#cuz bpd

[sad-leon]

what if i gave rise leo BPD...

his anger manifests in the form of self-sabotage and self harm. he asks donnie to sound proof his room when they get to the new lair so he can wreck it without concerning everyone else. before that he'd sneak to the surface and wreck an already messy alleyway

his self harm is recklessness. he gets hurt in fights as much as he can and still get away with just a "please be more careful" lecture from raph

speaking of raph, his oldest brother is his favorite person. so when raph starts to brush him to the side and distrust him, he doesnt take it well. when he does something to impress raph and all he gets is "finally..." thats when he disappears for hours and comes back home with sore arms and usually some scrapes and many bruises

he becomes a medic because they can't ignore him if he helps them. plus he can get better at hiding his breakdowns if he can take care of his own injuries

he wants to be in the spotlight so bad until the spotlight shines on him and suddenly his skin fits wrong

splinter and raph brush it off as teenage hormones. donnie shuts it out. mikey is the first person to realize leo's moods aren't normal, but he doesnt want to confront the fact the bpd comes from trauma, so he tries to support leo as best he can

april doesnt realize how much leo's mood shifts until she spends a night in the lair and realizes that leo isn't as hyper as he presents himself. he tries to mask, but he's too tired and the sudden silence from leo throws april off. it creates a rift between them. even when leo is happier around april, she knows somethings wrong- knows its not quite as genuine as she thought.

she spends more time around donnie than leo and leo thinks its for the best. eventually all his brothers- all his family prefer spending time with someone thats not him. he tells himself its for the better- the less time they spend around him, the less likely he'll be upset around them and end up making them upset

leo convinces himself he's meant to be alone and puts his all into being the team medic and spends the rest of his time alone and dissociating. he hates being the leader- having everyones eyes on him all the time. watching him. waiting for him to mess up- to act out- to prove they were right not to trust him

.... idk.. just a thought

#rambles #hi its projection hours because yesterday was absolute shit #self harm #bpd #borderline #rottmnt #rise of the tmnt #rise leo #rottmnt leo #borderline leo #vent #<- just in case cuz all of this is projection #if i catch anyone talking shit about this disorder in the comments ill fucking fight you #bpd is fucking ass and the only fucking relief is living vicariously through my favs so im gonna do that #leo has a family and is rarely ever truly alone so theres your happy ending #might make him hypersexual as well but if i do anything with that its not gonna be on this blog

[honeypleasejustkillme]

so real.

#actually bpd #actually mentally ill #bpd shitposting #actually borderline #bpd favorite person #bpd vent #bpd mood #bpd problems #bpd #bpd fp #unhealthy love #wooooo #i love posting these types of things cuz it’s just always calling out #guys i want a lover #someone date me #someone come give me cuddles pls

[everyone-is-emptyy]

#everyone is empty #thinking about moving back in w my mom & great grammy even tho i don’t fucking want to #but my mom is the worst caregiver in existence & my grandma doesn’t really want her help cuz she’s always drunk #i’m just ready to explode & run the house my fucking way & tell me mother to stop acting like my grandmas savior #idc about her drinking but she can’t live rent fucking free & be fucking USELESS #i hate my mother #girlblogging #mentally fucked #bpd vent #depressing shit #anxi4ty #mentally tired #actually bipolar #bipolar disorder #ptsd #bipolar depression #tumblr girls #girlboss #bpd mood #this is what makes us girls #su1c1d3 #su1c1d4l #stressed and tired #dark memes #depressing memes #bpd things

[aoki553]

'bpd makoto teruhashi??'- a character analysis/yapping session because no one understands the siblings like i do

Time to turn the capslock on for this one! The writing might be incoherent, but I want to focus on getting my thoughts out with this one, so be aware. Let me start this post by clarifying - I am not a psychologist. This is for fun, done used resources I've found online. This is about an anime character, not about a real person's struggles.

Trigger warning for obvious sibling marriage romanticization mention sighhh like we aren't talking about it constantly when it comes to him apparently.

We all know the way Makoto has been protrayed in the series - a comically overexaggerated siscon. His portrayal makes many people uncomfortable due to his perverted obsessive behavior.

Except, I'm going to throw it all out the window cuz in this post I meant to take a look at his behavior from a fan's perspective without any biases like 'eww yucky siscon make me uncomfy'. NONE of that here.

I'll start by addressing the elephant in the room and the main reason i'm making this post: Makoto's obsession. Both of the Teruhashi siblings have obvious superiority complexes, however, Makoto is overshadowed by his little sister's charm, whom he idealizes and has an unhealthy attachment to. He's aware of his own charm and beauty, but only takes it to account to point out how he's the only one worthy of Kokomi's love and attention.

Kokomi has clearly been his whole world ever since she was born. A life-long fascination and attachment that went unnoticed. His perfect little sister is able to change his mood drastically whenever she's getting attention from anyone other than him or is even slightly dissatisfied with him.

He lacks a sense of self - only Kokomi matters for him. He's able to ditch his responsibilities in an instant, only to be with her. He's depicted as a cherub to Kokomi's goddess appearance in the mobile game and as a chauffeur in the Duet Shite KudaPsi anime end credits. Always below her, as her servant.

He becomes severely distressed and panics over even something so simple as a her getting a cold. (Just like everyone else at her school, but he's there for her.)

At all times he needs to make sure she isn't surrounded by men that are 'unworthy' of her, even to the point of stalking her to get some piece of mind. He craves her approval and cares for her like no one else in the entirety of the manga. (Example: Taking her to movie theatres and watch every movie he has ever starred in to show her.) These are signs of Kokomi being Makoto's 'favorite person'.

Awesome, but does it explain Makoto seeing her not as his sister, but as a future wife? Is it just him making things way creepier in his mind than they need? Yes, actually.

Makoto's overprotective and obsessive behavior is comically exaggerated, duh, but if we think about it for a second... Kokomi is a person he's been there for her whole life, he provides and protects her from unwanted attention. He dedicated his whole life to her and knowing there is an unavoidable future of his whole world collapsing because someone will take his place. Not as a siblings, but as a lover - something more important than family. How can he avoid this? By being the one to marry her, of course. No one but him is worthy of her anyway, right? Why should she need anyone else? No matter how messed up that sounds, it's his way of thinking.

Now let's go over some of the diagnostic criteria for BPD. I'll be using this site and infographic as my resource, just to give a few simple (but appropiate in my opinion) examples.

Fear of abandonment, rejection - while it's not explicitly stated, I believe his 'marriage' thing is just that. Not wanting to be abandonned and forgotten by the only person he loves and cares about. I don't believe he has any perverted motive behind it. Just fear and wanting her only for himself.

Idealization and devaluation - both extremes show up in his behavior. Most notably towards Kokomi or Kusuo. He's hostile and outright rude to Kusuo, but the moment Kokomi shows up he becomes all sunshine and rainbows. Another example of it is his indifference towards Kokomi's friends, compared to the excessive attention he gives to his sister. My theory is that Makoto doesn't have relationships due to a predisposition to making his relations with other people unstable, or never even bothering to try in the first place. (Like he is towards Ruchi, for example.)

Impulsivity and inappropiate anger - he rushes to anger the moment his love is threatened. A simple thought of Kokomi getting romantic advances enrages him. Even if it could cost him his career or his public image - something Kokomi cares about the most for herself, the opposite to her brother.

Emotional instability - we've only been shown his mood swings like the one below. If we got to see more of his personal life, this one would be much clearer, but it's something a siscon pun character doesn't get to have in a comedy manga, so I'll leave it at that.

Paranoia - Let the image below speak for itself... His delusions can be interpreted as a symptom on its own, too.

But what could've caused this? Since we never see what the Teruhashi siblings' parents are like, it's easy to assume Makoto has a role of her caretaker or a provider, due to only these two being ever shown living in the wealthy Teruhashi residency. The only time we ever see their parents being acknowledged is when Saiko spread a fake rumor of Mugami Tooru having an affair. Note: We never actually see them, we don't know if they're even there.

My personal theory is simple - Kokomi's charm and absent parental figures must've affected Makoto's development and made him emotionally dependent solely on Kokomi's well being. I'm taking his idol career into an account as well, since he must've been scouted into show business in his teens, or earlier. (He was already famous by 17.)

Conclusion: I think Makoto is an interesting example of a person with BPD in media, but I'm often disappointed how little we talk about it. Or maybe I'm just too obsessed with him to see him only as what he is on the surface. :3

PHEW. So after like 4 hours of trying to put my words into one big post I think that's all I had to say for now about this topic~! I have a lot of love for this boy and I really needed to get my thoughts out about this theory of mine. Sorry for unnecessary rambling and incoherence at times. Thanks for reading!

#even if you held me at gun point and asked me why am i so obsessed with this siscon i would just preferred to get shot cuz i dont know #genuinely #alex rambles #saiki kusuo no psi nan #saiki kusuo no ψ nan #saiki k #teruhashi makoto #kusuo saiki #makoto teruhashi #saiki kusuo #teruhashi kokomi #kokomi teruhashi #teruhashi siblings #teruhashi #the disastrous life of saiki k #borderline personality disorder #bpd

[voltstone]

i am unwell.

essay is almost done though. i got three more sections. to prove that violet has bpd. or something.

update: essay done now. help. kenny gimmie that drink.

#volt's shit #twdg #twdg essay #twdg violet #bpd #i dont know what spawn coerced me to do this but i sure as hell didnt argue #anyway #itll be done in some odd hours i dunno #violentine #cuz theres discussion of that too #twdg louis #because i LOVE him #>:(

[jennrypan]

..why do people think Minthe or ANY of the nymphs are poc coded??? Like..I wanna know.

Is it cuz they're disrespected ?? Cuz the gods are assholes and talk down to beings weaker than them. Like what IS poc coded about them besides that.

When nymphs are literally weaker than most gods/ they can die..hence why God's are so damn disrespectful cuz OFC they would be. That's the way it is. Is it right?? No, but logically what are they gonna do?? They'd die, which is fucked up obvi.

I just..I'm sooo confused. NO one in this comic is poc coded cuz Rachel sucks at that shit, sure Pysches there..but i feel like her design was just shoved in for brownie points cuz..she's unnecessary now. Also..why would only the nymphs be poc coded. Why would the species that's LITERALLY below the gods (in their terms, cuz again. They're gods) be Poc coded. Why would you want that 😶

(Ofc have your headcanons, I draw my Zeus as black just cuz it's fun, so I'm not saying don't do that. I just find it interesting when people think she's poc coded in the actual comic? )

#j.p speaks #lore olympus #lore olympus critical #im CONFUSED. #like minthe is great and all but..why do yall see her as poc coded?? #like..is not weird as fuck to think ALL the nymphs specifically are poc coded?? why?? #i dont mind headcanons obvi but minthe?? all the nymphs?? im..confused. #cuz wouldnt that just..be weird as shit. minthe is struggling with money has bpd(?) and then she gets cursed by a 'white' girl???? #what #that would make it 100 times worse. #lo critical #minthe #minthe lore olympus

[bpdohwhatajoy]

Until someone has spent their entire life in my shoes, I don’t want their worthless opinion on any aspect of me or my life✌️

#ryan.txt #bpd #borderline personality disorder #recovery journey #nah cuz mfs are too comfortable commenting on how you are/your life circumstances #meanwhile not only have they never lived a day as you #BUT THEY DONT EVEN KNOW YOU??????? #why do people have so much audacity genuinely

[passer-ine]

I wish everyone with stigmatized and villainized disorders a very good day. I hope your pillow is the perfect temperature tonight. I hope the water you drink tastes really good and refreshing. I hope you step outside, and the air is fresh and feels nice. I hope your blankets are soft and warm. I hope your favorite song comes on next.

Your disorder does not make you abusive, evil, manipulative, violent, or dangerous. No disorder makes people bad.

#positivity #been seeing a lot of narcissist hate lately yall deserve better #BPD too #and psychopaths and sociopaths #anyone who has ever been treated bad cuz of their disorder this post is for you and you deserve better #and i swear to god if an ablist breathes on this i am destroying them

[belzrgr]

Save me

#there's literally no reason we just haven't been talking cuz they're part of a system and haven't been fronting brain shut UP #Bpd #Actual bpd #Cluster b #personality disorder #borderline problems #living with borderline #actually borderline

[c-rave]

I love how when i stop initiating conversations nobody ever thinks to message me first it really makes me feel valued in other peoples lives

#this is sarcasm for those of you with the tism #like do other people just not think about me or #cuz let me tell ya i am thinking about other people alllllll the time #bpd #actually bpd #bpd fp #obsession #depressing shit #mental illness

[honeypleasejustkillme]

why is it so hard for me to believe that someone actually cares about me and isn’t always going to replace me at any given moment

#actually bpd #actually mentally ill #bpd #bpd fp #actually borderline #bpd shitposting #bpd problems #bpd favorite person #bpd vent #bpd mood #it’s the abandonment issues isn’t it.. fuck #but goddamn i’m tired of it #like i walk on eggshells around everyone cuz i don’t want to piss them off #because what if i do and they decide that’s the final straw and leave

[jaypilled]

redrew that old nk headcanons post because it was so bad it kept me up at night and also added jestro, izzy, and fletch because they’re my babygirls i couldn’t exclude them this time

#clay has that awesomesauce bpd psychosis #he also conveniently didn't inherit pointed ears from his mom cuz i think that'd raise some suspicions really early on #macy is unintentionally trans coded idc #like to the point where she struck me as trans coded faster than lake from infinity train did #anyways my macy is transmasc #my axl is half giant half elf #his father being a giant and mother being an elf #and he inherited the Very Large Size from his father #so he's fucking massive compared to his mom and sister #sorry for changing izzy's awesome glasses i just like making her Normal #also sorry for making them All autistic #nexo knights #clay moorington #lance richmond #aaron fox #macy halbert #nexo knights axl #jestro #nexo knights jestro #ava prentis #robin underwood #izzy richmond #fletcher bowman #nexo knights headcanons #nexo knights fanart #lego #jay art

[werebutch]

I don’t really think much at all anymore about my last relationship but when bpd is brought up my mind goes to this immediate switch in my partner’s behavior when I finally told them I think I have bpd -__- I was always so careful to not come off as jealous of their friends (and I succeeded most of the time, but it was so insanely stressful inside) but as soon as I told them about bpd, they started acting as if I would get angry about them hanging out w people (and other stuff but mostly that)… which made everything worse. I remember the last straw for me was them going to fucking KNOTFEST with their bff and not even telling me. Acting like it’s a dark secret. Only found out cuz their mom talked about it. And I was like oh why didn’t you wanna tell me that sounds fun. And they’re like. You would get mad. Brother I had NEVER showed anger towards ANYTHING like that before because I was so scared of being unknowingly abusive 😭 what the helllll

#sowwie it still kind of bugs me. like it didn’t matter how I actually acted. once the words bpd left my mouth it was an instant switch #craaaazy. oh well LOL #doesn’t really matter anymore. peace and love #like it was constant them trying to cover up the most mundane things as if I was some violent predator. idk #I think it stuck with me so much cuz I put a lot of effort esp back then into not letting my insecurities affect my relationship. I was #scared shitless of that. and scared shitless of being harmful. sooo.

[thesteriuswife]

theseus loves asterius sooooo much but he's also very scared and insecure about their relationship due to the fact that he doesn't really have any other close relationships (in canon. as we all know dianthus is obsessed with him) and it results in him lashing out when he feels that relationship is threatened 💔

#📜 muse's voice #👑 the once and future king (theseus) #theseus hadesgame and his undiagnosed bpd.... #<- HC I've had for years but never talk about cuz I always get the feeling someone will be weird about it 😭

[voltstone]

i'm so sick every time i go off of tumblr and there's people who can't wrap their head around the fact violet was brainwashed and was likely having a (bpd) episode on the boat.

all while ignoring the fact that??? she tried to apologize?? right there??? when the boat was still on fire???

anyway so here's the freakin essay i wrote solely because people keep doing this. i had the urge to write it again but. oh wait. i already did??

hm.

>:(

#volt's shit #twdg #the walking dead game #twdg violet #can people giVE HER FCKIN REST #SHE APOLOGIZES *TWICE* #the first time didn't go so well cuz like #yeah girl the boat is still on fire and you're face is like still actively blistering #you can wait #but still #she isn't diagnosed but the girl is textbook bpd #and i get why it's stigmatized but good loRD IT MAKES IT WORSE #anyway #imma write fanficiton now. #yes the essay's long but it's exhaustive of what i wanted to talk about with violet and bpd #and also the link is to my blog itself since it *is* designed for writing #so it shouldn't be a pain to read on

[girlwithfish]

i get really annoyed and triggered when ppl post videos of someone clearly in mental crisis and it goes viral like who posts that online its so cruel

#also find it triggering cuz my ex used to record me having bpd episodes/meltdown 😂😂😂😂 #that video of a teen mom clearly struggling w postpartum is so sad why is the father just recording her lmfao. if he truly was concerned for