#i had a mental breakdown shhhhh <333

[that-foul-legacy-lover]

hello i am in need of hurting and being comforted because that catharsis rush is something soothing for my aching heart so anyway i hope u don't mind me dropping this off ^q^

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You've decided, pettily, from this day, that Mister Zhongli is your second most hated person in Liyue.

You couldn't help but grimace at the clock, as the hand stroke each minute into the late evening. Everything should have been in a comfortable routine, you coming home and your giant fluffy roommate greeting you and healing your tired heart.

But then Mister Zhongli had introduced (or rather, had reacquainted) Childe to the pretty, exotic, and strong Traveler. Lumine, she was called, as you remember the look of absolute fascination on Childe’s face as the giant moth excitedly chirped at the prospect of fighting your number one hated person.

At first, you were fine with it, especially seeing how happy and entranced Childe is. Both of you knew that you weren't a fighter, and certainly aren't strong enough for spars with his monster-like stamina. So seeing someone who cam go toe to toe with him and exert his excess energy was something you begrudgingly accepted.

But then, your comfortable routine slowly crumbles like ash in the wind.

Their sparring sessions went around from an hour or two until it slowly began extending to hours upon hours of the day. Even during the times you were at home and available, you were left all alone in the cold space of your shared home.

After the crumble, the echoes of your insecurity began whispering into your mind, of how you aren't needed, aren't welcomed, aren't wanted...

You were being replaced with a pretty, blond, strong, Traveler who can much better take care and handle your beloved roommate.

Perhaps everything had finally settled, like dust parting ways to show you the damage, the day of your birthday. The day starts out normal as you wake up, barely greet Childe before he makes his way out (no doubt to meet up with the Traveler again) and you head off to work, heart filled with hope that this day would be nicer to you.

It wasn't.

As if Fate was mocking your monologue, the day goes by and everything goes wrong with it--numerous mistakes with customers, landing a small accident that costed you mora, a coworker leaving a nasty remark that you held yourself back from replying only to top it all off with your boss firing you.

"Unwanted, unneeded, replaceable."

Your trek home was nothing short of tears and self-depreciation and all you wanted was reprieve and someone, anyone, to prove your thoughts wrong.

When you arrived, you were greeted with silence. You waited, and waited, and waited, until the clock strikes twelve abs the day is no longer yours to celebrate.

You slept it off, heart broken and tears raw.

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Childe arrived back late, whimpering from his carelessness. Zhongli had visited him and reminded him about your birthday. He was busy with Lumine picking the best birthday gift for you and lost track of time.

He crept open the door, head tilting at the darkness and cold floor wood. Usually, the corridor would have been lit up and warm from your cooking and your presence.

It feels like a funeral in comparison. The masked moth creature winced at the thought as he headed straight to your shared room to present his perfect gift. Seeing your sleeping form, he decided to await for you to wake up, seeing as sunrise is near.

At early dawn, he awaits for you eagerly to be surprised at his gift.

At early noon, he tilts his head, but decided you must be tired from work.

At late afternoon, Childe grows worried as he finally shakes your still form. Your head turns and he is glad but the look in your eyes stops him.

Blank, Broken, Indifferent.

There was a cry from him as he cradles you back and forth, not understanding what had caused you to be like this. You opened your mouth and the panicking creature finally understood.

"Shouldn't you be with Lumine?"

*eats this* NOMNONOMNOM ANON THIS IS DELICIOUS

Childe's sorry- he's so, so sorry- he got caught up in the thrill of fighting again, like he always does, and lost track of more and more time until the hours added up to days apart from you. and now it's been too long, because you're rigid and still in his arms when normally you'd be hugging him back and snuggling into his fur.

"shouldn't you be with Lumine?" you repeat tonelessly, unmoving. you're not even angry anymore, just empty and cold, and your blank eyes make Childe shiver. he whines and pulls you closer, trying to convey the love he's missed out on giving you, and despite yourself you lean slightly towards his fluff, more from exhaustion than anything else.

something wet drips onto Childe's shoulder, and he looks up. you're crying. tears are rolling silently down your cheeks, droplets of the knot of emotions you've been dealing with. you don't even seem to notice, instead just standing there quietly, pain written over your features, and Childe's heart breaks, too. slowly he reaches to wipe your tears away, and is relieved when you don't shy away from his touch. he croons as he brushes your cheeks with him thumbs, urging you to let out anything you've been keeping to yourself when he's been gone.

then you say, "am i replaceable?" and Childe feels like he wants to cry, too.

and he does, perhaps not as quietly as you, as he runs his claws through your hair and shakes his head. there's a desperate tone to the way he holds you, purring and crying and cooing all at once as he tries to tell you that no one could possibly take your place. yes, maybe Lumine's good at fighting and is from another world, but she's not you. and that's who he really loves- you, even if you think of yourself as boring and ordinary, or if you're not an expert fighter of a Vision holder. he fell in love with you without any heroic deeds to your name, and he likes it that way.

you're his light in the darkness, after all. for the first time in days, which was his fault, Childe sees you crack a small smile. your movement is hesitant when you hug him back, now so used to being alone, and he knows it'll be a while before you're fully happy again.

that's okay. he's alright with waiting, if he's with you.

#genshin impact #genshin childe #genshin tartaglia #foul legacy #foul legacy childe #childe #tartaglia #genshin tartagalia #chit chat #anon #i could've gone a more angsty route buuuut you wanted comfort so comfort you shall get!!! #i love this concept because straight jealousy doesn't appeal to me but mix it with insecurity and it's RELATABLE #sorry for the lack of posts today yall #i had a mental breakdown shhhhh <333 #short scenario #other's stuff #FAVE #i could do an angst version........ hmmmmmm