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((For the morning crowd.))

((I'm making the decision to not share my new url here so if you want to continue interacting with me please contact me privately over discord if you have my info or over on the blog that I have made public and we'll see what we can work out. This is a decision that I don't make lightly (nor do I enjoy doing it) but my mental health is paramount and I'm merely protecting myself.))

#;;ooc: mun muttering

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((I'm making the decision to not share my new url here so if you want to continue interacting with me please contact me privately over discord if you have my info or over on the blog that I have made public and we'll see what we can work out. This is a decision that I don't make lightly (nor do I enjoy doing it) but my mental health is paramount and I'm merely protecting myself.))

#;;ooc: mun muttering #I deserve a better; healthier space no matter the blog #everything else was ignored and I can't see this reaching anyone either but at least I made one last attempt

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((I've chosen a new url but I won't be posting it here until I have everything set up (meaning the blog itself, a promo, etc). If we're friends on discord and you want the url early shoot me a message.))

#;;ooc: mun muttering #that or just message me on cc; this new blog will be mutuals only and etc ofc #might be a bit limited about who I give it to initially; just for mental health reasons but...we'll see

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((I'm going to keep this succinct because if I say everything I want to say I know I'll just end up feeling frustrated (to put it both kindly and lightly) and I, ultimately, want to go forward on a positive, healthy note. That deserves to be the focus and drive rather than any deep seated frustration or upset.

With the exception of one thread (and the applicable tcol threads that are being moved over to my other blog or have been moved already) I'm going to be dropping all interactions here and permanently archiving this blog.

This probably disappoints some of you but I've dealt with all of this long enough. This blog isn't a safe, healthy or good place for me to be in; in all honesty it hasn't been for over a year now, and no matter what I do to express myself, no matter how I try to accommodate others either ic or ooc, no matter what I offer or suggest, no matter who I speak to or how I reach out it just..... doesn't matter. Despite all efforts on my part I've either been ignored or, worse, sent hate message after hate message for reasons I cannot even begin to comprehend. And that's not fair. That's not fair and it never has been fair and I'm tired. I've put up with all of this for far too long when I could be somewhere better instead, like my new blog, or just..... anywhere else besides here. I hate to say that, I really do, but it's true and I should've realized that sooner and maybe I shouldn't of fought so hard, I don't know.

I'm tired of not being listened to and that includes listening to myself and so I'm going to leave and do what's best for me even if it feels a little 'too late' for comfort.

I will continue to rp on this platform (and maybe that's stupid of me; who knows) but I don't know when I'll be making a new variety blog. Creating a new blog from scratch is an incredibly stressful thing for me and I've already had to do exactly that incredibly recently as everyone here knows but..somehow I'll do it. Somehow. I know I'm going to and I know that I'll be musing pretty much all of the characters featured here (like Danny, my eternal beloved bias, he'll undoubtedly still be the face of the blog lol) and I know that I'd like to see some of you there and that I still want to write with you it just..... can't be here. Not anymore. I don't know when I'll make a new blog but... hopefully it'll be soon. It'll be a completely different url and such, I can tell you that much. I'll also be even more severe about who I follow and who I don't for reasons I..... shouldn't need to go into if anyone has been paying attention.

My inbox is completely disabled and my IMs are disabled as much as they can be so please don't attempt to contact me here. If you want to interact/write with me in the meantime you can find me on my other rp blog @constellationcrowned and if you want to chat ooc, potentially get a link to the new blog whenever I make it, etc, that's what discord is for. If you already have my info that's great and if you don't (and so long as we're mutuals) you can ask me for it privately on the appropriate blog. If I'm slow to respond to people regardless of connection please don't be offended and understand that this is incredibly hard for me to do, process, etc, but it's necessary if I want to not only continue writing but to continue enjoying writing on the whole. I have my tcol blog to help with that, thank fuck, but I still love the muses here and want to write them too.

It was fun while it lasted and I hope to see some of you on my new blog (and if not that's okay too, I understand if there are hard feelings or things you can't reconcile and I won't hold that against anyone) and you know where to find me in the meantime. I'll update this pinned to something more general/concise whenever I have things set up. I hope things go better next time.))

#;;ooc: pinned post #long post #negative tw #i doubt that people will even read this post but... ultimately this is for me #and taking care of myself on top of attempting to still do what I love should be a good thing

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((I, truly and legitimately, need reasons against me just deleting this blog and none of that vague, impersonal 'oh people might miss you!' or 'but you're great!' shit either because generalizing things doesn't help and I'm stressing this point not to be mean but because it already feels like I'm wholly ignored and that people don't care enough to actually involve themselves, comment, care, and whatever else directly. This has been the prevailing feeling for months now and while I know it's mostly my anxiety and depression twisting things to be something unrecognizable it's not the only thing or reason (nor is it an entirely baseless feeling) and I'm incredibly worn down by it all.

I can only do so much under my own steam and I've finally reached a threshold that I cannot reconcile so I'm asking for help even if you just like....gush or something. I'll take fuckin anything at this point, so long as you don't hide when you do it and be genuine. Do it for me, if you please. It's not much to ask for and I rarely ask for such things, especially in such a personal and honest manner.))

#;;ooc: mun muttering #negative tw #this is basically a creative cry for help ffff so if you love whatever I do just..... tell me earnestly; help me remember what I'm here for #usually I can work through this sort of thing myself (or with a few close friends) but that's not working this time; #nor is trying to focus on the space and muses I've worked hard to cultivate here after everything that happened on my og blog #so... yeah just a boost please; earnestly and sincerely I'm asking proverbial hat in hand #even this post is a tldr; rendition of what I want to type but I'm trying to remain succinct and most importantly hopeful #and the longer I go on or explain things the worst I'll feel or be reminded just how bad it is here so ....yeah. succinct

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" He has a wild imagination and TELLS ME THINGS THAT MUST BE TRUE; like there's A WORLD WHERE I CAN TAKE FLIGHT and WHERE I CAN FREELY MOVE.... "

An independent, private, and highly selective multimuse blog for the visual novel THE CROWN OF LEAVES featuring KARIOM, THE STAR-READER as deciphered by Kala. Please read the rules before following or interacting.

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" So carry me from these walls brother of mine; SHOW ME THE WORLD OUTSIDE; it HAS TO BE TRUE, I'm counting on you, TO BE MY WINGS AND MY EYES.... "

#support my brand please and thank you

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Send a ✨ if you want to RP with me but don’t know how to approach me.

#no anons please #I'll use this as a springboard to plot; help; etc

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((Besides the obvious (Danny) I need to think about who to promote on this blog.))

#;;ooc: mun muttering #how do I just......not delete this blog at this point? once I move everything over what's really stopping me? ugh #ignore me; I'm fuming and unable to reconcile things #this is me grasping at straws lol

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" He has a wild imagination and TELLS ME THINGS THAT MUST BE TRUE; like there's A WORLD WHERE I CAN TAKE FLIGHT and WHERE I CAN FREELY MOVE.... "

An independent, private, and highly selective multimuse blog for the visual novel THE CROWN OF LEAVES featuring KARIOM, THE STAR-READER as deciphered by Kala. Please read the rules before following or interacting.

HOME - RULES - MUSES - PROMO CREDIT

" So carry me from these walls brother of mine; SHOW ME THE WORLD OUTSIDE; it HAS TO BE TRUE, I'm counting on you, TO BE MY WINGS AND MY EYES.... "

#help me out by reblogging this promo!!!!!!

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#;;musing: Heisenberg

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" The STRONG WILL DESTROY THE WEAK, that's the way of the world! Now DIE LIKE THE WORLD IS WATCHING YOU! "

An independent, private & highly selective multimuse rp blog featuring Lord Karl Heisenberg from Resident Evil Village as engineered and experimented on by Kala. Please read the rules before following or interacting!

HOME - RULES - MUSES - PROMO GRAPHIC

#evening reblog #reblog this promo please and thank you

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" He has a wild imagination and TELLS ME THINGS THAT MUST BE TRUE; like there's A WORLD WHERE I CAN TAKE FLIGHT and WHERE I CAN FREELY MOVE.... "

An independent, private, and highly selective multimuse blog for the visual novel THE CROWN OF LEAVES featuring KARIOM, THE STAR-READER as deciphered by Kala. Please read the rules before following or interacting.

HOME - RULES - MUSES - PROMO CREDIT

" So carry me from these walls brother of mine; SHOW ME THE WORLD OUTSIDE; it HAS TO BE TRUE, I'm counting on you, TO BE MY WINGS AND MY EYES.... "

#evening reblog #please help a fellow rper out by reblogging this promo

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he called me insane (he is in love with me)

#;;ship musing: Heisenbergxvaleriu (magioffire) #;;ship musing: RENExULAR #;;musing: tsugino #i'll tag the rest later

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its because youre always on that damn autopsy table

#;;ship musing: Heisenbergxvaleriu (magioffire) #;;musing: tsugino #;;ship musing: RENExULAR

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my text post collection vol. 1

#;;ship musing: Heisenbergxvaleriu (magioffire) #;;musing: asahi #;;musing: tsugino #;;ship musing: dannyxzack (kllsworn) #i'll tag the rest later

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" He has a wild imagination and TELLS ME THINGS THAT MUST BE TRUE; like there's A WORLD WHERE I CAN TAKE FLIGHT and WHERE I CAN FREELY MOVE.... "

An independent, private, and highly selective multimuse blog for the visual novel THE CROWN OF LEAVES featuring KARIOM, THE STAR-READER as deciphered by Kala. Please read the rules before following or interacting.

HOME - RULES - MUSES - PROMO CREDIT

" So carry me from these walls brother of mine; SHOW ME THE WORLD OUTSIDE; it HAS TO BE TRUE, I'm counting on you, TO BE MY WINGS AND MY EYES.... "

#support my brand (tcol edition)

[alexandriteobscuraarchive]

" The STRONG WILL DESTROY THE WEAK, that's the way of the world! Now DIE LIKE THE WORLD IS WATCHING YOU! "

An independent, private & highly selective multimuse rp blog featuring Lord Karl Heisenberg from Resident Evil Village as engineered and experimented on by Kala. Please read the rules before following or interacting!

HOME - RULES - MUSES - PROMO GRAPHIC

#support my brand