#but its fine. ya kno

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#there should be a word for when youre talking around the tightness of tears #speaking against something that hurts #laughing specifically to undermine the seriousness of the statements youre voicing #the worst of both worlds. help me help me hahaha im not even joking hahaha but listen to the lies in my tone. dont focus on the words. #i want plausible deniability. but also i want u to understand my pain and give it a voice. speak it into existence because i cant say it #but if u do i might cry. that sounds hard that sounds like a lot. i kno i know. shut up. keep talking. do u think i dont feel it? i do #but if i split myself in two i can watch myself and suddenly it becomes funny. im not sure why. but i have a bad habbit of laughting at #inappropriate moments. because if its not funny then its just sad and what am i supposed to do with that? #i dunno. thats all to say my dad called bc i was looking at housing stuff and i was explaining some of the stuff im doing rn #and thats hard to talk abt without crying bc ive always been a cry bby but i didnt. and i love my parents theyre great #but they dont understand bc i havent told them all of it bc theres nothing they can do so y make them worry. and idk i also think they #think im less competent than i am. and part of that is just bc im their kid. part of that is bc there r things thst most ppl can do but i #struggle with. but its also not fun to hear: oh yeah i was surprised by how professional u sounded. or i think ur mom found u those #connections. when no. i did that. i made those things happen. i promise i can do things sometimes. but sometimes i cant. i dunno its just #it is what it is. whatever. decisions to b made. do i room with roommates for lower rent #or do i take an expensive place for a year for a single room? i dont want roommates but ill take them #i mean all the single places r like 950 at the very lowest without any utilities or anything but most r well over 1000 and like on a grad #student salary? i think not. not without losing money on net. i can deal with roommates. i have in the past. i wont b able to relax ever #but its fine. ya kno #just annoying. hah my dads sage advice was ah dont let it overwhelm u. go exercise. bc hes an endurance runner guy #and im like bro when i get home i have 1.5 hrs of daylight. but alas hes right. i do gotta run out my angers and its not enough #ugh. one more week. itll work out. and eventually ill walk into a counselors office like bro i just want u to tell me whether or not i have #0cd bc whatever the fuck it is that makes me do these things is absolutely destroying me. name the beast 0cd or 0cpd. tell me what box #i fit into. not that it matters but i feel like i cant complain until someone else rubber stamps me. actually then ill probably just obsess #abt how. actually. theyre wrong. ay fun times #i gotta shake shake shake my sillies out. and wiggle my waggles away. bc i never could let my kids songs go haha #unrelated

[myuniverseinabox]

a bit on Aaron's hair.

I keep assuming people understand that the bubbly hair means curls- and I do say it on his refs, but I wanted to make a visual thing too.

Also cause I just wanted to draw him with non-stylised hair lol

#art #artists on tumblr #digital art #oc #humanoid #original character #FOREIGN #Aaron #my art #personal art #drawing him either way is fine #i like stylising it like that cause it gives him a round shape ya kno #something something shape language #also its way quicker to draw lol

[burnedself]

I oughta do more plotted things here

#;out of time. #in many aspects I feel this blog is still in its infancy ya kno? so I am fine with keeping it fast n loose in the wilderness years #on the other hand. mind yearns for more fleshed out / plotted / idk things #ya kno? ya kno #anyway gonna be making icons and working on drafts / starters xoxo

[hqmillioncorn]

Lalapril 4/27: Secret 

Cherrypit sat down on the edge of the fountain. 

All around him people were running around barking around more words that he didn’t understand. Some of them looked happy, a lot of them looked kind of scared. Gaius ran by him without a word.

At least Cid told him to get ready to fight something soon. Something really big. 

Sofia still didn’t know why she even bothered to show up today.

Well, she kind of did.

That Cherrypit kid had told her that today would be the day that he would be coming by the Archer’s guild again to continue his training. 

He had promised this just a few days ago, when Sofia had just missed him he had just been on his way out. He was rushing out towards something important apparently. Something way more important than their target practice rematch between the two of them.

Sofia had been very insistent on having their rematch soon. So much so that she was even willing to let Cherrypit have the first shot, confident that she would beat his score this time. 

Despite Cherrypit looking to be in a hurry (an awful hurry judging by the way he was dancing around and holding his linkshell) he made sure to give Sofia his word that he would come back soon to play with her.

As he ran off Sofia yelled out at him that she was NOT playing. She wasn’t a little kid, unlike Cherrypit. What she was doing was TRAINING her archery skills so she could go out and become an adventurer just like her hero, the warrior of light.

Maybe Cherrypit thought he was playing but Sofia was going to set the record straight today one way or another.

By kicking his butt in target practice.

Right on cue, Sofia heard the telltale sound of someone arriving at the archer’s guild by aethernet.

Cherrypit had arrived just as he said. Sporting a new outfit than the last one Sofia had seen him wearing. Though in her opinion, it looked like he was really overdressed, especially when it came to the weather in Gridania for the season.

Alongside the bow on his back, Sofia also noticed that in his oversized mitten wearing hands he was carrying a basket. It wasn’t an odd thing to see Cherrypit bring here. Oftentimes she heard whispers among the other serpents of Cherrypit sharing snacks with them. 

She would rather much steer clear of those snacks however.

Last time she heard that Cherrypit had given one of the serpent guards a whole slug as a snack and he refused to leave until he saw them at least attempt to take a bite out of it.

If he offered her anything she would just politely refuse it. Like royalty would.

By now Cherrypit had noticed Sofia waiting by the archer’s guild and waved at her. He started to run towards her only stopped by falling flat on his face. The basket in his hands flew from his hands and flew into the air.

Before Sofia could act, the basket fell right back down to the ground, Cherrypit caught the falling basket with one hand and lifted himself back upright with the other. He shook his head and moved some hair out of his face. Then smiled as if nothing had ever happened.

“Hi Soapiea!”

Sofia’s grin of confidence quickly faded away into a disappointed smile. She was sure that after last time that Cherrypit had finally learned how to pronounce her name. Rather than take another forty minutes sitting him down and slowly saying her name together Sofia decided to take it in stride and let him live with it for now.

“Hi Cherrypit.” She waved back at him.

Sofia watched as Cherrypit walked over to the steps of the Archer’s guild and set down the basket he was carrying. As usual on his back was a bow that looked way too big for him to be carrying around.

Either the bow Sofia was given was too small or someone was trusting Cherrypit with weaponry just a little too much. Whatever the case, she was going to file a complaint just in case Cherrypit was getting special treatment when it clearly should be the other way around.

Sofia’s patience was already running thin so by the time Cherrypit decided to sit down and pull out a sandwich it had disappeared almost entirely. She was about to gently remind him about the promise he made last time, until he pulled out a second sandwich and gestured towards her.

With his mouth still full he wiggled the sandwich at her and asked, “Do you wan’ some?” A drop of purple jelly fell from the corner of the sandwich. Her favorite kind of jelly, in both flavor and color.

As Cherrypit continued to hold out the sandwich for her Sofia decided to give in to his obvious bribe. She reluctantly tossed her bow aside and walked over to Cherrypit, taking the sandwich from his hand and taking a seat next to him.

Now that she thought about it, she was kind of hungry. That sort of thing is just what happens when you skip breakfast, she guessed.

“If you think sharing your snacks with me is going to get me to go easy on you, you got another thing coming.” Sofia used her free hand to take out her handkerchief and placed it on her lap. There was no way she was going to eat something as messy as this with the possibility of messing up her new dress.

Cherrypit looked at her, confused at what she had said and what she was doing.

Sofia clued into Cherrypit’s confusion and decided she would be nice enough to explain what she was doing. For one of her loyal subjects.

“I’m just making sure to keep my dress clean.” Sofia gestured to her immaculately clean dress. It was a pretty purple color, the color of royalty! (for sure!) Custom made and a perfect fit for her fifteenth nameday.

“A princess has to always look her best, you know?” Sofia threw her hair back and let the natural light of the sun shine down on her and sparkle her tiara.

Cherrypit watched her closely and flipped back his own ponytail. Sofia didn’t seem to notice his flattering imitation.

For a while Sofia and Cherrypit sat on the steps of the archer’s guild. Sofia gave every person that passed by a simple wave and a “Good morning.” Cherrypit watched her and waved right after her every time.

Sofia finished her meal and looked over to Cherrypit, hoping that he had finished too so they could start their friendly competition already.

For some reason Cherrypit was holding a tomato between his hands.

Sofia didn’t put much thought into it besides thinking to herself that eating a jelly sandwich with a tomato was an odd choice.

She decided to ignore it until she noticed that Cherrypit was squeezing the tomato with his hands. Or at least, trying to. Sofia knew that tomatoes were fairly easy to squish, unlike an apple or something.

She had half a mind to tell Cherrypit to be careful or he might make a mess or something.

Just as Sofia was about to raise her voice to tell Cherrypit to knock it off, the tomato had reached its limit.

The poor tomato finally exploded with a squish.

Sofia managed to jump back in time to avoid being hit by any of its residue. But the same could not be said for Cherrypit. Parts of his face and his entire shirt were covered in tomato juice. 

All Sofia could think at that moment was that whoever did Cherrypit’s laundry for him would probably have a lot of questions for him.

Not only that, but the tomato had splattered all over the dirt in front of him.

Cherrypit dropped the last of the tomato on the ground. He wasn’t even bothering to wipe off any of the tomato’s residue off his hands, which Sofia found inconceivable.  

Cherrypit looked at his hands and shook them in place. Then he looked up at Sofia,

“I saw that happen to a person.”

It was all that Cherrypit said.

Sofia remained silent.

He couldn’t possibly mean like, a real life person, could he? Where would someone even see something like that?! Let alone just walk away from something like that?

Sofia looked down at the tomato stain on the ground. It was starting to fade.

“Um, where did you see that?” Sofia had asked without thinking. There was a part of her that instantly regretted asking that question.

Cherrypit smiled, then put a finger up to his mouth.

“It’s a secret!”

#Lalapril 2023 #tomato physics be damned we are squishing them #so like cherrypit likes to imitate a lot adn this is just him imitating while also trying to process something he happened to see #ya know the scene at the end of the diamond weapon fight its okay i dont think about it a lot too #i wrote once that cherrypit squished grapes like he thought they were eyeballs that was imitation too #hes having kind of a rough time but its okay hes fine #and sofia im so sorry i never do anything with you #i love her so one day the world will know more about you #shes like convinced shes royalty cause of her special necklace found on her as a baby but no one can tell he yes or no cause they dont kno #she might be who knows but shes nice and thinks of everyone around her as subjects which might have people think she looks down on thekm #but really she just wants to protect them which is why she wants to be like the warrior of light #she makes friends with cherrypit but she doesnt know who he really is until later #some of sofia is also based on an oc of mine also named Sofia

[moonglittering]

is actual grown ass, r&b, silky, sensual, and sexy romance dead in the rpc and im gonna have to revive it myself or what!

#🌙 OOC! SPEAKING THROUGH THE VALLEYS OF PLUTO. #/ sick of this juvenile flavorless bullshit. gfdkjgfdkl. #/ VERY sick of 'yeah my muse likes yours!' and then i legit never hear from them ever lkfjgkfd. #/ plotting and deep discussion is fine ya kno! #/ its been yeaarssss. i dont want a 'i pop in every 443298 years' partner.

[seithr]

rl chatterin in tags, dont worry about it just feel like talking about recent stuff. for those who dont care look at this birdthang i won on xiv then. my silly big bird..

#i dont owe explanation to anyone yeah i kno but i was going through something kinda rough the last little while and wanted to disappear #idk if it was at all noticeable but i feel like acknowledging it is healthier than feeling embarassed pretending i was Totally Fine. #alas im back and im... still just gona post on as normal. i can enjoy my Own Circle Of Enjoyment because im allowed to enjoy parts of life #even if i felt like utter death it doesnt mean i have to drag myself back to it once im finally crawling out. #it doesn't mean it didn't happen. doesn't mean it didn't hurt. but i dont have to reopen the wounds to prove something yknow. #i want to be alright and I will take these. when i feel i want to be happy i should not deny the pleasure of messaging friends #or little joys of any kind no matter how 'insignificant it is' next to my real stresses. you have to have something you smile about #and when you're ready to again why try and put it off? anyways. no idea if this makes sense. im tired but good i think. #i have to give myself little hype up shounen talks about joys and loves and life sometimes. its just gonna happen. #armour clanking #however i AM allowed to feel a little shy talking and being honest again so this is scheduled . hello. gootbye. ya boy hanging on 👍 #possibly employed boy at last even. probably contributed to getting better was that hope. ok no more sharing for real GOODNIGHT (MORNING)

[violasmirabiles]

hmm yeah i do admit its Concerning that the main reason i know ill Be Fine till the psych nurse calls me on monday is that im Convinced ill get a Bad Grade for Being a Mental Patient if i Do Something. you know, since i Promised and all. and Breaking That Promise would make me the Worst Person in the World. but hey at least i know ill be ok. might get serious about getting a new tattoo though

#doing stellar thanks for asking #i promise i promise im fine. like yeah not fine fine but. fine enough that monday doesnt feel Ages away ya kno #the tattoo will be So Very Surprisingly more times new roman caps lock on my arm #right arm. itll also be in finnish which is a first. been thinking bout this ever since i got my second tattoo #sometimes i Feel Bad for not having like. pictures. like im doing this whole thing wrong. but hey its my arms innit

[mmollymercury]

Maybe I shouldve made a post abt this before lol, but I don't really do nsfw on my blog, for a lot of reasons. I just don't feel comfortable posting abt that stuff, sorry!😅😅

Like, I'd say I'm sex neutral, but I'm still asexual; it says so in my bio and pfp, so just be careful and look out for that stuff when asking ppl questions like this next time x no animosity at all btw, just something to think abt💖 🖤🤍💜

Also I have no idea how submissions work😭😭 but I wanted to make a post abt this anyway just to clarify. But just for safety reasons, because I didn't really answer the question, I thought I should censor who sent it, just incase someone decides to be cruel to them or something.

#asks #or submission?? #whatever same diff #asexual #tw suggestive #i like my blog to stay pretty safe #like teen audiences and up id say #also i dont want ppl that follow me who are minors to interact with that stuff #like its fine if ppl run blogs like that in the Encanto fandom #but my blog is pretty safe like i said #so itd be weird of me to do #ya kno?

[me-her-and-la-lune]

going to re-read maximum ride (cry for help)

#ive already re-read the twilight books. i just finished the hush hush series. the only book series left in my adolescence hyperfixation #stage is maximum ride. there is something deeply wrong with me where i cant focus on other things except these books #i blame my career situation rn. everything is changing again and im overwhelmed and emotional and its time to cling onto the books that #would help me when i was younger. #also. btw. i know no one cares but i havent read the full hush hush series probably since finale came out #and like. the second book fucking makes me miserable LOL #i used to just skip to the parts that i enjoyed but i wanted to read it all the way through and i hated it so much. it was good but it #sucks** **its good in the way that i cherish it from middle school. its YA fiction. i love them but thats about it #anyway. lots of stuff going on. ill be fine but like. if no one got me i know nora and patch got me u kno #ALSO i used to be able to read books SO MUCH FASTER it took me like seven hours to get through finale. i used to be able to read that book #like. within four and a half/five hours #anyway. i stayed up until like four am last night reading silence and woke up at nine this morning and my brain wouldnt let me sleep #like it demanded i read finale. like ok brain were almost 26 we really dont have to be doing this #anyway! may or may not start reading maximum ride tomorrow. at least that series goes on for like eight or nine books or something #i have not read this series since the final book came out. lets see what it does to my mental state LOL! #okay anyway. sry. im just going through it and i dont wanna bother my friends with it bc like. theyre going through worse things than i am #oh tags we're really in it now #i just have felt weird for months and its coming to a head now and manifesting itself in me reading my middle school books. its weird #like. can i finish killing eve pls? can i finish the multiple shows and games i have on my plate? can i read NEW BOOKS? #the answer??? NO!!!!!!!!!!!!! im stuck to re-read YA bc its familar and comforting and somehow the stories still make my heart squeeze #I'M CRING oh sorry for yelling im cringeposting sry

[gurorori]

iwwish our partners wud wanna spend time with me in ways i wan too, nawt jus theirs

#an its fine i do it most times anyway but lately i jus wwnna do X dat is my own thing dat none of em apparently like anymore #but im alwaysfine watchin Y n Z. why! why cant we jus do wat i like4 once n why ya make me feel like shit ab it #but it nawthin. an i kno i overreactin #i shld b thankful i hav partners at all #mika caws

[ruvi-muffin]

Contemplating the fact that i most likely will not be able to make a mockup trailer using audio from this audio book bc uh.. p sure that's illeagal af

We are Spoiled in this fandom critters

Hours upon hours of audio we can use for cool fan content my god

Thank you cr for being the best show ever

#muffin rambles #as a fanartist i am just #so relieved to nit have to Stress so gd much over leagal stuff bc as long as im not being a huge dick abt it #its like.. most likely Fine #but w smaller creators and ppl working w bigger publishing companies #uuuuhhhhhh #idek where to begin w that tbh its a bit of a bummer i rly wanna make a cool video based on this book #ig i still can but like #keep it low key and not terribly illeagal ya kno XD #dont want to get anyone in trouble gbhjgjt

[opens-up-4-nobody]

I'll be honest, I think it's boring when people get upset with others for not believing in the exact manga canon of naruto. Just watching the anime is fine, who cares? The Canon of naruto is so fucked up and flawed morally and functionally that think you should be able to warp it however you want with non-canonical bullshit. Or don't. Again, who cares? Whatever makes it more interesting for you imo

#if i wanna make konoha more evil. ill make konoha more evil. was sasuke imprisoned post war? sure. thats more fun for me #was kakashi 4 years younger than obito and rin? yes. its more fun for me #was iruka 16 at the time when he became narutos sensei? yes. its more fun for me #i cant think of the ones people complain abt most uhhh. anyone being nice to naruto as a kid retrospectively? rejected by me #they were all dicks to him. itachi having a girlfriend or something? rejected by me but like sure whatever i dont care #like ur experience of naruto doesnt effect my experience of naruto. ya kno #? so i dont get y ppl get so annoyed with ppl for not following the specific canon #its all silly bullshit. so like whatever. ya kno? and i mean its fine if you want to only rely on the manga canon as well #its also interesting to only look at the canon in all its flaws but like dont look down on others for not following the same path? #naruto ramblings #idk this is just what comes to mind when i see post complaining abt ppl not following canon #who care. i will do whatever i like lol

[aihaitahm]

having a crush on streamer ! roommate ! blade

cw: suggestive, not proof read sorry.

probably streams something like valorant or league (sorry.) or he streams himself drawing ! he enjoys streaming but he also just does it for extra money… he knows he’s attractive. doesn’t talk/commentate that much but he has some dry humor that makes people intrigue especially for how he is. when he gets annoyed at whatever he’s playing, he would cuss a lot but not like… throwing his keyboard across the room.

would stream with silverwolf and gets a bit annoyed whenever she beats his ass whenever they play together. sometimes they meet up and also play horror games together. blade has a straight face but is actually terrified that he screams “fuck!?!!?” while silverwolf stares at him with a straightface like it wasnt even that scary -_-

anyways, moving in and discovering he was your roommate was interesting. he wasnt really shy… just awkward, and may come off a bit condescending and mean but if only you could see his red ears whenever he interacts with you. at first you were wary of him whether or not he would do his own share of chores so you nag at him multiple times. spoiler alert: he does do his part<3 this is where you both start interacting more by playfully being sarcastic at each other.

“tsk you know i do chores when youre not around… you gotta trust me more will ya?”

“okay sorry…”

it was a rough start getting to know him as a roommate since he is always in his room when youre around or when he goes out a lot whether to the gym (which you find yourself staring at his figure or analyzing it behind his baggy shirt) or to hang out with his friends, he comes home late. but a sweet gesture he does is when you wake up in the morning, you see a bunch of food or take out on the counter as a thank you for cooking and leaving some for him.

he finallt brought his friends around (silverwolf and kafka!) and they introduce themselves to you while they nudge blade teasingly. like how could he hide his precious roommate from them. thats when they started asking you questions while blade’s ears are perked.

“so dear are you single? what do you like and dislike? to think bladie wouldnt even talk to his dear roommate… dont make them feel lonely blade ‘kay?”

“yea… i am whyd you ask? and i like ___ and dislike ___. and oh im fine!”

“whats your type! do you like games? can we play ? we can play with blade too if you want!”

“stop with the questions you two. and excuse me i talk to them… kinda.”

“sure you do.”

after that interaction, blade is a bit more talkative to you now but still a bit closed off. thats when you questioned him about the noise he makes and asks if he streams. he embarrassingly said yes while he continues to answer your questions begrudgingly.

you tend to text to your friends about him and march 7th starts teasing you to no end. dan heng kinda warns you about him but would support you to no end… just dont get in blade’s bad side. stelle or caelus would purposely create scenarios where you have to talk to blade since they have a lot of classes with him.

one time you were going home after seeing your friends until you came home to see he was making a meal for himself, shirtless. in which he blushes deep red but shrugs it off as he smirks. you were surprised and actually squeaked, telling him to put a shirt on.

“put some clothes on damn it.”

“well stop looking its really that simple.”

since your friends, you, blade and his friends came to the conclusion you both like each other, do you actually confess? no but obviously you both are stubborn and would rather deal with the sexual loving tension. roommates who decided to do grocery shopping together one day. to go out and maybe look for a pet. roommates who sometimes rant to each other about deep personal stuff. working out together. following each other on social medias. wt this point march 7th and kafka is practically screaming at u and blade’s face to confess.

that was until you were knocking at his door and he wasnt there since you already brought him his food. you came in his room for the first time to see his stream was on and people were wondering who are you. looking around his space, you found some of the little gifts you gave him and saw his phone glow up to a silly cute picture of you that you sent. making you feel flustered bc goddamn it you just needed to hand him his food.

‘alhaithamscatboy: ohmygod are u blade’s partner?!?!!? the one silverwolf was teasing blade about!

eimikofanpage69: theyre so fine!!!! oh my god !!!! wdym yall are just roommates?

KAZUSCARAFAN: UR LYING WHEN U SAY UR JUST ROOMMATES. ‘

“(name) whyre you here? oh you brought me food. thank you. uh sorry about my chat.”

“ah yes actually theyre my lovely partner.“ blade said as he pecks you on the cheek and the chat goes crazy. literally making it viral.

after the stream, you confronted him and freaked out. asking him if he just did it for the views or if he actually liked you that way. which makes him infuriated because how could he ever do that to someone he loves and respects.

“i like you okay? i… love you a lot more than i can ever express and i would never do shit like that for views. i had my eyes on you ever since you moved in. i just didnt know if you do. im sorry if i made you uncomfortable.”

“you didnt. and i-i love you too… now you should like, kiss me better bladie.”

“call me yingxing or ren instead.” he whispered as he kissed you on the lips passionately.

#honkai star rail #blade x reader #hsr blade #blade hsr #honkai star rail fluff #honkai x reader

[iluvprowlermiles]

Ugly white bitch you're not Hispanic you can't talk about fetishizing...some of these anons are right about you guys

IM DEAD BYEEEE

HOW R U GON TELL ME IM NOT HISPANIC???

THESE TUMBLR FOLKS GOT ITT 😂

I TRIED to be civil on here pero ya no me queda de otras 🤷🏻‍♀️

y’all rlly js go around hating on anybody 🤕 esta muy triste no? 😹 you tellin me I’m not Hispanic is crazy asl cuz youn een kno me you js on here telling folks what they are when they don’t een kno u and ion kno u either but ion go around tellin u what u are tf?? also ionc wtf anons say ab me cuz yall r pussies for not hating with ur actual account 🤣. algunos de ustedes son pendejos para andar diciendo cosas que no hacen sentido. Ion een take dis app seriously fr stay in yo place cuz I didn’t do SHIT to you 🤷🏻‍♀️. Goin back to the otha post I had made if folks wanna learn spanish to correctly fuccin use terms dey can ain’t nun dat say dey can’t. Now if dey got interested in learning bout the culture and the language n takin dey time researchin for it it’s fine cs atleast dey tryna get educated. I agree dat an obsession wit it is weird especially if it’s ina creepy/weird way. I’m latina nd I do got experience wit gringos que si tienen obsesión con las cosas de mi cultura and fetishizing it is weird asl but if you really tryna let folks kno that it’s weird nd its not right den like I said post about it n raise awareness instead of hating on sb that prolly didn’t even fetishize shit. I’m done ion got time for some goofy ass folks online that wanna say shit 😹.

also anons r off cs y’all dtm 🤣.

[a-very-zilly-gooze]

hello! it’s lesbian storytime with me, zilly gooze!

so i physically can’t listen to we fell in love in october by girl in red because it reminds me of my last relationship which was… not optimal, to say the least. she was my best friend, which is already just not great. she wanted a girlfriend, not me as her girlfriend, and so i felt undervalued and like she didn’t actually like me romantically (turns out i was right lol).

but anyways, i realized i had a crush on her in october of one year, we officially began dating in october of the next year. we fell in love in october became the song i thought was ours, ya kno?

ever since she dumped me during one of the worst points of my life (which yeah, thanks for bein a good friend there bucko), i have hated that song with a passion and will not, under any circumstances, listen to it.

well, sapphics are to girl in red as moths are to a flame, and so i recently started listening to her again because she’s good ya kno?

i was not prepared for the absolute gut punch that October Passed Me By was.

see, in wfilio, the speaker keeps repeating “you will be my girl… you will be my world.” she is super super into this girl and wants to be her girlfriend so bad. it’s romantic, its slow, it’s sweet, it’s filled with longing, it’s everything you want a girl to say to you.

but OPMB is the sequel to wfilio. it tells the story of the fallout of the relationship that wfilio set up. it’s faster , it’s melancholic, it’s utterly mournful. she’s trying to move on, but, as she says in the last verse, her ex is “always in the back of [her] mind.”

most devastatingly, though, is that she repeats lyrics from wfilio- she mentions being busy looking at the stars, alluding to the line “looking at the stars / admiring them from afar,” with ‘stars’ meaning this girl she wanted to date. she repeats “i made you my whole world,” referencing the line “you will be my world” in wfilio. finally, she says, “screaming at the top of my lungs, i love you, my girl” and ends the song with “you will be my girl,” with both lines being references to wfilio’s line “you will be my girl.”

this mirroring, this pining that resulted in sadness and breakup, is literally a replica of my relationship. i fell in love in october, and i thought that my girl was fantastic and lovely. but then she started distancing herself from me, and as OPMB says, “i got bitter when you got cold / and could you really blame me though?”

“it wasn’t all good, yeah, it wasn’t all pretty.” omfg. i cannot count the number of times i told myself that my relationship was fine, it was good, it was all going great. and it wasn’t. i was lying. my ex was lying. i was just hoping that i could will a good relationship into existence (turns out you can’t, which kinda sucks imo :p).

the parallels are absolutely insane from these songs to my life. and when i heard October Passed Me By yesterday for the first time, it literally shattered me. i love it so much.

lastly, i will leave you with the cover art for each single.

we fell in love in october (2018)

October Passed Me By (2022)

oh. my. fucking. god.

THIS IS ART

#girl in red #relationship #lesbian #sapphic #we fell in love in october #october passed me by #bad relationships #queer #lgbtqia #breakup #depression #oh my god it hits so hard #wlw #i’m okay i swear #(i’m not) #also this post came out sounding like an ap literature poetry analysis #i cannot get English Teacher’s analytic approach to media out of my head :p

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HIHIHI

dont kno if the others asked ya yet but cna i hear abt the champagne werecreature au :blinkm

no one else has asked about my aus yet but here is the werewolf champ au explaination!

(under the cut)

its based on a few pieces of subscriber art i saw of Champ on the redemption of a were-jaguar video

instead of working for Dino Cross Park, Champagne was working for a (equally bad) Were-beast research facility, Were Cross Research.

once, while trying to deal with one of the many breakouts (the were-beasts are forced to stay in their animal form, but Champ is unaware of this. he just thinks were-beasts are always monsters) Champagne gets his arm bitten off by a werewolf.

this still causes him to become a werewolf, but instead of dealing with their head scientist being a monster, they give him a piece of tech (not in his arm) that stops him from transforming

the events of redemption of a were-jaguar happen, with Champagne turning into a big werewolf instead of a dinosaur. he is still completely out of control and very dangerous.

after everyone's home, Vasilia talks to champagne about why he turned into a were-beast instead of something else (they know he worked for the were-beast facility, but he talks about it way less than he talks about DCP in canon) and Champagne explains.

she is appalled at his bosses for not letting him learn how to control his were-beast side and instead forcing him to hide it.

they do were-beast lessons where basically Vasilia transforms in front of Champagne and they take the tech off (because it was on for so long its now necessary for Champ to wear it in order to not transform) so Vasilia can help him deal with being a big doge his were-beast and all the emotional baggage that comes with it

eventually, they get to a point where Champagne can transform back into a human without the tech (still needs it for long stretches of time where hes human, but hes needing it less!) (hes also considerably less violent as a were-beast now) and Benny is allowed to join the lessons for emotional support!

(he wasn't allowed in before because Champagne didn't want to hurt him) (he always sat outside the room anxiously and showered Champagne with affection after every lesson tho)

Champagne transforms into his were-beast form for the first time in front of Benny, who realises some things about himself

anyway when Champagne has full control (it takes a while but they get there!) Benny and him cuddle in dog form ALLL the time.

The Sharp Gang: WHY IS THERE ALWAYS DOG FUR ON THE COUCH

Benny: oh sorry its from my dog, if you want i can stop bringing him round

The Sharpies: its fine, thanks for telling us. we were really confused lol

Champagne, sipping coffee in the corner:

(they think he has a newfoundland and his tiny dog (canon) who is a jack russel (hc). he doesnt. he has Champ and his jack russel)

#vasilia and champ are cat and dog besties #furry siblings #DCP= dino cross park btw #also benny jokes about being left out and how he should get a fursuit #popcross #popcross aus #sharpagne