I was today years old when I learned that the word for Mandarin in Mandarin is 普通话 and now I'm lmao because it is the most Chinese thing ever for the Middle Kingdom around which the world revolves to call their language "ordinary talk" in contrast to everyone else.
And to be clear I don't mean this disparagingly, I think it's fascinating as an example of how history and language frame word creation, how cultures see themselves, etc. I think it's so cool. I will never forget this word. It will be on my slowly fomenting next list of more of my favorite words in Chinese. It's absolutely intriguing and neat.
But I was also extremely "wut" at first because I know all the characters individually and didn't realize that TOGETHER they meant Mandarin so I just thought DuChinese was being weird about comparing Cantonese with other Chinese dialects (the reading was about dialects). 🤣🤣🤣
Each language has its challenges, but I wouldn't really say any of them are particularly difficult for me, say, to the point of frustration. I have struggled with genders and cases in German, but changing the way I think about them has helped!
😱 - What other languages do you know?
I was raised monolingual, so English is the only language other than my target languages that I'm highly proficient in, but I guess I could say Spanish! I've mentioned this a few times here, but I took Spanish all throughout high school and had around B2 level proficiency by the time I graduated. I didn't keep up with it after I graduated, though, so although I have a working knowledge of it, I'm extremely rusty (and I was never super great to begin with). I always say that Japanese is the language that taught me how to learn languages, so if I could redo those years after I graduated (and even while I was studying!) I definitely would've kept up with it and wouldn't have let it deteriorate to this point. One of these days I'd like to work my Spanish back up to a usable point, but it's not something that's in the cards right at this moment.
really feeling like ms worldwide the way that thus far every single customer i've gotten who hasn't been able to speak english, i've been able to converse with them in their native language. common laura W
mandarin is very easy structure wise like the grammar imo, the hardest part for me is just like speaking/listening wise distinguishing between tones for different words (吗 versus 妈 versus 马; ma versus mā versus mǎ)
(said with the voice of someone whose taken mandarin for years in high school but also with the voice of someone who failed the ap test because they made it completely speaking cuz of covid they changed it up..)
Work has been kicking my ass to the point of burnout but im really hoping i get back into drawing sometime, I really miss doodling
in the meantime tho I’ve signed up for Japanese lessons and they made me do some quizzes to estimate my level, and I can safely say that two years of casual duolingo practicing puts me at juuuuuust shy of JLPT N5 level so idk if anyone’s interested to know
genuinely how does someone succeed in college when you’re so terrified of being incorrect or looking stupid that you can’t even say anything to begin with???? i was trying to go into this year brave and everything but i’ve already been laughed at multiple times by a class full of people older and scarier than me and i already feel like i’m being judged and underestimated for so many reasons that i don’t want to give anyone another reason to look at me that way. but it’s gotten to the point (in the less than one week that classes have been in session; maybe it’s always been at the point) where i’m failing to submit assignments because i know that my teacher is going to see it and think i’m stupid, and never listen to me again, and i’m going to lose all the credibility that i’m trying so desperately to hold onto. and i know from a logical standpoint that it’s the teacher’s job to meet people where they’re at and lift them up from there, but honestly is that much even true anymore?? isn’t college about figuring out who has what it takes and who is going to get left behind???? why did i enroll in fucking honors classes of course i can’t do this???? i’m really not feeling well and i stayed in tonight and missed dinner and i miss home and i miss being able to talk to my friends and not be actively ruining my future. i feel like i’m always good until i’m not, and i don’t realize i need help until i’m too far in and by the time i get it, i won’t need it anymore but i’ll have ruined everything back when things were worse. i’m isolating from my roommate (who hates me because he thinks i hate him) and losing every friend i’ve started to make at the same time as i’m losing all the real friendships that i already have. and my roommate is across the room right now as i’m quietly fucking crying. and i want to go home and i want to be safe. and why is everything so unfamiliar and simple and wretchedly complicated.