#but fr i am suffering

[kwiisatz]

my glasses broke but that didn't stop me from writing paul being a silly little queer man. may thy clothes rip & tatter headassery.

#𓅃 𓂃 ˒ out of character. #but fr i am suffering

[hinamie]

the same flame that burns you; birthed you first

p1

#my art #jujutsu kaisen #jjk #gojo satoru #gojo #fanart #jjk fanart #tw body image// #ok i have done an entire two part icarian gojo series...can i rest now...am i free........ #I rendered all those birds. only 2 remember tht theyre FALLING and i wanted them BLURRY #my details.. #screaming crying throwing up etc #i suffer. this is my curse. #in other words i may b an idiot fr that but ! big fan of my me for the juxtaposition between this piece and the last #cold/unnatural/survival vs burning/truth/decay #dare i say i cooked #6 birds to be exact i cooked 6 birds sorry

[beanghostprincess]

Sanji never celebrated his birthday when he was a kid, quite obviously. At least not in a regular way and not with his siblings. But he did visit his mom at the hospital, tried to make the best of cakes (because she always asked him to) and blew out the candles right in front of her wishing and wishing and wishing for her to get better. For them to have a happy ending. Sora always said that if he wished hard enough, it would come true.

It didn't. But Sanji knew, even at a young age, deep inside, that it wouldn't.

So he starts living with Zeff and his birthday is not something he sees worth celebrating. But the man asks him about it one day and the date March 2th is written all over his face when he tries to find an excuse to not tell him. And it's alright, he guesses, because at the end of the day Zeff isn't that big on birthdays either.

The kid has it rough on that day when it first comes, and Zeff doesn't know what to do. What to gift him. He doesn't know how kids his age behave and what they like. Especially since Sanji is not a regular kid. So for his 10th birthday, Zeff tells him he's going to teach him how to bake a proper cake. That makes Sanji extremely happy, somehow. He is not a normal kid, but he sure is a cook. So there isn't a party or eccentric gifts, but there is cake.

Zeff starts giving him proper gifts when he turns fifteen. Sixteen. Seventeen. Ties and suits and shoes and every pretty thing his son has mentioned he liked ever since he saw a very rich businessman walking into the Baratie dressing like that with a woman hugging his side. "It's gentleman's attire! You wouldn't get it!" and look, if the kid wants his snob suits, Zeff won't complain. They have more than enough money for shit like that.

They have a real birthday party when he turns eighteen. And he's all grown and pissed about how he could've made the cake better in his own and acting like an ungrateful brat. But he smiles. Widely and brightly and Zeff couldn't love him more.

So it's not like Sanji hates his birthday... But he doesn't tell the crew about it. He gets sad and weird and in an on and off mode. He doesn't want them to make a big deal out of it and he knows they probably will. He won't stop thinking about his mom, either. So he avoids the crew a little bit too much on that day.

And Usopp notices he's acting weird, because how could he not? Sanji has been oddly quiet and polite to everyone in a gloomy, nostalgic way. Everybody is worried and Luffy tries to cheer him up, but it only ends up bothering Sanji more, from Usopp's perspective. The sniper tries not to be clingy because he knows his boyfriend and he knows that if he's in one of his sad moods, affection will only make him sadder. So he stays next to him, but not too close. Enough to see Sanji smile now and then.

The day goes on and it's time to go to bed, but Usopp notices Sanji is still in the kitchen and decides to change his night shift with Franky because he really, really needs to stay awake to look after him. He refuses to invade his privacy and space, so he just stays close to the kitchen in case he gets out.

But curiosity killed the cat, and he's also extremely concerned. So he decides to look inside.

He sees Sanji, sitting down at the dining table with a tiny, little cupcake and a candle. He's holding a picture Usopp knows well because Sanji keeps it in a tiny treasure chest inside his locker. His mom. And he smiles apologetically. "Sorry it couldn't be a real cake, mom. I wasn't that much in the mood? But hey! I- I improved, didn't I?" Usopp can't see his face that clearly, but he knows, from the tone of his voice, that he's probably about to cry. "I wish- I wish you were here. I'm twenty-two now! You said you liked that number, right? It does look like a duck, after all."

He keeps talking, but Usopp closes the door gently without Sanji noticing. Shit.

It might not be the best idea, but Usopp decides to leave him a little thing under the door. A note wishing him a happy birthday and some flowers. The note also has a drawing of two ducks in it.

The next day, the first thing Sanji tells him when he wakes up (Usopp noticing the flowers placed on a glass vase and the edge of his note sticking out of that same treasure chest from before) is: "Hey, love, would you- Would you like to try and bake a cake with me? It'd be fun."

And Usopp couldn't smile wider even if he tried.

#sanji is just like me fr my brithday makes me extremely sad #he's the light of my life i am sorry i am always making him suffer #but yknow at least he has a happy ending yay #god i am going to be so sanji focused today #good morning btw #black leg sanji #usopp #sanuso #one piece

[uncanny-tranny]

This is an EVIL part of the body btw:

#disability #disability memes #described images #image description in alt #i really shouldn't have taken my brief few years of no back pain for granted FR #sorry for going on and on about this but pain and suffering and happiness and relief #i am in So much pain right now :( #my cane has helped me get out of the shower and out of bed (when i have the Most Intense pain) #incredibly grateful that i have somewhat gotten over my stupid stupid internalized ableist sense of pride though #i want to get the pain checked out but i have Very Little Hope of it getting better #especially since i am still ~so young~

[napstawantstosleep]

Shameless png for the background because today I had exams and I'm absolutely DRAINED. anyway jellyfsh ert.

#mcyt #mcyt fanart #eret #the eret #eret art #eret fanart #mcyt eret #eret mcyt #I am tired + starting to have a headache + it's - 4°c + exams + L + Ratio + it's daily suffering + I'm falling off 😔 #I was listening to a 1hour Playlist of songs that felt like cleaning my brain + blowing bubbles + eating soap #Somehow brain said hmm soap = jellyfsh yep so true #Wtv I feel like a zombie fr #Eret starting to look less and less like Eret and more like a random white lad with brown hair please what is happening to me #This is a cry 4 help

[clericofinfamy]

damian priest - raw, 18 march 2024.

posting this and going to sleep. thank you monday night judgement day for priest crumbs, amen. 🙏🖤💜

#if damien looked at me like that i think i’d die #andrade a lucky man fr #he didn’t throw hands or get that mad so 0/10 #i think i am suffering without a slap #anyway…. #wwe #wwe raw #wwe smackdown #wwe edit #the judgement day #judgement day #rhea ripley #damien priest #finn balor #dominik mysterio #jd mcdonagh #damien priest edit #world wrestling entertainment

[idontgotopartiesanymore]

save me hughesy save me

#had a shit weekend sports -wise #wild to think that i became THAT person #i have a pit in my stomach watching my fave have a bad strategy in indy once again #the islanders may have won but i am suffering for them nonetheless #add the mitch marner drama #i cant even be happy for scotty mac and i love him #but marcus had me suffering fr #so my point is: SAVE ME QUINNIE PLS #nhl #canucks #vancouver canucks #quinn hughes

[daughterthethird]

Ok regarding the fankid thing… i realized i wasn’t actually sure how to introduce her so. uhm. Have a proto-reference sheet i made when i was screwing around with her design!

I swear ill make some actual drawings of her later <\\3 (AND MAYYBEE POSSIBLYY make a post dedicated to her character? Hmm)

Anyways here’s my beautiful daughter Panacea Cutburn :) she’s irritating and nobody likes her.

#please please please click on the image for better quality I AM BEGGING YOU. #me when im very excited to show off my oc but realizing i have next to no fully coloured drawings of her (PAIN AND SUFFERING) #this poor thing has gone through like ATLEAST more than 4 redesigns good god #the coven head server has been a maasive contribution to her (hell she was MADE from the server) so big big BIG thank you to them!!! #(despite the horrors she had to go through because the server folks love some good family angst) #HIUAHUAHBIOJANOJSHIUSHJNAIHIAA but fr she has a very special place in my heart bc of that :]c 💕💕💕 #though i will say this panacea is gonna be different from the server because im becoming more confident in making her into a solid character #so expect some changes to her for you server folks!!!! (she just became shittier personality wise lmao) #panacea #panacea cutburn #? #hettie cutburn #vitimir #coven heads #coven head #hettimir #toh fankid #the owl house #toh #*VOMITS GAGS BARFS ALL OVER THE FLOOR* AARRRRGGGGGGHHHHHHH

[astruccrow]

Hello Nishiki community, phantom limbs and nightmares are reality

#yakuza #ryu ga gotoku #akira nishikiyama #art #my art #csp #Clip studio paint #I am being fr when I say I love Nishiki so much #I also want to make him suffer as much #He lost his right arm and leg #I'd imagine that would be painful #Especially with nightmares and ptsd episodes

[chalkrub]

brushing off the cobwebs, I haven’t done one of these in AGES....this is rufus he’s my hedonistic obelisk boy :^)

#my art #flight rising #frfanart #fr #obelisk #hello flight rising people....I took a break from fr but i still love dragons #especially this one. stained is so powerful I am always saying this #also is anyone else suffering from the ill effects of a winter cold or just me. anyone else. anyone

[insanesonofabitch]

I just had a dream about spn s16 (spnwin s2???) and it was so good and they were like almost entirely leaning towards destiel even though Dean hasn’t been with Cas yet like he’s been searching for him (for apparently 90 years in heaven time now?) and there’s like a Jess cameo and another insane samjess-deancas parallel and they DID somehow become a part of THEE (spn-canon) Bible (like The Winchester gospel) so there were hints of Chuck won truthing in there and it was so so insane it got me sent to a mental hospital.

#in the dream ​I was watching supernatural episodes in the mental hospital TV and was discussing it with another patient (spn fan) #also the mental hospital was an institution made specifically for spn fans who suffered severe destiel brainrot. #the implications…they went out of their way to make more destiel and then put ME in a very suspicious private mental institution??? #like I wasn’t even there during November 5th. #also I am NOT crazy. #them becoming part of the Bible is so delicious though??? I’m eating that shit up fr #supernatural #spn #spn s16 #spn revival #spn clowning #destiel #insaneposting #reiotalks

[hai-nae]

happy werewolf wednesday~

sorry only this wip this time, working on an animated/animation? short/clip? idk what the proper term is. (it's like 9 seconds-ish of a proto tv opening thing to a song i think fits.) here's what i got so far, needs more in between frames and a shitton of other things.

#marvel #jack russell #werewolf by night #werewolf wednesday #my art #an animator i am not ya'll the suffering is fr

[bigfemboyenergy]

big femboy energy? more like big phlegmboy energy!! hi buddy!! ily!! 🥰🥰🥺🥺

i dont bother u enough imo

STOP THAT RHYME IS ACTUALLY IMPECCABLE BUT I STILL HATE YOU FOR IT.. literally as of seeing this i was wiping my nose goddamn you /gen /srs

uh uh well your user still looks like its pronounced webzuhzes rather than webzaahzes!!!! take that!!!

#this is a huge joke #bros literally my brother #joke ask #random ask #i am sick though #suffering through an incredible number of sneezes #im actually about to sneeze as i type this #sneezed twice in a row damn #nose hates me #boutta sneeze again wtf #bigphlegmboyenergy fr #NOT ANOTHER SNEEZE FUCK

[ninja-knox-ur-sox-off]

99k

#knox rambles #IM DONE #well not completely done but #I TYPED IN THE LAST PHRASE OF THE MAIN ARCH OF THIS FIC KAI AND I AM FREE OF SUFFERING #WOOOOOOOOO #now just a bit more some editing and that is IT #AFTER MONTHS IVE DONE IT IVE WROTE THE SCENE I WROTE THIS FIC FOR #LONGEST THING IVE EVER COMPLETED FR #cant wait to start posting this sucker #i was making a discord server for it too because i have a little bit of art and OUGH LEGOOOOO #this'll be 100k when im DONE done but MAN IM STILL GONNA APPRECIATE THE FACT I DID ALL THAT #okay back to it i'll see you guys when i start posting o7

[im-still-watching-anime]

i am officially, FINALLY all caught up again in both the manga and the anime for bsd and OH BOY there are thoughts and opinions but also WHO CARES because my tags are finally FREE to be unfiltered

#hnnnnnn #i am SO happy #i am BEYOND happy #i love the arc even if i complain about it a lot #but i am also hnnnnnn…….displeased……..with a few things #the anime fr about to catch these hands #i already KNEW they were rushing it from the few episodes i had watched #but the anime is usually SO good at pacing #that i fully trusted that certain things would be slowed down for significance/impact/etc #but instead the pacing just stayed WAY too fast for me #and they ended up cutting SO many small moments that had SO much importance like im going crazy about some of them #some of the lines they cut……. #or even adjusted slightly that it drew away the impact #ugh i KNOW there was a LOT to balance and a LOT of content to get through #but i am a little disappointed that so many emotional scenes were what ended up suffering for it #this is why i don’t usually like reading the manga for animes i watch #i always end up getting disappointed by the limitations of adaptations #that being said though regardless of general limitations i don’t think some of the rushing is above criticism #and i am going to go and eat glass while seething over the particularly offensive rushing/cuts😤 #OKAY DONE that’s the last i’ll say about it i would just go crazy if i didn’t vocalize it somewhere #in general i was VERY happy with the arc in both the manga and the anime i have SO much love for it #definitely a favorite for me #and THAT concludes my very vague no spoiler review #i swear one of these days my self control is going to snap #and im just going to start posting my full essays and content analysis shit about everything i watch here #but for now we’re safe and all my rants will stay spoiler free tag paragraphs instead godbless🙏

[sealrock]

thanks to @etheirys' help and a few tutorials, I managed to give patroclus his naturally arched eyebrows AND cute freckles back

#after bashing my head on my keyboard + suffering a major headache for 6 hours last night this is the end result #it's so simple but oml the photoshop version i had is outdated + i needed the dds plugin + i had to repair my game files due to borkage #i am withering away but at least he's cute #and his eyebrows look more like evander's now. they're brothers fr #q. #mygposes. #ffxivsnaps #gposers #ffxiv gpose #ffxiv oc #hyur