#but she didnt really delve into it

[zellk]

I'm in love with Aamira ❤️❤️🙏 can you give us more info about her? Some fun and maybe not so fun facts about her?

Hi Anon ! Thank you for your kind words and for your interest \o/ Aamira's side of the family is the one that Qalaa got her "Beast Curse" from. It's a bloodline hereditary curse that boosts the strength of those in good health (like Qalaari) and eats away at those that have a weak constitution... like Aamira. "Weak" members of the family are usually cast aside or cast out. Aamira ; while still quite young, 16 or so ; ran away from all of this to try to live her life following only her will and enjoy as much of it as possible. Even without the curse Aamira would have had a weak health, but think of it as her Beast basically making her immunodeficient and weaker and weaker as the years go by.

She managed to make a little life for herself in a small unremarkable place close to one of the older forest of the region. There she developed close ties with two siblings, Temhos & Olgha. Both of them members of a tribe that lives deep deep withing the old woods who come to visit the village semi frequently to trade goods and buy things to carry back where they live. Both siblings tried to court Aamira (after months of good relationship), and, eventually, Aamira chose Temhos. For two or three years things were pretty idyllic fro all of them. But then Aamira started talking about wanting a child... Temhos tried to reason with her that with her health it was really fucking dangerous for her to try and that her chances of not making it through were too high for his tastes... Aamira pretended to listen but actually didn't and things got really bad when Temhos found out she was pregnant. They argued, Aamira's health took a downside, Temhos took care of her until she got better again (and Aamira, with her rose-tinted delusional glasses, thought it meant he'd stay). When Aamira was around 7 month pregnant Temhos ran away (very very far away). It broke her heart but not her (by now frantic) determination to see her pregnancy though. She (somehow) found her away again to Temhos' village where she was taken in by Olgha (who was very confused, then very angry (at both Aamira & Temhos), then very panicked). Qalaari was born in this village. Olgha became her surrogate parent to help Aamira raise her (she was still in love with Aamira, but knew that her heart, broken as it was, would still never be hers... I think Aamira knew Olgha's feelings too and could only just be very thankful she still helped her raise Qalaari, despite how painful it must have been for her.) Aamira was very loving with her daughter, but her (now very bad) health and broken heart left her with long dissociative episodes, on top of moments where she wouldn't even managed to get out of bed. That's when Olgha would take care of Qalaari most (frustrated and heartbroken as she was over the whole situation, Olgha genuinely loves Qalaari like her own daughter.) 12 years after, the Beast finally eroded all of what Aamira was (she was still young... probably around 32 or 34 years old ??) and she passed away. Also, how Aamira survived giving birth is nothing short of a miracle. Most likely due to her will of titanium to meet and raise her daughter... Eventually the Beast got the best of her, but she managed to hold on for 12 more years !!

#and now Qalaari has trauma #and also an Inner Beast that makes her REALLY FUCKING VOLATILE #think hypersensitivity #except you are and get strong enough to destroy houses and whole villages when you are submerged by your emotions #Olgha has lost an eye during Qalaari's second worst “crisis” #which is the crisis that triggered her (temporary) banishment from her village #she is travelling now since she isn't able to come back for 3 years... #Olgha was banished too when she was younger so like it's “not the biggest deal” in the sense that you WILL be reintegrated when u come back #but it's still a big deal lmao #especially to Qalaa who can't really... control... her beast... #in the DnD AU apparently the Molandine familly (Aamira's side) has ways of 'taming' the Inner Beasts #but i don't have a lot more info bc i didnt get to delve too deep into what my GM has planned yet #but i'm eyes emoji #anyways that was Aamira's whole life without TOO much of the little details of the messes of her various situations fkjshdgkjh #but as you can see it's a mess #Temhos is probably the only person in the world that Qalaari wants to and would absolutely kill on sight #like she is so fucking kind and forgiving and patient #because all of her hatred is concentrated and pointed at This One Person kfmsdjhgj #also because Olgha and Aamira taught her so so much about Love and the strength of it #and about how she should use her own strength and unnaturally powerful body to do Good #aamira #aamira croquelune #aamira molandine #qalaari croquelune #qalaari #olgha #olgha croquelune #temhos #temhos croquelune #beary talk

[sunshineandviolets]

finally got around to watch the dungeon and dragons movie and it was... good, i guess?

like it was an enjoyable movie, made me laugh, visually stunning with the world, characters were cool - kinda wanted to see more of them and their group dynamic.

but i suppose with so much hype around it, i had too much of an high expectation.

#it felt more as a first introduction movie than a standalone thing #esp with the characters #feel like the others beside the main dude didnt really get much time to delve deeper #esp that druid girl - i was looking forewrd to her the most #but she was just... there #did cool fighting stuff but dont really know much except one or two lines about her family #i know i sound really negative #and i did genuinely enjoy it! #but it just... i expected something more i guess? #even the emotional scenes didnt really hit #even the big baddie at the end was just... meh #they went all out on the costumes and the visuals - but forgot that we need to actualoy care about these characters to enjoy the story too #i feel as if this shouldve been a series #couldve helped flesh out the othee characters more and not make things feel so fast paced

[orcelito]

This binge read is great news for ITNL readers, too. Bc I wanted to refresh my knowledge on trigun in general b4 jumping back into ITNL, bc I will be doing more with official plot stuff Real Soon

It's a good thing I did, bc I picked out a few details I want to fix in ITNL from it. So I'm not writing chapter 15 Yet, but I have completed an important step on the way there.

Good news is to come, hopefully.

#speculation nation #itnl shit #REALLY i needed to reignite my love for the manga #bc ive mostly been fucking around with 98 tbh. it's been bleeding a lot into ITNL #and that's fine for the parts we were in. the sandsteamer stuff is pretty steeped in 98 and all #and vash being goofy to deflect is indeed. very vash. #but with the next chapter it will be delving back into manga specific things. so i needed to Remember those things. #not that ive forgotten the big details. but uh #turns out when you read 6 volumes in a row on very little sleep while stressed and distraught #it fucks with your detail retention lol. there are lots of little things i picked up in this reread. #did y'all realize elendira had a fucking ATOMIC BOMB???? and the only reason she didnt set it off was livio???????? #crazy. fuckin crazy. the number of blink and you miss it things in this manga man... #but. yeah. im hoping to do some editing and rereading for ITNL tomorrow #getting back into it 🥰 i will come out the other side of this all a new man

[pettyprocrastination]

Aftermath

an: not a fic, but an assignment I did during the semester. Had to adapt or extend a scene from one of Shirley Jackson’s writing and I chose The Lottery. So now that I think about this, it actually is technically fanfiction lmaooo. But I just wanted to post something outside of the norm since I haven’t been horribly active lately. 

Summary: The day after the town’s tradition, a widow is forced to wake up to an empty bed and cold sheets. 

Word count: 709

Warnings: vague description of violence and bodies. 

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    He forgets when he wakes up. Comforter too soft and sleep too deep for him to remember right away, just groggy and content as the sun peeks through the curtains. He stretches, body curling and straightening like a feline before he speaks with a smile and closed eyes. 

    “Good morning.”     He opens his eyes to meet an empty bed and remembers. 

    The crowd remarking on the weather as they gathered rocks, his wife’s tense smile as she made pleasantries with the neighbor as they headed to the town square. 

    The look on her face when she saw the paper in her hand. 

    He remembers now. 

    The neighbors greet him as he gets the mail. Smiles far too wide to be genuine and their eyes darting around as if looking for an escape in case he snaps. In case he blames them. 

    But he can’t blame them. Not really. They all took part in it. 

    The tradition. The massacre. 

    The murder of his dear Adalaide. 

    He never condemned the lottery, not like the others. He would nod his head politely at the insistence of upholding tradition and the “culture” of their town by the older generations. The ones who had been through more lotteries than the years he had been on earth. Afterwards he would poke fun with his wife who, even in her sweet nature, couldn't help but laugh at his cartoonish impressions of the disgruntled elders. 

    They would lay together in bed, laughter fading away from her sweet voice and replaced with a furrow of her brows. 

    “Have you ever thought about it?” She would ask.

    “About?”  

    Adalaide would pause for a moment, as if scared somebody would hear. 

    “A life without it.” 

    “No.”

    Which was true. He never thought about it before. He didn’t have to. The closest family members of his that had been picked were old. Distant cousins-of-cousins and withering great-grandparents that he would have to pick his brain to remember the name of. A dear friend of the playground, once. When he was eight years old, Cassandra. A sweet little girl who would only laugh when he tugged at her pigtails and chased her with frogs. 

    Try as he might, he couldn’t remember the day she was picked. He couldn’t remark on the feeling of the rock leaving his hand, or her mother’s wailing or even her own shrieks of pain as it happened. All he could remember was that her pigtails had been tied off with a satin pink ribbon that glinted in the sunlight. 

    He thinks of the weight of his wife’s head on his chest, long lashes kissing the freckles on her cheeks as she stared off with a frown. “It would be nice though, wouldn't it?”

    He thinks of her fingers lacing with his and running his thumb over the small scar on her ring finger. 

    He thinks of her smile. Her kiss. 

    Yes. 

    The shaking but reassuring smile she gave him before the first rock sailed through the air and cracked against her jaw. 

    It would have been nice.

    He spends his day in a daze, flashing between reality and past with limbs moving like he were underwater. He thinks he hears the door knocking, but doesn’t move. He simply sits and thinks of what could have happened. 

    If he had gone to the council meetings, voiced his opposition to the lottery. If he had grabbed his slip earlier,if he had refused and stood in front of her like a vigilante protector, if he had taken her hand in his and ran. Ran until the town was nothing but a glint in the distance and a fleeting thought in his mind. 

    He blinks. 

    Hours have passed. It's late now. He should sleep. 

    He drags himself to bed, limbs like lead and eyes already closing before his head hits the pillow. 

    Adalaide smiles in his dreams and kisses him sweetly. She isn’t a mangled body, screaming out in agony. She’s loving and soft under his hands just as he knew her to be. She tells him its all going to be okay. 

    When he wakes up in the morning, he stretches and smiles before saying “G’morning” with sleep still heavy on his tongue and-

    He opens his eyes to meet an empty bed and remembers. 

#how tf do i tag this one #anyways shirley jackson horror queen icon legend she is the moment #read this in class and one of my friends was like 'why couldnt you do something HAPPY jesus christ' akjdkjsjks love that girl #this one isnt as good as the other assignments/original works ive posted but shes here and shes a lil sum sum #fanfiction but not the fanfiction i usually do lmao #Original Work #only sort of?? idk #shirley jackson #the lottery #i just really love this short story i always have and ive always thought about like...delving deeper into it #like how the politics of it work and hwo these people sort of have to mourn in silence because they cant speak out against the lottery #but also that toher towns are already doing away with the tradition while others hold onto it #i have lots of thoughts #i use he way too much but that's because i didnt want to give him a name #its incredibly short but i loved this class so goddamn much you guys

[freakshowcowboy]

okay the basic gist of my rewrite of reids addiction plotline is reid reaches out to gideon and gets brushed off like in canon (in my version it would be very obvious this is because gideon cannot see how bad its gotten cannot face that this is really happening) he tries to get sober by himself like in canon but unlike canon he realizes he just. he Cant do this alone. he needs help. but he cant ask gideon again. he cant ask morgan, jj, hotch, or garcia he cant cant risk losing their respect. so in the midst of withdrawls he calls emily because well, hes already been a dick to her for months so he doesnt have to worry about her opinion of him, but shes also a good person and he knows he can trust her, so he calls her, asks for help, and when hes finally through the worst of it, with the sun peaking through the blinds as they sit on his bathroom floor her feels for the first time like maybe he will get through this

#this is just the portion i vaguely explained to my mom theres more but its like basically just how actually acknowledging reids addiction #would effect the rest of the series #yeehawing #criminal minds #also an important part is that the reasoning behind every character not intervening is delved into #morgans in a similar boat to gideon they just cant see it #deep down they Know but everything they see every sign is pushed down theyre not allowing themselves to see whats really there #it would be too devastating #and jj. again similar boat but she Is consciously aware but just doesnt know how to help #she tried reaching out but she could See his walls go up and she just couldnt risk losing him after all that theyd both been through #so she shut up left it alone and just tried to be around hoping he would ask her for help #garcia didnt know. she could see he wasnt himself and he was struggling but she thought it was all trauma. #thats her boy wonder. he'll be okay. he has to be. #so she sneaks him gifts and treats tells him she loves him and shes there if he wants to talk #but how could he tell garcia sunshine in human form that hes getting high at work and doesnt know how to stop #but then hotch. hotch knows. hotch very much knows. #and hes Heartbroken #but he assumes gideon is helping him. thats gideons job after all. hes reids mentor of course he'll help him #so hotch thinks the best thing he can do is act normal and make sure no one higher up realizes one of his agents is an addict #also emily knows immediately as well. shes the newest member of the team she has the least bias she can really see whats going on #and she knows addiction shes seen it close up #but again shes not close to reid yet so when hes a dick she doesnt take it personally but shes a dick back #because she understands but that doesnt mean she has to put up with that #and she doesnt plan on getting involved doesnt feel like thats something She should do #but when He reaches out to Her? of course shes gonna help #ANYWAYS. #i have Many Thots and Feelings GoodNight

[farklelucas]

okay so. now that ive taken some time to breathe, compose myself, and gather my thoughts, lemme lay out why the teen wolf movie was a hot holy mess (besides, you know, the obvious) as a teen wolf enthusiast and expert.

a lot of the characters were really little more than set dressing. to be specific, i think liam could have been replaced by a mailbox with a hat and the movie would have been the same (and this is coming from a major liam fan). the same can be said for mason, malia, melissa, peter, and honestly even the sheriff (which i hate bc god he was such a core of the show). i think parrish was only useful in one specific instance and even that isn't enough to warrant him being in the film. the characters i loved felt like cardboard cutouts and that wasnt fair to me, to the characters, or to the actors. i would have rather they not been there at all tbh. like just leave liam out of this if youre gonna do him like that fr

a lot of the plot points felt... disjointed and weird. saraid said it felt like three different movies in one and i have to agree. derek and eli felt like its own thing, then scott and allison, and then everything else (whatever the hell parrish and malia had going on, the lydia and jackson buddy cop comedy, liam in... japan with a ramen shop i think? and some random girlfriend that happened to be a kitsune) kind of fell to the wayside in between.

this movie was truly so flat without kira. it was hard to make a nogitsune movie without stiles, but it was almost impossible to make without her. hikari unfortunately ended up just feeling like a woman they randomly shoved into all the plot points kira was supposed to be in. because she didnt have a character besides liams girlfriend (and because liam was barely a character himself), she just couldn't compare and so kiras lack of presence was really felt. she left a huge hole in the narrative. they didnt even mention her and you knew what was missing. if you had cut khylin and dylan sprayberrys checks entirely, im sure they would have had enough to pay her as much as the rest of her white coworkers :) but that's just my opinion xxx

this was supposed to be for fans of the original series, but really just felt like jeff davis's weird rare pair fanfiction. instead of focusing on the dynamics that already existed - melissa and the sheriff, malia and peter, scott and liam, derek and. anyone really - he ended up delving into all these new dynamics with only two hours to develop them. malia and parrish (which. i really had to mentally run through the show to see if those two had interacted before and i dont think they have), liam and hikari, and derek and eli. all of which had a shot at being interesting but because there were so many different plots going on, it all just felt. awkward and confusing.

that being said, im gonna move onto derek and eli generally. i like eli! i do. i thought he was funny, i thought the actor was super charming (although the timeline made no sense because if he was born fifteen years ago And allison died fifteen years ago he would be braedens and. hate to say it folks. thats not braedens baby. make him mixed jeff davis you fucking coward). really, i liked him. ... but not at the expense of dereks character. the derek i knew was an asshole. he was mean, he was sarcastic, he was a bastard (honorifically). its not to say that people cant change, but... the derek i saw in the movie was a complete 180 from the derek we last saw in the series. honestly, the derek i saw in the series probably wouldn't have made a good parent - we saw how he was with erica, isaac, and boyd. even with scott. derek was kind of a dick. i dont even think he would have wanted kids - i think he would raise them out of duty, and i think he would if a partner wanted him to. but i dont think kids were ever in his life plan. and i think that could have been super interesting to see with him and eli. i think making him a parent could have been really interesting and it just. crumbled.

i know i mentioned the timeline in that last bit but. the timeline. it hurts my head. when was eli born. what year is it. how long has it been since scott has been in beacon hills. im so confused.

lets talk about adrian harris. shall we. i have made a list of people who i think would have been a better villain reveal are you ready: allison, peter, theo, chris argent, kate argent (resurrected), matt daehler (resurrected), victoria argent (resurrected), kira herself, danny mahealani, rafe mccall, isaac's shit dad, coach, greenberg, me with a baseball bat filled with rusty nails, jeff davis in a wig. the list goes on. you could not have picked a more random and less memorable character to reveal as your villain. i almost felt like i was being mocked. "haha! you didnt expect it to be this guy? the chemistry teacher who also died fifteen years ago? who had almost nothing to do with the plot until season 3? stupid! idiot!" i have never been so mad in my life

speaking of villain. did they forget what a nogitsune is. it needs a host. its not some guy they can stab to death. its a concept, a feeling, a parasite. its a manifestation of mental illness. but no sorry excuse me i must be wrong bc now its also a werewolf??????? im sorry. am i the crazy one. give me void allison! give me allison as the host and shes being taken over and she has those bags under her eyes and that creepy void stare and grin! give me crystal reed emmy noms! while we're on the subject, heres some more questions about the nogitsune include: why was it in a jar? why was it with LIAM of all people (who didnt even know what that was)? why did its powers completely change? HOW was it a werewolf????????? i cant stop thinking about it.

i said it once and ill say it again: jackson fucking carried this movie. he was giving all season one jackson, he was bringing comic relief, he was even bringing up ethan when no one else would! king! he carried. but he shouldn't have had to. dont get me wrong, i think crystal reed ate and left no crumbs. this was allisons movie and it should have been. but when the other two standout characters imo were jackson (who arguably did nothing) and coach (who did even less)... you simply didnt use your characters well. i think i would put deaton up there and even chris, but... scott and lydia? this should have been their movie. but scott spent nearly the whole movie ignoring his friends, and lydia was reduced to 'woman whose plot was about a man,' again. it was horrible. lydia outgrew that song and dance by season two. and scott? hasnt been to beacon hills in twelve years? hasnt seen his mom or his friends? not the scott mccall i know.

this is not about shipping discourse this post will never be about shipping discourse so i say this as a completely objective party. that being said. st/dia was so strangely shoved in there at the end. how did harris even know about lydia leaving stiles. how did he know about her dream. how did it add to the plot. like yes the nogitsune feeds of chaos and strife but i think lydia was getting enough of that watching her friends get murdered. it felt like a weird way to explain why dob wasnt there and it simply didnt work. i would have rather they not said anything about stiles at all.

anyway, this is skipping over a lot of other little things that i thought were really bad (sexualizing malia who literally had the mentality of an eight year old for most of her life AGAIN, why was mason a fucking cop, peters lack of interaction with the hale family which is what made him interesting in the first place, the absolute insanity of allison coming back to life and just being absolutely okay even though shes been dead for fifteen years, died at the hands of her friend, and almost everyone she knew including stiles, isaac, and kira are all just gone now), but boy oh boy. for a while it was funny bad. like "oh this is bad but i can still enjoy this for what it is" bad. but those last ten minutes. what is actually absolutely wrong with jeff davis. there are very few times ive felt this betrayed by tv shows i held this close to my heart, but im there. im heartbroken. i wont go on about it here, bc honestly, it would need its own post considering how much i have to say. but if the rest of the movie was bad? that was shit was traumatizing.

anyway. so sorry this post is this long, and so sorry i couldnt come back with a positive review. this show died long ago; i think we should have just let it rest - nobody asked for a reunion, and now i can see that was with good reason. so the next time jeff davis opens up an email with a header titled 'sequel idea' and he ccs tyler posey, i think we should all just agree to ler arden cho beat him to death in a dennys parking lot instead.

#long post #teen wolf #teen wolf movie #twm #personal #shut your pie hole katie

[dreamerwitches]

Im miffed that Mabayu’s witch was never revealed but I knew she was going to have a second magia since a little while ago.

But i think the question is…. Who would it have been? The biggest answer is Itzli, and also Waplurgis because of her colours (but honestly its way looser…) but Im focusing on Itzli to start.

I think its a no. I honestly think Mabayu’s film theming was just a gimmick, a stunt to get people guessing. But when you look at other aspects of Itzli they just dont line up at all.

‘a magical girl who came from the end of the galaxy’ you could reeeaally stretch this to say the end of the galaxy is Mabayu’s loops but i really dont think this is right

‘she has shown herself here to forget about all the magical girls from this universe’ works in Mabayu’s favour. Shes sick of being stuck and forced into a bunch of magical girls business she honestly has nothing to do with but HAS to help because she literally has nothing else. But its the universe bit that doesnt work. It honestly makes me think of Ultimate Madoka more. She, of course, has seen magical girls across the universe. Mabayu has seen… five

Her labyrinth is absolutely a point for Mabayu, its a theatre damn it. But its very obvious so I neednt delve

One thing against Mabayu is that Itzli has a pretty clear clover theme. Its the kind that you’d imagine her magi having it as her soul gem or something. Its on her kiss, hairclip thing and Kyubey states she uses clovers all over the world to spy on others. Mabayu completely lacks this. Witch abilities always link to their magi, it wouldnt just pop out of nowhere. (Ophelia can multiply, oktavia has a sword, candeloro has ribbons, you get it)

Another thing in Mabayu’s favour is that Itzli is clearly linked to Homura. Homura is the first magical girl to meet her and Kyubey states that Itzli has grown strong because of Homura. Mabayu and Homura have a clear link in scene zero and she remembers Mabayu at the start of new loops. They do have a connection and yes, Mabayu did grow stronger as a magical girl because of Homura.

Its certainly tricky cause there are things for and against her… I have a terrible feeling they DO want her to be Itzli but are like ‘oh lets just retcon those things we confirmed before to make it work’ (unless Mabayu is an alien after all??? Eh, that could explain her mama’s abilities..? And maybe why she didnt want anyone to see her in the hospital cause the jig would be up? Now thats a theory..!) im still hung up on the clovers though. Came from a clover planet??

But one thing that has been rattling around in my head is this… Mabayu cant become a witch. Why? Because every time she dies, she just starts the loop over. She cant die so we’ll never see her witch. This could be a hundred percent wrong because i havent seen all of scene zero but its my hunch so far

Well what do you think? Im interested to see others thoughts

#Magia record #scene zero #scene zero spoilers #mabayu #itzli

[themuffinsoup]

GIVE ME AVATAR REANIMATED!!

Give me way more episodes. Imagine drawing it out and having more filler and ozai having much more depth. And delving into azula being groomed and seeing more of her cracks long before the last episodes.

I want newer and updated animation!!

I want the characters to actually be written better!! More fleshed out! This story is a journey but it felt so short tbh. Imagine more exploration and more mystery to the world!!

I want Katara to not be forced to be with Aang. (It's groooooss and it makes me cringe when I watch it)

Make katara and zuko fall in love!! I really don't care about Mei lol sorry to Mei fans but as it stands, I truly feel like she adds nothing 😅 just a soft spot for zuko but I don't like it at all. It's just thrown together to me. Zutara could've been the most beautiful slow burn I've ever seen but noooo Aang just HAD to get the girl like fuck offfff.

I genuinely feel like avatar could be more like One Piece in a way when it comes to the world building and characters. They're practically pirates traveling around with each other but they have a goal. I actually think it would've been cool if they DIDNT know how to end the war? Everyone was just like "yeah this'll end if you fight him and that's that" like did anyone...try to end the war themselves?? I want to see that. Like yeah of course Aang could do the final fight but it would be cool if he didn't know the whole time that it was gonna be HIM. But I know changing this one thing changes a lot but I WANNA SEE ITTTT!!

#avatar the last airbender #avatar #one piece #aang #katara #zutara #zuko

[gentlegentian]

I feel like the true cruelty of the lan sect is a really overlooked topic in the mdzs fandom, because when you think about it...

they practically forced madam lan into marriage so she wouldn't be executed because she killed one of her teachers, but gave her no trial or chance to explain why, and once she was married they simply locked her away and that was that. qingheng-jun then locked himself into seclusion once he had a kid and that was that, had no business with the rest of the sect and left xichen and wangji to grow up alone.

not to mention the fact that wangji even being born is suspicious... xichens conception makes sense, as they would've needed a sect heir, but wangji? how would he have been concieved, if madame lan was trapped away and qingheng-jun was in seclusion. either this is a plot hole im looking way too deep into or theres something darker happening there

in any case, the twin jades most likely did not have a good childhood. like at all. their father was completely absent, and once their mother died they were practically parentless. sure lan qiren raised them, but he was also acting as the lan sect leader whilst qingheng-jun was away, so i doubt he held much involvement in their raising other than making sure they stuck to the rules and were fed etc

SPEAKING OF THE RULES. the punishments the kids in the lan sect had to deal with?????? the fact that nhs, wwx and jc were beaten for rule breaking whilst they were staying at the lan sect as pupils just makes me wonder how badly they treat their own lan disciples if thats how they treat special guests from other clans. they were fifteen when that happened, FIFTEEN, so clearly the lan sect has no problem with LITERALLY BEATING children to teach a lesson.

its basically just abuse to keep a system in place, and it makes me wonder just how many times the twin jades suffered like that as kids to be as 'perfect' as they are as adults

the lan are so corrupt in their ways and i hate how we dont fully see that in the story until wangji is whipped for protecting wei ying. the whole situation is so fucking cruel and unnecessary it makes my blood boil whenever i reread/rewatch that part, because yes wangji did wrong by injuring the elders but the only reason he did so was because they were refusing to listen to him and quite literally trying to murder his lover.

i get he committed treason or whatever by fighting the elders but 33 whip lashes all in one go with NO breaks or healing time?? with a magical cultivated punishment whip as well, its genuinely like they were trying to kill him. even if he didnt die from the lashings themselves he could've gotten an infection, or had severe blood loss, or hell they coulve broken his spine with the force of it. it took so long for him to heal from that, and it left him with so many scars both physical and mental. that level of injury would've likely left him with some form of chronic pain or illness as well, and it was just so cruel for a situation that didn't ever need to come to this.

they forced him into seclusion, just like his father, and punished him for defending himself, just like they did his mother. xichen ended up similarly as well, with his seclusion after the events with jgy. the lan elders had seen the horrific end qingheng-jun and madame lan had, and yet did nothing to stop their children from facing the same trauma, even making theirs worse.

the lans praise themselves as a sect that sticks to righteousness and principles, when realistically its just full of hypocrites holding onto power by means of fear and punishment. they say that lwj broke the rules by fighting to save wwx, and yet somehow torturing him was completely within the rules of the clan.

their rules and image are merely a cover up for the downright abuse and silencing of their disciples, and its just so fucked up. i could rant about this for so much longer, but also wanna see what other people think before i delve into some of the other topics i have in mind that relate

#lan wangji deserved better #'wwx suffered so much' WHAT ABOUT WANGJI #lan qiren on his own is a whole nother thing i could rant about #xichen as well like #the twin jades are so overlooked in some aspects it hurts my soul #mdzs #cql #mo dao zu shi #the untamed #danmei #grandmaster of demonic cultivation #the founder of diabolism #modaozushi #mo dao su zhi #lan wangji #lwj #lan zhan #lan xichen #lan huan #lxc #mdzs lwj #mdzs lxc #lan qiren #gusu lan #twin jades #twin jades of gusu #gentlegentian #wangxian #mxtx #mxtx mdzs

[musubiki]

Has...Oscar tangled at all with the merchant before? Maybe made an impression that made the merchant think "wow this kid is actually kinda annoying" ? It also makes me think, okay if oscar is mentored by madame springs and he succeeds her, that would certainly be a heck of a way for them to be "worse than her."

Nosy persistent conspiracy theorist who wants to uncover your true nature AND who's also trying to run you out of a business in the healing sector? I'd start losing my patience. Tho this is assuming oscar's penchant for the weird lives on even in older age

you know...this is definitely something i need to explore more because!!!! true!!! he is going to eventually replace madam springs, and that means on some level, oscar will know the merchant beyond "npc guy who sells things with limited dialogue options"

for now (and throughout most of the story) oscar is just "the apprentice." madam springs is always still the one to interact with the merchant, and you see oscar just kinda smiling and listening in the background waiting for them to stop bickering.

BUT when oscar DOES interact with the merchant (in a non-buyer-seller context), he IS worse. but its in the "I'm a better healer than madam springs and also she charges too much for the work we do imo." so hes even WORSE competition. and i think this is the only way to actually irritate the merchant, is if you start interfering with his business in a way where he cant oppose you.

lore fact: the merchant really does have the best goods at the best prices!! hes the kind of npc you would see on RPG guides about "if you need [item] you need to / should get it from the merchant because hes the only one that sells it / he has the cheapest price and refresh rate." and the ONLY one who can beat him (not even for everything, just for healing items) is madam springs. so her business is the ONLY thing that is mildly a threat to him, and he hates it. i dont think you see him get irritated at anyone/anything else except her!!

(and he cant steal her formulas or kill her either. "Her business patented the formula before the fall of the witch king, so I'm assuming he can't legally take it and sell it in his own shop." --Sulluvan about madam springs and the merchant)

on the note of oscar trying to uncover his true nature, oscar is smart enough to not mess with it. its mochi and lime who almost fucking die trying to uncover it, against the advice of EVERYONE telling them to leave it alone. the only reason they didnt die is that the merchant spared them because he knew they both still had a part to play that hadn't come to pass yet. (also i want an episode that delves into who/what he is without my main characters dying LMFAO). so after that incident, mochi and lime both tell oscar and the guild about it, so he leaves it alone

(side note: at the moment, lime is actually the one in the guild who knows the merchant the best, strangely. i think its the black canvas thing about him, that whatever magic the merchant uses that prevents people from questioning his nature, it doesnt work on lime. and by "knows him the best" i mean he gets a bit more cryptic dialogue from him than the others)

#obviously doesnt know him as well as sulluvan does #but someone in the guild needs to be able to actually get cryptic hints from the merchant #lore #text #bpp #i like the idea that all the guild members are slightly close to the crypids #mochi->sulluvan #lime->merchant #oscar->madam springs #evetually coco will get one probably

[marleneismydopamine]

lily evans and marlene mckinnon

- Ultimate opposites attract

- Lily leaves little notes in Marlenes bag that can just say little things like “I hope you have a nice day” or its a long ass poetic speech on why marlene is the greatest person she has ever met and is so lucky to have her as a friend. When marlene finds those ones she has to leave class to go cry in the bathroom.

- “You had a crush on me?” “Of course I did. Who wouldn’t?” except it goes both ways

- Imagine, head girl lily Evans who gets the highest grades in her year, has like 4 extra curricular activities and has never gotten a detention in her life, is dating stoner girl marlene McKinnon who literally only gives a fuck about 2 of her classes + quidditch and instead of doing her homework she spends all her time delving into whatever hyper fixation that has her in a death grip atm

- Love each other to bits but would rather die than be in a group project together

- Lily is the person who helps dye the back of Marlenes hair if she cant do it herself

- Act like an old married couple even though they insist they aren’t even dating

- Marlene has adhd and struggles with executive dysfunction and so she usually does her assignments in a caffeine fuelled haze at 2am the day before its due when she finally gets the adrenaline kick she needs to start, but she always gets the assignment submitted (maybe a few minutes late but still). And this generally stresses lily even without the added fear of relying on this “method” for her own grade. Which makes her pester marlene and that annoys marlene (and makes her feel really guilty).

- Marlene will rush outside without shoes if she sees it snowing and lilies behind her yelling to remember her coat

- And then lily takes care of marlene when she inevitably gets sick

- Those friends who REALLY blur the lines of platonicness

- Totally make out when theyre drunk and they both have been in love with each other at some point

- When lily is ready to burst into a pile of stress because of the high expectations she puts on herself to get a good grade, marlene is always there to distract her by whisking her away. Whether its just to the kitchens to bake something delicious or to sneak out to hogsmeade for the whole night to wonder the streets, it cheers lily up so much and makes her feel sane again

- They are both super protective of each other

- It took a really long time for them to open up to each other. They were both friends with Mary first which meant they were usually around each other but they never connected because lily hated the marauders in her younger years while marlene grew up with James and Peter so ofc she didnt like that some random girl was talking shit about her friends.

- In 3rd year Marlenes mother got remarried and she suddenly got a new stepsister and was really nervous about it (because she only has an older brother at that point) and asked lily for advice on having a sister. Obviously she soon decided she did not want a relationship like petunia and lilys but did bring marlene and lily closer.

- Lily and marlene have sensory issues and they can tell when the other is overstimulated so they do their best to make sure the other is in an environment that accommodates to their extreme discomfort (but sometimes they dont have control over their environment and it eats them up inside because they know how terrible the other is feeling and they cant help)

- Out of all of lilys friends, marlene was the loudest and most insistent that lily stops being friends with Snape. She knew the affect he had on lily way better than others because marlene was the one who found her sobbing her eyes out after Snape insulted her in front of his new friends for the gazillionth time. She was the one who always listened to her explain whatever bullshit he pulled and hugged lily for hours while she mourned what her friendship with Snape had become. And THEN marlene had to listen to lily justify why she was still friends with him just because he apologised and claims he’s going to do better. She is the one who saw the full extent of snapes impact on lily’s mental and emotional wellbeing and she was aware of how Snape manipulated lily into thinking how he was treating her was ok. She had absolutely no sympathy for him and always supported the marauders when they pranked him (even if they did go a bit too far) and occasionally joined in herself.

- They have matching friendship bracelets that they got in 4th year. Marlene was buried with it on her wrist.

#marlenes adhd is totally not me projecting… #definately not… #ok but these two are actually so adorable #i love them sm #i might start doing more incorrect quotes with just these two #part 2 of my marauders ship headcanons series #sorry it’s kinda late #i have no excuses #life just be like that sometimes #ship name: lilylene/ lilene (i’ve seen both versions before and idk which one is used more) #also seaflower or starflower (because lilies are flowers and marlene means star of the sea) #lily evans #marlene mckinnon #lilylene #lilene #marauders #marauders headcanons #marauders girls #marauders era

[claireclaymore]

Everlark on movies

or why I just can't hate the movies - Part 1

This post will be polemic, and I am sure everyone will disagree, but I came here to defend romance aspect on the movies.

But first, some important points:

-I do agree the books were totally better while the movies failed in insert romance organically in the storytelling.

-And yes, everlark community is right in be pissed of with the director. He really didn't get the purpose of Peeta and Katniss relationship and that's shows.

-The producers forced the Team Gale and Team Peeta thing to increase the engagement. More Gale and Katniss were their crimes.

That said, what I strongly disagree are following accusations:

-"The movies are Everthorne propaganda and made that ship more popular than the canon one."

-"Peeta and Katniss didn't have chemistry on the movies."

-"On the movies, Katniss was actually in love with Gale, Peeta was rebound."

So this post will cover this fist accusation.

The changes for the love triangule

First movie did insert hits about Gale have a crush on Katniss (the book made this too, but it was implied). In movies Gale is a decent friend (he was there with Prim wait for her, alike on canon), so he is shippable and this create a interesting conflict on the audience, cause her looks like a good match, right?

But then there is Peeta. This guy that happened to be genuinely kind, and was willing to let Katniss win. And in script was implied he did knows it was an act whole time. So in the end of story feels like the audience is strongly divided between two good men, adding the political mess, we do have an exciting cliffhanger.

Then second movies happens and all doubts go away! Again edition cut iconic lines from Peeta, but Josh killed it in all his scenes. Peeta's essential kindness was well portrayed, in my opinion, and made audience really care for him.

It was criminal that they didn't delve deeper into the everlark bed scenes and add new everthorne scenes (that no one asked for), but rewatching it I didn't see much emotions on those kisses (and thanks Liam for having the expressiveness of a door).

In the other hand, the everlark scenes during the games were EVERYTHING! All the drama that was missing in the first film came in full force in the second! The force field scene is so much more theatrical!

And they made the beach kiss sweeter (and personally I love how heartwarming the scene was). I do remember applauding in theater (so... no chemistry my ass)

In short, my reading of the film is that Peeta is not just a cute and passionate friend who Katniss is afraid of hurting by rejecting him. She's falling in love with him. The desperation, the devotion, all of this is perfectly translated in Jennefer's performance. I seriously don't get how someone can see their interactions on arena and think he is the third wheel (and thank you director for don't include Gale's sad face to ruin the moment here).

Feral and in love (overdramatic? overreacted? Yes, but it follows the intensity of Katniss in canon). Will historians say that she is acting like this because of a friend?

Then the two last movies. They finally allowed show Gale being a asshole (I liked that change with calling Peeta a coward, they cut Gale's bullshit in Catching Fire, they had to put in some place). We still have to endure some Gale and Katniss scenes, but again, their ton are pale (basic soundtrack, no creative angles).

But what continues selling the ship is the adversity, the longing. Wherever Peeta appears Katniss just sees him! Gale stay on background or the camera forget him, he is just a desperate man looking at an amazing couple.

You are excellent door Liam!

And all angst, the forbidden love thing make people root even more for Everlark! So no! The movies didnt' sell Everthone or this attempt backfired (or if you disagree, at least see Jennefer isn't on board).

In conclusion, yes the movies made little for the ship, but this little was enough to introduce people to this amazing franchise. The details, the performing, soundtrack, edition all came together to the tip of the iceberg of everlark.

#everlark #the hunger games movies #people tray to gaslight me saying the movies was team gale #the movies was always team money #and what bring money? #our top! #jennifer lawrence #josh hutcherson #sorry Liam fans I know he was leaning that time #must be hard act along with Oscar winner #peeta x katniss #katniss everdeen #peeta mellark

[strwberri-milk]

Could you do headcanons about kaeya meeting a female reader from another (fantasy) world that makes him believe in the concept of "soulmates"

How would she be like? And what powers does she have?

Hello!! This is a little shorter since I wanted to keep it pretty general BUT the way that this is basically how I came up with the premise of Sinner(')s Desire so Im :DD but yea - i didnt wanna give too many details as it is a reader insert i didnt wanna!! make it too specific but i hope you like it nonethelss!!

I think Kaeya approaches everything with a healthy dose of skepticism. He's sure you're right and you're at least not from Mondstat but that doesn't automatically point towards you being from another world entirely!

You always behave a little differently towards him than the others, your hesitance to get close to people seeming not as severe when you see Kaeya. He can see how you relax a little, delve a little more into your life, and even though he doesn't quite believe you right now, that doesn't mean he's completely writing you off.

At first, he thinks he needs to keep an eye out for safety. You're clearly at least a security threat, or could be if you are from another world. But, you're always trying not to be. He finds the way you do your best not to be intrusive and dance around anything that could possibly incriminate you both suspicious and endearing. You're trying not to set off his concern, but inadvertently doing so by being too cautious.

It's not until you shyly invite him out on a date. Just over to Windrise. He guesses it's not the worst place he could go - after all, Knights patrol the area regularly and it's close enough to the main city that were anything to happen he should hopefully not be put out. He's ignoring the fact that you asking him out makes his heart flutter, getting dressed for the occasion with a bit of a shake in his hands.

"Thanks for meeting me here," you say shyly, already having set out a blanket with food for a picnic.

"Of course but I wonder why you didn't just come with me? I'd be more than happy to escort you."

He sits down next to you, noticing that you've done your best to pick foods he might like. You nervously begin unwrapping something from the basket and take a bite, laughing a little.

"Well, I know you don't quite believe me and I didn't want to scare you off or make you think I would hurt you. I really like you after all."

Kaeya chuckles lightly, shaking his head just a bit.

"And why is that? We barely know each other and..."

He stops, noticing the grass around you begin to glow with small lights. He doesn't think lamp grass should be out here, not in this volume and when he looks back to your face the lights go out immediately. You turn away, trying to avert his gaze.

"Sorry! My magic has been acting strangely since I got here. I'm not sure how to get it under control but since it's linked to my emotions I think I just need to try and calm down."

You fiddle with your fingers, the lights returning but this time dimmer. Now, it washes over the blanket gently, reminding him more of fireflies floating around.

"Do you miss home?" he asks after a while, not expecting you to shake your head.

"At times, but I know I was brought here for a reason."

He's not sure what you're trying to imply, wanting to interrogate you further before pausing. He takes in the scenery around him, how at peace he feels in your presence and the cute look on your face as you try to cut some fruit neatly for him to eat. It makes something in him want to get to know you better, in a more genuine way, so lost in his thoughts he almost misses the faint string of light connecting your wrists.

#kaeya x reader #kaeya fluff #genshin x reader #genshin impact x reader #genshin fanfic #genshin impact fanfic

[girlwithfish]

i can tell the therapists in my program dont wanna use the word bpd nd idk. it just lwave s aweird feeling. like ik im not formally diagnosed and i also know bpd is incredibly hard to diagnose and also complex ans also u probably dont even rly want it written down but it was written down on my file for my past therapist. so its just weird my current ones dont wanna believe it. its rly confusing to me i feel ashamed to even bring ot up. i was talking abt splitting in individual session and she like corrected me kinda and said its trauma response. like yes splitting is often a trauma response too both can b true. its just really confusing but ik therapists have biases and the stigma makes it so fkn complex but i just feel really crazy and insane and like no one hears me. like maybe i dont present as someone w a personality disorder and also the way i describe past events i dont delve into all the ugly full details and its not oike im trying to lie and ill describe it but its like i subsconsciously water it down ig just so its easier to say? idk. idk im just crazy rn. but its making me feel rly bad honestly lol. ik diagnosis doesnt matter that much honestly when im already learning dbt skills and cbt and the program is stillhelpful bjt that aspect puts me off. and there's at least 3 other ppl in my group w bpd as well. I just feel like i cant eben bring it up around mental health professionals i feel like no one fucking believes.me. at leas tmy last therapist did and i still eben doubt her own opinion cuz she told.me "what were dealing w is definitely bpd" when i asked her and also said its on my file but she didnt tell me that til end of september so ive been sitting w that for a month and its hust confusing as fuck. ik i shld grt formally diagnosed maybe but i srsly dont trust mental health professions that way anynore and they r very hesitant to diagnose bpd anyway. that therapisf did think ihave it and say i did but yk im just really confused. And overall ik diagnoses r just labels so who cares ig but idk it does make it rly hard when i go thru smth that ik isnt normal and ik i split so its just confusing when everyone around u has some bias against u or disbelief i guess ik i sound paranoid idk. But ik most mental health professionals do nto take me seriously itfeels honestly. and imalso not great at advocating for myself so as soon as someone expresses doubt i just go w it i guess. idk

[roseworth]

As one of the most Rose Wilson blogs (excellent taste) what r ur thoughts on the first issue of her Knight Terrors ?

my biggest thoughts on it are just that its not very interesting </3 there are a few things i dont like about it (the lack of lili 😔 but ill circle back to that in a sec) but overall ?? it just didnt really do a lot. theres not a lot to dislike but theres also not a lot to like

but i can excuse the fact that theres not a lot in it given that this is the first time rose is getting the spotlight in like 15 years so not a lot of people are gonna know anything about her backstory so they had to make it accessible to people that dont know her. and i get that

like batman's knight terrors tie-in could delve a lot deeper into his backstory and feelings bc. its batman. everyone knows batman. he has arguably the most famous backstory in western media. but not everyone knows ravager so they had to make it very new reader friendly and i understand that, especially since her biggest trauma (getting drugged by slade) isnt even canon right now (😔) and her other big trauma (her mom dying) is a little more complicated than the story they wanted to tell (mostly because. wade.)

but i wish they had gone a little deeper into like. her feelings. being trapped in a nightmare that you have to escape from is one of my favorite tropes ever so i was soooooooo excited when this book was announced, but it just,, didnt really do anything. there was so much that could've been done with rose protecting and subsequently being betrayed by her younger self, not to mention the whole idea of slade hunting her down. but they didnt really use it? i was hoping for more like,,,, character exploration. but it didnt really deliver

on the other hand though. this one was def trying to do more of a plot than some of the others. like for example the jason & tim one has the basic plot of "theyre in a nightmare" but other than that its really just being used as a way to make them go through their fears n give them some character exploration (side note i wish they had been given two separate ones but thats a whole other post) whereas the ravager one is talking about murder man using rose as a conduit and trying to get into the waking world and making it like. a story instead of just introspection. so it definitely felt like the first issue was setting a lot up for more that will (hopefully) happen in issue two.

anyways back to her mom. again part of the reason that it would be so hard to incorporate lili into the story is that the circumstances surrounding her death would mean reintroducing the story from 30 years ago where she died, which slade wasnt there for so they couldnt wring out her daddy issues, and the fact that its only brought up like. 3 times ever again after that make it hard to reference her. not to mention deathstroke 2016 sort of retconned it that slade murdered her ????? then that was also never brought up again. so once again i understand that it would be very complicated to bring her into the story, not to mention if she showed up she would show up just to die 3 seconds later so i cant be.. too mad.

HOWEVER. they taunted me by mentioning her one (1) time then bringing up the foster parents instead. it seems like it's sort of working toward bringing her pre-52 origin back. but the foster parents were the worst part of her pre 52 origin. and also as my roommate (who hasnt read a lot of rose) pointed out, the foster parents are a deep cut. they showed up for like 3 pages 20 years ago then died and were literally never brought up again (not even a passing mention) until now. and while the story doesnt hinge on knowing who they are, i feel like theres definitely a feeling that youre missing something when you dont know the parents. so the fact that they were there at all seems really weird to me given the fact that im trying to excuse the fact that lili wasnt there. idk. its just hard to understand why brisson chose to put them there instead of lili, who had a major impact on rose's life and her death is the whole reason rose even joined slade at all. at least to me, the fact that lili wasnt there was extremely noticeable and felt wrong (not to mention the "i grew up in a brothel not a foster home" line is kinda iffy to me but maybe im reading too much into it). im still hoping she'll show up in the second issue, especially since they did specifically mention her in the first issue so maybe thats setting her up to show up in nightmare form later (<-delusional)

ok i think thats all my thoughts for now. tldr: its fine, it doesnt have a lot necessarily with it given the fact that rose isnt a well known character so they couldnt dive too deep into her character, but i felt like it wasnt really trying to do anything and it wasnt interesting. the only real problem was the fact that her mom wasnt there. but mostly im willing to wait until the second half before im too harsh on the book

#also im sorry this took me a sec to answer #last night i read this ask then spent 30 minutes pacing around my room talking to myself about it #then fell asleep without writing any of my thoughts down fhdskjfhsdjaf #rose wilson #dc #but idk. it doesnt feel like as nightmare as much as its just. shes in a situation #i did like a lot of her conversation with little rose though #i thought her protecting her younger self was a nice idea i just think they should've gone further with it

[faintedlcve]

hiii lucyy!! my turn now if you don’t mind asjkldgf. okay soo. to catch up : what’s the song you’re currently obsessed with right now? and the last movie you watched? or the series you’re currently watching, if you have any? AND CAN YOU PLEASE tell me what are some of your favorite songs from laufey or beebadobee? <3 i saw them in your intro post (and also you used to have a beebadobee theme i believe?) so thought i could come to your for help because i’ve been wanting to delve more into their music for ages. thank you lucy! i love youu by the way and i hope you’re having a great day <33

HII OMG IM SO SORRY FOR NOT ANSWERING YOUR ASK I DIDNT SEE THIS AJDJJFD

sooo im currently obsessed with the way you say hello by tiffi and full machine by gracie abrams!! the last movie i watched im pretty certain was the miraculous awakening movie (dont judge askaasjhdgajshdg) and the series im currently watching is miraculous kjashajsh alsooo hazbin hotel bc i was so very excited about its release i'd been waiting AGESSSSS!! its totally worth i btw but it's definitely NOT for minors lmao with their humour and shit asdhaskjdh

my favourite bea songs!!! now thats harddd okay so i really love all of loveworm bedroom session, youre here thats the thing, ripples, she plays bass, yoshimi forest magdalene, i wish i was stephen malkmus, a night to remember (ft. laufey), if you want to and dance with me (yes i did have a bea theme!!)

and favourite laufey songs are a night to remember (ofc), promise, falling behind, valentine, from the start, lovesick and bewitched

if you want i could make you a bea and laufey playlist if i ever get time askjdhasjd (i have some time like after next week and i love making playlists so!!)

thank you for this ask!! i love your asks theyre so amazing and also i'd love to know your answer to these questions <33

once again, i am SOOO sorry about how late my answer is i thought i replied to it and then kinda forgot about it akjsdhjas i love you too <33 and have a great day as well!! thank youu <3

#i love youuu <33 #nadine <3 #catastrxblues #moots <3 #asks #beabadoobee #laufey #luce posts 💌