#gnight and stay safe everyone

[shadowwolf146]

🎶"We're off to see the wi-"!🎶 *gets shunted* LMAO

WE'RE ON THE MOON MOTHERFUCKERS!!! WE MADE IT TO RUIDUS!!! LETS GOOOOO!

We're ending it there!!! I can't wait to see what happens next! RIP Ishto lol. OOOH and we'll be in initiative order next week!!! Can't wait!!

Gnight everyone, stay safe, be kind to each other and...is it Thursday yet?? (On the moon!!!)

#cr spoilers #critical role spoilers #critical role #cr liveblog #shadowwolf speaks #im so tired lol

[heeracha]

okay so,, gnight everyone, gmorning for some, gnoon and gafternoon,,, imma go now and get back to working on my thesis work even though i have an 8 am class tomorrow lol <3 take care stay safe dont follow my unhealthy habits 😭👍🏻

[lotchairy]

what will be the hardest thoughts for me to ever ditch is to know that if i avoid eating (usually something extra), my overall calories will be lower and i’ll see results quicker

like i want my 80 cal protein yogurt and i’ve been pretty good today but if i go to bed instead that’s almost 100 less cals i ate today

#tw ed #ed #ana #mia #eating disorder thoughts #idk man should i bite the bullet and just eat it? #it might make restriction easier tomorrow bc i prob won’t have as many distractions #but i’m scared my family will make me eat something high calorie #i’m better off going to bed and avoiding the regret #i can always eat it in the morning #nvm i talked myself out of it #gnight and stay safe everyone

[its-elvie-innit]

gnight everyone!! stay safe, sleep well! love you all<3/p

#elvie screambs!!

[queenoftheskittleholics]

gnight everyone stay safe

#good night

[fotiathymos]

would love to hear the backstory hcs regardless of them being sad or not :0

SIGH. 

I wrote a lot and it got eaten by tumblr and I'm upsetti so IDK if this is any good. Also this is just Lio's backstory stuff and his parents. I could do Galo but maybe if anyones interested I will?? And not tonight..

Its sad and its LONG. So just be prepared for that. Its also 2 am so no one will read this anyway so...

tw for parental death, kidnapping, stalking, genocide, government abuse, and if i miss something my apologies

Do note this isn't the end all be all for a Lio back story. I honestly love everyones interpretations. Mine tends to be sad and less cool and edgey I guess? Everyone makes it cooler, I just go.. oh heres some sad mixed with reasons for Lio's mental illness. 

DO REALIZE. PLEASE. REAL GENOCIDE IS HAPPENING RIGHT NOW IN THE WORLD AND IS NOT COMPARABLE AT ALL TO ANY FICTIONAL 'RACE' LIKE THE BURNISH.

Okay.

Lio's backstory and his parents.

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Lio is a powerful burnish. We know that. He has massive control of his flames and a strong connection to the Promare. It is a common theory that he awoken as a Burnish rather young. I share that theory. Lio became burnish around 8-9 years old. Very very young. Most children who become burnish are taken away, hated by the parents or killed/arrested by Freeze Force. Lio was loved very much by his parents.

Like Simon and Nia. Lio's parents were rebels. They grew up in a world where there wasn't any burnish. They witnessed the uprising, the first World Blaze, the oppression of the burnish. They were against it. They were not burnish themselves but they could not just idly sit by and watch people get murdered and kidnapped for something they couldn't control. Lio's parents joined the rebellion quickly.

His father being an inspiring man, friendly, loveable, a leader, and a beacon for the good of all man and Spiral kind. He was fond of pointy glasses, capes and inspirational speeches. His mother was kind, a bad cook but still tried, soft spoken and believes there is good in everyone. Lio got his attitude from his father, his soft spokeness from his mother. And maybe some magical pretty eyes and hair from his mom too.

His parents were anarchists. His father worked in a line of direct action. Fighting and pushing back against the government, rioting, sabotaging government burnish kidnappings, breaking people out of prison, etc. His mother pretended to play 'stay at home mom'. She worked with the community to build unity and strength within. She'd homeschool Lio to make sure he was not fed propaganda that was quickly over taking the education system. She owned a community garden and helped feed everyone. From a young age Lio was surrounded and taught to be kind and help others.

Unfortunately, Lio was an unexpected child in an unexpected time. The activism of his parents cause the young family and the young child to be targets of the government. Considering they werent burnish and no crimes could be found on them, Freeze Force just wanted the annoying pests to be eliminated. But killing a quiet family wouldn't look good on their part. They wanted to scare them out of activism, scare them into obeying the order. Lio became an easy target.

Strange men started to stalk Lio. It was quickly noticed by his parents and caused them to isolate their child from the world. Lio was a lonely kid, he wasn't allowed friends, couldn't go to the park and mostly stayed home with his mother. 

One day while playing in the backyard, Lio wandered off. His mother was keeping an eye on him of course, but kids are kids. And Lio was Lio and a rebellious kid. He wandered off into a stranger who was watching him from afar. Waiting for Lio to get far enough away to be grabbed. The stranger threw a bag over Lio's head and desperately tried to throw him into a van. Lio was young and small and scared. He was suddenly covered in flames. Burning both himself and the stranger. 

His mother who was already frantically looking for her child, suddenly saw flames appear in her backyard. She grabbed a hose and hosed them down. Only to see her child still on fire. She grabbed Lio, ignoring the burns and ran into the house away from the stranger. After placing Lio in the shower and calming him down, telling him he was safe, she quickly packed bags and left with Lio. 

The family moved to a new house quickly. The news never mentioned a man being burned by the burnish, but they couldn't risk anything.

They now had a burnish son, who was lonely, scared, paranoid and burning everything all the time. In their activism the parents grew to understand the burnish struggles and needs. Not to the extent of understanding completely as they were not burnish but they tried. They loved Lio and did everything they could to help him. His father would teach him to control is flames to make objects, from toys to animals to swords. His mother had him help with cooking, control the flames to not burn the food. They served many burned dinners either way. One day they walked in on Lio climbing into the oven while it was turned on. Freaking out, but suddenly realized he was fine. Lio's excuse was he wanted to see the fires. 

Lio would talk about how the fire spoke to him. How he needed to burn. It became a common thing of Lio bursting into flames just from laughing too hard or crying or just any emotion being felt a little bit too hard. His father always had a pair of fire proof gloves in his pocket and would pick up Lio and rush him into the shower to cool down. He could burn all he wants in the shower with no water, but if it got too much he was to turn it on and cool off. 

The house furniture had scorch marks in Lio's favorite spots. Lio's favorite books needed multiple copies because he'd get so excited from certain parts in the story he'd set the book aflame. He was to watch his mother garden from afar to not burn the plants. Lio learned to make fire that wasn't hot quickly so he could still burn in excitement or joy and not harm his parents or things.

His parents were still activist. Laying low but committed in making the world a better place for their son. His mother stayed home still to teach Lio as he got older. His father would do more secretive work but it'd cause him to not come home for days. They were still being hunted. And possibly even more so since information about their burnish son may be known.

Lio was 12 when he was home, staring into the fireplace, breathing with the flames. His father was out for work. His mother busy in the garden out front. A Freeze Force van pulled up. His mother quickly ran inside. "Lio, go hide. Now." But it was too late. Large men pounded through the front door and threw a bag over Lio's mother's head. Lio screamed for her and burst into flames. He tried to direct them at the men who now had his mother on the floor. But suddenly everything was cold. Lio was shot frozen. And blacked out.

Freeze Force arrested Lio. They told him his parents were killed for treason. Lio was to be experimented on. He never saw them again.

When he finally broke out of prison, he tried to go home. There was a new family in his house. They quickly called the cops on him and Lio ran. Lio was on the run for years. Joining and leaving groups of burnish, being on his own for some years. 

When he finally found the Mad Burnish, interacting with others was foreign to him. He managed to connect with Meis and Gueira only. They respected Lio's way of communication, no touching, less talking, more actions, more burning. 

Being on the run, with and without the Mad Burnish, made Lio never really have a 'home'. The only one he ever had was taken from him. After the Parnassus events, staying put or settling down wasn't in him. Lio continued to travel with Meis and Gueira to aid other ex burnish around the world. He'd come back to Promepolis every so often to stay in touch with Galo. They'd mostly call and video chat from afar but it was nice to see eachother after all they've been through.

It took Lio over a year to finally discuss his feelings with Galo. And even then, when they finally became romantically involved, Lio requested they 'take it very very slow'. Lio continued to travel and help others but started staying at Galo's apartment more. It took another year for Lio to finally call Galo's apartment... home.

When Lio finally opened up to Galo about what happened when he was younger.. Galo told him how proud Lio's parents would be of him. How he was still so kind, loving and helping others, just like his parents. How proud they'd be knowing Lio saved the world. 

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Okay! That was sappy and i tried to end it nice??? I didn't proof read this... its 230 am... ive got insomnia so whatever but staring at a screen typing doesnt help nor did tumblr eating this post first and having to rewrite it.

Once again this is just thoughts. I'd love to know what anyone thinks. Ive seen much cooler more actiony backstories of Lios parents being ex mad burnish leaders or something. I just got sad. pft.

Thank you for reading if you got this far!!! Much love!! Hope I didn't make anyone feel horrible. GNIGHT!

#boop answers #boop thoughts #i keep forgeting to tag that stuff #lio backstory thoughts #IM TIRED AND DONE TALKING UH #i hope this wasnt too wild and weird and dark??? #Anonymous #boop merps

[pumpkin-stars]

Gnight everyone xxxxx stay cool stay awesome stay saFE stay you

#idk what this says lmao #🌙🥱

[tweetsongs]

made myself laugh w this so i’m putting it here as well

[image id: a thread of two tweets. the first tweet is by user @papillonpsyche, and reads ‘last thot of the day here but imagine jon giving martin his rib as a physical reminder of anchorship. ok gnight stay safe everyone’

underneath is a tweet by user @rainny_skies, which reads 

‘jon: *hands martin a bundle of fabric* this is...just in case 

 martin: jon this is so heavy, what isooOH MY GOD IS THAT YOUR RIB 

 jon: so u can remember that i love u 

 martin: DIDN'T YOU LEAVE THIS IN THE ARCHIVES 

 jon, affronted: i have more than one rib!’ /end image id]

#tma #tma 170 #martin blackwood #jonathan sims

[leavaloo]

Hey guys~

It’s late, and I’m probably going to head to bed here soon, but I wanted to write this little thing because I know that holiday season and meeting with family is not really always the best thing in the world. So, I figured I’d say a little bit of my story, I guess, and let y’all know that you’re always welcome here.

In case anyone is bothered by this story of stuff, I figured I’d put a keep reading thingy here. Love y’all <3

I feel like I understand more than most people some of the hardships of life. I have PTSD from childhood. I have severe anxiety. I have depression. I’ve tried to end it all, so many times because of these factors. I was transmasc for a while, then went to non binary as I learned about myself, and am now coming to the realization that I feel womanly. That in and of itself is terrifying.

And so, when you all send me things in my asks like “this made me cry” and “these all really help me through the day”, you have no clue how much that means to me. Cause not only do I get it, it’s still difficult to realize that me and my life has a lot of worth to it to others.

I both love and hate the phrase “it gets better”. I’ve been in the situation where that has been said to me, right as I’m about to be placed back into the barren halls of a psyche ward for a suicide attempt, and I didn’t believe it for a second. I get it, I get the lonely darkness in which no light can pierce except for a few couple things. And those couple things keep you going, even if you don’t realize it.

These are things like self harm, which for some reason a lot of people don’t understand. I get it, though. I have scars on my arms from my biting. I get that it releases a part of those pent up energies that nothing else can get out. It brings you humanity and reality, for even just a split fucking second, and that’s sometimes all someone needs to keep going.

I also get the dysphoria, though it was in a different form than most other people who suffer from that. I had binders. I went my male pronouns. I was misgendered, deadnamed, hated in some circles. Changed my entire wardrobe just to feel okay. Luckily, I had a family that was pretty indifferent to that. I know some people don’t, even if it isn’t something like trans issues. Asexual? Best take you to church, you dirty sinner. I get it. I get the pain, the sting of denial of who you feel like.

2020 is just around the corner, and back in the early 2000′s, I tried to drown myself in a lake because I couldn’t handle it anymore. I write angst because it brings about the emotions that so many people understand, feel, and also because it’s scary. I write fluff because people want that, they want that unconditional love that is so desperately wanted by everyone, but so very difficult to obtain.

I want to talk about this with the world, and these books are some of the ways I wish to do it. I want to talk about the fact that both men, women and everything in between are put to ungodly standards, and that both can be preyed upon. Mental illness is real, alive and well in the population. The world isn’t a utopia, and some people have yet to realize that there’s issues that need to be brought up.

So for everyone who has these feelings of absolute defeat, hopelessness, and are really hating to have anything to do with their family, please hang in there. I tried to die at age eight, and yet, here I am. I have an apartment, a job, a cat, and you guys. I have people who care about me, and even though this PTSD is kicking in again, I know I’ll be safe.

Please know that this blog is safe. There will never be jump scares, nor will there any be discrimination. Please know that I’m proud of you for making it through another year, another leg of your life, and that you’re here, reading this, breathing and alive. It’s not easy.

I hate that phrase “it gets better” for so many reasons. It feels so... fake when it’s said to you in dark times. But maybe this will help you out a little better.

There’s a song by cry, boyinaband, and minx called “Spectrum”. The line that I hold close to my chest still stands true today, and of course, is a good mantra to live by.

I can choose my friends,

And I can choose my family,

If they won’t accept me,

Then others will have me

I love you all so much, and I know this kind of turned into a tired, deep meaning rant, but god damn it, if I’m still here, then you guys can make it too. Life isn’t easy, but you can make it bend to your will should you try hard enough.

Love you all.

Stay safe.

I’ll get back to writing soon.

For now, I’ll pet Tilly for you all, and head to bed.

<3 Gnight dears.

#kai talks #long post #personal #not imagines #personal rant #tw suicide #tw suicide mentions #i don't even know if this makes a whole lot of sense #i'm tired #and rambling #but as i look around at my life #i'm glad i didn't end it #i'm here for yall #stay safe

[blazingheresy]

Gnight everyone stay safe~<3

[witchoflight]

i’m goin to try to attempt to be a functional human (shocker i know)

#gnight everyone say it back if u can!! #ya bois goin to sleep at a decent time yall #i love u all stay safe <3 !! #seren.txt

[gorotan-moved]

nywah its late as heck and i didnt realize so gnight everyone i love you all, stay safe tonight and drink lots of fluids. if you havent eaten yet please try to eat at least something, you deserve food

gnight 

#sol talks

[bambaooo]

weekends like this are harder to come by. 

i deff needed this weekend.

it actually started on thursday

our my work shit ended early, so i actually ended work early on thursday and got to go home early.

i went home and just chilled for the rest of the night

on friday, i legit just stayed in bed watching youtube videos until like 1. it was nice.

i was gonna go to the gym but my bed was too comfy so i thought id be lazy

went to go the fact fundraiser at kung foo tea, i got some taro milk tea.

i think it was my first time having milk tea, its a little weird.lol

went to go eat at elephant thai for the first time, it was pretty good.

after ran home real quick to change and then we went to pageant.

pageant was chill.

i missed a chunk of it cause i went to the powerlifting meeting,

im glad i did, cause i found out the registration for the battle at the beach opened.

so i registered for the meet, im hype.

im going to try to not psych myself out this time around, and really hope that nothing happens between now and then.

went back to pageant, got to see some more hommies

and then waited for pictures then we left,

rode with igi and grabbed some pizza real quick 

went back home to clean up real quick before niggas came over to pre game

its weird to know that we are the only place that we can pregame that makes sense. 

its chil though, i feel like everywhere ive lived has always been that type of place.

everyone came through to pregame, it was a good amount of people.

we then left to go dt

it was fun, i didnt spend that much on drinks,

but got pretty drunk

aparently we came back to our place after wards but idr lol

then we went to jacobs out to chilled and then we went to mpt

i somehow called myyself and uber and got home safely lol

woke up saturday pretty hurt lol

picked up CJ and Arvin then we went to sushi king

sushi king is never a good idea when your hung over

went back home afterwards and chilled

later we went to get mcdonalds before we went to go chill at joes,

like it took almost 30 mins to get my food,

im never the type to get upset about waiting for food just because working at the water park, i know how annoying shit is when its busy

i eventually got my food so its all good.

we picked up some beer, and then headed to joes

it was chill we just played games the whole night. 

we ended up not leaving until like 3 i think

we got back home and chilled for a bit before we fell asleep

woke up this morning, smoked and chilled for a bit

we got food at foo dog.

foo dog is always a good move, but its always a little expensinve

back to the apartment and chilled until cody and arvin left

went and picked up some groceries and prepped some chicken for the next few days, 

smoked for a bit then now im here in bed typing this shit.

back to work tomorrow. 

it was a nice 3 day weekend.

a lot of alcohol and eating like shit.

back to eating normal until next weekend lol

but yeah man, we realize as we older times of having everyone around in the same place is more sparse than it was before. 

but it just makes the times we get to be together a lot more enjoyable. 

but yeah, good weekend.

gnight tumblr. 

[plasticiot]

time to vent into the nothingness

Oof I don’t like to offend people and I know tumblr is the place to get killed over any wrong phrase, but I like to joke about killing myself and I do it alot. I make racist jokes all the time. Y’know all too well those who make school shooter memes and pedophilic jokes. Sometimes that’s just a way to cope I guess. For me, I’ve dealt with thoughts of suicide, I dealt with situations that make me fear going to school or a certain relative’s house. The way I cope is by making satire jokes and making fun of those situations, It’s not that I think their okay, because they’re not, but I find it easier to just disregard their morbid integrity through jokes than sulking about them because it makes it seem more normal. Normal isn’t always good, but at least I’m not out here hating everyone and everything anytime I have to socialize. All of this probably makes no sense because I’m legit just writing down whatever comes to mind and my fingers just seem to be moving along with it. I had two cups of coffee tonight because I have a two part novel project due tomorrow morning that I havent even started on because Im stupid and all i know how to do is procrastinate, I mean I could yknow use my time that ive wasted writing all of this into actually working on my project but i just have so many things running through my head that ive just disregarded correct grammar and punctuation. Im trying my best on spelling right now and trying not to abbreviate. is that how you spell it? I dont know and i dont care at this point. I honestly doubt that anyone’s gonna read this, much less read this all the way. Im sure a lot of these people have way better things to do like fap to their furry porn or something lmao im done i need to sleep. too bad i cant because im hella retarded and decided it was a good idea to basically pump caffeine into my bloodstream. there was barely any creamer too so my coffee was kinda bitter. still good tho. im not even sure if it was ok to have any dairy because i ate shrimp earlier and like my mom has this dumb superstition that if you drink milk or anything dairy after or before eating shrimp, your stomach will hurt or something. What Im thinking tho is that ive seen some people make some weird dishes using like cream and shrimp or whatever and thats totally ok but like you cant eat some hawaiian shrimp and then have a glass of milk and a bread afterwards cus youll potentially be shitting all night. Oh fuck idek how long ive been writing but im starting to lose feeling in my right arm. only my hands have been moving and Im not sure if thats healthy but oof thats whats happening. OOOOOOf i dont know what im saying anymore please kill me and put me out of my misery. if i stop writing for even two seconds i feel the need to stand up and run around and i dont think thats a good thing. i dont think ive ever typed this long without a break not even on school assignments or essays. im not even thinking about what im saying unlike if i were in an essay id have to stop every two seconds to think about what im writing and going back to fix every gramatical error and oof that just seems like too much work., should i post this ?? maybe not maybe idk will this confuse people? will i get hundreds of notes from similar depressed teens all saying “same” in contributions to my post? maybe maybe not. decisions decisions im probably gonna shoot myself after this i dont know im battling with all my emotions rn and im honestly so conflicted its like my brain is having a little conversation with itself on whether it wants to let my logicality or emotions take over my thoughts and then some anxiety is there too so like oooof i d ont know anymore kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me i almost wrote jill me and that would have been extremely sad or extremely funny there is no in between damnit ok im going numb in my right pinkie i think this is a sign to stop typing so thats what im gonna do. uhhh gnight tumblr and whoever reads this congrats to you and if u got any hate to say go on it only feeds my depression and satirical humor even more. i love you stay safe make sure you go pee before you trick or treat and eat all the razor blades byeeee!!!!@~!111

#yo

[popeeandthewolfzurkus]

Good night everyone! (pto characters,this page mods and even the followers if they see this!) stay safe and happy y'all!

Gnight anon, don’t let Papi in your house

[queenoftheskittleholics]

gnight everyone stay safe

#good night