#disassociative feelings

[speakingparts]

CLEAN, SHAVEN [1993, LODGE KERRIGAN]

#clean shaven #us film #lodge kerrigan #cinema #movies #film #great directors #great sound design #anxiety #paranoia #schizophrenia #allucinations #disassociative feelings #Hahn Rowe #peter greene #r.d. laing #criterion

[willowser]

oh. kirishima is that guy that tries to go on date after date after date and it just. never works out.

so genuinely into it, even has butterflies ! but he's at home getting ready and buttoning up his shirt and he takes a last look in the mirror and — he just wishes it was with you.

his date that night is so great and lovely and funny, but there are little moments when he looks at their face and feels a deep ache in his heart because he shouldn't want for someone else while a wonderful individual is sitting right there in front of him. but he does. thinks about what you would order to eat, to drink, if you would let him hold your hand on the way back to the train station, if you'd let him kiss you goodnight. just a small one, even.

and it doesn't help when he returns to work the following monday, just for you to gently knock on his office door, all bright-eyed and curious.

"so...how did it go? are we hearing wedding bells yet?"

his date was great. 10/10. he laughed and he joked and he blushed at their flirting and even texted them afterwards to make sure they got home alright. just as he's done with all the previous ones.

"nah," kirishima rubs the back of his neck and smiles lamely. hopes you read his disappointment as how the date didn't go and not over who it wasn't with. "plenty of fish in the sea, right?"

"aw, kiri, you'll find someone that's great for you soon, i know it!" you frown at him and he feels the back of his eyes sting, his chest grow heavy with all the things he wish he could say to you.

"yeah, no, you're right!"

but he just can't.

#he's literally sitting there having a great time and then his date goes to the bathroom #and he disassociates for the next 5 minutes wondering how different it would be with you #and then when they come back he tries to smile and laugh and go right back into it #but he actually feels SICK bc this person doesn't deserve to have their time wasted :( #but he can't stop thinking about how much he wishes it was you WAAAAHHHH #Bye #✿ willow writes #✿ thoughts: kirishima

[incandescentflower]

ok I'm not the first person to yell about this, but it's kind of mind-blowing that the show with the cheesiest puns pulled out such a profoundly romantic line as "I'd regret not loving you."

#cherry magic thailand #cherry magic th #spoilers #I feel like they've been playing us #and I was happy to be played #is it possible to disassociate from too many feelings??

[caluupin]

Finished TGAAC around 2 1/2 weeks ago but only finished the doodles today. but still, here ya go!

#caluuart #art #dgs spoilers #dgs2 spoilers #tgaa spoilers #tgaa2 spoilers #ace attorney #the great ace attorney #tgaa #dgs2 #not tagging characters bc it's a lot #RAMBLE TIME. so ever since I finished dgs2 I have been listening to the soundtracks and MAN these bang so much #esp as a person who plays the piano and likes music. it's just. good. yeah. some of these do give me psychological dmg tho lmaoo #like kazuma's nocturne theme or his prosecutor theme. or the secret trial theme.... the partners - the game is afoot! theme.... I am normal #WHICH SPEAKING OF! man I love the sholmes + mikotoba partner twist so much even if i got a bit spoiled about it. i just think they're neat. #The partners of all time I think. #Also also the found family!?!?!? I am A SUCKER for found family. they fed me so well. #funny thing was the barok character development surprised me despite the fact that I also expected it since the first game lolol. #I do think he's an interesting character and probably one of the best character development in the game. And that I find his design cool. #oh yeah I didn't draw it but when I saw that albert mentioned that barok is “the darling of the van zieks family” I was genuinely like. #huh? wdym. like man at the time “van zieks” and “little darling” feels wrong in the same sentence. that was until I saw his pre- #-trauma pictures n well. albert isn't wrong. which was a slight surprise to me. #In conclusion: I liked it a lot. and now occupies parts of my brain along with my other brainrots. #They fight for priority in my brain whenever I try to sleep or disassociate lol. Well at least there's more material to think about. #off topic time: arlecchino animation. for the sake of the tag's length I'll just say a few things: #I am very very interested in her story and oh my god father. #My brain has stopped braining now; good night my fellows

[cozyy-bear]

Need to be able to breath underwater so I can rest in the cold silt and listen to the current rushing over the peddles. The fish swim above me like a mobile as the water cradles me.

#personal #very water sign of me tbh #please take me to the river please please #been disassociating lately and mostly feeling like im under water recently #<- which prompted this post/feeling #you can reblog this <33 dont worry about the person tag :) #if you see these tags i love you and please have a drink or snack. take your meds. go to the bathroom. take a stretch break!

[saturnaous]

I think. Alphonse has a lot of dealings with disassociation and being in a body without nerves.

#fullmetal alchemist brotherhood #fma brotherhood #fmab #fullmetal alchemist #fma #alphonse elric #spenxer lou art #lou is an artist #sigh. this took three days despite the quality of it. I’ve honestly debated about posting it. #I’m not really great with comics but I’d like to get better so I’m pushing through it #grr. you can tell I desperately need to do a new hand study + actually use reference. but I don’t think they look. TOO terrible #all things considered. I had to change up one of the fingers in the third panel last minute so it looks. wonky. but whatever. #grr. . . I need to figure out new ways to lineart and render that like. . .look better #this is soo shoddy and thrown together for how much time is in it. grrr #moving on from my places to improve. I think Alphonse was heavily disassociated when he got bonded from both a lot of that trauma and #not being able to feel things properly as a big suit of armor but he’s gotten better over the years #And it’s another reason he got so shaken up by the idea of not being real. because he already doesn’t feel real so what if he truly isn’t? #anyways. sorry for all the tags. kiss kiss

[just-more-pr0mts]

Danny was not here.

It's the only way he could describe how he felt. He was walking, talking and breathing. But it wasn't him, yet it was? It was all so complicated and confusing.

He was supposed to be walking, talking and breathing with his his family, his mom and dad, his sisters dani and Jazz. He was supposed to be walking, talking and breathing with his friends, Tucker and Sam.

But he wasn't he was sitting at the end of an extravagant table where he had been all of his life.

Danny was walking, talking and breathing in someone else's body. He felt like a spectator of his own life life he was in a fever dream. But it wasn't his life. Yes he was controlling how he moved and how he spoke, he wasn't possessed after all, yet it felt as if he were.

He was walking down halls he's been in for years, knowing the layout like the back of his hand, yet it all looked so new.

He was talking to people, his siblings and parents who he'd been through hell and back with and knew what made them tick, but he struggled to recognize them as they waved hello.

He was breathing in air that reeked of death , air that tasted like the electricity of the portal air that was so polluted you hardly ever saw the moon at night yet he'd been breathing it in all his life and yet never before.

Aka

Danny wasnt able to save his planet from the asteroid, and in that fiasco he gets thrown into an alternate version of himself that grew up in Gotham with the wayne family (can be twin au or whatever) and now he's stuck there pretending like his danny as he has old Danny's memories.

#danny phantom #dp x dc #just a promt #dc x dp #feel free to add \correct anything #please tag if this ever gets made into a fic #cartoon #danny fenton #danny gets thrown into a different dimension #and its like a fever dream #or his like disassociating #disociation #now hes just trying to fit in #ps. sorry i was gone my friend sadly passed on recently so that affected me #this promt was based off me dissasociating #but ill try to get back into writing again #batpham #batfam #sad danny phantom #danny phantom angst #his family is ded #like my friend

[steinwayandhissons]

arctic monkeys and every time the word ‘love’ is mentioned

whatever people say I am that’s what I’m not

tonight there’ll be some love, tonight there’ll be a ruckus yeah regardless of what’s gone before

~ view from the afternoon

oh there ain’t no love, no montagues or capulets

~ i bet you look good on the dancefloor

all that’s left is the proof that love’s not only blind but deaf… yeah I’d love to tell you all my problem

~ fake tales of san francisco

she makes a subtle proposition, I’m sorry love I’ll have to turn you down

~ when the sun goes down

lady, where has your love gone, i was looking but can’t find it anywhere, they always offer when there’s loads of love around but when you’re short of some it’s nowhere to be found

~ no buses

well how can you wake up with someone you don’t love and not feel slightly phased by it

~ leave before the lights come on

favourite worst nightmare

it’s wrong wrong wrong but we’ll do it anyway cause we love a bit of trouble

~ balaclava

and those dreams weren’t as daft as they seem, aren’t as daft as they seem my love

~ fluorescent adolescent

there’s room for the trouble and there’s lovers to be had

~ this house is a circus

it’d be a big mistake for you to wait and let me waste your time, really love it’s fine, I said really love it’s fine

~ the bad thing

old yellow bricks, love’s a risk… houdini love you don’t know what you’re running away from

~ old yellow bricks

another roll around and another push and shove, further away from the idea of love

~ da frame 2r

the more you keep on looking the more it’s hard to take, love we’re in stalemate… you’re slacking love where have you been

~ the bakery

am I too quick to assume that the love is no longer in bloom

~ too much to ask

humbug

i had a hole in the pocket of my favourite coat and my love dropped into the lining

~ i haven’t got my strange

suck it and see

i wanna feel your love brick by brick

~ brick by brick

do you still feel love is a laserquest or do you take it all more seriously… when I’m not being honest I pretend that you were just some lover

~ love is a laserquest

your love is like a studded leather headlock

~ suck it and see

jealousy in technicolour, fear by name, love by numbers… crushing up a bundle of love

~ that’s where you’re wrong

before she showed you how to shake love’s steady hand

~ the blonde o sonic shimmer trap

your love’s not what I need, so don’t give it to me

~ evil twin

am

it’s not like I’m falling in love I just want you to do me no good… the look of love, the rush of blood

~ no.1 party anthem

love buckles under the strain of those wild nights

~ mad sounds

I heard that you fell in love, or near enough

~ snap out of it

love like locked horns, love like dominoes… love like thunder, love like falling snow

~ electricity

I know you’re nothing like mine cause she’s walking on sunshine and your love would tear us apart

~ you’re so dark

tranquility base hotel and casino

love came in a bottle with a twist off cap, let’s all have a swig and do a hot lap… but it’s alright, cause you love me

~ star treatment

when true love takes a grip it leaves you without a choice

~ golden trunks

pattern language in the mood for love

~ the world’s first ever monster truck front flip

I wanna stay with you my love, the way some science fiction does

~ science fiction

the dawn won’t stop weighing a tonne, I’ve done some things that I shouldn’t have done, but I haven’t stopped loving you once

~ the ultracheese

the car

lights out on the wonder park, your saw toothed lover boy was quick off the mark

~ jet skis on the moat

put your heavy metal to the test, there might be half a love song in it all for you

~ mr schwartz

#arctic monkeys #alex turner #listen this was purely out of curiosity #there are so many poetic and imaginative ways in which alex describes love #i just wanted a tangible record of every time he just straight up uses the word #i was surprised that humbug only had one mention and even that was a b side but when i was making this i realised that it was such a #lyrically dense and innovative album and descriptions of love were more elaborate and straightforward #*less straightforward #(might make a separate post about that) #also found that the other albums were quite consistent except the car #i found it interesting that most of the songs aren’t actually about the same kind of love like the earlier albums were #the earlier ones use love as a nickname and portray the physical embodiment of being in love #and even in tbhc it describes this feeling despite there being slightly fewer mentions #but the car seems more like a goodbye album… not even about breaking up… just goodbye which is very…. #there’s no room for love in amongst the melancholia and introspection #and makes me wonder about his relationship with love at the moment #it seems very disassociated and immaterial like he has no interest in spouting poetics about love like he did before #and i hope he can rebuild that relationship #i could probably say more but im not going to bc this is getting way too long #cheers if you actually read this whole fucking essay #i spent way too long on this if you cant tell

[ridox]

THEY CAN NEVER MAKE ME HATE YOU

#spoilers #BUT LISTEN chapter 7 already proves that no matter how hard he tries to disassociate his feelings from you #RAFAYEL COULD NEVER JUST LET YOU DIE #HES LITERALLY BOUND BY THE OCEAN VOW #AND IT GOES AGAINST EVERYTHING THAT HE IS TO JUST LEAVE MC FOR DEAD #SO NO I DONT THINK RAFAYEL PURPOSELY WANTS TO HARM MC #AS AN ACT OF REVENGE FOR LEMURIA OR WTVR #im so head empty 0 thoughts #chapter 8 is so… #love and deepspace #l&ds #lads #rafayel #ridox thoughts

[dearmahiru]

i've been having brain worms about mahiru's relationship so i've been rewatching i love you to piece together day sixteen. this feels like a reach but i think a fight might've broken out between them.

first, mahiru boyfriend's house, birdcage, and carousel are all the same location─we know this because each one has the same couch, throw pillows, and table formation.

on day sixteen, mahiru excitedly prepares her boyfriend's favorite meals as a surprise for him. later, when milgram extracts mahiru's mind, we see a table with shattered silverware. then, mahiru fantasizes about her boyfriend coming back to life so they can share food together (notably, only mahiru is fed because when mahiru tries feeding her boyfriend it goes awry.)

though i don't believe her boyfriend was ever physical and broke the dishes, it's possible that he suffered from an eating disorder and responded badly to mahiru's attempts to convince him to eat. this is the reason mahiru's murder is portrayed as feeding him rats that she percieved as a gift to save him from starvation.

we also know that they've fought multiple times from mahiru's t1 song. specifically. theres this very moment in the second teaser where mahiru's screams at her boyfriend, telling him (paraphrased) "don't say you love me if you don't mean it."

which is insane because mahiru is a very forgiving person! she can turn a cheek to someone trying to kill her, laugh off those who trick her, call her stupid to her face, and says she's happy to fight with her boyfriend—lovingly referring to it as their break-up ritual—but saying you love her without any weight behind it? that's what sends mahiru right over the edge.

i think it's possible that mahiru's boyfriend reacted poorly to mahiru's "gift," and tried to console her by saying he loved her which made mahiru's upset, which then escalated into their final fight.

#i can't say this with confidence because it feels pretty “fill in the blanks” #but god im so obsessed with their relationship because mahiru is just so completely unwilling to depict it in a bad light #mahiru isn't just painting herself as a “cute girl in love!” she's also unwilling to admit her boyfriend did any wrong #she's fully willing to take the blame for his death but not that he caused her to disassociate or emotionally neglected her #and i don't even think either of them are bad people!!! they're just horrible to eachother!!! #toxic soulmates. im howling at the moon rn #♡. cinnamon prattles #milgram #mahiru shiina

[speakingparts]

CLEAN, SHAVEN [1993, LODGE KERRIGAN]

#clean shaven #us film #lodge kerrigan #cinema #movies #film #great directors #great sound design #anxiety #paranoia #schizophrenia #allucinations #disassociative feelings #Hahn Rowe #peter greene #r.d. laing #criterion

[ineffectualdemon]

How I feel when I say I'm feeling "untethered"

Or, in other words: disassociating

#i did this quickly but its pretty good at capturing the feeling #disassociating #mental health #mental illness

[ghost-proofbaby]

do you ever just feel the depression fog settling in and suddenly feel like all your words, spoken and written, just aren’t making sense? like oh i’m just spewing nonstop nonsense aren’t i.

#it feels like someone’s cut off a fucking limb when i’m writing and suddenly stare at the screen and just #it’s not what i want it’s not coming out right and it almost feels as though ive completely disassociated #but if im not writing i feel entirely useless? #idk #ignore me #is there a way to disappear into the void until this brain fog figures itself out so no one else has to deal with it lmao #wanting to write and being entirely unable to leaves me feeling very very hollow inside #ghost talks too much

[willowser]

Willow🥺 are we taken because of connection to dynamite or just wrong place wrong time??

I hope it's the former, because if it's explicitly because of him, I don't know if his heart can handle it 🥺🥺

i do think.........that we were targeted 🥺🥺🥺 i was trying to allude to it a lil, when talking about his frustrating patrol 🥺 they chased a guy all the way across the city and still never found his partner—bc his partner was busy snatching us up from the station !!!!!

i think he definitely feels guilty in a way, bc they're taking you to get to him, but also—he lives in a world and works in an occupation where people are hurt and killed every day from villains and criminals, sometimes just bc they were in the wrong place at the wrong time. so while i think it does eat him up that this hurt is meant for him and they're taking it out on you—honestly i think it just really pisses him off LOL

he's kinda like. oh you think so huh you stupid fuck ??? 💀💀💀💀 you think you're gonna get away with this do you ??? you want to go there with me ??? 💀💀💀 like he's sooooooo. would probably beat this guy's face in LOL like he's PISSED. you want a reaction from him YOU'RE GONNA GET ONE GOD DAMN IT.

#like do not get me wrong this is going to haunt him for the rest of his life #the feeling of knowing he might lose you/might have already bc of your relationship with him #but i do think that he's level-headed enough to know like. this is the work of an evil person #he's just so fucking mad like you're gonna take it out of my fucking partner dude ??? 🤨🤨🤨 grow some balls and face me yourself #LOL #i mean he does go through a whole staring at the wall disassociation moment bc they took you bc of him #but honestly i dont think that would hit until he got you back #he's too worked up right now lol #✿ ask willow #✿ thoughts: bakugou #✿ theme: y/n napped

[brainrotbloodclot]

been living life on autopilot

#anyone else feel this way? #autopilot is a better statement of constant disassociation #actually borderline #actually bpd #bpd #borderline problems #bpd problems #bpd feels #bpd mood #bpd thoughts #borderline thoughts #bpd awareness #autopilot

[disassociation-culture-is]

Dissociation Culture is randomly feeling your shirt on your back

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#OUAGH the worst #bro Coming Back and feeling my binder so intensely...... #dissociation culture is #disassociation culture is #dissociation #disassociation #mod cheese