#disordered eating implications?

[unearthlycat]

jumping on this bandwagon i guess

#rain world

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🌀 trans-scension 🔁 goldenjetfish

✨ yeekoftheweek Follow

[Image: Navigation directions for a road with a roundabout. An alternate route goes directly through the roundabout. It is labeled "if you;re not a coward ;)"]

got this from my drone nav today

is my iterator fucking okay

👤 herecomestherainagain-deactivated1529700 Go home No Significant Harassment, you're drunk.

🪈 pipe--yard okay im like 99% sure this is fake but i just gotta highlight the audacity of saying "go home" to the guy whose house youre literally driving on top of

🪈 pipe--yard edit: IT'S REAL??!?!

wild-flower-ride-deactivated1532056 void and saints below yall really live like this

📿 guardianknittingneedles-deactivated1534459 Happy one solar-cycle anniversary to the drunk No Significant Harassment post

🪱 cutest-lil-pipe-beast Follow i've only seen this post in screenshots and i still can't believe it's real

🟩 nsh-heritage-posts Certified No Significant Harassment Heritage Post

#rule of laughter #happy 7 sol-cycle anniversary to the drunk nsh post everyone #tumbling stones heritage posts

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☁️ fourteenblueclouds

[image description: Two painterly images of the sky, as viewed from a Metropolis balcony on Five Pebbles during a dry spell. The first shows the sky, uninterrupted save for the spires of distant communications towers. The other, a single figure leaned over the railing of a balcony, looking out over the cityscape.]

the summers up on pebbles were always the worst, but as the end approaches i'm coming to miss them

#original art #artists of tumbling stones #my artwork #painting

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🗡️ nine-sharp-stones it really feels like everyone is ascending these days. this place is a ghost town. i just wish i could join them but i know i'll never be enough. there's too much of me. if i go it'll twist me into something i don't want to be. and all i can do is be afraid.

i miss my parents. i miss everyone. my best friend ascended last cycle. we couldn't be friends anymore because i was "holding them back".

i just wish i could have gone with them.

#vent #do not reblog #delete later

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🌀 trans-scension 🔁 halo-of-seven-suns

⛆ raindeerstampede-deactivated1534012 It still gets me every time that even living up here with an abundance of water, we choose to maintain a system of pipes to ensure access to it.

I have to pay a water bill.

It rains so hard every night my balcony has a hands-breadth of standing water when the shields unroll in the morning.

Does nobody see the contradiction here?

🪻 metropolitanghost Follow op have you ever heard of a drainage system

do you like. realize how nasy that water gets

and you want to DRINK it?

🧃 five-pebbsi-official Follow Why drink rainwater when you could be drinking Five Pebbsi, the official drink of the Five Pebbles Metropolitan Zone?

[five-pebbsi-advertisement.jpg]

Quench your thirst and contract 0 intestinal parasites! None!

🪈 pipe--yard

#wow thanks five pebbsi official brand account that doesn't sound suspicious at all

#thank you five pebbles official you sound very trustworthy #i am sure your drink contains nothing else that would be of concern

#what an incredibly trustable source! i am sure if i perform a search query for five pebbsi i will definitely not find anything concerning on the ingredient list!

🖸 pleading-intellects-hot-robot-bod

#it has WHAT IN IT

i would like to wish everyone finding out about the ingredients of five pebbsi from this post my Deepest Condolences but also, Rest In Pieces

#rule of laughter

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🪨 one-cup-of-pebbles 🔁 memes-to-make-you-ascend

[screencap: a greyscale photo of a cup of gravel tea, with two twigs artfully arranged on a plate. Caption reads, "Working on denying the fourth urge this week! #fourthurge #gluttony #graveltea #dietarypurge #releasethe4"]

these guys have got to be stopped

#i am losing my mind over this

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💬 wondering-ottoman 🔁 leviafantastic

🌘 lingeringluna Follow

[Image: a shiny chitinous box containing unidentifiable bluish-white mush.]

living block just got the new ration shipment today. what the [2].

🌘 lingeringluna this is what they feed the iterator technicians i think

👤 beyondthewinds-deactivated1528045 Technical side of Tumbling Stones, can you confirm?

🧮 sixgrains-official Follow yes i am a real iterator technician and i eat this every day,, for my lunch and for dinner i eat neuron flies. hope this helps

👤 beyondthewinds-deactivated1528045 Thank you, definitely official account of famous iterator architect Six Grains of Gravel, Mountains Abound

#this is an old and humorously meant post i know but… #but no really what?! #i knew it was bad for the stragglers but i had no idea… #at least once we all ascend it'll be a bygone worry i suppose… #tw gluttony

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🌀 trans-scension 🔁 halo-of-seven-suns

⛓️ atopthespires becoming an iterator technician with high ambitions but i'm incredibly clumsy, introduced to them on the first day of the job and i am simply so charming they cannot help but fall in love with me for "research purposes" and i become their specialist little technician attending their every whim despite being the least qualified individual to do so <3

⛓️ atopthespires some of you are very confused what i mean by this, so let me make it clear: i want to [U.] the iterator

⛓️ atopthespires

#op do you understand that the puppet is just a simulacrum of a body? #they are much vaster than your reproduction-addled mind can concieve of i promise you that

the simulacrum being puppeted by a vast inconcievable machine is part of the appeal. whats not clicking

⛓️ atopthespires

#you realize the councils would literally throw you into the void fluid vats for that right #if you don't get excommunicated first

might i introduce you to this Wondrous New Skill called: lying

#rule of laughter #heresy tw #not safe for worshippers

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#rain world #rw ancients #fake tumblr posts #suicide (implied) #religion (fictional) #also uh #disordered eating implications? #not 100% sure how to tag this #rw ancients are... something #also yes those are fake image descriptions/captions #i would love to make those paintings someday but i do Not have the time or skills for it orz #does this count as fanfiction? #fj.txt #i had way too much fun making this post and coming up with usernames lmao #EDIT: tumblr hid this post for having too many links i think oopsies! #does this show up in the tag now?

[uncanny-tranny]

There's this idea I see sometimes that you can only like food insofar as you use it as a tool to satiate your hunger, but honestly? It's okay to like food not for how it serves you but for what it feels like and means.

It's okay to like food because it tastes good, because it reminds you of your childhood and your culture, because it reminds you of beautiful nostalgic memories. It's okay to like food. Food is such an integral part of the human experience. The more we minimize food as "solely a tool," the less connected we are to not only food but to ourselves because so often, people tie their bodies in with food and how it does or does not serve them.

#recovery #food #disordered eating tw #eating disorder tw #(just for the implication) #something i am trying to internalize while recovering #the idea that food is solely a tool personally harmed me because it stripped food down to something i must sufficiently earn #but right now i am cooking spaghetti because i want to taste it and because while i am not hungry i know i have not eaten enough to be okay #and i'm going to learn to be happy about it or hell at the very least indifferent and unafraid by it #i will have done more damage to my physical and mental wellbeing by ignoring my body than ever eating for the sake of tasting something good #insert that one jack black gif from school of rock where he says '...because i LIKE TO EAT' #making my italian ancestors happy by eating spaghetti but pissing them off to seeing red by snapping the spaghetti in half to cook it

[chthonic-cassandra]

I know I make this post all the time, but dear gods, having sufficient access to food is amazing.

#perhaps one day the reality of it will actually stick #personal #food #disordered eating #(by implication)

[artekai]

empty by choice

#vent #vent cw #vent art #negative #oc: fross #oc tag #deni's art #deni's stuff #i WAs gonna line it but then i realized nothing polished would express the feeling like the construction lines do. #not sure if the implication is obvious or not but uhhhh just in case #disordered eating #disordered eating cw #ed cw #ask to tag #i don't know how to tag that but hopefully that's enough #i had a whole essay about this prepared but uhhhh just know it can also be about many other things

[godofsmallthings]

i've been thinking a lot about the scene that was removed from the anti-hero mv lately and the way public opinion and outrage has the power to make permanent changes to art. the obvious comparison to make is when lizzo and beyoncé took the word 'spaz' out of their songs last year after being criticized for it by disability activists. and like, regardless of where you stand on these incidents, it’s interesting and kind of disheartening how quickly these changes happened, particularly in taylor’s case where there was no dialogue between her and her fanbase (i thought lizzo’s tweet about her similar situation was a good way to give an explanation/apology and continue the conversation, although i fully understand why taylor wouldn’t want to bring more attention to a scene that depicts a disorder she has struggled with for years). a less serious example of this is when taylor removed the ‘hey kids, spelling is fun!’ lyric from ME! after fans called the song childish (even though i’d always thought of them as theatrical and tongue-in-cheek). it’s not a new thing or necessarily a symptom of the internet or cancel culture either--she’s been doing this since 2006 when she took the “that’s fine i’ll tell mine you’re gay” lyric out of picture to burn.

obviously, all of these instances are about huge pop stars with millions of dollars and hundreds of employees surrounding their business. their job, first and foremost, is to make music that will resonate with be consumed by large swaths of the general public, so of course it makes sense to take the safe route and not upset large groups of people. i don’t think a smaller artist would be as reluctant to fight back on changes to their work, regardless of what they were and the impact of them. they also likely wouldn’t have the people and connections to make these things disappear from published videos and distributed songs so quickly and quietly. anyway, this isn’t about my personal stance on any of these situations, but more about the power online movements have to permanently alter art and culture. is it better to preserve the original material as an example of learning/what not to do even if it hurts people? where does the line between advocacy and censorship lie?

#was thinking about this All Night so i just woke up and wrote this sjdfhksdjhf #i think it's really funny/ironic that i initially reacted in a lot of anger and defensiveness to the mv situation #so the next day...i deleted all my posts about it! #we are not immune! #anyway i ultimately do think the mv scene shouldn't have been removed #(eating disorders just. are fatphobic by nature) #but i can see the other pov and it's a delicate thing #so my intention isn't to drag this discourse up again #i just find the broader conversation and implications really interesting #would love to hear other thoughts <3 #vi is typing...

[caseyarchived]

thomas   weatherall.     he/him.     cis   male.      ›      spotted   at   the   met   steps   ,   casey   rutherford   ,   most   likely   listening   to   if   so   by   atlas   genius  with   their   airpods   pro   .   the   twenty   four   year   old   gained   quite   a   reputation   ,   known   to   be  - closed   off  yet   + amiable   to   anyone   who   knows   them   .   you'll   easily   spot   them   when   you   hear   about   overworking   and   restless   nights   ,   vegan   recipes   ,    being   forced   to   become   an   adult   when   you   were   just   a   kid   ,   playing   the   piano   at   three   am   ,   followed   by   dark   woods   by   joseph   abboud   .   latest   nepoupdates   article   talks   about   our   theories   on   why   casey   rutherford   shaved   his   head   and   eyebrows   that   one   time   (   are   you   currently   doing   okay   casey?   )  ,   but   i   guess   any   reputation   is   good   reputation   . 

basic stats ;

⟶ full name: casey anthony rutherford  ⟶ nicknames: usually just goes by casey  ⟶ three things he likes: passion fruit boba tea, australian accents, dreamcatchers ⟶ three things he dislikes: hospitals, his father, the idea of anyone bullying his little brother ⟶ gender: cis male ⟶ height: 5 ‘ 9 ⟶ age: 24  ⟶ birthday: february 14, 1999  ⟶ zodiac: aquarius sun, virgo moon, capricorn ascendant   ⟶ right handed or left handed: right handed   ⟶ eye color: dark brown ⟶ hair color: black ⟶ piercings and tattoos: no piercings, a tattoo of the name ‘lukas’ on his left wrist ( little brother’s name ) ⟶ languages spoken: swedish and english ⟶ sexuality / romantic orientation: bisexual / biromantic ⟶ place of birth: brisbane, australia ⟶ last five songs listened to: change ( in the house of flies ) by deftones, stand by me by oasis, lesser things by barcelona, broken by lund, stadium arcadium by red hot chili peppers ⟶ five aesthetics: restless nights attempting to write, crying out of stress, a smile so kind and warm it can cure it all, the best kind of hugs, warm vegan cupcakes ⟶ character inspo: lexi howard from euphoria, maeve wiley from sex education, malakai mitchell from heartbreak high

background story ;

casey was the first born son of corey rutherford and amalie peterson in brisbane, an accident if you must, as his parents never intended to have him. his mother lived in sweden but was in australia visiting some relatives when she met corey, one thing lead to another, and nine months later, casey came along

his mother was infatuated with his father, while his father liked his mother, but not in the way that she liked him. regardless, his family forced him to marry amalie to give casey a ‘stable’ life, but it was anything but that

growing up, casey really loved his mother. the same thing couldn’t be said for his father. from a fairly young age, he got the feeling that his father considered him the reason that he was ‘forced’ to stay with his mother, treated him like garbage, making casey strongly dislike him from early on

he was emotionally abusive, to him and to his mother. casey didn’t know why she stayed with him. things were cool when it was just him and his mother, but as soon as his father came along, the vibe shifted

things only worsened when amalie became pregnant again, with casey’s little brother, lukas, who was five years younger than casey. from that moment on, casey was determined to defend his little brother from whatever emotional abuse his father could even think to throw at him

but when lukas grew a little older, they knew that he was different. he didn’t like to talk much and whenever he did, it was avoiding eye contact. he didn’t like to be touched often, he had melt downs, and well, after several tests and doctor visits later, lukas was diagnosed with autism

from that moment on, things drastically changed. his father didn’t know how to handle the news and ended up leaving. his mother didn’t have much in australia without him, so she moved back to stockholm with casey and lukas when casey was ten and lukas was five, where thankfully, lukas got the treatment he deserved

casey thought this move was for the better, but things only seemed to worsen from that moment on. his mother was severely depressed over what his father did and on some days, refused to even get out of bed

casey was forced to become an adult when he was just a kid himself. clean up the house, look after his little brother and mother, it was really hard for him, and as much as he loved his mother, she only added onto the baggage he felt forced to carry

as soon as he was old enough, he had a job. between going to school, working, and practically being the parent in the house, he always lacked sleep, he was always tired, but he swears, he worked really hard than anyone his age, it’s not like he had a choice

it was a lot to deal with, and soon enough, he was finding ways to try and stay up. coffee only worked for so long, even strong shots of espresso became nothing to him. through this desire to try and stay awake during long shifts and school, well, this… this is how he discovered the ‘wonders’ of adderall, through one of his classmates who would sell his prescription to make an extra buck. casey soon realized that it worked perfectly for his dilemma, it kept him going for ages

so this is how he became a frequent customer. it was an unhealthy habit of red bull, adderall, under eating, not sleeping, repeat – he was practically a zombie at one point. this went on for a while. a little over a year of this unhealthy cycle is when it caught up to him, in the worst possible way

! tws for hospitals, eating disorder and stroke ! to be clear, he can’t recall a lot of what happened beforehand. the headache, the dimness in his vision, soon followed by him passing out, are all very faint memories in his head. the thing casey remembers most is waking up in a hospital, and being informed that he had a stroke… a stroke. he was also told he had malnutrition and was underweight which was most likely linked to an eating disorder and his abuse of adderall, but he didn’t hear anything else, all he heard was stroke. frankly, he didn’t even think someone his age could have a stroke, it was all really scary news for him. this happened two months before his graduation, and thankfully, he had all the credits needed before this, but he still had to finish school virtually

the aftermath of it all is what sucked the most for him. the therapies, medications and countless check ups even though he swears, he felt fine, the way his family was treating him like he was made of paper or something, even his grandmother, aka his mother’s mother, got involved, which was a huge mess because all she did was blame his mother for dumping all of their problems on casey and causing all this. long story short, but his grandmother didn’t think his mother was mentally well enough to take care of casey and lukas, which wasn’t exactly a lie. after casey’s graduation, they moved with her to her house in new york, which his mother didn’t even fight her on, claiming she had to work on herself

and as much as he didn’t want to admit it because a part of him really missed his mother and he didn’t blame her for what happened, but, casey really liked new york, as much as he wanted to hate it. he felt a lot calmer there, he wasn’t constantly stressed over taking care of his little brother, or his mother, and still finding a way to make ends meet, he was done with high school, eighteen, had everything in his favor, took a gap year but didn’t travel the way other people do, really just focused on his therapies and bettering himself, focused on writing and playing the piano and sundae sundays with his grandmother and little brother, practically became a whole different person ( crazy how not being completely stressed 24/7 can drastically change someone )

he ended up going back to school when he was nineteen, to nyu to be exact, majors in literature because he wants to be a writer, even if it won’t make him much money in the long run

he really had no intention of ever going into the spotlight. even with his first published book heart shaped box ( literally his pride and joy, a horror novel he’s been working on for over three years ), he only made a decent following on social media when his book hit new york’s best seller list, with most of his followers being book nerds which, he was okay with. he just wanted to write and hopefully one day, publish another book. he didn’t care if he made it to the best seller’s list again or not, he just wanted to do something he was passionate about and stay under the radar

anyways, long story short but that under the radar shit doesn’t end up happening when he meets abel in nyu, when he’s twenty one. they date for a little under a year before he says he has to leave and then just… stops answering casey’s texts and calls altogether, whatever, fuck him, is all casey can think. but then people somehow find out they dated and he starts getting all this attention because they used to date and really, he didn’t even know abel had that influencer status, so the attention just annoys him. he feels like he’s worked so hard to even get his first book published and instead of being only recognized for that, he gets recognized for dating a boy, literally… wants to stab himself with a fork

the past two and a half years have just been him working on another novel, and a comic book, illustrated by his little brother, that he has hopes of finishing and hopefully releasing one or the other by next year. now the question is, will people soon enough recognize him for his talent in literature, or will he forever be known as ‘that guys ex boyfriend’?

headcanons ;

he’s a vegan! became one about five months after he had a stroke and has never looked back. his health has gotten a lot better since then, been a vegan for over five years already

casey really doesn’t like entitled people who have just had stuff handed to them and never had to work for anything, so basically... most nepo babies let’s be real. he’s had to work really hard for everything, even getting his book published was hard as hell, and then lots of people recognize him for a guy he dated forever ago rather than his hard work which really, really makes him angry

he isn’t a mean guy, he’s really patient and kind and understanding and will never be rude unless provoked, but if you get him to a certain level of angry, he can literally be the worst person ever. very nice and sweet and people tend to think they can walk all over him because of that, but if you really do something to upset him, he’s like a different person. black and white in that sense if you must because he can go from one extreme to the other, especially if you’re a mean or manipulative person, he see’s right through that shit

he writes about anything, romance, science fiction, fantasy, but his favorite genre is fantasy and horror based. his career claim is similar to joe hill, and his upcoming comic book will basically be the first comic of the ‘locke & key’ series, basically joe hill but modern day

he doesn’t tell people he had a stroke. mostly because he doesn’t want sympathy, but also because he wants to make a new life here. no one really knows about his life in sweden. no one really knows about his life before he was eighteen and he likes it that way

doesn’t do anything besides occasionally smoke weed ( boring boy i guess ), mostly out of health but also because he has alcohol intolerance. alcohol, even in small amounts, makes him really sick so he prefers to just avoid it, obviously would never go to serious drugs because that incident he went through scarred him

he see’s his little brother frequently, he’s literally the illustrator of the comics he plans on publishing soon enough. he has a really big soft spot for little kids, especially if they have special needs. he would probably be an amazing dad if he ever decides to go that route

he loves music, especially old school music. the idea for heart shaped box literally came to him when he was listening to heart shaped box by nirvana. he has a very old soul, literally owns a type writer and a vinyl player

he has a female dog named opal, named after his favorite australian stone, opal. the dog is a goldendoodle, he loves this dog with his entire heart, she is two

the rumor in his app is true. he once was undergoing a mental breakdown so bad, he impulsively shaved his head and eyebrows, it was a true monstrosity. this happened like four months after his break up with abel, so he was around twenty two. thankfully, hair grows back because otherwise... no comment

wanted connections ;

heart shaped box lover: a book lover or horror fanatic who liked his novel and just wants to be his friend, wholesome connection

it’s meant to be, look, we’re both vegans!: simply put, a fellow vegan. watch them go to vegan restaurants together and let each other know about the hottest vegan spots

not your biggest fan: someone who doesn’t like him. could be because they think he’s boring, because they think his book sucked or because they just don’t like him, i’m open to it all

dog sitters: someone who walks their dog at the exact same time as he does, and they’ve just bonded over their pets, bonus if their dogs really like each other

devil on my shoulder: a bad influence, or at least, tries to be because he isn’t easily convinced. a muse who just wants him to let loose

former college friends: someone he went to college with, they could be friends or not

...perhaps something more?: maybe friends with benefits, one night stands, something romantic?

or we can brainstorm!

birthchart ;

#nepofm.intro #stroke tw #drug abuse tw #hospital tw #eating disorder tw #mental illness implication tw #autism tw #emotional abuse tw #i think thats all of them pls ignore how long this took :/ kjfnkjdfnvf

[rosieposiepie]

lol not rutgers medical school proving that BMI is only 50-60% accurate at diagnosing “””obesity””” by comparing BMI scores to DEXA scans and the AMA almost immediately recommending doctors stop using BMI as a measurement in clinical practice

#not tagging this bc i don't wanna #i'm a medical student and i'm salty #obesity as a concept is still pretty poorly understood and implicated medically #but i like to see one of the major metrics that has been responsible for me personally having an eating disorder in middle thru high school #kick the bucket

[shoutyourporpoise]

I am. Thinking about how when I was in freshman year of undergrad I gained weight as many tend to do. Then I had an internship that summer and my mom was *incensed* because she had bought me size 14 pants for work and I had since become a size 16, which at the time was much more difficult to find in stores. I still remember her knitting her brows together after I came out of the fitting room and going “Taar…this can NEVER happen again.”

And now I’m thinking about how I was still wearing those same size 16 work pants YEARS later as a professional in grad school and feeling terrible and pinched and uncomfortable and just absolutely hating my body and going no hey it’s okay I can just. Work out more and maybe cut down on heavy breakfasts. And these’ll stop pinching so much.

And once I moved out of my folks place to live with Andrew and hired that stylist she was like. Very firm that those clothes didn’t fit me and I panicked because that meant I had caused my mom to waste money since I couldn’t keep wearing them. So I said a bunch of stuff about how I’d gained weight bc of the IUD snafu (true) and that once I lost weight I’d be back down to a 16 (false, I would be a smaller 18).

And my stylist was just like. “Then set them aside for now and buy yourself some clothes that fit now. They’ll be waiting for you whenever you get back to that weight.” Which ended up being what I needed to hear because I could treat it as a cute little splurge to make myself comfortable while I waited to go back to a size that in retrospect I had not actually been for like half a decade.

But like. Holy shit buying the correct size for my body as it is is a HUGE self esteem boost. Like I know it’s not a revelation to some people but wearing clothing that actually fits you as intended is FANTASTIC because the focus becomes the clothing as a decorative or functional object rather than your body as a thing unable to fit them correctly. I’m currently taking advantage of a bunch of sales to stock up on workwear now that we’re heading back to the office and it feels SO NICE to wear work pants that fit me instead of the constantly-patched worn-at-the-thighs zombies I’ve been holding on to.

#body image t I guess #eating disorder by implication? #temeritiveRaconteur #this is both about my body and about my mom’s thriftyness #she has clothes she wore like 30 years ago bc she’s stayed roughly the same size #not so with me #furthermore like literally inherently bc of how my body is shaped it wears clothing out in a way that makes patching it uncomfortable at bed #*best

[cyancherub]

Wh??? The pomera dm 30 isn't even that??? Expensive?? What???? My laptop, which I mostly use to read tbh, cost me $500??????? Not a flex btw, at the time buying it was almost painful bc I didnt even have a job or steady income.

Sure, I got it for uni classes originally. But that's fucking irrelevant???? If I want to use it solely to read fanfics it's my own damn money???? Goddamn people will really complain about anything.

Anyways, enjoy your pomera!!! It looks like a lovely writing experience tbh!! I hope it helps you fall even more in love with writing!!! And I'm sure it was money well invested!

yeah, it really is not an outrageous purchase considering i use it to write almost every day! (not just fanfic either, but i don’t even know why anon had to mention that in a condescending way as if it would be a bad thing for me to use it solely for fic? it’s the same w your laptop. it’s your device and you can use it for what you want to use it for!!) but YEAH the pomera is something i budgeted for and i post about it because i think it’s a very useful device that helps me a lot with productivity and it’s fun to write on so i’m excited ab it u know! i don’t do it to brag i talk about it because i love it and i think it’s a great thing for writers. thank you for the nice message IT REALLY DOES do wonders for my writing i love it dearly!!! sending u love!!

#cherub.mail #cherub.anon #i also didn’t appreciate the financial implication anon was making bc . i grew up fucking poor LMAO i used to eat dinner with a #little cardboard box as a table 💕 my dads apartment had rats in the oven and boxes stacked up to #the ceiling because he could only afford to rent a place where other ppl were hoarding stuff 💕 #i was flat broke not even a year ago because i couldn’t work due to a crippling anxiety disorder! #u know jack shit about me <3 #it’s like. fuck u anon. let me enjoy my nice things i worked hard for. 😀 #and enjoy the free fic i put out! lmaooo

[the-paris-of-people]

I WILL NEVER NOT BE MAD ABOUT THE TREATMENT OF ANEESA’S ANOREXIA ON THE SHOW

#tw eating disorder #never have i ever #like honestly really wish the implications of spreading a rumor about someone's incredibly personal

[chaudharis]

welcome to my trace has rumination disorder hc.

#my art #trace #hammond #cominh from someone with rumination disorder btw. i think he has it #he is eating his salad from 2 hrs ago. yum yum! #tw: #emeto #emetophobia #maybe ?? #idk thats kinda whats happening except like. inside. thats the implication

[hauntedbythenarrative]

Strawberry shortcake, Melanie Martinez//Twit, Hwasa//Lalalay, Sunmi//Excerpt from ways of seeing, John Berger//Orange juice, Melanie Martinez

#web weaving #mine #quotes #words #bulimia implication tw #eating disorder tw #orange juice #strawberry shortcake #melanie martinez #male gaze #patriarchy #sexism #beauty #sunmi #lalalay #hwasa #twit #john berger #perception #perception of women #forced beauty #unfairness #society #beauty standards #judgment #misogyny #women body #feminism

[headless-horsepossum]

*me every day beating my own brain with a stick* "it is healthy to like food and eating it is good to grow older you cannot TRULY believe these things for others if you do not also believe them for yourself getting older is countercultural it is punk to gain weight you are fine shut up shut up shut up"

#by which i mean it is my birthday in very few weeks indeed #anyway i am doing my best but it is hard 😭 #disordered eating #<-just by implication and i am Working On It but still

[alexandriteobscuraarchive]

~It doesn't seem like he can eat it all (and the sight would make her stomach turn if she actually had one) but she keeps handing ULAR the food one bite after the other regardless.

He doesn't even ask what it is she's handing to him the broken, broken, broken, oh so terribly broken hjorian merely stuffs whatever lands into his hands into his gaping, slobber slicked maw and begins chewing. He's chewing so fast, in fact, that it's a miracle that he doesn't literally bite the hands that are busy feeding him. Not to mention it was becoming more and more of a temptation with each and every bite.....

"Haha---haha...!" No matter what it was: sweet, sour, bitter, salty, all of it went in without question or complaint---the candy stuck to his teeth in the same as the bone shards did, the blood dripped the same as the juice, the bodies pulled apart just as easy as the the tightest of wrappers---and each bite made ULAR happier than the last. "It's so, so, so good! I've NEVER BEEN THIS HAPPY IN MY WHOLE LIFE...!" How ULAR has the breath or space to talk is beyond him but the hjorian hears his own voice all the same; his mouth still working---and then working faster----as a fresh offering is set into his upheld and shaking hands.

He wasn't hungry anymore---in fact it was as if he'd never been hungry a day in his life---and he couldn't understand why no one wanted to share this with him. Why run around being EMPTY ALL OF THE TIME? Why eat silica gel packets when there was ALL OF THIS WONDERFUL FOOD TO BE HAD...?

"MICHE...! MICHE!!" Her name is surrounded by scraps both wet and dry; some even still twitching and possibly trying to crawl away, as he calls out to her. "You should have some too, MICHE! I'LL SHARE IT WITH YOU!!" And RENE too...! But where was he..? He'd like seeing him this happy so why....? He's holding some out to her already---with the thing in his hands little more than wet, steaming pile that wiggled and squealed---with his now gaping smile splitting what were once soft, rounded features....and then it drops suddenly.

"Oh....wait...." Oh no. Oh no. Oh no. He'd forgotten...! How could he forget something so important...!? He was special. He was a freak. He was---- "I forgot that YOU DON'T EAT, do you? Are you scared? Are there too many choices...?" He really, really, really wants to help her because the thought of one of his only still living friends going hungry made his stomach threaten to turn. "I---I'm sure we'll find something you'll like!! Try some...!" RENE's legs feel like jello and the heaps of 'food' he cradled in his arms feel like they weigh a hundred pounds but he's determined. "Let's eat all of this together, okay? You'll FEEL SO MUCH BETTER ONCE YOU'RE FULL, MICHE!"

#eating disorder tw #eating disorder implication tw #overeating tw #overeating mention tw #cannibalism tw #;;ask response: ic ULAR #;;ask response: with squiggles #anonymous #the last tw is deep in the paint fuckin lore so just...trust me