#i cant fucking handle this anymore

[magnoliamyrrh]

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#this is fucking insane #i know ive been complaining for months but i cant fucking stand this anymore #waking up so much more exhausted than you went to sleep. every single day. feels like fucking torture #i feel like im losing my mind. my body. humans cant fucking function like this #god help me the thought of another day like this makes me want to scream much less the thought of years #this is a fucking curse #aaaaaannnd im crying. of course #god #....you know that feeling. when youre everything has gone wrong and its been such a long day and youre so exhausted #that any little thing will make you want to curl up in a ball and cry like a kid until you fall asleep #thats the level of exhaustion i am at most times #i cant fucking handle this anymore #Id rather be missing fucking limbs than be like this. like this is a torturious fucking kind of disability id rather god just buthered me #instead #and of course i feel fucking nauseous and dizzy from just how tired i am

[crystalcomrade]

#i’m not god’s strongest soldier #i cant fucking handle this anymore

[alemvy]

im cooking something 🍦

#venture #my art #wips #posting to hold myself accountable and fucking finish ONE drawing #its been hot as balls over here #my canadian ass cant handle this heat #suggestive #is this too much for tumblr idk anymore #been reading all your notes/tags/reblogs and i love them #mwah

[forever-is-made-of-nows]

WE WEREN'T ALONE, IT'S EASY TO FORGET WHAT'S IMPORTANT WHEN YOU'RE ALONE

no, no I'm fine. They totally didn't just explain why Luke turned dark and not Percy. They didnt show us exactly why percy and Luke are different after spending 5 episodes building them as parallels. They didnt just make me cry about luke goddam castellan again as a fucking adult.

#pjo the SHOW that you are #im so fucking done i cant handle it anymore #pjo #pjo series #percy jackon and the olympians #percabeth #percy jackson #pjato

[comfortyart]

Print wip

#lowkey posting this so i can vent in the tags #at the lowest ive been in years if not ever #I feel so alone Im at my limit and just cant fucking handle this anymore #thanks bg3 for improving my life for 5 months it might not be enough to carry me through the rest of this #Thank you for all the love on my art Ive been so thankful since rejoining fandom a year ago I still cant believe how positive its been #Im just so tired and overwhelmed #heres hoping it passes #bg3 #astarion fanart #baldur's gate 3 #astarion ancunin #astarion bg3 #art tag

[chronicowboy]

"do more" which means your best is not good enough for him. "do more" which means he deserves everything. "do more" which means i should have done more. "do more" which means i was too slow, too weak, too useless. "do more" which means don't talk like his fate is already sealed. "do more" which means i know you can't promise me you'll save him, but promise me anyway. "do more" which means save him, whatever it takes, save him. "do more" which means i will do anything, please, god, anything. "do more" which means there is no option here where he does not live. "do more" which means i cannot die with him, do not make me live without him.

#sami rambles #bringing back my beloved ice goes on the eye bud post format for these two fucking words #hey 911! stop ruining my life challenge!! #ive changed my mind i dont want eddie losing his mind over buck anymore i cant actually handle it #911 spoilers #911 show #911 fox #evan buckley #eddie diaz #buddie #buck x eddie

[ichigokeks]

me on a random Wednesday

4:09 PM 4:07 PM

#im sorry changbin #txt #skz #beomgyu #changbin #stray kids #meme #day 6 #why was he so sad :( #but the meme template just offered itself #today was so fucking awful #i walked (!!) because the bus didnt come #just on foot along a fucking big ass road while crying and having a mental breakdown #cant remember the last time i cried this hard #me a grown woman walking to my mum's place to get a hug and cry bec i couldnt handle it anymore

[softavasilva]

this is not a drill i need simon to answer my fucking calls right the fuck now

#say sike i cant handle this i need to know wtf this means #SIMON U HAVE NO RIGHTS TO BE THIS CRYPTIC QBOUT THIS PLEASE EITHER TELL US WERE FUCKED OR WERE GOOD #MY HEART CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE #warrior nun #txt*

[elliesbelle]

NOW I HEAR YOUR VOICE EVERYTIME THAT I THINK I’M NOT ENOUGH

#but literally like #that’s exactly what happens now #AND I FANTASIZE ABOUT A TIME YOU’RE A LITTLE FUCKING SORRY #LIKE???? is there NO guilt?!?! i have to live with the grief and you get to be fucking happy #‘i deserved to move on’ ‘you think it was easy to move on’ IDGAF you still moved on?????? #YOU ONCE CALLED ME FOREVER NOW YOU STILL CAN’T CALL ME BACK #the FUCK happened to loving me always????????? through thick and thin???? i never stopped fucking loving you despite what i was going thru!! #all i feel now is fucking shame and disgust for myself because didn’t i fucking say?????? didn’t i fucking say you were gonna leave me again #and you swore you never would again!! then wtf happened!!! #you couldn’t handle my trust issues with you and i just know you hated me for not getting over them #i literally can never trust anyone ever again i am never trusting anybody with my fucking heart again EVER i can’t do it anymore #AND I JUST CANT IMAGINE HOW YOU COULD BE SO OKAY NOW THAT IM GONE #literally you’re fucking okay and in fucking LOVE with SOMEONE ELSE i am literally fucking NOTHING to you anymore #you always have and will ALWAYS find love in and with someone else and i never will again #the possibility of being with someone again literally disgusts me i am not doing it ever again #‘you’ll find someone else eventually’ i am NOT like YOU who always finds someone else i literally have NEVER found anyone else since you #i am literally and have never been enough and you don’t care #v #belle speaks

[xxcherrycherixx]

Blondie walking into the room to see cupid lounging completely naked on her bed scrolling through hextagram:

Cupid noticing her and moving to wave, her boobs now fully on display: blondie! You’re back early :D whats with that look?

Blondie:

Blondie: dexter would have never survived dating you.

Cupid: what

#ever after high #blondie lockes #c.a cupid #dexter absolutely dodged a bullet he would have been a wreck #‘cmon dex! i want another round ;) ‘ #dexter crying ‘i cant- i physically cant go anymore- its been TWO HOURS cupid i cant go again 😭’ #‘thats fine!’ dexter has hope at cupids words ‘really? youre fine with it’ #cupid nods excitedly ‘yeah! its totally fine! we can just switch positions so im fucking you instead! so you dont have to get it up :D’ #‘wait what- what do you mean- oh. oh thats a dick.’ #dexter frowns as he notices something ‘why does everyone including my gf have a bigger dick than me?’ #dexter could not handle any of cupids constant nakedness or lust #meanwhile blondie is a total freak who is honestly a lil disappointed if cupid isnt naked and ready to go the moment she comes home #lets put it this way: #if dexter walked in tge bedroom to see cupid with even just basic bondage- he would be out of there. #if blondie walked in the room to see cupid as a literal bear with a dick- she would be undressing already. #im sorry i slipped in a bear cupid sex joke #silvers posts just reminded me of it so i have it on the mind 😭 #DAMN YOU BEAR CUPID

[demodraws0606]

Hey guyssss just reminder what cc!BBH about his lore and how it'll go in the near future :

-He is excited to have us see his story "unravel"

-His character will get more unhinged

-He compared the present time of his story as the top of the rollercoaster before the intense drop

-He said "i'm excited for you guys to see what we got prepared" insinuating he probably cooked something with the admins.

Just...letting you guys now, I'm totally normal today, totally fine and cool and chill and not been thinking about this little guy for the entire day hmm hmm definitely not, i'm definitely NOT excited/scared about what's about to come. I'm totally normal guys <3

#q!bbh #q!badboyhalo #bbh #badboyhalo #qsmp #nothing has happened lore wise i've just been slowly and slowly falling into insanity #i've literally been through this with the fucking eggpire but holy shit this is horrible i know cc!bbh loves his slow burn but I CANT HANDL #THIS ANYMORE

[firemama]

Hi my name is sav. I am currently between bouts of in-and-out-of-hyperventalation because nothing is getting better, i have credit debt and loan payments and owe people money i never wanted to owe, my car needs repairs i cant even afford to go get diagnosed, im almost certainly going to have to move in another 10 fucking months, i never have enough hours at work and i cant do anything without at the very least starting to quietly fucking panic and my migraines are getting worse and worse and my teeth fucking worse and worse and worse and i already have to wake up in 7 hours for a night shift but im clearly not getting any damn sleep and I just don't want to be here any more.

I dont have the energy or the will power or the time to draw a pretty pretty banner or write a comprehensive set of goals this time.

If you have free Anything to spare I am past the point of not begging for it. Anything, at all, helps. Patreon. GoFundMe. If the size of that goal on GoFundMe has you balking, yeah. Me fucking too.

#i have been trying so hard #i cant do orlando much longer #but i cnt fucking get out of here until the debts are fucking paid #i dont know what to fucking do this point #if i could just get all of this fucking handled then i could get out of here #i just #im not keeping it together anymore cause its just getting worse and worse and worse #urgent

[hauntedwoman]

as badly as i want to avoid my mom she is making it extremely difficult

#i feel really bad that im so angry at her and she doesnt even know it #but my entire living situation is making me miserable right now and its her fault #she charges me $50 in rent every week and shes increasing it to $125 a week at the end of the month #the only reason this is happening is because she FORCED ME to drop out and the only other alternative was that i had to work full time + pa #rent.............. but like at my job even if im working 40 hrs a week ill only be making abt $900 a month #so i will barely have anything leftover for myself after rent #and i cannot get a second job bc i frankly can not handle it at all + what hours would i even work #and my mom refuses to understand that the reason i had to drop out is bc i am so depressed and so suicidal and i just dont want to live #she doesnt acknowledge that im disabled and severely mentally ill #every time i try to talk about my mental health she treats me like im such a burden to her even though i literally never tell her anything #personal anymore bc she just doesnt listen or care #ALSO she FORCED ME to move across the country and transfer schools when i really did not want (hence why i flunked all of my classes bc i d #not care) but like. everything thats wrong in my life rn is bc i do not want ot live where im living and theres no way for me to go back to #texas and also i dont rly wanna live w my dad either #but anyways. this whole situation would be better if my mom was using me paying rent as an actual lesson in adult respinsibility #but it's really just a punishment because i cant function the way she wants me to #and im over it #so fucking over it why am i such a pussy why cant i just die

[winterfloral]

#just going fuck it and posting this one #i dont it in my drafts anymore #stray kids #hyunjin #usermoonjuice #userbeepls #usertsu #usersa #usermissye #adriblr #tuserchrissy #stayblr-pr #probably be my last mb for a long while #the sad human cant handle the flop anymore #winnie skz #winnie board

[hayaku14]

kaishin au where kaito unwillingly received immortality from pandora. kaito is torn and broken upon the burden of eternal life. shinichi promises to stay with him forever. to do so, he drinks aptx 4869 every 10 years.

years go by and soon everyone in their life passes. kaito and shinichi learned how to create the poison from haibara before she left the world as well. but though it works in consistently turning back time for shinichi, it is still a deadly poison. accumulated, it slowly weakens him.

as shinichi's body slowly deteriorates, the poison chipping away at his life, kaito spirals. once again, torn and broken, kaito is desperate. feeling this to be their last years together, he decides to find a way to stay with shinichi forever.

a way to reverse his immortality.

a way to die together.

#kaishin #dcmk #detective conan #kudou shinichi #kuroba kaito #dc prattles #dont look at me idk why but this angst came out of fucking nowhere too #this came into my brain and i had to vomit it all here or else it'll plague my mind and die there #i actually wrote that they have half a century left but ig it's better to leave it vague #i think at one point they would have to fake their deaths #but shinichi's body couldnt possibly handle changing back and forth if he's past his 50s right? #what im trying to say is that make this au extra angsty by making them fake their deaths in their late 20s or early 30s #this is haibara's advice as someone who knows shinichi's biology the most and how the poison works #they could probably tell their close friends and family though (making it less angsty cause i remembered i am GODS WEAKEST SOLDIER) #lowkey shinichi at the point where kaito decides to look for a way to immortality is already either bed ridden #on a wheelchair #or at least cant run anymore and is easily tired #(THIS AU IS JUST AN ELABORATE SICK FIC AND MY ADDICTION TO TIRED SHINICHI SHOWING) #changed aptx 4689 to 4869! im sorry i wrote this at 2 am lmao

[yrfemmehusband]

This post is about physical illness physical disability please don't derail

Me vs being consistently retraumatized in literally every single fucking appointment i go to me vs getting literally one singular fucking doctor to listen to me oh my god I cannot stand doctors. Literally every single doctor I've been to with maybe two exceptions has done nothing but gaslit me and made it difficult for me to get care. It doesn't matter who they are what practice it does not matter if they're a man or woman cishet or LGBT with pronouns on their website, it doesn't matter if they're "trauma informed" or have never heard of the term. They are all the same. They all make it their goal to be as much of an obstacle to receiving care as possible. They refuse to listen because they're so much smarter than any patient that walks through the door and simultaneously expect you to have googled your symptoms and to have an idea of what tests you want and also if you've done that then you're Malingering or you're called doctor Google or made fun of for thinking you could possibly do their job (diagnosing you.) If you have any issue worse than the common cold they'll slap you with an anxiety diagnosis or a "we don't know what causes it" disorder. If you ask for more tests than one singular blood panel they'll laugh and ask why. If you ask what your options for treatment are they'll tell you to lose weight and exercise, and also here are some antidepressants. They'll tell you to come back if symptoms continue or worsen and act surprised when you do, because the symptoms continued and worsened. It doesn't matter how you look, how nice you are, how sick you feel, how much pain you're in. Their goal is to get your money and get you out. I have never met a doctor who wasn't blinded by their own ego and most people who think doctors are there to help you have never been sick with anything long term.

#medical trauma #cpunk #chronic illness #cripple punk #medical gaslighting #medical misogyny #doctors can go just die at this point #killing myself in the office next time a doctor denies me testing or suggests the same treatment thats been failing for two years #holy shit what the fuck was that appointment #i cant handle this anymore truly i cannot handle this anymore #endometriosis