#he would still be disabled

[uncanny-tranny]

I'm still thinking about how ashamed I was (and am) with being open about my pain because I am so young. It's so hard to feel worthy of having your pain taken seriously when the people around you insist that young bodies are always in pristine, untouched condition and that you must earn your pain through aging. Never is it considered that young people aren't lying or being a hypochondriac for expressing their pain.

Young people can be in life-altering pain. Young people can have debilitating pain. It doesn't matter what age it happens because pain doesn't discriminate. Complaining about pain and doing things to prevent needless pain aren't something you have to "earn" through aging.

If you want young people to be in less or lesser pain, then encourage them to do whatever they can to minimize it. Don't downplay what they're experiencing. Not everything is a lie, not every experience that is different than yours is exaggeration or deceit.

#disability #ableism #ableism tw #this is one of the big reasons i was ashamed of admitting when i am in pain #and it's one of the reasons i was ashamed to address the pain i have #and i'm angry about that actually! nobody should fear being labeled as essentially having munchausen syndrome because... #...'young people NEVER have pain or disabilities and you're a liar!' #i really do want to start addressing my pain because i know it's not normal but holy shit batman it can suck sometimes #i honestly like talking to my dad about this because he also has a lot of pain (moreso than i do now) but he actually TRIES to listen... #putting this in the disability tag but i still don't feel right about labeling my own pain as such... #...but i know so many people with disabling pain who would relate... #...maybe it's internalized ableism on my part or maybe i just want to be respectful of people with worse pain #this is me really just reflecting on m the fact that i haven't ever had an amazing body in a lot of ways (though i am lucky still) #i'm still thinking about having an emergency cane to help me get up when my pain is bad but idk if it's worth the investment #so if anybody reading this has suggestions (esp. for those with back pain)... please hook me up i will platonically love you forever

[lunarharp]

being attached to that moment qifrey held a baby one time and my ideas for the future :)

#witch hat tag #orufrey #brief small post before i return to Real and Emotional things again...but tbh...this makes me feel real emotions too #i think the manga will end up with a epilogue chapter showcasing little things in the girls' future and orufrey holding hands or kissing... #to like Indicate things. if it doesn't happen beforehand. #But. Who. Knows. also then i suddenly started thinking about them raising a baby for ages today because of how narratively poignant it'd be #for things to end that way after having raised almost-daughters all those years. and how healing it could be for qifrey and etc. #thing i said on twt: girls visit so often that the kid's first words are Professor Olly #“deja vu.. i'm not your professor kid - i'm your father!” #sorry but they are literally a gay couple where one truly is like The Mom and one truly is The Dad. to me #i think a housewifey homemaker type lifestyle would make qifrey happy. be harder now that he's disabled - well that's why he has his man. #i dont normally care about stuff like fankids or whatever..characters becoming parents for real..but like..Come on #This is the couple to think about this with.....they already ARE parents..i want them to be happy for eternity #once all the horrors are over we have to make it there.....children are so precious families are so precious.... #i have bad relationship with parents personally and haven't interacted with children in years. And yet i still know that. #the fact that orufrey fight for children to be safe and educated and happy...qif wants to help coustas too.. #aaaanyway today was a pretty weird and difficult day so i deserved to think about happy futures for a bit. i hear it's possible #btw i'm most sure about tetia becoming the princess of zozah. i think that will happen. and riche should have the ribbon tassel.

[hellyeahsickaf]

Having grown up with pretty severe undiagnosed ADHD one of my core memories will always be the teacher in 6th grade that would go out of his way to humiliate students that weren't reading enough. Idk how common this was but we had AR points. Essentially a system where if you read a book you could take a quiz on it and get points if you passed, with each book being worth a different amount of points. A very short book might be 3 points, a book the size of Harry Potter might be worth 40-70. You get it

I was actually good at literacy, I had the highest literacy score in that class. But audiobooks weren't really much of a thing yet and sitting down to read a book was virtually impossible, it's something I still struggle with and thought I was stupid for. I knew how to read and was great at it, even liked the material, but physically sitting down and reading a book was close to impossible. There were kids with hundreds of AR points and I had idk, probably less than 25.

And every few weeks this asshole would have all of us line up from most points to least. He'd go through, first hyping up the front of the line saying how impressed he was. He'd tell the next few they were doing well, to keep it up. Further down tell them to pick up the pace, but god help you if you were within the last 6 or so (some of them had the same issue as me, VERY likely also something undiagnosed)

He'd spend most of this time on those last few students. Berating these 11 year olds individually and intentionally humiliating them, telling them how there are 7 year olds who read more than us. He'd say we had no future, at least nothing better than minimum wage at McDonald's. That or we'd be on the streets. He was the type to bully neurodivergent kids every chance he got and boy that was damaging.

Wasn't the first or last teacher of mine to bully and shame kids and other teachers knew he did this so they'd send them to our classroom. He'd sometimes take an entire hour (I'd counted) out of our class time just humiliating this kid or few kids sent in for things like not doing their work or causing disruptions. He'd sometimes put their sloppy unfinished work or something on the projector and make fun of it. If the kid started crying he'd tell them to suck it up or call them names. And he was actually really well liked by the students, just the ones he wasn't an abusive motherfucker to

#disability #actually disabled #adhd #actually neurodivergent #adhd brain #actually autistic #autism #autistic #actually adhd #ableism #i wish mr. Q a very kill yourself #you know the teacher that would pick a select few nd kids to target the whole year #yup that was him. fucked up part is i wasn't even in those few #just got called out when we'd line up but this one girl like #ok i don't like to armchair dx but that was an adhd kid if i ever met one #chatty with volume control issues. inattentive. couldn't organize. always got yelled at to #stop bouncing her leg or fidgeting. struggled to sit still #and boy did he target her #hope she's doing alright

[harrylovesspaezle]

I need to talk about Ed making Izzy disabled

If you are going to be mad at disabled fans who are upset that the only physically disabled character on the show got killed off, because "he was a dick! he threatened and hurt ed so he had it coming!" then you need to absolutely block me. There is nothing, nothing that Izzy could have done that made him deserve getting mutilated resulting in him having a physical disability for life. It's "Izzy made him do it" when Ed's behavior is bad, but when Izzy is a bad person he apparently deserves everything that happens to him. Imagine your boss making you disabled because you pushed back on his behavior and made him angry. I'm not here to excuse Izzy's actions, the guy did bad shit. But even IF Izzy was a systematic abuser(which he is not), Ed used his authority in a terrible way, and as a disabled person i absolutely hated seeing it.

Characters die, and that's okay. I personally would have loved it if i got to see him thrive after overcoming all that, but i did not get to. So please just let me be a bit upset that my disabled character died after finally recovering and learning to live with one leg.

#“but izzy's behavior was out of line” yeah it was #HE STILL DID NOT DESERVE TO BE DISABLED FOREVER #and about the “its just piracy” thing #if it's “just piracy” then why has it never happened before #if this was normal behavior from ed then izzy would have lost his leg ages ago #you don't know what disability is like #how dehumanizing it can be #especially when someone does it to you purposefully #disability #physical disability #izzy hands #ofmd #our flag means death #edward teach #edward teach critical

[whorejolras]

i'm saying it. i don't think joly would work in a hospital. i think his medical career would be informed by his politics + radicalisation and his + his friends regular drug use, he would be outraged at how the medical industry handles drug users, also at the medical industrial complex in general, so he would find a reputable community led harm reduction organisation to work for 🫶🏻

#joly #it also works because the idea that modern les amis wouldn't all have a million jobs and volunteer roles in community organising #and you know... do direct community action to support people... instead of just little hypothetical meetings where they debate hypothetical #problems.... #that idea is so bullshit and i know it's written by people who only have indoor people problems and don't realise most radicals actually do #things... but still it annoys me #and he would hate working in a hospital #not that the harm reduction work wouldn't be stressful and high intensity too but he would rather it for the love of community #also it wouldn't be hard because as a disabled person he would already be radicalised against doctors and medical industry in general #les amis #les mis #mine #i realise as a disabled drug using cane user i could #write joly really really well #the best joly scene is in world ain't ready where in one scene he's so excited for the battle of the bands dancing around yelling and stuff #then they pick him up and he's like 'tonight is a sitting night' URGH that's so real it almost made me cry #anyway joly feelings good morning

[fma-character-takes]

I keep seeing a lot of “modern au” Edward ideas where people completely erase his disability by replacing his prosthetics with tattoos, so here’s a new headcanon I have:

Modern Au Edward would slap stickers on his prosthetics. I mean like little skulls or gargoyle stickers he bought off red bubble or something, and you know he stuck em on there good. Winry definitely yells at him every time she notices he’s slapped another one on there.

I do also think Ed would have tattoos, but replacing BOTH of his prosthetics with tattoos just erases his disability

#ed can have tattoos and still be disabled guys 🙏 #he can also still be disabled if you make a modern au #his disability is like #The Literal Plot of the show #besides its much more fun to think of all the chaos he could get into with STICKERS #especially bumper stickers #those bad boys are on for LIFE #winry would KILL HIM #edward elric #fmab #ed elric #fma #fullmetal alchemist #fullmetal alchemist brotherhood #edward elric headcanon #fma brotherhood #fma:b #fullmetal alchemist 2003 #fullmetal alchemist headcanon #fma: brotherhood #fma: b #fullmetal alchimist brotherhood

[idiosyncraticrednebula]

I will always find the fact that Eric loved and accepted Ariel as she was, presumably mute (without being aware of what had taken place prior at all) to be very loving and amazing. That goes to show how much he loved her and also how much of a compassionate and patient person he was. This is also the only Disney Princess couple where one party wasn't even human, and that did not bother him at all, either. I think that's a great message to send to children, and since the movie has a leading lady, to girls, specifically. You will be able to find a guy who loves and accepts you as you are and will support you in your dreams.

#ariel #eric #disney #the little mermaid #meta #disney meta #character analysis #txt #it also makes him ahead of his era because at that point people definitely did not give a damn about disabled people #and eric just assumed ariel to be disabled but he still loved her no matter what #and ariel has also been read as an autistic character which would even more subtext to the relationship #i love stanning the best disney princess and prince 💁🏽‍♀️ #honestly i think that movie did that message slightly better than batb tbh #don't get me wrong i love that movie but tlm prolly did it better

[keepthetension]

still stuck on mhok's trauma, unsurprisingly. i keep thinking about the opening scenes of this show, showing us day losing his sight, and mhok losing rung. i really thought that the show would spend equal time and care on both

my first post about this show was pointing out that the first shot of day is a close up of his eyes, and the first time we see mhok, he's holding something in his mouth. and i thought it was so interesting that we see mhok gagged, because society generally doesn't care what people who've been incarcerated have to say. or poor people. and by and large, it doesn't care about the voices of traumatized people, either

and i was so curious to see what the show was going to do with that. i can't believe the show itself was never really interested in what mhok has to say

and i'm stuck on mhok's time in hawaii. the show highlighted over and over again how poor he is, and we know that he didn't like studying. what are his english skills like? we saw singha there, and i think one other thai person. was that the extent of his social circle? he seemed pretty happy to leave hawaii behind, so did he make no new friends? did he spend his days off just sitting in his room by himself, the way day did when he went to songkla with mhok?

i assume he and porjai were still in touch, but he moved abroad at a time when his ptsd was getting worse, and in the wake of a terrible breakup, and he just walked all of that off? alone???

feeling overly protective and over-responsible is absolutely an understandable trauma response for mhok, but you know what else is? losing a relationship, and feeling like you HAVE to go back and fix it, and that if you can just get a do-over, you'll be able to do everything perfectly this time, and you'll get everything right, and everything will be okay! this makes more sense to me in the final episode than the idea of mhok and day having a happily ever after does

#last twilight the series #last twilight #the thing is i don't think his healing journey had to be explicitly shown and there was plenty you could kind of infer #like going from dumping porjai so he doesn't drag her down to telling day he's done playing games and WILL ask him out at the finish line #that's a big step! it says a lot about his headspace and how he sees himself! #but i started getting nervous when PORJAI told day about rung OFFSCREEN. mhok didn't even share that himself! and it wasn't her place tbh! #lol i even kinda understood where day was coming from in ep11 because mhok never mentioned the nightmares and flashbacks and stuff #and you CAN hide that stuff from a sighted partner too ofc but it made sense that day'd wonder what else mhok could hide from him like i ge #why that'd make day feel extra vulnerable! but no somehow the breakup was ALL about pity? i still don't totally get that tbh. and all the #trauma stuff was just pushed under the rug?? and i wonder if day was pitying mhok by insisting he take the opportunity to go abroad #like: you're poor when else are you going to get an opportunity like this? i don't THINK that's what was happening but i can't unthink it #idk my heart just aches for mhok #the quadruple whammy of poverty + trauma + classism + incerceration and i thought all of that would play a bigger role #also by the way ptsd is a disability too!

[brakish-tea]

I think in order to get rid of programmed and/or internalized abelism in society, we need to get rid of capitalism. Abled people don't want to lose their invincibility complex because that they don't want to have to rely on others or need a support network. And that isolation is something that I think results from capitalism. Like if we understood more widely that we are all interconnected and need to help each other then I think disability would stop being so scary for newly or newly discovered disabled folk and would be less stigmatized as 'weakness' by abelists. It wouldn't fix the problem but I think it would help.

#also noone is supposed to be standing 8 hours a day what the fuck #i thought that was weird as a kid #which in retrospect was a symptom but #like still. give that poor store dude a chair he suffers enough #abelism #anti capitalism #disability #cpunk #cripple punk #i dont think youre weak if you cant match medival prodestant work standards #just saying #like i go to this group thing and everything is free and accessible and we all work together to keep it running and its like #'wow if it were me and these queers i think the world would be kinder'

[autumn-opossum]

My theory for why Dr Hemlock’s hand is always hurting is that he’s a beginner crocheter who hasn’t learned how to properly hold his tension yet. The glove is a compression glove

#he wanted to start up a side business in case the whole evil scientist thing doesn’t work out #I’m definitely correct #dr hemlock #royce hemlock #dr royce hemlock #the bad batch #tbb #star wars #ster wers #i’ll actually be so annoyed though if we never get an explanation #very sick of the disabled villain for the sake of reflecting their corrupt nature trope #either way it’s still using that trope #but it would be slightly less annoying if we’re given an actual reason for it

[obstinatecondolement]

It feels like every day I read attempts to debunk the social model of disability that fundamentally misunderstand what the social model of disability is and who the people who developed that model were, including what the nature of their disabilities was, and I want to scream.

But I don't, because yelling at people on the internet is basically pointless. Instead I check to see that I'm not mutuals with whoever reblogged said misunderstanding and vague about it.

#'but [x impairment] would still exist and have [y implications] even if the world were completely accessible!' #okay well yeah but equating impairment and disability is explicitly the opposite of the social model of disability #the union of the *physically impaired* against segregation who developed this model #*were* by and large privileged in ways many other disabled people are not‚ yes #mike oliver who wrote the fucking book on the social model of disability #(social work with disabled people‚ published in 1983) #was a white man with a phd who pioneered an academic field‚ for one #and there *are* criticisms about the limitations to a purely social model of disability to be made #but like... our pal mike oliver was also a wheelchair user who broke his neck in a swimming accident as a teenager #which caused paralysis that affected his upper and lower body #not a clueless 'physically abled' autistic who didn't understand how physical limitations work #he lived the first 17 years of his life as a physically abled person #so I think he was aware of the difference between what his body could do before and after his accident #and like 'disability is socially constructed' #is not saying that differences between people and what they are able to do or do easily do not exist?? #my eyesight is so bad that if I could not access corrective lenses I would be functionally blind #and even with glasses my myopia and astigmatism cause a lot of tangible effects on my body #e.g. migraines‚ eyestrain‚ so many floaters that even looking through pristine glasses is like the lenses are scratched to hell #but my eyesight is not considered a disability #because the accommodations that enable me to participate in society fully in this area are so standard as to be invisible #can I magically see without corrective lenses? no #does wearing glasses not being considered a disability mean that I do not get migraines and eyestrain? no #so the arguments the thing I am vaguing are trying to debunk are not what is being argued! #well seems like I screamed about it after all #oh well

[crybaby-bkg]

cw: talks of illness, needle mention/getting a shot

Bakugou loves you in your entirety. Loves your smart mouth and your little grins and fluttering lashes whenever you’re begging him for something. Swears to whoever would listen that he’d do anything for you.

Even when that includes taking care of you when your sickness becomes too great. When your body is too heavy to let you sit up on your own. Dabs a cold rag against your forehead when you break out in sweats from your low, holds a cup of orange juice to your lips (hand squeezed himself when you told him you hated how sour the processed ones tasted), unwraps your candy wrappers when your hands shake too much. He dotes over you the whole time, asks if you’re okay but only reply with a nod when you have a mouthful of candy, let’s you lay all over him when technically you’re in range again but your physicality hasn’t yet caught up.

And when you’re high, he doesn’t berate you. Doesn’t guilt trip you for eating a little more than expected, taking a little less insulin that you had calculated. He only kisses your forehead, brings you water bottle after water bottle when you go through them, doesn’t complain when he has to keep pausing the tv for your bathroom breaks.

Bakugou loves you in your entirety, with every ounce of his being. Never faults you when you’re moody, only asks in the most gentle tone if you’ve checked your numbers lately, and doesn’t hold it against you when you confess that that’s the root of your attitude right now.

He gives you your shots and draws a little pinprick of blood from your fingers, even though it terrifies him to do so. He’d hate to fuck up, but your belly has gotten so sore from the overuse of the area. Stands above you on the side of the bed, bent at the waist, his tongue poking out the side of his mouth, eyebrows downturned in concentration the whole time. He talks the step aloud of giving you a shot in your thigh, over wipes the area with alcohol, holds the fat there tightly until you giggle that he can relax a little. You have to remind him not to hold his breath when the needle slides in smoothly, and that he doesn’t have to kiss the area every time he finishes.

Bakugou rubs the knots out in the puffy areas, the lumps hiding underneath your skin. Gets a warm washcloth and soothes it over your skin when it gets sensitive to the touch. Doesn’t let you hide them when you undress, only kisses and kisses until the ache is somehow gentler on your muscles.

And on the days where you struggle, Bakugou is always there, a pillar for you to lean on. When the insurance is doing stupid shit with life threatening medicine, he’s there handling everything when your frustration takes over. When the media or fans make offensive stereotypes or comments or even ‘jokes’, he doesn’t hesitate to educate them, put them in their place, make them apologize even when he knows it’s hit something vulnerable in you. He fills you up on carbs before you go out drinking, and puffs his chest out when he gives you your shot in front of your friends with a little more confidence.

He annoys you though, with your CGM. He’ll send Kirishima or Mina over to your place when he gets a notification that you’re either high or low. Sends you a text that you’re rapidly dropping and better be stuffing some skittles in your mouth right now.

Bakugou loves you, and never in spite of your illness. He loves you, with your illness, with your lumps, with your mood swings and sensitivity when things just won’t go right today. He loves you, with everything that makes him whole, he loves you.

#this was both so hard and so easy to write #I think about this stuff all the time whenever I do something betes related #by actually forming words and an idea around it was so daunting #do not perceive me lmfao #forgot to mention but he also gives you at home pedicures with absolutely no complaint <3 #even if you aren’t a t1d just know that he will still love you so much in your entirety #and your illnesses and ailments are pieces and parts of you that he cherishes with his whole being <3 #also if anyone of you decide to write about your illness/diseases/disorders #pls tag me!!!! there’s not enough disability representation and I would love to see more #even if I don’t know anything about it bc he helps me to learn something new all the while!!!! #I love u guys :) #—new treat in the streets! 🍫 #bakugou treats! 🍬 #tw: needles

[atopvisenyashill]

one day i will explain how my complete indifference to both tyrion as a character and his fear/hatred of cersei ties into my hidden tragic backstory but today is not that day.

#i’m still gonna write long meta about the way tyrion & scorpius’ disabilities & loss of their mothers impact their worldview tho #um but the thing is my most controversial take is that cersei is justified in her hatred of tyrion #i understand that she hates him for ableist reasons but he also constantly does awful things that would make Anyone hate him #play stupid games win stupid prizes & unfortunately he is just as collasaly bad at politics as his bitch ass daddy!! #i have figured out i’m putting off adwd bc of him too so there is that aksjsjdj

[simplyender]

look i love spot just as much as anybody else but if i see somebody actually unironically siding with him and saying hes in the right, im gonna think theyre fucking insane

#WHAT DO YOU MEAN ITS MILES FAULT--------- #the only legitimate grievance spot has with miles is how upsetting it mustve been to have his traumatic backstory be so easily dismissed #otherwise #how the fuck was miles supposed to know ohnn was there? how the fuck is it miles fault he SAVED THE ENTIRE GODDAMN MULTIVERSE? #spot legitimately needs help and he wont be finding it in KILLING MILES DAD #(not that spot can seem to get help considering his condition which explains his severe mental deterioration) #(which probably also resulted from the isolation that came right after a trauma conga line of becoming disabled+getting ostracized+ #+losing his job+losing any support system he mightve had) #but i am not blaming miles for any of that. thats THE SYSTEM #babey!!! #another note: spot worked for evil inc. literally what was he expecting would happen? he was down to shoot spiderman for trespassing like #he was very much not working for the good guys. #mind you even if im firmly on team 'actions have consequences'i still think what happened to spot was downright horrific and #he didnt deserve to be hurt to such a degree but. shrug. im gonna make a whole post on him some day i swear. #the spot #spiderverse spoilers #atsv spoilers #atsv #across the spiderverse #johnathon ohnn #miles morales #<- dont you dare touch a hair on his or his familys head wretched bagel man (affectionate) #spot

[anotherpapercut]

smth that I've found difficult in navigating life as an autistic adult is that I don't want to be infantilized, like I want/need to be viewed as a full adult, but sometimes my needs seem childish to people. so like I fight to be taken seriously but then when I do actually need help I can't get it because only a child would need it and I should be able to handle if I really want to be viewed as an adult

#i just. i do not feel like i am fit to work. but its incredibly difficult to obtain ssi and then ssi sucks #literally only have found 3 jobs that meshed w my autism and 2 of them i cant do anymore bc of physical disability #and 1 of them is still my job (math tutor ❤️) we're only allowed to work up to 19.5 hrs a week whoch i cant live off of #anyway this is all to say i feel like a dumb childish idiot because i cant function if im not wearing my favorite comfy shirt #and i know its ridiculous but i just will not be able to focus on anything else all day sometimes #i just need to be in my comfort clothing sometimes so i can feel like it's giving me a hug all day #and i know theyre just never going to understand that because of how stupid it sounds #i wish i had like a cool relative who was rich. i mean i do but hes not THAT cool. who would let me live in like an apartment they rent

[adjectiveadjectiveadjective]

frank herbet had a nun fetish. my proof?

- the bene geserit's whole deal is that they're nuns who have a sexy voice so powerful they can make you do whatever they want and the only people who can resist are basically just more powerful nuns. or paul i guess idk fuck that guy. they're the archetypical dommy mommies

- duncan idaho's (frank's favorite character) final form is a guy who is designed to get women addicted to having sex with him (literally a hentai plot). the bene geserit made him Like That because they couldnt use spice so they just decided to fuck everyone into submission instead

i swear to got frank was fully yankin' it while writing by the end of the series bro is 100% cum brained

#i literally dont need to say anything else #the way duncan ends up really just proves my point #dune #spoilers #i guess? #i honestly would not be surprised if duncan was a bit of a self insert but that's speculation at that point #unrelated but dune 2 knocked it out of the ball park when it came to making the fremen likeable Human Beings with Thoughts and Opinions #stellar stuff #the other adaptations did a shit job at that so the bar was in hell but like really above and beyond #really made it super clear who is the bad guy #just a great example of building off the source material and fixing issues #granted ofc its not perfect but ill be damned if it isnt really good #i still think mini series baron harkonen was the best bc they made him a human threat #like not the butt of the joke for being fat or disabled. like they actually made him elegant and brutal without resorting to using his #fatness and disability as the means to that #straight up a great baron #the new one? not so much. i think they rely too much of the fatness and disability for my liking. at least he isnt comical but still. #bad taste in the mouth for sure #feyd was handled excellent they made him perfectly scary. rabban couldve used more but idk hes ultimately not important #but yeah the baron's been handled better. #the second season of the miniseries did delve a bit into early 2000's insanity but thats par for the course #the first season was pretty fire #but overall i still think the most recent iteration's been the best #even with the baron being made monstrous rather than human