#before i even finished school

[youvebeenlivingfictionalreplies]

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#personal post #will delete later #whining here because i have no monwy for therapy right now #i'm just feeling so stressed and so tired and so worthless and stupid #like what was the point of sinking myself into literally 100K worth of student debt for this masters if i can't even get a job in the field #like this was supposed to turn shit around for me #and i can't even get entry level positions #like what do i need to fix. what am i doing wrong #i've been applying for two months #before i even finished school #and i'm getting nothing but rejections #i feel so trapped #and i feel dumb for working my ass off in school because it has gotten me nowhere #i just feel like i can't take a breath #like i can't be happy about graduation because i can't find a fucking job #it just feels like the last two years were for nothing #and i don't know what to do #i could be a good if someone just let me get my foot in the door and just gave me a fucking chance #i'm just asking for a chance and i can't get that

[ikiprian]

Mr. Fenton is a competent teacher. Almost too competent.

If Mr. Daniel Fenton had any more than a BS (with a minor in education), Tim would’ve flagged his profile as a potential Rogue. That’s the way of most charismatic academics, at least in Gotham. (Got a PhD? Instant watchlist.) Instead, he’s Gotham Academy’s newest celebrity, as a young, passionate, out-of-towner substitute while the chemistry teacher’s on maternity leave.

Tim gets the hype. Fenton seems to genuinely love teaching, and is invested in the welfare of the student body. He hands out bananas during exam week, hosts a “study habits seminar” each month to coach effective learning strategies, and the third time Tim falls asleep in his class, he even pulls Tim aside to ask if he’s doing okay. With all the late work he accepts and the protein bars he sneaks Tim, he’s every teen vigilante’s dream teacher. He could’ve been Tim’s favorite.

In fact, Mr. Fenton was Tim’s favorite. Up until Tim walks into Mr. Fenton’s chemistry classroom for a forgotten textbook, an hour after the final bell.

On the board where tallied scores for today’s review game had been kept, “THE CHEMISTRY BEHIND DR. CRANE’S FEAR GAS: ANXIOGENICS, NERI’S, & YOU,” is now scrawled. A detailed diagram of the human endocrine system projects in front of a small crowd of adoring and attentive students.

Fenton is wrist-deep in the skull cavity of an anatomical model. A short tug, and out pops the brain.

It’s plastic. It’s fake.

Tim identifies the nearest emergency exit.

Fenton turns to the door, and in the dark classroom with the projector illuminating half his face, his eyes almost seem to flash red. “What’s up, Tim?” he asks. His friendly grin is too big for his face. “I didn’t know you wanted to join the Just Science League!”

[OR: Danny’s a science teacher at Tim’s school. Gotham’s a pretty wild place, even for someone who grew up a superhero in a ghost-infested town, so he takes it upon himself to start a club teaching kids how to manage themselves in the event of a crisis. These Gothamites are pretty hardy, but a little extra training never hurt anybody! And he suspects one of his students might be a teen vigilante, like he’d been, back in the day. As a senior super, it's Danny’s duty look out for him! Surely, this is the subtlest and most appropriate way to give the kid pointers.]

[Tim immediately assumes supervillain.]

#Danny can’t help being creepy it’s just the way he’s built!! #I like to think Lancer did these things for Danny when he was in HS #and now Danny's emulating Lancer :) #Passing it on! #Tim is paranoid but also like he is SO CLOSE to graduating so like. Does he even want to report this shit to Batman. What if the next chem #teacher's a jerk and Tim fails the class and he never gets his stupid diploma. Bruce already is insisting he finish out HS and maybe get #an ABA before he's allowed back into the company #and Jesus Christ does Tim hate school. He'll worry about Mr. Fenton's burgeoning army of Science Honor Society Rogues on his own time #dcxdp #dpxdc #prompt #tim drake #danny fenton #in case I write more of this let’s tag it uhhhhh #misunderstood mentor au #kipwrite

[willczek-art]

NPMD Tarot - The Hierophant

Others from the series: The Devil, The Lovers, The Star, Strength

Symbolism + some WIP/alternatives are under the cut C:

My intuition put Grace as the High Priestess, but from what I've read it's more about spirituality and intuition, while the Hierophant is all about strong traditional beliefs and ruling/leading, so it fits her way better! :D

Left side/Beginning has the dance cancellation sign, since that was her mission and Max was her first victim, while on the right/Ending is Jason and the Black Book, her mission and source of power has changed.

Halo= superiority, holy mission, Red as a sign of danger/death to come (which is why the light it's only on the boys)

She's sitting on what's supposed to be the bleachers C:

Doodles:

#nerdy prudes must die #grace chasity #npmd #starkid #fanart #my art #tarot cards #tarot #school stuff #CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT?? I got to do this for school!! Which is great bc im not self-motivated enough to finish artworks like this xD #there are two more almost finished!! Any guesses who and for what card? 👀✨ #and i have sketches/concepts for three more + back of the card that i didnt have time to finalise before end of the semester #also!! super curious to hear other interpretations than my own + if i messed anything up meaning-wise + what couldve been changed/added #since its a school thing and they may ask me questions about it etc #ANYWAY!!! #hope ya like it and even if you dont there will be at least two more #600

[teaableu]

Propaganda posting for the @tmntaucompetition is a great opportunity to do a bit of a WIP and doodle dump

Vote emd here! If we make it to the next round I’ll release one of two short 2D animatics that I have in the vault rn :)

Bit of a preview for one of them ^

#even more of a disaster twins au #emd au art #rottmnt separated au #teaaart #teaadoodles #wips tag #im pretty sure i havent posted any of these before #hopefully exposing my wips will motivate me to finish them #been inactive cause of school

[dreamsy990]

some of the less nice thoughts about being aroace

extras below the cut

sketch

closeups on my favorite panels

bonus: adios

#doodles #kingdom hearts #roxas #axel #olette #aromantic #asexual #aroace #do i tag pence. hes in the background of one panel #ehhhh sorry pence no tag for you #also not tagging soriku and namixi #i mean by the logic of 'theyre in one panel so i wont tag them' i also shouldnt tag axel but. he has dialogue so #anyways i have a very irrational love of olette whenever i need a random side character in a kh comic? olette #i think she uses webmd. anyways im done talking about olette #so let me clarify about this comic #im aroace. this is all just things ive thought before #im not saying in any way these thoughts are real. theyre just thoughts #thats why it ends with 'but there isnt. its just me.' there IS nothing wrong with being aroace. even if it feels like it sometimes #im not trying to send a message im just trying to express a feeling ive had for a while #anyways. the aroace community is super positive and i like that. but not everything i feel about it is that positive #sometimes it feels like im missing something yknow #this comic seems like its about roxas. but its about me. congrats youve been fooled #drafted something similar to this for aro week but didnt finish it in time so this is spiritually part of asaw 2024 #btw sorry im not posting as many drawings lately #schools kinda stressful im pretty tired and busy most the time #i am throwing this drawing to you like a slab of meat to a pack of hungry dogs. take this meager ration in these trying times #alright i think thats it bye now

[tianhai03]

warm up sketch that took way longer than it shouldve

#i solved my homework problems today (i gave up and handed in like 20% of what i was supposed to do) and took a long nap #and now ive just. forgotten how to draw. even though i literally drew something like two days ago #im in pain. but hey at least i have time to draw my own stuff now for a bit before my next sem starts lol #gonna try and finish everything i can before i have to go back to suffering for school... #devil may cry #dante(dmc) #allyart

[lesbiradshaw]

bradley & carole moodboard for suffering purposes

#people downplay how much they meant to each other and how losing her would have impacted him just as much as losing his father #like. she raised him. she was his whole world growing up. and the implication he lost her as a teenager right before everything Else :( #also the implication it was a drawn out process #and she didnt even get to see him graduate high school oh i feel faint #theres so much more to his grief than falling out with maverick. and it is not stuff he is going to ‘get over’ with a hug. anyways #i need to finish this stupid ficlet but writing from carole’s pov is making my heart hurt #bradley rooster bradshaw #carole bradshaw

[pray4jensen]

i have very low expectations for the winchesters finale but thanks to robbie thompson being showrunner, i think it’s fair to have slightly higher expectations than normal. so anyways, a good finale to me would contain at minimum the following components:

1) dean appearing for at least 5 min of screen time total over the course of the finale

2) dean’s alive or trying to get out of heaven and be alive

3) dean mentions he’s either trying to find cas, get cas out of the empty, or makes it clear cas is present in his thoughts in some way—bonus points if he calls cas by name instead of his friend or an angel

4) the finale doesn’t end on a cliffhanger because the chances of it getting renewed for a second season are slim to none so that would suck to be left hanging

4) carlos and lata don’t die because we need to stop having poc die for pointless reasons, esp since there’s a possibility they won’t ever be brought back if there’s no season 2

i think these are all fair and reasonable requests for this finale and i’m hoping it’ll instead surprise me by being even better

anyway back to putting my clown make-up on 🤡

#boredombabbles #the winchesters #spnwin #if cas appears for even 2 sec ill be ecstatic but i dont think he will #i have zero expectations for destiel-anything other than dean mentioning him #tragically i wont be able to watch the finale live because nursing school #im gonna try to time my break so that i can hop onto tumblr somewhere in the middle of the ep #im not worried about spoilers #frankly if something good happens in the finale that’ll make me more invested in watching it #also if anyone has a link to a site where the episode might get uploaded quickly (like an hour or two after it airs) #i would be so grateful 🥲 #i wont make it home until an hour after it finishes and i gotta shower and eat before doing anything

[blaiddraws]

HOWDY FOLKS I've not drawn very much as of late since. uhhhh. SEVERAL things happened. but one of them is because i went to a miniature painting convention this past weekend!

it was super fun! here's a couple minis i painted-- first one was just for fun and i want to make her into a character now, second one i did in a class on painting with limited palettes! i did that with only three different colors of paint!

#thee colors. three bottles! didn't even use black or white! it was just a really dark blue. a magenta. and a yellow #*three colors. not thee hdsjhssjhd #anyway other reasons i haven't drawn much is. the weekend before that i was helping a friend with stuff #we had to. put kiki down last monday. that was not fun #and kiki's health had been declining for weeks before then #and I've been super busy packing and going back and forth between my parents and my apartment ~3 hrs away #and preparing for school. so yeah it's been. pretty busy as of late! I've done little doodles #here and there #and I've managed to join the aggies a few times #but yeah. owudoshdjdgdjdhfjgj #OH NORMAL TAGGING STUFF I SHOULD DO THAT #miniature painting #miniatures #idk actually... what to tag.... oh well! #OH I ALSO HAVE ANOTHER MINI I PAINTED don't have a picture for it yet #and i started working on a fourth but didn't end up finishing it before the convention ended

[moeblob]

Just casually dropping relationship statuses after Azure Gleam or something.

(I really should play more SB but hhhhhh)

#fe warriors three hopes #hubert von vestra #ingrid brandl galatea #edelgard von hresvelg #dimitri alexandre blaiddyd #honestly its just like super possible since ya dont ever actually finish off hubert or my ginger son #and edelgard is there after manipulation to be nice and really confused about absolutely everything #while dimitri is just ????????????????? even though he was present the entire time for things to not unfold between hubert and ingrid #but also just imagine hubert and ingrid getting along in school for the brief time and whenever blions encounter him on the battlefield #she just like beams and waves and he waves back before fleeing #basically i like hubert and ingrid and im fond of making that everyones problem #honestly i played a map in sb recently as like trying to get s rank and buddy #it was so sad i was trying to get the 1500 kills and like ..... had to send everyone except me to go guard #and then i had to waste three minutes of my life not finishing the fight easily and waited for enemies to respawn at ONE POINT on the map #and eventually yes i did get the s rank for it but bro #running away from the final enemy of the map to avoid ending the fight with 1200 kills #waiting and taking no damage from her attacks as i stood still waiting for random enemies to spawn in 20s or so #it took me too long...

[immortalfornow]

today someone asked which fantasy high character i relate to the most and it was just me staring in 'quiet mixed kid raised in all white household who did all 3 years of middle school at once and loves taking things apart to tinker with them' like who do you think

#to be fair the person asking is only on freshman year #and i relate to a lot of other bad kids on some level #(queer. social chameleon finding my own identity. always the responsible one in a group. etc) #but really gorgug is just so me. esp this season #i think before this i might have related to riz the most but everything gorgug is dealing w in fhjy is something i dealt w #even w the teachers hindering academic acceleration! #i had to actively fight the whole school district to get enrolled in high school early #i had to take a trial class at the ap level and do iq tests for them to let me take standard freshman classes after i finished 8th grade #and even after that we had to argue with the district superintendent #anyways!! don't mind me dumping life events in the tags lol #fhjy #d20 #gorgug thistlespring

[astrolavas]

it's sound weird, but i have headcanon that Hunter didn't go hexside, because he too old to shool(according to my feelings, at the end of the he is 16-17 y.o (except for the post-credits scene), and at that age it is already too late to go to school):p

i mean, well- in my opinion he rather certainly did go to hexside, since one of the things he'd said during his TTT monologue was "i'd like to attend hexside like a normal student and play flyer derby with my friends" and all of his "wishes" were supposed to sort of foreshadow his goals and his future (carving palismen, studying wild magic, etc etc) so i feel like it's safe to say he succeeded in becoming a hexside student as well. we also know he attended grom with the rest of his friend group, and like- since he's 16 before the timeskip (no canon certainty whether he's recently turned 16 or is going on 17 already though, but like... around 16 canonically) that means he'd get at least 1 year of school, but most likely 2+.

my personal headcanon is that he went to hexside for around 2 years (full or not quite, depending on when the school year starts in the boiling isles and how long it lasts; possibly even 3), and during that time he picked up a mentorship/apprenticeship at del's palisman carving shop, and after he graduated from hexside he started carving palismen professionally with the clawthornes (i like to think that he also takes some courses at eda's wild magic university in his spare time, simply cuz . funny uni hexsquad shenanigans)

#like imo him being like ''i dream abt going to hexside'' and then not getting to attend hexside cuz he's ''too old to start'' or sth #would be kinda cruel since he already lost sooo much of his childhood because of belos. and he wants to be a hexside student #he deserves to have these few years of the typical teenage experience that he so desperately longs for #ofc it's not gonna make up for ALLLL the years of childhood that he'd lost. but even 2 years of the experience? would mean So much to him #not to even mention that the idea of him just... sitting at home or JUST carving palismen or doing whatever for halfa day for the 2-4 years #just cuz he's ???? ''too old'' or it's ''too late for him to start high school at his age'' or anything similar ? #while the rest of his friends get to go to school and learn and socialize and attend classes everyday without him . sounds so lonely #and he had already spent most of his life sheltered and separated from everyone so . yeah. #he'd still technically have to finish hexside like 1-2 years before the rest of hexsquad buuuuut y'know. his situation is very unique #so i could also imagine bump/eda agreeing to let him go to school a year or so longer so that he could finish it alongside his friends #but that's like mm i also can see him finishing it a year early compared to the rest of hexsquad and starting fulltime at the palisman shop #but either way; yes to at least 1-2 years at hexside in my mind #now COLLEGE? i Could see him not going to uni since he's already got the palisman business going and is doing well and wants to chill #BUT personally i still like to imagine that he attends classes there part-time #nicole answers #my toh talk #hunter toh #verocorne

[figofswords]

anybody remember the stephanie brown essay I was working on under a research grant fully last summer? yeah it’s not done yet it super needs to be done and I’ve been avoiding working on it for weeks. someone tell me to just do it already

#the problem is. actually there are several problems #1) I’ve been out of the Batman/dc comics phase for almost a year so I don’t care that much about the topic #2) I am fifteen pages in and have not touched it in months so I’ve completely lost my train of thought #3) I can’t just reread it because I hate first five pages or so and I know I need to change it but I was trying to finish before editing #so now my only solution is I need to open up a new doc and completely restructure the whole thing by splicing together the existing writing #so that I can figure out where the hell im going with this and make sure things fit together better #unfortunately that sounds fucking exhausting #but I told my mentor I would have an update for him by the end of the week and. well. it’s the end of the week #I have to present it in April. I have to write and submit an abstract in March #the school gave me $1500 for this stupid essay and if I don’t have anything to show for myself. #well. I don’t know they can’t take the money BACK but it’s not a good look #and also I would feel bad #I did the research!!! i interviewed comic writers even!!! I just haven’t finished WRITING IT DOWN #and I KNOOOOWW once I get started it’ll be fine once I’m going I’m going #but STARTING is hard because I feel like I have to finish it in one go which makes it so huge and daunting #I’m like. slamming my head into a wall. just write a couple sentences Jess something is better than nothing #just start it you don’t have to finish just START just MAKE the new DOC #I know!!!!! that is what my therapist would say!!!! Jess you’re trying to oneshot it bc of your dumb adhd brain!!!! #stop looking at it like that and making it scarier!!! #but even tho I know that logically I’m still like oh I should put away the dishes o should make bread #I should work on my six different art pieces I should do laundry i should play with the puppy I should go for a walk I sh

[llettucestuff]

i love the finale of season 3 rb ITS SO GOOD and it hurts my heart but it’s so sweet and RAHH I WILL NEVER GET OVER ITTT

Like Heatwave gently but firmly telling Chief “With all due respect, sir, it’s not your call to make” AND THEN THEY GO AND BASICALLY SACRIFICE THEMSELVES knowing FULL WELL that they might never recover from this AUGH

Heatwave carries so much respect for Chief Burns and we see that respect form and grow and it all leads up to this point where Heatwave is essentially like “we all care about this family so much, we’d do anything for you guys” and then THEY DO and then we see how upset Cody is and how upset KADE is ohhh don’t get me STARTEDD because I will never stop

It’s the culmination of all the soft moments, all of the rescues and hardships the entire Burns family (including the bots you cowards they ARE family, it’s not “the Burns and the bots” it’s just the Burns at this point so when I say Burns I mean THE HUMAN BURNS AND THE BOTS CAN ANYONE HEAR MEE) has led up to his moment of loyalty and respect and straight up love and it’s so plain for anyone to see it.

And that’s why Frankie putting the unedited video into the time capsule is so important, not just for the future residents of Griffin Rock to see the kind of good people the Burns are, but for the whole world to see the character of the family. It’s also a declaration that these guys, the Bots, are important to us and our family lineage. We have loved them and they have loved us since day one, that’s why we think it’s important to have that notion in the future as well, yk what I mean?

The Burns and the Greenes family are SO IMPORTANT TO ME and the Bots are just as much family as any other human in that fold, and they were prepared and entirely willing to sacrifice themselves for that family, no matter the protest

#sorry guys idk when I’ll get over this (not anytime soon) #can you tell I finished season 3 not even 5 minutes before typing this #as in right now of me posting I finished s3 and typed this up immediately and didn’t read back over it at ALL #LET ME CLARIFY I’ve watched RB through its entirely at least two times (maybe even 3) before this but it’s been a few years so like #sooo don’t worry I know my stuff #send tweet #tf #rescue bots #transformers #tfrb #transformers rescue bots #also I swear I had another post planned but I got sick and couldn’t finish it so like. maybe today. maybe tomorrow. who knows #work and school and getting sick SUCKS but have this little thing that my fever brain spat out

[skitskatdacat63]

Notes:

I think I definitely like the original versions more than the edited ones. I'm more happy with the grumpy Fernando one, whereas the bratty Seb one made me want to cease painting forever. So hopefully he looks good?????? I'm sure I'll soften on it, but yeah, not TOO pleased with it right now. His facial expressions are so cute and dynamic and unique until you have to try and paint it and then you dont love him anymore(kidding ofc, how could I ever hate my beloved boy king 🥺)

Anyways, these are them:

#the caption is a multi-pronged reference so if you get it you get it 🤭 #hint: the quote is both a translation of a vettonso thing but its also not...exact. i added a little spice to it #so yeah translate all of that first(the first part of the quote wont work in google translate tho) #and then also the rest of the caption is both a reference to a real life thing but also me making it AUified !! #hehehe let me know your thoughts 🤭 was so fucking pleased w it when i first told C about it #ngl putting that quote was the main thing pushing me thru finishing the seb one #im like CMON YOU CAN DO IT!! IF YOU FINISH IT YOU CAN PUT YOUR SILLY LATIN JOKE!!! YOU LOVE LATIN!! #anyways i drafted this before i even really started the seb one #and my god LOOK AT THEIR HAND SIZE DIFFERENCE WOOF WOOF WOOF #did you guys notice...seb's ring...his wedding...ring? 🤭🤭🤭 #wanted to add one to nando but his left ring finger isnt really visible but just so you know hes wearing it #I have a lot of thoughrs about rings and ungloved vs gloved hands grrrrrrr #theres a lot of meaning in it to me and it adds to their characterization so ill try and make a post abt thay sometime ! #anyways pls enjoy the fruits of my labor..... #vettonso so good it makes me PAINT TWO PORTRAITS #i think before this au i was kinda trying to get away from painting csuse it stressed me out too much #and then the vettonso brainrot is so horrinle that im willing to paint for like...an undisclosed amnt of time #undisclosed not bcs im being secretive but bcs i have no idea and irs 6 am and i have school JSKFLVL #okay bur yes yes please enjoy. and enjoy my suffering as a purveyor of vettonso 🥹 id do anything for my lieges #f1 #formula 1 #sebastian vettel #fernando alonso #vettonso #catie.art. #boy king au

[figureofdismay]

Lazarus is an episode I used to hate but I've watched it 3 times so far this week trying to get a handle on it because it's a characterization goldmine. It's such a fascinating episode from a Scully perspective. We see a lot of facets of her that we don't usually get, thanks to Outside People being involved in the plot and her life.

And then there's Mulder acting like a complete jackass all of the time except when he's scared out of his mind when Scully's being held hostage (note the panicked use of "Dana"!). He treats the whole thing as one of their usual bantery games about theory vs theory, pretty much ignoring that Scully was at one time deeply attached to the subject of this theory. I genuinely can't tell if Mulder is actually oblivious to the emotional turmoil this whole thing is giving Scully, or if he's wildy jealous and unsettled by the information that she used to be someone else's devoted partner-follower-caretaker (another 'brilliant, intense' man at that) and is aware, but he can't help himself.

Meanwhile I've become convinced that before Jack's psychotic break/possession and later death, Scully was considering if she and Jack would get back together, then or in the future. Maybe not seriously but in the back of her mind, while they were working together on this case, trying on the thought to see if she was open to it. She'd seen Mulder and Phoebe doing their weird little dance in Fire just a couple months ago and was probably feeling freshly like her and Mulder's 'partnership' was less exclusive than she'd sort of assumed it to be post Jersey Devil, and probably did a lot of reminding herself that 'work partners' are not usually an exclusive commitment, and thus it's Fine to be working with Jack closely again, and maybe Fine to consider other things with him, too. Of course there's Mulder and the Files in her life now and not a lot of room for anything else, so her wondering was probably fairly abstract, but I do think that the Dana who broke up with Jack in the Before The X Files time thought that they'd probably give it another shot in the future, that maybe he'd learn to be less withholding and needy or she'd be stronger and more patient, and in a less precarious place in her new career.

We're dropped in it in media res and don't have a lot of context on Jack and Dana's present day dynamic before the bank shootout, or on Mulder being aware of Jack and Dana working together, but it would be very interesting to know if he was aware of that stewing in the background and thus the aggressive 'oblivious' behavior.

#the x files #txf #msr #dana scully #txf s1 #character theory: scully #character theory: wendy darlings #i'm just obsessed with Dana's romantic past i'm sorry #have even been considering writing some dana/jack fic character pieces to kind of get my head around it #the timeline is insane and requires her to be in 3 places at once to make all of her life story fit in the few years before the x files #but I'm not willing to sacrifice any of that detail so... i guess i'm going with CC's handwave strategy #+ the belief that she finished all schooling levels earlier than the norm