#i can do half of that at home for free

[selfconsumerofmywoes]

i don’t care how much you get for the money, the fact is is that’s too much money to spend full stop

#me and my friend are in mild debate #she wants to go on an 11 day cruise for a grand #i say i don’t care there’s 17 bars and a 4d cinema and drinks are included it’s way too much for me to pay #also i wouldn’t even do the activities #and there are so many of them you literally wouldn’t be able to escape #also i’m not 16 anymore i can’t drink 400 quids worth of booze in 11 days #i’ve been told it’s 600 if i don’t get alcohol but then i’d just be sitting on my arse sober on a boat for 2 weeks #i can do half of that at home for free #without 6000 loud drunk people around me #i talk and its probably something weird

[crazyw3irdo]

do y’all ever think about how yancy knows how to break out of prison and actively chooses not to. do you ever think about how when he breaks us out he knows the way so easily as if he’s been there a million times before. do you ever wonder if at some point he considered breaking himself out and just couldn’t go through with it.

#i have been thinking about this for the last few days it’s absolutely rotted my brain. like it’d occurred to me before but my brain is sooo #fixated on this lately like he. he knows. and he doesn’t. he’s done bad things and he doesn’t think he deserves it #just. younger yancy who just killed his parents and hasn’t fully processed anything trying to break himself out #standing at the gate knowing he can take a step out and be free again. and he doesn’t. and everything sinks in for him and he just slowly #goes back to his cell. and a few more times he does the exact same thing but… he just can’t bring himself to leave. #he constructs this half-truth about prison life being great and makes friends- makes a family. but. when y/n leaves the first thing he says #is that he’s done bad things. the ‘and hey! this is home!’ seems more like an afterthought that he’s trying to convince himself is true #god the fact that y/n gets a universal key in ending 12… i can see y/n breaking in to try and convince him to leave but he just won’t. he #could’ve gotten out before even without that. but he won’t. if he’s gonna get out he’s gonna do it right. even if it means he can’t stab any #one anymore :( and cmon everyone knows he loves to STAB #this seemed more tangential to include but also. do you think yancy’s ever broken anyone else out? #…do they visit? he was absolutely overjoyed when y/n visited in space i think he doesn’t get that many ngl… #god this character has like 15 or 16 minutes of screen time idk i haven’t recounted after space came out #*pats his head* this bad boy can fit so much overanalysis and headcanons in him #yancy #markiplier #yancy ahwm #ahwm yancy

[itstimeforstarwars]

My college keeps sending emails that are like "We're trying to contact you for the alumni verification process" but in order to be verified you have to 1) call them 2) during office hours. Office hours are 9-4 M-F. I work during those hours. I work before and after those hours. Even if I left early or arrived late I would be working during those hours. You see the problem.

#chit chat #'call during lunch!' nah #half my job is taking phone calls im not gonna voluntarily give up my free time so some random college person can interrogate me #they call it an 'alumni interview' but it's gonna be like an hour long conversation about what im doing now #and they'll want me to talk about how the university helped me so much so they can put my words in their flyers #and tbh i don't remember much good about that place. i remember how many of their admin decisions pissed me off #i graduated the covid year #they sent us all home and refused to give us any kind of refund on housing despite being unable to use it #and basically told everyone that if they couldn’t afford to write that loss off in these unprecedented times maybe they shouldn't go there #so #i don't have a lot of kind words to be printed in flyers

[iliveinprocrasti-nationn]

one thing abt being disabled/chronically ill that some people don’t get is that sometimes body maintenance that ensures you have the absolute minimum amount of function can also be something that takes away a lot of control and autonomy. you can argue till the cows come home that making those decisions to try and help yourself (or realistically to try to make sure things aren’t worse than they already are) is something that exhibits control and autonomy and stuff, but they can be so limiting in practice because they’re things that take up so much time but have to be done to do anything else

#i have to sleep a lot. i’m at the point where functioning requires 8 hours of sleep if not more #I should probably be getting 10+ but i’m a student and i work so 8 is the minimum. but then also getting ready for bed is a whole process s #the whole thing can take 10-12 hours depending how much im sleeping. just to make sure i can do anything #that is time in my day i cannot use for anything else. it’s not ‘oh but i can push through it’ because i can’t without spending the next da #lightheaded and nauseous and vaguely dizzy and with such intense brain fog I can’t think with my fatigue so bad i genuinely don’t know how #get myself to work a lot of days. my abled peers don’t have to deal with this at all. they have unlimited study time if they want to #and yeah it is a choice i’m making that’s true i could just not do. except i would lose my job and fail out of college because i would not #be able to get to classes or do my homework or think. but being told ‘but you are making choices about your life’ when i have lost so much #of what i used to be able to do because i am spiralling down and continuing to get worse is so. #literally last year i would wake up at 6:30 and then go to school till 3 and then go to my internship until 10 and get home at 11 and be in #bed anywhere from midnight to two in the morning and then wake up the next day and do it all again. i graduated with a 3.9 gpa and made it #into my top college while dealing with my cancer symptoms and then the two surgeries about it #but now i lose half my day to just making sure i can get out of bed. i can’t go anywhere because my body is physically too exhausted #any extra time goes into doing homework or occasionally time to myself #not decimating my health by doing minimum body care responsibilities isn’t freeing. occasionally i have a good day which is freeing but tha #usually goes into just. other things outside class or work or eating. I don’t go do something for myself or go do something fun on good day #because I still can’t. good days just mean i don’t want to lie down on the pavement when i’m going somewhere #I just. I don’t magically have control over my life because i try to get enough sleep. i lose half my day to doing that and ultimately it’s #just a bodily function that would have to happen anyway #this is a vent post im just having a really hard time right now because it feels like im in exponential decline. it was nowhere near this #bad last semester. my grades are tanking and i have no free time because anything outside of sleep is either work or school #vent tw #yall can rb this just ignore my tags completely #disability #chronically ill #i keep trying to explain to people how pots works because that’s all logical but there’s no way to explain what it’s doing to my body or ho #i feel all the time. the last time i felt this bad was when i had a bad flu or immediately after surgeries because i don’t react well to #anesthesia and always come out of them feeling like shit. and now i just feel like this all the time and it’s only getting worse #I can’t even stay up late anymore because my body feels like it isn’t counting the sleep even if I get 8 hours #I can deal if I have a free day the day after but that just leaves Friday and Saturday nights and I usually still have to do homework

[hella1975]

im due on and not in the mood for much of anything but of course there are stepladders that must be painted

#my mum doesnt half pull chores out her arse sometimes like what. no ofc that's a thing that needs doing #like okay tbh i LOVE the way my mum decorates it's something i rave about to all my friends bc im genuinely very proud of her and our house #bc basically my mum has an interior design degree and generally has an Eye for decorating like she's just Good at it #but she never ever ever spends loads of money if ANY when she can help it #put me in any room in our house and i can point at all the furniture and tell you some dumb story about it #'my mum's cousin sold that sofa to her for a fiver' 'she literally pulled that dining set from someone's skip' etc #like everything is always aquired for free or bc of some niche 'i know a guy' connection or she paid pennies for it #and then either me my mum or my sister will sand it down and paint it ourselves and it always looks amazing when it's done #like ive said to my mum before she could probs start a business with it bc she does it to such a professional standard #so it's given me and my sister not only a real respect for DIY and second hand and generally not spending extortionate amounts #but it's also given us handy skills like painting and sanding and glossing etc etc #and ive always loved that about my mum like she doesnt NEED to be doing this anymore like she has the money now to buy things new #but she just doesnt she genuinely prefers doing stuff like this and having furniture that has a story behind it etc and i love that #but my GOD is it annoying when we're doing it like i HATE painting it's sooooo dull #and when im due on and cant be arsed to do ANYTHING let alone chores this is just. nail in coffin #AITA my thrifty aesthetic is making my daughter contemplate offences against the person via stepladder #hella goes home

[katya-goncharov]

i really don't know how i'm ever going to survive a full-time job when just spending four days a week doing work & uni stuff already burns me out SO much

#and that's when i'm doing maybe five hours a day of either work or uni seminars #for me it's sort of like. if i'm doing three days a week of Not Free Time that's okay and i can just about manage it and even enjoy it #but the moment it's more than half the days in the week it's too much and my mental health starts going down the pan #though i do find online stuff easier to cope with so maybe if i can do a hybrid job i'll be okay. i couldn't fully work from home either #though because that would make me SO depressed and i'd never be able to concentrate #full time work just seems like so much!! and i don't think personally i could cope with it. which is scary because i sort of have to

[pepprs]

#to translate this post: someone liked this post i made (on the upper left) on AUGUST 28 having a moment of self awareness that i was running #away from my whole life and not moving or learni ng to drive or anything. it is now march 8. it has been almost 7 months. and i have made #basically zero progress. and there is nothing stopping me but me. i could read the drivers manual and whatever whenever i want. but i am not #doing anything. and i don’t know how to get myself to start. #purrs #i know it’s a cop out excuse but i truly do think it’s covid. i think being in lockdown for a year and a half made me just let go of any #sense of progress. made me scared to take steps forward. and i mean i did bc i lived on campus for a while after that but it’s like.. EVERY #part of my life is stagnant rn it seems. and it’s not just me it’s my siblings too. we’re all getting older but none of us is trying to move #out or gain our independence in any way and my brother isn’t even looking for jobs even though he needs one. we’re all just getting older #but we’ve lost (or maybe had knocked out of us by covid and our mom being so strict) any sense of moving ipward and spreading our wings. #forgotten we have wings at all. and ive done important things like going on a house tour or traveling with my besties (<3). but i have only #made it to page 8 of the drivers manual and i truly do not want to read the rest of it. i have only been on one house tour and im longing to #move out but how much am i really because i can’t bring myself to schedule another tour and start searching for a new home in earnest. #i just come home every day UTTERLY exhausted and spend all my free time trying to process or rest. and im not making room for myself to use #my wings. and it’s truly terrible. why are we all okay with living like this. my younger self would be HORRIFIED if she saw how much i had a #atrophied since graduating and moving back home. my brighton self would be HORRIFIED. i told myself i wouldn’t and then it’s exactly what i #did. and ik im being harsh and ive spread my wings in some important ways during this time but… these are so obvious. such low hanging #fruit in some ways. bc any 16 year old can take this test and pass it so why can’t i at 24? why won’t i let myself? dont i want a nice cozy #home i make my own where i can eat what i want and sleep when i want and have control over sounds? then why am i not running for it? #delete later #i am wasting my youth i am wasting my youth i am wasting my youth 🤑🤑🤑🤑🤑🤑🤑 my one precious life 😃😃😃😃😃😃😃😃 #also LMFAOOOOO the next tag on that aug 28 post was that i need to get a new campus id card… guess who hasn’t done that either ♥️

[thatgirlwhokeepsreading]

Fine. Taking my autistic-with-shitty-parents ass and watching Bluey. Maybe I will cuddle Dotty while I do so for the full experience. I feel like you sick bastards just want to see me cry

#i have already watched one episode AGES ago #it was the one with Auslan in it #so like I know I like it lmao #it me #also I have had glancing interactions in industry with the woman who plays the mum?? #(this is the theatre industry for those of you playing at home) #(I think this is the case in other countries too but it’s SUPER common for actors in AUs to spend half their year doing TV half theatre) #*Aus that should be as in Australia #and uhhh she’s very short and that’s basically her normal acting voice she’s using #(I don’t know why it took me so long to realise it was her) #*short is maybe not the main thing she’s Petite I always felt like I could snap her in half lol #**but I absolutely couldn’t she used to do ballet and she’s all muscle from what I can tell #like I don’t have any particularly strong feelings apart from me suddenly violently being like Melanie???? #what are YOU doing at the devil’s sacrament (acting in a tv show meanwhile I’m consuming a tv show) #i did watch her die in this one production I inexplicably ended up with like four different tickets to #bc different things I was involved with kept giving me free ones lol #but she didn’t get to talk a heap in that one (lol) so my brain will probably stop focusing on it being her voice after a few eps #OH FUCK WAIT #OH SHIT SHE ORGINATED THE ROLE OF MY MAIN CHARACTER IN THE WORKSHOPS FOR MY PLAY #(the one I co-wrote lol) #ID FULLY FORGOTTEN THAT #update!! i checked my emails and yep she actually played Marie in the first and second reading

[unopenablebox]

ok, i have some regrets about having agreed w/ 🌸 that we would both come home early from work to hang out, since i came home myself and then was advised that their work was taking longer than planned. because i hadn’t put my usual aggressive anti-self measures in place that allow me to remember to have the mental action of checking where i am, what time it is, and if i should be doing what i am doing, i just like accidentally lost two and a half hours of time since that is how long it took for them to get home after all. so i could have stayed at work and gotten some desperately necessary tasks done, or at least come home and gotten desk work done before they arrived, except that of course they also have work to do tonight still so we are absolutely not going to spend any time together regardless and this was all an absolute waste of my time. and now i have to be at work for 5-6 hours tomorrow to make up for it. it is just not a good bet to make a plan where 🌸 finishes work or does not work or stops working, i have to stop doing this, i am so stupid

#box opener #it was my idea that we do it and i should not have trusted their agreement to it. that did not mean anything and #when it happens it is not information #''impulsive regret that we don't get to take naps together because we are not both at home and not doing work during a day ever'' #is not an emotion that can be used to inform any future decisions or ideas\ #this was a malice-free action and bringing it to their attention will have no effect except distressing them intensely #experiments are hard to predict the duration of no matter what; i also take much longer to finish things than i think i am going to; #also nothing is ever going to change and it would be a shit move to hurt my girlfriend on purpose for no reason. #however. i am going to be sulking about it indefinitely and i am not good at pretending not to sulk so i am. exorcising it here #they want to hang out this evening still but i can't hang out this evening! i'm busy being upset #and i used up a lot of my hanging out time on a two and a half hour window of forgetting things exist or that i exist in an environment! #now i have to proofread union documents instead.

[lavender---sunshine]

i am so deep in my feelings right now, i both sad and mad enough that i cannot sleep

#ive been angry oscillating between angry and sad pretty much the whole day #i had a rare saturday off and i feel like i wasted half of it for my mom and she didnt appreciate it #i wanted to take her to somewhere new for brunch and a cool bookstore and to get our nails donw #and she drove like 30 minutes in the wrong direction and wouldnt listen to me and tried to blame it on me #im not allowed to be sick on my own. she has to be sick too. if i have a headache so does she and worse #if im nauseous in the afternoon she 'threw up' that morning. she'll say its something we ate even if we ate nothing in common #ive broken our in hives that keep popping up and the whole day she was acting as if she was itchy too AND dizzy. #we had to stop multiple times because she was so dizzy. im not saying she was lying but it stopped her from cleaning #she didnt want the original breakfast place near the bookstore and salon and when we got to the second one it was closed #found a third but she didnt want to deal with parking. went to option 4 and she didnt like her food. #she also kept asking me what she was getting instead of just ordering herself. 'what was it that i wanted? yes can you tell her i want xyz' #(and let me just say i have 0 patience left for people who cant do anything themselves. helplessness is a hard hard no for me #we didnt go to the bookstore or the salon and shes like oh okay tomorrow. i told her i had plans and shes like oh you always make plans #with your friends and none with me. Girlfriend. what are we doing right now? #went home to try to clean up our apartment and got overwhelmed when i realized i have to do everything myself because she no help #while she laid down and watched pitch perfect for the 1000th time #im also trying to figure out how to tell an ex friend i dont want them back in my life because theyre so much work #but i dont have room in my life to have that conversation. im also probably going to start looking for a different job soon #i just want my parents gone. my apartment furnished. free time. and a vacation.

[vynegar]

marius loves me ;;

#he AND false tears vyn came home on my first 10roll TTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT #i did that in the morning half awake and after having downloaded the update on DATA bc my wifi was slow af #anyway marius and vyn love me confirmed!!! #gonna pull for luke and i'm prepared to hit pity and skip anniversary if necessary #(my main concerns are securing enough s-chips to guarantee two halloween MRs and two ancient china SSRs) #tot liveblog #i really should do something for marius and a late artem bday thing but uhhh we'll see #also idk about y'all but i'm like... not even reading the event #the amount of grinding we have to do with excavating the tomb.... like.... i do not have that kind of time #i kinda read it if the male leads are talking or if it's them all together but otherwise... #blindly tapping through as fast as possible #EDIT: I JUST GOT LUKE'S SHAPE OF YOU TTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT #and lingering warmth vyn in that same 10pull #but honestly that luke card was one of my goals so TTTTTTT luke ilyyy #def going to use up that last discount 10pull with any free tears i can grind from the event #now i'm not entirely sure if i'll keep pulling until the event ssr. depends on if i'd still have enough afterwards for an anniversary card #if i need to pick only one then i'll need to decide if i want luke's desert card or marius's anniv card more. it might come down to art but #gahh now i'm thinking about the badge that comes w anniv cards. it's not enough to really sway my decision but i will still Think about it

[arthur-r]

thank you guys for the help i know nobody’s awake anymore but i’m awake now again and the email is officially sent

#i’m nervous cause i’m not seeing philosophy club anywhere #and yes i am capable of learning and growing as a person and doing other stuff with my life #(when i told my dad yesterday that i was nervous he said i should see this as an opportunity…) #but i would rather prefer to be in my regular thing every thursday… also i kind of need this teacher #i’m trying to not skip class as much anymore (i kind of did a lot of that last trimester) so it’s not like i’ll just be always over there #but my mom gets home tomorrow and it’s making me nervous. things were getting pretty bad between my parents #and y’all understand there’s only one adult in the entire world who understands what it’s like at home? it was cool knowing him #anyway the real point of philosophy club is learning philosophy and seeing friends. and that’s why i want to do it and was excited for it #but the reason that i’m nervous about it not happening is because what if i just never have a place like that again #but!! the email is sent!! and if there’s no philosophy club there really isn’t anything i can do #i’ll just have to join newspaper and start going to silent reading and all of those things i could do #also getting help from teachers. that’s a big one. that’s what raider time is actually for. and i could use it #but on the other hand that half hour of every day is like. my only piece of free time cause i’m away from parents and not in class #so i tend to want to use it for self care and fun times. plus last year that meant i could stay after school to get help from teachers #thereby maximizing my away time even more!!!! which was pretty great and a good situation #so anyway idk but the point is i sent the email and it’s the morning now and i’m gonna plug in my phone #and a friend of mine is driving me today so idk when she is getting there #because yesterday it was a different friend but not today and i don’t remember this friends driving schedule #but anyway yeah. and yesterday was a bad first day but maybe today will be good #me. my post. mine. #delete later

[babybluebanshee]

So I finally got my water heater replaced after more than half a year of it leaking and nearly destroying my floor, but that's not the story. The story is of the handyman that installed it.

Dude's name is Chris, and he's your typically midwestern schlub - friendly, apologizes too much, really likes the Cardinals, maybe a little younger than my parents. Hella nice tho, gets the heater installed quickly, and even offers to fix the floorboards it warped (after nearly tripping over the hump it made in the floor twice). Overall, a stress-free experience.

Then, as he's gathering up his tools - "So, I noticed your, uh, banner. Over your bed."*

*(The closet where my water heater is is located in my bedroom because I live in a mobile home, dude wasn't just wandering creepily into my bedroom)

He's referring to a giant pride flag that's hanging over my bed, with the words "Sounds gay, I'm in"

My anxiety spikes instantaneously, thinking oh christ I'm about to get hatecrimed or at least microaggressioned.

But then he says "Yeah, my daughter is gay, and I was wondering, like...where do you guys, ya know, meet up?"

What.

"Because she met her most recent girlfriend when she was in jail, and I keep asking why she doesn't just find a nice lesbian librarian or something and she said 'dad I know they're out there, I just don't know where'. So...like...where do you?"

So I ended up confessing to this nice man who installed my water heater that I don't know of any real gay culture in our mostly Baptist Missouri town of about 18,000 that routinely freaks out over pride displays in the library (I'm sure it exists but I'm lazy and haven't gone looking for it). My girlfriend lives in an area with a rather bustling gay community (we just did a face painting booth for their pride festival a few weeks ago), so maybe have her go out there with some friends, and also a lot of queers I know play dnd so maybe find a nice group of them and network. I then apologized that I wasn't more helpful in getting his daughter settled with a nice, wholesome dyke.

On the plus side, he was not deterred at all, and seemed to be very interested in the fact dnd was so popular amongst the el gee bee tees. I told him the names of some dms I know and told him to go to town. I do not know if the names will be given to his daughter or hoarded for himself so he can join a group and play like he did when he was a teenager and not be called satanic for it.

He's coming to fix my floor next week.

#daily life with blue #lgbt #gay pride #queer joy #wholesome stuff

[delisocks]

i hope i die for real just like hit with a bus regina george style

#so much work to do. so little time until i have to go back to school... hgh #it's like weekends and ends of day don't even register anymore #i go to school from 8:00 to 3:30 every day and then i come home and do more school #if i'm lucky maybe i can get thru an episode of tv or a little bit of plague inc in a half-delirious haze before i fall asleep #and then BANG! radar alarm ringtone. do it all over again bitch #i'm convinced time isn't real why does the public school system hate teenagers so much #i have settled into the routine of an unmarried middle-aged accountant at 16 and i am not okay with that #on fridays i let myself buy a pint of ben & jerry's but it is naught. for the grind continues. 5 hours of the grind for #like #20 minutes of cherry garcia + danny gonzalez #my mom says depression is recognizing the futility of life but what is it when your life really Is that futile. it's all this for 2 1/2 mor #years until college and then it's maybe not this bad anymore but still like another. solid 4 years #maybe more like 8 if i go for the doctorate #which it feels like you really have to if you want to get anywhere anymore #plus fucking student loans. i don't want to be in debt before i'm 20 #but of course i will be. everyone is. #boomers are always clowning on teenagers for being “addicted to screens” and “not having hobbies” #but hey! it's not like we have any public spaces!! it's not like we have fucking any #free time!!! the phone is the most easily accessible thing #i'm so done. fuck my stupid baka life etc etc

[vaor]

things i wish i had known when i escaped my family household and couldn't ask my parents for help

invest in a good mattress early on. there are many other ends you can save on - sleep is not one of them. this is key to how much energy you'll have throughout the day

you don't need a bedframe but you do need a slatted bed base (even if it's just pallets)

opening a bank account is easy

there's youtube tutorials for everything. how to install your washing machine, how to use tools, fixing stuff around the place. channels like dad, how do i? are a godsend

change energy provider as soon as your old deal runs out. you'll get better offers elsewhere and avoid price gouging

assemble a basic first aid kid at home: painkillers, probiotics, alcohol wipes, bandages, tweezers, antihistamine tablets - anything you might need in a pinch

and an emergency toolkit: flashlight, extra batteries, a utility knife, an adjustable wrench, multi-tool, duct tape

set your fridge to the lowest temperature it can go. the energy consumption is minimal in difference and it'll give you +4/7 days on most foods

off-brand products are almost always the same in quality and taste, if not better, for half the price

coupons will save you a lot of money in the long run

there's no reason to be shy around employees at the bank/laundromat/store; most people will be happy to help

vegetarian diets are generally cheap if you make food from scratch

breakfast is as important as they say

keep track of your budget in a notebook or excel file - e.g. rent, phone and internet bills, food, leisure so you'll have an overlook on your spending over the months

don't gamble

piracy is okay

stealing from big stores and chains is also ethically okay

keep medical bills and pharmacy receipts for tax returns

also, file your tax returns early

take up a hobby that isn't in front of a screen. pottery, music, going for a run every now and then, stuff that'll keep you busy and sane

and most importantly... you're allowed to get the stuff you want. treat yourself to the occasional mundane thing. a good scented candle. a bath bomb. that body lotion that makes you feel like royalty. the good coffee beans.

you're free and you deserve to be happy.

#going from being denied basic knowledge to becoming independent over night was wild lmao #but here i am #four years later #doing pretty good #hera screams into the void #moving out #abusive parents

[cptkitten]

Blue October - Hate Me

#blue october #hate me #music video #hey loverly it's not a perfect fit but i'm still thinking of you #it's been a little over three years since you left and about two and a half years since i learned it happened #my second kid is about the same age my first was then #at the same stage of wanting to be held all through the night #i held her while i cried my eyes out wanting to be sick all over the keyboard because i couldn't accept that i'd stumbled upon your obit #i trusted so much that you were just outside of my line of my sight that it took me that long to realise you were dead #i'm still waiting for you to come home even though i know you're gone #i hope there's no afterlife so that i can be sure that you're actually free from it all #but if there is i'm going to tear you a new one once i'm done hugging you so you'd better be bracing yourself when the time comes #i still love you and i forgive you but also how could you do this to me when i was always here to help #why didn't you ask me i would have done anything #what made you think that i wouldn't have helped you through this #you took away every year we had left and i hate you for it #we could have been old hags together and instead you bowed out early and i'll be waiting until last call to see you again #but i'm tired of rambling so just understand that i'm still mad but it's because i still love you so much #Youtube