#disorderposting

[fencesandfrogs]

Starting a new med is like. I’m on drugs dot com making sure I know everything about it. I’m reading the reviews. Literally no information I get about it will change my actions or impact me in any way but I can’t stand not knowing.

#mine #disorderposting #ya boy is getting an ATypical AntiPsychotic #which my mom has thought I could use for a while #but I think it made sense to experiment w Wellbutrin first #bc bupropion has a good track record in pwADHD #and also it has a very good side effect profile

[mallowstep]

I have class in seven hours

#mine #disorderposting #kinda #more like ‘things to bring up in therapy’ #lmao #anyway #sadly I think it’s actually #Just Leave #but it’s my escape fantasy and that means I get to steal the cats #i mean freyja’s my cat #she loves me most

[so-far-frogs-and-oscar]

I'd like to ask neurodivergent people for advice (as tumblr is my safe space). I have great relationship with myself for some time, but one thing still bothers me. As a neurodivergent person myself, I often feel lonely, isolated, alienated etc. because I take a lot of things literally. I know it's not my fault. But I'm often scared because others may get tired of it and/or think I'm dumb. Recently, I've noticed this more and more in my daily interactions and it worries me a lot. I've spent the last few months at home, so that probably influenced my social interactions as well. I don't want to be perceived as someone who cannot be joked with etc. Personally, I consider myself rational person, but my neurodiversity doesn't always make me feel like that and I still care about it. I wouldn't like to be perceived badly and let the people down with me. It's the only thing about my neurodiversity that I can't control a little bit. Do you have any ways to do it?

#neurodivergent #neurodiverse stuff #nd #neurodiversity #neurodivergencies #adhd #add #advice #question #problem #help #ask #health #friendship #relationship #social issues #marvel #audhd #disorderposting

[missjeedx]

Stress.

18:49

Mein ganzer Körper steht unter Strom. Panik bahnt sich ihren Weg durch meine Adern. Ich verkrafte nicht noch eine Attacke. Nicht noch einen Zusammenbruch. Ich unterdrückt die Gedanken. Alle Gedanken, denn jeder enthält etwas, dass ich jetzt gerade vergessen muss. Etwas, an das ich nicht denken darf. Kann. Will. Oder soll? Muss ich die Gedanken zu lassen? Soll ich sie zulassen? Verschwinden sie dann?

19:14

Ich gehe duschen. Mit Kleidung, denn den Anblick von mir kann ich nicht mehr ertragen.

19:47

Schlechte Idee. Ganz Schlecht. Das Duschen meine ich. Ich verfing mich in meinen Gedanken, endlos, übermannt von Schuld und Selbsthass. Ich hätte schwören können, dass es eine Stunde war … mindestens. Eine Stunde, in der ich unter dem brennenden Wasser stand. Den Kopf gesenkt und in Trance, während das Wasser von meinem Kopf zu gleich über Nacken und Gesicht läuft. Die Hände in ständiger Bewegung, durch meine Haare fahrend, als ob sie etwas darin zu würden. Ob mir die Haare ausfallen, wenn ich so weiter mache? Schade wär es ja, ich mag sie. Sie verdecken mit ihrer Länge einen großen Teil von mir. Von meinem hässlichen Körper…

20:10

Ich liege in meinem Bett. Versuche mich abzulenken. Neben mir ein Physikbuch über Quantenmechanik. Nicht dass ich es vorhätte jemals zu lesen, aber es hat etwas an sich. Physik meine ich. Die Erklärung von allem auf so logischer Basis. Alles ist damit so einfach, irgendwie.

20:14

Ablenken klappt super. Nicht.

Mein Kopf erstellt mal wieder Listen mit allem, was ich noch zu tun habe. Allem, was ich schaffen muss. Am besten noch heute Abend. Jetzt. Sonst ist keine Zeit mehr. Sonst schaffe ich das nicht. Aber hey, lass uns lieber faul sein, damit wir uns morgen noch mehr hassen können. Klingt doch super. Nicht.

#angst #stress #disorderposting

[mentallystill]

the greatest challenge I’ve ever faced... trying to get one specific alter to weigh in on something that I think about literally every waking minute! I get it, the thought is stored in the me, but it would be great if it just took Five Seconds to think about it ok.

but like, we ALL do this. Can we get an alert system that will sense when someone is fronting to tell us to do the fucking thing????

#disorderposting

[emptyenda]

worst symptom is low blood pressure & poor circulation. if i take a hot shower ill fall over, so can i take a cold shower?? NO because i will turn PURPLE. so i have to take medium showers. 🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄

#disorderposting

[endeus]

it doesn't feel like i should feel like this.

#vent art #disorderposting

[neverlessonlyblessed]

realizing that some of my depression and mental illness has directed me to living my life in a masculine way. Very direct and to the point. Focusing on functionality rather than beauty and joy.

Functionally there is nothing wrong with the way I dress. I have clothes on. But what a masculine way of looking at things. I’m not taking the time to love my body, my skin. To adorn myself with accessories. But doing that takes effort, and I don’t have energy. So, I choose functionality.

But now that I’m in a place where my meds are working, I feel like my life is turning around. I can find the extra time to spare to concentrate on myself and the vision I choose to be.

#never less only blessed #disorderposting #don’t mean to offend anyone with the way I’m viewing masculinity #feminine #back to femininity #back to joy

[ohmehohmai]

https://www.tumblr.com/blog/view/ohmehohmai/687504962869133312 OP is the beautiful person, it's his own videos on his own tumblr. He is also on youtube, as hybrid calisthenics, and on twitter, as hcalisthenics, and tiktok as hybridcalisthenics, and I'm 100% sure I've talked to him on reddit, but I don't remember his name there

Wow how did i miss that? Thank you so much for telling me! i followed&& i’m going to follow him on YouTube. This is EXACTLY the type of fitness influencer the world (and sad little people like me) need.

#anon answered #thank you #disorderposting #recovery

[toesuckler]

i <3 peculiar, eccentric or unusual thinking patterns

#ollie rambles #stpd #i should have a disorderposting tag #no i already have my rambles tag. thats basically a disorder #i am a disordered person not a purrson w disorders

[fencesandfrogs]

Since apparently this is a thing. Please tag any “RSD checks” or things of that nature. RSD can be triggered by validation.

#mine #disorderposting #adhd #rsd #adhd rsd #I am no longer discussing this it’s only RSD if you have ADHD #otherwise it’s Something Else #RSD is neurologic which means the normal therapies don’t touch it #understanding that is essential

[mallowstep]

me: i don't have memory loss

also me: i don't remember replying to those comments but it looks like everything has been ticked off

#mine #disorderposting

[panthera-tigristigris]

Ooc) btw apologies for the erratic disorderposting mod is having A Time so if you u dont wanna see the mental illness stuff you might wanna steer clear of my blog for a bit 🫶 keep yourselves safe love u!!

#I honestly half the time use this to vent by projecting. So it may get a little fucked #I doubt itll ever be anything beyond bsd standards BUT if it ever did i would tag that #Im just ughshshshsgsgsg trying not to kill myself!! All we strive for. We're good #Ooc #Suicide mention #<- tagging cuz its irl and not rp

[halomtano]

Ok well i have a personal blog to disorderpost now if anyone wants et

#im legally barred from speaking about system shit on main

[mentallystill]

like idk about you but being a system is pretty fucking cool. Me and my little guys, who are also me but not. Realizing that I have someone who also lives in my body who I care about immensely (because we’re fortunate enough to all get along very well) makes it so much easier to take care of myself. Can’t find the will to eat? Cool, I’ll just feed Adder. Yes, that means I will technically consume food. Yes, this works.

#disorderposting #-Nik

[lazarus---rising]

no more disorderposting 2night i need to keep this shit to myself tbh