#dont look for me

[joifee]

Fanart for the fan fic ashes by @darubyprincxx

i hope you like it - more to the thought process down below

So this is the end scene from chapter 8; I did cut like two lines of dialog because i thought the panel with pix looked better with less text. For the clothing design i looked at an older post daruby made about what they wear. I was tempted to include own headcanons that i have about gem and fwhip (aka dragon features etc) but i decided against it, i mean its fanart of fanfic so yeah. give the fanfic a read its very well written. It has moments of suspense, of quietness and alot to think about. Some scenes may not be good for everyone, but daruby does give some warnings so you might be prepared. also i just adore genfics and its something else to read besides the shipping fanfics i usually read. I am normally not good with reading about arguments, angst and the themes in this story; but i am happy that i still read all anyways and i enjoy it so far^^ I chose this scene because it did immediatly jump in my head - i had other scenes as well in my mind but i wasnt really able to make a pic out of it (also i am not good at drawing bears or animals - those are my drawing weakness)

Anyways i hope you like it and check out the fanfic. (probably will try, in future if i draw more fanart for fanfics or else to write a text below)

#ashes au #fanart #empires smp #pixlriffs #geminitay #fwhip #comic #fanart of fanfic #joifeeart #my art #i am weirdly always embarressed when i draw fanart for other artists so please #be gentle with me #i gonna go stand in a field or so #dont look for me #ahhhhhhh #i am a fan

[argarock]

imagine if you were lying in bed, about to fall asleep irl... then you heard the minecraft digging / block pick up sound coming from your walls. and it was getting closer.

#minecraft #mine #craft #im in your walls #dont look for me #funny #dig #digging #sleep #nightmare #scary #bed

[mydairpercabeth]

just saw the most heartbreaking annabeth take from ep 3

#brb gonna go violently sob in the corner #MINIBETH #MY BABY #SHE JUST WANTS THEM TO LIKE HER #SHES TRYING #PLEASE DONT LOOK AT ME WHILE A CRY #annabeth chase #percy jackson the lightning thief #percy jackon and the olympians #percy jackson #pjo #pjo tv #pjo tv show #percy series #percabeth #pjo series #LITTLE DOES SHE KNOW SHES THE MOST LOVED GIRL EVER

[nonebinary-leftbeef]

DEVASTATING the lyric you've been mishearing is better than the real one

#i've been listening to icarus by bastille #and for some reason my brain fills in 'this is how it feels to take a fall' as 'this is how it feels to take off all your skin' #and like fuck man #and I KNOW that’s technically not a misheard lyric but my post my rules cope #anyway my line now #also probably phrased this poorly but its ok #im allowed to be incomprehensible #as a treat #and then fuckin #from we sink by of monsters and men #the original line was 'please look away dont look at me' #and i kept hearing it as 'please learn a way to look at me' #anyway #shoving this post in the queue but please be aware that i am writing it very late at night #q

[churroach]

Full of Desires

#dungeon meshi #dungeon meshi fanart #dungeon meshi manga spoilers #dungeon meshi spoilers #its really just cause of the outfit #farcille #marcille donato #im still surprised this came out of my hands tbh #im not normal about her #curse you dunmeshi for making me fall for the white girl #but god #she looked so good in that fit #i dont understand whyvthe other characters shat on it smh #falin wouldve loved it tho #this drawing is for the gays and theys btw #for the sapphics #lets go lesbians #ok ill shut up now

[inkskinned]

because sometimes there are invisible tests and invisible rules and you're just supposed to ... know the rule. someone you thought of as a friend asks you for book recommendations, so you give her a list of like 30 books, each with a brief blurb and why you like it. later, you find out she screenshotted the list and send it out to a group chat with the note: what an absolute freak can you believe this. you saw the responses: emojis where people are rolling over laughing. too much and obsessive and actually kind of creepy in the comments. you thought you'd been doing the right thing. she'd asked, right? an invisible rule: this is what happens when you get too excited.

you aren't supposed to laugh at your own jokes, so you don't, but then you're too serious. you're not supposed to be too loud, but then people say you're too quiet. you aren't supposed to get passionate about things, but then you're shy, boring. you aren't supposed to talk too much, but then people are mad when you're not good at replying.

you fold yourself into a prettier paper crane. since you never know what is "selfish" and what is "charity," you give yourself over, fully. you'd rather be empty and over-generous - you'd rather eat your own boundaries than have even one person believe that you're mean. since you don't know what the thing is that will make them hate you, you simply scrub yourself clean of any form of roughness. if you are perfect and smiling and funny, they can love you. if you are always there for them and never admit what's happening and never mention your past and never make them uncomfortable - you can make up for it. you can earn it.

don't fuck up. they're all testing you, always. they're tolerating you. whatever secret club happened, over a summer somewhere - during some activity you didn't get to attend - everyone else just... figured it out. like they got some kind of award or examination that allowed them to know how-to-be-normal. how to fit. and for the rest of your life, you've been playing catch-up. you've been trying to prove that - haha! you get it! that the joke they're telling, the people they are, the manual they got- yeah, you've totally read it.

if you can just divide yourself in two - the lovable one, and the one that is you - you can do this. you can walk the line. they can laugh and accept you. if you are always-balanced, never burdensome, a delight to have in class, champagne and glittering and never gawky or florescent or god-forbid cringe: you can get away with it.

you stare at your therapist, whom you can make jokes with, and who laughs at your jokes, because you are so fucking good at people-pleasing. you smile at her, and she asks you how you're doing, and you automatically say i'm good, thanks, how are you? while the answer swims somewhere in your little lizard brain:

how long have you been doing this now? mastering the art of your body and mind like you're piloting a puppet. has it worked? what do you mean that all you feel is... just exhausted. pick yourself up, the tightrope has no net. after all, you're cheating, somehow, but nobody seems to know you actually flunked the test. it's working!

aren't you happy yet?

#almost wrote the champagne line as ''effervescent'' but legit could not write it without saying ''effervescent like a snail'' #ah tumblr... #writeblr #warm up #idk . having trouble writing rn #ps i don't like to talk about it . it is my medical information. but before you ask. yes this is about being on the spectrum #i really don't like when ppl make my writing about how im [whatever ID]. i want it to ring true for the people who it rings true for #i don't want it to be like ''awwwww look at this person!!! she's the EXCEPTION!!! :)" ..... #no.... not really..... #idk something gross happens whenever i admit to certain conditions and i turn into like inspiration p*rnography #like yes they actually let us use keyboards these days #furthermore i just... dont feel comfortable talking about this part of me. i had too bad of a childhood. adhd is one thing... #this one im like. still coming to terms with. which is like. my own journey. #idk. just please be kind. some things are more private than others. this one feels private to me. #i do not know how to help others w/this . and i do not know how to help myself. i will talk about it if im ever ready. idk if that will #actually ever happen #ty in advance i love u im kissing you we are kissing somewhere on the spectrum

[bloodmoonskies]

Self sabotaging! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

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Fucking hate my brain

#twice in one week #fucking shit #ugh #idk #dont look for me #down the rabbit hole #pay no mind #thoughts #hiding in the void #don't look for me #i can be so fucking stupid #and slow #just #oyyyy

[july-19th-club]

seriously have been thinking about this all night long. call me autistic but the fact that 90% of workplaces the point is not to get your work done and then be done doing it but to instead perform an elaborate social dance in which you find something to do even when you're done doing everything you need to do in order to show your fellow workers that you, too, are Working . because you are at Work . disgusting why cant we all agree that if there is no work immediately to be done. we just dont do anything

#i personally like to not be doing things constantly at all times. it stresses me out #i know there are ppl who thrive on cosntant activity #but me i like to chill out. #and the problem then becomes that i only ACTIVELY remember to do work and Find More Work To Do when im stressed #at the thought that others might want to see me working #if im ever relaxed i just dont look for stuff to do #catch 22 of modern work culture which permeates even ostensibly noncapitalist structures like public libraries #for instance: will it really kill anybody if the books get shelved by me now after a very busy day? #or shelved tomorrow morning by. well probably me since i'll be the one at the desk #not in the slightest #but it was work that wasnt being immediately done by me. therefore it was incorrect behavior #that i failed to identify because my instinct is to relax when not immediately presented with a Situation #this got me labeled as 'having no initiative' by my dad from a very early age #and even as an adult i still feel like im a child with no initiative

[arataka-reigen]

#yes humans are a fantasy race what abt it #this is 100% inspired by dungeon meshi. as would be obvious to anyone who knows me. but i put some of the races we dont get on dunmeshi. #like fair folk #entertain me with this please. im bored and looking for attention. #gi talks #polls #fair folk #fantasy creature #goblincore #cottagecore #1 #1k #b

[bamsara]

Forgive. Forgive. Forgive.

#hmmm #trod au #the rehabilitation of death #cult of the lamb #cotl the lamb #cotl narinder #cotl the one who waits #cotl shamura #tw blood? #tw horror #doodles #may or may not be au canon compliant dont look at me #who wants a lammy lammy lammy

[wild-moss-art]

I know they say amnesia is a bad trait in d&d/ttrpgs but in my most recent campaign I made a character who was voluntarily memory wiped for magical powers and gave my dm permission to make up a backstry that I don't even know. So we show up in this town and get intercepted by a bunch of gangsters who were like "heyyy there's our lawyer with no conscience!" and my character is like "well i still dont have a conscience, how hard can law be?" and that's how we started the ace attorney plotline

#my ocs #if u know what time zone im in dont look at me i cant sleep #d&d

[doglikecadaver]

So like… do you guys think women want him… fish fear him???

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#delicious in dungeon #dungeon meshi #dungeonmeshi #dungeon meshi fanart #laios touden #laios dungeon meshi #laios fanart #chilchuck #chilchuk tims #chilchuk dungeon meshi #chilchuck fanart #women fear me fish want me😥 #sorry guys im ngl i have no clue how a fishing rod looks dont look at his hand

[argarock]

they need to make suction cups out of whatever the last piece of ravioli in a can is made of- those things are fucking magnetic i swear to god

#ravioli #food #funny #im in your walls #dont look for me #can #chef boyardee #the heat death of the universe

[theoldkyokodied]

This bloodweave art dump has it all: The price of devotion, the serenity of simple touches, cat to cat communication and iasip redraws with slightly altered dialogue

#bloodweave #astarion x gale #gale x astarion #bg3 #baldur's gate 3 #gale dekarios #astarion ancunin #the bw server knows most of these already diakjdhkjkfhksk #i had exams. i still have to write one but after that… i will be a free man once more. ready to draw (hopefully) #i actually have more iasip redraws wips. yes i have recently started to rewatch it. dont look at me

[irradiatedsnakes]

i didnt mean for this to blow up and of course there’s some dumbass comments on it which is annoying as hell. which is why im appending it with my mob psycho furry and pokemon art thank you

also transmeds go fuck yourselves

#look me in the eyes not every trans person you draw has to be post hormones post surgery post everything #plenty of trans people dont do certain or all aspects of medical transition in the first place #and tons would like to in the future but havent yet

[pawthko]

Well-Worn Hair Band: An old, worn, simple hair band. Its color has long faded, but it still has some life left in it. Wearing it in your hair makes you sentimental about times past. 

#tears of the kingdom #totk #totk spoilers #tears of the kingdom spoilers #totk link #botw link #botw champions #botw #breath of the wild #tloz #totk fanart #botw fanart #zelda #my art #dont look at me.... i clearly had a normal reaction to finding this