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that-foul-legacy-lover · 2 years

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hello i am in need of hurting and being comforted because that catharsis rush is something soothing for my aching heart so anyway i hope u don't mind me dropping this off ^q^

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You've decided, pettily, from this day, that Mister Zhongli is your second most hated person in Liyue.

You couldn't help but grimace at the clock, as the hand stroke each minute into the late evening. Everything should have been in a comfortable routine, you coming home and your giant fluffy roommate greeting you and healing your tired heart.

But then Mister Zhongli had introduced (or rather, had reacquainted) Childe to the pretty, exotic, and strong Traveler. Lumine, she was called, as you remember the look of absolute fascination on Childe’s face as the giant moth excitedly chirped at the prospect of fighting your number one hated person.

At first, you were fine with it, especially seeing how happy and entranced Childe is. Both of you knew that you weren't a fighter, and certainly aren't strong enough for spars with his monster-like stamina. So seeing someone who cam go toe to toe with him and exert his excess energy was something you begrudgingly accepted.

But then, your comfortable routine slowly crumbles like ash in the wind.

Their sparring sessions went around from an hour or two until it slowly began extending to hours upon hours of the day. Even during the times you were at home and available, you were left all alone in the cold space of your shared home.

After the crumble, the echoes of your insecurity began whispering into your mind, of how you aren't needed, aren't welcomed, aren't wanted...

You were being replaced with a pretty, blond, strong, Traveler who can much better take care and handle your beloved roommate.

Perhaps everything had finally settled, like dust parting ways to show you the damage, the day of your birthday. The day starts out normal as you wake up, barely greet Childe before he makes his way out (no doubt to meet up with the Traveler again) and you head off to work, heart filled with hope that this day would be nicer to you.

It wasn't.

As if Fate was mocking your monologue, the day goes by and everything goes wrong with it--numerous mistakes with customers, landing a small accident that costed you mora, a coworker leaving a nasty remark that you held yourself back from replying only to top it all off with your boss firing you.

"Unwanted, unneeded, replaceable."

Your trek home was nothing short of tears and self-depreciation and all you wanted was reprieve and someone, anyone, to prove your thoughts wrong.

When you arrived, you were greeted with silence. You waited, and waited, and waited, until the clock strikes twelve abs the day is no longer yours to celebrate.

You slept it off, heart broken and tears raw.

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Childe arrived back late, whimpering from his carelessness. Zhongli had visited him and reminded him about your birthday. He was busy with Lumine picking the best birthday gift for you and lost track of time.

He crept open the door, head tilting at the darkness and cold floor wood. Usually, the corridor would have been lit up and warm from your cooking and your presence.

It feels like a funeral in comparison. The masked moth creature winced at the thought as he headed straight to your shared room to present his perfect gift. Seeing your sleeping form, he decided to await for you to wake up, seeing as sunrise is near.

At early dawn, he awaits for you eagerly to be surprised at his gift.

At early noon, he tilts his head, but decided you must be tired from work.

At late afternoon, Childe grows worried as he finally shakes your still form. Your head turns and he is glad but the look in your eyes stops him.

Blank, Broken, Indifferent.

There was a cry from him as he cradles you back and forth, not understanding what had caused you to be like this. You opened your mouth and the panicking creature finally understood.

"Shouldn't you be with Lumine?"

*eats this* NOMNONOMNOM ANON THIS IS DELICIOUS

Childe's sorry- he's so, so sorry- he got caught up in the thrill of fighting again, like he always does, and lost track of more and more time until the hours added up to days apart from you. and now it's been too long, because you're rigid and still in his arms when normally you'd be hugging him back and snuggling into his fur.

"shouldn't you be with Lumine?" you repeat tonelessly, unmoving. you're not even angry anymore, just empty and cold, and your blank eyes make Childe shiver. he whines and pulls you closer, trying to convey the love he's missed out on giving you, and despite yourself you lean slightly towards his fluff, more from exhaustion than anything else.

something wet drips onto Childe's shoulder, and he looks up. you're crying. tears are rolling silently down your cheeks, droplets of the knot of emotions you've been dealing with. you don't even seem to notice, instead just standing there quietly, pain written over your features, and Childe's heart breaks, too. slowly he reaches to wipe your tears away, and is relieved when you don't shy away from his touch. he croons as he brushes your cheeks with him thumbs, urging you to let out anything you've been keeping to yourself when he's been gone.

then you say, "am i replaceable?" and Childe feels like he wants to cry, too.

and he does, perhaps not as quietly as you, as he runs his claws through your hair and shakes his head. there's a desperate tone to the way he holds you, purring and crying and cooing all at once as he tries to tell you that no one could possibly take your place. yes, maybe Lumine's good at fighting and is from another world, but she's not you. and that's who he really loves- you, even if you think of yourself as boring and ordinary, or if you're not an expert fighter of a Vision holder. he fell in love with you without any heroic deeds to your name, and he likes it that way.

you're his light in the darkness, after all. for the first time in days, which was his fault, Childe sees you crack a small smile. your movement is hesitant when you hug him back, now so used to being alone, and he knows it'll be a while before you're fully happy again.

that's okay. he's alright with waiting, if he's with you.

#genshin impact #genshin childe #genshin tartaglia #foul legacy #foul legacy childe #childe #tartaglia #genshin tartagalia #chit chat #anon #i could've gone a more angsty route buuuut you wanted comfort so comfort you shall get!!!#i love this concept because straight jealousy doesn't appeal to me but mix it with insecurity and it's RELATABLE #sorry for the lack of posts today yall #i had a mental breakdown shhhhh <333 #short scenario #other's stuff #FAVE #i could do an angst version........ hmmmmmm

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regretisstoredintheme · 9 months

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Request! Rise Donnie x reader that is smarter than him and teases him about it and he's furious about having a crush on them being 100% oblivious that reader already knows and feels the same way. From Donnie's POV. PLEASE and thank you!

I’ve been dreaming of a— HMMMMMM????

Request, you say????

“Anonymous asked: Request! Rise Donnie x reader that is smarter than him and teases him about it and he's furious about having a crush on them being 100% oblivious that reader already knows and feels the same way. From Donnie's POV. PLEASE and thank you!”

A/N: unfortunately, I can’t see any way that this would go well... If any writer wants to take this prompt and make a fluff version of this, have at thee! But I can only imagine this going one way….

Smarter. (A Oneshot) - Donatello x Reader

Warnings: Spoilers for Witch Town & Mind Meld, angst, hurt no comfort, Y/n misreads his feelings, Donnie is a protective father.

The science guy.

That was me.

I “dealt” with things. The “Bill Nye” comments, the teasing, the bantering, the loneliness, the hours of work into every, single, little project I made. I’ve hacked into every camera in NYC. I’ve created sentient machines, reprogrammed a useless movie vehicle to be the best in the world, I would say. Made bombs, robbed and reverse robbed banks, created rockets, bombs, ingenious battle devices, tech-bo, for christs sake! And so! Many! More! But…

Then, there was you.

Perfect, in absolutely every way. Mystic, science, physics, hell — you even beat me in banter, leaving me speechless nearly every time. And you rubbed it in my face. You were the Hamilton to my Aaron Burr. It didn’t help that you checked off all my boxes, Cute and mean, that was my type, and I wanted to bond with you, a fellow scientist who I didn’t have to dumb down my talk for, someone I could be myself around! but you… you made yourself impossible to tolerate. I admit I didn’t take it well, when I realized…

You were everything I wanted to be.

“Awww, is this Shelldon?” You scratched behind one of his many ears, making him trill in delight. “Ahhahawww thanks, dude! Yeah that’a me.” He responded, leaning into your touch. “He’s cute! What coolant do you take, buddy?” You asked, talking down to him like a child, the exact way Sheldon had always reprimanded me for.

“Donnie’s experimenting with different types,” Yes I am, “He’s trying Castrol Radicool Premix right now, it’s been doing good so far.” Thank you.

As expected, you inhale sharply through your teeth, making my attention pique from what I was trying to distract myself with. “Donnie really doesn’t take care of you, huh?”

…

What?

Me?

I don’t take care of Shelldon?

“Uhhh… I don’t know if that’s—“ I can’t bring myself to let him finish, already standing from my gaming chair. I turned on my heel, fury in my eyes as I rolled the seat out of the way, “Excuse me?”

You chuckled, and felt my blood boil, “Awh, Donnie, you’re blushing! Embarrassed?”

“Infuriated.” I answered.

“Oh come off it, I simply think you should try Ethylene Glycol, it would be so much better for winter.” I grit my teeth, every word from your sicky-sweet voice made my skin crawl. I would have attacked you right then and there if I didn’t know you had better tech. Hah, better tech… better than me? ME of all people? No.

I furrow my brows, “That was next on my list..” I seethe, feeling my nerves spike as you poked my shoulder. I hated when you did that, it made my face go red and my palms sweat. Curse this irony, it was like smiling at a joke from a person you’re mad at. It’s frustrating, but involuntary.

“C’mon, we both know you’re not really mad, you’re just frustrated cuz you like me. Look at that blushing nose~!” I felt my voice catch in my throat as you leaned into my face, wanting nothing more than to push you away already. My body was experiencing a freeze response, and I couldn’t even bring myself to push you, it was as if my bones were made of high-grade titanium, the same as my tech.

I clenched my fists, feeling a bit of my confidence return as Shelldon flew to my side. “I thought I was supposed to be the narcissist…” I hissed, feeling my face redden with anger. I’ve never hated anyone more.

Your face turns confused, but I can’t bring myself to realize you might have misunderstood my feelings, “You think you’re so great, don’t you?” Shelldon cowers, I know he hates when I raise my voice, so I lower to a furious whisper, “You think you can just waltz into my lab, my life, and tell me how to run things?” My nails dig into my palm, I resist the urge to threaten you, knowing your body would never be found beneath my hands.

“You think you’re the science guy, don’t you? Think you can correct everything I’ve worked so hard to achieve and just take my place!?” Make me worthless? Be the purple sibling? What next, re-wiring my systems? Taking scraps and making a dark matter accelerator? Drawing on eyebrows to a cheap version of my bandana!?

Your eyebrows knit, “woah, woah, Dondon, I didn’t mean—“ “Don’t fucking call me that!!” I seethe, feeling tears prick at my eyes, I hate how emotional I am when I’m angry, but I’m too deep in now. Some weak, soft shelled part of my heart is telling me to apologize, but I’ve always, always acted with my head. It’s telling me you’re a threat. And you are… aren’t you?

“I’m not a child!” I can feel my heartbeat, eyes wide and I take a deep breath to lower my voice. “And Y’know what, I think I finally found something I’m better at.” I fold my arms, watching a frown finally form on your face.

“Really?” You glared, matching my stiff body language.

“Yeah.” I huff, “Reading the room.”

“You? Read a room?” You scoffed, seeming just as offended, but I didn’t mind. “Ever think maybe, I did all these things — not to take your place, but to impress you?”

“Oh, you made an impression. Alright.” You… wanted to impress me? I turned my back to you, a small voice telling me that maybe, just maybe, I.. wasn’t acting with my head.. “A bad one.” Why am I so defensive? Why did all this get to me? Shelldon was uncomfortable, I was uncomfortable, hell, I bet my brothers could hear this! They’re probably uncomfortable! why couldn’t I be the bigger turtle and just move on?

“Just… leave..” I waved at the air, sinking into my seat with a little regret. Why was it, that around you, I was never enough? That I was just the small, weak soft shell who couldn’t play rough with his brothers? Who broke his glasses? Who practically wore a pillowcase for protection?

Why couldn’t I be cool for you? Why was I talked down to? I’ve accomplished so many things, why is it that nobody can ever look at me in awe!? Why am I always admiring someone else, and never being admired?

“…” the tension in the room began to dissipate, and I listened with baited breath as you closed the curtain behind you. I let out the sigh, and I hear Shelldon round the corner, landing his head on mine, “Well, that could’ve gone better…” he muttered, and I feel something strange as I look down at my workbench— grief? Guilt? Whatever it is, it stuck, no matter how badly I didn’t want to admit it.

“Yeah..” I mutter, twirling my screwdriver, “Yeah it could’ve.”

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A/N: I feel like this might be a lil OOC, am I the only one who gets that vibe?? Idk I’m not really feeling this one, lmk what you guys think 😭 I guarantee another writer could best me at this prompt, and I offer it up to anyone interested! Hope this was ok, anon, really hope I didn’t wreck your day. —

#rottmnt #rottmnt x reader #donnie x reader #rise donnie x reader #donatello x reader #regrettable writing #donatello #tmnt #tmnt x reader #2018 tmnt #2018 donatello x reader #2018 donnie

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kirishwima · 7 years

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Get to know me tag!

Tagged by @teakoii

1. What is your full name? Don’t really want to give out my full name on tumblr lol, but I’m Sophia (and if we’re going for embarrassing details, I got a middle name, Marina lol)

2. What is your nickname? A lot of people call me babushka? Or just shortened versions of my name like Soph and stuff

3. What is your zodiac sign? Cancer

4. What is your favorite book series? Hmmm this is hard lol. The only series I can honestly admit to have read entirely is the Hunger Games :p

5. Do you believe in aliens or ghosts?

Aliens are 10010% real and probably want nothing to do with earth, LOL. Ghosts...it’d be so cool if they’re real. Highly doubt it though

6. Who is your favorite author? Neil Gaiman!! He’s amazing!

7. What is your favorite radio station? Mix fm...any cypriot reading this will know lol

8. What is your favorite flavor of anything? Of anything...probably coffee taste lol. Or mint? One of the two

9. What word would you use often to describe something great or wonderful? Hmm, amazing? Awesome? idk lol

10. What is your current favorite song? Current favourite is probably Andromeda by the Gorillaz :p

11. What is your favorite word? in english?? no clue hahah :p

12. What was the last song you listened to? Despacito ;u;

13. What TV show would you recommend for everybody to watch? Voltron obviously hahah, um, maybe American Horror story? But only season 2 lol, or Black Mirror bc it’s amAZING

14. What is your favorite movie to watch when you’re feeling down? Ghibli films! Especially Howl’s moving castle or Spirited Away! c:

15. Do you play video games? I do but not as much lately bc of uni

16. What is your biggest fear? Uhhh if we’re going for deep dark fears, probably the entire concept of eternity? Like the thought of something having no real start or end just freaks me out lol

17. What is your best quality, in your opinion? I honestly can’t think of one hahah, i’ve been thinking for a couple of minutes and can’t think of anything :p maybe that i’m an easy person to get along with

18. What is your worst quality, in your opinion? I can make a list tbh lol, absolute worst would probably be that i’m way too sensitive & care too much about what other people think

19. Do you like cats or dogs better? NO DON’T MAKE ME CHOOSE I LOVE THEM BOTH I LOVE ALL ANIMALS ;-;

20. What is your favorite season? Summer!! :D

21. Are you in a relationship? Nope

22. What is something you miss from your childhood? I don’t miss much. Maybe not having this much of a workload if anything lol

23. Who is your best friend? Why have one when you can have 3? :D @faded-r0ses @now-this-is-wtf @ibreathestucky <3 <3

24. What is your eye color? Brow

25. What is your hair color? I change it every few months lol, it’s currently black!

26. Who is someone you love? So many people :p Friends, family, a lot of people! c:

27. Who is someone you trust? The squad obviously, but p. much all of my friends?? Like if we’re buddies then that’s it, i trust u lol

28. Who is someone you think about often? Like i think about my dog a lot bc i haven’t seen his fluffiness in like four moths now but i think about a lot of people often? not one set person

29. Are you currently excited about/for something? I’m excited for an eternal slumber tbh, or like, vacation. I need a break TuT

30. What is your biggest obsession? Voltron probably, and also random but history?? i love. history lol

31. What was your favorite TV show as a child? POKEMON! It was a Sunday morning ritual to watch pokemon :D

32. Who of the opposite gender can you tell anything to, if anyone? Anything? Probably no one :p

33. Are you superstitious? Not really?

34. Do you have any unusual phobias? Like, I’m afraid of small white rooms with no windows. Random? Yes. Unusual? Idk?? :p

35. Do you prefer to be in front of the camera or behind it? I’m insecure af but like photography so behind it lol

36. What is your favorite hobby? Writing! :D

37. What was the last book you read? I mean i read a shitton of anatomy and physiology books throughout this year, do those count? Ah and The anatomy of being by Shinj Moon, though it’s a poetry book

38. What was the last movie you watched? Avengers Age of Ultron probably

39. What musical instruments do you play, if any? Nothing, sadly TuT

40. What is your favorite animal?

I can’t. ChoOOSEE I LOVE SO MANY. If i can have like a top 3?? It’d probably be dogs & cats (in one place bc i can’t choose), foxes, and lizards? or i think they’re called newts in english? ya.

41. What are your top 5 favorite Tumblr blogs that you follow?

Definitely @teakoii they’re they’re the literal cutest & amazing artist, definitely 2/3 the squad: @ibreathestucky (she’s a fandom goddess ok <3), @faded-r0ses (aesthetic ho right there), (((our remaining 1/3 @now-this-is-wtf not included bc she nEVER LOGS IN)) Also @wipengineer <-the queen of angst

and @maristine :D Quality voltron content right there~

and also a LOT of other blogs, some that i interact with and some not but i’m too shy to mention/tag >.<

42. What superpower do you wish you had?

Being able to breathe/survive underwater. Bye bye humans. I’m a fish now. You’ll never catch me. Also shapeshifting would b awesome bc. Cmon. You could become a dragon. Take that responsibilities.

43. When and where do you feel most at peace?

The beach, definitely. Or anywhere near large bodies of water? Give me a lake or river any day and I’ll probably never leave lol

44. What makes you smile?

A good ol’ meme never failed me so far, also good music? And coffee, and cuddly animals or just hugs in general i love hugs

45. What sports do you play, if any?

I do some swimming and begrudgingly go to the gym when my roommate drags me along but that’s pretty much it lol

46. What is your favorite drink?

CoFFEE. I swear my blood has been replaced with caffeine by now

47. When was the last time you wrote a hand-written letter or note to somebody?

I wrote a post-it note to my roommate to let her know i’m out does that count?

48. Are you afraid of heights?

Nope! I love looking down when standing somewhere v high or in a plane and stuff lol

49. What is your biggest pet peeve?

I had to google what a pet peeve is TuT

Hm, i can’t really think of anything? Not a lot of things bug me tbh, except for big things like you know, like rudeness or belittling someone else e.t.c

50. Have you ever been to a concert?

Yup!

51. Are you vegan/vegetarian?

Vegetarian!^^

52. When you were little, what did you want to be when you grew up?

Define how little. I had a big phase of wanting to become a Power Ranger so.

According to my family i was always between vet or doctor though lol

53. What fictional world would you like to live in?

Ohh boy, i can’t just choose one!! :p Something magic-related definitely

54. What is something you worry about?

Something? Something? More like everything. TuT

55. Are you scared of the dark?

Nope!

56. Do you like to sing?

No unless I'm either drunk enough or blasting the radio loud enough for no one to hear me hahah

57. Have you ever skipped school?

I was way too much of an ‘example student’ in high school so no lol. As for lectures in uni though..well. ;u;

58. What is your favorite place on the planet?

The bEACH. ANY BEACH. IS THERE WATER AND SAND? THEN I LIKE IT. :D

59. Where would you like to live?

Italy! My dream is to move to Italy after i graduate!

60. Do you have any pets?

Yes, a cute lil’ bean of a doggo~ (or as my friends very...politely say, the chubbiest, clingiest chihuahua they’ve ever met lol)

61. Are you more of an early bird or a night owl?

Both? It depends lol

62. Do you like sunrises or sunsets better?

BOTH I CAN’T CHOOSE TuT

63. Do you know how to drive?

Yup! Although parking is an entire different story LOL

64. Do you prefer earbuds or headphones?

Headphones, earbuds are annoying ;-;

65. Have you ever had braces?

Yes. I pretend that that time period never happened ;u;

66. What is your favorite genre of music?

Hmmmmmm. Hmmm??? I can’t choose? Probably either indie/chill music or punk rock but i listen to so so many genres

67. Who is your hero?

I can’t really think of any celebrities, but if we’re talking people, probably my grandma? She was a badass woman that was raising two kids in her twenties whilst studying & graduating med school, then moved on to become the first woman gynaecologist in her country. Hats off to her really.

68. Do you read comic books?

A bit!

69. What makes you the most angry?

Honestly people that just. Can’t. Respect. Others.

So racist/homophobic/transphobic/sexist people, people who can’t respect someone else, people that think they’re superior to anyone, and also people that hurt/abuse animals- it’s like hey buddy. Find the nearest trash can and shove yourself in it, it’s not nice to litter.

70. Do you prefer to read on an electronic device or with a real book?

Real books. I understand that electronics are more convenient but there’s nothing better than actually holding a book in your hands and flipping the pages ;u;

71. What is your favorite subject in school?

History and english lit! And greek literature! All theoretical subjects really, lol

If we’re talking currently, then it’s embryology, definitely. I love it!!

72. Do you have any siblings?

An older sister and two older brothers

73. What was the last thing you bought?

Bananas and vegetables, lol

74. How tall are you?

165cm. I think it’s 5′5″

75. Can you cook?

I mean i nearly burn the kitchen down every time but i try

76. What are three things that you love?

Animals, good books, coffee

77. What are three things that you hate?

Rude/mean people (aka every single person with a Trump-like mindset, the dude himself included ofc), that’s pretty much it? it takes a lot for me to hate something

78. Do you have more female friends or more male friends?

Female

79. What is your sexual orientation?

Pan! Still figuring out if that’s Panromantic or Pansexual :p

80. Where do you currently live?

Czech Republic

81. Who was the last person you texted?

My roommate

82. When was the last time you cried?

Like, 2 days ago i think? I was stressed, tired and sick lol

83. Who is your favorite YouTuber?

Markiplier! Also a lot of creepy pasta narrators, Lazy Masquerade being my fave probably :p

84. Do you like to take selfies?

Sometimes? it really really depends on my mood lol

85. What is your favorite app?

Instagram probably

86. What is your relationship with your parent(s) like?

Ehh. I get along great with my dad although we don’t talk much, and i get along as well with my mom, just wish she’d realise i’m not a kid still lol.

The older i get the better we get along i guess, although there’s some things we’ll never agree on

87. What is your favorite foreign accent?

I like Spanish accents a lot? I have a lot of Spanish & Portuguese friends and love their accent when they speak english :p Also Russian accents?? Don’t ask me why. I just really like them lol

88. What is a place that you’ve never been to, but you want to visit?

Japan! I really want to go to Japan. And USA? And Canada? Like, big-city places because I’ve never been to one ;u;

89. What is your favorite number?

90. Can you juggle?

I got the balance of a tomato on an acid trip, so that’s a no hahah

91. Are you religious?

Not...really? I was raised in a very religious house and the more i learned about church the more i disliked it. I still like some aspects of it though so...I’m figuring it out still

92. Do you find outer space of the deep ocean to be more interesting?

I CAN’T CHOOSE THEY’RE BOTH SO FASCINATING I WANNA FLING MYSELF INTO SPACE AND DISCOVER THE SECRETS OF THE OCEAN IS THAT TOO MUCH TO ASK

93. Do you consider yourself to be a daredevil?

With enough alcohol in my system and good friends, ya. As it is? Nope, I'm that one friend in horror movies that says ‘hey guys, this is probably a bad idea’ and promptly dies lol

94. Are you allergic to anything?

A bit allergic to dust but that’s pretty much it i think

95. Can you curl your tongue?

No ;-;

96. Can you wiggle your ears?

How do people dO THAT no i can’t

97. How often do you admit that you were wrong about something?

If i know I'm in the wrong i always admit it & apologise, or so i hope :p

98. Do you prefer the forest or the beach?

The forest is fun too but...the beach. Definitely. ((Plus there’s no bugs at the beach! ;u;))

99. What is your favorite piece of advice that anyone has ever given you?

If you try your best and work hard, the result won't matter because you gave it your all and that’s what counts.

100. Are you a good liar?

Not at all, you can immediately tell if I’m lying because I start to giggle lol

101. What is your Hogwarts House?

Hufflepuff!

102. Do you talk to yourself?

Yes. It’s actually funny bc i keep switching between languages when i do

103. Are you an introvert or an extrovert?

Introvert ;;

104. Do you keep a journal/diary?

Not exactly. I try to keep a journal but it usually ends up with doodles and scribbles from class lol

105. Do you believe in second chances?

Most of the time, yes.

106. If you found a wallet full of money on the ground, what would you do?

Honestly? I’d probably leave it, OR if there’s any shops nearby, I’d take it to a store clerk, since the person that lost it is more likely to go into a nearby shop and ask if they’ve seen their wallet than to a police department, I think? idk

107. Do you believe that people are capable of change?

Yes, definitely!

108. Are you ticklish?

Ridiculously ticklish. @now-this-is-wtf and @faded-r0ses have a field trip with this fact T-T

109. Have you ever been on a plane?

Yup!

110. Do you have any piercings?

I got a lot of piercings on my ears and had nose ring but I think it’s healed now? Will be getting a septum piercing in July though~

111. What fictional character do you wish was real?

Lance. Lanceeeeeee. How could i not want my fave ever to be real lol

112. Do you have any tattoos? Not...yet. Soon though!

113. What is the best decision that you’ve made in your life so far?

It wasn’t exactly my decision, but switching schools back in middle school. Would have never met my tiny best friend otherwise, or met some other amazing people & teachers

114. Do you believe in karma?

Not really

115. Do you wear glasses or contacts?

Glasses, can’t put on contacts to save my life

116. Do you want children?

I don’t really like kids so. Ehh.

117. Who is the smartest person you know?

Hmm, people are smart in different ways and aspects. So I don’t know one person who’s the absolute smartest!

118. What is your most embarrassing memory?

Probably that one time at Comic con when i had a skirt-too-short problem (bless my backpack and the random leggings i had shoved in there for some reason lol), or that one time i got asked for an ID when i tried to buy a beer. At a supermarket. And they still wouldn’t believe me until I showed them my university card as well. (Sad thing is it wasn’t even for me lol)

119. Have you ever pulled an all-nighter?

yup, way too often lol

120. What color are most of you clothes?

Black. So many black clothes lol. At least that makes laundry much easier :D

121. Do you like adventures?

Yes!

122. Have you ever been on TV?

Only for some small interview clips when I was in high school lol

123. How old are you?

124. What is your favorite quote?

“Sometimes, I can hear my bones straining under the weight of all the lives I’m not living”

125. Do you prefer sweet or savory foods?

I don’t like sweet stuff much so savoury! OK, NOW, WHO TO TAG~

Squad, do it if you’re up for it @ibreathestucky @faded-r0ses @now-this-is-wtf (esp. you Guac I know you’re a free potato now with exams over~), and my tumblr buddies @maristine, @wipengineer (and yes i know u got the google doc but hey! :D), @the-blood-in-your-bruise and honestly, whoever else wants to do it, that’s it, you’re tagged by me hahah ^^

#get to know me tag #ofc you don't have to do it if u don't want to @the tagged ppl! <3

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cupidsbower · 7 years

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Hiding in the shadow of love

Supernatural 12x15, “Somewhere Between Heaven and Hell.”

Hmmmmmm. <-- that is my dubious hmmmm, in case you were wondering.

You see, the cynic in me says that it’s obviously that time in the season -- time to ramp up the annual Destiel/Drowley/Wincest queerbaiting. Because no matter which way I read this episode, it’s all about thwarted male love.

On the other hand, the slightly-less-cynical-and-a-lot-more-queer me thinks this is delicious. ;)

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Somewhere Between Heaven and Hell, by Kiss

So. Kiss. It seems an unlikely source for the title of this episode, right? Yeah, that was my thinking too. Buuuuuuuut....

Let’s be real, if there’s ever been a character dying to have the stuffing kissed out of him in the most romantic way possible by a heartbreaker with a lock on Heaven’s door, it’s Dean Winchester. I mean... Once you think about it, the song just becomes more and more plausible. Just listen to those lyrics. “I’m so hungry.” Remind you of anyone?

*squints at the subtext like Castiel at Kelvin*

Okay, okay. I’m willing to concede the fact Kiss have a song with exactly this title, and not much else does according to Google, could be a coincidence given Supernatural does actually have actual Heaven and Hell in the show. Maybe the title of the episode is more directly related to show content and less metatextual.

Let’s go with that reading. In this more literal case, what exactly is between Heaven and Hell? We’ve been given two answers to this in canon so far:

Purgatory (ie. season 8, the most romantically queer-coded season of all), or

Earth (ie. Dean/Humanity, who certain people are “loaded pause” in love with).

Are you starting to get the picture yet? Is it rubbing off all over you??????

*makes the Drowley face*

And then there’s that. Drowley. We have Crowley turning up while on the phone to Dean, exactly as Castiel did back in My Bloody Valentine. We have Crowley and Dean flirting, and Crowley slathering on the innuendo so thick Dean will need yet another shower after that little exercise in Liam Neesoning it up.

Like, is there any doubt in anyone’s mind at this point that this is innuendo? Anyone? Anyone? Bueller?

*crickets*

Right. Where was I? Oh, yeah, the non-Kiss reading of the title. Didn’t get us very far away from the queer subtext right? In fact, I think it might be worse than the Kiss reading in that regard. Who knew that was even possible? They’re called Kiss! It’s right there in the band name!

Let’s go with the Incidental music next. While Castiel is being seduced by his very own Ketch, in obvious contrast to what went down with Dean last week, we have Ballad of a Truck Driver’s Wife playing in the background. I can’t find the full version by Lorene Mercer, but you can find a snippet of it here. Suggestive, yes? “When I need you so, that’s when you have to go. That’s how it is when you’re married to a truck driver man. Here today and gone tomorrow...” Not exactly subtle, in terms of the parallels to what’s happening in this episode. I mean we joke a lot about Dean and Castiel being an old married couple, but here the subtext is, basically saying exactly that.

I mean... casual watchers probably don’t catch the background music? Don’t remember the Kiss song? Didn’t notice season 8′s trope-fest? Assume Crowley is a queer villian who is just joking about wanting to rub off on Dean????

I guess.

Anyway, I was really interested in this plot point for Castiel for several reasons. Firstly, Kelvin has much better bait than Ketch did, and is much more successful at luring Castiel into at least listening to the full pitch from Joshua. I’m just as hooked as Cas and want to know more, especially the catch. Secondly, this sets Castiel up perfectly to have to make a deliberate choice about which family he belongs to, without being coerced, or the decision made for him. This is something I want to see very much, so I’m super keen to see how this plays out. Third, there’s so much emphasis on the murder of the nephilim now, that I’m increaasingly convinced it’s going to live, and we’re heading into season 13 with Three Male-Shaped People and a Little Nephilim as the main story arc.

A girl can dream.

*Imagines Dean, Castiel and either Crowley or Sam co-parenting the little tyke, who probably grows into a teenager in about three episodes and then wafts around exuding angst*

I want that sooooo much, you don’t even know. It would be the perfect way to continue to the nature vs nurture theme too. Also, with Mary back in the text, and Dean and Sam’s relationship shifting away from parent/child, the very obvious next life goal is raising the next generation. Will the sins of the fathers be visited on the children and all that. It could be so good. But I digress.

What am I even up to with this review? Ah, I know. The reading in which the title is actually about Sam. Because you see, Sam has never really wanted to be a hunter, he’s just wanted his family, and he’s always seen family and hunting as synonymous. He’s stuck between Heaven (his love for his family) and Hell (hunting), and lying about it. Enter our rescuee of the week -- Gwen -- and her speech to Sam about how lying to someone about not wanting the same things they want ends badly.

It’s a pretty pointed speech, and Sam does take the point, coming clean to Dean about the BMOL giving him info on hunts. But that is just scratching the surface, and there’s still so much more he needs to say that he’s still not saying.

And here we come to another favourite part of the episode. Dean is becoming more and more impatient with lies of all kinds. Including, one assumes, lies about what people want.

Dean is so deeply not okay about Sam’s choices, but trying to respect them. I’m actually loving how done Dean is with lies. That’s a genuinely interesting development and I want to see more of it.

Which leads me into my big question for this ep -- How is this going to resolve in a new way? I don’t want it to fall back into the rut of Sam and Dean just being on the outs, or of both brothers silently suffering to maintain the relationship. So how do they find a way to remain family and still both get the things they need?

The one way I can see this working at the moment, is for Sam to come clean about not wanting to hunt, and then basically become the US Men of Letters, assuming Bobby’s old job, and doing the research and that kind of thing, and Dean continuing to hunt with a new partner. I’d actually really like to see something like that -- to see hunting becoming more organised and safer, while not adopting the genocidal agenda of the BMOL, or the sexism of the original US MOL.

Okay, it’s ridiculous o’clock in the morning, so I’m going to wrap this up. I think I’ve talked about all the main things I reacted to. Oh, except that as I was looking around for potential sources for the episode title, I found this gem:

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Between Heaven and Hell (1956)

This is actually a pretty good movie, but it doesn’t exactly decrease the queer reading of this episode. At all. Hahahaha.

(If you’re wondering, you can find the whole movie here.)

Overall, I liked this episode a lot, despite some clunky moments. But I really was serious at the start of this review, about the cynic in me looking at this ramp-up of the queer subtext with some suspicion. It always seems to ramp up at around this time in the season, and they never pay it off. I want to be pleasantly surprised with some overtly textual Destiel to wrap up this season, because it really is so close to maintext now it’s kind of hilarious.

I’m just tired of being yanked around. Give it to me or don’t. Sure, I love subtext as much as the next person, but I’m getting old here, dudes. And so are Cas and Dean. Just cross the rubicon already, and show us what kind of delicious drama is on the other side.

Hint: Three Male-Shaped People and a Little Nephilim.

I’ll just leave that suggestion there for you, Mr Dabb.

Previously:

The Ministry of Information vs Wayward Sons Carrying On (12x01)

My, my, how can I resist you? (12x02) and follow-up about Bohemian Raphsody

So what am I so afraid of? (I think I love you) (12x03)

I’ve got the joy, joy, joy, joy Down in my heart (Where?) (12x04) and a follow-up about the codependency and about Dean’s self-flagellation and issues with space

There can be only one! (12x05), and a follow-up conversation with elizabethrobertajones on Freud vs Schwartz.

They shall fall by the sword: they shall be a portion for foxes (12x06)

Presenting the Immaculate Heart Reunion Tour (12x07)

I'm still living the life where you get home and open the fridge and there's half a pot of yogurt and a half a can of flat Coca-Cola. ~Alan Rickman (12x08, 12x09)

When the sons of God came in unto the daughters of men (12x10)

in re (12x11)

Making the most of teachable moments (12x12) and an added thought, In-and-out-laws

Don’t fuck with the branches on my family tree (12x13)

To Protect and to Serve (12x14) and some more thoughts

#supernatural #season 12 #spoilers #meta #spn meta #dean winchester #crowley #drowley #sam winchester #castiel #destiel #theme #queerbaiting #lies #truth

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amarynthian-fortress · 7 years

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Long "about me" post

Rules: Answer all questions, add one question of your own and tag as many people as there are questions.

I was tagged by @chryselephantinechaos, thank youuuuuu :3 :3

1. Coke or Pepsi: Coke, totally, yep, yep. Although I drink mostly sparkling water lately.

2. Disney or Dreamworks: Depends entirely on what type of movie is made, so I must say that circumstances shall determine this one.

3. Coffee or Tea: I shall order both please. Earl Grey tea, and whipped cream on my coffee. And a glass of water.

4. Books or Movies: Definitely books, and of course, a movie if it is well made from the point of art and cinematography, and if it is compelling and fun.

5. Windows or Mac: Windows (to my soul, hehehehe)

6. DC or Marvel: DC: my childhood, my love, my life, my Teen Titans, my Batman.

7. Xbox or Playstation: Well, I was toying with Playstation, so I suppose that is the option I choose.

8. Dragon Age or Mass Effect: I cannot decipher what these even are.

9. Night Owl or Early Rise: Who said I ever slept? ;D I am a perky insomniac most of the time.

10. Cards or Chess: I play chess while building a card castle, of course, to distract the opponent.

11. Chocolate or Vanilla: Chocolate, please.

12. Vans or Converse: I am a little Converse baby forever.

13. Lavellan, Trevelyan, Cadash or Adaar: I am sure they are wonderful people, whoever they are.

14. Fluff or Angst: Angsty fluff and Fluffy angst, and all the imaginable hybrids of these genres. Almost the entire Gradence fandom is Fluffy angst, truth be told.

15. Beach or Forest: Forest that leads to a beach. And I want a villa there. And magic seals and narwhals.

16. Dogs or Cats: Give me everything.

17. Clear Skies or Rain: Clear skies after rain, rainy Summers, sunny Winters, magical combinations of both.

18. Cooking or Eating Out: Cooking of course, it relaxes me.

19. Spicy Food or Mild Food: I need to ask my sensitive stomach, but I cannot guarantee that it will choose the spicy option.

20. Halloween/Samhain or Solstice/Yule/Christmas: Samhain, Yule, Ostara, Beltane, Litha, Walpurgis Night, gimme all you have, folks.

21. Would you rather forever be a little too cold or a little too hot: Can I choose the optimal 25 degrees Celsius, instead?

22. If you could have a superpower, what would it be?: Omnipotence.

23. Animation or Live Action: Animation, totally.

24. Paragon or Renegade: I am a paragon of being renegade.

25. Baths or Showers: Hmmmmmm, I love baths.

26. Team Cap or Team Iron Man: Team DC.

27. Fantasy or Sci-Fi: Let’s see what sci-fi fantasy does...

28. Do you have three or four favourite quotes? I have so many, oh my goddddd.

“I await your sentence with less fear than you pass it. The time will come when all will see what I see.” Giordano Bruno

'Fairy tales are more than true: not because they tell us that dragons exist, but because they tell us that dragons can be beaten.” Neil Gaiman

“I think like a genius, I write like a distinguished author, and I speak like a child.” Vladimir Nabokov.

“Boredom was my bedmate and it was hogging the sheets.” Andrew Davidson.

29. YouTube or Netflix: Youtube, my sweet love.

30. Harry Potter or Percy Jackson: Harry Potter.

31: When You Feel Accomplished: When I accomplish something hahah. Well, when I do the things that I previously thought impossible.

32. Star Wars or Star Trek: My goodness, I was never really into them, it kinda takes the beauty out of the cosmos to see all those ships flying around.

33. Paperback Books or Hardback Books: Books are books, I want them all.

34. Handwriting or Typing: Typing, for there is no mortal on this earth that can decipher my left-written handwriting, unless they are either Champollion or Indiana Jones.

35. Velvet or Satin: Velvet.

36. Video Games or Movies?: Movies

37. Would you rather be the dragon or own the dragon? A witch with the ability to trun into a dragon, and I also have baby pets dragons. And other beasts.

38: Sunrise or sunset: Technically they are very similar when one thinks about it. Only the result is different.

39: What’s your favourite song? At the moment? Listenint to Sound of Silence by Disturbed.

40: What’s your favourite smell? Warmth, rain, lemon, orange, night scent, oils, pine trees.

41. What’s your favourite bad joke? Why would I pick a favourite out of displeasing jokes?

42. What is your favourite Young Adult book? Not sure about young adult books (”The Host”, don’t judge me) but I love stuff of Terry Prattchett and Dickens and Nabokov.

43. What’s your drink order at the bar? Non-alcoholic mojito.

44. What’s your favourite Magritte painting? The only paintings I love are those of Caspar David Friedrich.

45. Given the chance, would you want to go to space? As a human, no. I would have to be stuffed in an astronaut suit, live in dire conditions in a space ship, then barely experience true space under all those layers. I wish to visit space in a ghost form where I can freely roam and watch the birth of stars and the colours of the nebulae and ride comets.

46, three things in a haunted house: magic books, a stereo for partying with ghosts, drink and snacks.

47. What is your favourite movie? Oh my lord almighty, ummmmm, Edward Scissorhands, Big Fish, Coppola’s version of Dracula, The Man in the Iron Mask.... 48. Right-handed or left-handed (or ambidextrous)? Cross-dominant, a type of ambidextrous, I suppose, I write with my left, but cut and hold knife and scissors with right.

49. What would you do for your career, if you didn’t need to worry about money? I would invest all my extra cash in helping animals.

I tag @roxas-j-frost

@theuniversebeyondtherain

@cravebone

@deathlesshallows

@vehuhia

@pyschopath-graves

@perksofbeing-a-sprocket

@fifty-shades-of-graves

@waterfall-of-lesbianism

@wanderingquill

@shetasteslikeseasaltrainbows

@geislieb

@yogurt-gun

@bimber-dews

@forbiddensnakesandpandas

#tags #me #personal

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