#everyone was so unhappy i liked that a lot

[glossamerfaerie]

I feel like a lot of people focus on Nesta’s reaction to Gwynriel’s relationship once they go public. Maybe Nesta threatens Az to keep her girl safe. Maybe she tears up with joy for her BFFs. Maybe she’s speechless because she didn’t see it coming. And so on. But no one ever talks about how Cassian will react other than the obligatory joy and merciless teasing. “Surely he’s going to take revenge for Az’s disruptive chaperoning!”

Except… I don’t think that’s quite right for Cassian. He’s watched his brother pine after their mutual friend for 500 years. He feels incredibly guilty for sleeping with Mor just because he was jealous of Az’s crush. He’s been acting as a buffer in a fucked up situation that only ended recently. He knows how desperately lonely Az is. How much Az wants to find love. How fragile Az’s heart is despite his broody spymaster exterior.

I like to imagine that Cassian finds Gwyn in the Library, asking for a private word. He’s happy for them, of course, but he asks Gwyn for a favor. Cassian explains that he will support whatever Gwyn wants in this relationship, whether it’s being with Az or breaking up if she’s unhappy. All he asks is that Gwyn be gentle with Az’s heart and devotion, especially when it comes to ending things. Just… be careful not to shatter his heart.

Everyone assumes that Az can withstand any pain or blow. But Cassian knows better. Everyone else is worried for Gwyn in this relationship, but only Cassian is worried for Azriel. 💔🥺

#gwynriel #gwyneth berdara #acotar #azriel #gwyn x azriel #nessian #nesta archeron #nesta x cassian #cassian #my acotar headcanons

[vvienne]

“if you’re a stranger to your soul / i’ll bring you to your birthright” MOST DICKDAMI LINE EVER?????

#dick & damian #never look away is such a banger song #just...... #dickdami #theres smth about batman!dick and damian that compels me #like that specific flavor of hello irritating stranger i have zero reason to trust -> you are my first priority #i think they changed each other irrevocably!! i think they have a SPECIAL BOND #the cycle of raising another man's child starting w alfred & bruce. then bruce & dick (and eventually the rest of them) and then DICK & DAMI #damian being the blood son and having arguably the least intimate rship w bruce is my exact flavor of weird interpersonal family angst #his batman is not bruce!!! like sure he learns how to be but early era damian is sooo #and dick is having the worst time of his life as well taking on the cowl like name a man who more clearly does not have a handle on anything #he must have felt so distanced from bruce seeing as they all thought the man was dead. but so close as well #stepping into his shoes. batman with a complicated young charge. #everyone was so unhappy i liked that a lot #honestly its been a couple of years since i last read morrison's run. the canon in my brain is tbh more fun for me but i might do a reread

[royalarchivist]

I really liked Ramon's idea of filling a tag with cute little things for Fit's birthday, and I was like "Hey, I got a bit of time to spare today, I can whip something up real quick. Surely I don't have THAT many clips of Fit!"

Well...

#mod talk #head in hands #I don't even think this is all of them this is just ones I've remembered to tag with Fit's name #I've been archiving since last April. I've got. A lot of clips. Which I should probably be putting on an external hard drive at this point #Anyways re: the video; I've whittled it down a lot and it's still almost 5 minutes long #I am NOT going to post a 5 minute long video I'm cutting this thing down to like. 3 minutes MAXIMUM #I don't think anyone would watch that and frankly even 3 minutes is pushing it #I liked the last big compilation edit I did before recent events made me unhappy about the subject #So I'm mostly doing this for my own sake and for fellow fans because I think it'll give everyone a laugh #also Ramon because his admin is a sweetie for thinking of this #anyhoo. ya boy's real tired but putting these things together is pretty fun #it's time consuming but tbh the hardest part is just the subtitling. It's just super tedious and time consuming #the rest is fun even if it's also a bit time consuming #I try to keep RA pretty light on textposts but I think it's fun sharing behind the scenes notes about what I'm working on

[reel-fear]

FUCK the graphic novel, this is what I'm watching when it comes out instead of buying it <3<3

#batim #batdr #bendy and the ink machine #bendy and the dark revival #fun fact I was making a post full of cool bendy animations people should watch and support when the GN shit happened #so I had to put off making that fun post in order to post about how unhappy white norman made me #and probably for a while I will not be talking positively abt bendy in general bc Im genuinely so mad I dont want to #but uh everyone should watch this and give it nice attention you know comment n like give it a boost in the algorithm n such #a lot of people put a lot of hard work into it and it deserves it even if its a bit rough in some places #I love this genuinely its such a labour of love #so sad the talented community that makes such marvelous things constantly gets sold crap by the devs #Youtube

[fuck-kirk]

Izzy Rant

Honestly I feel like out of everything I’m mostly mad that Izzy got such a lame ass death. Like. He didn’t even sacrifice himself for someone he loved. The crew he loved. He got shot by accident by the lamest mother fucker on the planet. He didn’t get to go out fighting, sword in hand. He died from a surprise gunshot wound dealt by a coward who was running away from him. So FUCKING lame. Which like, I get it, not everyone gets to go out in a blaze of glory but damn if the narrative couldn’t have a least given him that.

Him dying had no narrative significance other than to absolve Ed. They literally fridged him. I’ll even argue that Izz’s arc was by NO MEANS resolved at all and he still had so much to add to the narrative.

So, not only did his death mean NOTHING, it also just happened in the most rushed, lame ass way possible. And the crew hardly even looked sad. I understand that most of this is due to it being rushed, but if you decide to kill off a fan favorite character I think you should either figure out a way to do it in the best way possible, or just like. Not do it at all.

Also, I get that using his leg, sword, cravat and ring to make his grave marker is Aesthetic™️ but to me it’s just like. Super fucked up that they didn’t bury him with those things ?? Huh?? That stuff will just like. Get lost or stolen eventually …. Like why would he not be buried with those things.

Also also, if there is a season 3…imagine having the titanic luck of having Mr. CON O’NEILL on the cast and killing him off. Con plays off everyone so well and I’d argue is one of, if not the best actor out of everyone on set (no shade to the rest of the crew. I love them all. But Con is just built different). It’s such a WASTE is the thing that gets me. Con as Izzy adds SO much to the show and a s3 without him just feels like it would be so lackluster.

Alright. I think that’s all. Had to get it out of my system.

#mott txt #ofmd #now that I’ve said this hopefully I can stop THINKING about it #I’m just going to retreat into fanfiction and enter my denial stage now #*waves hands* it was all a dream #Izzy actually sailed away with the crew into the sunset and left Stede and Ed on their beach the end #also the izzy thing is not the only thing I’m unhappy with in regards to the finale or the whole season #I feel like a lot of my fav characters got the short end of the stick #like I wanna see so much more of everyone else. like Jim and oluwande and roach and frenchie #and lucious and Pete’s wedding was also so rushed :(

[leonstamatis]

like not to be that guy but if you do want to let the people producing blaseball: the card game know that you would like to see credit given where it is due, to the artists who created these designs and made blaseball what it is today, wayfinder has both a contact form and a general email listed as [email protected]. they also have a twitter and a facebook listed on the card game’s website.

i know this is something that has been brought up before in the blb fandom in some capacity or another since the card game was announced, but given nothing has been done on the production end to fix the issue, it seems like we have to keep bringing it up again and again. so. here are some places to do that.

#saw people in maincord who were fully unaware that artist credit was an issue with the game which has me absolutely steamed #like to be clear I am not telling you to spam them. that’s not what this is. #I am just putting out the avenues by which to let them know you’re unhappy. a thing i am also doing. #because this is bullshit and has been bullshit and it would have been nice if they’d done something different ummmm six months ago #but they didn’t. so. #here’s where to let them know they fucked up <3 in case they thought we forgot or didn’t notice <3 #the strong real advice I have is that a lot of the time emails and contact forms will be ignored due to a lack of public scrutiny for stuff #…like this. so saying something on Twitter and Tumblr and Facebook #where other people can see it and engage with it #will generally elicit a quicker and more concrete response you can point to later #but yknow. not everyone has the ability or willingness to do that. #so here you go. emails. #i’m so tired. i’m so damn tired!

[sualne]

been thinking a lot about the what happens post game and sycamore's hypothetical children.

#my art #my ocs #kingmaker shenanigans #MorningSun Family #the game ends with everyone getting their 'happy endings' but sycamore ends up kind of alone. people leaves. get married with kids and all #i do like the canon 'uncle sycamore to ekun's kid(s?)' thats super duper sweet. the game does say sycamore ends up having kids but i #cant think of him ever enthusiastically marrying anyone. even less who in canon? so i made him his wife. her name is dawn. she's a knight #or cavalier. probably multiclass with smth else idk if i should actually create + play her in game. they wouldve gotten married only for #political reasons. they dont start out as friends at all. yeah my oc didnt get an happy ending so im giving him an unhappy marriage #he loves his kids tho. im thinking thyme is a wizard too. calathea would be some kind of rapier master maybe with some magic even. #ages: calathea 19. thyme 17. ivy 11 and sorrel 7. i think sycamore and dawn woulve gotten married 5ish year post game so in their late 30s #probably. also the scar in first pic isnt postgame but pregame backstory. hadnt gotten to draw it yet. he has more scars postgame. might #explain later but not now. wrote a lot already

[mxfortune-teller]

Tw for lots of mental health stuff in the tags. Special tw for self-harm talk

#this last year hasn’t been great for me #in 2023 I relapsed into self-harm several times #I gave myself a lot of new scars and I’m afraid to wear shorts around my friends now #I can feel myself relapsing into my ed #like it’s slow but I see the signs #I feel like I’m on the verge of a breakdown at all times #it’s almost impossible for me to talk about my feelings anymore #I don’t remember the last time I was content #maybe everyone who hates me is right #maybe my partner’s parents are right about me #I miss being innocent and happy #but I have to think back so so far to remember that version of me #so far I don’t even know if they ever existed #am I destined to punish myself until I die? #was I cursed from the beginning to be either bad or unhappy? #fighting the urge to sh again currently #I need sleep so bad but I can’t #even when I do sleep I keep having bad dreams #I keep dozing off at the wheel #I’m afraid #but mostly I’m just tired and sad #I don’t want to hurt anymore #I don’t want to hurt *myself* anymore #I thought I was better #I am definitely not better #I don’t know what to do

[clowndensation]

i'm literally constantly thinking about sam reid's "when does he change? how does he change? how does his character develop? progressively, as the episodes were coming in, i was realizing that lestat wasn't changing at all. he keeps going back to his same patterns" comment btw. because it's true. a cornerstone to lestat's character this season is that he is utterly, painfully static. which is fascinating, because that ironically makes him one of the most stable, reliable characters in the show, in spite of outwardly acting as one of the most impulsive, volatile ones. it's also the cornerstone to what makes him such a tragic character.

because lestat is aware, to a certain extent, that there's something about himself that leads to him being abandoned. he's alluring enough to captivate, sure, but fundamentally deficit in some undefinable area that will grant him genuine, committed love. he has a way about him, but he's a lot. he's not perfect. and his own imperfections terrify him, because whatever it is, he's sure that it's at the core of himself, that it's something he can't change. and so he chases after love by throwing the worst of himself at it - because if he can find someone who sees his ugliness and loves him anyway, he'll finally have a love that he can keep. and once he finds that love, he devotes himself to it. it can not disappear again, it can't slip through his fingers. it's his, and he won't allow it to be taken from him.

and it works - for a time. preternaturally charming, occasionally thoughtful, he is so incredibly easy to fall in love with. and then something changes. and it has to be an outside force, because he hasn't done anything. he's stayed exactly the same, he's been that same person who louis fell in love with, he's committed to this love with all of himself. he is seen and he is loved and he is wanted, and he won't let anyone or anything take this acceptance away from him. so he clings, and he lashes out.

and it all, ultimately, leads back to abandonment. he's so busy keeping louis in his life, he's so busy making sure nothing changes, that he can never allow himself to grow. because change is rejection. change is the acknowledgement that he'll never be enough, that there really is some part of himself so unacceptable, he'll never be able to be loved in his entirety. and it's not until those last moments of the show, when he finally acknowledges claudia as a person unto herself, with a will and autonomy of her own - when he sees louis agonizing over what has to be done, that he begins to understand his own role in their lives. there's a sort of acceptance that he's pushed them too far, that maybe it's not outside forces, or their own inability to accept him, that's at fault for where they've ended up. that maybe he has some responsibility in how all of this played out. it's the first time in the entire show where we really see that lestat could potentially accept that he's not the victim of things beyond his control forever barring him from love, but that he has some responsibility in how others see him. which could, eventually, lead to change.

#every day EVERY DAY i think about louis and lestat and their respective issues #and how the things that initially drew them together are the same issues that inevitably pull them apart #self recognition through the other #but the self you're recognizing is one that's deeply unhappy #and fundamentally ill equipped to create a relationship that will do anything but hurt you and everyone around you in the future #like my loves i AM rooting for you but good god. you have a lot of work ahead of you. #and you're both so prone to denial when confronted with your own shortcomings that i fear we're going to need more than just one century #to get this figured out #it's okay though <3 take your time. the collateral damage will be worth it in the end. love you both. #iwtv

[taylorrepdetective]

I know she had era tour but I don’t think I can do it w a broken heart is actually eras tour

I thought of this too. Maybe sometime down under? No way to know, but I did think the line she threw in at the end “Try and come for my job” might have hinted at something. I can read it both ways. As always, we’ll never know for sure. But I think it’s fair to say she has felt this way many times. It reminded me of Katy having to go on stage immediately after having her husband tell her he was filing for divorce. And it’s relatable. We’ve all had to put on a happy face at work and pretend things are fine at home.

#on a personal note #it reminds me of one of my depressive episodes where everyday I just didn’t want to get out of bed or do anything #and as a result I lost 15 pounds in a short period. #and when I did get out of bed and smiled I got a lot of comments about how great I looked #so I don’t think we need to necessarily dissect this so much #the point is sometimes she is deeply unhappy and we won’t know because like everyone she hides her feelings #and we should remember this always. we don’t know her. #body language experts should shut up because if she’s in public she knows she can be video’d or photographed at any moment always #so she always has the face on she wants people to see #that sounds so exhausting

[pepprs]

my depression is getting really really bad. like it’s been bad before but this is like… consistently really bad. like a long unending stretch for several weeks (and tbh months) now. to the point where no inoculation actually sticks (and im isolating myself from most of my inoculations anyway and feel unable to stop doing it even though i know it’s self destructive). im either helplessly unbearably miserable or numbing out on video games. i just don’t feel like it’s going to get better for me and i KNOW that is factually untrue but the feeling is louder than the knowledge and it’s just utterly immobilizing. ive been sinking in quicksand for 2 years.

#purrs #longer than that too ofc but i think ever since i moved to campus in 2021 and shit started hitting the fan my life just started snowballing #and picked up speed majorly when i moved back home and ive been stuck in this horrible limbo ever since. like im scaring myself with how #deeply profoundly unhappy and unwell i am. i am just detached and scattered and bewildered by everything. and the only way to break free is #to fight it but i don’t even have the strength. like in order to fight it i have to have the strength and it s exactly the thing that is #being stolen from me. and i work really really hard to suppress it when im around people so no one can tell but on the inside im being eaten #alive and every day that goes on the pain gets harder to bear except im numb most of the time so i can’t tell except for when i can #one of the things that makes me saddest is ive pushed everyone away either by ghosting them or scaring them. when what i want and need the #most is love and comfort. but then when i get it it isn’t enough. idk. im not explaining it well i just feel like. horrible. unbearably #i think i need to go on meds like i truly cannot go on like this not even in a s*i cidal way it’s like i just can’t take living like this #delete later #i know im causing the people who love me pain by being unable to accept that they do love me and that’s the worst fucking part. is hurting #people by being like this. scaring people by being like this. and being so disconnected from myself #and feeling completely and utterly beyond help like nothing ive tried has fixed it but also there are a lot of things i haven’t tried but i #feel so terrible or my freedom is limited so i can’t. idk. #also the crushing knowledge / sense that i have lost the most precious important years of my life both bc of the lockdown and bc of mental #illness lol. except that’s not true bc of all the stuff abt how your best years are always ahead of you and you can make them. but it doesnt #feel like it for me and then i beat myself up bc my job is literally to exude that belief and help other ppl feel it and i increasingly cant #i remember in high school having the thought that one day i could be depressed and being conscious that i wasn’t and now i look back on that #and am like… how. and will i ever not be. i don’t think so. it just feels unending

[mc-pumpkin]

Part of me really wants all the dead eggs to come back one day but I can't think of any way it could be done that would make sense and wouldn't make it feel like. Well what was it all for then. You know?

#I am considering maybe it being revealed that the eggs having limited lives was all a lie #and that the fed just took them away #the thing is though is that a lot of the unhappiness and rebellious attitudes on the island comes from the eggs being either dead or unsafe #and as the Fed has said their goal is keeping the residents happy the easy solution would be to just give the eggs back #and then tell everybody 'we've made your eggs immortal go and be happy forever' #but they haven't done that #so in this scenario either they're lying about their goals (very plausible) #or they're trying to cover their asses from their lies (also plausible) #or both #anyways of course after this gets revealed there would be a big rescue mission and everyone would find their eggs and be happy :] #I feel like this wouldn't be too bad of a way of giving the eggs back #qsmpblogging

[bluesadansey]

#listen I think I have a right to experience A Lot of annoyance over all this because I had to see ‘criticisms’ like that so often #this is a particularly hilarious one the same level as the people complaining about Daisy and Billy being the only ones on the Aurora cover #(there are changes with the shoot but them being the only two on the cover is the same as in the book lmao ya’ll can not read apparently #‘it’s an insult to the message of the book because it’s supposed to be the whole band on the cover and not just the Billy and Daisy show uw #you are talking about the scene in the book where the entire band in interview is mad/bitter about how they ended up going with only DB #on the cover even years later while Daisy and Billy in their interviews gush over how gorgeous and iconic the cover featuring just them is #like … ya’ll are conflating a general sentiment those chars were allowed to express with what the actual scene was grrr #it’s one of the best funniest parts of the book too like I love that part… #and if the complaint was ‘I’m sad the other interviews weren’t as extensive at that part in the show’ totally would be valid crit to me #I would have liked them to show everyone reacting in interviews too (they did show them esp Eddie be unhappy about it but #your right there wasn’t as much specific exploration in the show of how the side chars were effected. But they’re still side chars with sid #plots in the book lol #also only Karen actually deserves to be explored as a char the rest I’m more than fine with getting less and then instead investing far mor #in developing Simone’s plot and arc.) #there’s stuff with Graham I do think could have been useful/worth while thematically if they’d had the 13eps and could do it all (and I’m a #Graham hater xd) but I certainly wouldn’t prioritize it over the things the show did focus on #and it’s not remotely high on my list of things they didn’t focus on as much as I wanted. ofc #in fact like I said… I thought it was so funny they did not gaf about the Dunne brothers relationship 😭 #like it is an interesting dynamic in the book there are good scenes. but I’m obsessed with their choice to not give anything to any of #Billy’s dynamics that aren’t the love triangle points and Teddy. respectable af #vs Daisy and to a lesser extent Camila both have way more developed dynamics outside of him incred #(another reason ‘they made Daisy and Camila center around Billy’ crit makes me roll my eyes #like in the sense that the love triangle is elevated in terms of focus sure. and people are free to have qualms about that choice #basically saying the show prioritized the romance for the characters and char work is accurate. saying they did that more for the girls and #less for Billy idk what show you were watching

[cryptvokeeper]

Man. I wanna talk abt Rise Leo again now

#I’m SORRY it’s not my fault I picked the one everyone gets really annoying about as my favorite #No bro I’m different bro I swear bro wait please- #It’s like. I got bait-and-switched SO HARD with Leo on my first watch #I went in essentially blind outside of like. Basic knowledge of what a teenage mutant ninja turtle IS from cultural osmosis #But I didn’t know these characters I had no expectations #So I watched Minotaur Maze & I see the cocky blue jokester character whos worse than the rest of the cast and has a hint(TM) of insecurity #and I went “oh. Ive seen this character type before. This is the Lance voltron. This is the early-seasons sokka. I know how this goes.” #And I’m sort of at the point in my life where I’m over that trope Yknow? It was cool when I was 15 and hated myself but now that’s old hat. #So I didn’t care for Leo that much #And then I get to Many Unhappy Returns and that whole perception gets FLIPPED ON ITS HEAD #I REALIZE IVE BEEN PLAYED #TRICKED #BAMBOOZLED #The confidence wasn’t a ruse at all! and that reframes so much from season one and so much going forward!!! #He’s a cocky magnificent bastard and would probably be a badass hero if he gave a shit but instead is only here to be silly with his fam #And that’s AWESOME #But anyway I feel like most people never had that bait and switch moment #They just moved forward with the belief that Leo’s is a bit of a loser and hates himself for it #And then fandom does what fandom do and hyperfocuses on that one trait to the point of mischaracterization #And I’m sitting here like “I love all the content for my blorbo but oh no a lot of it’s weird and off” #Rottmnt

[countess-of-edessa]

baked a cake from scratch, fed the dogs and the father, cleaned the kitchen, wrapped christmas presents. wearing a beige sweaterdress and black ballet flats, hair in bun. reading a profile on hilaria baldwin…the cottagecore tradwife in me is winning i fear

#im being sarcastic but honestly though i keep having the creeping and uncharitable thought of like. i don’t think this is quite as hard as #my mother has always made it seem. and my father is literally zero help and she works really hard but also there was always the not-always- #unspoken implication that the reason the house was always kind of messy and disorganized and everything was kind of chaotic and accompanied #by a distinct sense of overwhelm was because of my sister and I #either our stuff or our actions or the fact that taking care of us took up too much time she could devote to other stuff #but neither my sister nor i live at home full time anymore and when we do at least i am objectively more helpful than anything else #so im like okay well that wasn’t it then #and like i also get that everyone thinks they could do better until THEY get married and have kids and then you see #but the backlash against the pressure for everything to be picture perfect has turned into (imo) a general “relatable” idea that #adulthood and especially marriage and parenthood is nothing but a slide into complacency and chaos forever and like. i just don’t agree wit #that. obviously you cannot live as you did as a single person or a non parent but the prevailing image of parenthood i see advertised as #“realistic” is one where everyone is constantly exhausted unhappy and living in filth #i See a question from a woman asking how to SURVIVE nine whole days of winter break with her children. SURVIVE? wtf? #i do think parents of today spend too much time with their children and that’s part of the issue but also like. i cannot believe that #everything is as thoroughly and completely awful as it is pretty much always portrayed nowadays #and how i see it reflected at me. and this isn’t like a housewives don’t work aaaa thing because no. #but like. when i see people being like you can’t expect your sahm to get the laundry done OR dinner made OR the house clean on a consistent #basis EVER i am kind of like…..but literally what are you doing then if none of those things?? #cause unless you homeschool or have literal infants (whole different ballgame) then like…what are you doing #maybe an unpopular opinion but I think a lot of women are bad at being housewives. because it is a skill that women used to study and learn #and now it’s not but it’s still the most important job in society #so we took away all the instruction manuals for the backbone of society and now who comes the closest to approximating an educational resou #? influencers. which is horrible because any person you are taking advice from on Instagram is someone with a public Instagram account #which automatically makes them odd and untrustworthy and not someone at least I would want to emulate. #my mother doesn’t apply to this she is a great homemaker her issues are (1) time management (2) fatigue (3) starts too many projects #but i digress #i suppose i shouldn’t say that I reject the idea children turn your life to chaos because I don’t. but I do reject the idea that #the chaos of parenthood sentences everyone to a perpetual state of overwhelm and reactivity #that simply has never been the case for people in any time period before now even when raising children and the daily business of living wa #far more labor intensive

[seraphim-soulmate]

23 > one year closer to 25, I can almost taste it > which in itself is close to 30, where I have expectations for myself

#personal #me #everything is currently holding by a thread of some invisible happiness that I don't know how to regenerate #it just. happened when i visited the US. and idk how long it'll keep me going while being happy. #a lot of my unhappiness comes from fear related to my disability #not knowing what im capable of doing. feeling very incapable. #its exciting to have a safety net now financially. even if it is only for a year allegedly.... #but not having a daily activity like everyone else is hard ! bcs u never feel like ur making progress #but like I'll get there! just very busy trying to get things in place and attend medical appts etc #like im trying to find new housing rn!! exciting !!! #also got back into sugaring so i can help my savings and bcs i enjoy doing it !