#i genuinely cannot think about anything else and i have a uni report to write until monday

[flowercrowngods]

it keeps dawning on me, on a daily basis, that i might actually genuinely be homeless soon

#the housing situation here is absolutely crazy. i don't stand a chance. it's so fucking scary #like i try not to obsess over it i try to remind myself that i have almost three months left to find something but *how* when there are #over 100 requests within less than 12 hours. *how* when i have no real job. *how* when there's no reason to let to me than anyone else #how do i not obsess over the absolute powerlessness in this situation. how do i not obsess over that #i genuinely cannot think about anything else and i have a uni report to write until monday #but all i can think is 'you'll be homeless you'll be homeless you'll be homeless and you have no power over it' #i refuse to cry in this library but someone anyone tell me how to stop obsessing and how to stop being so scared #over a hundred in less than 12 hours. i don't stand a fucking chance. you'd think this is berlin for how crazy this is #blah #not st