#he just sleeps all day or drinks

[analogboii]

smh guess imma have to throw hands with my cousins bio dad cause hes the worst. what planet can i blame bc lately men have been extra shitty, ive been working overtime here lmfao

#my cousin talked to me for an hour about how awful his dad is #and theres nothing he can do bc he HAS to go and see him bc hes only 14 #and again im mad bc kids should have more say into whether or not they go see their parents #especially as teens bc usually they know by now #cause some of the stuff he told me was super fucked #his dad told him he wasnt allowed to do fucking HOMEWORK at his house #that it should already be done #and its not like his dad does anything with him #he just sleeps all day or drinks #so my cousin just watches tv cause he also doesnt allow him to bring his phone from his moms house #he doesnt let him talk to his mom while hes at his house #so he has a flip phone over there tha hardly works #and he lives in the middle of fucking nowhere so theres nothing for him to do #this poor kid #hes so sweet and im going to personally fight his father

[jynersq]

+

#last night we were both a little sleepy. #a little wine-drunk. #i asked him to play me something on the guitar while i leaned on his shoulder. #he said he only knows a few songs. i said that's fine #whatever you want. #first song: like real people do by hozier #which has a very tender place in my heart because it's the last song i sang for a real performance (2015). #so i still know all the words. #and he didn't know that! #it just happened to be the song. #anyway it was 1230am. anyway my jacket smells like his apartment. #anyway early this morning i said i thought romance was built of small acts of devotion. like how every morning my dad makes my mom coffee #because she sleeps worse and takes longer to wake up and he wants her to not have to worry about another thing in the morning. #when she comes downstairs every day he has it ready for her to take to work. #he makes it separately because he drinks an entirely different coffee than she does. but he makes it because he wants her to have it. #it's one of many small repeated acts of love they do for each other. they're still in love with each other after 30 years. #anyway my boyfriend is a notorious instant coffee fiend. #it's easy and he likes the flavor. #but when we got up this morning he pulled out a bag of coffee beans and a hand-grinder and said: would you like me to make you coffee?

[fiendishartist2]

nvm turns out i just bring more tma doodles

(image 1): "maybe if i pretend to have a nervous breakdown elias will let me leave" "i think im in love with my boss"

(image 2): "DRUGS GIVE ME DRUGS GIVE ME DRUGS-" "can you feel the love tonight~"

#im so bored bc its like 2am but i cant sleep bc i had a nap in the middle of the day #so im just like sitting here... wide awake....... #whatever #to no ones surprise i am once again drawing jon in a fancy little outfit #this time its a jumpsuit #they're so sillay to ME. to you its a tragedy but im different #im rewatching tma rn and i just started s3 and ik i posted about ut yesterday but martin is so so so funny #all jon does so far is: be a little prick to martin specifically. stalk his coworkers. and get accused of murder and then disappear #and martin is like 😳😳😳 #i believe that they only really started building a connection after prentiss trapped martin in his flat bc jon is noticably nicer to martin #and even in s2 when everything is falling apart btwn jon and tim and jon is becoming more irrational- martin cares about him #so i think s2 is when martin was like oooh okay. so im in love with him. esp with daisy's interview like thats proof to me that he was- #-at least crushing on jon at that point lol #and his continued faith in jon leading up to and proceeding leitners murder is just extra proof that martin cared a lot about jon from- #-prentiss onward #oh also that song martin is singing is na na na by mcr and jon is singing can you feel the love tonight by elton john #in my heart i believe jon went out for drinks at least once with the s1 crew even tho i know in my brain he probably wouldnt </3 #my art #doodles #tma #the magnus archives #jonathan sims #martin blackwood #jonmartin #sorry if they're hard to see im allergic to good phones and its dark in my room rn

[clonememesfrikyeah]

*Gives Rex a cursed amulet that only speaks in an ancient elderich tongue and gives him strange dreams about a sea cave, makes him hear distant whispers, see disembodied apparitions and have visions of a moss covered bog forest*

#the whole time he’s just convinced it’s just the lack of sleep copious amounts of caffeine and stims and the ptsd getting to his head #and he just goes about his days like :))) this is fine #while shaking drinking his 6th cup of coffee mixed with vodka as the shadow man that’s been lurking in the corner side eyes him #Rex refuses to sleep pass out or medicate because he owes the hat man money and he don’t want to see him #captain rex #my post #star wars #tcw #the clone wars #the prequels #the 501st #when he tries to get rid of it it just magically appears back to him #and then the ghosts get mad at him so they open all the drawers and cupboards in his vicinity #and push shit off his desk #and throw sharp objects at him #until he apologizes and promises not to get rid of it again #him and the amulet have a toxic relationship

[pansyfemme]

something about my father doing normal dad activities like falling asleep in an armchair terrifys me

#context: my father is a chronic insomniac and has been since birth. he was doing no less than three all nighters until around age 55 #he’s slowed down a bit the past few years anyway. but he got covid a year ago and it turned into long covid. he’s rlly slowing down and its #scary bc i literally have never seen my dad nap before this year #he drinks a ton of caffine all day and night and avoids things like chamomille and lavender bc he hates the feeling of being tired #but like. now he just. sleeps #and i know that should be a good thing but it makes me worried #bc its unavoidable how much older he’s getting. #my dad’s 62. im 18. i get worried a lot i wont have my parents around as long as most kids. and everytime they get even slightly sick i get #worried..

[redstrewn]

#it is my headcanon that leander is mentally not quite right #bc i am not #redstrewn talks #would fit his theme of intangible otherness tbh #of invisible “monstrosity” #“ure making it up. its all in ur head. everybody does that. thats normal” and then they get pissed at u for failing to #meet neurotypical expectations #ok. #i also relate to the “mind over matter” and “u can do and be anything u want to” that he goes hard at #i was like that before i had a crash. idk what its called but undiagnosed adhders could do very well in school and then just crash #me rn #i would work hard and “play hard.” aka cry and scroll on my phone while not sleeping bc i felt like i had to or id go insane #who knew it was bc of dopamine deficiency! #i could put an act of normalcy. i have good days. and that would be weaponized against me for all of my many more bad ones #“you did it before you can do it again.” yes except im disabled #my version of “cocaine and drinking w ur friends” is chronically online and sugar #not to mention obsessions w crushes #not broken enough to be believed to be broken but broken enough to suffer #RSD is fucking crazy tbh. im headcanoning leander w that due to his insecurity and inferiority complex #this is why i like art and fantasy. u can make it mean whatever u need it to mean to u.

[genderfluidgothwitch]

Wow I stayed awake for a whole hour. Sounds like it's time for a nap!

#I gotta drink something first #cuz I'm pretty dehydrated #I mean I was sleeping all day yesterday so it's not surprising just annoying #hubby had to go to an appointment and then he's gonna get me more orange juice and crackers

[osamusbigtits]

I think akaashi is at peak mental health when it looks like he's at his lowest. if he's doing well, that's when you have to be concerned. if akaashi completes all of his work early, bokuto goes into crisis mode because Something Is Wrong.

#akaashi gets work done early to just lay in bed literally all day long #he doesnt eat or drink just sleeps #depressed akaashi 😔 #hq #akaashi keiji #bokuaka

[bhalspawn]

hey fun fact! wheelchair accessible means i can get inside on my own. if i need a team of at least 3 people to make sure i dont break my neck it's not accessible

#also shout out to the sleeping arrangements: i was on an air mattress on the dining room floor #just a reminder i dont fucking have legs. so that was fun #they were going to put me in the guest house which is downhill. an unpaved uneven hill #if someone had let me go accidentally i wouldve gone straight into the lake #if i HAD gone down (again with a team of at least 3 people. at night. when everyones been drinking.) i wouldve been stuck alone bc it poured #rain from like. midnight on Christmas eve on #so the first night i was on an air mattress and it sunk down during the night so my legs were directly on the hardwood #and they hurt so bad all day! so i had to sleep on the couch in the living room. which meant i had to wait for everyone else to go to bed #and i got like. 5 hrs of a sleep bc everyone was up till 3 and i was woken up at 8am bc my shitty uncle (unrelated to this he's just an ass) #was turning on my cousins daughters toys. elmo slide woke me up which was fun #AND its not like there wasnt a bed downstairs. i found out the master bedroom is downstairs as i got on the air mattress #i dont think its selfish to be upset that they didnt offer. they made me sleep on the dining room floor. #and i was like. 15 feet away from them and they didnt bother lowering their voices which i get #i mean it was christmas eve and i went to bed early bc i hadnt slept well the day before but #they also had the tv on super loud and just. i would be less annoyed if there wasnt a bed i couldve had. instead of. again. a hardwood floor #i mean. fucks sake #wytxt

[cubot]

Ate my first meal in over 30+ hours (leftover ramen from a restaurant as the previous meal + a persimmon) since I got into a stupid argument with my dad yesterday night and then tried to bring it up hours later and he replied pettily instead of actually wanting to work it out (work it ALL out).

So I gave up on him. I'm being picked up by my mom in about seven hours for Christmas at my grandma's. I'm coming back with my sister and my brother's family ONLY because we got my brother's baby big gifts and I want to see her play with them. Sleeping over here. And then my friend is picking me up the 26th as early as she can. (I didn't want to bother my friends at all because it's the fucking holidays).

Not leaving this room beyond bathroom breaks (got my fucking period for the third time in three weeks and this time it's the worst) was vastly preferable than passing by him.

I told him I'm never coming back and he said it was emotional manipulation. Maybe. Maybe because I wanted to actually have a conversation with you to fix both of us so neither of us are uncomfortable. But I'm 27 years old and I am sick with my stupid ass parents and their emotional instability.

#ramblings #i wasn't even hungry but when i stood up at 1 AM to go up since he went to bed an hour previous #i got faint and buzzing in my ears so i guess it was a good idea to get some food in me. #drinking a monster but that will put me to sleep (mostly to help with preventing a caffeine headache tomorrow) along with my meds #hoping to get four hours of sleep because i slept all day and don't really need it but want to pass the time. #.... but if my meds don't make me sleepy maybe i'll pull out pokemon and just pull another all nighter

[terraos]

Three days of hard work! My sims are living luxury lives (they're all so mad all of the time)

#save me from this hell #they have sleeping bags and a roof over their electronics so they don't break they're all fine #the poor vampire can't make friends with any of the other house members so he has nobody to drink blood of #the spellcaster made a potion from one of his experiments on the cauldron #i was keeping it just in case the vampire was starving and couldnt eat #and then he got thirsty and failed to drink from two random townies that were in the neighborhood so i was like fuck it #though maybe i should let the computer be unroofed so it breaks more often....i need to train the vampire in handiness #too busy spending all the money they make on farm an garden supplies. so they can make money #the spellcaster is the only one with a job and i didn't really even want him to have a job but like. he was just standing around all day #meh he can retire once the house is built #can you tell that i'm using a mansion blueprint as the base for their house. also the lots are so small i wish we had huge ass lots #i wish there were custom worlds like in sims 3 :( #i wish there were pet genetics like in the sims 3 this shit sucks ass i can't wait for paralives

[frightgothcar]

looking at him isnt enough i want him to fall asleep on my chest 

#like the kind of sleep where youve been working outside all day and when you come in the door its like stepping into winter and youre too #damn tired to even shower and you get your muddy shoes off and maybe your pants too if youre lucky and just collapse on the bed and its #still too damn hot to cuddle but the fan starts blowing and the surface of your skin is growing icicles and hes kinda wrapped around you and #you can hear his breathing go steady and youre so fucking exausted but a little bit of light is coming through the window just enough so you #can see his face and youre like wow. and the next day when you wake up you get to kiss him on the forehead and massage his sore muscles and #go back out to work except the hard part is over and you just have to clean and at the height of the day you go back inside to rest because #the sun is brutal and you drink iced tea and listen to him talk about something he loves #while laying your head down on the table like its fourth grade and you just stayed up late for the first time and you go out in the evening #just to wrap things up and its still warm but not hot and the insects and frogs are singing and the air smells fresh and alive and you #watch him play with his cat who isnt allowed outside usually but shes on a little expadition and its just so adorable and once the mosquitos #start biting you go inside and shower and spend the evening in bed talking about your plans and what youll do next and its just a lovely m #moment #maybe you listen to music on a low volume while you fall asleep and you think about how the other night made you just that much more greatfu #for this one and that you have someone with you who wants to do both the literal/metaphorical long days of hard work under the hot sun and #chilling out just enjoying each others company

[rosielav]

Bellefast has been coming to me in my dreams recently, in a similar way to how Monteith and Jibblie do

I find myself at The Circus, but in a sleeping quarter of some kind. And I can hear the festivities going on outside, in the big top. I'm apparently just passing through, but know everyone well enough that they let me stay on the property.

The only person I don't know is Bellefast, which is strange since he's the Ringleader, you tihnk I'd know him quite well, if I know all the clowns and performers and stagehands.

And he doesn't know me. So when he stumbles into the sleeping quarters, whiskey and candy floss on his breath, and falls into the bed, he's caught by surprise. As am I.

It feels like maybe a creative exercise? Maybe my brain wants to flesh this character out more, so it's putting him into my almost asleep brain so that I have to learn more about him.

So far I've learned he has a drinking problem.

#Rosie rambles #My dreams have been very strange lately especially my almost dreams like I'm about to fall asleep state #Whenever I describe things like this none of my friends think it's normal #Like to fall asleep I have all these situations play out and scenes and I don't have control over them #I can be like man I wish Monteith was here cause I can't sleep #And then Monteith will crawl out of the closet and Jibblie will be doing cartwheels on his shoulder #And he'll say something to me in a voice I never expect bc that's kind of his thing #And then usually Jibblie will do a trapeas act or something to keep my brain occupied #Trapese? Trapeese? I don't know how to spell it. You know the flips and shit #But the past two or three nights it's been Bellefast and I have little control over him #Meaning I can't think for him to say something or do something he just does what he wants #Which is to sleep. Drunkenly. Next to me #I didn't even mention his mind control powers but it's more like... Persuasion? Or like.. I want this #So you want this now too #Idk how to describe it exactly but it's kind of like Damien from The Bright Sessions except he uses it for good #...... Mostly. He mostly uses it for the big top performances and getting everyone genuinely excited about The Circus #He doesn't implant false feelings into your brain it's more like he coaxes out stuff like you WANT to be having a great time right now #So then they DO have a great time #I guess it's like releasing your inhibition? Versus mind control technically #But yea the drinking problem is more of a concern to me lol he relies on it after every performance regardless of the time of day #OC: Bellefast #I think I want to tag my OC places too #The Circus

[sweet-like-hypoglycemia]

Having a hard time sleeping tonight. I can't stop thinking about how nice his hands would feel all over me. Or how soft his lips look. I think I get to work with him one last time before bootcamp. What a stressful blessing.

#his eyes and hands honestly kill me #and hes so very tall #i bet he tastes good #but how nice it would be if he didn't and then i could just stop thinking about him #ive never had a crush this long #its probably because weve worked together so rarely #text #mine #rant #can't sleep #also i think i have heartburn #ive been eating hotsauce and drinking energy drinks all day

[depresseddepot]

what is it about certain types of songs that make it feel like my soul is being pulled out of my body by some strong magnet. my liberation notes by choi jung in and outro by m83 and overture 2 by sleeping at last and sora tsutsumi by masakatsu takagi and across the ocean by azure ray and i stand corrected by vampire weekend and unbearably white by vampire weekend and lullaby by lord huron and where's my love by syml and take me back by heroe and the animal crossing wild world opening screen soundtrack. there's something to be said about the heartache that comes from a beautiful, loud, emotional ballads but it's the quiet, peaceful ones that really seem to get me

#ive been drinking so maybe this makes no sense #if you want a quick example of what i mean then listen to the first 30 seconds of my liberation notes by choi jung in #after that listen to overture 2 by sleeping at last if you want more #after THAT move on to outro by m83 #anyways I realize the reason all these songs get me choked up is purely circumstantial #like my liberation notes wouldn't make me feel nearly as much if i hadn't watched the show (PLEASE watch it) #(seriously its on netflix and the writer is so so so talented. if you like these songs at all you'd love that show (probably)) #or like the acww soundtrack. that is so very specific to my world experience lol #but is there a genre name for these types of songs??? the slow calm and very subtle instrumentals/mostly piano?? #some of these are a little different than the others (the vampire weekend ones are a bit more fast paced than the others) #but the beginning of i stand corrected (the humming) makes me so so so relaxed #and the repeating towards the end of unbearably white is so soothing #ugh. its so hard having such great music taste /j #also please listen to across the ocean by azure ray. and please watch coffee prince #if i keep putting requests out into the universe maybe one day someone will actually care about me enough to do so #please engage with me. please engage with me. please engage with me. please engage with me. #my interests are so so important to me. please engage with me #it's never actually happened (someone engaging w something i desperately care about) but. maybe one day idk #its like that poem about how she gave him book recommendations and he read them and kept asking for more #thats what i want. i just want someone to indulge me #please engage with me #sorry #vent

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#ahaha we r playing it fast and fucking loose out here in the middle of fucking nowhere #like for real. dangerous fucking day. why? bc being around ppl stresses me out so fucking much i cant function #we've done 16hrs of driving in the last 3 days and i have not eaten much bc i get so stressed in restaurants #and so many things either bother my braib or my stomach and nothing tastes good and i csnt advocate for myself and if someone else tries to #advocate for me i get freaked out and paranoid abt being watched #so yeah. low on food and im so neurotic that i cant pee in public restrooms. which is not good so i dont drink much which is double not #good. which is to say that i got up todsy at 6am in an undernourished condition and then did fucking like 8hrs of field work in #the fucking desert. real real bad move. do not fucking do that. my pee looks so bad. god if i dont have a panic attack or burst into tears #by the end of the week it'll b a miracle. im already going all weird. i have v little bandwidth to pretend to b human then i do field work #and it all goes out the window bc im focused and trying to get things done asap and if things arent efficient i start to freak out. so ppl #will try to joke or talk to me and i just stare at them for a beat too long bc my brain is lagging and its all awkward. just like dont talk #to me and let me get this over with. i basically did lunges for like 5hrs my legs r gonna hurt so bad and we have 4 more days. like it was #bad today. like the undergrad with us also thought so. i feel so bad 4 him but hes a good sport. i dont kno whats gonna happen the rest of #the week. i got back todsy and wandered around bc there r like 3 rooms in this field house and i csnt relax if someone else is in the room #i went outside and ate a jelly sandwich sitting on the ground like a weirdo. like im pretty sure im noticeably being weird bc i do try to b #slightly charismatic normally but rn im stripped to my base elements like. oh ur talking to me? ok u arent saying anything interesting so #im moving on. im not gonna speak unless i absolutely have to and im gonna find a corner to hide away in. pls do not contact #hopefully im so stressed ill skip my period bc i do not wanna deal with that on top of everything. and the fact that im wide fucking awake #at like 11.30 after the day ive had is not looking like a good sign on that front. its a sign if fucking crazy. im laying #here on this bunkbed in a too warm room. no pillow bc im a freak and i dont wanna sleep bc im not tried and i cant sleep around other ppl #ugh so many bad vibes. do not do what i did. pls. that was real dangerous. #god i think that was at least a 13 or 14hr day. fuck that. i don't even care abt this project and im worried that's showing #not to mention the bad thing i did like a month back when i was losing my mind has caught up to me. its fine. awkwardly annoying but fine #hhhh actions have consequences ☹️ #tw food #unrelated