#for that right now. gd

[jackpotsadmon]

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#vent #narrowly dodged being sent to the hospital today when we told our therapist our suicidal thoughts are getting worse #at least it’s jsut me and not the others in the system #every day it gets harder to think of my mom and my brothers when i get like this and it’s too hot to use my weighted blanket to calm down #the semester is almost over but that’s almost making it worse #i don’t know what i want. i want to die but i don’t want to because it would hurt people and i want to go home to see my family but also i #don’t because i won’t be able to go outside again and i’ll have to go to my dads every week #dying feels easier #but if i don’t die then i’ll get kicked out #of school #my therapist said i should make a list of things i want to live for but i am not in a space #for that right now. gd #this is probably some kind of punishment from gd for being the way that i am #i don’t know. i don’t know what to do. nothing helps. nothing works. nothing is going to get better. everyone else in the system is getting #better except for me. and i’m so proud of them #but i wish i was a better host #i’m probably not gonna kill myself so don’t worry @ my friends if you see this #i’m just having a moment. #tw suicide #suicide #religion #religious guilt tw #kinda wanna cry in my moms arms like a fuckinh baby #ngl #i miss feeling loved

[peachyutdr]

i finished it, was kicked out of the game, and then spent the next 10 minutes drawing this. i will now go take a shower, most likely cry, and then go through the emotional turmoil of convincing myself to reset so i can do a geno run. i hate it here :D

#undertale yellow #uty #my art #<- ifg #spoilers under these tags beware. although it is mostly just me being very very sad #that entire thing was heart wrenching. anyways #CEROBAS FIGHT??? HELLO??? #i had to exit out of it the first time (i got to the last phase) to get better items but i came back and won pretty quickly #but THE CUTSCENES?!?!? #JFC NO WONDER THIS WOMANS SO MESSED UP. HER HUSBAND PRACTICALLY DIED IN HER ARMS AND THE LAST THING HE LEFT HER WITH- HIS DYING WISH- COULD #ONLY BE FULFILLED BY PUTTING THEIR ONLY CHILD IN DEATHS WAY. AND THEN WHEN SHE TOOK THAT RISK THE WORST THING HAPPENED AND SHE NOW HAS TO #LIVE WITH THE GUILT OF BEING THE ONE TO. MOST LIKELY. KILL HER ONE AND ONLY DAUGHTER #ALL THE WHILE SHE WAS PUSHING AWAY HER CHILDHOOD BEST FRIEND AND CONVINCING HERSELF THAT SHE WAS IN THE RIGHT TO SACRIFICE CLOVER WHO HAD #BEEN ONLY KIND MERCIFUL AND JUST THIS WHOLE TIME. EVEN TO THOSE WHO WERE TRYING TO KILL THEM. FUCK. #AAND WHEN CLOVER HUGGED HER I DOUBLED OVER IRL BC *THATS EXACTLY WHAT I WANTED TO DO IN THAT MOMENT* I HATE IT (read: love it) HERE #n dont even get me STARTED on after that. when clover started moving on their own and the gd white screen came up and we got flashbacks of #everyone's words. thats when the tears rlly started coming bc it clicked for me. 'oh. this is it. isn't it?' and IT WAS #WHEN THEY GAVE THEIR FUCKIGN HAT AND GUN AWAY TO MARTLET AND STARLO WELL THATS WHEN I REALLY STARTED CRYING #AAND THE GROUP HUGG #I WAS SOBBING WHENEVER I HAD TO WATCH THEM CRAWL UP AGAINST THE WALL AND DIE AND HAVE FLOWEYS WORDS PLAY OVERHEAD #AND THE FUCKOGN #THE F U C K I N G #AFTEWRCREDITS SCENE WHERE WE GOT THE 'You heard someone calling for help. You answered.' I GOT CHILLS SO BAD #to think that all the other souls have stories just as expansive and emotional as clover n frisks. how fucked up is that. in a good way tho #and finally the last scene where we got all 4 of our main friends sending us off in waterfall and we see clovers items end up in the dump #just waiting to be found by bratty and catty. fucken hell man this was a masterpiece #anyways time to reset and obliterate everyone and never emotionally recover from that ever!! really is feeling like 2016-17 again w the way #this game has me sobbing my eyes out and feeling the guilt of knowing that i dont HAVE to kill them all but im too curious not to #oh well. at least i have the balls to do it this time around instead of letting a youtuber do it for me ig

[ollyollyaxe]

tag's been too dead, have a pic from my drafts

#snap that twink in half saturday #hoffheight #mark hoffman #adam stanheight #saw fanart #pipeshipping #this is fanart of a fic by flirt - go read hammer & nail right the fuxk now i swear to gd #i literally reread that fic like...weekly.. so fucking good #saw #hoffman #adam #olly art

[soldier-poet-king]

why are banks never open when i need them. bank. bank save me. i need a bank draft to pay my rent deposit bc the initial deposit has to be certified/not via e-transfer bc it's thru the realtor and not directly to the landlord. bank not open sundays. only open WHILE im at work tmrw. i can technically leave work briefly for a 'personal appointment' but i also have a Very Important Meeting first thing in the morning at work so i have to go sit through THAT first, and i really just want this deposit to be settled so i can have the place for sure. and it's just. AHHHH. can i fast forward to tuesday when all of this will hopefully be settled

ik the rental market is insane but why is the turnaround time for the deposit SO SHORT like folks i have a JOB that's 9-5 and while the realtor and landlord are like okay whatever not feeling pressed about it, for ME this is much more pressing and important and im sitting here STRESSIN unable to enjoy my weekend and idk these ppl well enough yet to know if they'll be chill and accomodating with the situation or consider it more trouble than im worth, despite the fact that none of it is actually my fault and im otherwise EXTREMELY responsible

#and it's not even THAT bad for me #if for whatever reason this falls thru #like. i wont be homeless #ill be miserable but i will be housed #I CANT IMAGINE DOING THIS WITHOUT A SAFETY NET AND WITH A LESS ACCOMODATING JOB #like my boss will be like yeah go ahead idgaf go to the bank #the duality of fran #WHO CAME UP WITH THIS SYSTEM. FR #also. once again. gave up alcohol for lent #I WANT A SINGLE GLASS OF RED WINE SO GD BAD RIGHT NOW #PLEASE. WINE. WINE. I NEED TO BE LESS ON EDGE

[wander-wren]

hey do you know what would be a sad as fuck fic concept

yknow that trope of aizawa adopting various students. and when it’s todoroki there’s always that extra little bit of conflict because of endeavor, the number one hero, we can’t prosecute him, yada yada yada.

but it always works out, because fanfiction!

but consider. a version where it doesn’t work out. where todoroki—or really it could be anyone, i suppose, but todoroki is who i’m thinking of—doesn’t get adopted. and has to go home. where he finally managed to speak up, to ask for help, and it didn’t work. maybe, maybe he gets pulled from UA entirely. and aizawa just tries and fails and despairs for two entire years, because all the willpower in the world won’t actually change the law.

then, in the middle of a january night, as aizawa is preparing for his very last term with the class todoroki used to belong to, there’s a knock at the door.

and todoroki shouto asks if there’s still a spare room for him.

#bird noises #bnha #todoroki shouto #aizawa shouta #i’m so! thinkin about this now #theres not a lot of point to it. and ofc it could continue past that #but i’m so SAD about it you guys #everyone trying so hard and just. no. no! go back to your dad #and then how do you even….what is todoroki and aizawa’s relationship after that #like its been TWO YEARS #and he has every right to be like #mad about it #aizawa is DEFINITELY mad at himself #and theres the issue of shouto’s birthday falling where it does and his last term of high school #he walks back into 3-A like hi everyone #and they collectively lose their gd minds #idk i have Thoughts and Feelings clearly #if anyone wants to they can steal this from me god knows i cant write it rn #but you legally have to show me bc i DO want it in my life ty

[michaeljoncarter]

every time a writer drags bendis's shit reboot legion out again, it's like. the only thing i can compare it to is the feeling when you see someone posting about leaked nudes or like the address of someone who was doxxed or something to that effect. like what the FUCK is wrong with you. why would you even bring that up. you know damn well that we're trying to erase that from the public consciousness. why can't you just do the decent thing and pretend it doesn't exist like everyone else

#not a great comparison but you know what i mean !!!!!!!! #let it DIE!!!!!!!! let it die let it die please god #it's like the entire thing was done to build up jon into the losh superboy #so now that that's been abandoned there's literally NO POINT in continuing this pleaseee let it die #every time the u.p. is brought up in main timeline comics i want to scream #there's never any point to it!! you could so easily just say ANYTHING ELSE #but they continue to jst randomly allude to this shit tier legion #and do nothing but obstruct any potential future return to form #i am on my hands and knees BEGGING like girl just make up some aliens #if u need an intergalactic space govt type organization that's not the glc the darkstars are literally right there #stop randomly dragging in species that should not even exist yet and including the modern timeline u.p. for no gd reason im so 🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬

[kazoologist]

I have decided I hate the Australia race bc for real this weekend has literally just started and baby I am *cursed* cursed

#kazoo noises #babys first f1 season #Alex crash at practice. Logan out of this race and Alex facing the worlds most fucked up weekend vibes wise #(If I were ever under this much pressure in my life my body would just pass out and burst into flames from stress) #I am late to work due to registration for school fucking me. I leave work right as the rain starts. A car splashes me so now I’m soaked #I cannot shower bc my roomie is getting ready for work. My house still is not clean and my dad is visiting this weekend #Alex and Logan my heart goes out to you two y’all are truly gds strongest soldiers I’d have faked my death by now #Someone has fucking jinxed me tho so like whoever has the little poppet doll with my hair in it can you fuckin RELAX? Damn!! #sports posting #zoomies posting

[trafalgr]

he’s the only man. i have no other words honestly.

#nanami kento #jjk #jujutsu kaisen #jjk memes #jujutsu kaisen memes #nanami jjk #no but like nanami stole the show right? #even with like zero gd screen time #anyways nanami supremacy #i need jjk0 on crunchy roll or some shit right about now!

[s-lay-ing]

LET'S GOOOOOOOOOOO

#carats losing their gd minds at twt right now.... WE LOVE TO SEE ITTTT #SVT FUCKS!!!!!!!11++

[lavenoon]

Blorbo thoughts(tm) but this time I’m directing them at you! For all the blorbos!!

I imagine that Eclipses favourite kind of kisses from Agent Neon are hand kisses (several for each hand)

What are Sun & Moon’s fav kinda kisses to receive from Robin? What makes these boys just swoon and melt into a puddle of animatronic? :3

Of course several for each hand! Just one each on only four hands, what kind of research would that be? No no no, to come to any significantly powerful results, of course you gotta pepper the boy in kisses! <3

Sun really likes getting kisses on his mouth - he may not have lips to reciprocate with, but he'll nuzzle back some! He loves how impossible it is to misinterpret those, and as we all know, he loves flaunting all the good he has - Robin definitely is a part of that! Also just a teensy tiny giddy about how small they are, when they pull him down or ask him to lean down, depending on their mood, and how much that proves that they want this, too. But, in quieter moments, without any audience, Robin will sometimes raise their hands while their fingers are just laced together, and then kiss the back of his hand, and it melts him into a puddle every time. He was so scared that they'd be terrified of what those hands can do - the obvious show of affection in all its tender glory just gets to him <3

Moon doesn't really have a preference for the where, but he's a fiend for sleepy kisses. Whether about to fall asleep or just waking up, he loves being close enough for kisses any time Robin sleeps around him (given their nocturnal schedule, it's actually rare for him to see them sleep!). And a tired little bird who can't even try to reach for anything specific, but is so determined to show affection that they just kiss whatever is available to them? Arm, (clothed, sorry) chassis, in some cases even just an awkward chin kiss - he loves it, he eats it up, and he might just pull them closer for more cuddles and kisses as they start giggling at how predictable he is. He doesn't mind predictable - being soft and domestic together took them long enough, some embarrassment won't stop him now <3

#answer let luce #zelda7999 #accidentally undercover #this took a bit because I got distracted doing my nails <3 #guess who's got AU blorbo themed nails now. right. this sucker #also. fun fact. #so the boys nuzzle more than they actually kiss back #which is good for them because Robin doesn't catch on really #until way later when they're like. 'wait. so when you just bury ur face in my hair n nuzzle -' #'yeah that's about the closest we get to a kiss. do you want us to stop?' #'... no. but I'm having a fluster crisis about many other moments in retrospect.' #'good <3' #y'all remember in the AU AU AU drabble Acts of Service Sun nuzzles close for a moment before leaving to grab his shirt for Y/N? #yeah. yeah it was there all along #also. me and my gd research bias coming out. yes im normal and love the idea of flirting by framing it as an experiment

[reesellaneous]

I really hate how all of the things happening are being blamed on protocol and tradition as if there’s no way to make changes when in reality Charles is the King and for the most part these are his decisions. This shit happened with QEII all the time and it makes me want to pull my gd hair out because it lets them off the hook when they should have to stand in their shit. They’re playing in our faces because they want it both ways, on the one hand they want to make it clear that they’re punishing Harry and on the other hand they want to act like these are the rules and they can’t possibly be changed or else it would be chaos and the monarchy would cease functioning. Charles is the fucking King and just like QEII before him he could decide to extend an olive branch to Harry but for whatever reason he’s not doing that so please miss me with all of the condolences for the family because for the last 2 weeks since she died one of the highest priorities has been to keep the anti Sussex campaign going during a time they’re supposedly mourning.

#someone said it was amateur hour #but that’s an insult to amateurs #the Windsors are a gd joke #how tf do you uninvite CP Mary? #they’re really pissing me off right now #king charles #prince harry #duke of sussex #meghan markle #duchess of sussex #british royal family #brf

[uncanny-tranny]

Man I wish I could grow a goatee, my first year of T gave me a neckbeard 😵‍💫💀😂😂😂

People have slandered neckbeards for too long and I for one cannot stand for it any longer. If you've been growing a neckbeard on testosterone: I (platonically) love you I will blow up the entire world just to make y'all happy

#ask #anon #trans #transgender #lgbt #lgbtq #ftm #nonbinary #like be real y'all a beard continues down past the chin a bit! that's why the hair grows past the chin 😮‍💨 #i think it's odd that my hair is gowing where it is for some reason i thought neckbeards are an easier spot to grow??? #or like facial hair right by the head hair line - i thought i'd first grow hair there but no??? #i'm remembering how my dad's beard is looking and i think it makes sense now #thank gd he has retired and can actually grow out his beard so i know what mine will (maybe) look like one day lmao #anyway!!!! people with neckbeards: ily and people have been genuinely weird about the issue??? for no reason too

[allofuswantgwinam]

im upset asf and idrk how to deal with it 🥲 idk how people refuse to see the genocide and when it’s my own mother it really just hurts my soul even more bc we literally cannot talk about it bc it just turns into an argument. It’s so defeating but she’s gonna see. she’s gonna fuckin realize it and I wish she would just realize it right fucking now and WAKE UP.

so my aunt is from Iran, she married my uncle but even before they were married this woman was always my aunt I love her sm. We all do, don’t worry this isn’t like about her really, this is just details to make things make sense. my aunts mom *who I also love so much, I get to see her in a couple months I’m excited* was planning on going to Iran bc she’s trying to sell her property so she can officially move to America I think. Well… omfg. so my mom brings it up, which I wasn’t surprised bc when I saw about how Iran is speaking of bombing Iran and then Biden was like “don’t you bomb the genociders rn or else” like we’re not fucking next on the gd list for being apart of this genocide, but anyways so I heard about that and I was worried about my aunts mom cause I knew she was trying to go back home. my moms basically agreeing with Joe Biden and I can’t anymore. I cannot even listen to her for a second bc it makes me wanna bawl my eyes out. then I tried to say how I felt and she’s just lookin at me like I’m some fucking dumbass and I just can’t deal with it.

#she thinks she’s so smart #and that she knows so much more than me bc she’s older than me #if she hasn’t noticed the pattern of her disagreeing with me and then realizing I’m RIGHT #when things get WORSE #it’s fucking upsetting #the one time I desperately need her to hear me and believe me right here right now #she won’t do it #she won’t fucking listen and it makes me resent her lowkey #I wanted to literally just leave forever #but that’s obviously irrational so I didn’t #but holy fuck #im sick #what a fucking gd sheeple #she doesn’t think she is but rn that’s exactly wtf she sounds like #a f’d sheeple who just believes the people who are lying and bsing us #I hate it

[daesungindistress]

Following TOP's announcement last week, BIGBANG's Naver profile has been updated to reflect his withdrawal from the group, and TOP's individual profile no longer shows him being affiliated with BIGBANG.

#._. #I took the screenshots on the left last week; the screenshots on the right last night #bigbang #top #naver #idk if it's true but in the past kvips have said that only the members and/or their agencies have the authority/permissions #to make these changes #it isn't like wikipedia #so I regarded it as an official source of sorts #iirc after still life his profile pic was updated and I think he removed the gd&top subunit? #but all this time it showed him still in the group... #until now #'withdrawal of member top' right there above 'withdrawal of member seungri' #thanks I hate it #and not even a proper date of departure #just a blank space #a question without answers #not gonna lie... it hurts

[jellybeanium124]

1st most american trait is craving the hamburger. 2nd most american trait is craving the fries.

#like oh my GD i need some fucking fries right now #nina rambles

[oureyesclosed]

#asdfghjkl #vocals #mitch grassi #....ok now i need him to sing someone like you #he's so gd good at getting the specific sound right #also this vid could be from 2014 if not for the song lol