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crovoroh · 2 years

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Gosh, so i read Runaway Max, and before i get into my book report this shit aint canon, it says its an official novel but im taking that with a grain of salt cause the cali backstory timeline doesnt match st3. But this book had so many moment where i was like oh man are they gonna go in depth with the child abuse at Billy AND Max by Neil?? And they just side stepped that narration everytime it came up. Also if i took a shot every time the author called Billy dangerous id get alcohol poisoning. I know its told from the point of view of Max but come on, you can be smarter then this. Anyways this is gonna be long and rambly probably

I just cant get over how many times this story touched base on not just telling but showing litteral child abuse and side stepped it each time, i guess the show does that too tho oop for starters fuck Neil, and also fuck Susan. If i was out on a family dinner and some man i knew for a couple months reprimanded my child for not calling him father, hed be the one being sent away from the dinner table not my child and it makes me so mad and sad that there are actually parents out there who are like that. Your gonna send MY daughter to the car for disrespecting you?? Great, im leaving with her. See you never.

Billy left the reasteraunt to talk to Max at the car and just, look. Let them bond over this awful man being awful. This to me read as Billy making an attempt to warn or maybe protect Max and its just left right here in that paragraph. It makes me so sad any possible understanding between the two starts and stops there. I know this is told from Max's point of view but its very obvious the author made up their mind on how one dimensional they think Billy is. Which is wild casue they kept pointing out signs of abuse in him, like prior to this car moment we have Max having this observation

Or this one

My guy is out right dissociating, hyper aware of his surroundings and unpredictable moods is a damn trauma response. From the words of my dear friend "you wrote a beautifully wrecked character, dont throw that thing out and teach everyone to do the same" also this aint canon but max thinks Billy is fun sometimes and that has me so soft.

And then this entire last scene in the book with billy is just, so fucking tone deaf. "he was damaged. Broken, maybe" yall i thought we were going somewhere with that but nope, im the fool for believing an abused traumatized character would get properly acknowledged but it was a big "hes just like his dad so he'll never be good and also hes worse then his dad, hes crazy" and im foaming at the mouth.

This author is such a billy anti, i think st4 took notes from her for how to represent Billy. I know its all told from Max, a 12 year old whos just sharing her feelings and observations but so much of this was just. Hhhhhh exhausting.

It wouldve been so easy to have Billy zone out and dissociate with the burning cat instead of forcing him to laugh and act insane (also if you think lighting a dead animal on fire is the making of a sociopath have you never been outside as a kid and found something dead and just, fucked with it. Its dead, i think lighting a dead animal on fire is probably the most tame tampering you could do. Not to call myself out but when i was maybe 8 i found a dead toad and i wanted to know what its skeleton looked like and how it decomposed so i took it apart. Kids are bizarre and teen boys are kinda destructive.

The whole scene with billy coming home halloween night and getting beat was upsetting and how it was never mentioned again was infuriating. Him getting attacked by Neil, punched several time getting a black eye and bloodied lip then beaten with a fucking belt. How do you just willingly write that shit then turn around and go "oh yeah nah this 17 year old who ive just said was verbally and physically abused multiple times is a dangerous monster who doesnt deserve sympathy". Im over it, if aang can put aside a century long fued to help his abused enemy who in turn still chased him off but was redeemed in the end then Billy and Max have the stepping stones to do the same, have max put an ice pack down, let billy Sort himself out, its so easily im going insane

And that bullyshit narrative of saying Neil is racist and how Billy probably is too. fuck that, i cant speak for the racism but when i made my first trans friend i was nervous about having them at the house cause i wasnt sure how my family would react or treat my friend so i opted to keep her away too, my situation was more tame then Max, Billy and Lucas' and my family turned out to not be transphobic so it was fine but im gonna self project that Billy was just manic and worried about Max hanging with a black kid and what Neil would do to lucas and max if he saw them. Seeing as how the man got away with denying Max dinner right infront of Susan who did nothing. But also max says how shes not like her parents so its just unfair to turn around and go neil is awful so billy is also awful and wont ever get better

This book isnt canon but i want a similar book from Billy's point of view. But also all things considered i did like the insight into Max's possibly past in cali, her relationship with her dad and mom was pretty neat, even tho, say it with me, its not canon, i refuse, I'll believe in bigfoot before believing this book was proof read by anyone working on the actual show 🥴 i have more to say but its 2 in the morning and i think my eyes are leaking outa my skull, hope this incoherent lmaoo

#But i guess its true to the show by showing him sad and broken then mean and nasty in the same breath #Idk the more hate i see thrown at billy the stronger i love him lol #This is just a bullshit ramble #Stranger things #billy hargrove #max mayfield #Runaway max

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oikawaplssteponme · 3 years

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I saw a small thing about this and i was like omg gotta ask willow to write this bc ur stuff is amazing so can i request Midoriya fluff where hes ended up in the hospital (again) and his mom is there and shes really upset about it and the reader hugs her and is comforting her and midoriya wakes up and sees it but doesnt say anything because hes just so in awe because the reader is saying all of these nice things about him and hes just really happy and in love seeing his crush look after his mom so well when he cant

hii! omg that’s so sweet of you to think of me for this request🥺💕! i love this idea too so thank you for sending it in!!

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Words from the Heart

pairing: Izuku Midoriya x reader

warnings: deku injured as always :(, hospitals, mention of surgery

genre: fluff

a/n: i love inko so much hehe. this made me soft

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The smell of the hospital was unfortunately familiar. You had been there many times before, all for the same person.

You walked through the automatic doors and made your way to check yourself in. The person at the front desk gave you a smile.

“Hi how can I help you today?”

“Hi I’m here to see Izuku Midoriya.”

The front desk worker nodded and began to type into the computer. They raised a brow.

“Sorry but he isn’t allowed visitors right now.”

“Oh-”

“-No no it’s okay, they’re with me.”

You felt someone hold onto your arm. You looked to see Mrs. Midoriya standing next to you.

“Oh my apologies. You two can go ahead.”

Inko smiled and began to led you to the elevators.

“They should give me a membership card at this point for how often I’m here,” she chuckled. Inko pressed the button for the third floor of the hospital.

“You really didn’t need to come Y/N, I’m sure you’re busy with other things.”

“No, really, I want to. I wanted to check in on the both of you,” you smiled, “I even snuck in some dinner since I’m sure you’re sick of hospital food.” You held up your bag. Inko squeezed your arm.

“Thank you sweetheart.”

You and Inko walked to Izuku’s room. She carefully opened the door and you two went inside.

“He hasn’t woken up since he got out of surgery, but he’s stable. That’s all I care about,” she explained.

Izuku laid in his hospital bed, sound sleep. His arms were completely covered in bandages and his chest was wrapped up too. His heart monitor beat at a steady pace.

“What was the surgery for this time?” You asked. Inko sat down in the chair next to his bed. She held onto his hand.

“His arms are as fragile as a toothpick so they had to do something to help with that. I honestly didn’t want to know all the details. They were too much to bare...”

You sighed, setting your bag of takeout on the nightstand. You went to sit on the edge of Izuku’s bed on the same side where Inko was.

“I’m sure it doesn’t get much easier to see him like this...”

“It’s never been easy. Gosh, three years at UA and you’d think he would learn.”

Inko’s voice became quieter each time she spoke. She lightly trembled in her seat, her eyes beginning to water.

“I tell him all the time to go easy during training but he just wants to get better so he tries his hardest. His intentions are pure but the outcomes aren’t always what we expect,” you said. Inko nodded.

You had known the Midoriya’s for quite some time. You became close with Izuku your first year, the both of you developing a mutual crush. Your sweet friendship remained however but your feelings for each other only grew. You and Inko bonded as well. Unfortunately, it was usually in situations like this.

“I don’t know Y/N...I don’t know what to even do at this point...”

You leaned forward and gently placed your hand on top of Inko’s.

“All of this craziness will be worth it one day. Izuku is gonna be the most amazing Hero and he is going to make you proud. Sure, he’s still learning but I guess that’s what it means to be a ‘hero in training’. He has an unbeatable drive and the will to do good. I’m sure he gets that from you.”

Inko sniffled, wiping away her tears.

“And when that day comes; when you read in the news that your son is the number one Hero, all these hospital visits, sleepless nights, hours of worrying, they’ll all be worth it. I know that day will come and I’ll be right by both of your sides when it does. I love your son- y-your son’s passion I mean. Izuku is the sweetest boy with a big heart, something all good heroes need. Thank you for giving him that.”

As you were talking, you hadn’t noticed that Izuku has woken up. He acted as if he hadn’t though, keeping still. He heard every word you had to say. His heart swelled up with love for you, it could’ve bursted on the spot. Not only did he wish to make his mother proud, but you ask well.

Inko got up from her chair and quickly moved to hug you. She held you so tightly as she let out muffled cries. Her tears were no longer sad, but happy. Happy that her son has someone like you in his life.

“Oh Y/N, what would we do without you.?”

“You’ll never have to worry about that. I’ve got you both.”

Izuku looked at the way you hugged his mom. His eyes watering at the sight. He certainly was blessed to have you in his life.

“H-Hi guys...” said a groggy Izuku. Inko immediately looked at him, lunging to hug him.

“OH IZUKU PLEASE YOU HAVE TO STOP SCARING ME LIKE THAT! IM SO GLAD YOURE OKAY!” she cried. He attempted to hug her back but was unable to bend his arms. Inko pulled away from the hug. You and Izuku locked eyes.

“You didn’t happen to hear any of that...did you?” You asked. He shook his head.

“Hear what?” he lied. You smiled.

“Good. Now, you’re probably starving. I brought your favorite.”

You reached for the bag of carry out and pulled out all your meals.

“You’re too kind Y/N,” smiled Inko. You grinned.

“Don’t even worry about it.”

You moved up closer to Izuku. You gently placed your hand on his cheek. He melted into your touch.

“I’m just glad he’s okay.”

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singingforthepromises · 3 years

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fruits basket manga lb (chs 131 - 133)

CH 131

We’re learning about the origins of the curse now. Oh boy.

The cat went to God first ;A;

omg the cat died first....

God saved it!

Oh, the cat didn’t want to have eternal life... and the others and God took that as rejection.... seriously? So petty, honestly. I love learning about how it happened but I’m just like... wtf. It’s like all of this generational trauma could’ve all been avoided if God and the animals hadn’t misinterpreted shit LOl

YUKI’S CRYING ;A;

I totally understand Yuki’s feelings here. It must be hard. You’re free, but you’re also letting go of something that was a part of you for so long, something that helped shaped who you are, no matter how negative a situation.

AH AJSFJSJF HE CAN HUG HER NOW OH MY GOD I TOTALLY FORGOT IM SOBBING

MACHI IS SO CUTE

She’s calling him by his first name KSFJSJFJSF

AHHH THEY KISSED! ENDGAME YUCHI! <3

“When did that promise turn into a curse?” What I’ve been asking since since the very beginning rofl

AKDGDKG KYO’S SHOWING KAZUMA HIS BARE ARM IM ;A;

KAZUMA IS SO HAPPY SJJDG

Haru and Rin!! <3

omg look at Tohru pulling on Kyo’s shirt how cute

is Tohru gonna see Akito? <3

SHE’S HUGGING HER! I LOVE THIS! I love that Akito can see that even after the curse has been lifted, Tohru wasn’t lying about being there for her, about being her friend. Akito needed this, honestly. I’m very happy with the resolution of their rivalry. I’m happy with how the curse broke.

“The Cat’s wish... wasn’t granted... until much, much later.” IM CRYINGGG

CH 132

Starting the last volume... this is so depressing, I don’t want this story to be over.

Akigure time, lol.

Oh is this the final banquet?

IT’S SO NICE TO SEE RITSU AGAIN!! <333

“Things might be a bit tense.” Oh, I’m sure. I don’t think it’s all going to be sunshine and daisies. Akito may be behaving a hell of a lot better and changed her ways, but there’s still a lot of pain here, pain that she directly caused. I’m interested to see how this is going to go.

LOL @ momiji calling Kyo a cheater we love to see familial teasing!

I love that they’re not all awkward around each other. It just goes to show that a lot of their genuine personalities poked through even among the curse. They all do have a bond, curse or no curse. And it’s very nice to see Kyo being actually included in that bond.

lool fucking Ayame, man. I love him.

Aww is Yuki kinda sorta looking out for Kyo around Ayame? I love this.

HAHA

“Akito’s ready to see you.” sfjsjfsj

OH WOW.

Look at her? She looks so pretty?

RITSU LMFAO

Oh, Shigure got her that kimono.

Yeaaah, this is what I’m worried about with Akigure as a ship. Akito’s better, but she still has a tendency to fly off the handle if she thinks she’s being slighted, and it makes me worried about how they would handle dispites and arguments without getting physical like that, you know? I’d hope that she’d do it less and less as time goes on.

“All of you are free. And this may come too late, but for everything... I’m...” Oh my god. Is she trying to apologize?

She can’t, though. It won’t come out. I bet she probably feels like sorry isn’t enough, in some ways. How do you apologize for a lifetime of suffering that you’ve caused, the trauma inflicted on other people?

I guess Akigure are official, lol. I mean, I’m glad that Akito’s getting a somewhat happy ending. Shigure, I still don’t like him but he’s a fantastic character.

Akito’s gonna stay at the estate and be the head without keeping anyone shackled to her. That’s as good of an ending as I could’ve anticipated for her. I’ll be honest: I still feel like she got off a little easy. She should’ve faced some legal consequences, at least. But I don’t dislike her like I used to. She’s definitely come around and I’ve partially forgiven her.

I’ll talk more about my feelings about Akito and everything once I’ve finished, but that’s where I am right now.

CH 133

AHHH KYORU. THEY’RE OFFICIAL!

loool who is Mayu talking about?

OH Yuki and the others know about Akito being a female now? Nice!

“I can’t believe I was so violent... to a girl.” KYO. MY BOY. Omg what a sweetheart? Honey, she was violent to you, too.

“The last thing I wanted was another guy interested in you.” LMFAOOOO

YUKI’S DYING

“The mood between the two of them has become somewhat gentler than before.” Somewhat? Girl, they’re friends now, and I’m loving it. It’s so cute.

“He beat the crap outta me.” YES LOL

“Kyo-kun smiles more than he used to. I’ve come to realize that this is his true self.” ;A;

oh my gosh THEY’RE SO CUTE.

How are they even cuter now that they’re dating?!

“Walking together, hand in hand, isn’t something that I’ll ever take for granted.” I’m cryinggggg. ;a; My babies.

NOT TALK OF A KYORU BABY MY HEART CAN ONLY HANDLE SO MUCH.

AND GRANDPA KAZUMA!! HE’D DOTE ON THAT KID!

What’s wrong with my bby girl Isuzu? :(

“Not everyone... is in the same situation.” Ah, yeah...

“How can you act like nothing ever happened? She did all kinds of nasty stuff to Kyo. And she hurt you a lot too. Those wounds will never disappear, will they?” I 1000% understand Rin here. I was waiting for this to be brought up!

Oh, Isuzu, my poor girl.

This might change later on, but as of right now, I don’t fully forgive Akito, either. There’s just too much that she did to too many people. Like Rin, like Yuki, like Kyo. Even Hatori. I’m generally a forgiving person, but I have a hard time with abusive characters. Maybe it’s from my own past, being a survivor of abuse. Being around it and knowing how they are just impacts you differently, I guess. I don’t know if it’s right to say that maybe people who haven’t experienced abuse are able to forgive easier.

I haven’t forgiven my abuser, and I never will. Do I still understand why they did it, why they are who they are, and do I still empathize? YES. I feel a lot for people. I feel a lot for Akito on a positive note, and I’m so proud of her progression. She’s a hurt woman who deserved better and who hurt people because she was in so much pain herself. She hasn’t been able to break free of her abuser or heal yet. She needs a safe space to do that, and she’s beginning to learn to be better and be a sweeter person. Tohru showed her that.

But like Rin, I can’t fully forgive her. If Tohru hadn’t done what she did, hadn’t reached out to Akito, Akito never would’ve changed. She would’ve continued to be horrible and not feel regret for the things she’s done. I appreciate that she was trying to apologize, though. And there are things that I’ve forgiven her for. It’s the worst indiscretions that I can’t. How she treated Rin and Yuki, specifically. I know that she was projecting with Rin. But Rin was a child and an abuse victim herself. Out of all of them, Akito could’ve related to her. Akito knew. She used that instead to hurt Rin, and that is the one thing that I’ll never be okay with.

“They’ll need time. A whole lot.” Yes. And even then, it may not be enough. Some scars run so fucking deep that even time doesn’t help. I’ve healed from my trauma. It doesn’t impact me anymore. I’ve learned how to cope and move on and now utilize those skills to help others. I think time will help, though, and it may allow others to forgive Akito later.

Distance is the key here, I think. If they’re not around her, maybe forgiveness will come easier.

Wow, Akito taking what she learned from Tohru and reaching out to the maid? We love to see it.

#fruits basket #fruits basket spoilers #fruits basket manga #fruits basket manga spoilers #liveblogging #abuse tw #because i discuss it

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uwumessenger · 4 years

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Hey, could you do RFA and V reacting to MC who turns into a dog for one day? weird I know lol

yes!! and sorry for taking oh so long fjdjndnd if u see dis i hope u enjoy eht

let's assume u do understand english as a dog and dont think in dog language. also this is super silly haha i had a lot of fun with it while trying to make it realistic!

+ btw since some ppl asked, yes my requests are open ! im just going in order so feel free to continue sending them in !! i only have 5 requests in my inbox now as of 5/11/2020 so ill get around to yours soon :)

Yoosung

when he wakes up and cant find you he immediately panics

calls your name and lifts anything that can be lifted to find you

he even checks the fridge!! wink wonk

when he finally quiets down and hears your barking he goes into panic mode AGAIN

when he finally finds you (as a dog) his mind begins racing

wait...is it our anniversary?!?!!! what exact day did MC join RFA again? um um is it my birthday? is it MC's BIRTHDAY???

ignores you and does a group call with zen and seven, trying to figure out what is happening

seven verifies that it is not a day of any importance

poor yoosung is just SO CONFUSED

but how do u even tell someone u transformed into a dog

i dont think yoosung would ever find out you turned into a dog

everyone would help with searching for you, and of course panic again bc the way you met them was lit rally bc u walked into your own kidnapping

yoosung is the physical embodiment of panic

but he takes care of you normally (LUCKILY HE DOESNT TURN YOU INTO THE POUND OR SOMETHING–)

when u turn human after 24 hours you explain EVERYTHING

and now he feels better

Zen

a few nights ago, zen had a psychic dream that you turned into a dog so

he brushed it off as a nightmare and his symptoms appeared bc the AC was broken and it was extra hot that night

but when he woke up and opened his eyes to a whole ass dog next to him

he FREAKED OUT

at first he didnt know what was going on but then he remembered his dream

so he tells you to bark once for yes and twice for no

are you MC?

bark!!!

are you hungry?

bark!!!

this goes on for 25 more minutes until you stop cooperating and trot away

hes very glad that at least youre not a cat

he feeds you and allows you to go do your potty business outside by yourself then cleans up after ur finished

he doesnt want you to be alone with nothing to do while hes at rehearsals so he asks yoosung to watch you!

but doesnt tell yoosung it's you lol

when he comes back he just chills w/ u until ur back to your ol' human self :')

Jaehee

initially she'd be pretty calm, thinking that you had to leave early to go do something

but after checking her phone every 2 seconds and searching every nook and cranny yet not recieving a text/finding a note from you, she begins to panic

she calls all the others, wondering if they knew where you were or what you were up to

no one knew what was going on so everyone panics!!!!

tbh she forgot about dog MC until u start scratching her

eventually jaehee starts considering the idea of u turning into a dog....but....what are the odds...

after trying everything you could think of to tell her it's really you, you realize that she wont catch on

after shes done getting ready for work she starts to wonder how to care for you

eventually decides on just bringing you in to work and hiding you the whole day

luckily jumin had back to back meetings so he wouldnt have any time to check in on what jaehee was doing

she tries to feed you something you absolutely hate and when you refuse to eat it she says

wow, MC hates eating these too

you wag your tail, jump, can dogs nod? if so you nod your head, etc etc trying to tell her that IT IS ME IT IS MC!!!'sisj@;!/&:&82

wait...there's no way. am i crazy or did you turn into a dog?

jaehee decides to bring you home instead of turning you into a shelter just in case

when you turn human again you guys strategize a plan, should this ever happen to either of you again haha

Jumin

when he wakes up and sees you (as a dog) and elizabeth playing he thinks hes still sleeping

intense eye rubbing

he calls for you and you keep running to him

but he doesnt understand :c

similar to yoosung, he double checks to see if it was a significant date or anything

now he starts to panic

on the RFA panic scale, he is at the tippity top eue

calls off from work and calls for all the help he can get

you can communicate with elizabeth i guESS so she helps you communicate with jumin

jumin looks crazy as hell rn with a cat and dog on his bed, trying to talk to them

elizabeth points at you then points at your jacket on a chair 900 times and then jumin finally connects the dots!!!

oH SO MC TURNED INTO A DOG???

you and elizabeth are like ugh oh my gosh finally

jumin calls off all the emergency protocol stuff and simply chills with you and elizabeth until youre back to your human body

now you and elizabeth have a stronger bond...how beautiful.

707/Saeyoung

luckily seven has security cameras, so when he sees you in dog form, youre sitting at his computer

the cctv footage of you somehow transforming into a dog plays and hes like oh what how is that eVEN POSSIBLE?

downloads the cctv footage to save it forever

unfortunately no dog food or anything there so he feeds you whatever is in the fridge and okay for dogs to eat

he has his fun, taking photos of you and imitating paris hilton

when vanderwood walks in to check on him, seven cant stop laughing as he explains the situation

he shares all of his photos with the rfa chat and no one believes him

and then he stops and starts thinking

??? MC are you naked? like when we sleep and you transform back....are you gonna be naked?

oh my gOSH

unlike the others he doesnt stay up and goes to sleep with you

whatever u do, do not let seven make a birthday slideshow of u </3

V would freak out, but definitely try to communicate with you as a dog before doing the absolute most

checks for human you everywhere, and when he realizes youre nowhere, he begins to consider the fact that you may have turned into a dog

googles it

he questions you, like zen does, and begins to think hes going insane

he texts you, just in case human you did go out and forgot to tell him

but while texting he scrolled up and saw a text you sent him a day ago while you were shopping

"if i were a worm would you still love me"

he picks you up and sits with you on the couch

worm, dog, human...i love you regardless. but not in an immoral and weird way. :)

spends the rest of the day taking you out to do dog things

like walking at the park and taking cute photos of you

at the end of the day he actually showers you, and talks to you until you both fall asleep

when u guys wake up he says,

i didnt waste $17 on dog shampoo for nothing...why dont we go out and get a real dog now?

yES LETS DO THAT

#was this cute #mystic messenger #mystic messenger headcanons #mystic messenger yoosung #mystic messenger zen #mystic messenger jaehee #mystic messenger jumin #mystic messenger 707 #mystic messenger V #elizabeth the 3rd #mystic messenger imagines

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crystu-cii · 3 years

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WOLF EARSSSS

Oms XDD Y'know what-- p r o b a bly better he doesn't know- no need to break his heart y'know XD or, alternatively, shatter good heart into pieces! Your pick :3 ah, it's simple- ✨ crime gays ✨

OMS mood- in working on another sons that I might use on my blog and they'll probably be a better representation of me XD their have ears, a mask(covid has made me realize masks are cool and people don't look at me as much so, neat :3) it d o e s feel incomplete- I thought I was just weird XD

FLOWER CROWNS!!! POM POMS!!!! YALL ARE GREAT???? Oms that would be so softtttt cryysss that would be so wholesome???

ASL HENRY ASL HENRY 💞💕💝💕❤️💖💕 oooohhh yes love them-- whEEze mood XD

OOOOH I SEEE- I felt thattttttt-- oms yessss XD what a mood--

Awwww!!! That sounds precious-- :0 bonding yessssss!! 💕❤️💝❤️💕💝💖

I'm relatively okay thank you!! My foot just hurts and the cat makes me nervous ;w;

yeah- im not ready for him to cry over a stickfigure- XDDD

and OOOO im highly excited to see what they'll look like! :OO and omg LEGITTT masks are just hella stylist- oh my gosh that also reminds me of something that drived me cRAZY:

so before even covid existed- whenever i am sick i would wear a mask to cover my mouth- normal right?? WELL TO THE STUDENTS- APPARENTLY NOT- people looked at me like im insane- even the teachers were like " w h a t" like all these people act like they have never seen a face mask before their WHOLE LIFE- some people would even make fun of me wearing a mask- LIKE EXCUSEE?? i thought wearing a face mask is a general thing worldwide- now i feel like it's just an asian thing- XDD

and now there's covid- and here i am finding it funny that most likely the people who think wearing masks are weird are now seeing where wearing a mask is an everyday thing- MAN i wish i could have seen the reactions on their faces XDD but they possibly have become karens and refuse to wear masks- gosh i get angry whenever i see someone not having a mask on- or even worse- have a their masks DOWN when they are outside- LIKE WJFJOWHF- J UST P UT I T ON ITS NOT HARDDD DINGUSES- but that shall end my rant- xD

and YESSS i love the flower crowns and headbands we had! It kinda started with me and then tree became obsessed with my headbands that they would always ask me to bring both of mine for us to wear- omg they are so cute i swear i adore them- and then tree had a flower crown but then decided to buy me and larie a flower crown SO BLESS THEM like ogmgmgm

and IT WOULDDD WOULDNT IT?? like for the nonki au they jus gon mess around and bond more with reg and right cause in this au- the triple threat isnt that close with the toppat duo- but they want to and the toppat duo does too- EEEEEE 😭💞💞

AND YESSS ASLLL HENRYYYY its just like- omg- so far the phrases i have made him say were phrases i know how to do ASL on- and i think its just AWESOME- so far in the school au- charles knows asl the best out of everyone but he says that he is still learning- and i wrote when henry met ellie and henry tried to sign with her by habit- she was just like "wat" XDDD i havent written in a while due to school work and all that horrible shiTT- and also the blog- gahhhh its getting hard for me to draw each day the progresses- somehow whats motivating me is listening to nichijou songs and looking back at old post- and of course MY FRIENDS WHO STILL SUPPORT THE BLOG (INCLUDING YOU XD) like omgg 😭😭💞❤💞❤💞❤❤💞

and thats good to hear you're alright! man i wish i can go to that cat and just be like "shOO gO awAY" XDD

#the rambles of crystu

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the amazing she-ra 5

i am LOVING this first episode. they’re TRULY the underdogs now. people are hiding with magic. they live in tents. they’ve lost their edge. they’re actually leaning into the horrors of war now

Shadowweaver says OOC stupid things but it doesn’t matter because the princesses shut it down satisfactorily. Adora is weighed down by responsibility in a cool way.

Catra is staking out the enemy and weaseling her way in. (yessss)

‘You don’t need to say it! I know. I made that choice. I’m living with the consequences.’ I LOVE THIS ADORA

I LOVE THIS WRITING. Catra and Glimmer are THE greatest pair ever. Glimmer is smart enough to poke right through Catra’s defenses - and NOW they’re in the same situation - Glimmer says so - and immediately the prison wall fades away - and they’re both invited for dinner. THAT DELICIOUS WRITING

i do love how shadowweaver has been this snarky aunt for two seasons now.

Hord Prime shows us Adora in danger and Catra is like; FUCK YOU ADORA’S MINE (TO DESTROY) !!!!

I love Hord Prime’s wonderfully manipulative dinner. And I love glimmer quietly crying and I love Catra being like HRMMMM I DONT LIKE THIS. the subtle animations are so great - the close-ups

the way Catra speaks to Hord Prime - the way she’s really fuckin scared and the way Hord Prime says ‘little sister’. The way they make him seem unbeatable. I LVOE IT.

AND I LOVE THESE VISIONS FOR ADORA

jezus but how few people really live in etheria ?

the propaganda and the tech to boost prime’s image everywhere....ugh it’s delicious. im also happy Entrapta is back and on the good side instead of helping Catra be a bitch to Adora. and im glad the princesses are wary of her.

hahahaah awww Bo came to give adora breakfast and then he panics when she’s lying on the floor. I ALSO LOVE BO AND ADORA TOGETHER BEST

goddamnit Bo YAH! finally somebody who effectively protects someone from the masses. fuck off micah!

Love the princesses acting on their own - love Scorpia mediating, love mermista stepping up, love Entrapta using her .....intelligence

I love how Hord Prime manipulating Glimmer is used to show us more about his empire.

‘i only want to bring peace’ - but also i destroyed all these worlds. how is that...how is that even surface compatible?? like no attempt is made to align those two things.

wait....the heart of etheria will destroy the universe? why??? why is that the assumption. and why...does Hord Prime want that? i....

the comedy of the princesses doing a mission alone is GREAT

IM SO HAPPY THE PRINCESSES GOT TO HIT ENTRAPTA WHERE IT HURTS. now THIS is the right level of comedy versus hurt

the way scorpia rolled to cover frosta in her bulk!

i love how adora is like - HAH sleep is great actually! wow!!

because of the underlying grievances that we EXPERIENCED as audience, this friendship moment actually LANDS

I REINSTATE MY HOORAY!!! (hahahaha god i love scorpia). oh my god Micah saying he trusts glimmer’s friends to save her - fuckin hell - heart squeeze

LOOK AT THAT SHIT. LOOK AT IT!!! Glimmer being angry at Catra - but then recanting and showing vulnerability. Catra showing vulnerability by acquiescing. GOD!!!

‘why did you do it?’ OH GOD ARRGHGHHG THATS SO FUCKING PAINFUL. why does Catra scratch Adora? Because she doesn’t understand - seems to not make the effort to understand!! because she’s never understood that everybody always hurt her - she never fucking saw when it was right in front of her. THat’s even worse in a way than being hurt.

god the fuckin scale. the planet getting bombarded from space....jezus christ.

theres a hallway with light and dark at the end - its implied she goes into the dark - BECAUSE SHE INTENDS TO HIDE FROM WHO FOLLOWS HER

wow she instantly realises he’s hordak. ha!

Catra is being so open with Glimmer. She’s REALLY REALLY! off balance

they have a talking ritual!!!! THEYRE BONDING ABOUT ADORA BEING A DORK!!!!

Catra realises that nothing she was doing on Etheria had any value to her!!!! I LOVE THIS SEASON SO MUCH

I love how Adora gets to be such a badass dork this season!!!! Bo and Adora + Glimmer and Catra are the BEST COMBINATION

godDAMN they made these clones creepy. damn i LOVE Hord Prime!!!

catra/glimmer......tho.....

she pushes her onto the bed and kneels before her, holding her hands. DUDES. MY DUDES!!!! catra is they gayest cat in existence

‘do one good thing in your life!’ - oh OUCH god, you can feel the whole weight of all the hurt and injustice she’s experienced in ‘dont talk to me like you know me!’

HAHAHAHAHAHAH BO losing his mind and Adora being a hilarious himbo is SO GOOD

I LOVE CATRA’S ABSOLUTELY HEARTBREAKING ADORABLE MEMORY AND HALLUCINATIONS

‘im alway going to be your friend’ - ‘i’ll never say sorry to anybody’ GODDD

‘all i do is hurt people, there’s no one left in the entire universe who cares about me’ - a reasonable assumption based on your behaviour except for the fact that Adora has been trying to reach you for 4 FUCKING seasons with hand outstretched

THAT WAS SO FUCKING DRAMATIC I AM IN LOVE !! IN LOVE WITH THEM!!!!

are you fucking SERIOUS - ENTRAPTA MADE AN AB WINDOW IN BO’S SPACE SUIT AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHA

the animation in this goddamn season is CRAZY and INCREDIBLE

I ADORE Catra the self Martyr i ADORE that she’s going to go through the wringer still in Hord Prime’s hands.

THIS SEASON IS WORTH ALL THE REST

are YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME- i HATE THAT SHIT WHY MUST YOU MAR THIS SEASON WITH AN INTERRUPTION OF AN APOLOGY. STOP IT!!! IT’S NOT FUN IT’S NOT SATISFYING IT RUINS THE MOMENT IT WEAKENS THE EMOTION BY DRAGGING IT OUT FUCK!!!!

well i guess that was pretty good with Adora. wish they had made that a little bit longer

i love entrapta. she’s such a perfect element to throw into the mix. and her connections with AI’s are great

that scorpia and swift wind talk is so beautiful. they are also the PERFECT pair. ‘gosh have you ever noticed how many moons we have here? it’s weird.’ HAHAHAHA

they’re visiting a planet that’s been conquered by Prime...

I love how they made Entrapta flirty with her tech ahahahaha

i love how Adora is like: oh??? you’re coming to me??? for emotional advice??? uhhhhhh ok haha nice

I LOVE ADORA

i love swift wind’s drunk history retelling of what’s going on on Etheria - especially his impression of shadowweaver and his batman micah

Bo sure is very bad at forgiveness himself lol

‘well im NOT! running awayy that is. i AM smart’ AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! i love you adora

Adora spewing all her bullshit about Catra to total strangers ahahaha

this was SUCH amazing teamwork!!!

AND THAT MOMENT OF SHE-RA BEING BACK!!!!

GLIMMER ACKNOWLEDGING SHE MADE A MISTAKE AND THAT BO DESERVES TO BE MAD AND MAYBE THINGS WON’T BE THE SAME AGAIN BUT SHE WON’T STOP TRYING TO MAKE IT BETTER AND SHE’LL BE THERE IF HE’S EVER READY

FUCKING TEARS BABEY

jezus christ !! that was good!!! i take it back - it was a stupid interruption (they could have just had Bo respond ‘eh’ at an attempt at apology from glimmer....maybe) but they made the final apology INCREDIBLE

‘i can’t just leave her...’ the voice acting in this is sO GOOD

Catra made her whole plan to keep Adora away from Prime based on the assumption that if Glimmer was in Prime’s hands, then Adora would come to rescue her no matter the danger. So she saved Glimmer. But SHE FAILED TO REALISE THAT ADORA WOULD DO THE SAME FOR HER AHAHAHAHAHAHAA

the amazing thing about these highly tech advanced societies is that none of them have invented security cameras

glimmer getting some ptsd flashes

I KNEW that the heart of etheria was built by the First Ones to fight Hordak. Makes Mara’s decision a bit more ---- hMMMM not as great. Because Hordak has killed countless worlds since!

the hive mind lol. jezus Prime is so terrible.

oh my god the very concepts of Prime when behind a fictional buffer are so archtypically delicious. Catra’s glowy green eyes and full bow. hohhohhohho. that uniform also looks great

so Prime could do this to everyone but he chose to surround himself with clones. goddamn.

oh damn that lean-in, those hands on her neck. hmmmhm. gay

she FLINCHES when Prime lays a hand on her shoulder. DAMN. love it

‘you will give me she-ra’ ---- isn’t that what she’s been offering all along? lol

AND THEN HE LEAVES ADORA WITH A BRAINWASHED CONTROLLED PUPPET CATRA WHO ATTACKS HER

OH ITS SO DELICIOUS

brainwashed Catra is really sexy and disturbing hahahahahaha

this fight is so well choreographed. Catra letting herself almost fall, Adora gathering her into her arms, the scratch across the back, the damn knee into the midriff (OUCH), the dangling her in turn.

‘i always hated that guy in particular - and also all the other guys i hit on the way in.’ LOLOLOLOL

THE CHEEK TOUCH - THE TEARS AND SMILE - THE GREEN EYES AND THE BACKHAND AFJLDJFDSJFLKDSJSDFKSDFJ

‘you’re such an idiot!’

‘yeah! i know!’

I LOVE THEM AAAAAAAAAAAAA ITS SO TRUE AHAHAHAHAHAHAI LOVE THEM

‘im going to take you home’

‘promise?’

NOELLE WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING TO ME

Adora watches Catra probably die and fall off into a endless pit. JUMPS IN AFTER HER ONE SECOND LATER

Prime really did miscalculate lol - his ship’s been destroyed by one stab at a server.

CATRA ALMOST DYING AND ADORA TRANSFORMING WITH GLOWY EYES GODDAMN!!!! HOLDING CATRA INTO HER ARMS BRIDAL STYLE. NEW OUTFIT!! WALKING INTO THE SHIP LIKE A BOSS. AND HEALS HER. HEY ADORA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AND SHE FUCKING

PURRS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

all the fucking crying is so good

‘I kNOW YOU ALL HATE ME!” ‘I NEVER HATED YOU’ ‘Then you’re dumber than I thought’ HAHAHAHAHA i love how Catra cannot accept Adora’s friendship because she cannot forgive herself. but Adora never fucking gets it because she has the emotional intelligence of a crab!!!! the problem is that Adora is the exact shape of Catra’s heart - which is one big open wound. And if she presses - all she does is cause hurt

Catra is so adorable looking god.....

SPINERELLA AND NETOSSA KISSED!!!!!!!! awwwwwww they’ve been so cute for so long and they only got more and more screentime and Awwwww

Not-Hordak and ‘dehydrated protein slaw’ AhAHAHAHA

how did they find us? UHHH THERES A CHIP IN CATRA’S SPINE????

ADORA TELLING CATRA WHAT’S UP!! YES! Catra in a corner. Catra on her damn KNEES. ADORA BLUSHING AT HOLDING HER HAND

their first impulse is to hold each other at the ship shaking.

CATRA IS BLUSHING LOOKING AT ADORA TRANSFORM

SHE-RA CAN LITERALLY FLY THROUGH SPACE - well. make matter from light, breathe in a vacuum, jumpt from one asteroid to another....

I AM GLIMMER IN THIS: YEAAAHHHHHH!!!!!

Catra is very lucky that her biggest likely hater is already on her side: glimmer

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO SPINERELLAAAA. what a fuckin bait and punch goddamn! making them so cute and then foreshadowing it perfectly and then BAM

CATRA IS CONFIDENT ENOUGH TO MESS WITH ADORA BY LITERALLY JUMPING INTO ADORA’S LAP

fjadslkfasdjflkadjfsja

CATRA IS

PURRING

catra is so effortlessly cool sitting in the window sill

i am actually loving that they have a not-Hordak with them. it humanises those clones a lot

this prince has farsight but they NEVER thought to recruit him BEFORE???

FUCKIN - I LOVE how spinerella and netossa have gotten so much more screentime - relevant to the plot and also revealing their characters. i wish we’d got this from the start!

well now i ship perfuma and scorpia lolololol

HAHAHAHAHA i LOVE this Seahawk and Mermista hiding behind a bar because of ex victims skjsfajfklds

Prince Peekabloo has an AMAZING design, but also he must be a fake. IT MUST BE DOUBLE TROUBLE. double trouble has TASTE

MERMISTA LOOKS SO COOL IN THAT OUTFIT - but also especially chipped and in shadows. they do love chipping people’s love interests

SCORPIA SACRIFICING HERSELF TO SAVE PERFUMA. jezus christ so much love interest drama suddenly wow

‘happy anniversary’ that is HEARTBREAKING

what a great ending to a very silly episode. that’s the balance. a last message from the last soldier standing...

‘WHY DOES SPACE HATE ME SO MUCH!?!?!’ hahahahaah

Catra’s fingers shake......

‘take it from somebody who’s defeated you guys, like, a lot’ AAHAHAHA

FINALLY CATRA IS ON THEIR SIDE TO BE THE SMARTS IN TEH ROOM

ADORA LOOKS SO BADASS IN THAT SPACESHIP CHAIR

chipping everyboddy so they’re like zombies was a great story idea.

catra upset at her signs of upset. CUTE

why the FUCK is Adora’s hair out of her spacesuit ahahahahahahaha. IM SO GLAD THAT BO AGREES WITH ME ON THE ADORABLENESS OF CATRAS HELMET HAHAHAHAHAA

catra is happy to see adora laugh again.... : ‘)

CATRA JUST CLAWED THROUGH FIVE CENTIMETERS OF STEEL????!?!?!?!

ADORA IS BLUSHING AAHAHAHAHAHAAAA

I LOVE how Catra is like, WHAT THE FUCK at having lost to these people

Entrapta trying to deal with Wrong-Hordak in existential crisis is a hilarious premise

THE ANGRIER YOU GET THE CUTER YOU ARE!!! I LOVE BO

oh wow! a first ones colony! very cool! this whole planet works against intruders and plays tricks on them. i do like how first ones are definitely like, still imperial shitlords like subtly. i love how Wrong-Hordak has a realisation arc in the background.

HOLY SHIT THIS IS CREEPY

CATRA DISARMED THIS CAT CREATURE WITH HER CUTE SNEEZE AHAHAHAHA

CATRA IS PETTING A CAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AHAHAHAHA EVERY SINGLE THING WE COULD HAVE EVER WANTED IS COMING TRUE

catra is working on not lashing out :’) <= literally adora and also me

Melog is so ADORABLE and imprinted on Catra and LOVES ADORA and AGHGHGHG

I love how Adora can make her eyes glow on command

Castaspella was blushing at Shadowweaver being so close lolololol. wow this is the first time Castaspella has been interesting. ‘and stop me, if i take the power for myself’ i love aunty shadowweaver.

AAAHAHAHHAHAHAHAAHAH WHAT HAHAAHHAAAAHA Catra notices she’s holding Adora’s hand and goes ARGGH and doesn’t just take her hand back but throws it away ahhaahaha. Adora doesn’t even respond. that was so hilarious for some reason.

GLIMMER KISSING CATRA’S CHEEK HELLO??? HELLO?????????

‘is what i would have said before i joined you. go team’ hahahaa

‘you’re wearing hooded cloaks. that’s highly suspicious’ AHAHAHAHAHA fucking meta

I LOVE HOW ADORA IS THE ‘oh god my fuckin friends blowing our cover great’ person here

MELOG IS ALREADY STEALING MUSHROOMS FOR CATRA TO EAT AHAHAHAHA I LOVE THEM

Spinerella and Netossa are so BADASS and i love their fight. it’s so deliciously painful and cool hehehehehe

so the only person im fighting here is!.....my own wife...

I LOVE THEM

spinerella is so op lololol - why did she barely do anything for them when they were still fighting hordak

wrong hordak is so fucking cute ahahahahaha

goddamn that reunion was touching and funny at the same time. and i can actually believe that Prime is having trouble with this slippery team of magic users

I love Netossa’s analysis of the princesses weaknesses. Adora: can’t act to save her life. also extreme hair envy with she-ra

BUT GLIMMER: crippling self-doubt mixed with overwhelming hubris AHAAHAHHAAHAHAHAHA

OH MY GOD SHE SPRITZED CATRA WITH WATER JFDKLDFWDSFKSDFKJLDSJFJDSFKDSLKFSDLFJLKFLKDJFLKS AHAAHAHAAHA

PERFUMA DON”T BE A BITCH TO CATRA. (even though yeah Catra did treat Scorpia bad) she’s right you need to fuckin go for the neck (this episode is gonna show us that you need to damage the chip AND get through to scorpia and it’s going to take catra and perfuma ofc)

awwwww glimmer and bo.... bo is really worried about his dad :’( . this is the first time ive found myself shipping bo and glimmer.....the way he sighs into her arms, turns his face into her neck. Yes....

AWWW CATRA AND ADORA CHALLENGING EACH OTHER AGAIN AWWWW

BO’S DADS LEFT HIM A CLUE IN A FUCKING DAD JOKE ahahaahahahahaah

perfuma is really getting on my nerves here. ‘we dont throw tanks at our friends’ uhhhh shes trying to kill you. just let perfuma get electrocuted adora

AH THEY FINALLY GIVE AN ORIGIN STORY FOR ‘GRAYSKULL’! ha! i do love how they keep elaborating on the First Ones as tyrants as well

hmm perfuma was right i guess. i didnt really like that development. urgh god perfuma is so grating lol..

i wonder how shadowweaver and catra are gonna....deal with each other....

hah. shadowweaver tries to weasel in with Adora again. but Adora won’t stand for it again....

Melog literally acts out Catra’s emotions and jumps adora playfully. hehehehe

shadowweaver is such a fucking bitch. i wonder if we’ll ever get her to admit guilt or apologise

no adora. you have to fucking defend catra to shadowweaver. THAT is what you have to do now that you can!

SHE JUST JUMPED INTO FIRE FOR ADORA

shadowweaver preying on Adora and Catra again goddddd. let this be an episode in which they finally shuck her off. Adora fucking THINK, the only reason you could transform in the first place was BECAUSE of Catra.

YEAHHHHH CATRA!!!!!!!! GETTING ALL THE INFO BEFORE ADORA GETS MANIPULATED INTO SOMETHING SHE DIDN’T CHOOSE. naturally she still chooses to do it.

Melog lies half on top of Adora while Catra watches her.... god fuckin hell Melog being an extension of Catra’s feelings is so fucking AMAZING

holy FUCK that confrontation. (i love how every confrontation between adora and catra starts in roughhousing - their language is extremely physical). this is the softer version of catra’s and adora’s dynamic. Catra loves Adora and she wants Adora to choose HER, LIFE WITH HER. ‘what do you want?’ (WHAT ABOUT ME??) But Adora always chooses some higher hero purpose over her. and she doesn’t want to watch Adora die....

‘i dont have to watch it happen...’

god fuckin hell this season.

shadowweaver BELIEVES that she did the right things - of course. and that’s fascinating. and I love that Adora finally totally truly was like: YOU RUIN PEOPLE AND I WILL NEVER FORGIVE YOU. fuck yeah!

so when was the moment that Adora couldn’t become she-ra anymore? think it’s when she lost track of Catra....

I love Melog - I love how Catra cannot hide from her feelings anymore - at all.

the way glimmer asks adora ‘are you scared?’ ugh MY HEART

i love martyrs. i fucking LOVE martyrs.

oh my god hallucination Catra touching foreheads with Adora.....

EVERYTIME Glimmer just straight up shows Catra affection? that’s some good shit. i thought we were gonna have Glimmer going after Catra for her mother’s death at one point but no....not at all. and i dont mind it

GLIMMER SAID I LOVE YOU TWICE TO BO AND THEN BO SAID IT BACK AND KISSED HER DSFKSDLBJDS FOREHEAD !!!!!!!!!!!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA OH MY GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I LOVE MARA!!!

the fights this season have been SO! GOOD!

i love how they’ve set up that Glimmer is a fucking POWERHOUSE. she can turn the tide of battle in a blink!

naturally they pit Micah against Glimmer. jfc this poor family....

there is something important about Prime not remembering Mara....

SHE BEAT MICAH SHE BEAT HIM!!!! WALKING RIGHT THROUGH HIS STORM OF DARK MAGIC.

SCORPIA CRADLED BO LIKE A BABY

SHADOWWEAVER SAVING CATRA? FOR ONCE???? FOR ONCE CHOOSING CATRA OVER POWER????? FUCK THAT’S CATHARTIC EVEN IF IT WAS ONLY TO GET ADORA TO THE HEART

catra has such a soft heart really. she still, after everything, loves shadowweaver. god....

SHE SAID SHE WAS PROUD OF CATRA. SHE --- SHE - SHE SACRIFICED HERSELF. GOD THE VOICEACTING FOR CATRA WHEN SHE - ADORA FALLING TO HER KNEES. THEIR PSEUDO MOTHER... AGHLDJDWFJJDSLF

FUCCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKk

EVERY SINGLE LINE IS SO GOOD, so well-acted. the ‘im ready’ the way she says ‘catra’ like she can’t take anything anymore

i couldn’t write anything for the whole rest of that i was just covering my mouth with my hands

The fuckiN KISS! the look of PURE LOVE on ADoRA”S FACE

which in the back of my head - they cannot actually cut that in any way - it’s impossible to cut

adora with those blue eyes in the blaze, the magic is beautiful adora excising prime from hordak’s mind (WOW), adora and catra touching foreheads and the slight PURR you can hear, adult bo and glimmer (lookin so nice), adult catra (LOOKING SO HANDSOME in her prom-y outfit,) Glimmer chasing Catra, just, GOD, THE UTENA FUCKING REFERENCE, the way they say they love each other, my GOD, Scorpia being like woah perfuma you look nice, MY GOD MY GOD MY GOD THEM GOING TO SPREAD MAGIC TO THE UNIVERSE GOD!!!!!!

every single thing in this season was worth 4 seasons of enjoyable, entertaining, interesting, frustrating and meh. WOAH! WOAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#she ra #i have been BLOWN! AWAY!!! EVERYTHING WAS WORTH IT #my stuff #vidi #THiS WAS AN EXPERIENCE #OF EPIC PROPORTIONS

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suenala · 5 years

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BTS-story ; well, here i am.

episode 2 ; 'oh cute!'

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[genre] ; fluff

[fandom] ; 방탄소년단

[⚠] ; cuss cuss cuss

This was a regular day for me, I was caught up practicing a new choreo and i just started 'creating' it; Id say i’m making SOME progress at least.

Mostly everyone was communicating with each other and some others (including I) were practicing. We had earbuds in and it wasn't weird to practice in front of each other, messing up choreo was nothing to get caught up about because everyone knows dancing is hard work.

For me though...if im practicing then thats pretty much it, i get too immersed in it that i basically block out all distractions. Er, thats why we have the rule to keep one bud out but everyone knows how focused i am so i never obey it.

A few hours passed and I still was practicing non-stop, I can hear myself panting and breathing heavily so I decided it was best if I take a short break (as one does). I took my headphones off and slouched my back against the mirror and grabbed my water bottle and started chugging down the water until i basically choked-as if someone wanted to take my sweaty bottle..I sat a bit trying to grasp my breath but as i was about to get up, my manager walks in.

Manager: "Geez guys, there's so many of you.. Anyway, you call read the announcement on Twitter-right?" -her head looks around the room smiling-

Everyone: "Yes!!" -they all start doing that weird 'eewhoo' scream that people do at football games-

Yn: -i slightly click my neck- "Hm? What's she talking about...?" -i mumble under my breath. I look at her, my eyes wider than before, trying to get a grip of what's going on.- "There IS a lot of people here today..."

Manager: "As you know they are VERY POPULAR, i want everyone on their very best behavior-you hear me?!"

Everyone: "Yes!!"

After the manager waves goodbye everyone goes back to talking....but more...energized. I had no idea whats going on so i just click my tongue and put my buds in; i continue practicing more and more and as per usual, i zone in. Some time passes and not realizing or caring, apparently everyone had stopped what they were doing- which by the way, I WAS IN FRONT OF A WALL MADE OF MIRROR SO HO- but that's not the point UNTIL I felt someone tap my shoulder, i looked at them and they gestured at me to take my earbuds out and then told me to turn around, I slowly do as told with a confused expression and turn around Obviously not bothering to look at the mirror.

Yn: "Dude, what do you wa-" -doe eyes my ass, my eyes were basically popping out my head and dangling on the floor!-

fuck

I stand there.

My mouth hanging open on the floor along with my fucking eyeballs, they minus well be a cat toy for how- DUMBFOUNDED I WAS.

I don't processes what's going on until this guy freaking pats my head.

Tae: "Oh cute!"

My eyebrows ruffle as soon as i heard that and immediately i bow along with profusely apologizing. I can literally feel their staring! Literally into my soul.

Yn: "Oh my gosh! Im so sorry!!!!"

While my head is lowered to them, i keep on mumbling im sorry until i can feel some weight on my left shoulder-along with some sharp ass pain.

Yn: "OW-" -this is when my dumbass falls on the floor without realizing it. I look up and see my manager staring at me so

Bewildered.-

I look at her with the most confused look that my face can come up with and my hand over my shoulder.

Manager: "Oh yn! Why are you on the floor? How'd you get there?"

It turns out while half my body was lowered, she put her arm on my back but...elbow went first.

Manager: "Well, i guess you've met yn already!" -she looks at them but whispers to me, trying to shove me up by her foot instead of with her arm (which were behind her back gesturing me to get up)- "yn.yn..g-get up!!"

Yn: "God- tsh, i am!" -i look at her pouting as i dust my self off-

Namjoon: "Ah, your name is yn?"

Yn: "Uh..y-yes it is.." -SBKSBSINAB MY HEART IS FREAKING RACING-

Before Namjoon can continue, my manager cuts him off and puts her arm around my shoulder.

Manager: "Okay! Well, let's not get distracted here! I wanted to introduce our special guests today but I'll let them do it themselves!"

Everyone: -Cheers!-

Namjoon: "Uh...okay..well, we're BTS!" -They all do their introduction and bow as my manager hands me...water? I look at her confused but she just nudges it towards me more so i take it and slowly and hesitantly drinking it-

Manager: "OKAY!!! Now, i would like to say that since we have some of the best dancers in the country and including some other tale-"

Everyone: "EEWHOO-"

Manager: "SHHHH! Most of you may know why these seven handsome members are here today BUT I'll refresh for those who don't. They are here to find an 8th member and basically, you'll all perform your dances that you have prepared and they'll judge. Also have you perform other talents as well but if you make it through the next round! That was a brief summary but if you need to know more than check our Instagram or ask a friend! Since its almost break time, I'll let you go but come back here after, break goes as usual-AND BEHAVE OR ILL KICK YOUR A- goodbye now." -she walks out the studio waving and bowing at everyone. She's older than most of us since she's in her 40's but dang! That woman looks younger than me!!-

a/n: i was thinking, if anyone wanted to do a gc on kakao to help with each other FF's for bts chats then lmk i kinda want to make one because I feel like it'll give us as fans somewhere to bond more and something to talk about later (msg me ♥) but its a new idea so idk if people will be up for it.

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spookgeist · 6 years

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Oh my gosh I can’t believe im actually posting this, I’m such a chicken with showing people writings, but feel free to read this tome I have written of Circe x Deimos’ first interaction as Guardians.

There was a mystery below.

Not in the usual, large glowing drooling pile of dead things sort of way, but in the ‘what is this strange lump of cloth that wasn’t there yesterday’ kind of way.

Deimos squinted down at a pile of cloth that seemed to be capped in a fresh Guardian’s helm. Of course the day he forgot his binoculars was the one day something interesting would happen.

Typical, he thought to himself.

“You’re making that face again.” His small ghost, Phobos, whirred over his shoulder from their spot atop the vast metal complex in Old Russia they had claimed as their own. She was staring at him. “It’s not a good look.”

He screwed up his face in offense.

“What face?” He scoffed and looked away. “This is just my face. Don’t be mean because you’re jealous you don’t have one.”

“You should have brought your binoculars if you were so intent on taking that darn helmet of yours off. You’re squinting, keep doing that and you’re going to end up with wrinkles like Zavala.”

“Well, half the tower wants to get into his armor, so honestly it could be worse.” Deimos smirked at her, pushing away a stray hair that had fallen out of its rightful place. “Besides those helmets mess my hair up.”

Deimos took her in his hands and moved her in front of his face, so she could see what he was seeing.

“How about you help me instead of picking on me, eh?” He said close to her small form, close enough he could feel a slight buzz in his teeth. “I don’t cause you too much trouble usually, right?”

“Are you serious---?” She screeched.

“Now, my dear,” He continued, ignoring her protests, “Do you happen to know what the hell that is?”

A group of Eliksni sat a few meters away on their pikes, binoculars up to their eyes, chittering away to one another. The scrappers seemed to be just as interested in the strange shape in the distance as he was.

“Oh look, they remembered their binoculars.” She whirred.

Deimos glared at the back of her shiny little body.

“I’m not entirely sure what it is, to be honest.” She examined the form sulking under the archaic Golden Age plane. “My best guess would be a body, I’m sure even you and your little Awoken eyes can see the shiny bit is a helmet.” Deimos rolled his eyes in response.

“Yeah, definitely a body,” She continued, “Probably a dead one. It wasn’t there when we were here yesterday, I can tell you that much.”

“Hm.” Deimos sniffed unimpressed into the air, enjoying boldly sitting in the open without a helmet. He produced a fruit from his backpack and shined it on his robe. “You’re probably right.”

He had seen more and more of this lately, young Guardians rezzed for the first time only to be put down immediately. It made his stomach turn if he thought too much about it.

The crunch of teeth into a crisp apple seemed to echo off the complex, startling a few birds off the heaps of planes from the golden age. The Eliksni looked around for the source of the sound for a moment, but eventually turned their attention back to their potential prize.

The fruit was good, Deimos was pleased to discover. The air was crisp with Autumn that morning when he had set out for the day and his favorite fruit seller, an old Awoken named Yazil had tempted him.

‘Take one, Guardian, take one for your journey. Freshest in the city.’ He had said, his calloused hand had stretched towards Deimos. His bright fish’s eyes gleaming from under long white hair. He always smiled at Deimos, an attempt at being friendly, but his smile was like a viper’s. He reminded Deimos of the Reef, of home.

The tall Eliksni Captain down below barked something to his underlings, but they were too far for Deimos to hear. He watched with curiosity as they remounted their pikes, the Captain’s furs bristled in the cold. Soon they would be tipped with ice as the harsh Russian winter set in.

His eyes swung back to the body and to his immense displeasure it quivered in response to the whine of the approaching pikes.

“Oh hell…” Deimos groaned.

“Hey, ya know…” Phobos fidgeted nervously. “I’m getting the feeling that body wasn’t quite as dead as I was thinking before….”

“Yeah, I'm getting that feeling too...,” He sighed, taking the last bite of his apple before pulling his helmet on. “Try to patch me through to them.”

As he waited for Phobos to establish a connection he paced, secretly hoping they were both wrong and the helmet’s occupant was indeed void of life (and Light) but he knew better. He couldn't speak for himself, but Phobos was rarely wrong.

A click came from the other end of the com and with that he knew his hopes of a quiet afternoon treasure hunting was not to be had.

Always in the wrong place at the wrong time.

Phobos had retreated to her hiding spot in his backpack and he knew by the way she burrowed further in that she was thinking the same thing.

“Guardian, can you hear me?” he sighed more than said.

There was no verbal response but he figured it was safe to assume they heard him. He watched as the Guardian flinched, clearly surprised to hear a stranger's voice in its ear.

A young one. He thought to himself, glancing heavenward and silently praying for the patience he knew this would take.

“Listen, a band of particularly scrappy looking Eliksni on pikes is headed your way, you might want to get up and fight or get out of their way.”

They didn't move.

“Guardian?” He peered down below at the scene unfolding. “You listening?”

The pikes slowed and two Vandals from the front of the pack hopped off to inspect their prey. The first one moved forward fearlessly, poking the Guardian with the blunt end of a shock sword, his companion stood a step back holding his rifle at the ready. Still, the pile did not react.

“You know,” Deimos continued, tossing and catching his apple core as he walked across the roof, lessening the distance between himself and the group. “I think they're just as curious about whether or not you’re actually alive in there as I am.”

The second Vandal moved forward confidently now, pushing up the strange heavy cloak the stranger wore with the barrel of his gun to reveal legs, the end of which were wrapped in strange makeshift boots. These garnered raised brows and a smirk from Deimos.

“What the hell are you wearing?” He snickered. “What happened to your armor?”

“Be nice…” Phobos warned.

At his Captain's orders the first Vandal slid his short sword into a sheath strapped to his leg and knelt to see what could be salvaged from the body. His head tilted to one side and then the other, like a cat’s as he decided where to begin.

He knew better, but Deimos couldn't help but like them. If nothing else, he understood the desperation that drove them to keep scavenging just to survive.

“Listen, if you're going to sit there and get robbed that's your business, but you need help you gotta say something.”

“Deimos,” Phobos scolded her Warlock. “Go help the poor thing or I will.”

“I'd like to see that.” Inside his helmet a smirk pulled up at the corner of his lips.

He was nearly directly in front of the others now. At this distance he could see the partially exposed gloved hand twitch towards the hand cannon strapped to its leg, seconds before it was pulled out of the holster by the curious Vandal.

“Oh for the love of---”

“Help me, please.” A small voice finally crakled over the com.

About damn time.

Deimos pitched the apple core into the air, dinging it off the Captain's pike, catching the attention of the entire crew of Eliksni. He took a step off the building, and dropped down towards them. They squinted into the sun as he floated calmly down like an angelic messenger from the heavens. A purposely mistossed grenade startled all but the Vandals back to their vehicles, and he heard the hum of the pikes restarting.

They recognized him from his bond and his robes and the panic in the group was palpable. A bittersweet pang struck him as he realized his old reputation had stuck.

The Captain gave a signal and they moved out leaving the two Vandals scrambling for their pikes until Deimos landed between them. He grabbed one by the front of his cape and pitched him towards his pike.

“Go.” Deimos growled, the Eliksni word sounding strange on his Reefborn tongue.

The second Vandal skittered past him, his pike screaming as he followed the others. Deimos' shot after them a few times, careful to aim enough away from them to not land his shots. He knew they’d tell stories of how close to death they had come, not realizing how far from it they really were.

He holstered his gun and turned towards the Guardian.

“I’m a friend, I’m not here to----”

He stopped short, finding himself inches from an unfamiliar Ghost, the Guardian retreating silently into the hull of a rusted out plane. The Ghost puffed himself up, glowing red and sparking.

“Stay away from her.” a surprisingly deep male voice came from the small metal creature. “I'm warning you.”

Deimos' clicked his tongue in response and swatted him away gently, following after the Ghost’s charge.

‘Her’ he had said.

“What, not even a thank you?” Broken bits of Golden Age metal crunched under his feet. “They would have roasted you alive and had you for dinner, you know. They’re not too picky these days.”

She scrambled away from him further into the hull.

“Oy, quit with that!”

“Watch your tone, your voice is too mean. You’re going to scare the poor thing.” Phobos’ voice came gently inside his helmet.

At the back of the plane he caught the stranger by the wrist and pulled her towards a patch of light in the dim space. She was nearly his height, and for a moment he wondered if he hadn’t found himself another Eliksni, but her cloak shifted and he saw a decidedly human shaped torso under her mismatched armor. At first glance she didn't seem to be too damaged. But still she sunk to the ground, shaking beneath his hand.

He sighed, Phobos had been right and it made him sick. He had made enough people afraid of him in his younger years to last him a few lifetimes and then some.

I gotta stop doing this. He bit his lip and took a deep breath before crouching beside her, wincing as she flinched away from him.

“Hey, listen,” Deimos kept his voice as gentle as it’s low tone would allow.

He removed his own helmet and became suddenly aware of the angry whirr of the stranger’s Ghost beside him. He fought the urge to glare over in his direction, keeping his attention on the woman.

“You don't need to be afraid, I'm not here to hurt you.”

She stopped leaning quite so far from him, seeming to respond to his words, or perhaps the face of an Awoken and not some strange creature like the ones she had just encountered. Deimos reached over and removed her cloak, checking more thouroughly for wounds, she had a few, but nothing too serious.

“A Titan?” She didn’t respond, but it was clear from her armor, bizarre as it was, what she was.

“Let me see you,” He released his grip on her arm and reached for her helmet, but again she flinched away from him.

He hesitated before trying again, casting a glance at Phobos who seemed to have coerced the other Ghost to follow her to the other end of the plane’s hull, and was now locked in an inaudible discussion with him.

“It's ok,” He reassured her, reached again---slowly this time---for the release on the back of her helmet. “I just want to make sure you're alright. Can I?”

Slowly she nodded and he flicked the release, pulling her helmet off, thick twisted vines of dusty green hair falling around her shoulders. For a moment he couldn’t speak, struck with an emotion that sucked the wind from his lungs.

Her olive skin was bruised on one cheek, her grey eyes ringed in red, from tears or not enough sleep he was not sure. Her lip was busted open, a fresh bloom of vermillion had appeared likely from it splitting back open when she had called out to him for help.

“I’m Deimos.” He said after a long outstretched period of silence. Glittering eyes locked on his own.

“Deee-mos.” She repeated, a thick accent reforming his name in her mouth. He liked it.

Something about it reminded him of dew drops and the smell of fresh flowers buds and the feeling of skin on skin in a cool moonlight night. A strange, unwelcomed sensation rushed into him, forming a lump in his throat.

What the hell is this? He wondered to himself.

It felt different than when he had remembered his sister. He saw her, straight backed and proud from across the Reef. Her golden eyes locked on his own and instantly she had run to him. Long limbs were flung around him as they collided. She had been a stranger to him only moments before, but as he held her angular form tightly, a familiarity he could not shake began to seep into his bones.

“My other half.” She had sobbed into his shoulder. “Finally, I have you back.”

Tears had flowed from his own eyes as he felt the words she had spoken. It was as if one thing had been cleaved in half had begun to knit itself back together. He remembered her hand in his when they were small, the shark’s grin she had when they were up to trouble, all sharp teeth and bright ideas. He remembered her lying by his side in green fields telling him woes of relationships gone wrong, and conversely the joys of the good ones. He remembered her, he remembered nearly everything.

But this, this was something different. It was there in front of him, he could see it in the distance, but like a falling star, he could not catch it.

“Your name?”

She watched him hesitantly, her eyes clouded and stormy with worry for the briefest of moments. Perhaps, he thought, it was the fear of the finalement of a connection. She could walk away now and they would never see each other again, nothing but her Ghost binding her to this world. He knew that feeling, it was the feeling of calling out to the storm, the lightning flickering over your skin, uncertain if was bringing or taking life.

“Circe.” She whispered at last and the storm within him brewed.

“Circe?” He tested, her name on his tongue felt familiar, the taste of it like the summer rain.

“It's a good name.” He managed awkwardly after a moment, tearing his eyes from hers. “It suits you.”

This one's gonna be trouble for me.

#oc: circe #oc: deimos #oc: ganymede #oc: phobos #eliksni #destiny #titan #warlock #circe x deimos #sfw #guardian #spooky says #spooky writes #destiny the game #i promise phobos and deimos love eachother even though they bicker #oc: akhlys #kinda #plz be nice #my words

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protect-klangst · 7 years

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Soooo basically this is my reaction voltron season 3 which I finished watching in the middle of the night honestly I was yelling most of the time you have no idea how excited I was the fuck but I got a tiny bit collected by the end of episode 2 so I started recording my reaction at the beginning of episode 3 aaand yeaahh

Episode 3

“KEITH WHAT THE FUCK" *laughing* "UHDHDHJS LOTOR AAAAAA” “bITCH LISTEN TO PIDGE” “OH SHIT THAT LAUGH” “BITCH SAME” “YES BLOW HIM UP LOTOR” shit i love her. “Keith. No.” “YES LANCE IS RIGHT YOU’RE RIGHT BABY” “keith.” “KEITH. HONEY. NO” “SHIT ALLURA NOOOOO SAVE HER” “LOTOR YOU ASS” “NOOO ALLURA BABY” FUCK ITS A KLANGST MOMENT THIS IS WHY MY USERNAME IS PROTECT KLANGST I WANT TO PROTECT KLANGST FUCKFUCKFUCKUFCU KLANGST “KEITH NOOOO” “LANCE NO DON’T SAY THAT" “but bitch u right” “AW HUNK” "YOU’RE DOING GREAT SWEETIES” “ALLura ohmygod I want to pROTECT HER” “OHMYGOD ALLURA THAT WAS SPOT ON” “Good god why does lotor’s face look hecka punchable” “THIS. BITCH.” “Yes ALLURA YOU’RE DOING GREAT SWEETIE” “YAAAAAAHS” “YEAAAH THINK LIKE LANCE” “Look I’m glad we’re all making fun of lance” GUYS NOOOO LEADER!KEITH I’ m weA K THEY FUCKING FORMED VOLTRON I’M GONNA KMS FUCK TWHATX THE FHDITSH HUNK IM A LEG OMFGSKDHS ALLURA IS SO PRECIOUS??? Guys. GUYS. IM WE AK YES KEITH. FINALLY. TEAM LEADER. TEAAAM LEADER. TEAM LEADER BITCH Episode 4 I LOVE THIS AGGRESSIVE FEMALE GALRA SHE IS SO RELATABLE LIKE EVERYTIME SHE TALKS I’M LIKE DUDE SAME Keith is sitting on shiro’s seat I am not okay this is not okay I’m not crying you’re crying keith yes <3 hunk same SHIT ITS THE FUCKING TRAILER I'MDHSKSH ITS THE WHOLE FUCKING VOLTRON BEING SUCKED INTO THE WORMHOLE FFS THE DAMN SKELETON THE FUCK I ACTUALLY YELLED WAIT IS THAT IS THAT SLAV WAIT IS THAT SHIRO “BITCH WHAT THE FUCK” “WHAT THE ATUAL FUCK” “BITCH WHAT” “WHAT” “WHAT THE” ITS FUCKIN SLAV BITCH WHAT IS GO IN G ON THATS NOT HIS FUCKIN VOICE IM “AHAHAHAHAHA ALTERNATE REALITY FUCKING HELL” SVEN. WHY. THE RAIN DEER. FROM FROZEN “The heck just happened” LMFAO SAME ALTEANS AAAAAHHHHHH HUNK SAME I LOVE THIS FEMALE GALRA THE FUCK I love Ezor ;-; “Bitch this is blowing my mind” “Allura you’re doing gr8 sweetie” I CANT TAKE SVEN SERIOUSLY I’M CHOKING THEIR DAMN ACCENTS GOSH I’M SO FUCKING CONFUSED BUT O KAAAY called it pftt these fake bitches “Keith. Yes.” “Allura. No.” “WAIT NO DON’T” Aw coran I’M ITS THE DAMN TRAILER AGAIN FUCKKKCJX KEITH’S VOICE WOOOOOO SLAV LMFAO “YES KEITH” “YES TEAM” “YES ALLURA” AAAAHHHHH LANCE WITH THE RED BAYARD I’M WEAK “SHIT NO SVEN” “SVEN NOOO WHAT” NOO ITS LIKE SEEING SHIRO DYING I’M NOT OKAY bless slav really. ffs let them rest. Episode 5 “SHIRO” “SHIRO SHIFOSGIRO ITS THE DAMN TRAILER” “AAAHHH WAIT WHAT THE FUCK HIS HAIR” ULAZ “NOOO PROTECT HIM” “WHAT THE FU K IS GOINGO N” I’VE SEEN THIS EVERYWHERE BUT WHAT THE ACTUAL HELL IS GLIN GON “WHAT” “WHERE THE FUCK IS HE” WAS THAT NOT A FUCKING FLASHBACK WHAT wtf idk what’s going on and idk who this dude is bUT *SMASHES PROTECT BUTTON* Lmfao DIDNT SEE THAT COMING ITS THEM WHAT OH OHHHHHHHH THATS FUCKIN SHIRO WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED HOW DID HE GROW THAT MUCH HAIR “wait what the fuck” “SHIRO AAAAAHHHHH” oh shit lotor’s hot ???? I AM SHOOK WOOOOO SHIRO YES YES SHIRO DAD This bitch was caught by a galra and escaped twice how is he still alive THE PERSON FROM THE TRAILER WAS SHIRO OOOOHHHH SHIRO YES WAIT NOOO HE WAS SO CLOSE NOO NOOOOO SHIRO OHMYGOD THAT WAS SO FUCKING CLOSE I’M SO MAD THAT WAS SO FRUSTRATING okieee lotor has daddy issues I SWEAR IF SHIRO DIES I WILL FUCKING DIE WITH HIM “BITCH” HIS FLASHBACKS I HAVE TEARS IN MY EYES THE FLASHBACKS SHIT IM SO FUCKING SAD OHMYGOD THE LION “AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH” “KEITH YES” “AAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH” “WHAT THE FUCK” BITCH HIS SMILE HIS SMILE SOFT BABY KEITH SMILES I’M NOT OKAY I DID NOT EXPECT S3E5 TO TURN OUT LIEK THAT BUT FUCK THAT WAS REALLY SKETCHY THO WHAT

Episode 6 “YES LANCE” “YES BABY WOOO" AW OMG HEY KEITH I HAD THAT GUY I STILL CAN’T WITH LANCE + RED BAYARD AAAAAHHHHH “YES ALLURA YOU’RE DOING GR9 SWEETIE” “YES PIDGE” “ok buT WHERE IS SHIRO” “OH THERE YOU FUCKING ARE" where the fuck is their reunion scene the fuck “LANCE CONTROL YOUR GAY HUN” Hunk and Pidge’s friendship is SO UNDERRATED YOU GUYS I LOVE THEM “DID LANCE JUST ” HEY MAN PART TWO BITCH HEY MAN H E Y M A N THIS IS SO WEIRD TO WATCH ITS LIKE STRAIGHT OUT OF FANFICS I’M WDHAOSJS FUCK FUCKF UFKCU KFUCK UK “I mean you’re the leader now right?” FUCK i’VE SEEN THIS FANART SOMEWHERE IM DYIFNSSG it’s like ePISODE ONE ALL OVER AGAIN I DONT KNOW ANYMORE BONDING MOMENT FUCKING HELL THEY’RE SO SOFT I’M FUCKCJFUCKCUK BUT FUCK THIS SOME LANGST SHIT I CAN’T NO LANCE BABY I’M SO SAD LEAVE THE MATH TO PIDGE KEITH. WHY. KEITH. LANCE’S SMILE YO HSOSHSDK HUNK OFHSJDHSK OH MAN KEITH’S USED TO BEING A LEADER NOW I’M SO DONE I’M SO FUCKING DONE “alright what’s going on” same. EZOR AAAAHHHHH I LOVE LANCE X RED BAYARD KEITH X BLACK BAYARD I CANNOT COPE AUXIA OHMYLOORDDD SAME CORAN WHAT IS GOING ON “KEITH YES” “WAIT KEITH NO” “KEITH. NO. THE FUCK.” “Keith yes <3" He’s so soft WOOOO I’M GAY FOR Y'ALL FEMALE GALRAS “NO WTF” OHMYLORD THE FLASHBACK THE WEBLUM LADY OSHDKSHSKS IT’S CANON I GOTCHU BUDDY YES LANCE KLANCE HNNNGGGGHSH “PIDGE NOOOO” “HUNK NOOOOO” “SAVE THEM” “ALLURA NOOOOO” “LANCE YES YES BUDDY YOU’RE DOING GREAT SWEETIE” “nvm" oookie guess i’ll just die “NOOOOOO” “DON’T DIE THE FUCK” “WAIT WHAT” “OHMYGOD YES” something strange is going on here BITCH U RIGHT YOU’RE THE STRANGE ONE RN WYD keith :((((( Episode 7 “what the actual fuck” “WHAT” EXCUSE ME THE FORMER RED AND BLUE PALADINS WERE LIKE HECKA CLOSE I’M SORRY I HAVE TO MENTION THIS ALFOR WHYSJSGSJGSJ ZARKON YOU WERE A GREAT HERO WHY ARE YOU LIKE THIS NOW I AM DISAPPOINTED UM THE FORMER BLUE PALADIN WAS SO GAY AAAAAHHHH HAPPY DAYS nope nvm ZaRKON IS SO SHOOK OHMYGOD ISNT THAT THE CAT WITH THE BLIND FEMALE GALRA ZARKON IS BEING ALL FLUSTERED THIS IS HILARIOUS ALFOR KNOWS LMFAO what is going oN V O L T R O N THAT BLUE PALADIN IS SO LANCE WHAT THE HELL this is so weird to watch tbh “what the hell even is that thing” C OUGH red and blueCO U G HH

I’M GETTING CHILLS ALL OVER WHAT IS THIS they boutta die ALFOR YES oh shit zARKON YOU ASS is … she… THE FUCKING WITCH SHIT SHIT SHIT FUCK “WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK” I SWEAR BRUHHH YOU HAVE BEEN FOOLED “OHMYFUCK” OH M YDCYK OMDKLSBDKS I CAN’T BELIEVE THIS OH MY FYCK IN G I AM FUCKING SPEECHLESS

#WHY DID I EVEN DO THIS #voltron #vld season 3 #vld s3 #voltron season 3

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spookysummersmores · 7 years

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Mind Heist - Chapter 7

Word count: 4,310 (In the words of Grunkle Stan..."HOT BELGIAN WAFFLES!")

Author's note: Ohhh, wow...after two long months of brainstorming, editing, and writing additions to the original...this is it. The final chapter.

I know that, when I posted chapter 6 the other day, I said that there would be TWO more chapters left in the story. And that was originally going to be the case! But chapter 7 felt just...a bit too short to me...? And so I combined chapters 7 and 8 into one and ended up with this...4,000+ word long monster. xP

This one is almost entirely just pure fluff, which is always just...a delight to write. Pines family bonding for life. uwu

Also...stay vigilant. Once it seems like you've reached the end of the chapter...scroll a little further. There's a surprise hidden at the very end...

I'd just like to take the time to thank all of you who have supported Mind Heist - especially @raination and @choc-chip-pancakes - and provided such wonderful feedback. It means the world to both me and my bestie, and you provided me so much motivation and so many smiles throughout this whole process. Much obliged; you're sweethearts, the lot of you. 👍💕💞

The person I'd like to thank most, though, is my partner in crime, @ichipine. This story originated from summer RP shenanigans between us two. It was you who gave me the go-ahead, it was you that gave me so much cute Mabel dialogue to work with and add onto, and it was you who came up with some of the best dreamscape battle tactics I've ever heard. Without your assistance and friendship, I wouldn't have a complete story. Thanks, big sib. Working with you was a BLAST and a half! ^0^ *MAJOR HUGS*

Well...I guess that's all for now. In terms of future fanfiction, I'll be going solo from now on - unless Kaylee or another good friend ever wants to work with me on a fic again, that is! Until next time...see you later, and I hope you enjoy this final chapter. Stay weird, my friends. ^-^ ❤

(As always, PLEASE do not tag any ships. Thank you.)

Dipper and Mabel were soon jolted out of sleep, and they both gasped as they bolted upright in unison. At long last, both of them were safe and sound in the attic of the good old Mystery Shack, and even THAT seemed brighter all of a sudden. Things were finally NORMAL again.

Well...okay, sort of normal.

Dipper immediately began coughing. "Ugh...well...I certainly didn't miss this..." he said hoarsely, sniffling.

Oh, God...it felt as though his head had been hit with a jackhammer. He hadn't had the time to worry about the effects of a mindscape war with a demon on a summer cold for long while in said mindscape. Now he certainly had something to report to his trusty journal about it once he felt up to it: 'If you're fortunate enough to...you know, not die, you'll definitely feel a heck of a lot worse than you did before going to sleep.'

He pulled his blanket up over himself for warmth and then turned to Mabel, giving her a small smile. "Mabel...you did it. I-if it hadn't been for you...Bill...he would've completely wrecked my mind or...or something worse that I...don't really want to think about." He shivered a bit - half from fever and half from the thought of Bill's twisted games. "The way I was feeling in there...I never would have been able to get him on my own. Thanks, Mabel..."

Mabel smiled wide. "Don't worry about it! There was no way I was letting him pick on my brother EVER again...the big bully. That guy just never learns," she said, hands on her hips. She got up off the floor and stretched out. She happened to notice that, even though it felt as though a whole day had passed them by, they'd only been gone for about an hour in the real world.

When she got a good look at her twin, concern set back in. She climbed up on the end of his bed and sat there. "You still seem...REALLY sick though. Like...more like miss-school-for-two-whole-WEEKS sick now. You doing okay?"

"In all honesty? N-not really..." Dipper started coughing again, and rather harshly at that.

Mabel quickly got his drink for him and felt his forehead. You could have used it in place of a kerosene heater. Bill really HAD done quite a number on him...

Luckily for Dipper, about 15 minutes later, the twins both heard Stan unlocking the front door downstairs. "Honey...I'm home!" he called jokingly from the first floor. He climbed the stairs and knocked on the attic door before immediately entering (which kind of defeats the purpose of knocking), grocery bags in hand. He walked in just as Mabel was changing out the cloth on Dipper's forehead. "Hey, kiddo...how're you doin'?" he asked quietly, sounding an awful lot gentler than usual.

"Terrible..." Dipper croaked out from underneath the covers.

"Yeesh." Stan set the bags down on the bed and sat once Mabel scooted off. "Well...I dunno if this'll make ya feel any better, but you're not alone. Apparently, it's goin' around. In the SUMMER. I was IN LINE with some punk who was practically coughin' his lungs up. Only in this weird hick town..." He sighed. "Okay...so I just about bought out the pharmacy."

"Bought it out, or stole everything?" Dipper whispered with a tiny smile and a sniffle. Even in his haze, he couldn't help but tease Stan just a little.

"Haha...very funny, y'little dork. You'd be gettin' noogied right about now if y'weren't so darn sick," Stan teased back, grinning at the boy. "Here we go now. F'real." He started unpacking the bags, and he'd only been half exaggerating about buying out the pharmacy. "Tissues, cough drops, cold pills-" He nonchalantly put a hand to Dipper's forehead as he spoke, but he forgot to hide his concern and stopped cold, eyes wide, when he felt how high the kid's temperature had gotten in such a short amount of time. "Which y'need RIGHT NOW. I could make an omelet on your head. Be right back. Mabel, keep an eye on 'im, will ya?" He popped out of the room, taking Dipper's juice glass with him.

Mabel flopped down on her own bed. "Oh, gosh...you're in really bad shape, huh?" she asked. "I'm awful glad Grunkle Stan's back."

"Same..." Dipper groaned a little and laid back on his pillow.

"Don't you worry, bro. I'll be by your side keepin' you company until you get better."

Dipper was happy to have her company...but he realized something. "Thanks, Mabel. Just...be careful, okay? Judging by what Grunkle Stan just said, you..." He sneezed mid-sentence. "Could catch it. Really easily. Wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy..."

'Then again, Bill would probably enjoy it. The weirdo,' he thought to himself with disgust.

"I'll try to be careful...don't worry." Mabel gave Dipper a grateful little smile. "And heck...quit worrying about me! You're the one Dad could probably use for a grill right now. Just relax."

Grunkle Stan soon stepped back in the room with a glass of water, cold pills, and an ice pack he'd wrapped in a washcloth. "Alllright, kiddo...get this in you before your head...spontaneously combusts or somethin'."

"Thanks, Grunkle Stan." Dipper sat up to take the medicine and went to pick his UFO blanket up when it fell to the floor. Stan put a stop to that, however, when both he and Mabel saw the child become dizzy the second he stepped out of bed.

"Excuuuse me; where d'ya think you're goin'?" Stan muttered to him, sternly, but gently.

"Aww, Dipper, you're supposed to rest..." Mabel stepped over and put a hand on his shoulder to gently lower him back into bed.

"I-I'm good...I'm good," Dipper insisted, though he immediately coughed again afterwards.

"C'mere, kiddo...thataboy..." Stan tucked the kid back in and gently placed the ice pack on his burning forehead. "Now...when I say don't move from that bed, I MEAN don't move from it. Not a big fan of the sound of ya there," Stan said in his gruff, but well-meaning, way. He backed out of the room with the rest of the grocery bags. "Mabel, keep an eye on 'im while I put stuff away...and if he falls asleep, come downstairs and just let 'im go, okay?"

Mabel nodded. "You got it, Grunkle Stan."

Stan nodded back and smiled at his niece. "Good. Rest up, kiddo," he said to Dipper softly.

Once Stan left, as Dipper laid there in his bed, bundled up in a little blanket cocoon, anxious thoughts popped back into his head...but much different ones than before. He hated admitting it to himself, but he was more than a bit wary about trying to go back to sleep. He knew full well that he and Mabel had just seen Bill disappear into the unknown for themselves. And yet...the thought of him possibly still lurking somewhere nearby just wouldn't leave his aching head. Nervous, he poked a hand out and gently began to pet Waddles, who had sensed Dipper's uneasiness and decided to curl up next to him as if to reassure him.

Mabel turned to Dipper, and without him even saying a word, she could immediately tell that he felt uneasy. "It's alright, bro-bro," she said, patting his head lightly to comfort him. "We got rid of Bill...we watched him poof away, remember? You should be safe now. Just worry about getting better...okay?"

Dipper hesitated before nodding slowly, though he still couldn't help but feel at least a little nervous. "Okay..." He sneezed again and cleared his throat. "I guess I'll try to sleep...my head is killing me. Maybe the meds'll kick in faster that way." He slowly pulled himself into an even smaller ball - he slept more comfortably that way - but turned back around for a second to whisper one last message out. "Oh, Mabel...? Thanks again. For everything."

Mabel smiled. "You're welcome!" She made sure her sibling was tucked in just right. "I'll check back later once you're asleep to see how you're doing, okay?"

The boy smiled a tiny bit and nodded as he watched his sister leave the room. Waddles, who had decided to make himself comfortable where he was, kneaded on the bed a bit like a cat would before spinning around and falling asleep at Dipper's feet. Dipper soon surprised himself by successfully clearing his mind and following the little pig to Dreamland.

For the rest of that day and night, Mabel checked up on Dipper and kept him company whenever she could. She made it her sworn duty as 'chief nursemaid and right-hand man of the renowned Dr. Waddles' to monitor his temperature and keep him supplied with fluids, tissues, and throat lozenges. At one point, late in the evening, once enough of Dipper's lightheadedness had subsided and he was waiting for his next dose of medicine to kick in, the twins even played a game in which they would take turns making up a story by drawing pictures on Mabel's dry-erase board. The town's plethora of oddities - supernatural and human alike - provided them with plenty of material to draw inspiration from, so they spun themselves quite a tale. It was around 10:00 when the twins turned in, and for the first night in almost a week, they BOTH found themselves sleeping peacefully that night.

Unbeknownst to either of them, Stan had come up sometime around midnight. He pulled up a rusty old lawn chair from the bowels of the attic storage, parked himself just outside the kids' bedroom door, and stayed there - occasionally nodding off, but never for long - until he'd heard them begin to stir early the next morning. He then made a break for it as soon as he knew that all was as well as it could possibly be.

Though he still had quite a bad cold, Dipper was at least much less feverish when he woke up the next morning. Mabel was immensely relieved and glad to see him feeling at least a little bit better - and Stan would never admit it out loud, but so was he.

Since Dipper was still confined to bed, Mabel's nurse duties continued well into that afternoon. Whenever she came to visit him, Dipper noticed that she wasn't her usual hyperactive self - in fact, she was being...oddly quiet that morning - but he immediately determined the reason why, or so he thought. He'd found himself in an odd state of mental exhaustion since he and Mabel had returned from their mindscape battle victorious, and he figured that his sister was feeling the same sort of fatigue.

At some point, Dipper drifted off to sleep in spite of himself. The next thing he knew, he was brought out of his impromptu nap by a strange sound - a sound that gave him a bad feeling, though he...honestly wasn't quite sure what the noise was at first. He'd only half-heard it.

Had...had he just heard a cat sneeze?

"Huh...wha...?" he mumbled out as he rolled over. "Mabel...did you say something?" He coughed and picked up his watch so he could check the time. It was nearly suppertime, to his dismay. "Aw, seriously? I slept all day?"

Mabel was seated on her bed, working on gluing bits and bobs to various pages of her beloved scrapbook, as she often did on quiet afternoons and rainy days. "Naww...i-it's okay, bro-bro," she reassured him quietly...though Dipper quickly noticed that she didn't sound quite like herself. "You need all the sleep...you can..." Her sentence was cut off when she sneezed again. She quickly hid her discomfort, not paying it any mind, but she could tell by the way her brother was looking at her that he'd seen her. "W-what? Why're you lookin' at me like that?" She laughed nervously.

Dipper sat up. Something was up, alright. She looked paler than he did, and just as flushed to boot. "Mabel...? Are you okay?"

"...Oh, no," she muttered to herself. It wasn't until then that Mabel fully realized what had happened. At least, she hadn't admitted it to herself until then. "Okay, Dipper...I think maybe I got sick, too.." Having admitted defeat, she groaned and plopped down on her bed.

"...Uh-oh."

'So that's what's going on. Should've known when SHE started being QUIET,' Dipper thought to himself.

He wrapped himself up in his blanket, walked over to Mabel's bed, sat beside her, and put a hand to her forehead. Sure enough..."Aw, no, you're burning up!"

Mabel frowned at the discovery. "Yeah...I feel pretty darn sick..." She began to cough, and she sounded quite awful. "H-how are you feeling?"

Dipper winced a little at the sound of her. "Pff, don't worry about me; I'm..." He sneezed. "Fine." He certainly wasn't fine yet, by any stretch of the imagination, but he was much more concerned about Mabel's well-being at that moment. He handed her the box of tissues that had been sitting beside him. "How long have you been feeling like this? How come you didn't tell me?"

Mabel grabbed a tissue and blew her nose. "N-not too long..." She had actually felt herself coming down with something longer than she liked to admit. "I just...didn't want you to get worried while YOU'RE getting better...you know?"

"Aw, sis..." Dipper sighed. "It means a heck of a lot that you've been taking care of me. I really appreciate it. But just...don't forget to take care of yourself, too. You definitely don't want to end up feeling as awful as I felt yesterday. Okay?" He gave her a caring smile.

Mabel smiled back a little and nodded in response. Sometimes, it was almost as if he took the role of a protective older brother rather than a twin.

"Don't worry. We'll get you fixed up. It's my turn to help YOU out. One sec..." Dipper then got up and tried to call down the stairs for their grunkle. That very quickly turned out to be a mistake, for the fire in his throat began to burn twice as much, and it induced another coughing fit.

"SHHH, careful!" Mabel whisper-yelled to him, sounding worried. "You're still sick too, goofus!"

"Wha- what's that now?" Stan hollered back from downstairs, not having heard clearly. "Dipper? That you? What're you doin' yellin', kid? You're gonna bust your voicebox or somethin', and I'm not bein' held responsible for that..." he called up the stairs as he approached the attic. His head soon peeked through the doorway. "Y'okay?"

"I'm about the same as before; don't worry," Dipper replied, sniffling. "Mabel, on the other hand..."

"Hi, Grunkle Stan." Her voice cracked a bit - something that usually only Dipper's voice did - and she cleared her throat.

Stan raised an eyebrow in concern. He could instantly see that she didn't feel well and began to worry when he saw that clearing her throat caused it to ache. "Mabel...c'mere, sweetie." He put a hand to her head - "Aw, jeez..." - and immediately went to see if he had a second thermometer handy, one he hadn't already used on his nephew. Dipper stayed beside her with a comforting hand on her shoulder as she waited.

It wasn't long before the thermometer beeped and decided to be the bearer of bad news. 100 degrees even. Stan sighed. "Well, that's not good."

"Aw, man..." Mabel frowned.

Stan took a deep breath, then came out with an idea. "...Alrighty. That's it. The two of yas, grab your blankets and pillows and...pigs and what have ya. You're comin' downstairs," he announced. "At least y'can...y'know, watch TV down there." The real reason he wanted them downstairs was so he could keep a closer eye on them both, but he dared not say it.

Dipper put a hand to his head, but smiled a little anyway. "Sounds like a plan to me." He quickly grabbed his blanket and pillow.

Mabel followed suit, wrapping both herself and Waddles up in her blanket. "I'm ready!" she proclaimed softly with a sniffle.

"All good? M'kay. Here we go..." Stan picked his niblings up and draped one of them over each of his shoulders. "All aboard the Stan Train!"

Very, very carefully, Stan carried them down the stairs. The twins used his shoulders as head rests and felt warm and safe in their grunkle's strong arms. He found himself a bit sore by the time he arrived in the living room, but didn't say so, and honestly, he didn't mind.

"Next stop...couch." He gently plopped them both - and Waddles - down.

The kids smiled. "Thanks, Grunkle Stan."

"Yeah, yeah. It's nothin'." Stan brushed it off, but he smiled a little himself. "Now don'tcha move a muscle. I'll be right back." Off he went to fetch supplies for them both.

Mabel tried to help Dipper bundle himself, but he took it upon himself to help her bundle herself up first instead. "You okay?" he whispered, trying not to strain his voice anymore.

Mabel coughed. "I've been better...but I'm okay." She snuggled Waddles close to her for comfort.

Dipper gave her a little side hug. "Yeah. Sorry that I...got you sick..." Then, the twins ended up sneezing in unison, which they couldn't help but snicker at.

"It's okay...I think I would've gotten sick anyways." Mabel returned the side hug. "I liked taking care of you - it was fun! So...I don't mind," she said softly with a shrug.

Dipper smiled warmly at his sister's kindness, glad to have her by his side.

Suddenly, the twins heard talking outside the door to the living room.

"OUT."

"Aw, come on, man-" "But Mr. Pines-"

"No 'buts' except yours away from this door. This area's been quarantined. Now OUT, b'fore I sic the CDC on yas both!"

As the old door creaked open and Stan stepped through, the twins could see Soos and Wendy squeeze their faces through the opening as fast as they could, determined to get their message across.

"Aw, man...get better, dudes!" Soos called through the door, his voice muffled from squishing in between the door and the wall.

"Feel better, guys! We'll sneak stuff in to you later when Stan's not looking!" Wendy managed to yell to them just before - 'click' - Stan shut the door on them.

Dipper and Mabel couldn't help but giggle at their antics. "Bye, guys," the twins called back quietly, hoping the two of them could hear.

Stan dropped tissues and other such supplies on the coffee table with a sigh. "Alright...you knuckleheads both need meds, and I'm makin' soup. And later, I...may or may not be able to...spare some ice cream." He grinned.

Mabel gasped and smiled. "Yes! Ice cream!" she cheered softly before sneezing.

"Bless you," Dipper said...and then promptly sneezed himself.

Stan ruffled the kids' hair affectionately. "Consider yourselves lucky. I don't go sharin' my stash with just anyone, y'know!" He chuckled a little as he disappeared into the kitchen. He peeked back through the kitchen door, for just a second, to make sure they'd gotten settled before getting to work.

Later on that evening, after the little family had sat down together for ice cream and a movie, Stan unraveled himself from the blanket pile on the couch and left the room for just a minute to grab some coffee. When he came back...

"Hey, kiddos, it's gettin' late...whaddya say we-" He stopped as soon as he saw the kids and smiled warmly. "Ha...wouldja look at this..."

The sight before him was too adorable for words. Dipper and Mabel were fast asleep, leaning on each other for support. Waddles had stretched himself across both of their laps, as if he was determined to guard them as they slept.

Stan chuckled - not only because the sight of the twins sleeping was so sweet, but also because he found his mind wandering to the happier days of his youth. Distant and bittersweet as they now were, he remembered them fondly just then, as if they had only occurred a few days prior. Those were treasured days, worth their weight in gold, where, even if sickness kinda killed a fun weekend, it wasn't as bad when there was a good friend to keep you company.

He silently debated whether or not to move the kids upstairs and soon decided against it entirely. "Eh...just let 'em sleep, Stan," he mumbled to himself. "They're comfortable where they are. No use disturbin' 'em both."

He was about to turn the TV off and depart for his bedroom, but he hesitated. He just couldn't bring himself to leave the kids alone. So, he just sat on the opposite end of the couch - gently, so as not to wake them.

Just as he went to check the kids' foreheads, Mabel suddenly coughed a bit in her sleep, rolled over, and hugged Stan's arm. Dipper murmured something in his sleep, and his head fell over onto Mabel's shoulder.

"Awwww..." Stan put his arm around Mabel. "Sweet dreams, pumpkin." He slowly reached his arm over Mabel's head and ruffled Dipper's hair. "G'night to you too, kiddo."

Mabel smiled in her sleep, as if the message had gotten to her regardless of her slumber. Dipper did as well and wrapped one arm around Waddles, who oinked happily in response and went back to piggy-snoring.

Stan kept his arm around the kids for the rest of the night. He had had no intention of falling asleep, but the cuddle pile had a rather soothing effect, and so he soon joined his niblings in slumberland in spite of himself.

In another couple days, to Stan's relief, Dipper and Mabel bounced back from their colds completely. Almost immediately, the tween sleuths were back to exploring the gigantic oddity that was Gravity Falls, where countless other summer adventures - and misadventures - awaited them...somewhere in the woods...

the end

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Rant time (open for discussion if you want)

(Hey sheridan if you could just not read this thatd be great thanks)(but tbh i mean i cant stop you so🤷‍♀️)

Okay so yesterday i spent a better part of the day cuddling with this guy. Hes someone ive been friends with for almost a year and a half but its been a friendship mostly revolves around heloing each other through depression. Anyway last few months ive been working on actually making it a more thoughtful friendship bc he is genuinely a sweet guy.

About a week ago i hung out with him for the first time and we just walked around the mall being obnoxious teenagers and i walked with him to his apartment because he wanted to show it to me and i didnt want to make him walk by himself. Well then i was leaving and he ended up walking me back to my car at the mall. A few days after that we had planned to hang out again but this time at my house (wanted to meet the cats)

Like a day or two after that i kind of had a crisis and wasn't sure if i was developing feelings or not. I had a little crush but i wasnt sure if it was because i actually genuienly like him or if i was just latching on because he paid attention to me. He also has been pretty flirty for most of the time ive known him but its a small enough that it can still be considered friendly and him jusy being nice. I had asked about it previously and he mentioned that he tended to come across as flirty to a lot of people on accident. Anyway i did the ol' 20 questions thing and hinted out that there was a possibility of a crush but didn't mention anything after it

Hours later into the conversation he said that crush was mutual. I did make it fairly clear that i needed to figure out my jead and that i didnt know what was going on and that i wasnt promising anything. We continued the random q n a over the next day or two and it was a generally pretty open 20 questions. Didnt really not answer anything.

Well on the day he was coming over he planned to bring a movie (Rango) and i wanted to watch the black mirror movie so it was like already pre established we planmed to have casual movie day. We had both been keeping up the casual flirting and whatnot and like the night befire he had asked me if i wanted to cuddle as we watched movies. I did one of those like half answer things and basically did the "theoretically yes, realistically im anxious" but it was fine🤷‍♀️.

(I should probably preface with the fact that about 2 years ago i came out as pan rom and ace but like thats still very confusing bc honestly sexuality is hard? Ive dome some things that def werent ace and i enjoyed them kinda? More if the emotional aspect rather than any physical pleasure? But i still have very mixed feelings about said things so i dont even kmow anymore. Its kind of like i want to do and experience those things with another person (boy or girl) but like the thought if a dick kind of rly grosses me out and i dislike General nudity. So that aspect of my life is super wacky.)

(My first and only relationship was with a girl and it lasted about a year and 4 months. We lived pretty far away from each other (like a 30 min drive which was a lot bc neither of us amhad our license at the time) but we had been best friends for years prior. We did practice on the same team 12-16 hours a week together but we werent able to actually be a couple at the gym. Anyway we were already pretty close and comfortable with each other and it became like that physically as well. However i was very conflicted physically because i wanted the emotional bond that came with physical intimacy but the actual like pleasure aspect wasnt quite there. In the moment it was generally fine and enjoyable but ive never really understood like the big deal kind of? And afterwards it was kind of uncomfortable to think about so i mostly just ignored it. I also think i allowed myself to go too fast bc we knew each other really well but not necessarily in the relationship aspect. So we had been dating for 3 months maybe but i would have only seen her outside of practice like 4 times? I domt know im just kimd of scared of doing that again)

But anyway back to my story. Yesterday the boy camw to my house and it was pretty casual playing uno and joking around with each other. We started watching rango and were sitting on two pieces of a sectional together but not really together id you know what i mean. It was more of like separate cushions and i was leaning up against the wall on a pillow but our legs were touching. (He totally thought at one point he was playing footsie with me but it actually my shin. That was pretty hilarious) He also made a terrible joke "why are you using that pillow when theres a 6'2" one right here" (yes he is tall boy but i am tall girl so its fine) (i didnt take him up on the offer either.)

We had later moved to my bed to watch black mirror on my phone and were laying on our stomachs side by side. Totally ended up pressed together along oir sides and he was playing with my feet but it was warm and nice but goodness i was nervous. There was so much like tension.

I ended up flipping onto my back (bc i can only lay on my front for so long befire my shoulders and arms absolutely die) and told him he could do whatever but that i was laying on my back. He took that as an invitation to cuddle on me (it kind of was ) and thank god bc i was losing my mind. It just started out with his head on my shoulder/chest but as we got more comfortable his arm was around me and i was leaning into him.

Anyway(how amny times do you think ima say this lord) it was real nice and all but what inspired this rant was that i wish id like participated more in cuddling or like done something more with it. But then again im also like noooo dont go too fast calm doooown.

I also have the problem of like not being completely attracted to him. More of emotionally attracted but maybe im alao just attracted to the idea of him and i really could put anybody in that place? But he keeps fishing for compliments and its rly hard bc im not one to be untruthful but i look at hom and its just ?? I dont know. Thinking back to my ex girlfriend i never particularily found her attractive until we agreed there was mutual feelings and right before we dtarted dating? Then she basically became the light of my life and was perfect in my eyes. Kind of hoping that happens with this boy but i dont know.

I really just dont wanna like get his hopes uo and like keep it going that hey i like you and thrn jist kind of throw it all away later? But i also really love this whole like casual awkward flirting and im desparate for cuddles in my life. But it could also just be with anyone and i feel terrible for it.

So yeah what do??

Also thanks for actually reading through this clusterfluff mess of writing. Gosh this actually could be like a fanfic i wrote wow. Idk feel free to leave your thoughts ig. Do you want you want😂🤷‍♀️🙃

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