wave you sent him with a little surprise as he made his way to the open seat next to you. he seemed surprised when you started a small conversation but he talked to you in a quiet soothing voice. he seemed nice enough and you figured the project would be a breeze since he seemed so nice and offered to meet up over the weekend to start up some ideas for the project.

- you agreed and the two of you met up that lunch period in the library to pre-draft some ideas and get to know each other more.

"i'm surprised you don't mind being seen with me."

his sudden comment took you by surprise as you looked up from your paper with messily drawn gadgets and chicken scratch writing to look up at him, "what do you mean?"

it was true you had never seen him before or even heard of him, but his hesitance to talk to you and open up to you made you feel as though you should.

shinsou rubbed the back of his neck and looked away shyly, "so you really haven't heard anything about me, have you?"

he looked almost guilty to bring it up, his gaze falling to the table in front of him as be played with a strand of his hair.

you shook your head. you never really payed attention to gossip around school, your head always too high up in the clouds to care about rumors and gossip (bakugo often scolded you for being such an airhead and ignorant to your surroundings, but you knew he was just worried about something happening to you). plus, to you, gossip was nearly never right and more often made up and fictitious.

shinsou refused to look up at you, "well. . .i'm known throughout the school as a. . ." he looked hesitant to continue but before you could reassure him he didn't have to talk about it if he didn't want to, he continued, "well, a villain."

he prised his lips as if the words left a bitter taste in his mouth, and all you could do was tilt your head. shinsou didn't seem like a bad person - or a 'villain' as he had said. on the way to the library he held open doors for you and helped you carry some of your books to your locker and even bought you a drink you wanted buy but were a bit short of change on.

"do you think you are?"

"what?" shinsou looked at you for the first time since he brought up the topic.

"do you think you're a villain?" he shuffled slightly in his seat and looked away again from your intense stare. he felt like you were looking straight into his soul from how strongly you were looking into his eyes, he wasn't sure if you had even blinked in the last minute.

shinsou thought back to all the times he's been called a villain or a criminal. it was always unwarranted, a passing comment that seemed like no big deal to others but shattered his heart into smaller and smaller pieces. but never once had he ever thought he was a villain - a monster.

if anything, he used those comments as encouragement to become a hero, to be better than those who always thought he would turn to a life of crime. so, "no... i don't think i'm a villain."

"well, that's that."

shinsou could only stare at you, your smile brighter than any star he'd ever seen, so full of hope and encouragement shinsou felt like he could take on the world. he looked away and rubbed the back of his neck, a shy smile pulling at his lips and a weird feeling blossoming in his chest. how curious. . .

- so yeah, a new friendship 🤪 the two of you started to spend a lot of free time together for the project. you would often meet up during lunches or free time between classes to work some more on the project, all the while getting to know each other in depth. you learned many things about shinsou and spilled many of your own secrets, you laughed together over old childhood stories, and played animal crossing on the rooftop during lunch, your project discarded and forgotten beside you.

- your sudden absence didn't go unnoticed by your lovers, and they grew curious to your whereabouts when you would blow them off for the fifth time that week to "work on your project". now, don't get me wrong, they had conplete trust in you and knew you would never cheat, but they were just curious as to what - or who - was taking up so much of your time.

- so, they did the smartest thing, and followed you. after blowing them off for the sixth time, they decided to follow you to your destination. mina and kaminari tried to be inconspicuous and wear disguises, but the fake mustache, black glasses (indoors, might i add) and hat weren't all too discreet as they thought.

- they followed you through every turn and weave you took and hid behind a corner when you stopped at a vending machine to get your favourite drink. but what surprised them the most was you also bought a coffee. bakugo was most surprised you even thought about even touching the can of caffine because he remembered you telling him you would get terrible caffine rushes that would make you dizzy if you drank coffee.

- but, as you finally reached the rooftop and made your way to a hunched over figure in the corner, it all made sense.

- they all saw how effortlessly you and shinsou acted around each other. they could see the soft looks he would send you when you weren't looking and the way his hand would hover over yours for a split second too long before snapping away as if you were made of lava. but surprisingly, they didn't feel any sort of jealousy or anger, it felt like a piece of them had returned they didn't even know was missing. the sort of feeling that walks through the door unexpectedly but it's wholesomely welcomed.

- the "oh, there you are, welcome back" type of feeling. they were happy you had found someone that made you feel comfortable, arguably more comfortable than you had been with them so far because truthfully, while you had felt welcomed and appreciated in the relationship, it still felt like you were an outsider. the five of them had inside jokes before you came and didn't get them when they came up, the five of them had habits special to each other that inadvertently excluded you. and while they never meant to hurt you (god knows that's the last thing they ever wanted to do), they had. but you knew that wasn't their intention so you held no malitious feelings towards them (not that you think you'd ever could).

- but the way you and shinsou so effortlessly opened up to each other, shared intimate details and secrets with each other - it warmed their hearts. so, bakugo grabbed them all by the back of their shirts and dragged them away, mumbling about giving the two of you space. there was a fond look in his eyes as he looked at the two of you he would be teased about later but would deny.

- it was undeniable bakugo held the softest spot for you. he tried as best as he could to include you in their inside jokes and habits but he was. . well . . . bakugo 🧍🏽‍♀️

- words aren't necessarily his strong suit and he could only hope his smaller actions let you know you were as loved and cherished as any of them there. and you knew, you caught on a little after bakugo had a little "secret talk" with the group (that wasn't really secret at all, he grabbed them all by their shirts and dragged them to a secluded spot while you distracted on your phone) and they all started to explain their jokes and include you in their habits.

- anyways, back to you and shinsou. 🤪 he was aware you were in a ployamorous relationship with the bakusquad and he's heard the way you talk about them and the soft airy tone of your voice and the starry look in your eyes; and he didn't want to get in between that. the last thing he ever wanted was to ruin your relationship for his own selfish reasons.

- so for the time being, he would be okay with watching you from afar, the sweetness of your love so close for him to taste; yet too far for him to savour.

- as more and more times passed, the bakusquad began to notice the lingering looks you would give shinsou when you passed him in the halls and how he would always be waiting for you outside of your class with your favourite drink before leaving you to go to lunch while he went off and . . . well, you weren't sure what he did during his free time, but he never brought it up so you never figured to ask.

- when you fell asleep the next time you all had a cuddle session in bakugo's room, they all talked about it. talked about your obvious feelings for each other and the possibility of including shinsou in their relationship. they spent hours talking about it and still talked about it even when the moon vanished over the horizon and the sun rose. and, in not very smart fashion, bakugo was tasked to confronting shinsou about their conclusion.

- which - almost as if there were an author behind all of this - didn't go as well as any of them planned.

it was perfect, really. almost as if the universe had been listening to their conversation and aligned itself perfectly for this very moment.

you woke up that morning with a terrible stomach ache and chose to stay back in your dorm after bakugo made you a bowl of soup and threatened you to take your medicine. his classes ended a little earlier than usual and, sending his lover's a nod, made his way over to your class, where, lo and behold, shinsou was standing near the door, the familiar brand of your favourite drink in one hand and his own cold coffee in the other.

bakugo wasn't sure what he was going to say when he reached shinsou. he opted to just speak from the heart over rehearsing lines with the others like they had wanted, besides, what kind of lover would be be if he couldn't even do this for you? but, what he didn't take into consideration, was his emotional constipation and tsundere attidute.

"hey, eye bags!" bakugo called out.

shinsou nearly jumped out of his skin at bakugo's sudden loud voice. he looked over with the same eyes of indifference he normally had, but bakugo could see the slight far in them. not at his brash attitude (shinsou could never be afriad of bakugo and confronting him before the sports fesitval was a perfect example of that) but the fear of ruining your relationship with the bakusquad.

shinsou nodded at bakugo when he got close enough. bakugo stood in front of him, his hands still shoved into the pockets of his pants, "they're sick."

it was a simple enough statement but shinsou blinked, "what?"

"y/n." bakugo stated and rolled his eyes as if the answer had been written on his forehead (and it basically had, shinsou was just a bit shocked at his appearance), "they're sick and mina's staying back with them in their dorm."

shinsou rubbed the back of his neck, "oh."

there was an awkward silence as the two boys stood in the vacant hallway. bakugo didn't know what to say and shinsou wasn't sure if he should leave or go visit you for their lunch break.

"i'll go drop this off to them-"

"no." bakugo practically growled, "i'll drop it off. go get eat your lunch or i'll make your face an eye bag."

shinsou flushed a bit in embarrassment. he was overstepping, of course he was. for a minute, having you all to himself for nearly a week straight made him forget about the relationship you were in and this was a smack of reality. you weren't his. you were in a relationship with others, other people who could give you nearly double what he could - everything he couldn't.

handing bakugo the drink, shinsou stalked away to the cafeteria, his cheeks still a light shade of pink. bakugo sighed and knew he most likely made things worse, and he came there originally to make things right.

but fate will work itself out. and what will be, will be.

- so... maybe sending bakugo wasn't the best idea ... 🧍🏽‍♀️

- because now, shinsou started avoiding you. when the two for you worked on your projects together, he would remain mostly silent and only input his opinion when he thought of an idea or needed help putting something together. you had no idea why and you honestly felt a little hurt that he ignored you as easily as breathing.

- you brought this up to your lovers on your weekly cuddle session, knowing they would have brought up your downpour attitude either way. what you didn't notice as your face was burried in denki's sweater were the glares they all were throwing at bakugo.

- "yeah, i wonder what happened..." sero smiled, though obviously strained, as he pet your head and told you shinsou was probably just going through something.

- and it was obvious you were hurt that shinsou had suddenly stopped talking to you because honestly it was kind of hard for you to make friends. a lot of people assumed you thought you were higher than everyone else because you were dating five students from the top hero course, but that obviously is far from the truth.

- anyways, a long time goes by and the two of you still haven't rekindled anything and the squad is getting a bit frustrated because hello??? join our cult lover circle ?????

- so the squad comes up with another solution and this time they don't send bakugo to collect shinsou

- they learned their mistake last time.

- anyways

- so sero goes and gets shinsou and tells him you need him for a little last touch of the project since it was near the due date and you wanted to make sure it was perfect. and shinsou agrees to meet up with you and follows sero.

- sero takes him into an empty classroom and it's pitch black. the windows have been covered with tape and all the lights are off. before he could ask what the hell was going on, the door slams shut and the lights suddenly turn on and shinsou's blinded for a moment.

- and he's met with a very interesting sight.

- mina, kaminari, and kirishima are standing in front of him with sunglasses and hats on, their arms are crossed and they have a blank look on their faces (though he can tell kaminari is about to burst into laughter and nearly does but kirishima jabs him in his side.)

- "uhh..."

- "shut up, eye bags." bakugo calls from behind him. he's leaning against the door with his arms crossed and an obviously pissed off look on his face.

- sero is just standing next to him with a 'sorry pal' kind of smile.

- "what is-"

- "what are your intentions with, y/n?" kaminari shouted suddenly as he slammed his hand on a nearby desk.

- "denki- no." mina pushed him back lightly, "that's not what-"

- "did you not listen last night, sparky?" bakugo rolled his eyes and scoffed lightly.

- kaminari shyly scratched his cheek, "i might have fellen asleep-"

- "he did." sero confirmed, "he drooled on me and everything.

- "I do not drool!!"

- "yes you do, it was like a waterfall, 'ki. "

- "no i don't, right kiri?"

- "well.. only a few drops.."

- "WHAT?! and none of you told me?!"

- "well, y/n kind of made us promise not to tell..."

- "SPEAKING OF Y/N," mina interjected into the conversation, her fingers rubbing at her temples as she wondered when she became the rational one, that was bakugo's job, "why don't we stick to the script, boys."

- kirishima slung an arm over her shoulder and pressed a kiss to her cheek, "sorry, princess."

- "right." sero turned to shinsou and crossed his arms, "you have feelings for them don't you?"

- shinsou tensed. his mind was still trying to comprehend the conversation that happened just a few seconds ago and processing the fact that kaminari drools in his sleep. he wasn't sure how to respond.

- of course he had feelings for you, any rational person who came into contact with you would catch feelings. it was part of your natural charm that seemed to effortlessly draw people in and never let them go. in a matter of minutes, you had simultaneously become his best friend and his closest confidant. often at night he cursed himself for catching feelings for you when things were perfect just the way they were.

- but shinsou couldn't help it. you had treated him like a normal person and weren't apprehensive about his quirk. you gave him a taste of normalcy in his world of anxieties and judgement, and he craved more and more the more time he spent with you.

- so dispte wanting to desparately scream 'yes, i do love her' at the top of his lungs, he looked down at the ground, "no. . . i . . i don't."

- "liar."

- bakugo seethed behind him.

- shoving himself off the wall he was leaning on, bakugo walked closer and closer to shinsou as he spoke, "don't lie. we all see the way you look at them, the way your stupid face lights up with a small smile when they're with you or the airy chuckle you give when they do one of those stupid dances when they make food and-"

- "OK OK I GET IT!" shinsou snapped. mina jumped slightly in kirishima's arms and shinsou sent her a small apologetic look, "you know! I'm in love with them! i've been. . ." he trailed off before collapsing into a chair behind him, his head hanging back and staring into the bright flourescent lights hanging from the ceiling.

- "i've been trying to distance myself from them, to make getting over them easier."

- "they've been hurting, y'know."

- shinsou groaned and hid his face in his hands, "i know. you think i don't see the looks they give me when i avoid them in the halls? it hurts knowing i'm the reason they're in pain."

- "so why are you doing it?"

- "because they have you guys," shinsou sighed as it if we're the most obvious thing in the world, "you all could love them a lot more than i ever could alone. plus, they're so happy with you, i couldn't be the reason to disturb that."

- "you gotta be fucking kidding me." bakugo growled and pinched the bridge of his nose.

- kaminari snorted, "i think i just got deja vu."

- "you could say that again," mina sighed, "i'm heading back to the dorms, this is giving me a headache."

- with his arm still slung over her shoulder, kirishima agreed, "yeah, not sure how we didn't see this from the beginning. i'll walk you back, princess."

- shinsou only stared blankly as mina and kirishima left the room with kaminari in tow, complaining about getting some math work done. never in his life did he feel as confused as he did now

- lost. mans was lost..

- someone get him a map and help him please

- they acted as if they hadn't been the ones to literally kidnap him

- only to nonchalantly walk out the door?????

- sero's voice snapped him back to the remaining two people in the room, "you two really are a match made in heaven." sero smiled at him and shinsou felt head rise in his cheeks, whether it be from embarassment or something else, he didn't know.

- "i'll see you two around" and then he left, leaving shinsou alone with bakugo, who had yet to realease the bridge of his nose from his pinch.

- "you're both a pair of dumbasses."

- "i'm offended-"

- "y/n said the same fucking thing when we confronted them."

- shinsou stayed silent.

- "they felt like their presence would ruin the routine we had set a long time ago when we first started our relationship. . . sound familiar?"

- shinsou rubbed the back of his neck and opened his mouth to speak, but bakugo interrupted.

- "shut up, eye bags, i'm not finished."

- "i dIdNt eVEn sAy aNyTHiNg"

- "sure there were some things we had to adjust to include them in our schedule and a whole new bundle of emotions to incorporate into our lives; but the while point of a relationship is to open up slowly and learn to trust the ones you love. and eventually, we all learned to trust them the same way they learned to trust us; but trust isn't something you can learn over night. it's gradual."

- bakugo sighed, how in the hell did he get stuck in this situation again. at the very least no one got injured this time, "what I'm trying to say is, if y/n makes you happy, then we're all willing to let you in our relationship and put our trust in you.

- "will you put your trust in us?"

- how dramatic ˙ ͜ʟ˙

- so

- :) shinsou decides, fuck it. i deserve the good things in life, and he puts his trust in the squad the same way they all put their trust in him.

- and they decided it was a good time to surprise you too and kill two birds with one stone :)

- so you walk in to bakugo's dorm after a long day of school. you were returning from turning in your project with shinsou, and while the teacher had given you many compliments and basically secured your A, you still felt a bit sad knowing it would be the last time you would see shinsou since your schedules didn't collide and you had ended on a . . . confusing note.

- so you were just looking to cuddle with your lovers on a Friday night and wallow away in your sadness.

- when you walked in the group had been piled in their natural spots on bakugo's bed. mina was giggling with kaminari as they scrolled through tiktok, bakugo was reading a book you had reccomend to him a while a go, sero and kirishima were softly play fighting as they laughed and chuckled.

- everything was as it should be

- until you got to where your spot usually was, cradled between bakugo's warm and firm chest and mina's plush thighs and stomach, and it was occupied by someone else.

- everyone stopped what they were doing, as they watched a smile pull at your lips when you recognised the disheveled pruple hair lazily sprawled in your spot. everyone watched with bated breath as they waited for your reaction and small smiles of their own shining through as they watched your interaction.

- you lifted your hand and smacked shinsou's knee that had been raised up slightly as one of his arms lay behind his head and the other fiddled with a bracelet around mina's wrist, and his lips pulled into a lazy smirk of his own as he watched you.

- "get up, fat head, you're in my spot."

- his smirk only grew.

- "do something about it, hero."

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