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voidinmexx · 2 days

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SIX OF CROWS COLLEGE/MODERN AU???

feven the teehnicatty they'd all be in highsehoot fellowing cannen age)

shut up.

oh lord

i love imagining my traumatized little characters in happy worlds,

background knowledge:

grisha arent a thing in this au and there is no current wars

Dorm Arrangements:

Inej and Nina requested rooms together the same day they could, Kaz managed to get a room alone and so did Wylan. Matthias doesn't go to college nor does Jesper.

disclaimer:

i will write more lore about this collige au esp jesper and wylan because we need more gay men in healthy loving relationships fits me im the gay men)😭

"Hey, Kaz!"

The boy, who was previously watching a particularly ugly bird, looked up to see Inej and Nina. Both of the girls wore matching sundresses.

The five were going swimming today. Although Ketterdam was known for it's dreary and bleak weather, it was summer which meant they got three whole days out of the month of August to enjoy a sunny day.

"Where's Jesper and Matthias?" Inej asked Kaz, as if he could telepathically communicate with the two idiots.

"I think Matthias is meeting us at the watering hole," Nina chimed in. She was typing away furiously on her phone and every so often a curl would fall in front of her eyes and she would angrily push it away, only for gravity to drag the curl right back where it fell before.

Suddenly, a loud chime startled the group, well, not really. Kaz did not only jump but also let out a little yelp as his phone went off. Inej and Nina laughed until they were both a wheezing mess.

"Oh. My. God." Kaz could barely make out the girl's out of breath words. Before she could elaborate, Nina began to have another laughing

fit.

"It startled me, that was all." Kaz grumbled, crossing his arms and pulling out his phone angrily. He had been gifted the device from Inej, it was a Christmas gift. Kaz, ever the old man in a young adult's body, had no clue on how to work the damn thing. Currently, it was the ringer that was giving him hell but last week iMessage was kicking his ass.

"Jesper texted me," he said, "He's asking if we mind if he brings an extra person."

"Jesper?" Nina asked, "With a date?"

Inej, the ever loving and gracious friend, smacked Nina's arm. The latter gasped dramatically and pretended to cradled her arm.

"Don't be rude. It's probably just some poor person Jesper wanted to drag along on an adventure," she shuddered and Kaz shook his head, "He does that too much."

"I agree, we should say no."

"What?" Inej interjected, even Nina raised an eyebrow at Kaz's suggestion, "Let them come it'll be fun. Maybe we can make a new friend!"

Kaz, however, did not see Inej's point.

Nevertheless, he texted Jesper and told him the stranger could come. The things he did for that girl.

Originally, Kaz met Nina junior year of highschool.

She had just moved from Ravka and they were paired together for a science project. The project was complex, it was meant to show an overall understanding of what they learned that year. The two extensively worked on it for two months and proudly presented it. Although they never became "friends" in highschool, both kept contact and Kaz even showed up at Nina's 18th birthday.

"Sorry I missed your sweet sixteen," he said as he handed Nina his gift, "I didn't realize those were an important thing to you." Kaz shrugged, Nina noticed, as he said the last part. I didn't realize those were an important thing to you. He cared, Nina realized that day, he acted like he didn't but he definitely did. Before she was sent to Ketterdam she was not the most popular kid on the playground. Friends were hard to make when you get singled out by someone many people look up to.

For Nina, Kaz was a breath of fresh air. Not that she would ever let him know that. He might get violent.

Behind them, the three could hear a car pulling up. Jesper's light blue Honda Civic parked poorly in a spot nearby. His face peeked over the roof of his car and he began wavely excitedly when he saw his friends. The passenger side door opened "Uhm, where are my keys?"

Kaz, who had been watching this for a second stepped up. In his fingers, the keys swung lazily.

"I'm driving."

Jesper groaned as Kaz forced him out of the truck. There was no arguing with a brick wall.

After Jesper almost ran into a dear, Kaz would not let Jesper drive in a car that he also was in. The group laughed and gossiped on the way to the watering hole, when they arrived Kaz was voted as designated Spot Finder. He was not swimming so he was tasked with finding a place for all their stuff and making sure it's not stolen.

ok im gonna edit this later and add im so sornee rn and CAN NOT breathe😭

#writing #six of crows #grishaverse #writers on tumblr #writblr #college au #kanej #jesper x waylyn

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ask-serendipity-sky · 8 months

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Long post incoming. Sorry.

JM has a habit of casting doubt on him & JK and I think he prefers it that way, instead of the alternative, which is all eyes on him & the man he likes. The difference between Jikook is JK doesn't care. JM does. He worries too much about his relationship with JK and how it affects BTS & probably his dad's business too. He always puts others before him. He use to be more bold, but now that they're older, he does tend to wanna be more careful and private about things with JK. He'd rather be vague nowadays "did I or didn't I see JK on his bday? instead of saying I did. Like we know they see each other, even if he makes it seem they don't. I mean, did they plan that NY trip through emails. Come on, Jimin. however, Jimin didn't say he didn't see JK on his bday, he made sure to say his words carefully. I mean, who calls someone the day before their bday but not on their bday? So suddenly this ONE year, right before they leave for 2 years, he decides he can't see JK on his bday or call him, so he has to do it the day before? He's not lying. He probably did speak to JK the day before, considering he has always gotten a head start on JK's bday. Like last year. He wished JK beforehand, told us to look forward to it, counting it down, then saw him in person according to JK and again wished him publicly after he saw him with JK blowing out the candles.

I think JM just feels super exposed lately. Letter (with JK) and questionable lyrics, NY/CT/Silver Day, "Real" Love GCF Tokyo, explaining their rainy day fight and all of JK's super gay Jimin centric lives & then that one flirty live where JK is half naked begging JM to come over after their NY/CT trip. All of that back to back, has really thrown him & JK more into the spotlight & has everyone, even media & locals going Hmmn, ???, Are they, you know? Rainbow, Fruit Vibes, Twinkle, Twinkle. And now that shirtless picture has added to that already feeling exposed vibe. I think JM really did mean for that picture of the two of them, to be a gift for JK, cause he knows JK's been fighting hard to knock his walls down when it comes to him & JM and Jimin hasn't been budging. The pic is giving "I was with Jungkook at 4 am on his birthday/BB100" energy. Jimin knew JK was frustrated cause JK was having to make up a story about finding out about the BB 100, without mentioning JM. You could see JK's frustration in their OT7 live. I imagine Jimin got an ear full too, which is why when JM said it out loud finally, it was a big deal, cause JK's smile said it all. So this picture gives that same energy, esp since it was a personal picture from their private trip, that Jimin has been hell bent on not acknowledging.

So I think Jimin did see JK on his bday & not cause of shipping. It's because its who Jimin is. He never missed a bday, he wouldn't now. Jimin is just politely saying it's none of our business & he got us on the jump cause he knew it was gonna come up. Now if JK comes out and says he did not see Jimin, then I will believe it, since JM technically didn't say he didn't see JK or talk to him on his bday. He never once said he did not see or talk to him on his bday. He just said he talked to him the day before. And to be honest, it really is no one's business. So I get it. And the off chance he did not. Jimin himself had a work schedule that day. SO he could have spent time with him the night before or even went to him after that live, but we will never know. Well, we will never know from Jimin that is. JK on the other hand. That boy is a loose canon. So he might let it slip on purpose one day.

Hi anon,

Some of the stuff you all write makes me laugh lol

🌈Rainbow, fruit vibes, twinkle twinkle🌈

I agree with you. The picture Jimin posted ended up gathering international attention.

Could Jimin have tried to calm the people questioning jikook? It's possible so he picked his words carefully and said a lot but said very little.

At the end of the day, we really don't know if they saw each other. Based on this year and past year behavior, we could conclude they did see each other. But Jimin left those words floating in the air by not confirming or denying.

And I don't know, like you said, Jk is a loose canon. He is ready to spill at all times! Maybe he will!

Thanks for sharing your thoughts.

#skyasks #jikook

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dumplingsjinson · 4 months

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Honestly, I really feel for you dealing w/ cat guy. My first relationship was also in my 20's. 21-23; I'm 28 now and if I had to give some advice that I wish I learned sooner. It would be that

"The people who deserve the benefit of the doubt, rarely fucking need it."

When I think back on that relationship and even old friendships, the only reason they sustained themselves as long as they did was BECAUSE I was constantly giving the benefit of the doubt and rationalizing their behavior probably more than they did. It wasn't until I was 25+ did I start to take those rose-colored glasses off and realize, we are adults here. You are conscious of your behavior, ESP when you have someone like you and myself, who gain the courage to communicate how their behavior is effecting us.

If they are not changing their behavior after said communication, there's your answer. You're not compatible, they are not mature enough to maintain the type of relationships you want to have in your life and that's fine.

My first partner and I had good communication, we did care for each other a lot, and tried to work on things as much as we could, but ultimately. We were growing at different paces and that's okay. It hurt, but it was for the best. 3 years in and we were still having the same conversations. I get wanting to work on things, so I stayed and was patient like you are doing now. kudos!

He began doing that thing, that I think someone else mentioned, where, they pretty much create a hostile environment within the relationship (coldness, ignoring, doing things they know you don't like, passively involved with dating/ bounding activities, entertaining other connections) until you address their behavior and eventually you break up with them. They put the weight and pressure on you to pull the plug b/c they are too passive, cowardly honestly, to do it themselves. I think that hurt the most b/c it doesn't matter how open and understanding you are. How patient you've been and encouraging.

A person who lies to themself, (makes excuses for themselves) will lie to you too. A person who doesn't want to face their demons will sabotage a relationship with a person like you, who will face them with uncomfortable conversations.

Now as I am older, vagueness and uncertainty is a red flag. Even if you are uncertain, that is something you can communicate. I date to marry and I don't go on dating apps so I can't give advice there. Although, imo the moment you became official, accounts should have been deactivated/deleted.

I also realized as "traditional" or "cliche" as it may seem. I want to be asked to be you gf. This generation started this thing where we play a relationship until one day were like, "Are we a couple?" and the other is like "Yeah. Isn't it obvious?" (my 1st was like this as well) NO! lmao Where was the declaration to be exclusive?? That is key!

I want ppl who are as considerate of me as I am of them and I am sure you are like this as well. Someone who will shoot me a text saying "hey, I'm going to be swamped with X-Y &Z this coming week so I won't be on my phone as much," or "Thinking of you," Even if that's the only text I get for a couple of days.

It was only in situations where I was going a week or two with nothing that made me get "clingy". I learned that the "anxiety" and overthinking was one, a defense mechanism, and two, indicated to me that there was some need not being met.

I applaud you for acknowledging your faults, but ppl who are the "problem" rarely even do that, so I am sure you're not over thinking. lol

Your intuition should not be ignored. "How a relationship begins, is ultimately exactly how it will end"

It's also fine to not do long distance. It doesn't work for some people and that's okay too <3

First of all, thank you for this, and for sharing your experience.

Honestly, he did change his behaviour after the first time I told him about my overthinking and my anxiety, but he fell back on old habits recently, which is why I had to address the issue again. I do understand how draining work can be for him, and I’ve had bouts where I’ve done the same thing of not texting someone or just completely ignoring people (have done the same to him too, ngl) because I was too mentally drained to even want to converse with someone or reply to someone. Like, you’ll see me active, but I only have the mental capacity to mindlessly scroll and like things but not enough capacity to reply to you.

I choose to believe he can sustain this behaviour, but obviously if I have to keep reminding him in the future then I do realise things aren’t going to work out. And I want to believe if he really doesn’t see things working out, he’s going to fucking tell me instead of not doing shit about it and finding someone else behind my back.

Perhaps he is conscious of his behaviour — we all are, let’s be honest, but the extent may vary — but I also think he’s genuinely someone who struts around, no thoughts head empty and I mean this in the least offensive way possible. And I also think being conscious of one’s behaviour doesn’t mean you’re conscious of how your behaviour could hurt someone, if that makes sense? And sometimes it takes a bit of a nudge for you to realise you’re fucking it up for someone else. Because I’ve been that person who’s been conscious of their behaviour, yet doesn’t realise the amount of hurt she’s caused with that behaviour until it’s been directly slapped in her face. It’s still something I’m trying to get better at, and I’ve failed many a times, and still fail at at times.

And I think this distance thing has been a real struggle for him, as it is for me because as I’ve said before, I did think of breaking up during the whole thing. I did think maybe things wouldn’t work out and I should just call it quits. I did think maybe I should just find someone else instead, instead of staying and seeing if things could work out. I did think of upping and leaving and breaking his heart just to save my own. Many times. Even recently, few days before the whole Hinge thing. I’m selfish, in a way because I want to save myself from the hurt and I’ve seriously contemplated on that.

…Do you see why I need therapy?

Anyway, it doesn’t excuse what he did because it’s wrong that he did that and I think he realises it, but I think it’s a mere plausible explanation of why he did that wishy washy slippy sloppy shit, especially considering how he broke up with his last ex because of long distance.

I do believe he’s going to do better (or at least I want to believe he will do better) because from the amount of time I’ve known him, I don’t think he’s going to be someone who would, as you’ve said, “create a hostile environment within the relationship.” I know it’s going to hurt like shit if it doesn’t work out even after I’ve been patient with him but I’m willing to try, and I’m willing to not give up for now. I choose to believe he can change and that he will stick to actually being more transparent with me instead of doing wishy washy shit, and if I can drag his ass out of that shell of his then I’m going to fucking do it. Maybe I’m just a stubborn piece of shit who’s willing to get herself hurt in the process.

As they say, DO IT FOR THE PLOT (where it perhaps may end up with me having to heal in the trenches AHAHA, but let’s hope that’s not going to be the case).

Yeah, the accounts thing is also something I probably should have discussed with him the moment we became official, or even when we first became exclusive; would have avoided a lot of grief that’s happening right now LOL, so I do think I’m also at fault I didn’t immediately call for deletion because honestly, I was also wanting to keep my account paused and dormant but ready to be reactivated if things don’t end up working out. And I’ll be honest, I did occasionally check to see if he’d change up the details since he did that when we were casually dating, so I kind of kept my account up for that reason too. So this trust is definitely going to have to be rebuilt, and I also need to learn to trust someone more (just in general) because I’m someone who finds it hard to trust people easily which isn’t going to fly in any relationship. Constantly suspicious for no reason is tiring and damaging, I do realise that. (Which is why uh… THERAPY?)

Again, I’ve done as he did with the whole “purely chatting and looking for friends thing”, which I’ve elaborated in my other post so yeah, I think that’s why I’m giving him the benefit of the doubt.

As for the relationship thing, I personally am someone who doesn’t mind not being asked to be someone’s girlfriend; just as long as we’re on the same page then I’m good. But of course, personal preferences varies which is understandable lolol. I will say he did try to make a conscious effort of doing what you said; shooting me a text to ask how I am, and texting those other things as well. I’ll be honest, I’ve completely fallen short on that myself, simply because I find myself to be annoying when I message him with anything like that. Biggest flaw about me is when I start to like someone, I end up drawing back. And it probably makes me look like an asshole who doesn’t initiate conversations, or simply someone who doesn’t care. I am trying to do better on this front though, cause it would be hypocritical of me to expect him to do the initiating to ease my mind while I do nothing like that in return. I have been pretty hypocritical thus far since he’s usually the one initiating, usually the one telling me all that sweet stuff, usually the one being “considerate”. Maybe he doesn’t need as much as reassurance as I do but I can’t be giving him nothing in return. I’ve got communication issues myself (again, not just in romantic relationships) which I’m tryna work on.

But he’s never left me hanging for a week, so I’ll give him that LMFAO. However, let me just go off topic for a bit and mention how long distant dude left me hanging for weeks? Months? Yep. So I know how that shit feels, and I’m glad cat guy is at least not that much of a fucking prickass bitch.

The long distance thing is only temporary; it isn't like, permanent lmao, or I would have just broken it off with him completely (or he would have done that with me since we both know he can't handle that shit based on how he broke up with his ex last time). I also don’t think I can do long distance myself, and this whole thing right now is proving it. Long distant dude should have been a clue-in, honestly.

I thank you for saying I’m probably not overthinking, but I know my brain is wired a little differently and I’m just someone who overthinks literally everything. Not just in relationships. And then I end up doing shit wrong because of my overthinking. I’m also not exactly squeaky clean myself in this whole thing; part of the problem, honestly. The only difference is I’m aware of it and I’m trying to be better, yet I still fall short.

And I hope he can, too, if he’s willing to work with me on this. I honestly think he probably had shit going on when he was dating those two other people, and the communication was probably at rockbottom, which is why he’s never learned to communicate properly. And he also seems like someone who bottles up his feelings and emotions. Obviously these are all assumptions based on various observations of mine (such as me being around his family and seeing how he interacts with them; hearing him talk about how his friend group doesn’t seem to really open up about things — hell, they don’t even know who’s dating and who’s not LMFAO, etc.)

What I am learning from dating is that a lot of people need therapy, myself included.

Again, I don't really trust my intuition simply because I know I'm someone who overthinks everything, even the simplest of things, and honestly, I think social media and different opinions have made it harder for me to decide what's true and what's not. I've been seeing so many blanket statements made about the situation I'm kind of in, and it genuinely hurts because I want to believe things can be different and that there are exceptions, however small of a chance there is. Call me a fool, but I want to see if things will work out. And if I get hurt, that’s on me, but at least I know I’ve given it my all. Obviously I hope things don’t turn sour lol.

I’m giving him the benefit of the doubt for my own sake at this point, because I need a peace of mind, and I want to move on from this and hope for the best in the future. Obviously if he fucks me over, he’s going to fuck himself over too because it’s going to hurt him if I break if off with him — I’m very confident of that, at the very least.

But yeah, perhaps I’m a little delusional, but I’m ready to move the fuck on and parade on and hope for the best. It’s either heartbreak or triumph for me at this point wekfnfklewn

#long post #personal #anon asks #not prompts

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halfmoth-halfman · 9 months

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I'm trusting you when you say canary is gonna have it light from here on out but I do wonder how the 141 will like react when they find out they betrayed someone so close and loyal like the one thing they're very big on is unconditional loyalty especially to family and to find out they did the very thing that they despise I'm excited to see how they deal with it I'm also excited to see how gaz personally will because he's been loyal to the end so I can imagine him being like " wtf guys this is what you did to my bestie apologize 😕😤"

but idk something in me say's some of them probably don't see what they did as wrong like I feel like someone is gonna deflect and be like " well shit we had reason to we saw it with our eyes" like that's an excuse especially since it's like... well what did you think he was gonna do let her parade the stage like a beaten potato? Ofc he lied to you and made her seem ok! He's a liar!! You fool

And I also think price knows this and won't put with anyone treating her bad from here on out and I can only imagine how shitty he feels like yo best girl just thrown to the wolves by your own accord because you fell for the same lies she warned you about (major trust issues see a therapist bro) like I'd die from guilt

Also he said something about "finding her" like dude where the hell were you looking?? And for a long time??? You didn't think to check the few places she mentioned or where graves was?? As if she literally didn't run away because she knew he would come for her and literally told you that she couldn't be there because of that and was in danger like??!?!??!!???!!!? Also going back to that no one followed her ?? No one tracked down the car ? And saw the scene?? Like there was to many things backing up her case for everyone to just turn on her especially after all that she explained even if it was a tiny bit someone was doing overtime to make sure she looked as guilty as possible

But yeah Sorry if this was mad long but I'm literally throwing up, chewing my nails, rocking back and forth, and kicking my feet this such a juicy heart racing story 🫶🏾🤍

that's actually going to be a very big talking point in the next few chapters because family's the most important thing to them, right? it's family above all else, the money, the business, everything. and a big part of that is because price doesn't run his business through fear and manipulation like makarov and graves, he relies on trust and loyalty which makes for a stronger crew. and now, here's someone who has been unconditionally loyal to them (moreso than some of their own people) and they've not only betrayed her but outright mistreated and punished her. that's going to cause some major in-house problems esp regarding gaz who has never once doubted her.

there will be talks about both sides, because yes, from their side it can look suspicious and there's just enough evidence for them to make that leap in deduction, but i don't think anyone would excuse what's happened just because of that. i think the bigger issue would be admitting that graves was able to manipulate them enough to think canary was a traitor, esp when so many of them think they're smarter than him.

i know we've all established that canary and ghost are gonna go through it™️, but oh man price. he's gonna need to have his own healing journey just from the guilt and the blame he's (rightfully) putting on himself. like to straight up accuse canary of lying about what graves put her through while she's sitting there trying to hide the bruises from him??? i can imagine he wouldn't stand for anyone mistreating her, but i also think he's gonna have a hard time facing her.

there'll be more on that and what the 141 was doing in general during those five months in the next couple of chapters, because you're right!! it's incredibly suspicious that no one found her, that no one tracked the car, or that looking into graves wasn't the first thing they did 👀

no worries, i enjoy the long asks and all of the theories and questions!! makes me feel like kicking my feet and twirling my hair 💜

#anon #moth answers #answered #cod ask #private

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mirukosbitchywife · 1 year

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midoriya, bakugou, ururaka, kouda, and aoyama x reader

part two to class 1a with a reader who is obsessed w jjba!

i did not realize previously to picking these characters out that i would give them almost all the same favorite jojo but i can defend my decisions and every reason i have for the answer is different

katsuki bakugou:

•knows what it is, has read the entire series AND WILL STRAIGHT UP LIE ABOUT IT FOR MONTHS!!!! his fav jojo is jotaro and his fav jobro is abbachio

•like. im so serious he will lie about it. if you ever bring it up he never involves himself in the conversation. only told you after a few months when y'all started getting closer and closer to dating <3

•doesn't have anything to say about your merchandise. might judge you for having so much but that's it. might even have his own merch

•won't mind that you jojo pose but will bitch about it

•he will judge you but still leave little jojos related things around where you will find them instead of giving them to you like a normal person

izuku midoriya:

knows what it is, loves it, and will absolutely fanboy over it with you!!! favorite jojo is giorno and favorite jobro is bruno or koichi

•will absolutely cosplay with you and do all types of stuff you want him to do. maybe one of the only people who can do the dio backbend.

•will cry in joy at seeing your collection, finally a fan just like him <3 his lil fanboy heart explodes when he sees your room for the first time!

•100% jojo poses with you and can do really complicated ones. (he does them to impress u like the cutie he is) so he will for sure do them in pictures with you too.

•y'all's dates are pretty much just going to merchandise stores for your respective interests tbh.

ochaco ururaka:

•i don't think she knows what it is. if she does know it's bc someone showed her post getting into ua. fav jojo would be also giorno. fav jobro would be reimi sugamoto

•if you guys watch it together i think she'd be Super interested in it!! probably falls in love with the show after you show it to her

•absolutely floored by your collection. doesn't even want to know the price of one thing let alone all of them together... thinks all the little plushies and everything are super cute tho!!!

•WILL MAKE U FLOAT WHILE DOING JOJO POSES W YOU!!! you guys fake recreate scenes it's so fun. a lot of y'all's dates will be just floating around having fun doing jojo fights and stuff !!

•will constantly bring up jjba and show u stuff related to it just to see u happy :( ugh i lovevher. also has a wishlist full of stuff to get you for bdays and other gift giving holidays

kouda koji:

•knows what it is has read the manga and will privately approach you to talk about it! favorite jojo is also also giorno favorite jobro is maybe foo fighters?

•aww imagine if like all his pets at home are named after jjba characters 🥺 idk if his bunny has a canonical name or if i'm just forgetting it but either way imagine him telling u all of their names and it's just a list of jojos stands

•also doesn't really have a reaction to your collection, will compliment you on some and be extra careful around the items but that's about it

•he will not do jojo poses with you in pics :( sorry :( he's just too nervous for that! but he supports you doing it and will take pictures of you doing them

•another person who doesn't really understand simping for fictional characters but doesn't say anything about it, whatever makes u happy! will show you things that remind him of your fav characters <3

aoyama

•has absolutely no idea what it is. favorite jojo would be ALSO also also giorno! fav jobro is polnareff. fucking obviously. no other option.

•might be a little freaked out at first by it, but quickly gets into it during part two and three! he's SUPER dramatic through the whole viewing tho!! is so dramatic about all of his reactions but he's cute so it's okay

•honestly might be the second most excited about your collection. deku is the first duh. bc i think aoyama would be super into collecting items esp cheese and just because he might not collect long lasting stuff doesn't mean he doesn't appreciate a good collection!!

•loves jojo posing with you in pictures, will do any that you ask him to do, you didn't even have to ask him to join you before he just. did it himself.

•gives you cheese shaped like your favorite characters. don't ask

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aprofessionalwithoutstandards · 1 year

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I HOPE YOURE HAVING A GOOD DAY genuinely . i also feel it would be funny to mention that getting into tf2 actually did make me discover a piss kink. thank you sniper team fortress 2 i will actually never be the same.

but to ask, do you have any weird headcanons about the mercs you havent told anyone just yet? i have a few about medic specifically, but some could get me hate esp from people who enjoy erasing any sort of bisexual coding in characters (i say this as a bi person myself)

THRILLED FOR YOU tf2 offhand made me discover a whole bunch of shit about myself I won't divulge here but like if you know stuff about me you can probably guess

Uhh kind of I guess! I have a ton of posts that kinda just hit the cutting room floor, I don't post everything I think of bc I like to think I run a tight operation over here lmao. A lot of hcs I come up with in conversations w friends or w my siblings and I consider that already "telling someone" so I'll forget to post it even if it's good lol. A lot of my ideas will go thru my mental Quality Control process where I don't wanna post anything too generic or boring, which is why for smth like the McDonald's post I cut out all the characters I couldn't think of anything funny for and only left in the jokes I like. Also ofc some of my hcs are really really really horny and I don't necessarily feel like I need or even want to share those. If you want some headcanons I've never posted but have workshopped for a while, here are some:

Scout will actively kill people but won't litter in front of a cop

Sniper says he doesn't litter out of environmental concerns but it's actually because he eats everything out of his hands or off the floor

Soldier doesn't litter because when he finishes something he eats it. This includes styrofoam

Engie doesn't litter out of genuine concern for the environment

Medic litters on purpose

#also as a bi person i hc medic as gay. i don't necessarily think he's Coded As Bi n it's like not super deep if people have diff hcs from u😭#he doesn't have like a female love interest the way soldier does. no that one demo voiceline about the wife does not count #of course you're allowed to think he's bi i literally don't care just like don't expect me to agree lol #everyone thinks he's bi. bc all men are gay unless they're extroverted and annoying which means they're bi #overall i don't think like this first-person shooter has any Coding whatsoever and if medic is coded as anything it's just like. fslur #like they don't care about the intricacies of all that. game developers didn't give a fuck about bisexuals in 2007 #ask #anon #tf2 #team fortress 2 #mick dicks #I GUESS???? bc the phrase 'piss kink' was said and i know yall can't be respectful

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ep38 (2/3): heartbreaking: the worst person you know just came out

man I feel like xxc is SUCH a romantic. he likes being in love he likes having a partner he's drawn to those idealized fairy-tale romances he doesn't look too deeply below the surface (consciously or not) because he just loves having that kind of connection with someone. and ah he and song lan were perfect for each other. if not for that foolish mistake...! but tragically he's not a main character so his suffering will lead not to a happy ending but to death

anyway. scream? I assume these are yi city residents? fuck, but that's so many. an entire city

he just loves giving those expressions to xy for no reason. unhinged menace

this is honestly hilarious. obviously 'all he wanted was a domestic life with famer's market trips uwu' is a patently absurd claim because look what he DID with that life but I cannot lie this is very funny to me. like sure maybe DEEP DOWN that's all he wanted but my sympathy for him is like. nonexistent because look what he chose to do

also. this man is gasping in fear. does xxc not notice?? willfully ignorant, perhaps

SONG LAN!!!! thank god you're here there is such bullshit going down here xxc needs you. he just lit up so much when he heard about xxc

she's such a little survivalist <3

omg remember that translation meta that described sl's answer as like 'he is world-endingly beautiful' or something? first of all he was right. they casted xxc perfectly, second of all how the hell did she write this and not make them canon gay. insane.

this kills me bc at this point SL KNOWS but I don't think he even considered approaching this with the care he would have needed to. and why not just confront xy? it's not like he knows xy has a tool to make xxc kill him

also sl is standing here in broad daylight and xy just walks past him? I mean his back is to sl but that's weird, I feel like he'd notice him just STANDING there esp if a-qing jerks away and hides

damn I hope she hasn't been hiding every time xy is around. that's her home too. she could technically leave but I doubt she wanted to abandon xxc. and she's not likely to trust any of the sects to intervene either even if she told them. and I don't think she understands that xy is making xxc kill living people

witnessing sl see how xy treats xxc (familiarly, cruelly, lying) is like. that IS a man watching someone he loves involved with someone else who's hurting them. not even jealousy, just heartbreak and righteous anger. li bowen NAILED it

I don't think sl and xxc were ever actually together which just makes this entire thing more exquisitely painful

THE SINGLE TEAR

oohh and the BLOOD

at this point a-qing is distressed enough to grab onto wwx for comfort :(

it's not often that I see the xxc/xy situation described as abuse but xy DID abuse his power over xxc to trick him into murdering people (and then the heavy implication that they were in a relationship too 😬)

I love this expression from SL. no detached justice here. this man is furious and ready to kill

this fight scene is actually good? so many fight scenes in this show are bad and this one just rules. the chemistry, the action, the drama, the tragedy. what a neat and tight little narrative

ohh double-meanings. KILL HIM SONG LAN

this was so insane of xxc to do. man had one great love of his life and he dug out his eyes for him then walked away 😭

this is so funny though. he is the worst. oh SHIT THERE'S THE CHEETAH-PRINT ROBES. what a slay

also now xy won't stop rubbing it in his face and playing on sl's insecurities. deflecting from his own crimes. as jgy does, later in the temple. xy probably learned from him honestly. but don't fall for it song lan!!! he is literally using xxc to murder people!!!

this is a taunt eerily reminiscent of wwx. his voice goes up all high, like 'awww, were you SAD? huh?' wwx taunts like this, all sarcastic. but also he's not like, evil

BITCH YOU'RE THE ONE LYING AND MANIPULATING HIM

when sl's tongue gets cut out, a-qing gets all this splashed on her. ugh

NOOOOOOOO XIAO XINGCHEN!!! THAT'S THE MAN YOU LOVE!!!

#cql re-rewatch #this is so upsetting!!! bro!!!!

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Why are the people who were fans when originally, it was just the book to go off of suddenly SO upset at Neil? I mean, I get being frustrated if for years the authors of one of your favorite books continually told you that your subtext reading was wrong and there was nothing to see there, only to turn around and make it very, very gay when it comes to the screen. I'm in my 40s, and I've been involved in fandoms for my entire life. I know the struggle (a lot better than some people on here who are younger, just saying)... but I still just don't understand the mentality of being like, "Look, you gave me everything I wanted before now and didn't have. But I'm furiously ungrateful for that gift because previously, in another time & place when it was much more dangerous to say otherwise, you didn't give me what I asked for... and now you have, and that somehow makes me angry."

That frankly just seems really perverse to me. Like, you're not gonna let yourself enjoy the present because you're mad about the journey it took to get here?!

I'm so confused. I want to go and thank Neil from the bottom of my heart for giving us what we got: all of the queerness, of Literally Every Variety. All the fanservice, all the wondrous beauty of this, even though as I'm reading the book, I can see that there's not as much of it in there. That just makes it better, IMO, to get something you want in more plenty, finally, for the first time. It's like somebody wrote a *canonical* fix-it fic for us... and you're pissed off because they didn't do it earlier.

Good Omens as it now exists is a wealth and a gift... And more importantly, people's points of view change over the years as the world changes around them, and they are confronted with new information and realize that, for instance, in this case, your fans are asking for representation they seldom get, and you are willing to give it to them because they have been good to you.

It's kind of like getting mad at people who tweeted something ignorant several years ago, and then did the right thing and changed their tune. They aren't "lying" now. People freaking change, for god's sake, and you should actually be *celebrating* that growth rather than being mad at someone because their previous iteration doesn't line up with the current one, like people are supposed to be some kind of unchanging monoliths.

Humans are not monoliths. We alter with time and perspective. Like for instance, years of interacting with people who have a different view. And an act of service like creating a massive, yearslong work of priceless art as a fulsome apology that gives folx everything they ever wanted is literally the definition of admitting you were mistaken in the past, and you're trying to do better.

To write the material in a way that appeals to the primary audience is probably the best way to go in this situation. It's not "pandering". Actually, the silent part you all are apparently furious about is the only pandering going on. Not saying it specifically is the part that's pandering, not MAKING US EXACTLY WHAT WE ASKED FOR. Neil also has to make a few people happy who are disgruntled about the fact that it's more overt now that these stories aren't for them, and they didn't want it to be for us. Really, it's offering a consolation prize to people who have lost. And you're mad that you've won about it? That attitude is bewildering to me.

Nor is it "a blatant money grab", as some people have accused. Yes, he wants to make a living, which is more and more difficult these days, for pretty much every creative (esp. screenwriters, obvs). What this is actually in practice though is Neil admitting through action rather than words that he was wrong. He is performing the ACTION of giving the material what it deserved the entire time and didn't have before. IN LOVING DETAIL, NO LESS... and you all are mad because he's not specifically saying, "Hey, I've learned and grown and gotten better about all this"?

Look, the fact that it happened means that he DID SAY IT; and we've gotten more from that growth and changed perspective than we ever thought possible on the screen. Representation of practically everybody, in every possible way, and I don't understand how people are mad about it!

Grow the fuck up, live in the present, and enjoy what we've been given instead of wallowing around in your bitterness that you didn't get a pat on the back twenty or thirty years ago. There's already enough rotten shit going on in this world without you adding more negativity. Or if you want to sit around being bitter all the time, go do it somewhere else where you're not pissing all over everybody else's good time... and having the utmost GALL to harass and insult a man who has given us so much joy and beauty and belonging.

#neil gaiman is an evil genius #bitter barn pity party #fans being impossible to please #grow up #good omens

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as i head into the final case, the resolve of ryunosuke naruhodo: we are going into the fire. all will be revealed. the horrors unveiled. it's time. answers at any cost.

but first: brain vomit

i spent a lot of time theorizing on who the final defendant would be, only for it to just be the same trial. marginally disappointing but it's probably for the best. not sure if my heart could take more people dying

that being said: Herlock as a defendant (my top contender) would have been interesting. deeply.

the case title worries me. to be fair, everything about the setup here worries me. i suspect it will be unpleasant, if cathartic

i've been thinking this from practically the moment we met, but i strongly believe Stronghart will be the final baddie/final witness. it feels so obvious. almost too obvious. which is why i'm now second-guessing myself. i dont have a backup theory though. so.

i'm not sure i buy Gregson as the Reaper. it makes sense, but i have a nagging doubt. what about Gina? he told us that he was taking Gina to France to protect her. and that could be a lie, but. i don't know.

or actually. hang on. having a thought. He was the Reaper-or involved-and never felt doubt about his involvement until Gina. knows that the Reaper can't act outside of Britain (esp with Shinn dead) and so plans to flee with Gina. this gets him killed by the one in charge of the whole Reaper thing?

i honestly don't know. but there's more to it than what Zieks thinks. than what we all think.

Vigil is either lying to us or not all of his memories have returned. i swear he has Genshin's ring, from the Barok flashback. how would he have it?

on a similar note: the governor of the prison is not telling us everything.

i'm fairly convinced Genshin is not the Professor, at this point. Or at least that there's more going on there. He saved Barok. He wrote some weird papers (which are not the ones we were given, no way), he still doesn't really have a motive. The whole giant dog aspect of the case. The Baskervilles. There's more to this.

terrible thought i had: Dr. John H. Wilson. he was even a professor!

or Stronghart. again. i don't know.

i'm still waiting to see if Van Zieks and Stronghart are related. they have the same crest. it. worries me.

speaking of Van Zieks. god. the scene after the trial where he's his usual terrible self and then Ryunosuke is like "is that any way to talk to your lawyer" and then van Zieks apologized? so satisfying. you tell him, Ryunosuke.

i just like it when Ryunosuke gets a bit snippy. see: every time he called van Zieks his "learned friend" like go off. get him.

also i cannot believe Kazuma kept calling Ryunosuke his 'learned friend' during the trial what is Wrong With Him.

i miss my sword. obs it is good that Kazuma is alive and gets his sword back, but i miss the sword. its so fun.

at least Kazuma finally talked to Ryunosuke. like. way later that he could have but at least he did. thank you. i appreciate someone being honest with me. its so rare.

okay. Iris' dad possibilities time:

Mikotoba: unlikely. its possible, but it feels unlikely. gut instinct. i want to not be disappointed in him.

Dr. John H. Wilson: it could still be him, but i doubt it. he apparently didn't seem to have a family?

Herlock: plausible. unfort. will explode him with my mind if so. could not fathom a reason why he'd lie to Iris if so. although im sure one would exist

one of the nobles (Klint) killed by the Professor: spitballing. the og hound of the baskervilles had something to do with killing heirs. i don't know. concerned.

Gregson. highly unlikely but also. i don't know.

Mycroft: my crack theory. we dont even know if there Is a Mycroft.

i have more thoughts (incoherent yelling) but idk

if herlock does not have a good explanation for everything i will flip my lid. kazuma. iris wilson. the professor. the baskervilles. why was he even on the SS Burya? he has much to answer for.

#nellie liveblogs tgaa

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ilyuqi · 2 years

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oops

so obviously, i've been weirdly semi-ia? ia? i have no idea. one of my friends said "seeing a detailed ozzie take on my dash is a once in a blue moon event" and expressed how he too wanted to "pull an ozzie" and that had me thinking. ah. i should probably talk about it. okay, so lets talk

when i started this blog, anyone who knew me from way-back-then, i was very much on a different scene than i am today. not that different, moreso just "here's me analyzing dream and george and sapnap, except this time i have the highschools they went to!" . yknow? and that was really fun for me, dteam have been ccs i got to watch literally evolve their personalities to better fit the masses, so when i analyze their actions and what they do/why they do it. it's fun because i get to look at what they were like before they changed (like 2020 twitch days), and use that as reference, and 9/10 times that tends to be a lot more accurate. i feel like this is why people enjoyed reading my takes/asks, i tried my best to approach all 3 guys like real people with feelings beyond that of just their cc life, and attempt to be nuanced about them and what they do. this has always been my goal, have people ask me deeply complex questions about people i don't know personally, and do my best to answer them in a way that is atleast somewhat real. like dream-ed. has dream told us he has an ed? no. did sapnap? no. but did i come to that conclusion on my own based on small pieces put together + my knowledge of dreamnap's personalities to get to a conclusion that was very much real (and now i see is basically accepted as fact?) yeah! and see, that's what i like to do. i'm not trying to like, pat my back here, just giving an example of why this blog was fun for me to have.

dream's always been doing racist things. point blank. being on twitter when these things happened was hard, since speaking out against him would result in an unfollow or a straight up thread against you, or a demeaning reply from him. especially in summer 2020, when it was the worst. i did not like this. i didn't like being on twitter really, but when i wasn't allowed to directly respond to racism the ccs i liked were doing it was just like . okay . lol . what? so being on tumblr and finally being able to talk about it was so much more freeing, and i got to say what was on my mind. and the tumblrscape back then was so nice, esp for me. most of this stuff was in the past, so people didn't feel as defensive when talking about it. most of the conversations we had about dream's ignorance and racism weren't about the racism itself, but whether or not he was willing to change and if his apology was sincere. i'd always maintained especially after war-cry, that he wanted to change his ways and had become a better person, someone who didn't want to lie to his fans about who he is. ect ect

recently though, this has not been the case: (kkk edit, manatreed, telling a black stan that "he doesn't think his fanbase is antiblack" so they must be wrong) and it made me realize that i don't think i really believe he can become a better person. not when he has stans backing him up like this, not when he doesn't even have to change for his stans to still be there for him. and i realized that mentality of protecting dream no matter what had spread to tumblr too. me saying a kkk edit, even if he made it a while ago is still wrong and his first response was incredibly telling (lying) and people saying "no dream's old racism doesn't count! and if you had to respond to racism like that you would too!! it's not a big deal anyway!!" and then trying to explain why anti-semitism is bad to these people?? are you serious? or trying to explain why white people can't tell black people what is and what's not racist. or why housing an abuser is not okay. and just constantly being met with discourse about things i thought were taken as fact.

i love discourse, it's the best part of this blog. i love debating with people about visas, or whether or not stans are good for mcyts ect ect. but i do not like discourse about whether or not antisemitism is real. or if racism is trivial. it's not fun for me to try and explain what i know to be basic facts of life, and be told "well no when dream does it it's not bad so.." and i've realized because ive framed myself as a discourse blog, (which was at first, very fun) but now because most of dream's most discourseable actions tend to be things about the real world (homophobia, racism, antisemitism, ect ect) it gets less fun because it means i have to debate with people about whether or not this stuff is real. and in the end, i have to just constantly keep up conversation about bigoted actions on my blog.

let me be clear, my mental health is fine. i'm not taking a break because my poor sorry heart cannot take the heat from the stans. no. if i was a different person i'm sure i'd have it in me to argue with the people in my inbox telling me racism isn't real, but i just. am not that person. but i've realized that because of who dream is and his actions, that those people in my inbox will become a constant, not an anomaly if i continue to keep this image on tumblr.

the thing is, i don't think my image on here is going to change and neither is dream. i don't think i'll be leaving this blog either, like rn i really wanna talk about ranboo and tubbo's whole breakup, but ik bc my primary focus has always been dream alongside george and sap, a lot of people may be disappointed in what i choose to talk about now. so i think that's why i felt like i should make this post.

from now on, i'll mostly be avoiding conversations about dream's .. serious offenses. maybe dream discourse alltogether. it's not that i don't care, or don't have something to say about it (i always do) but i want to de-center the conversation from serious things that shouldn't be up for debate on a tumblr blog, (since i now know because dream's fanbase will always debate real things to keep his image pristine) and maybe go to more. stupid things . like hey anyone else think the meetup is delayed for another 6 months because george is stupid. lol. it just isn't fun for me to debate serious things like that, and it isn't fun for me to talk about a guy who has done those things.

like. this isn't me being silenced. i just don't have it in me to debate with those people on very real things that shouldn't be trivialized.

so yeah, i hope i could explain my weird offline-ness, and hopefully this gives an explanation that's satisfactory for everyone. obv tell me if i said anything wrong and yeah!

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(idr when but when he was joking about installing Tinder again when he went home for Pooja holidays or something in 23)

Ok so in general i always do feel very replaceable

Like you don't have to say anything to make me feel better ik I'm amazing but it's more of what people need from another person atm etc and like rn this combination of people work better but knowing it doesn't help like you'd still feel it ig idk what I'm technically getting at

And it's also cuz i hate needing/wanting anyone/anything more than they want/need me actually ig that's just for wanting i just overall hate ever needing anyone at all and not a fan of people needing me i want them to want me

But like yes so even in friendships like at any point sach could just start spending more time with someone else and end up closer to them n I'd definitely feel it a lot but like I'm just gonna be like yeah whatever in fact id probably pull back more so im not in the way and actually I did kinda feel it in the beginning with sach n pro

And i also hate being a person who'd be jealous cuz it's their life if they want someone else instead of me if that works better for them rn then why not I'd just hate being the reason they're staying out of some obligation when they'd rather have someone else

And friendships it's fine cuz you do have different friends and it's sorta fluid and it varies and anyway it just happens and it can fade and blah blah blah I don't really keep friends so like it's fine I'm used to it

But here it would be more idkkkk just in general it's a relationship so like *vaguely gestures cuz i don't have words esp cuz it's been while so it's like died down and i had other stuff to deal with*

Also my opinion of you isn't complete trash you realise that right and before we were dating also I have straight up told you that yeah you as the version ik if you were just like that they definitely could like you so it's not like i think it's so impossible for you to ever get other girls

And full honesty I have considered like yea what if it just hasn't hit you what if it's just your incredibly low self esteem and what if at some point you get enough attention from someone else

And anyway doing things on purpose to see if they get jealous kinda feels like testing you ig..? or like remember when we talked about the thing about proving or giving reasons to stay etc it feels kinda like that too

And i don't like the concept of doing it for the reaction cuz yeah sure possessiveness hot n all but you know they don't like it cuz who wants to be jealous obviously so its just agitating someone for your amusement

But main point being i just do in general feel extremely replaceable so jealousy doesn't mix well and I don't even like considering it

And i didn't wanna talk about it in person cuz i felt like if I started talking about it I might start crying that's what I meant by some convos I'm better over text than in person

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heterocerapunk · 1 year

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Answers to the game we just reblogged under the cut

💖 Current special interests?

Writing, cannibalism, Rick and Morty, Moths

🔥 How many special interests do you have at the moment?

4 :)

😇 If your special interest is a video game/movie/tv show/etc, who’s your fav character from it?

For writing : our favourite characters we've made are Venos and Myrin (veh-noe-ss & meer-in)

For Rick and Morty : Rick punches us directly in the autism lmao

💎 When and how did you discover your special interest?

Writing : We've been writing since we were like . . . 6 ? According to some stuff our grandma has kept

Cannibalism : We fell down a Wikipedia rabbit hole a couple years ago , and it evolved from there .

Rick and Morty : We grew up on Futurama because it's our dad's favourite show , and someone once told us Rick and Morty was similar ( idk if I'd say it is , lmao ) , so we watched it . That was like 2 years ago I think .

Moths : Our most recent special interest , and currently our most intense . Could be a hyperfix , but generally we can tell when smth is a special interest early on .

✖️️ Is there something you don’t like about your special interest?

Writing : Can be extremely hard to do for us sometimes , esp since our physical disability makes us unable to handwrite and makes typing for a long time very difficult .

Cannibalism : People judge us for it, and assume we romanticize irl cannibalism . We don't . Cannibalism is extremely bad for your own mental ( and often physical ) health , and to do it nonconsensually is just as bad as the murder you probably had to do to get to it . Consensual cannibalism is also wrong bc of the health thing , and also I don't think people should be able to consent to that . Cannibalism in the name of general survival is a necessary evil , and not something to glamorize . We do romanticize the hell out of entirely fictional and often very unrealistic cannibalism ( like in NBC Hannibal )

Rick and Morty : The show can be problematic at times , which is hard for us to accept . The use of the R slur , even though said by an autistic character and likely written in by an autistic person , is a big example of this , bc the VA is probably not autistic . There are also other bad things the show has done .

🐒 What’s your favorite line from your special interest if it’s a video game/movie/tv show/etc?

Rick and Morty :

"He's meta, Morty. His life doesn't matter. Yours does. That's why we need to get back."

Rick says this to Morty , but when he says "yours does" he looks directly at the camera . It sounds stupid , but reminding myself of that part really helps when I feel like my life doesn't matter akdjsjsjsjs .

"I'm not touching that thing. I'll get neurotypical cooties."

Rick says this in reference to a drill ship made by the president's scientists . It's another acknowledgement that Rick's autistic , which is rad , and also it's just hella funny .

💫 Fun fact about your special interest?

Cannibalism : The disease associated with cannibalism ( called Kuru , often compared to Mad Cow Disease , which is a different TSE ) is actually only transmittable by eating brain tissue , coming into contact with infected flesh , or if one or both of your parents have it . So you won't get mad cow disease from eating someone , and you probably won't even get a similar disorder . Avoid the brain and the chances you'll get it are slim .

Moths : The number of moth families outnumbers the number of butterfly families 8;1 , iirc

💕 What’s your fav thing about your special interest?

Writing : Worldbuilding . It's the easiest and most fulfilling part .

Cannibalism : The potential it has in fiction , ig ?

Rick and Morty : The character dynamics and development . Also haha funny :)

🍳 Do you have a stim related to your special interest?

No , not really .

🌠 What’s a past special interest?

Minecraft was a spin for like . At least 6 years ?

🏘️ What was your first special interest you can remember?

Minecraft

🍭 What’s a headcanon/theory you have about your special interest?

Rick and Morty : Space Beth is the og Beth , Jerry misses Sleepy Gary more than he'd like to admit , Morty is Rick C-137's original Morty , Evil Morty is Rick C-137's original Morty , Rick Prime and Rick C-137 are actually swapped , Evil Morty is Rick Prime's original Morty . Ik a lot of these are literally impossible but shut up .

I skipped a few of the prompts but whatever lol

#moth.txt #cw moths #cw cannibalism

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winged-void · 2 years

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prime numbers fuck you

2. You talked to an ex today, correct?

huh. bitch ass question machine. i have one ex and the last time i heard from her she was stalking me in high school.

3. Have you taken someones virginity?

I guess it depends on your definition but like. under most definitions yeah.

5. Did you hang out with the person you like recently?

I hang out with my wife every day<3 I also got to hang out with penny unexpectedly on wednesday that was cool.

7. What happened tonight?

it's 9 am. so. last night what happened was i got sad for no reason and sat on the couch motionless and played the arknights roguelike mode. it was cool.

11. How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust?

i fully trust like. four people. maybe. and none of them happen to be men.

13. What are you gonna do Saturday night?

i have no idea! that's a whole 36 hours away!

17. Who do you feel most comfortable talking to about anything?

It's probably a tie between you, my wife, and my best friend

19. Have you had sex today?

it's 9 am. so no.

23. Are your eyes the same color as your dad’s?

i have no idea what color my dad's eyes are lmao

29. Do you really, truly miss someone right now?

My wife left for work an hour ago so that's pretty fucked up and i miss them a lot.

I also miss my girlfriend, I hope i get to see her again not too far in the future.

31. Honestly, do you hate the last boy you were talking to?

the last boy i was talking to was a random stranger who wanted to play fighting games with me. i feel neutrally about him

37. Do you believe in love at first sight?

Not really no. the concept doesn't like. make sense. with how i define love.

41. When was the last time you ate a cupcake?

I have no idea but my wife made oreo cheesecake bites and those are similar and SO good

43. Ever embarrass yourself in front of a crush?

I embarass myself constantly in ways most people don't even notice, so yeah.

47. Who was the last person to call you?

this girl who's always on my dick. like. i already told you miss Scam Likely, it's never gonna happen.

53. Is Christmas stressful?

Yeah. ptsd reasons mostly.

59. Take a vitamin daily?

no. i should take calcium for the bone destroying pills i take daily but i don't

61. Wear a bath robe?

ugh i wish i bet i'd look hot.

67. Peanuts or Sunflower seeds?

Peanuts, but i don't think I've ever had sunflower seeds.

love me a peanut tho

71. Can you curl your tongue?

mhmmmmmmmm

73. Have you ever cried because you were so happy?

yeah! constantly. ya girl cries about everything<3

79. What was the last concert you saw?

I have no idea. it was definitely a long time ago. it might be when i went to a twenty one pilots concert in 2015. wack.

83. Can you swim well?

pretty well

89. Which are better black or green olives?

i never really notice a difference. love me an olive tho, esp on a pizzum

#emily i love this game we play

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childishfluff · 3 years

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(im gonna be sending a few seperate asks since theyre seperate thoughts/ideas, sorry for any sort of inbox spam!!) ur pet regressor tommy fic led me into a whole wormhole of many different ideas.. esp abt who else is a pet regressor!!

- wilbur (cat regressor!! also very relaxed, he *will* just sleep on phil or techno's lap for hours on end. mostly nonverbal, but will meow every now nd again. mostly communicates through actions. he can purr. doesn't drop often, but when he does, it's due to extreme stress- meaning he can be pretty sensitive while he's in catspace.)

- tubbo (puppy regressor, but definitely more of a relaxed dog aside from the amnt he communicates, especially through barking, whimpering, and soft "awooo!!"'s. loves snuggles. sometimes, he's scared to come of as annoying, so he's hesitant to slip into pupspace, normally needing someone to help him along and tell him that it's ok for him to be a puppy, nd that he's a very very good boy.)

- karl (kitten regressor!!!! he's either really sleepy or really playful/energetic, and he has no in between on that. he meows.. so much.. all he kno is meow meow!! *very* sensitive while dropped, and as such, he needs a lot of validation and love. will get extremely upset with himself if he notices that anyone is even *slightly* mad/irritated by him.)

- nick (sapnap) (PUPPY REGRESSOR 100000%!!! he's very very loud and extremely playful!!! he can be entertained for *hours* w literally anything, especially toys like chew bones. doesn't really drop too often, but when he does, he drops very very far. something that can trigger his drops is when people compare his traits/actions to those of a dog because he just goes yes!! yes me!!!! dog!!! me!!!! also he loves karl *so* much because karl absolutely spoils him rotten when he's in pupspace.)

- ranboo (kitty regressor!! similar to karl, he can be really sensitive while he's dropped. entirely nonverbal, opting for actions instead. he's a mix of both playful and sleepy. when he sleeps, he curls his entire body up into a circle nd kneads at whatever he's sleeping on until he falls asleep.)

- dream (cat regressor!! sleeps a lot when he's dropped, hes just vv tired. mimics patches, and loves to follow her around/act like she does. even bases his catgear around patches, with tabby-colored cat ears and an outfit based off of similar colors. drops very easily, mostly voluntarily.)

those r the ones i can think of now.. id love to know ypur opinions/interpretations of them!! -🌻

OKAY I’M GONNA GO THROUGH THESE ONE BY ONE, AND SHARE MY THOUGHTS+OTHER POSSIBLE HCS/FIC SCENARIOS, SO LONG POST WARNING Y’ALL

1. Cat Regressor! Wilbur

yes yes yes, I wouldn’t of thought of it myself but the idea is absolutely adorable! I’d totally write that, with like handler/cg!niki in addition to those you listed. And the idea of him using it for stress and therefore being sensitive in catspace? like, that’s amazing.

I could imagine a fic where someone pushes him to regress for fun for once, but he feels like it’s stupid to purposely act like a cat when he doesn’t need it? They don’t pressure him, or anything, but he ends up slipping because he feels safe. and he realizes not only does it help with stress, but it just makes him more happy!

also imagine him slipping around tommy for whatever reason, and just wanting to sleep while Tommy’s trying to do something fun. So he’s dragging around a sleepy kitten and waking him up every two seconds, and it’s really soft and adorable and ends up with Wilbur sleeping somewhat on Tommy so that he can’t get up and he’s like ‘you’re so lucky I love you, dude.’ awww I need to write a fic- no promises but y’know

2.Puppy Regressor!Tubbo

someone actually requested a puppy regressors!tubbo and tommy fic that I’m having trouble writing, like it sounds cute but it’s kinda hard bc I’ve never written puppyspace before. I actually decided to start over but I’ma keep trying on that.

anyways, imagine like, Ranboo or Tommy helping him slip over a discord call! Needing help to regress is something that I understand (I age regress, but I haven’t in a while due to this issue), so I could probably write Tubbo in that position well. Needing to be coaxed and told that it’s okay to be a cute lil puppy, like that’s adorable!

3. Kitten Regressor!Karl

tbh I tried to write kitten!karl but I was half asleep and gave up, I need to get back to that hjsiksja. Like I specialize in writing sensitive regressors w/anxiety over someone being mad at them, so I could definitely pull this off.

and the idea of him being a talkative kitty is sooo cute! Like I can imagine something along the lines of this conversation between him and a handler/cg:

“What do you want?”

“Meowww”

“I don’t know what that means!”

“Meow?” (little head tilt and innocent cute eyes)

“Do you want cuddles?”

*excited meows! and he goes and cuddles up in their lap bc yay, they understood him!*

and imagine kitten!karl playing w/Quackity! very very adorable concept

4. Puppy Regressor! Sapnap

okay okay so I don’t watch sapnap really but this is still adorable! Like the whole ‘me, puppy? yes.’ thing is soooo cute! Imagine George or Dream just forgetting that’s a trigger and making a joke about how one of his mannerisms reminds them of a puppy and suddenly! There’s a puppy to take care of!

and karl spoiling him sounds like something he’d do hjsiksjsa. I can’t really add much on here bc idk much about him/his content past the smp but this is so cute! Maybe I’ll watch a few of his videos and attempt writing him bc I keep getting requests for him

5. Kitten Regressor! Ranboo

yes, I was already thinking about this tbh! Like I’ve written him as a little and it’s kinda similar, he’s sensitive, and he’s less verbal the littler he gets. As a kitten, I can easily picture him just being quiet.

I imagine that he’s really pouty because of this, because he doesn’t know how to communicate otherwise, so this might confuse anyone who may take care of him.

“Why are you pouting? Do you want cuddles? Food? Do you wanna play?”

and he just doesn’t reply bc he’s a kitten and he can’t talk so it’s an endless cycle of guess and check until they reach the right answer, and it’s really funny to watch. I can also imagine that he giggles a lot. Like he’s not verbal or anything, and he doesn’t giggle a lot but sometimes it happens! and if you make him giggle while in kittenspace then you did something right!

it makes everyone happy when he giggles and it’s really soft and cute! I definitely think I’ll write a fic with kitten!ranboo in it, at some point eventually, I think!

6. Cat Regressor! Dream

awwwww- I didn’t even consider the possibility of this but awwww. Imagine Wilbur and Dream in catspace together, just sleeping and cuddling while basically all the other kittens are playing and being hyper. And everyone’s trying to get them to play but they’re sleepy! (ofc they end up playing anyways bc their friends are adorable and convincing but y’know)

and I really like the idea of him mimicking patches! I’ve seen a few pet regresors say that they mimick/copy their pets so it kinda feels realistic and likely! and plus, it’s really cute.

and since his regression is voluntary, I can imagine him like one minute, just chillin w/george and sapnap and going ‘what if- what if I just went *cat mode*’ and he tries to hint to his friends that he wants to slip but they’re not getting it so it’s kinda frustrating for him but funny for the readers to see play out bc George and Sapnap are being completely oblivious to everything. Hjsiksja that’d be funny

Thank you for sending this it, like seriously! It was really fun to go through and talk about these, I might make additional headcannon lists once I’m actually awake tomorrow bc I shouldn’t be up rn but yeah, I just wanted to go through and respond to this! <3

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I am stuck thinking about that Lasombra lacroix. Is he still a Camarilla prince in this, or just some random sabbat? Feel free to go off on more tangents and stuff, I love your ideas.

THANK YOUUUU!!! Really having fun with these clan ideas lmao, happy to know people are enjoying them too 😭❤

more below because this Did become a tangent, my brain is a hive full of bees and they all need to be heard <3

okay, okay, did some research on Lasombra again to refresh my memory on them

- So in all the aus I've made/will make where LaCroix isn't the Prince, Vannevar Thomas from LA by Night takes his place. And in this one, Lasombra LaCroix is currently working under Andrei as he'd affiliated with the Sabbat. So in a way he's a random Sabbat lmao. Despises Vannevar out of principle

- I think he'd still be very much obsessed with the sarcophagus, probably even more so than canon, because he feels it's his last chance at proving himself to his sire: the sarcophagus is believed to be a portent of Gehenna, and Andrei's people are trying to stop it. Imagine the respect Sebastian would get, if he was the driving force in acquiring the sarcophagus and winning LA for the Sabbat

- Andrei tolerates him because he knows LaCroix’s sire and respects them. LaCroix, not so much. He sees him as a pathetic child trying too hard to be something he isn’t. Andrei vaguely hopes the childe will be killed by his dealings to get the sarcophagus so that the sire can focus on a better candidate for their legacy.

- So LaCroix's connection and grasp of Oblivion is very shaky, because despite all his training and his own determination to succeed, he's never truly recovered from Waterloo, and I hc that LaCroix has a mental disorder like bipolar disorder or a personality disorder like BPD that makes emotional regulation just. incredibly difficult. Especially if he doesn't know why he feels the way he does, and why other people just don't seem to experience the same thing. And it doesn't help that the growing stress of being a failure in his sire's eyes is always there, nowadays.

- So, if we were thinking about this in game mechanics, he'd have maybe 1 or 2 dots in Oblivion, while having 4+ dots in Potence and Dominate, with better skill variety in those disciplines.

- And Sebastian was sort of set up to fail: the first decades of his life were probably spent being told he was going to do well, he was going to be the perfect successor to his sire's legacy. And he was encouraged for each advancement he made. But then the rug got pulled out from under him when his sire's quiet pride became bitterness and anger towards him, because he couldn't master Oblivion and his moods were erratic. It's just something you can't do: hyping someone up and then suddenly changing your demeanour towards them for the worse, esp if you're in a position of power over them. It just tells them that your friendship and regard are conditional, and those conditions just aren't something Sebastian can meet, especially since his desperation and stress only makes his mood swings worse.

- But I do think some aspects of Oblivion bring him comfort: like Shadow Cloak acting as a sort of 'escape' from other people's prying eyes. Lasombra seek power, and Sebastian finds his own kind of power in controlling how/if people can see him.

- Following his failings, Sebastian is still a terrifying figure in LA: his Potence is only stronger when he channels his anger through it, and his Dominate is more subtle than the Ventrue know it as. Thing is, he was groomed to be someone in power, a ruthless political leader meant as the king piece on a chess board. The one that sat in the tower and waited for their underlings to manage the empire. But he’s just. Not suited for that. He’s better as the saboteur, the spy, the watcher. His low self-esteem, hidden by a smokescreen of arrogance etc, is a result of his upbringing, so who knows if Lasombra LaCroix will ever find his niche

- I think Ming Xiao would probably see that in him, she’s an intelligent leader and considered just about every option and outcome when the Lasombra offered an alliance between the Kuei-jin and Sabbat. Under Andrei’s nose, of course.

that’s all i have right now, but thank you for asking, and thank you for reading! not too sure how comprehensible this is, just got off work lmao

shadowy boi, many issues, bless

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