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luvrblythe · 2 years
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well.., are they? || gilbert blythe x f!reader
jealous gilbert basically
got carried away again omfg someone stop me
warnings : cursing (from me lol), billy andrews, slut shaming but no sexual activities actually happen, idk if thats it
i was also inconsistent bc i kept using both "u" and "you" i apologize for that
— he would never say it out loud thats for sure
— if u weren’t together or anything he wouldn’t really be all petty about it
— big boy knows his place
— but he may throw in some subtle moves to get ur attention
— if he feels like it that is
— idk where i’m going with this
— but if you were together or like he was courting u or smth
— he’d definitely do something abt it
— if u thought he was protective while he was only crushing on u bbg he’s like 10 times worse now
— or better, if u like that sort of stuff
— he’s definitely not possessive protective, he just rlly doesn’t want u getting hurt :(
— i’m going off topic
— billy’s an ass
— we all know that
— but he also has a maaaassive crush on u
— and u being u 
— u were oblivious to his painfully evident attraction to u
— your mind and heart was too full of your gilbert you couldn’t possibly think of any other man in that way
— gilbert on the other hand, has known about billboy’s crush on u for years
— flashbacks to when he keeps calling him “bud”
— he didn’t rlly do anything abt it at first, bc yk, he didn’t rlly have the right to
— but u were his girl now 
— side note he wouldn’t call u “his girl” if you didn’t like it:))
— alr back to billiards
— he was soo fucking
— ugh idk but he was acting like a grade a asshole that's for sure
— he’d like constantly be around u
— and like help u out with stuff like gilbert would
— u didn’t think much of it, most of the boys u knew were gentlemen
— but then he started spreading rumors
— apparently u two made out when u came over his house over the weekend
— when u were actually at gilbert’s
— here we go
— monday came and it was torture
— the second u came through the door, the girls rushed to you and pulled u into their little corner
— side note #2 i’d give anything to be invited to their little corner
— u got bombarded with questions
— somehow they all knew they were just rumors
— they all understood how in love u are with gilbert, and they knew u too well to know u would never
— except josie
— she was being a bitch about the whole thing
— called u nasty words
— “you enjoy being passed around, y/n? i mean i’m not surprised, we all knew how you were gonna turn out. just didn’t think it’d be this early.” 
— fuck u josie
— the girls immediately came to ur aid, especially anne and diana
— i love them all so much
— meanwhile outside, billy and some boys were playing catch
— while gossiping ofc
— while u were basically scared for your life, billy was being congratulated
— for stealing blythe’s girl apparently
— “such sweet lips she had, couldn’t get enough of me. she was practically begging for more!” he laughed while tossing the ball to charlie
— ugh
— “really? y/n? y/n y/l/n? i never thought she’d be disloyal to gilbert. the two are practically engaged.” charlie added
— “i thought so too, but—, guess she just couldn’t control herself.” billy replied as he laughed along with the other boys
— what he didn’t know was that gilbert was listening the whole time
— ofc he knew this wasn’t true, he was practically glued to u all weekend
— omg new blurb idea
— anyways
— the second he heard this his mind immediately went to u
— how were u doing? were u alright? oh what would people say about u if they heard about this?
— he knows u arrive to school earlier than him so he concluded that u probably already heard about all this
— he desperately wanted to check on u
— but he had to deal with this dickhead first
— gilbert blythe style
— he walked towards the group
— but not like power walk walk
— yk that slow smug walk that ppl do when they’re about to confront someone?
— like they’re just letting their feet carry them and smirking? u get the point
— he walked over, jaw clenched but smirking nonetheless 
— “hey billy! how’s it goin’?” he smiled as he swung his arm around billy
— “hehey, bud! oh– have you heard the news?” he replied
— “yep, yeah the second i got here.” gilbert smiled
— billy pulled away so he could face gilbert “hey, uh– i’m sorry ‘bout your gi— y/n. i mean we all know how girls get. they can be such—”
— ooh
— before he could finish, gilbert’s fist met his face
— he punched him so hard he literally fell to the ground
— the boys gasped, which caught the girls’ attention
— it also caught your attention, which halted ur sobbing 
— oh did i mention u were sobbing? bc you know, 19th century, small town, word gets around, and unfortunately for u weren’t rich and privileged so ur reputation was very fragile
— u all scurried towards the window
— and u saw gilbert bend down to billy’s level, fisting his collar in his hand
— “try saying anything like that about my girl again– or any girl for that matter– i’ll aim for your mouth next time so you’ll finally zip it.” he sneered
— i literally don’t know how to write threats i’m so sorry
— billy couldn’t say anything. but before he could even nod, he was shoved down to the ground again
— bro where’s the teacher my god
— he made his way inside, prepared to comfort you
— and when he was met by your tear stained face and glossy eyes, his heart broke for you
— he pulled you aside while the girls retreated back to their little corner
— he led you to the coat room area thingy i forgot what its called
— and just pulled you into his arms
— my touched starved ass omg
— u rubbed your face on his shirt to wipe your tears which made him laugh
— u pulled away, but staying close enough so your chests are almost touching, and he kept his hands on your shoulders to ground u and to remind u that he’s there
— “i hate him now.” you mumbled
— “just now?” he chuckled, reaching his hand out to wipe a stray tear off your face
— “he’s dumb, and stupid,” “those mean the same—” “whatever!” you cut him off
— “i mean if you’re gonna spread a rumor, at least make it believable. and there weren’t even any witnesses! he didn’t even know where i was this weekend, and he has siblings! if i was at his house they would know.” you rambled angrily while playing with one of the buttons on his vest
— “adorable” he thought
— “i know, sweetheart, i know. but it’s alright now, he won’t be doing that again anytime soon.” he said while rubbing ur arm and tucking ur hair behind ur ear
— “everyone will think badly of me now.” you huffed, a soft pout adorning ur lips as u looked down at the wooden floor
— “don’t you worry, my love. i’m sure only very few people would believe that nonsense. and you said he was stupid right? billy isn’t capable of getting away with spreading a rumor. your name will be clear in no time.” 
— god i love him so much
— “what else did he say?” you asked, your voice soft as you looked up at him
— “he said your lips were sweet.” he replied, jaw clenching at the thought of billy knowing how amazing it is to kiss you
— only he is supposed to know how your kisses feel
— “well.., are they?” you laughed softly, attempting to lighten the mood as a sweet smile started growing on ur pretty face
— “hm, i don’t know, i'm having trouble recalling.” he replied, putting on a faux thinking face
— “oh my! we can’t allow that now, can we?” you gasped sarcastically as he laughed at your antics
— “perhaps you need a reminder?” you looked up at him with a smirk
— “oh fine, since you insist.” how could he deny such an offer?
— you leaned up to peck his lips once, but before you could pull away, his hand found the back of your head while the other rested on your waist, deepening the kiss and pulling you closer if that was even possible
— it made your head all fuzzy
— a good fuzzy
— when you pulled away he was looking down at you with the smuggest face ever
— you wanted to smack it off him
— lovingly
— then mr. philips finally arrived
— when you went to sit down you saw billy in his seat with a grumpy face and a bruised cheek
— you looked at gilbert as to say “you did this??”
— and he did nothing but wink at you
— and he did keep his word
— your name was cleared and billy apologized to you
— with his parents and siblings right behind him
— prissy was so disappointed
— this turned into protective gil instead of jealous gil
— oops
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TD World Tour Alenoah AU... Where Noah is immune to Alejandro's fake charm... Instead, Noah gets charmed by the true Alejandro's quirks and dorky interests like dinosaurs and puppets... How would Alejandro feel about Noah only liking Alejandro, when Alejandro is being himself?... Especially since Alejandro's family shuns him for being himself? 🦕🦖🦕
Now you're speaking my language.
One of the most common running themes in all/near enough all Alenoah central AUs is having Noah be the first person to see past Alejandro's persona and actually appreciate the person he is, or at the very least prefer the real Alejandro to his mask of perfection. It's one of the draws of the ship itself; the idea that Noah, being the blunt person that he is, can and will wage a war of attrition against the walls Alejandro has built up around himself- not just to keep others out, but also to repress the more authentic aspects of himself to himself- in order to reveal the person beneath.
I touched on this a little bit in a previous post concerning this AU, but Alejandro and Noah both see glimpses of the other that they try so valiantly to hide- in Noah's case, Alejandro sees hints of the scheming mindset he's pretty much supressed under layers of apathy and sloth (as Noah's laziness is one of his biggest character foils, alongside his snarky attitude), and in Alejandro's case he reveals tid bits of information about the Real Alejandro, not the persona he's usually portraying himself as, which is enough to humanise him in Noah's eyes.
They both become People Of Interest in each other's eyes, because they're both puzzles to be solved. Alejandro's curious and competitive to a fault so he'd dedicate himself to unravelling the layers behind Noah's stony exterior, as he'd see Noah's continued distance as a challenge. That's a given. But the topic at hand here is Noah's interest in Alejandro.
Because Noah's not exactly competitive, so why would he be so interested in unveiling the real Alejandro? That's simple; Noah values authenticity. Look at his friendship group, it consists of people who are unapologetically themselves. Noah is also unapologetically himself, in all of his sarcastic glory. So of course he's see flickers of the real, authentic Alejandro and his natural inquisitiveness would be piqued- a novelty for him, as Noah's staunch apathy generally tends to override any semblance of curiosity.
So Noah goes out of his way to make notes of the small interests Alejandro offhandedly mentions at one point or another, like palaeontology or puppetry or even his fifteen-step skincare routine- things that Alejandro shows genuine excitement or passion over that shines through the cracks of his perfect persona. He sees the dorky giddiness Alejandro experiences when Noah lets him ramble on about how Jurassic Park was incredibly inaccurate from a scientific standpoint but monumental for people's interest in palaeontology (or something along those lines, I don't know I'm not a dinosaur nerd) and suddenly the annoyingly flirtatious faker he's spent the better half of his time on the jet is A Whole Ass Person with interests and passions and a sense of depth he's been so bereft of until now. Suddenly Alejandro's more than just the antagonist of the show Noah's working on, he's an interesting person that the bookworm finds himself wanting to know more about. And, perhaps, he finds himself growing genuinely fond of the person behind the mask.
And he uses those notes to prompt Alejandro into sharing more of himself, the real authentic Alejandro, in the privacy of their interactions.
At first, Alejandro's fairly oblivious to what Noah's doing, since he's so caught up in his own enjoyment of Noah's company plans to essentially do the same to Noah that he barely notices his own tricks being used against him.
Of course, he's also just elated at being able to infodump to someone who isn't outright penalising him for doing so; not that I think Alejandro is even aware that what he's doing is infodumping, nor the fact that he's so obviously autistic, because his family is a particular brand of awful that would never let him get a proper diagnoses and in all likelihood forced him to mask/supress his symptoms.
It isn't until Alejandro realises that he's shared a lot of information about himself that he (as a Burromuerto) is expected to keep close to his chest, and he sees the glimmers of satisfaction in Noah's intelligent eyes, that the archvillain catches on to the fact that he's been played. But the thing that really catches him off-guard isn't the trickery, it's the fact that Noah's done nothing with the uncharacteristic displays of vulnerability.
Alejandro can't understand why Noah hasn't taken advantage of his "weakness" yet. Inevitably leading to him confronting the assistant, as Alejandro isn't the type to "let sleeping dogs lie" so to speak, and he's still very much so in the one-track mindset of winning the competition- thus he assumes that any show of vulnerability can and will lead to his untimely elimination. But when he practically demands that Noah reveal what he's been planning, why he's been sneakily collecting information on him, all Noah can do is shrug his shoulders and say;
"I guess I just like seeing the real you. That's all."
And Alejandro doesn't know how to respond to that. No one's ever wanted the real him, he's always had to play the role of the perfect son, the perfect brother. He doesn't understand.
And like most people when they're faced with a foreign concept they have no basis of behaviour for, he lashes out.
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flowercrowngods · 6 months
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it keeps dawning on me, on a daily basis, that i might actually genuinely be homeless soon
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bidokja · 3 months
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i dont really care if something has bad writing like. im aware of that going in and if it does what it sets out to do then--as far as the general writing quality goes--its whatever to me, mostly, cause any other critique or gripe i have of it can rest on top of "but at least its hitting its own target (or doing its best to)" overall i tend to have an attitude of "everyone starts somewhere" and "even bad writing can be entertaining" and "art is art, creation is creation, etc" so like. even if i won't call bad writing good, im like. idc it can just Exist yknow.
what Really irritates me is when bad writing acts like its good with zero self awareness. when they have lost the plot of their own plot (if they ever had it to begin with). when bad writing acts like its reinventing the wheel or the best thing since sliced bread when it is in fact just a really shitty wheel and a stale loaf. and all my other critiques and gripes can thus boil down to "what are you even doing!! where are you going!!!" bonus irritation points whenever a fan(base) refuses to acknowledge all this as well.
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statementlou · 1 year
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BTW Love the growth from OTB, where it's about reassurance and realization, to BTM, where it's about acceptance and growth. God, Louis' queer-coded lyricism should be talked a lot more also
I sat on this for a minute cause I didn't think I was going to answer it, cause if I did it might just be to say, I don't necessarily think it's that simple, and what does being a grinch add to anything! But I realized I do actually have something to say, although it isn't what you were looking for anon, so, sorry about that. See, what I have been thinking is amazing about Louis' lyricism (and has shown big growth between Walls and FITF) and needs to be discussed more is its versatility, its prismatic blank slate qualities even while being so specific. What I mean is: his signature style is to write lyrics that are straightforward and easily understood as telling a clear story (certain trippy dance numbers excepted obv ;). But what's remarkable is that despite their seeming simplicity and easiness to read, a LOT of his songs can be perceived in a practically infinite number of ways, with every different interpreter absolutely confident in the rightness of their read. So yes, I personally happen to believe Bigger Than Me (and some other songs such as All This Time) are in part about Louis' queer experience. But every lyric that I think that about can also very easily mean something else- they can pass as generic radio songs about nothing, or as songs about experiences non queer listeners have had about any number of things, or as being about his career generally, or in most cases as boilerplate love songs. In the lead up to this album Louis talked about how he wanted people to come up with their own interpretations of the songs a lot, which I laughed at because he then kept saying what they meant to him anyway, but I think I get now why he said that so much just now in particular- I think the way it's possible to make almost any meaning from them is something he did knowingly and with great skill (and put hard work into), and deserves to be recognized. Like maybe one thing he was writing about was the queer interpretation, but then he also made them be about the fans generally and his life and love and 5 other things, while shaping them to be malleable and universal enough that all that fits into these extremely simple lines. And I think that people insisting they know what his songs are about and that it can only be one thing actually erases that work and skill that he, I believe, is rightfully proud of, and that deserves appreciation. Also it doesn't fit anywhere but I would like to add two other thoughts: one, sometimes part of a song can be about one thing or be literal but other parts can be made up or from something else sometimes for as little reason as to make it rhyme, and two this is a whole essay probably but I'm thinking a lot lately about how Louis talks about being honest in his writing and how people think that means the same thing as being literal (writing about his exact life) and actually something can be HONEST, like can talk about feelings and thoughts that really happened while depicting made up events (see: fiction/ literature generally), without being LITERALLY TRUE (this is a thing that is exactly how it happened in my life) so just throwing that in here also.
#there are a lot of reasons I find it hard to believe Land H are still together#but ISTG there just keep being more in the 'by god they really are??wtf' column against all odds!#so I simply have to shrug and be like damn. those crazy mfers. they really are huh#and one of them for me is them having these conversations (with a friend!) that they both talk about#and say the same things#and then go and do the exact same fucking things#and one of those things that they haven't explicitly said#but both started doing at the same fucking time#is being like oh you know what I'm going to do now#I'm going to write about stuff that isn't relationships#just...other stuff. where I'm from and how things change and how change is hard#friends' heartbreak. yknow just stuff. that happens to be the same as someone elses stuff#anyway I have all these thoughts about them writing less about their relationship/s and how much it feels to me like a thing telling me#that they are still together. but that's a whole other post probably#also#there's no point in making a fuss about it so I just left it out like whatever who cares#but Only The Brave is not inherently queer like... it just isn't#it can be read that way!! (as can literally everything apparently I saw someone saying OOMS was obviously queer the other day for example)#but its not obvious or inherent or inarguable#louis songwriting#blah blah blah#honest but not literal#thinking about how one of the most impressive things louis does is get a lot into a tiny number of words#and how bad I am at that 😂#genuinely its so much easier to use 1000 words to get a point across then to distill it so its one sentence
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smol-tired-binch-blog · 11 months
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Hello may I interest you all in literally the roughest comic sketch I have ever made in my life
Yuko has very thoroughly burrowed herself into my brain so I wanted to quickly sketch my idea for her and Kiryu meeting after TEN YEARS IN THE-
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aenslem · 11 months
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if you do not like coloring on a gifset why would you reblog it and write how you don’t like the coloring there ??? or do you think op would enjoy seeing tHAT on a gifset they spent time to make ? fuck you i have blocked people for less 
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lordstormageddidnt · 4 months
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every few weeks I get really morbid and start thinking about who I would want to take over my ao3 account after I die
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theloveinc · 1 year
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#not to start sh*t (tho i always do)#tho i really do understand the frustration surrounding like... ppl only reading x part of whatever fic#at the same time... the policing of how ppl read is so irritating#nobody has a right to comment on how ppl interact with writing + work#like i personally don't care but ... wanting interaction and comments makes more sense than telling ppl they can't read ur work#if they only read the sm*t/the dialogue/the whatever#like.... why are u writing if ur gonna take the enjoyment away from ppl... even if they're not getting the whole thing... thats on them#sometimes the enjoyment itself comes from interacting with the parts that make it understandable / touch upon someones interests#plus... like .. writing can be good but writing can also be way too flowery. there should be balance.#PLUS... if the only way to get the story is thru the dialogue? thats a WRITER problem#and also.. as someone with chronic brain fog and tons of sh*t i need to get done and also mental illness and such...#not everyone has the time or energy to invest in hours or even minutes of reading#ppl have different abilities not to mention reading speeds#and if skimming is the only way they can/how they participate in reading fanfic... literally leave them be#u can still enjoy stuff that way and appreciate a writer's talents even if ur only looking surface level... it just shouldn't matter#and it just makes me sad readers are being targeted and told theyre a bad audience for stuff like this... WHEN I GET IT#i can't control anyone obvs but i wish it would stop#i think it really makes this community less welcoming which is the uh. last thing we need.#but anyway no hate i guess even tho this is a bad take#i have opinions that would get me sniped truly#okay thats it bye#caitie blabs
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thesunsethour · 1 year
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baby’s first journalistic moral quandary
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childofaura · 2 years
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Been feeling the itch to make this post
And I absolutely know this will be an unpopular opinion. There will be discourse. It’ll get ugly. But I’m gonna say this because I’m getting absolutely sick of this trend, especially with that new She-Hulk garbage.
These three female characters:
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And any other female characters like them, have done actively more to hurt the way women are written in media than any other character type that’s been written. This trend of writing selfish, angry, narcissistic women, where the show treats them as being ultimately right and justified in whatever shitty behavior they engage in, SHOULD be angering a lot of people; a lot of women! Thankfully it does because most people see right through that crap. But the fact that there’s enough of a vocal minority that writers think people want to see more of this shitty type of character, is appalling.
There’s people really out here celebrating the bully-like behavior that these characters exhibit. The top one is unbridled anger and victim-blaming, the middle one is emotionally abusive and manipulative, and as we’ve seen with She-Hulk (Jennifer sweetie, you deserved better. You deserved SO much better. You HAD so much better when you had your cartoon iterations), the last one is privileged and narcissistic. And like... It’s not that you can’t have female characters with negative traits, but this isn’t something that should be touted as flawless and blameless, in-universe or narrative-wise. It doesn’t give these characters any kind of meaningful growth when they’re not learning how their behavior hurts others, or when they refuse to admit that they’re being incredibly unreasonable.
And my final big say: The people who are upset at these depictions are more pro-woman in how fictional women are portrayed than anybody I’ve seen praising these characters as the golden standard. Because the people who aren’t praising these characters want to see female characters grow, change, learn, or just get the love they deserve in general.
#discourse#media#I absolutely KNOW the Amber one is gonna get me hate#And I don't care; I'll argue as much as I need to#And I know that the timeframe in which these characters came out is kinda far-spread but#It's the fact that we're seeing more and more of these characters#It's the fact that it's TRENDING#And we need to stop this shit in its tracks#I'm saying this AS a WOMAN; I fucking hate what these characters are meant to represent#That they're meant to represent an ideal type of female character#Yassifying these mean-girl bitches is not the win for femininity in media that you think it is#You can have a female character that's strong#You can have a female character that's got personality flaws#But when you write these characters without ANY KIND OF SELF-AWARENESS of how malicious they come across#You're hurting media depictions of women more than some big-tiddy anime girl that people get their knickers in a twist over#Uzaki-chan is less toxic and less harmful than any three of these losers#Hell you wanna see an example of a character getting angry at someone else for a fair reason? Look at CGI Teela!#In Season 2 she's supposed to be guarding King Randor while she believes Sorceress is still with Adam#And Adam never tells her that Sorceress disappeared#So when Randor goes missing and both Adam and Teela end up confronting each other over each one's missing parent#Teela has a RIGHT to be angry because Adam purposefully lied to Teela about Sorceress; But at the same time ADAM has a right to be angry too#Because Teela absentmindedly left guard duty to Ork-0 and didn't really take Randor's disappearance seriously; BOTH had a right to be angry!#And it WORKED!#CGI Teela had more balance to her character than 2D Teela did!#And also apparently Amber wasn't half as much as a monstrous bitch in the comics as she is in the show#And again we've SEEN what She-Hulk is supposed to be!#Sorry I'm just very VERY fed up with this trend
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authenticalt · 7 months
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The AI generated ~Positivity Reminder~ work texts sure feel genuine (sarcasm)
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micer2012 · 5 months
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a reflection on MatPat's plagiarism
Hello, my name is Della, or micer2012, and 2 years ago Game Theory plagiarized three Tumblr posts of mine, making a video that now holds almost 6 million views.
My posts explaining his plagiarism made their rounds on Reddit, Tumblr and Twitter, but despite the Hermits and Pooka commenting on it (generally in support of me or saying they don’t know enough details about the situation to say either way), MatPat and his team have never owned up to anything, and no mention of my name is present on the video. The one Reddit post they made denying it (which was made before my detailed takedown, which they have never responded to (though the mods on the r/GameTheorists Reddit were kind and made sure it stayed up)) didn’t even mention me by name, just referring to me as “a tumblr user”. (Though one of the screenshotted comments in the body of the post does say my name)
This experience was baffling, but it’s overall had a positive impact on my life. r/Hermitcraft gave me a Golden Apple Award (post of the year, 2021). My inbox was filled with excited fans, wanting to ask me questions or pose their own theories, far more than the hate I got. (Though the hate I got from Game Theory fans was VERY funny. I wondered why none of them gave me shit about saying “MatPat misgendered Evil Xisuma” before realizing none of them read that far into the post.)
And getting on a more personal, and much more important note, I met most of my current online friends through this, including my partner. It helped me grow closer with my irl friends as well and gave me an entertaining story that I tell whenever I have the chance. It was one of the first things in my life that really made me feel like my talents, my autistic hyperfocusing and analyzing of things I love, could be valuable. Useful. Exploitable. It blew my mind that MatPat thought an autistic kid’s ramblings about a Minecraft Youtube joke character were good enough to steal. To put an audible sponsorship on. To get 6 million views off of.
And that’s why I’m writing this post, this update years later. As you might’ve been able to guess, Hbomberguy’s Youtube video on plagiarism reopened this wound. It was really hard for me to sit through, it took days of pausing and taking breaks, because I had experienced everything he was talking about firsthand. 
In my 10 page long takedown post, I wrote about how his rewording of my sentences made him say things that were incorrect, just like Filip did. The content farm production style that made big companies like Cinemassacre take one creator (AVGN/MatPat) and turn him and his content into a brand, a voice that reads out scripts by other people with other opinions/theories, is a history shared with Game Theory. What really hit me was Harris talking about how big creators only do this to people they think they can get away with doing it to. How they view their victims as lesser, as not deserving of their words, repackaging them as their own to give to an audience that can gain from hearing them, but deserves better than to have to listen to the original victim.
That’s the thing, I 100% think a video version of my theory to expose to a bigger community than “Evil Xisuma Fans on Tumblr” is a great idea!! Near the end of the video Harris talks about how video adaptations of things could be a great market, even an accessibility tool, and I completely feel that about my posts. I wrote them quickly assuming the reader was someone well versed on Evil Xisuma lore, after not even watching most of the CarnEvil series, and the diagrams I made to explain them are even less comprehensible. Harris makes a joke that I completely agree with, 
“I’m sure some of my videos would do very well if someone translated them into English.”
I don’t think I would’ve ever made my posts if I didn’t have autism, and a special fixation on Evil Xisuma and Hermitcraft. I made them because I felt the character was being done an injustice, and because I wanted to share with other superfans this theory that might explain it away. I do think that MatPat plagiarizing me was ableist. I used to wonder a lot if this would’ve happened if my posts were articulated better, if they had been peer reviewed, if the posts themselves had been spread to a wider audience before MatPat made his video. At one point when the discourse was fresh (before I had the time to write out my 10 page rebuttal), a bigger YouTuber (100k subs at the time) messaged me and started talking on Discord, interested in possibly making a video on the discourse, but I think my style of typing and general enthusiasm drove him away. You can tell by a single look at my blog (or my original 3 posts!) that I don’t usually type like this. This post you’re reading now has been peer reviewed and edited, and took me hours to format correctly. That video could’ve been huge, the entire outcome of this MatPat situation would probably be much different.
I also used to stress a lot about “being the one who ruined Evil Xisuma’s story”. If you didn’t know, to me S8 Evil Xisuma’s story got wrapped up pretty quickly and unsatisfying (in my personal autistic opinion). (though this might’ve been due to s8 being experimental and ending early with moon big) There was no real culmination of the plot points and arcs going on, and I don’t want to blame myself, but when Xisuma said on stream (when the MatPat thing was first going on) that he didn’t want to focus on the discourse or draw more attention to it, it makes a lot of sense to me that he just wanted to wrap it all up as quickly as possible. For a while I beat myself up about it, of ruining the story of this character I love, but it’s not my fault. If anyone’s, it’s MatPats, but I don’t think it’s useful to just blame someone else. That’s how the story ended up going, and that’s fine. This is Evil Xisuma we’re talking about, their inconsistent lore is what made them such an interesting character. And notably, Pooka made an animation with an awesome culmination of Jeff, the Dreamer, Evil Xisuma, and his own sona’s story, and it makes me so happy to watch. Whatever Pooka does is of course his own choice, but I’m glad he got to give this personal story his own ending (if it is an ending, and not just the start of a new chapter!). 
Typing this all out and getting it off my chest has made me feel a lot better. For a while I wanted to make my OWN video essay about Evil Xisuma’s lore and CarnEvil’s lore, actually going episode by episode to explain it instead of just assuming you knew as much about Evil Xisuma as I did. That idea is still not off the table, but MCYT isn’t something I’m that into right now. Maybe if something else comes out about Evil Xisuma I’ll get back on it, but for now I’m fine with letting that go. But I want to make other videos, share other theories and analysis… if I have the freetime I’d love to make YouTube videos, and if I don’t have the time I’ll continue posting to my tumblr and infodumping to my friends. Apparently my infodumping is valuable enough “content” to steal! Writing this out has made me feel a lot better though, I’m really glad I got it out.
If anyone ever wants to talk to me about the things I’m obsessed with, or reach out to me as a source in a bigger discussion about Game Theory or other channels, my inbox is more than welcome :] Thank you for reading! 
Sincerely, a tumblr user.
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simplyreveries · 3 months
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I ADORE YOUR WRITING!!
what about a reader who’s unknowingly flirting with the twst wonderland cast (specifically savanclaw, octanaville and diasomnia) because of culture differences and species differences?
e.g petting their ears, giving them gifts, smiling with teeth (bc for moray eels that’s how they mate 👀)
OR fem reader who has her period and some of the twst students can smell it I LITERALLY HAD A NIGHTMARE ABOUT THIS 😭😭😭😭
OMLL I APPRECIATE ITTT!!! sorry for the wait!!! i chose some from each dorm bc of my character limit btw!!
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azul ashengrotto
despite how much azul continues to do his best to learn about life on land… relationships are certainly difficult for him to understand sometimes considering how long he has spent his life in the sea and though there are many similarities between merpeople… there are still some differences. once azul is rather close to you he does become unintentionally— clingy with you. (when you two officially get together that's another story) but he has a habit of wanting to lean close to you or have a hand on you in some way, like on the small of your back when showing you something in the mostro lounge.
so needless to say, he is in love with any sort of touch from you he takes that as some sort of hope and sign that you reciprocate how he feels haha. jade and floyd tease him ALL the time about it especially when he was struggling to keep his cool-headed composure after you once gave him a hug after he did something to help you once.
like I've said azul really doesn't think about it or even try to be this way around you he just does aljdfajdkhf. he’ll feel like a smitten fool as he sits in the vip lounge as he's doing papers and just think about how you playfully linked your arm around his to bring him somewhere. small things like that are actually quite big to him when it comes down to the differences.
jade leech
he's aware you probably don't know that you're unknowingly flirting with him, but he finds it amusing and plays along with you, nevertheless. he thinks it's cute that you don't know and all the more enticing, you’ll find him chuckling, trying to hide his grin with his gloved hand “oh my, I didn't know you liked me that much fufu” he’d say. you can't help but feel confused as to what he finds so interesting… like you literally just yawned.
it'll take him a while to actually tell you what it means since he finds the obliviousness to be quite cute. you only put two and two together when he tells floyd about what you did right in front of him and the two laugh about it. now you've got floyd teasing u about it..
like azul he is a little more affectionate just in a different more. in a less obvious fashion, though there definitely have been a few occasions where he likes to bring your hand to his lips and see your reaction, he finds it so amusing. he always has his teethy grin plastered on his face.
leona kingscholar
he hates the way he can always tell when you're wearing cologne or perfume and he hates that he likes it as well, he may or may not be a bit addicted to your scent. he literally can tell if you're near just because he knows the damn fragrance you use.
if you two are particuarly close... like him falling asleep around you and such. if you happen to pet his head and his ears, he immediately shoots you this look then mumbles something before being too tired to do anything about it or give you some retort. he just lets it happen... he does enjoy it anyway. slowly he kinda doesnt realize how clingy he can get with you because of it. he becomes a little needy and wanting more attention from you. he cant help it.... i mean you basically just showed him that you're fine with it anyways.
leona seems to be someone who can get pretty possessive, unintentionally too over you. kind of territorial, like if you're someone he has eyes for then he doesn't expect others to really get in the way of that.
malleus draonica
malleus is not only a fae but a pretty sheltered one too, I’d think he’d take almost anything from you as a sign of you being completely infatuated with him as he is with you. you could offer split your ice cream or invite him out somewhere, show any sort of interest in him as he talks about gargoyles as he’s doing single club activities. the one time you asked curiously and wanted to touch his horns, he’d be searching for the loveliest jewel to bestow you for your wedding day.
speaking of jewels… he gifts to you a lot especially after you give him anything first (it could be a cool rock you found) and he’d be so smitten and glad to reciprocate that by giving you earrings, rings, necklaces etc. and when you accept them even though you're not exactly fully understanding why he takes it even more as a sign of you accepting his advances.
after taking any of your little acts of being somewhat kind to him and he’s already so deeply into you, lilia would certainly be someone who hears just all about it. i think he would only feel happy for malleus, as it appears he must’ve found the right one. he is just supportive of malleus and is simply overjoyed to know he has some little human that makes him so happy.
lilia vanrouge
he has lived long enough and in different places to understands human courting's and more so than someone like malleus. he knows how different it is, trust me he is fully aware, but he thinks it's amusing. lilia pretends to take it the wrong way and watch you get all confused, when he's just being playful.
just cant help that he finds it so adorable when you unknowingly show him affections as a fae would in his culture. even just being slightly affectionate with him is enough to have him giggling and warning you to be careful to what fae you do that to. they do tend to take very kindly towards any affections and gifts!
lilia will straight up tell you though too, you could gift him and give him something neat you found or made, and he'd look up at you with a stupid grin like "kfufu... i accept your love, dear" NO???. he still holds onto anything from you with the utmost joy.
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ishizizzle · 1 year
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My 19-yo manager got upset off someone else's energy and talked to me stupid. I cared for hours longer than I should but thankfully, I'm growing apathetic to the whole person
#it me#i really been journaling these thoughts out lately. I'll write it down and#watch my complaints get smaller and smaller because i already wrote i was mad about this or that#so the only logical step I can is forward but I'm mentally ill so logic is built like a crazy straw and I'm wearing stilettos#but i get the shit out and get it smaller and smaller until i can summarize it and get to the root issue. its nice. it saves a lot of words#i know I'm in the right but there's nothing wrong with humility. her being 19 wouldn't even matter if she didn't act so immature#but that's whoevers fault that is for hiring her in that position cuz i clocked her and the scene the moment it happened#i even tried having a conversation about because SHE was talking about it like it was something to talk about#and i told her it didn't seem fair to her to have a future in wherever she's supposed to be going and be stuck in#a position you don't have the skillset for like i said it normal but that was the point of my end of the discussion#and all she could say is how is it unfair if its something i choose and i shut up because fuck off I'm not explaining that to you#not only would she not care or understand the answer but I'm not her mama her friend or her sis that's not my business#they pay her more to tell other niggas what to do.to go up there and cheat on the bf she stay on the phone with. she doesnt clean#I'm like what does she do other than show up and make sandwiches that's the only reason they were impressed. she asked and they said yes#before either knew if the other understood what they were signing up for and now she's cracked#she was alreasy cracked but its like chill out damn this why ppl dont like teenagers bro#leave all that bullshit at home can you come to work to work please idgaf if you want work friends#lame ass kids in this emotionally mature positions dude it makes no fucking sense#if they were adult enough to handle it fine but these are clearly kids and who cares but like#can someone else babysit i already babysat in jr. high and them parents paid way more for less of my time please dont push me#all that to say i feel myself tired of thinking about it. I'm bored of it. its not even noteworthy cuz it wasn't even a beef#she only got mad bc her pick me signals went off and she always acts the same as the guys but like#when they get mad she is suddenly mad to you know? and its embarrassing#i guess second hand? like am i embarrassed for you or myself for making you think we were on the same level
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