#having a really good memory and being an anxious person since childhood really is a hellish combination

[inbarfink]

The ‘Escapades‘ in TGAA1 are already such a top-tier idea. I mean, I really wish we could’ve had those in any of the other games somehow.... Overall they’re an incredibly delightful addition to the game, and taking them individually, the least good ones are still like ‘well, that was a fun little vignette for these characters, I’m just not sure if it 100% gels with the main events of the game’.

And I think my favorite one right now has to be the first one, ‘In the Defendant Antechamber’. It just does… so much great stuff to the Asoryuu dynamic, recontextualizes everything that comes after in a way that makes it even better and just feels like such an Essential Viewing for really understanding these two. 

It’s just… you can go through the entire game with Ryunosuke constantly calling Kazuma his ‘best friend’, the ‘person I trusts more than anyone else’ and you might just casually assume that these two go a long way back. Maybe not as much as Kazuma and Susato since Ryunosuke doesn’t have all the details about his childhood, but seeing how much they mean for each other, they must’ve known each other for a while, right?

NOPE

THEY MET IN COLLEGE

ABOUT A YEAR AGO

They’ve known each other for a year, just a pretty ordinary year of school, and they’re already got that Unbreakable Homoerotic Bond of Trust, and Ryunosuke is fully willing to lay down his life for the sake of Kazuma’s dream of going to London. And Kazuma is fully willing to abandon his literal Life Mission of clearing his dead father’s name and avenging him in the shame of failing to defend Ryunosuke. And he drags Ryunosuke with him to London because he knows that he’s the only one who can keep him from straying from his path. And then Ryunosuke decides to dedicate his entire life in the memory of Kazuma. His college buddy. 

But they’re not just college buddies. Because in that one year, they did forge such powerful emotional bonds that all of these actions make sense for them. Because they’re just that kind of Ridiculous Human Beings and I LOVE IT!!

And the story of how they met is just… perfection. Like, if you look at the pre-‘death’ Asoryuu dynamic, it’s very ‘Japan’s most amazing promising young lawyer-samurai is absolutely enamored with an Anxiety-Ridden Human Disaster’. Kazuma Asogi is the Proudest Moronsexual and Ryunosuke Naruhodo is dating way beyond his league.

But also….the thing that drew Kazuma to Ryunosuke in the first place is the fact that he bested him at something. Kazuma is this rising star at Yumei University, he’s got the brains and the brawn, it seems like he is poised for success and glory for the rest of his days - and then this anxious innocuous little goofball beats him… humiliates him even. Ryunosuke beat the star student of Yumei University without any ambition or ill-intention, he was just being himself, he is just this silly little linguistic dork who likes tongue-twisters. 

And Kazuma feels no real resentment or spite about this defeat. He was beaten at his own game by such a silly little guy and all he feels is respect and affection and appreciation. A desire for friendship. Maybe even love. 

And meanwhile, Ryunosuke has just kinda forgotten that this is how they met. I mean, it's not like he totally forgotten it, but... it doesn't seem to register as particularly Notable in his own memories. It's just not that important to him. That was probably a life-changing unforgettable event for Kazuma, but when Ryunosuke thinks about their friendship he just thinks about hanging out after class and eating Yakisoba together. Because that’s just the kinda guy Ryunosuke is, and I think Kazuma appreciates that just as much as his tongue-twister skills.

Also, it kinda connects to an idea I brought up in a previous post, that Kazuma Asogi is less of a direct counterpart to Miles Edgeworth and more of a… mirror image, an inversion.

Phoenix and Miles’ friendship started with Miles saving Phoenix…

A moment which was a world-changing story for Phoenix that literally defined his entire life, but Miles, although he always kept his memories of Phoenix close to his heart, can barely remember it. 

Ryunosuke and Kazuma’s friendship started with Ryunosuke beating Kazuma. A moment that is… certainly not the most important thing in Kazuma’s life, but one that has certainly made his mark on him, and one that he is not going to forget. But Ryunosuke just... doesn't really think about it unless it's directly brought up.

And it’s just… such a good piece of characterization for both of them on every thematic level, I just love it so much!!

#the great ace attorney #ryunosuke naruhodo #kazuma asogi #asoryuu #great ace attorney #tgaa #tgaac #ryuunosuke naruhodou #dai gyakuten saiban #dai gyatuken saiban #dgs #tgaa chronicles #gaac #naruhodou ryuunosuke #asogi kazuma #kazuma asougi #ace attorney #aa #pwaa #phoenix wright #pheonix wright #phoenix wright ace attorney #gyakuten saiban #aa posting #ace attorney posting #aa meta #ace attorney meta

[kayentokk]

Easy Peasy Sukuna Squeezey(Part 3);What Could Go Wrong

Pairing;Sukuna x Fem! Reader

Summary;What could go wrong during your weekend with Sukuna? Not much except one thing, or one person.

Contains;fluff, lots of fun, ex, sukuna gushing, childhood memories, some cussing

Wc;2,010

A/N;I am literally so sorry, tbh I forgot I made this a series 😅 and then I checked my comments and I was like oh. So my bad guys I will try to update this regularly and get my schedule back together. Also just comment on any of the posts for this series that you want to be tagged to get on the tag list. 

Tag list 🏷️; @charlie-xo

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The week felt like it took forever to be over, exams, loads of homework, part-time job, all that hectic stuff. But this weekend you get to-well you’re not really sure exactly what Sukuna has in store for you but whatever it is you’re excited for it. 

You had texted your roommate the day you were over Sukunas apartment that you’d be staying there at least until the weekend was over. You often stayed at Sukunas for long periods of time when you needed a break or just wanted to hang with your best friend. He never really minded you were pretty good company, in your own words, and he was used to spending long periods of time with you. During school, after school, in the summer, whenever your moms wanted to have a girls night, just whenever. 

Anyways your roommate was obviously cool with it, she had mentioned she wanted to have “company” over anyways so it all worked out. You took Sukuna’s advice and blocked your ex, you were probably going to do that anyways since the relationship was definitely over, so you have no idea if he’s texted or called. Not that you care though, he’s an ass and he should have enough shame, decency, and brains not to call and understand it’s over. 

To be honest you’re at the acceptance stage of grief, it is what it is he wasn’t the one for you, but it still sucks. Sukuna has actually been really helpful, he’s been, for lack of a better word, a great distraction. He won’t tell you what he has planned for tonight though, all he said was to be ready in pajamas. Maybe a movie night? 

You guys used to do those every Friday, but then college got too hectic with it being senior year and all. Sukuna said his classes are pretty easy, although you aren’t too surprised on that one he’s always been exceptionally intelligent, he claims it’s because he just decided to major in business since he’s not exactly sure what he wants to do.

He didn’t want to be a chef, even though he’s exceptionally talented in cooking too, but he’s a waiter at a restaurant for his part time job. When he first got that job you visited to see the restaurant, and him, it was a nice little quiet diner. He was annoyed and disgusted about it on the outside but you could tell he was embarrassed about you visiting, mostly because one time there was a couple that sat in the booth behind you and made comments about, “young love.” And every time you would sit in that same booth just to annoy him because you knew he thought about it each time, it was honestly hilarious. You and him? Being a couple? What a joke.

Sukuna texted he was on his way back, he had a lecture that was in the evening that day and he left a little early to start you guys’ weekend plans. Apparently you hadn’t been paying much attention to any calls or messages because you had about 10 missed calls from your friend and a dozen text messages. You immediately called back.

“Hello? Girl! Why have you not picked up, I’ve been calling you for forever.”

“I’m sorry! I was just laying here, and I had on dnd from when I was in classes earlier. I guess I never turned it off,” you replied in an anxious tone.

Maki just sighed before continuing, “anyways your boyfriend-“

“Ex,” you cut her off before she could even begin.

“Your ex-boyfriend,” she corrected herself with irritation, “has been showing up like every other hour asking about you, and I wasn’t paying much attention before but I’m pretty sure his car was outside yesterday for a while. He’s probably waiting on you, has he texted?”

“I don’t know if he’s texted I blocked him. That’s probably why he’s showing up, he thinks I’m home. Just ignore him, and if he continues to knock call the police or something.”

“Why can’t he just leave you alone? It’s clearly over, there’s nothing there anymore.”

“I know, I’m so sorry by the way.”

“You’re fine, enjoy your weekend babes! I just wanted to give you a heads up.”

“Thank you so much.”

“Mhm my company should be over soon, talk to you later, be safe.”

“Kk you too, bye Maki,” and with a small beep, the call ended. 

He was coming by every hour? How insane. You hoped he wouldn’t give Maki much trouble, but then again she could handle herself. What if he knew you were at Sukuna’s? Well he didn’t know the address….he’s dropped you off before though. Maybe he doesn’t remember it? Oh no what if he shows up?! And then your whole weekend of distraction will be ruined, and all of Sukuna’s hard work will be-

“-n? Y/n! Hey, Earth to y/n again. Seems like I’m having to do that a lot this week huh?” Sukuna jokes. 

“Hm, oh yeah sorry-“ you say lost in your thoughts.

“Uhh you sure? Why’re you all spaced out?”

“It’s nothing-“

“We both know it’s not nothing you might as well tell me, you’re not very good at your poker face I’ll have to teach you sometime,” he says playfully.

“It’s just- he showed up at my apartment. He was looking for me-“

“But you’re not there so what’s the problem?”

“Maki is there, which I’m sure she’s fine he’s not crazy he’s just a whore, but what if he shows up here?” 

“Wow never thought I’d hear you slut shame someone, that’s a new low y/n,” he smiles and then continues, “but you don’t have to worry about him showing up here. That is if he knows what’s good for him.”

Oh yeah one small thing, the time your ex dropped you off him and Sukuna did not get along. It was the briefest moment, it felt like when your dad dropped you back off at your moms’ after spending a weekend with him, but it was tense. You could tell, Sukuna’s sharp maroon gaze stayed on him even after you had stepped inside. So, safe to say he’d have to be pretty ballsy to show up here.  

“Put on some boots or something we’re going out,” Sukuna says gruffly.

“Going out where? I’m in pajamas-“

“I know, good. I told you to be, glad to know you listen.”

You scoffed, “no way I’m going in public like this-,” you gestured with your hands waving in an up and down movement to your unprofessional getup. 

“Relax. You won’t be the only one, I’m about to change too.”

“Oh because two of us looking like we just rolled out of bed is better than one,” you said sarcastically.

“Exactly, I knew you’d get it I had to admit I was getting a little worried there,” he teased.

“Oh shut up dimwit,” you said smiling.

There it was again, stunning.

Sukuna went to quickly throw on some sweats and an old faded t-shirt, probably sporting some random band. He grabbed his keys, and you were out the door. 

You loved night time drives, everything just hit different. The music vibed better, especially when Sukuna let you have the aux, the car ride is just more fun at night. When you arrived at the destination Sukuna parked the car and reached to turn the knob on the volume down.

“Look where we are,” he said turning to stare at you.

You immediately turned to look out the window, and even though it took you a second you realized-

With a big shriek and gasp you turned back to Sukuna, “this is-!”

“The ‘best convenience store ever in our hometown’ I know you said it to me so much it’s engraved in my brain.”

Sparkles were in your eyes, along with some unshed tears. So many great memories were here. Every time you passed a test with an A your mom would bring you here to get your favorite snack, and since Sukuna always did well on tests you’d take him about once a month to continue the tradition. But then you guys’ campus was at least a 35 minute commute from here, and when it was busy during the day maybe 45, so you stopped coming. There just wasn’t enough time and you guys got really busy. But not many people were on the road at night, and with Sukuna’s driving you guys probably made it there in 20-25 minutes tops. 

You were so happy you could scream. It was apparent in your face, the brightest smile. You jumped out of the car and immediately ran into the store, Sukuna not far too behind you. 

You had already grabbed one of the small dark green dingy looking baskets, ah the same as always, from the entrance and were halfway down your favorite aisle by the time he got inside. 

He greeted the kind old lady at the register who had witnessed your excitement just moments ago, screeching with joy, which scared her when you rushed in. 

He quickly found the aisle you were in and watched you decide which snacks you wanted, carefully picking the items and placing them in the basket. 

You rushed from one place to another, grabbing drinks, chips, snacks, anything you wanted because who knows when you’ll visit here again. Then you just stopped, and Sukuna watching your madness didn’t think you were ever going to. Then your eyes started to well up with worry.

“What’s wrong?”

“I- I left my wallet back at your apartment, I can’t buy any of this-“

“What? I’m obviously buying, dimwit,” he scoffed repeating your words from earlier.

“Really?” You asked, the excitement immediately perking back up inside you. 

He didn’t even get to answer before you continued happily on your shopping spree, how could he say no anyways? By the time you were done you couldn’t even pick up your basket. You quickly looked to Sukuna for help, and he rolled his eyes taking the basket with his left arm. You began to giggle watching him walk to the register. You couldn’t help it, the sight of him carrying a basket like a soccer mom was just too funny. 

A stuffed full basket being carried by his well built arm, the vein bulging from the somewhat strenuous task being carried out. His hand flexing and unflexing to stretch after putting the basket down, making the veins even more visible as they pop out due to his contractions-

“Y/n? You coming? Don’t you wanna get home to eat all this stuff?” 

You quickly snapped out of your haze, and ran up to the register where Sukuna had already taken his wallet out to pay, making a comment about how you were most definitely going to eat it in his car. You left a happy customer that day.

Before you left you made Sukuna stop in front of the shop so that you could snap a quick photo of the two of you together, you wanted to send it to your moms. 

You smiled the whole car ride home, and when you got in the house. 

“Thank you,” you said sincerely with a huge grin on your face.

“Yeah, yeah I know I’m the best,” he replied with a smirk.

“Can you cook the ramen please?”

“Who else was gonna-“

And then the shrill ring of the doorbell rang. 

“Are you expecting someone?”

“No, no one comes over here. Maybe it’s just a package.”

“At 10pm?”

“I don’t know, maybe some drunk has the wrong door.”

Then it rang again.

“Okay maybe not…”

“Sukuna just go get the door I’ll start prepping-“

Before you could finish your sentence though, he already opened the door ready to tell off the drunk.

“Oh. It’s you.” 

You didn’t like Sukuna’s tone, and being the nosey person you are sometimes, you rushed to the door. You immediately understood his tone. 

“Oh, of course it’s you.”

@/cafekitsune for the divider

#fluff #manga #anime #jjk #sukuna ryomen #jujutsu kaisen sukuna #ryomen sukuna #jujutsu kaisen #sukuna x reader #sukuna #jjk sukuna #jujutsu sukuna #ryomen sukuna x reader #jjk ryomen #jujutsu kaisen ryomen #ryomen x reader #sukuna x y/n #sukuna x you #sukuna x fem reader #sukuna x female reader #ryomen sukuna fluff #sukuna fluff #ryomen sukuna x you #jjk fluff #sukuna ryomen x female reader #ryomen x female reader #sukuna ryomen x you #angst to comfort #sukuna au #maki zenin

[bwobgames]

Previous First

Credits scene

It's been multiple months since the mansion incident

The legal case lasted a good while, but no evidence was found against any of the survivors, so they are okay now.

The blood did not leave their clothes. They got new ones.

Oliver Beebo wakes up another day in his apartment. While a lot of his nights have bizarre nightmares, this one was calm.

Even though they are no longer on vacation, Ángel still stayed on Oliver's apartment, but they plan on staying some time in the capital, just to see what it's like.

He uses all types of products he can find to heal his scar. Beebo doesn't mind much. it's part of the job, he says.

They've been living a calm and domestic day to day life, with ups and down.

The downs are, very down indeed

But the ups are more often.

They got matching tattoos of a sunrise, it makes them feel better.

Oliver has started taking cases again, but he's going for simpler ones.

He has told his fellow detectives to keep an eye out for seemingly supernatural cases.

Ángel has declared that he will invite himself to any case that involves a haunted house. Oliver doesn't fight him on it

They both have gained new fears

Ángel gets very anxious when they're separated for too long. He's also terrible at guessing what time it is

Oliver makes a great effort in overcoming his fear of heights. It's a work on progress.

He's also afraid of developing any kind of memory affecting disease. He keeps an incredibly detailed diary

They are getting help. It's slow and nonlinear, but they can always go to a warm home with a cuddly cat and a tight hug.

Vivi invites Oliver for an exclusive 2-player session with Ángel, as a test for his dnd abilities, she says.

While he's not that good at the role playing, he's very good at strategy. He really enjoys lawful characters.

They have fun.

Marigold and Nina were also invited. It made for a very chaotic group.

Ángel wants to start a new game so he can upload it to his newly made youtube channel

He wasn't satisfied with a normal 9 to 5, so he decided for a more creative job.

He's slowly rising, with titles such as "Doing the 100 babies challenge in The sims 4," "RLcraft hardcore for 100 days", "Top 10 facts about Dominion the jewel thief", "Finishing Overcooked with all stars ft. Vivi", and his personal favorite, "Speedrunning Escape rooms with my bf ❤️"

He claims to be Dominion's number one fan and sells plushies of him. Oliver will never admit he bought one.

Apparently, he is considered a cryptid in Ángel's channel, which he appreciates.

The now officially named Iraola family invites them to events quite often, it's very nice to have a friend group

Game nights are... quite extreme

Turns out teenagers can be very competitive and capable

Nadia and Ángel have a scoreboard set up. The winner gets decided at New years.

Oliver has managed to keep his throne as the master of any and all card games, but for how long?

He can't wait for Christmas, he plans on giving Simon a cool anti-eye contact hat.

Even though he's still terrified of the concept of fatherhood, he really enjoys being an uncle.

Speaking of such, Ángel had to meet his parents. It was awkward at first, but he managed to win them over with his knowledge of old cinema and pretty boy charm.

Oliver met the Ronald Mcdonald statue by Ángel's childhood house. He has a picture with it.

Ángel's mother was sweet, hardworking, and strict. She was not afraid of telling her son how he should be a better gentleman towards Oliver. It was... an eventful night. It's a good thing the lady enjoys mystery novels.

They celebrated Nadia's birthday in spring, cordially invited.

Everyone was sure Ángel would give her a gag gift, like a cd to a boy band she doesn't like or an ugly shirt.

He gave her a key code to an expensive editing software.

She was grateful but refused to say so. She plans on retaliating with an equally thoughtful gift.

They are slowly learning to get along, like a pair of cats that need to be separated by a door when they first meet.

In other news, Oliver recently received an autism diagnosis. He was very surprised. Ángel wasn't. He baked him a cake for the occasion.

The biggest event had to be the wedding

On a warm spring day, in the middle of a flower field, Marigold Iraola and Nina Coli got married.

There was some bad press about it, but a certain reporter was very enthusiastic about how beautiful of an union this was, unlike the previous one.

Marigold decided to disband Coli's company, making a new one herself.

It specializes in medical equipment.

They saw the newlyweds say their vows, Oliver couldn't help but yearn for a moment like that.

He and Ángel danced the evening away

Between the multiple friends of the wives waiting for the bouquet toss, there was a determined man in white

And like a cat to a shiny object

He jumped and got it

They decide spring is a great season for a wedding.

They don't decide which spring though

That's for the future to know.

In a non-specific urban city like any other, an office awakes

Oliver Beebo is ready to start another day on his detective business

#the real credits. Everything: me. bwob bwobgames #drawn in ibispaint #thats all the credits #detective beebo

[emophilzablr]

WILBUR SOOT CHART ANALYSIS.

— Most of my analysis focus more on the negative impacts simply for the fact that I am attempting to contextualize most of his actions we discuss, as we talk mostly about his love life and his lyrics, and well, the bad parts of him, since we are critical. Though I will talk about positive aspects at a lot of points. I chose to do from Sun to Mars as those are the most "important" aspects, I might do something on the more secondary placements another day. Enjoy! Send asks and curiouscats about it, if you have something to say.

Virgo sun, 2nd house.

Plus, Virgos look for something concrete, while the rest of him, we will get to it, is kind of fighting against it. Virgo is Wilbur’s essence, it's who he truly is, it's the most important aspect, so for him to heal this part, specially as his.

His Sun is in the second house which might cause most of his insecurities, Wilbur seeks security, he seeks to do exactly right, the moment he fails at relationships, at any goal, it's prone to destroying him. Every failure is hell.

Libra Moon, 3rd house.

Here we get to the hell in and out of it itself, so Libra moon by itself is not a problem, yet, in this house and in conjunction with Virgo, it really causes a reaction of emotions that is rather complicated. Because here it is, Virgo already needs to have strong connections, they can though live without them, Libra moon cannot, it's absolutely horrifying to not have, Libra needs desperately to have a partnership with someone, living without it can cause a deep, deep set, emptiness. Also, there's a trait shared by Virgo and Libra moon, their ability to find problems everywhere, specially in other people, which causes conflict, and after that, the feeling of losing this partnership because of this problem, once again, destroys him.

And now the 3rd house, where it all goes even more to shit, Virgos are rational, avoid emotions, so to balance that out, the moon should act as a facilitator to that, but well, as much as Libra moon is not bad at feelings, the 3rd house is. It's 8 or 80, emotions are either extremely rationalized and looked over, avoided, or it's in big bursts. AND AND AND, this we saw so CLEARLY in him, his opinions are always changing, and there's a tendency of him to change for people, change who he is. ALSO!!!!! This placement has something very important, they seek a change of scenery, they need to move constantly, start new things, because they will get anxious and restless with, well, settling with something and staying somewhere for a long time.

Plus, I don't even have to explain, this moon placement also really really is influenced by early childhood memories, so the struggles of his childhood are very, very influential in who he is.

Leo rising.

This one kinda makes me feel bad for him, so basically, Leo risings are painfully self aware and conscious of their appearance and how they're sounding, that remembering every person who ever rejected him fits this so perfectly. Now, put that together with Virgo, his insecurities are SO strong in his life, like he's so insecure it's SAD.

But most of who he is comes from it too, Leo risings are always popular, always take leading roles, always start shit, the band, the content creation, the writing of lore, as much as his insecurities come from here too, he's also always going to be popular, because it's part of his nature. He has a natural charm that is seen in Libra moon too.

Virgo mercury, 2nd/3rd house

It's a good placement to be honest, it does end up bringing insecurity too but, it just means he's intelligent, good communicator, curious, likes to go deep, to create, pay attention to details, though he really enjoys being known by his intelligence so any time he isn't, it definitely isn't his favorite thing.

Both 2nd and 3rd houses are great, big highlight on intelligence and big highlight on creativity, also big nerd, loves reading, researching, being connected and having interests. The 3rd house especially is crazy, he has so many interests, and he always goes deep in them.

This placement literally says, this man is autistic, or at least autistic coded.

Leo Venus, 1st house.

That's what you guys want isn't it you cunts, let's talk about love. Well, if you want to know the good, they're love bombers, extreme love bombers, they will court you, they enjoy the chase, they need you, they will die for you. Well, for a while at least. The expectations are always extremely high, so high it's almost impossible to reach them, and when you do, they have this urge to be the absolute focus of your life, they want to be seen as God by you basically, that's where most his relationships fail, he imagines this relationship, and then gets hurt by the fact that reality isn't exactly what he thought it would be.

Wilbur is insecure, by nature, by every placement, so well, as much as some people might think not, him having this placement means he is incredibly high maintenance in love, incredibly so. He needs to be reassured, he needs to hear, he needs declarations. I think that's what killed him with Amelia, he wasn't the light of her life, and she replaced him, quickly. That scarred every single relationship he had ever since, that Libra factor of avoidance comes back here, he might leave and be bored before the person even proves themselves, because the trauma of having everything he wanted in love proven to him not true really scarred him.

Shubble could be in the same situation, the conflict of getting that spotlight from her and from other people, the expectations he put. ALL HIS PLACEMENTS WERE CONSPIRING AGAINST THEM! Absolutely insane.

He will not only love bomb btw, he will leave everyone and everything behind for a relationship, he deposits not only his self worth, but his happiness and his livelihood for LOVE! Silly, but so me and so bpd…

Talking about BPD, it's in the first house, which means, deep love can turn into DEEP resentment when it ends. Also he needs so badly to be liked by others that as well can cause all these feelings, not liking him, or rejecting him, can be seen as a crime.

Mars in Leo, 1st house.

Again, he needs admiration, he needs the spotlight, not having it is awful, simply not his reality. This placement reinforces that he needs to mean something, to be something, to be something great, something big, and it makes his fear of not being even deeper, all of his placements seem to simply reinforce each other, to deepen his fears and insecurities.

— Ending notes: Wilbur is an intelligent person, with leadership skills and a very very strong urge to be loved, to be devoted, to shine, to be something big. His biggest fears are the lack of that, the feeling of mediocrity, boringness, and settlement. He's anxious and insecure, to a point that it ruins most of the good things in his life, a natural overachiever, who never seems to rest. Hopeless romantic, he needs love, and quick, and deep, and intense, but also is afraid of it simply not being that, because trying made him realize it rarely is. He's interesting, high maintenance and sometimes hard to deal with, but still, all his placements show loyalty, charm, kindness and power.

This power especially, he needs to be in control of himself, of others, of how he is perceived and he needs to control his appearance to others, he strives to be perfect, universally loved, but always, no matter how much of that he seems to have. It simply isn't enough.

#emophilza nation #critblr #wilbur soot #emophilza astrology #charlie speaks #charlie analyzes #chart reading

[lyramundana]

Hii how are u??? Hope you're okay

I just wanna know something, HOW DO YOU MANAGE TO WRITE SO PERFECTLY, WHEN I READ YOUR REPLY TO MY LAST ASK I ALMOST FAINTED RIGHT THERE OMG IT'S SO PERFECT💯💯💯💯💯

Anyways I came back with another ask so that's it :

Yan! Minsung x fem! childhood bestie! Reader where she have a crush on someone else and they're like "you're ours sweetie don't you know ? No one can take you from us"and of course you do your magic 😎😎

Thank you🌹🌹🌹❤❤

----🦋 anon----

I'm doing pretty well, honey, thank you!

ajsndkndeckndkvn stop it 😭😭, now you're just trying to flatter me. I'm not that good really, I just write whatever shit comes to my mind. My english vocabulary falls short often and I end up repeating words because I literally don't know more. But putting my language barriers aside, I'm very happy and proud my last work was up to your expectations hehe🤧🥰 I enjoyed the trope and I'll love to hear more of your thoughts about this since it's yours, so pls feel free to message me privately anytime to talk about it!

Anyway, let's get to it:

YANDERE! POLY MINSUNG AS CHILDHOOD BEST FRIENDS

Jisung and Minho have been pillars in her life since she can remember.

She met Jisung in kindergarten, and when they realised that their lunch boxes were identical, they decided they were best friends. Minho appeared on their first day of primary school, being new to the neighbourhood. The other kids found him scary and he never tried to interact with anyone, until one day, Reader noticed him sitting alone during break and eating his lunch in a hidden corner with a sad frown and dragged him towards Jisung. After spending a good while making him talk and sharing food, they found out little Minho was just incredibly shy and having moved to another place where he didn't know anybody made him terribly anxious, so he preferred to not speak much to not embarrass himself.

When school ended that day, the three of them were already inseparable for the remaining time. Jisung and Minho clicked instantly and Reader was the extrovert that pushed them out of their comfort zones.

This dynamic remained more or less the same as they grew. Since they lived in the same area, they hung out every day and created beautiful memories. Minho managed to get out of his lonely bubble and worked on his social skills, while Jisung learnt to take things calmly and rule himself. They witnessed each other's worst and best moments.

Reader had other people around her, but she only ever paid attention to her best friends. Minho and Jisung never interacted much with anyone besides her either. They always said "We only need each other. We're a team. The rest doesn't matter". She was so focused on them she neglected socializing with other people..which the boys didn't mind at all.

As time passed and the three of them remained as close as ever, they realized they needed her, on a visceral level. She was the sun they were constantly rotating around to to keep living. She was their personal ray of sunshine and they couldn't stand the mere notion of being depraved from that light...or having someone else enjoy it. As these thoughts started to get weight in their heads, it changed their behaviour too.

They sneakily isolated her from other people except her own family. They whispered lies in her ear, slowly manipulating her into believing that no one would value her as they did, that most people were out of to hurt her. Everytime she was about to make friends with someone, they cut that off quickly from the sides and dragged her back to them, all with the same kind smiles she grew up with so she never suspected a thing. She genuinely thought she was simply bad at socialising and her besties were her comfort zone, her eternal protectors. Yeah, they brainwashed her.

When high school started, both boys made sure to be inscribed on the same one as her, and with such luck they were placed in the same class. She never sat by herself, always with one of them at her side or both surrounding her, like human shields. For group projects they always paired together, and when the teacher separated them, it was hell for the other people involved.

They've been so smooth and cunning with their antics over the years that she has never felt anything wrong with them. She believes in them blindly. They're her precious best friends, her soulmates, her brothers. Sure, they might be a bit overprotective at times, but because they want her happiness.

At first they truly saw her only as a friend, their friends who belonged to them first. She could hang out with others, but at the end of the day, they should be her priority. They'll be the typical toxic besties that are like "you know her for five months, but we've known her for years" or "Do you seriously prefer to spend time with them over us? We're your best friends, you should think of us first!", or they'll make her cancel plans to go out with them instead. It's what they expect her to do. She must always prioritise them.

However, when their feelings for her started to become romantic, their attitude became worse. She wasn't allowed to go out with others anymore, especially boys. They made sure she was with them at all times, scaring off or threatening anyone that tried to approach her. What if someone stole her away from them, from her rightful place? They can't live without her. What are they supposed to do?

When they start their senior year in highschool (I got no idea how the education system works outside Spain) Han and Minho are in the same class, much to their delight...until they notice she's not there. Their protests are ignored, the graduation is this year and teachers have a lot in their minds to care for some "petty teenagers with separation anxiety." And so they're forced to endure the classes without her, unable to keep an eye on their girl. They're worried sick. What if something happens to her and they're not there? What if someone gets close to her and takes her? No, they can't stand it. No matter how much she promises them she's fine and can handle herself, they know she needs them. She's never been without them for long.

So they find a solution: Track her. They install a spying app on her phone to know where she is and record her conversations. They keep an eye on anyone that speaks to her longer than they like and intervene behind her back to cut off any potential admirers. This was supposed to remain only in school, but they use it even outside.

Years pass and they're already college students. Since they no longer can be in the same class, the boys find a solution: Move to an apartment and live all together. That has been their dream all along, create a routine for life together, as a team, as family. At this point, they're confident their schemes to "protect" Reader and tie her to them have all worked, so they relax a bit. They're sure she feels the same way for them, after all they did for her and all they went through together, she surely loves them just as much. She must have realised she's made for them. They even let her attend college despite hating the idea of not seeing her at all hours, because they trust her. They even slept together a few times already, so that means it's all established, right?

So imagine their surprise when she arrives one day and announces she'll be going on a date with a cute guy from her class. If that revelation wasn't enough to fuck them up, she adds that she's so happy because she's been crushing on him for a while now and wasn't sure he was interested.

All these words sound so wrong in their heads. Blurry, confusing, like she was speaking another language.

When they finally process it, they're furious. More than furious. The three of them have their first big argument since middle school and she leaves. Turns out that in the little time she spent away from them and interacting with other people helped realise that maybe some stuff just doesn't feel right with Han and Minho. She still found ways to excuse them in her head, believing it was all protectiveness but a bit extreme. So she stepped out of he comfort zone a bit and found out how refreshing it felt to have other people to talk to. Specially the guy that sat beside her in class, who always made her heart beat faster and showed her a different, softer kind of affection. One that doesn't suffocate you, doesn't hold you back.

They're mad at her initially but they eventually blame the guy. They blame everyone in the damn uni, for filling her head with lies and corrupting her. Minho claims he knew they shouldn't have supported her going to college without them, but Han says it was all his fault for stopping with their schemes to keep watching over her.

Then, they come up with a plan. One to ensure you have nowhere to go but their side and traps you forever. First, they get rid of the guy (either by intimidation...or something darker), then they comfort her broken heart by telling her that they warned her, that no one would ever love her like they do. Minho suggests having some dinner and drink to get their minds off it.

They get drunk, and they keep refilling her glass to distract her from the pain. They hug her and kiss her face, whispering sweet words in her ears. She's so sad and desperate for some affection there she lets herself go in their arms.

The morning after, she wakes up with hangover and realises they had sex, several times. It's not the first time, so she doesn't think too much about it, except for the slight uncomfortably feeling of not remembering everything. She stands up to shower herself...and doesn't check the trash cans, where there are no signs of condoms.

When she gets told that she's pregnant, it's way too late for her.

#this has gotten way longer than I intended #again I apologise for the waiting #not completely satisfied with this one but I hope you like it #poly minsung #minsung x reader #lee know/han jisung x reader #skz scenarios #skz drabbles #skz headcanons #skz imagine #requested #butterfly anon

[mackjlee9]

HELLO ODUEGRFBYEICEO; You started twst?? omg thats so cool ahah

frick so your gonna write for twst now right? wow your a blessing yes another twst content for male readers;; ack im so excited! i've been following you in wattpad before so i wanna tell you, your writing is wonderful<33

so hah i cant think of what to request.. lets start simple i guess how about Ruggie? can i request fluff and angst, where ruggie is pining for his chilhood best friend(m/n) but he just cant fcking cross the line between friends to lovers, so he just pins and pins but deny it everytime m/n seems to reciprocate his feelings(which he does). and when a potential love rival occurs ruggie is determined to confess before m/n even thinks about being in a relationship other than him.

you can remove some stuff if you want but thank you!

have a good day or evening to ya! <3

Ruggie is so cute 🥺, must protect the little hyena.

Also... How is this so cute, what?

Ruggie Bucchi x Male!Reader [Fluff]

Masterlist.

Game; Twisted Wonderland

Ruggie and (M/n) have known each other for a long time, pretty much since childhood, so they've been best friends for at least ten years.

(M/n) and his family moved to his neighborhood when he was six, and not having any kind of animalistic traits made them stand out quite a lot, and kids used to avoid (M/n) when the rumor of his parents being powerful magic users got out. But Ruggie didn't care about that.

He was the first and only one to talk to the boy, who was always by himself during school break and walked home alone, ignored by the rest of the kids.

They became friends really quickly, becoming almost inseparable.

And together, they were attending Night Raven College. Well, the problem was that (M/n) wasn't in the Savanaclaw dorm with him, so Ruggie only saw him during class and at the cafeteria... well, sometimes, since his senpai, Leona, always sent him over to bring him his lunch. It was difficult, they couldn't spend as much time together, since their dorms were kinda against other dorm students staying over for the night.

And some Savanaclaw third years have tried to fight (M/n), even if fighting is prohibited on campus, with or without magic, unless it has been officially announced.

To Ruggie was a little stressful, the judging stares of everyone from (M/n)'s dorm, his instincts told him to leave immediately, which would make him feel tense and anxious, and that made him stay less and less every time it happened.

He was sad, a little heartbroken too, not being able to see his best friend as much as he used to, not being able to spend time with the person he loves...

Yes, Ruggie is deeply in love with (M/n), but he was never able to do anything about it, the fear of rejection, and the anxiety it gave him when he thought that (M/n) might hate him too. It was too much, so he just kept quiet about it, watching how he started to get along with his classmates and dorm mates.

He was pining for the other male, reminiscing the times they spent together all those years ago as he rested his cheek on his hand, his bright blue eyes staring into the distance as he dozed off at the memories. He felt goosebumps on his body whenever a memory of (M/n)'s body pressed against his flashed through his mind.

Ruggie always denied it, to him it was obvious that (M/n) didn't have feelings for him, and yet, his hugs seemed to last longer, leaving a lingering feeling on the spots where they touch, and a flustered reaction whenever they would stare into the other's eyes for too long.

It was impossible, (M/n) never showed clear signs of liking him back -of course, whenever they were visible, Ruggie would just deny them and convince himself that he was reading into it too much-.

However, one day, Ruggie witnessed something that left him with a sour taste.

Someone, another guy, was sitting a little too close to (M/n) in class, clinging to his arm like a bitch. Damn dude was even flirting with him, completely ignoring what Crewel-sensei was teaching, therefore, distracting (M/n) too.

The (h/c) haired male seemed a little uncomfortable with how close this guy was, and he would attempt to back away every once in a while, showing an awkward smile.

This kept repeating itself, and whenever Ruggie would sit with (M/n) during class, at the cafeteria, or come and stay a little while at his dorm, he always felt a threatening stare on the back of his neck. Seeing Ruggie and (M/n) so close to each other made this mob character pissed, resulting in dragging (M/n) away from the hyena every chance he got.

Ruggie wasn't happy with that, and the week after, when he was coming back from bringing Leona his lunch, he overheard a conversation ahead of him. Mob-kun was talking to mob-two and mob-three, who seemed to be staring at mob-kun expectantly.

"Are you ever gonna confess?" Mob-2 said, and Mob-3 nodded.

Mob-kun only sighed and smiled brightly, "I'll do it today, since we're in the same dorm I'll just go to his room and ask him to be my boyfriend," both mobs started an early celebration for the new couple on campus, without noticing the twitchy ears hiding around the corner.

Ruggie felt his heart beating loud in his ears as his body felt heavy and cold with anger and anxiety. He had to do something, he couldn't risk it.

He didn't want (M/n) to date Mob-kun, not now, not ever!

Ruggie started running his way back to their classroom, since (M/n) had to stay behind for something Trein-sensei told him to do, so he was hoping he would still be there.

And he was.

Walking into the classroom with loud steps, Ruggie's breath was heavy and ragged, his mind fuzzy and cloudy, not really planning what he was gonna do, he just did it.

(M/n) looked up from the pile of books he had to bring over, and he took a few steps closer to his best friend.

"Ruggie? What-?"

"Mob-kun is gonna confess to you later today and I can't allow that! You were my crush first, I fell in love with you first, I've known you for way longer than he, and, and..." With his (e/c) eyes opened wide in shock, (M/n) was only able to stare at Ruggie as his face flushed red, his blue eyes getting teary as he moved his arms around frantically, as if trying to get his point across, which he did but not because of his exaggerated, rapid movements, "I won't let him take you away from me! You're... You're mine and I should've done something to prevent this from happening but-"

Feeling his body getting covered with goosebumps as he processed what was being said to him, (M/n) started calling out Ruggie's name over and over again to no avail, he wasn't even paying attention anymore, spilling out all the words and feelings he had been bottling up for many years now. His small body was shaking, whether it was from adrenaline, anger, or anxiety, he wasn't too sure.

"Ruggie..." Sighing as he realized his attempts at getting his attention were futile, (M/n) stepped close enough to bring him closer by his waist, his other hand cupping Ruggie's face as he leaned down to kiss him.

Wide, bright blue eyes stared at him in surprise, and the moment their kiss broke the eye contact was inevitable, a darker red blush colored Ruggie's face as he snapped back to reality, realizing what just happened and everything he said without thinking.

His first instinct was to press his face against (M/n)'s chest instead of running away. He felt safe in his arms and it had been so long since the last time they hugged.

"Are you done now? I wanted to say something too, y'know?" Gently holding Ruggie's face, (M/n) made him stare up at him, the glossy look in his beautiful blue eyes made his heart pound faster and louder. He leaned down, pressing their foreheads together, and softly whispered, "I love you, Ruggie, I've always loved you... Since that day when you talked to me and asked me if I wanted to play with you."

Ruggie blinked, baffled at the confession. Has (M/n) really been in love with him for that long? Yes, he's always loved him, unconditionally, but he was too scared to say something earlier.

"And I'm... beyond happy to know that you like me back," hugging his smaller body, (M/n) hid his face in Ruggie's neck, even if he had to bend down a little further.

Smiling wide as happy tears ran down his face, Ruggie hugged (M/n) back, tighter than he's ever hugged him before.

"I'll never stop loving you, (M/n), so... we'll be happy forever."

Extended ending

"...Who's Mob-kun, by the way?" Ruggie blinked a few times before pulling away from their hug with a small chuckle.

"No one, now," holding onto (M/n)'s hand, Ruggie started heading to the door, "Let's go to the cafeteria before lunch break is over."

#ruggie bucchi #twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland x male reader #male reader #one shot #reader insert #x reader #fluff #ruggie bucchi x male reader #twst ruggie #.mackjlee9 writes #ruggie bucchi x reader #twisted wonderland x reader #twst x reader #twst x male reader

[coentinim]

Innocent characters and how they would treat someone traumatized

Charles... he has a lot of his own personal baggage. He's arguably the most traumatized in the story, and when he commits heinous acts, he just mutiliates his own soul further. So if he has to take care of someone deeply traumatized, he would not know what to do. He'd likely distance himself as much as possible, but if he really had to help, he would offer his medical knowledge. While he does find the situation relatable, he will NOT open up about his own abuse or how he hates his job. He will talk about unrelated topics he enjoys, like medicine, favourite foods or maybe happy childhood memories that aren't too emotional for him. Geniuenly wants to make you feel better but has no idea how. Also depends on his mood.

More utc

Marie's unhelpful emotionally. I don't know if she's a psychopath or something, but she does not feel remorse for any of her actions, so I'm going with this term to simplify (I might analyse her deeper one day). Marie will not be kind to you if you're traumatized. She herself is a victim, and an abusive mother. I read that as symbolic rather than "real", but she gives 0 fucks about her child's safety. She might give you some advice or maybe give you money for support. She's more likely to kill your abuser than anything else.

Who else, who else... Anne-Marthe does not help people out. She uses them. If being curt to you benefits her, she will be curt. If it's better to fake kindness and understanding, she will do so. She's very cold in her manipulation. So she will make you dependent on her. It's not in her interest to make you mentally healthier lmao.

Dad- uh, Jean-Baptiste is similar in a sense, but he's not as manipulative. He might try to manipulate you, but it's not as severe. He is a very distant figure, so he'd likely react like Charles - distance himself. But if he does help, he probably gives you advice in that stern fatherly tone. And he scares you, he's scary, but it doesn't matter because I hc that he has this calm, stoic aura about him even if he's insane. So he can have a grounding presence I guess, but he's reluctant to actually help. He will patch almost anyone up without question though. (I was joking with the daddy I don't have hots for this moth man I swear)

The most helpful on this list is probably André. Even though he's very anxious and doesn't know how to help, he would listen well and try to find a solution to any problem. He would open up about his own trauma too! He tries to help a lot, but he's ridiculously clumsy about it, and can make it look like it's him venting instead. But he's still the most eager to help and actually become friends.

Louis would definitely just vent. He can hold your hand once I guess, but he IS a king, he can't just make people feel better, he has duties and all. I guess he would give money and look with sad eyes, contemplating your tragedy for a week before another tragedy shows itself to him.

I could only see Antoinette being helpful in a modern au (even then she wouldn't care all that much, we see a modern au in canon and she's no different) because in canon she wouldn't really care for longer than a few minutes. She would treat it like rich people treat a photo of a starving child. She might throw money at you or just watch how poor and sad you are from a distance. I love her, she has no malitious intents, but she's too detached from reality.

Subyss is the one who traumatized you, period. He has no desire to help and he doesn't. Or no, wait, you could get drunk together and complain about stuff, or start a bar fight (I kinda want to hit him idk he's infuriating). But it's not healthy coping so I'm not counting that.

You know who came to my mind? Zero. They are shown to bring light and joy to people's lives, and I can see them being a good listener who would share their food with you. They're just very, very weird to talk to since they have weird communication habits and a skewed perception of reality. But they would definitely better anyone's mood.

Note: My first time posting something I imagined and wrote. Not a reblog, not a comment, my own hcs. So I was very anxious about it lmao.

#innocent manga #charles henri #marie joseph #first headcanons wooo

[relevant-url-incoming]

Since one of my favourite things in fanfic is writing tropes that force characters to look at their own character development and how things have changed (amnesia, time travel, de-aging...) and since I shouldn't/can't/probably won't write a different thing for all my ocs (don't think I haven't thought about it, rip). Here's a little list of what kinds of things each character would experience in a story like that and what would freak them out the most about who they become:

Kitiver is really easy, since he'd be deeply horrified by his own fall. The fact that he's still recognisably anxious and still friendly to the people he trusts makes it hurt worse, really, because in his mind it drives home just how close to a fall he is. He's also very, very confused by the fact that Alliance Era him is married to some spy, like. He never really thought romance would be a thing for him and now there's future!Kit getting all touchy and soft over a dude but apparently that had nothing to do with his fall, either? Lots of panic attacks and existential crises in this hypothetical story.

If this is a story where Kaoja meets her future self, she doesn't know why future!Kaoja smiles so much. If this is one of the other options, everyone else is very uncomfortable around her because young Kaoja is so grim and controlled. By the time of the Alliance Kaoja has a husband and a daughter, and her relationship with her kid is extremely fraught for Reasons I'll save for another post, meaning young!Kaoja is walking around like "why does this child hate me???" and nobody wants to tell her because trouble with loved ones has always been the button you don't want to push with her. (Her daughter would have a whole slew of fucked up feelings about the situation, too... oh god i want to write it.)

Exchei is much the same person she was, but her surroundings/circumstance are so vastly different she would feel like she just did a bodyswap. Being on the Dark Council? absolutely insane, no way that's her. All these people who claim to like and trust and obey her? She believes them, or she wants to so badly, but the sudden influx of them makes her feel like there's some ulterior motive to all this. She resorts to seducing anyone she halfway likes the looks of, because if people think she's sexy or are trying to get something out of her that means they like her for a reason. Andronikos takes this in stride, though he proceeds to scare the shit out of her by talking about feelings while the sexytimes are happening since for him that's just normal. Talos is, understandably, deeply appalled. This confuses Exchei even more because why does he like her then

The funniest thing about Rig (funny-sad but also funny-this-is-your-own-fault) is that at first he wouldn't notice a major difference. Still working as a bounty hunter. Still alone. Now he's got clout, apparently, and his childhood best friend is a Sith Lord so good for her, but he doesn't seem to have changed much. Then people keep dancing around certain subjects when they talk to him. Then he meets people who see him and switch directions, people Exchei tells him used to be on his crew. Then someone he's never met before gets mad at him for missing a memorial to Torian, who he also doesn't know he knew, but from the sound of it that's just how this person expected him to act. He starts to see holes, the shapes of people and things he gained and then lost, and maybe if we're very lucky he actually introspects about why that might be (not fucking likely. sigh.)

#I'll do the others in a reblog this got LONG #Rig was hard to do honestly because he's so. uncaring. but ahhh the fact that he's in the same place so alone? after the whole class story? #anyway. stay tuned for the adventures of ven and nalyan having the same issues re:Sith and fallen Jedi. ooh next half is sibling time! #(sarrant and tavansa also are siblings with Similar Vibes in this. huh) #swtor ocs #kitiver valath: the king of anxiety #kaojacol valath: mom friend with a sword #exchei: your murderer and your best friend #ri'gastio: just the biggest asshole #valath legacy

[sonderwrit]

C113: Deja vu

I Have to Be a Great Villain - Masterpost

Author's 木火然 Weibo post:

This time I'll let everyone see Qin~ This release will also talk about some events in the past, younger Qin actually had a pretty good personality (what)

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*sniiiiiiiiffffffff*

*sniff* *sniff*

Wang Yi: ?

WY: (Kitty…nuzzling?)*

(Basically a repeat of last panel from 112)

—

WY: (Kitty nuzzling? What kind of phrase is that.)

WY: (Why is an image appearing in my head.)

*the image in question is modern!Wang Yi hugging S-0

WY: *pushes* Master, this is uncomfortable.

QX: !

QX: Apologies. Did it hurt disciple.

WY: It didn't hurt.

WY: But everyone says the Sword Saint dislikes interacting with others. So it was all lies.

QX: ….

QX: Master does dislike noisy things.

QX: It's fine, you don't understand. Have you done your daily lessons?

QX: Come back after you've swung the sword a thousand times.

WY: [inexplicably a little angry]

WY: ….huu. 

WY: (Forget it, I always knew Master was a weirdo.)

—

[Hello everyone, my name is Wang Yi.]

[Compared to those of my age, I'm a rather strange cultivator too.]

[Because…]

—

WY: Hah, hah.

WY: (Ahh… I'm no good at swinging a sword at all.)

[I can't feel emotions like normal children.]

WY: …..

WY: (It's still simpler to use spells.)

WY: *impatient* [shoots ice crystals]

Crane: *cries out as it's hit*

WY: (Ah, shoot.)

[I also possess nothing of the trait cultivators should have—compassion.]

WY: (I didn't want to hurt you.) [It was just an arbitrary shot.]

Other Crane: *crying*

WY: Eh?

WY: Why isn't the other crane leaving? Is it keeping him company?

Other Crane: *anxious bird noises*

WY: (But the bird was severely injured. It won't live, right?)

WY: (Since there's no chance of survival, I should end its suffering sooner. Once it dies, the other bird will be freed, too.)

S-0: AHHHHHH!!! SPARE THAT CRANE!

WY: ?

*crystal shards bounces off wood and slashes Wang Yi instead*

WY: Urk!

WY: (It deflected back onto me?) [My clothes are torn, it's so cold…]

WY: It hurts.

S-0: Eeeeek, why were you so careless! It's even bleeding, hurry and take care of it!

WY: Huh? You're the kitty I saw before. So you really exist.

S-0: *bats paw* It's not the time to discuss that!

S-0: (Although I agreed to hide away since Mr. Qin wants Host to regain his memories, Host's childhood self is really hard to manage.) [I have no idea what he's thinking.]

*System Y is a wanted criminal as well, and apt to be targeted*

S-0: Urk, let's just use some points to exchange for a quick-healing salve! (In any case, it's all points you've earned before.)

S-0: (Hurry up and use it.)

WY: ?

WY: … …treatment?

S-0: Mhm. (It's medicine that's not bad.)

QX: That is…

S-0: *shock*

QX: A spiritual cat? (It's rare to see spirit animals who hand over medicine.)

[Also has his memories sealed]

QX: (It's a high-class recovery salve.)

S-0: Mreow!

S-0: MREOW! *speedily flees*

WY: ?

WY: (Ah, it escaped.)

WY: Master…

WY: Why did you come?

QX: I was afraid my disciple would slack off. I came to see your sword practice. *pours salve on crane*

WY: Oh.

WY: (The crane's injuries healed.)

*wings flapping*

WY: (Why does it feel…)

WY: (A bit like deja vu?)

—

Qin Xian (?): Hey, Y!

QX(?): I said it could be saved, didn't I?

QX(?): You're such a cold System, saying things like killing it will set it free. You have no feelings at all.

Y: …….

Y: I'm a Villain System.

Y: Host signed the contract after killing many people and has exceptionally high potential as a villain. Why are you now…

QX(?): Hahah.

QX(?): Murder isn't a hobby.

QX(?): If I have to say it, compared to killing someone, the feeling of being together with Y—

QX(?): Makes me much happier.

—

WY: ? [back to his senses]

WY: (What's going on? Two big brothers suddenly appeared in my mind.) [Though I couldn't hear what they were talking about clearly……]

WY: Master. My head's dizzy…

QX: ?!

QX: Dizzy? Did you lose too much blood? (But it's such a shallow cut.)

WY: No.

WY: (Forget it, I can't tell Master. Mother says I'm too foolish…)

WY: (Saying nonsense outside will only trouble others.)

WY: *changing the subject* That medicine, it's super expensive right?

QX: …..

QX: It's expensive, but it's fine.

QX: Since disciple was going to save that crane, right?

[FLASHBACK] WY: (Then can I use this on the little bird?) [END FLASHBACK]

WY: !

WY: Oh? Did I want to save it?

WY: I was clearly planning to kill it before that…

QX: You had good intentions, but used the wrong methods.

QX: Take your time.

QX: You are master's disciple, so master will take responsibility for you.

WY: ?

[Mortals long for immortality, or power.]

WY: (Master is channeling spiritual power…into my injury?)

*injury heals*

[The things they want are things I'm good at.]

[Therefore, everyone who cares about me wants something from me.]

QX: Huu… *blows*

[But this child is different.]

[When he saw me, he only—]

QX: Does it still hurt?

[Saw me as myself.]

WY: It hurts. Master, blow on it again.

WY: (Why do I feel like this kind of Master…is a bit cute?)

WY: (Huh? What's "cute" supposed to be?)

#i have to be a great villain #manhua translations #villain 113 #preview pics are from author's weibo lol #i think i'll include them from now on since author usually says a little blurb too

[norwegianwoodtarot]

BEFORE YOU READ

This is a re-upload of an old reading, I have absolutely no memory of when this reading was done so keep in mind that the date on this post is inaccurate and the some excerpts may be outdated. Enjoy!

Happy New Year! first reading of the year!!

This reading is definitely due for a little introduction. This reading is centered around Harry and his soulmates journey before union, with a little snippet of their union. The timeframe of this journey is unknown to me. It could happen in 6 months, a year, 10 years, or it could be happening this very moment -I personally could not pick up on when these events will occur/have occurred. This readings layout will have Harry's journey first, then his soulmates, then the union snippet at the very end. Enjoy!

I will say, before even starting the reading, I got a very heightened sense that these two have had many past lives together. They're souls are best friends. I get the feeling that those lives have had a very simple journey and their souls have decided to choose a more challenging route this time.

Harry's Journey

Childhood

Six of Wands

Since this is the very first card I pulled for Harry, I think from a very young age, he was destined to be successful and people around him knew it, even if subconsciously they knew it, they knew it. I think as a kid (especially when he was on x-factor and early 1D days) he was blessed with a lot of praise from the people around him. I also think that during this time, he had a lot of close people around him. Not just acquaintances, true close friends and family.

Adulthood

Seven of Cups

As time went on and Harry got out of the early 1D days (I'm thinking 2012-13ish?) and his fame and praise was at a new high, I feel he started to look around and question all this abundance. I think he started to see people going in and out of his life based on what was convenient for them and their abundance. I believe this ultimately resulted in him questioning everyone around him. Trust issues. Not feeling secure with many people. Who really like me for me and who just likes the fame and money? All this abundance but it still feels lonely.

The Hermit

Immediately getting a feeling of seeking freedom. There is a need of self reflection and work. Taking time to put yourself above others. There's a feeling of being fed up with people coming in and out of his personal life-almost a feeling of wanting to just get a new phone number and start a new social circle. There definitely is a stretch of time where Harry has had to/will go on a deep healing journey before there is even an initiation in his union with his soulmate.

The Soulmate's Journey

Childhood

Three of Swords

We talked in Harry's reading about his abundance as a kid (not necessarily in money, in love and praise more like). I'm seeing in his soulmates journey, that is not the case. I can't say if this was early childhood (0-11ish), later childhood (12-18), or both, but this person was not born with a silver spoon in their mouth, in money or in love. I think this correlates with something of the parents. The parents may not have been good parents (I'll keep it general to avoid any triggers), a parent may have passed away/left, parents may be divorced. Either way, their feelings and mental health were never taken into consideration as a child-they were not cared for the way a child should be cared for by their parents. I think this has made them a very anxious person, maybe some trust issues lie there as well.

Adulthood

Eight of Swords

Because of this person's childhood, they took on this burden of attracting toxic people throughout their life. (Toxic can range through a variety of things) They are/were a very easy target to take advantage of and I definitely think people took that opportunity and played with their vulnerability. I think they may realize this, but almost feel comfortable? In no way is this their fault, but I feel they may think it's just their destiny to attract these people. Better me than someone who can't handle it. Their situation from their childhood has definitely translated in their early adult life. This may be from abusive relationships from friends, family, significant

I do think that this person is very strong. Obviously going though toxic situations is very difficult, and no one should ever have to go through it, but I think in this soulmates mind, they're almost glad it happened to them, rather than another person who wasn't used to it, or couldn't necessarily handle it. It pains my heart to think someone even needs to go through something to think like that, but this soulmate is very empathetic and caring and has a seemingly good outlook on life in general-given the horrible circumstances they have had to endure. I think they could possibly have sadly had multiple toxic relationships--both romantic and platonic.

Strength

Although this person has been/is going through a lot, they are so strong. I'm feeling overwhelming proud of them. My heart was aching in hurt, but now it's aching in excitement and pride for the soulmate. I think like Harry, they will go through a massive healing journey that will better them and their soul. Again, I'm so excited, very happy for them that at the very least, they're so strong. Again, I don't know if this person has already gone through this or will go through this healing journey, but there is a light at the end of the tunnel for them. I just got that blissful feeling when you're sick with a stuffy nose and it finally clears up or that smell of mint and how it makes you feel very open and easy? (For lack of a better word lol)

Union

As I have said before, whether or not this has happened or will happen, I am not 100% sure of. I did get a feeling that this may happen in the future, and I believe I did get that feeling in one of my first readings on gossiprry, but again, anything is possible.

Okay this is really interesting. So what I've noticed looking at the cards, when they meet/did meet, they will be/were around the same "stage' in their life, if you will. Divine timing plays a MAJOR-big emphasis on major- part in their meeting. We ended both their journeys with them going on healing journeys after feeling betrayed and fed up with the people around them-we have Harry surrounded with people using him and the soulmate with a long line of toxic relationships. They both go through different journeys with different destinations. I think that is so special.

The Moon

This is something I will have to pick up on in a future (maybe next reading??) but I'm getting the sense that although divine timing plays a major role in their meeting, it plays an even bigger role in the start of their romantic relationship. One of them, I'm getting more the soulmate but it could be either, is a little hesitant to jump into the relationship right away. There is immediate chemistry the moment they meet, but for some reason there is a period of just friends-close friends--but just friends. I think one of them (maybe the soulmate??) may be not at the very end of their healing journey, or they feel they are not at the end and are a bit scared to make the step toward the other to start a romantic relationship. There is a bit of hesitancy because of the past, because of some ex relationships-I believe I picked that up in a past reading? Either way, I think it will work out. There will be that moment of no romantic relationship and there may be a bit of frustration during that time from both ends, but I think ultimately, it will work out. Again, I think their souls choose to make this lifetime's union a bit more challenging. There will be bumps in the road, some bigger than others, but I believe all will be aligned.

Hope you enjoyed!!

#harryssoulmate #harry’s soulmate #harry styles tarot reading #harry styles #Harry reading #Harry styles astrology #Harry styles soulmate #Harry styles soulmate reading

[scalamore]

(Analysis/thoughts) Lari's Cruelty/Intentions

Just like when the novel was released years ago, this climatic moment really sparked a discussion on the KKP comment section again:

There's a few camps you were part of: 1) Poor Lari 2) Poor Rupert 3) Poor both of them (me!) 4) Lari deserves to suffer and die alone because of how she treated Rupert, she doesn't deserve him at all. This fourth group of people absolutely hate Lari's characterization and development. I suspect it's because they don't quite understand her character arc and are massive Rupert supporters. What they say is, is that when Lari says that 'it's done, the perfect, complete, revenge' when she saw the devastated Rupert in a crying mess, they call her excessively cruel and she deserves to be alone for the rest of her life. After all, it's established that Rupert was justified in both timelines to get rid of House Belois, because they were planning/attempted treason against him. He is in the right to do so, to protect the imperial palace from those who rise against him without due cause. Also, as we have seen, Rupert's childhood is a mess full of trauma and neglect, and even now, at age 17/18 his inner child came out again as he's in full despair when he realizes that he'll lose Lari. They say that for Lari to take a look at this crying, sobbing, mess of a guy who hasn't ever harmed her in TL2 and heartlessly think "my revenge is done", is trash who harmed an innocent person who was already in despair. The emotional damage she caused him will cripple him forever kinda thing. She's so selfish for only thinking about herself and not him. She offered warmth and light to him, she should take responsibility until the end, but she gave up, how cruel etc. That's the point.

Lari is being selfish and cruel right now. Without a doubt. After years of walking on a tightrope every day, being betrayed, lonely, alone, trying to navigate TL2 full of uncertainties by herself, and then betrayed by literally everyone, even her beloved family, she's lost complete hope. What's she to do, wait for Rupert to betray her too? As she always says, that she's convinced TL2 will repeat just as TL1 did, because everyone is the same, making the same choices, acting the same as before with their same agenda, and thus, the end result will be the same. The tenacious, hard-working Rupert will become Emperor, and he will be justified in annihilating House Belois again because they're ready to commit treason. The last 5 years since her regression has been a complete waste. All her hard work amounted to nothing. The endless nights with nighmares of TL1, the sheer loneliness and the burden of her TL1 memories preventing her from seeing Rupert for who he really is this time... The single thing keeping her sane and from breaking down this whole time was the tunnel vision to protect her family and to avoid being framed and unfairly executed. So when that turned out to be a lie, her entire world crashed down. Over time, her wish to 'protect her family' had become something like 'protect the people who had loved me and given me good memories', and once that was over, she would leave the palace and Belois and live her own life on her own, finally free from everything. It's as if it was a duty she had to fulfill no matter what.

Another issue is that Lari had learned to cherish Rupert so much, that there was no way she could ever betray him. She didn't want House Belois to attack him and risk him getting hurt. She didn't want him exposed to any danger at all.

But during this climatic event, Lari is a completely depressed, anxious, shocked mess, freshly re-traumatized with the full extent of her PTSD triggered. Her emotions are jumbled and sky-high: She doesn't trust House Belois, she doesn't trust Rupert, she doesn't believe in anyone or have hopes for anything. She is utterly alone. But the contradiction is that she doesn't want either of them hurt. Since she's alone with no one who cares for her, it's fine if she disappears. After all, she's only a doll that exists to be pushed around and used as a tool, right? So when she's disappointed when she wakes up and is still alive, she gets hit by another bomb: Rupert truly does care for her, and loves her as a person, even. This is yet another mental load to her already fragile state: She was under the assumption that Rupert only cared for her as something he owned, so if she were to disappear, it's whatever. But now with the knowledge that he truly does care for her, enough to so desperately cling and beg for her to stay? that breaks her heart even more, completely shattering it at this point.

Despite her saying that she doesn't love him, readers know it's a lie. She does but can't recognize it because of everything else going on. Why else would she feel so guilty the moment he reveals that fact, and why she would worry about 'deceiving and pretending to love him back and remain by his side'? because she doesn't want to hurt him anymore. Her attempted death already broke him down this much, his feelings for her are genuine, and Lari right now, is too broken to even consider reciprocating those feelings.

What the story has hinted at, and built up, is Lari cannot move forward in her own life, as long as she is shackled to the past, especially after this event which forces her to learn and deal with the truth. Lari can't return Rupert's feelings, because she knows that to love someone is a commitment with honest feelings and to face them wholeheartedly, which is has no capacity to do right now. She thinks there's no crime worse than pretending to love someone in return when the other party is earnest with their own feelings. She doesn't want to play around with his feelings, because he's suffered so much, he doesn't deserve "fake love" but he should have the real thing from someone else.

Even then, Lari admits that right now, with Rupert is freshly crowned Emperor, all she sees is TL1 Rupert who killed her. She knows that the two Ruperts are completely different, but still, she can only see the one who killed her. She's overwhelmed with vivid reminders of fear, and despair, and it's not going away overnight, considering it's been plaguing her for 5 years already. She wants to give up and run away from everything.

Yes, she is selfish for leaving Rupert and causing him such distress, but we have to keep in mind - Lari is completely broken and needs time to heal. As Louis says later, it's not the best solution, it's not the correct one, but it's the right one for her at this moment. It's no one else's choice except for hers, and at that moment, it's what Lari truly wanted: to take a break and rest on her own.

She's spent all this time looking out for others, that she really does need to be selfish this one time, for her own sake.

And Rupert knows this. He's never seen Lari like this before, a crying, sobbing mess who doesn't want to talk to him, who basically has shut down and would rather die than be with him. While she was asleep and he was uncertain if she would ever wake up, he did ponder if he would need to resort to turn her into an alchemic doll: but his decision here really hints at his character: even if she chooses to leave, and it'll devastate him, there is no way he can ever force her to stay. Because what makes him the happiest is to see a happy and healthy Lari around him. There's no point if he forces her to stay, and she's a sad crying mess who doesn't want to talk to him or breathe the same air as him, and hates him more by the day for trapping her there. That would be him acting just like the Crazy Emperor. He'll ruin her. He thinks he's already ruined her.

So in the end, it's a devastating, bitter separation: Lari, who has to leave to heal from the trauma of her past, regain her sense of self and identity, and what to do for her future. For her, what she needs right now is simply 'time away', for her to recover. No more reminders of Rupert or House Belois, but just time alone. Besides, she feels that she's holding Rupert back, and he deserves someone who can love him back - not her. She doesn't want to 'pretend' to care for him, she wants him to experience a life with someone who truly returns his feelings wholeheartedly. So she completely rejects his feelings, hoping that it'll cause him to hate her for tricking him and move on from her completely and find someone else. Rupert, whose world shattered the moment Lari left without any explanations or answers. She told him to not love her, and he agreed which gave her some relief, but during this time apart, Rupert has to decide what to do on his own now: now that it's him and Tory again, what will he do? will he kill, will he choose peace? Lari told him to give up on her, but will he really? Will he find any answers as to why Lari did what she did, when there's no way he can reach her to talk to her? During the main story he was afraid of being possessive like the Emperor and chose to keep his distance, but during this separation, what will Rupert's resolution be regarding Lari? What will he choose now that she's gone, and he has to decide for himself on what he wants from her?

--- Going back to my original point of Lari saying how "her revenge on Rupert is complete", the intent is to show that despite it being aimed at the innocent TL2 Rupert, all she could see at that moment was TL1 Rupert, and by completing that revenge of causing him misery/causing him heartbreak and despair, she fulfilled one of the wishes she made during the start of her regression which was 1) protect House Belois and 2) take revenge against the Emperor as payback for the despair he caused her. (During the separation, she silently apologizes endlessly to Rupert for causing him that pain :( ) So by fulfilling that revenge, and by fulfilling the promise to save House Belois, she's completed those two conditions. She's no longer bound to them. She can finally move on and live her own life on her own terms now. It's symbolizes how she's accepted and moved on from the shackles of TL1 holding her back, and after she takes all the time she needs to recover, she can finally start living her own life now. A life where she doesn't belong to Rupert as a "thing", and a life where she doesn't belong to House Belois as "a political tool". She wants to live her life as just "Lari". No more secrets, no more masks, no more lies. It's unfortunate that Rupert is a victim in this situation, but in the end, both are suffering right now. Both will grow from this, and the next time when they meet again, they'll be able to face each other with the truth.

#your majesty please spare me this time #rupelali #manhwa #rofan #otome isekai

[greenmansgrove]

RDNA 60th Anniversary; Beltane 2023

I came to druidry at a difficult time in my life. I felt the need for ritual amid all the personal turmoil, even if there wasn't much spiritual involvement to it as an atheist. Having not found much attachment to other practices (largely because of my atheistic leanings), I was surprised to find druidry still very much alive in my online searches, and it just so happened that there was a nearby active grove!

I actually intended to start attending their rituals last year around Beltane, but as a known insomniac, I slept right through both their Beltane and Midsummer rituals. Meanwhile, though, I began my own practice. According to the journal/grimoire I keep, I dedicated myself and my altar space to this path on May 1st of last year. I composed my own liturgy and everything, and I've continued to do so since then.

For a year, I've debated officially associating with the RDNA. I've shied away from other spiritual practices for many, many reasons, one of them being that I am cautious of any doctrine that imposes practices or beliefs of any kind. Reading @minnesotadruids's posts over a couple months was helpful in that regard, however. If nothing else, the RDNA seems to encourage wariness, making fun of its history and practices, and creating a path for oneself. Druidry, to them, is all-inclusive of spiritualities, and one can be a druid, no matter what one believes, including atheism or agnosticism. In some ways, this was an intellectual challenge for me, but a good one, and one I sorely needed in my lifelong, never-ending pursuits at personal growth. Ultimately, this way of thinking about things and practicing in the world is what I needed. It allows me to focus more on meeting people, creating community, listening to others, and acts of service than on practicing in any one specific or particular way. And at the end of the day, or when I go home from a ritual, I can still do things and practice in my own ways, without the permission or oversights of any singular authority. I'm also lucky that my local grove is mostly LGBTQ+ and vehemently proclaims their inclusivity and anti-racism.

I first started attending and getting to know my local grove at their Lughnasadh ritual last year. I've hardly missed an event since, aside from one or two casual hangouts. I've also done my best to continue my explorations of other practices, but continue to find the most joy with Oakdale Grove. I even began having dreams about joining the RDNA or about people I'd met in the grove--all of them happy, with an emphasis on community and creating a path for myself.

But I've still been anxious or cautious about officially declaring my attachment to the tradition of Reformed Druidry. Because of some undiagnosed neurodivergence, I've always taken up and then tossed aside rather quickly my various hobbies. I'm afraid druidry would be like that for me. I'm also afraid of not being "worthy" in my spiritual pursuits. I've never had any particularly strong spiritual experiences. But this past year has shown me that I'm not only capable of finding joy enough in something for it to keep my attention, but also that the experiences I do have are actually deeply spiritual. I've had a deep love for and connection with nature since my childhood, and studying druidry has only strengthened that and driven my curiosity.

So, I decided I would take a chance by joining the First Order during the 60th anniversary of the RDNA, just 45 minutes south or so from the Twin Cities. It's yet another strange bit of syncronicity in my life that I should find my job and move to the state where Reformed Druidry began, and especially as an act of protest, depending on how you look at it.

It was really a very nice time, between Saturday and Sunday, though both days have blended in my memory and I am struggling to separate them. Saturday was a little calmer, with fewer in attendance, but a lovely bonfire surrounded by people from my local grove and those who'd come from across the US to attend. Stacey Jo, who would be ordained into the Orders of Belenos, Sirona, and Ogmios Saturday night, presided as Arch Druid and showed us how she led rituals. During the ritual, one joined the First Order who would be ordained into the Second Order Saturday night, and then the Third Sunday morning, if he made it through his ordeal. In his own words, he said he'd been waiting 20 years for this moment, and I experienced both a mix of relief and imposter syndrome. Each member's story for their path is unique, but I'm continually in doubt if my path is the "right" one--something I'd like to write on more in the future.

Saturday was much longer and busier, and something like 22 druids showed up. Mike Sharding and another Carleton Alum, whose name escapes me, took us on a (semi-)brief tour of the Upper Arboretum to a few of the "holy sites" where Reformed Druidism started, including Monument Hill, the Druid's Den, and the Hill of Three Oaks. I was a little awestruck that so much natural beauty was preserved there and how much work was done to try to keep it that way or improve it.

Finally, though, it was time for the official Anniversary ritual, during which it began to storm. The rites and ordinations seemed punctuated by claps of thunder, which brought some attendees hesitation, but which I personally took as a good sign as a lover of rain and storms who regularly tries to go out and just stand in the rain and splash barefoot in puddles. Besides, the second tenet of Reformed Druidism is thus:

And great is the importance, which is of a spiritual importance, of Nature, which is the Earth-Mother, for it is one of the objects of creation, and with it we do live, even as we struggle through life do we come face-to-face with it. 

I feel that, among many other interpretations, one of them is that nature itself is something through which we struggle, and we are beholden to it. Even for all the offerings and aeromancy that a druid might perform, nature will do as it wills, and we must accept that, especially as part of our spiritual involvement with it. There was definitely much bemoaning of soaked clothes and ritual garb, but I took great joy that my ordination into the First Order was full of laughter and mirth while John the Verbose raised his face and arms to the sky in reciting the second tenet for another initiate and I to affirm.

And so I "officially" became a Reformed Druid. We spent the afternoon drying off, before feasting at a place called "Tanzenwald" (Dancing Forest, in German), retiring to the student union for a break, and eventually reconvening at the Council Ring for the evening festivities and start to the vigils. At one point, while waiting on everyone to arrive, the bonfire re-lit itself, as if signaling to the druids, and had to be quelled by Edward, with dry wood being in short supply.

A handful of Carleton students showed up for their own initiations, Stacey took part in her ordinations, vigils commenced, and the druids dispersed into solitude and meditations throughout the arboretum. I stayed at the Council Ring for quite a while after with Adam, Edward, and John, just enjoying the night. I don't get to spend much time outside at night as a teacher often stuck at home grading and course planning. One of the things I really enjoyed about the weekend is that I didn't feel obligated to speak to anyone or impose myself on conversations. I often just sat on my own, listening to others converse and enjoying being outside. Adam, Edward, and John, though, were all kind and asked questions of me (as many did over the weekend), and as a perpetually socially awkward individual and historic social reject, it was nice to feel included and like I was part of a community. It was something I've sorely needed in recent years.

At one point late into the night, John and I traveled across the man-made lake to the walkable labyrinth they have built into one of the islands. I haven't walked a labyrinth since I was 8 or 9 years old and lived in Arkansas, but I've read plenty about them in my studies and even watched/listened to Sting's (the musician) Songs from the Labyrinth / The Journey and the Labyrinth.

John gave me the lantern and let me go first. I wish I could walk labyrinths more often. It took a minute to get into the rhythm of it, but in just letting my mind wander as I watched my footing, I could begin to feel what labyrinth walking might offer someone. At first, the sharp twists seemed to reflect my inner anxiety, like some strange metaphor for the racing and looping thoughts. But soon enough, the back-and-forth turns opened up into more languishing, longer paths along the outside of the labyrinth, and I felt calmer. That made going back into the tighter turns much easier. I was even surprised when I came upon the center, not sure what to do there. I think my mind expected to find an exit directly out again after making a clock-wide loop around the center, but one is forced to retrace their steps instead. And this, too, was easier and calming. Given more time, I would have walked the labyrinth several more times, but it was getting late and I had two cats at home to feed. After a little more time at the fire with Adam and John, I headed out.

I'm really glad I went. I don't know what the future holds for me within (or without) the RDNA, but I'm eager to see. I don't know yet if I'll join the Second Order and prepare for the priesthood. I've had dreams about it, and my dreams are strangely prophetic at times, but what does/will the call of service sound like for me? I am trying to have patience... and to keep up my studies over the next year. I worry about being over-eager. I need to get better at meditation, and I'd like to finish making one of my staves so I can take up Bodfish's "Salutations of the Day" on a regular basis. I would not say the last year has been smooth for me; I sometimes neglect to perform the rituals I prepare at home and for which I compose my own liturgy. But I will say the past year has brought me more calm and joy than I've had in a long time, especially coming out of several years of chaos and tragedy, both personally and globally. Here's to the safe travel of all the druids who came and to another year of my studies.

#druidry #druidism #rdna #beltane

[memento-morri-writes]

Hi! Happy Blorbo Blursday!!

Kris my son my baby my beloved

What are his general feelings about his family and Oryn?

What’s his happiest childhood memory?

What made him realize he was falling for Fallon?

What’s his biggest regret?

—Joy (@italiangothicwriteblr)

Joy!!! Thanks for the ask!!! (and especially for asking about Kris. These are damn good questions.)

(also tagging @andromedatalksaboutstuff since he asked about Kris as well.)

tw for abuse, violence, attempted murder, and something that could possibly count as vague suicidal ideation throughout this post.

What are his general feelings about his family and Oryn?

Kristopher hates his family. And for good reason. They were nothing but abusive asshole to him his entire childhood. Really the only person from his family he has good relationship or memories with is his older sister. And that's actually another thing he resents his family for. His parents married off his sister to a foreign noble, and he hasn't seen her in years. Also, Kristopher resents his family, particularly his father, for ruining Oryn. Because for all the shit the kingdom has put him through, he loves it. And he knows that the people there deserve much, much better than his father as a king. Pierre keeps the majority of the people in poverty, and thousands of people work in the mines and lumber yards, which pour money into his coffers. Kris knows that his father is ruining the kingdom, both via its people and its natural resources, and he hates him for it. And his brothers are no better. None of them would make a good king. But Kris doesn't want to be king, either. He's not knowledgeable enough, doesn't have the temper for it, and is hated by all of the nobility. So he kind of feels stuck.

continued under the cut

What’s his happiest childhood memory?

Kristopher's best memory was probably one of two things. There was one time when he was a child, his sister brought him a birthday cake, because everyone else has either forgotten it was his birthday or was ignoring him on purpose. The other option is the first time that he met Phillip. (his horse) Phillip was born at the stables, so when Kris met him for the first time, he was only a few days old. He instantly fell in love with the little foal. He spent a lot of time with Phillip, and as soon as he was old enough, and had been trained, Kris claimed him as his own. (I'm thinking that Phillip is in the range of 12-14 years old, so Kris has known him since he (Kris) was 12-ish.)

What made him realize he was falling for Fallon?

Oh, buckle in for a ride on this one.... Before meeting Fallon, Kris had never actually had a serious relationship. He knew that anyone he was with would face similar ridicule from his parents and most of the kingdom's nobility. So he never went looking for a serious relationship. He didn't want to put that kind of weight on anyone. Not to mention that he had basically convinced himself that no one could ever love him. So it takes Kris a while to realize what he feels for Fallon. And when he finally does, it's under rather... traumatic circumstances. It's the night Lavinia tries to kill Fallon. Kristopher wakes up to people shouting and running in the hallway outside his room. He tries to figure out what's going on, and when he finally finds out, he flips out and tries to find Fallon. But the palace guards restrain him, since they don't know if he knows anything about the attack. (They don't suspect him, but they're keeping everyone under lock down as a precaution.) So after that, Kris has several anxious, miserable hours locked in his room to just think. He imagines all sorts to horrible scenarios where Fallon is hurt or dead or kidnapped. And in that time, something in his brain finally clicks. As to why it is that he reacted so strongly to the possibility of Fallon being in danger. The feeling was so alien to him that he didn't recognize it. To quote Kristopher in one of the last scenes in the book: "I've never been in love before, but I know that I love you, because what else could love possibly feel like?"

What’s his biggest regret?

On his worst days (mostly pre-Anvia), being born. During/after the book, the thing he regrets most is probably the scene I like to call The Incident. All the things he said to Fallon in that scene, he regrets them a lot. Even though they were mostly bad about himself rather than bad about her, they hurt a lot for her to hear, and he regrets everything he did that night.

#wearfinethingsalltoowell #Morrigan replies #blorbo blursday #oc asks #wip: atqh #atqh: Kris #important stuff #italiangothicwriteblr #Joy 👑 #whew! this took a lot out of me to write #I'll answer any other asks later or tomorrow or something

[clemahito]

For Yuna

7. What triggers nostalgia for them, most often? Do they enjoy that feeling?

Thanks for the ask bestie! I kinda went crazy on this one so full post under the cut

She didn't really have the happiest childhood, so most of the time she'd rather not look back on it too much and move on.

But she enjoys listening to music that came out when she was in middle school. Sometimes she'll be walking down the street and suddenly get a whiff of the smell of her primary school playground in the early summer. She enjoys rereading the books from her parents' bookshelf that she got her hands on when she was too young to read them.

She needs familiar landmarks in her life, and she still finds joy in the things that made her happy as a child. She likes to think otherwise, but she's not as much at peace with her past as she'd like to be. She's still afraid of disappointing her parents. She still remembers how scary middle school was. When she thinks about Shizuo, in her mind he is still five years old, and Kasuka is a baby that she barely got to know before she moved abroad.

She can clearly remember her mindset as an anxious and closeted middle schooler. Her positive nostalgia is practically only contained in the books and TV she consumed back then. She barely looks back fondly on something that happened to her in real life as a kid. And she can hardly remember any good memory anyway.

But there are some. When she got her first video game console for Christmas when she was 14. She hasn't played it since she was 18, and later it was passed down to Shizuo who ended up breaking it out of frustration. She still hasn't had the opportunity to play it again, but she treasures the memories. Sure, her parents bought her stuff, she didn't lack anything, except attention and approval from them.

She remembers when Shizuo was born. She was 10 (going on 11), she recalls visiting her mother at the maternity ward after school and feeling a mix of excitement and apprehension. She was very afraid to hold him but she couldn't keep her eyes off him.

I'm still trying to figure out if she had any childhood friends, and if she kept in touch with them. But if she did have a few close friends, then that's one more good memory. One of the best feelings in the world for her is to feel like she belongs. As a child she saw herself as a monster who was bad luck, she was convinced all her goldfish died early because she was cursed, not because her parents didn't bother to research how to properly care for them.

Anyway, in the end nostalgia can be a good thing for her in the way that she can recall the good memories without having to live in the same context they happened (she's much happier nowadays, she loves being an adult). But melancholy, on the other hand, and the things that happened and also did not happen (lack of attention, lack of confidence, lack of self-love) are easy for her to fall prey to. The thing is, most people don't expect her to be insecure and anxious. She's tall, muscular, she has a resting bitch face and she always looks very composed, but that's because she was taught from a very young age to mask any emotional (and physical) outburst. On the inside she's so much more vulnerable but she has hardly ever let anyone see this side of her, except a couple of close friends back in college and her ex girlfriend (they dated for 7 years). The one person that she will let in and allow to see her entirely again will have to be extremely special.

Sorry I got carried away, but I guess it's still interesting? At least it helped me figure her out further. Please go ahead and ask more if you want!

Uncommon questions for OCs and their creators

#oc: yuna #durarara oc

[askthebrokenones-fm]

☾   cute character questions   ☽

THE  BASICS.

NAME :  Egore Von Bite

AGE : Died when he was 21, been around for about 152 years, give or take

ZODIAC SIGN :  Sagittarius

ONE GOOD TRAIT :  Loyal

ONE BAD TRAIT :  Easy to anger

HABITS.

ONE BAD HABIT : Egore picks at the slowly deteriorating skin of his body when anxious. Especially his forearms and lower half of neck. It doesn't bleed but it does make a bit of a mess and is concerning to bystanders.

ONE GOOD HABIT : Egore will constantly ensure his hands are in tip top shape. Ever since he was given the strategies to keep his joints from falling into disrepair, he has made it a point to ensure his hands are as fluid as can be.

ONE HABIT THEY CAN’T BREAK : He can't kick his habit of grinding his teeth. He'll grind while concentrating, nervous, excited, everything. It's not good for his jaw, he knows, but its hard training himself to be less loose.

ONE THEY’VE BROKEN : He is better about tugging on his hair now. He used to pull at it when having meltdowns but he's gotten better about replacing the behavior with something else, like his cloak or coat.

WHAT THEY’RE AFRAID OF :  He never tells anyone, but Constance. He puts on a tough facade, especially around his murderer, and tries to pretend what happened doesn't bother him anymore, that he's over it and willing to take Constance's head if she tries something but... He's still terrified of her, deep down. He knows that it's irrational, that he's more powerful than Constance can ever hope of being, but the trauma remains. He's especially protective of his neck around her.

FAMILY.

THEIR PARENTS NAMES : Elizabeth and Henrik Von Bite

THEIR SIBLINGS NAMES : No siblings.

FAVORITE CHILDHOOD MEMORY : He doesn't have a lot of childhood memories he enjoys, but one that comes to mind is Nickle. She was a pet feral crow Egore had. She would visit his attic and he would slide bread and berries through the window to her.

FAVORITE CHILDHOOD TOY : He had a music box. It was a small thing he would try dissecting.

EMBARRASSING STORY : He has several stories of adjusting to his new anatomy when he came back to life, especially after he possessed his corpse. One memory is actually dragging himself back to the Hatchaway Manor after possessing his waterlogged corpse. He slipped and fell in several puddles of mud due to his wobbly knees. By the time he got back, he was more a swamp monster than demon.

FAVORITE FAMILY MEMBER : His grandparents on his father's side, by a long shot.

A STORY ABOUT THAT FAMILY MEMBER :  They would visit frequently, being he was their only grandchild from his father. They were the ones to give him the music box and ignite his love of music. He remembers vividly, his grandfather showing him how to play the baby grand in their foyer.

WHAT  THEY  PREFER.

COFFEE OR TEA ?  Coffee. Black, like his soul.

SHOWERING IN THE DAY OR NIGHT ?  He prefers showering in the day. He purposefully showers in cold water, to wake him up and also because he's still not entirely used to his core.

TAKING BATHS OR TAKING SHOWERS ?  Showers. The idea of a bath makes his skin crawl. Why would you sit in your own filth like that?

TV OR MOVIES ?  WRITING OR READING ?  Movies and reading. He does some writing, but he doesn't think his writing is very good. Only his scores are in his mind.

PLATONIC OR ROMANTIC LOVE ?  Platonic. Egore doesn't really like the idea of romantic love. Whether he was always like that and was forced by societal standards or if it was purely Constance's doing is a mystery to him.

ICED TEA OR LEMONADE ?  Iced tea. He doesn't like lemonade.

ICE CREAM OR SMOOTHIES ? Ice cream.

CUPCAKES OR CAKE ? Cake.

FAVOURITES.

SONG : Chopin, Etude Op. 10 No. 4

BAND : No particular band. He goes for anything jazz or classical.

OUTFIT :  He loves his cloak he would a person. If he could wear only that, he's set. Otherwise, a button up and slacks serve him well.

PLACE : He likes just sitting in the Mansion's library. He likes the Devil's Library just as well, but the Mansion has a different feeling to it. He doesn't feel pressured to learn or grab the books and sift through them. It's a place to let go a little.

MEMORY : It's blurry. He has a memory of someone wrapping a blanket over his shoulders while he was sick. He remembers it was raining outside and remembers that the person started a fire after. He remembers they said something that made him feel instantly at ease and he remembers leaning against them as he faded asleep. But he doesn't remember their face or their voice, or even what they said. It's one that comforts him but always bewilders him.

PERSON : Sinclair. He finds Sinclair to be his favorite.

MOVIE : Coraline.

SHOW : He doesn't watch any shows, but if he did, it would probably be Unsolved Mysteries.

TAGGED BY : No one in particular. A redo

TAGGING : Anyone who wants to do this

#About the Demon

[idledreams-burninghearts]

So autistic burnout and how it impacts me

Basically it happens when you mask too much and fuck it if I don't mask like all the time

I've basically been masking since I was born lol. There are varying levels of masking, for me at least, I can't speak for other people

I guess the person I mask around the least is my ma but considering I live with her and I only get 14 hours a week actually alone, you can see how that isn't good right? Lol

Anyways, here's some ways it can look in adults

emotional dysregulation (lmao, def feeling this, could have probably stuffed my feelings down and snuffed them out if I hadn't been going through burnout for a couple months now)

decreased self-care (I am trying so hard but I've got no energy to do anything for myself. All my energy is going to work and my dog)

increased frequency of autistic traits (I can feel like they want to pop out but I'm not sure if people can actually tell? I really don't know how to unmask but I can feel the struggle of it trying to slip off)

irritability (yeap, being very resistant to change at work and yeap)

low motivation (oh yea, I really do not care about sales at work, I really don't care about doing anything except for sleeping)

Here's what it feels like to be going through it

anxiety (yeap! But I'm always anxious lol)

depression (yeap! Also always depressed)

extreme lethargy (yeap! I have chronic fatigue but it is definitely worse right now)

inability to ask for help (yeap! I have never been able to ask for help though)

memory issues (yeap! Also have always had a shit memory, thanks childhood trauma!)

loss of words or selective mutism (def going through that)

reduced executive functioning -e.g., staying organized, making decisions (yeap! And I think this is why I'm dissociating so much right now too. Kinda miss the full on black out dissociation. Not liking this fuzzy foggy sense of self and sense of the world, makes it real hard to know what's real)

trouble bouncing back from daily tasks (oh yea, but how can someone not have trouble with this when going through everything else?)

suicidal thoughts (yeap! Normally I'm just passively suicidal, like it would be nice to die but I'm not gonna do it, but it has definitely been pushing into actively suicidal lately, womp womp)

Besides masking, an article I'm reading says "Another reason you may feel exhausted is that you’re required to participate in long-term interactions that don’t offer much relief, like socializing at work. Though they may be 'lower-level' interactions, says Lombardo, they can deplete your energy." And I'm just like, yea, if you're masking then that is a huge chunk of energy. I love my coworkers (some more than others lmao whoops) but it is draining. And I work in retail so I have to interact with customers which I 100% do not want to do lol

Frequent changes are also listed as a reason for burnout and there have been a lot of changes going on at work since they were bought out. Manager was like "stop complaining about corporate they haven't even done anything lately" (which not true, they recently added a pop-up when you clock in saying to make sure you have your name tag and smile on and that felt like a huge slap in the face to me as I'm struggling with masking and is basically telling me that I can never unmask at work) but like I'm still struggling with the dress code change and being promoted to a supervisor position I never asked for and how the store no longer feels like we're finding the best option for the customer according to their needs but to just get them to spend as much money as possible and just like every change that has happened

The article lists some barriers in getting adequate support

"In a 2020 studyTrusted Source, participants reported that the inability to receive support for their needs contributed to a sense of burnout. This included:

being told burnout is your own fault (luckily I have not experienced this one)

hearing that it happens to everyone (my manager has said this to me lol, I have talked to her about it but it fucking sucked)

getting dismissed when you ask for help (it is very hard for me to ask for help so I don't really do it directly. "I'm too autistic for this" "we are understaffed" of course management doesn't listen to that. Plus I mentioned being understaffed one too many times and my manager snapped at me lol, I don't blame her she is under a lot of stress and she did put up now hiring signs after that)

Some ways to recover from burnout include

Removing obligations : It’s time to get a little ruthless with your schedule and commitments. If something isn’t 100% necessary, take it off your calendar for the near future. Your new goal is to try to find as much downtime as you can, with fewer extracurriculars, work projects, and social events."

Which I am doing. I've quit my dnd group. My schedule at work is going to be reduced to 3 days. I really want to work on cosplay but I'm waiting until I've recovered (which hopefully I'll still have enough time to work on at least one lol). A coworker friend invited me to sushi with everyone and I'm like that's nice but I can't lol.

And participating in soothing activities which they list a few

spend time in nature (trying to do that more, tossing peanuts for crows at work and such)

practice a calming visualization

exercise (lmao fuck no)

draw (I don't have the creativity right now)

listen to music (yes yes yes)

journal (yes sorry to everyone that I use Tumblr as my journal, ironically hiding myself and keeping secrets is a trigger for me. Like I make it so hard for people to know me and I mask but hiding myself and keeping secrets is a trigger? Like I know exactly why, this is childhood trauma shit but like what the fuck)

stretch (yes and popping everything as I do so)

sit in silence with someone you love (I love my ma but there's issues I can't get past while living with her so I don't think this would be a good option for me) (sitting in silence with other people I love are also not good options because they are too far away and it takes up too much energy to get to them and our schedules conflict and it takes up too much energy to plan something out or because I'm crazy lol)

Sensory interventions like compression, noise canceling headphones, texture seeking, enjoying favorite smells, having a sensory closet

I don't have a weighted blanket and I'm not sure how I would feel about compression anyways. I don't need noise canceling headphones at home and I can't wear them at work lol. I do enjoy textures at home but it's harder to do that at work. Also can't enjoy favorite smells at work. And I wish I had the space for a sensory closet lol, maybe when I have the energy I can go through my closet and start tossing the stuff I need to toss.

Sleep is great for burnout but also if you can't sleep, just rest

I am doing a lot of both when I'm not at work lol. Wow, I really hate that I have to work in order to survive. This is a huge issue for me regarding my depression but that is a whole other post

Practice self compassion

Haha, yes yes

Something this specific article doesn't mention is that a lot of people on the spectrum also develop gastrointestinal issues and I think one of the reasons that happens is because of masking and I do think my gut problems get worse when I'm in burnout.

#idle posting