#because others have it worse or whatever

[enigma-the-anomaly]

:/

#vented in a discord server (not the tumblr moots one dw moots <3) about my mom barging into my room this morning #which really pissed me off because I feel like I have no privacy #and someone responded by saying I should be grateful that my parents care enough about me to walk into my room and check on me #which is. not what I needed to hear #idk I’m just always terrified that I’m too sensitive and that I’m having problems that aren’t actually problems #I know I’m privileged trust me but. that same thinking is what makes me deny my trauma #because others have it worse or whatever #like I am sure the person did not mean to insult me or be rude #and I do think I overreacted a little (mainly cuz mental illness and shit makes me annoying) #but. idk it rly hurt me #the last thing I needed was for someone to tell me that actually I should be grateful that I have no privacy #this person even started talking about how their room doesn’t even have a door #look idk what I’m saying I was just trying to vent rq and now I feel like an asshole #and self pity makes me feel even more like an asshole #I’m sorry I’m selfish and ungrateful. im sorry I overreact to everything #vent #ramble #god how does anyone stand me

[gay-otlc]

Actually I think we should talk about how incredibly fucked up it is for sapphic women to say shit like "I'm no better than a straight man 😔" when attracted to a woman in a way that isn't 100% pure and wholesome, or act like men's attraction to women is inherently dirty, predatory, or objectifying.

#like i mostly get impacted from this as a straight trans man #and the way people- even my friends- have acted like my attraction to women is now morally worse since i came out as trans #but this also affects like. bi/mspec men? it's shitty to shame them for their attraction to women! #and even cishet men. acting like objectification or predatory behavior is just inherent to male attraction to women #let's shitty men off the hook because 'they can't help it' or whatever #or victim blames anyone abused by a cishet man because 'what did you expect from being in a relationship with him' #yeah so like. sapphics stop saying this challenge #transhet #anti-transmasculinity #again i'm tagging because that's my personal experience with that sentiment but it has a ton of other issues too #antimasculism

[electoons]

I love the college of winterhold. everyone there is casually deranged and there's like an alarming number of students and staff who threaten you immediately when they meet you. it's always one of the first questlines I do. which makes it even funnier when you get made the arch-mage of the college. I'm level 12 and got through this questline knowing exactly 3 spells. what do you mean you want me to lead the college. this school CANNOT be an accredited institution

#i ask if anyone wants this job and everyone starts whistling and checking their phones #their magic phones. theyre scrolls #mia.txt #tes #skyrim #oh wait no i forgot j'zargo wants the position and actively wishes you were dead so he can be archmage #and nirya as well. you know what maybe its a good thing im the archmage because im never there #i drop in every few weeks for 10 minutes then leave. the place pretty much runs itself right #reddit says “they have a bullying problem” yeah i know i married him #and he's the new archmage's special little princess and he can do whatever he wants forever. call the police about it #dont bring your piddly ass problems to the archmage shes busy girlbossing (committing widescale atrocities) #(update to clarify the princess is enthir. short king scored a 6'5“ dommy mommy orc with the biggest strap in tamriel congratulate him NOW) #(huge W for the bisexual mer community #L for skyrim as a whole because they were both already insufferable enough on their own and now theyre making each other worse)

[coern-art-very-cool-and-nice]

sekai au 👊😔

#my post #hatsune loopku..... #isat #in stars and time #isat siffrin #isat loop #I was SUPPOSED to make a modern au but look. where that got me #prpject sekai..... #hsatsune miku...... #woaw......... #I haven't planned this yet. I just wanted to draw loop with Miku's pigtails really badly because I came up with the shape idea and went lik #ogguuguuuuGUG #oh bell yeas #actually well I have a little #small group of college students who met via tutor group (by odile) that turned into a book club and maybe band? #they would all suck playing instruments honestly #I made it a sekai au because I needed loop to go SOMEWHERE and went insane trying to figure something out till I finally went fuck whatever #fine #siffrin made a sekai and loop is there. fine. whatever. fine. yeah. fine #I don't know how the timeloop will come in. #I cant have both a timeloop and a sekai at once. #I would forget the other exists #and focus all on one #or it would be too much at once #also its kind of hard to do a timeloop like the one in-game in a modern way? #there's no good rocks to be crushed by that aren't like a collapsing building anyway #OH OH also this might be the last project sekai related art you see for a WHILE #this game hit my brain worse than project sekai I'm so serious #I've burned through almost all of my sketchbook and there are three(3) drawings that aren't siffrin #THREE.

[sysig]

A very normal scientist doing very normal gene splicing experiments (Patreon)

#Doodles #UT #Handplates #Gaster #Wobbledogs #Sometimes media flooding bleeds over into other interests at the same time and yes that is my only justification for this lol #I'm always most amused by the sequence of things lol - I'd already started in on Handplates again but then got very diverted by Wobbledogs #Which is especially weird to me because I was introduced to the game like half a year ago and it didn't really grab me #It's cute but eh it's fine - and then I watched a proper lightly edited playlist not like jumpcut-jumpcut-jumpcut #That can make for a very punchy one-off but it doesn't really reflect the gameplay loop #So actually getting to see it properly made the difference and I kinda Get It now and also kinda want to own the game lol #MeanWhile - Ghoster's been hanging out as my desktop buddy literally /while/ watching and I was getting new ideas on that front #They smushed together lol #Having him onscreen is just a good excuse to do a quick once-over style of study and follow some silly ideas haha #What would Gaster think of a progressive mutation type game ♪ Watching them grow watching them struggle to walk #Only uses the scold feature - or the worse option that he treats the dogs better than the skelebros noooo haha #Pretty much all of the creatures in Undertale are sentient to some degree aren't they :0 Wobbledogs are just dogs #They're not monsters but they're not humans but they're not exactly just dogs either - just little creachurs haha #It's fun to imagine him nurturing anyone or anything haha ♪ Goes from ''???'' to ''How can I help this reach their full potential'' #Whatever ''potential'' means in his own context hehe #It's cute in its own way

[uncanny-tranny]

It's just... odd to me, I suppose, going from "what is in my pants is completely irrelevant to most anybody else's life" to the expectation that you must be completely open, essentially, about what is in your pants.

I think a lot of people understand the general idea of why it's bad decorum to demand people offer explanations for private information like this, but they don't analyze exactly why it's bad besides, "asking directly is just rude" and not "asking in any way still enforces the often violent nature of gender and sex, and putting people in the 'right box' is a part of that violence."

It's especially odd when seeing other trans people enforcing the idea that "what's in your pants?" is a genuine, good-faith basis for interacting with others.

#trans #transgender #lgbt #lgbtq #ftm #mtf #nonbinary #what i mean by the last paragraph is... WHY does it matter? #if i lied to you right now about what is in my pants... how would you know OR how would you change how i am treated by you? #and also. i would absolutely rather lie about my *own* body than be put in danger because it is a trans body #if worse comes to worst i genuinely don't care if somebody is mildly insulted that i didn't 'trust them' enough with that information #it's just weird to see people go from 'only tell doctors that info; it hardly matters outside that!' to... #...'you need to tell ANYbody - even in social and platonic situations where you don't think it matters'... #...can you see how believing in the fundamental idea (that your sex and to extent gender is not your own and belongs to everybody else)... #...doesn't really mesh well with the idea that trans people should be able to live an autonomous life wherein their information is *theirs* #and can you see how for people who aren't trans but have an 'its complicated' with the broad 'what's in your pants?' would ALSO be hurt? #because even if you don't word it as such you still present the fundamental idea that - again - your sex and gender are required informatio #and that it must be judged to be 'accurate' so others can place you in whatever direction they want to treat you with #anyway lying about this shit isn't Inherently Evil and the idea that it's like. a boogeyman is weird actually

[blinkpen]

#i could have worded it even worse but i wanted SOME hyperbole and amusement factor #and you have to be brief obviously #zoetrope #its more like ripping random creatures from other dimensions and Immediately just throwing them out to cause havok #because the pain and suffering caused delights it #suffering from whatever the Agent does and when the Agent itself gets inevitably and brutally slain bc Agents don't get the rez #some are malicious but half the time the Agent monsters know even Less about what the fucks happening than the native mantledwellers #some are just doing what is natural to them and it is how do we say Less Than Congruent with conventional reality #[necrin voice] this is great i love this sh... what the fuck is that little dragon doing. he fuckin around? better make sure he finds ou- #[gets hit in the head with a frying pan by a lesbian covered in spikes]

[autistichalsin]

Am I the only one who thinks it would be downright cruel to force Halsin, an escaped sex slave to a Drow noble, to share a camp with Minthara, a Drow noble who not only supports the Drow practice of enslavement, but who even goes as far as to suggest enslaving the refugees in Baldur's Gate?

Am I the only one who is horrified thinking about how re-traumatizing that could be for Halsin?

#halsin #bg3 #baldur's gate 3 #i just... have concerns. about this. i get that not everyone is going to feel the same but like. #halsin already has a habit of pushing down his traumas because he thinks others have it worse/are more in need/whatever #obviously this isn't like. a judgment against people who like her. but as a halsin fan i just have no desire to put them together

[jasontoddenthusiastt]

On the subject of gotham county line and batman noel and so on and so forth it’s pretty frustrating (from a watsonian pov) that anytime Bruce hallucinates Jason being loving/ caring/helpful/compassionate towards him it’s always as robin and never as his current self

#it's ironic because Jason as robin never got the chance to become as obedient & devoted (malleable) to Bruce as he currently is #which is a result of being abused/manipulated for a more prolonged period of time #“maybe if I try harder and do it right this time he'll finally see the truth” #classic abuse tactic #no matter how well the victim fits the mold set by the abuser they’ll never acknowledge it #rather if they see you trying they’ll push harder and tell you you’re not perfect #the small shreds of affection here and there are important for motivating the victim to keep trying #kelseethe #Jason initiating the hug in rhato 27 after Bruce insinuated that those beatings will be a regular occurence bc he deems it a necessity #continuing to support Bruce even after Ethiopia and sticking around to help get Damian back #eagerly cooperating with Bruce + co in event leviathan then getting surprise pikachu faced/hurt after being betrayed #making a conscious decision to comfort Bruce in gotham war after Bruce fucked him up and left him behind #having undying conern for Bruce's wellbeing while Bruce regularly endangers his life #ex. Bruce's weird habit of committing vehicular assault on Jason whenever they're on the road demonstrated both in tfz and gotham war #point being: Jason was much more psychologically fit to be defiant towards Bruce when he was robin compared to now #he's more of a “good son”™ now than he was as robin Bruce is just too used to thinking whatever he wants and never being satisfied #the only times Jason got mad/upset at Bruce during one issue and continued to stay mad until the next #other than lost days and utrh was batman 410-411 and early in aditf before Bruce helps Jason find Sheila #so much worse has happened since then and all that just magically became water under the bridge off-panel

[arsenicflame]

do you guys ever think about how ed wouldn't intuitively recognise izzys steps anymore because ive been thinking about that a lot this week

#TAG RB AVAILABLE #an alternate (and worse) thought; that he still does recognise izzy from his walk but only because the cane is so distinctive #(every time izzy walks up to him he is reminded of what he did; of how he CHANGED izzy; he did that; why did he do that????) #he will never stop being reminded about what he did #anyway been thinking about this a ton this week. they have sailed together so long they know each other in ways they dont even know #themselves they are the only person the other trusts with everything they know their likes and dislikes and their strengths and weaknesses #they know their aches and pains (and how they got them) they know the sounds the other makes in their sleep they know the sound #of the others footsteps. until they don't any more #izzy cant walk up behind ed and be greeted as he once was. either his steps are not recognised and eds on guard for whatever comes next #or he does still recognise him. but is reminded every time of his worst moment how he broke the trust of his friend how everything #went to SHIT. #izzy never gets that relaxed greeting again #every time ed wants to apologise. he tries to. but it doesn't stop the guilt. it doesn't make it better. it doesn't make it go away. #everything they had. gone #nyxtalks #ofmd #our flag means death #izzy hands #israel hands #edward teach #the toe thing #whoops went off in the tags again. feel free to do a tag rb (or ask me to do one ':) djndb)

[zerodaryls]

it's so funny (read: sad) that if bigoted fuckheads didn't insist i was a woman simply by virtue of my body at birth, i'd probably be chill with she/her pronouns in addition to he/they. if my mom didn't insist i was her daughter, i'd probably let her call me that, and we could still have a relationship.

i'm nonbinary and 'gendered' words are hypothetically meaningless, but because there are so many people who are more interested in telling me who i am rather than lovingly and curiously letting me express my own sense of self, those words carry trauma.

there's no reason a nonbinary person like myself can't be a son and a child and a daughter. there's no reason a nonbinary person like me can't go by he, they, and she.

'she' is not a slur. 'daughter' is not derogatory. 'beautiful' 'pretty' 'gorgeous' 'feminine' are not insults.

to the contrary, they're parts of language that express certain facets of a multi-faceted human existence, like mine.

and i have this sad, mournful feeling that if it weren't for unloving, condescending people, i'd probably be down to be called any of those things alongside my usual masculine/neutral terminology.

but i'd rather die than let anyone tell me what i have to be called.

#i try to reclaim 'feminine' words for myself in private #calling myself 'babygirl' when i need to chill out. or saying i feel pretty. or going 'she needs help' when i'm struggling lmao. #but there's still so much fucking trauma in those words from the people who've forced them on me #who've snarled in my face that GOD made me ONE THING and ONE THING ONLY and that's a WOMAN (stepdad) #who've guilted me for taking their precious perfect daughter away as if i'm fucking dead (mother) #who've mocked me and everyone like me as if we're not the experts on our own sense of self (general transphobic public) #like. i'm not a fucking man. i'm not a fucking woman. i'm nonbinary. gender is absurdity as a concept. i'm done with it. #but being called a man or a son or a guy or 'he' or WHATEVER in that vein is fine and dandy because i've never had anyone say #'that is all you can EVER be'. or worse: 'that is what GOD made you to be and you have a ROLE to fill' #(christianity pls die approximately yesterday thanku 💖) #so yeah. idk. ranting yet again about Cis Audacity. #the complete lack of empathy. the lack of curiosity even. #the condescending bullshit. the 'i understand you better than you do'. the fucking AUDACITY. #i am the expert on myself. i am the ONLY expert on myself. period. no contest. not a debate. #i understand myself better than anyone else is CAPABLE of understanding me. #i could call myself 'she' and understand that i meant it in a nonbinary way. #in fact i could even see myself letting other trans people call me feminine terms at some point in the future. when i've healed more. #but cis people? probably not. they can call me 'he' or 'they' or they can fuck off & never get to know me because they don't wanna know ME #/end rant #any terfs/bigots that try to touch this post will be swiftly blocked and quite possibly cursed. have the day you deserve <3

[goatpaste]

gets so fucking sad remembering Lucy Steel isnt my oc and actually has a canon story of experiencing seven layers of deep disturbing trauma in the span of a few months at age 14

#what do you mean Lucy didnt travel with two broken adults who learn to grow as people n learn to love life again because they care about her #and that she doesnt have a systems of adults in her life that she can rely on #what do you mean Lucy Steel was handed shit by everyone from one end of the coast to the other as everyone treats her like an adult #what do you mean Lucy story isnt about an eldest daughter in a world trying to take her childhood from her #but the adults around her who have already lost their childhood dont want to repeat the cycle with her #i hate to act like whatever my retwrite is a perfect rewrite that does everything right and fixes everything or is even good #but fuck dude cant be worse than canon sbr

[wavesoutbeingtossed]

.

#the miss Americana post got me thinking #that I wonder if the reason it isn’t liked in some circles is because she’s so vulnerable #and it shows her own insecurities and struggles on full display even if it’s kind of between the lines #and they don’t want to admit that some of her struggles are innate and not just attributable to outside forces/people #like taylor does have anxiety and depression and disordered eating and who knows what other kinds of struggles #that will always exist in addition to whatever else happens in her life and who she’s with #sure outside sources may make things worse (hello TTPD ahem) #but the trauma and mental health struggles were kind of brave of her to talk about even if she skirted around them #and maybe people just don’t know what to do with that? #(also I just know— never mind.) #eta: ​I know the activism angle is problematic to some and I think maybe framing it that way in the general public was a misstep #because the movie is more about her finding her voice/herself in general #but the political stuff took centre stage in the press and on social media and obviously people are disappointed #that she didn’t use her platform more publicly or thoughtfully (eg civil rights reproductive rights environmental issues political issues) #but for people to hate it because of that… like yes maybe it’s disappointing on that one point #but as a doc it’s thoughtful and profiles its subject in a general sense well

[jojotichakorn]

my school president is so fucking perfect from start to finish sometimes i think it's not real. but it is. it wasn't a dream. holy fuck.

#i think this is one of the reasons i am physically incapable of watching specific scenes in it or whatever like i do with other series #because its just all so... cohesive? idk if thats the right word #but it's such a well thought out story from the very first second to the very last #in every aspect #to the point that i cant just take out one scene and watch that no #i absolutely fucking have to see the entire thing #rewatching just one scene is like taking out a tub of ice cream and only eating one spoonful #like at that point ur punishing yourself more than anything because u gotta eat the whole fucking tub now its just that good #and there are no like better or worse parts to that ice cream no its perfect in its entirety #man i gotta fucking rewatch msp #my school president #archer speaks

[1nvad3rz1m]

@ms-scarletwings couldnt fit your other reply in but yes i agree. i tried to make it clear it wasnt JUST ang's ex friends, or JUST a lack of a job, or JUST harassment that led to EOL for ang. It was a big culmination of everything and if america had a better safety net they could still be able to live throughout it.

whats plaguing fandoms right now ultimately is virtue signaling and DARVO is in full effect. I couldnt mention this because i do not have cross sources readily at hand to back it up PLEASE TAKE THIS WITH A GRAIN OF SALT IT IS ALL ALLEGED!! but jera i believe was accused of talking to a minor at the beginning of all this happening (specifically in the max v jera part of the doc). if i did the math right, this minor was 16 and jera was ~22-24. ang was brought up to deflect and reestablish jera as a morally correct individual that looks out for the safety of kids.

we see this still with tai who self ships with that redeemed pedophile character. I personally dont care, but their moral stance is that fiction affects reality and there is no way to separate the impact of fiction on your real life moral stance. This is hypocritical to me that it is justified for them, if we consider the real life implications of this narrative, but it is not for ang. its deflection. plain and simple.

its almost like ritualistic sacrifice in a way. you choose one person to toss over the edge, be thankful it isnt you, and you have cemented your spot as "one of the good ones".

#this is not me defending angs content in particular btw. i personally do not like nor care for what they made #but i didnt look at it for that reason. i didnt hunt them down. i dont believe they deserved this when other people in the industry #have done the same or worse things but because of their status were permitted to stay #kyle actually specifically lambasted john k as a predator (rightfully so) #but there was never a crusade to get john k kicked out of the industry. why? status #my belief is that...unless real people or real animals whatever u want to call it are at risk #its just not my business. i can have my opinions about the content..about the people who make it. but i dont go out of my way #idk. just be kind. be normal. there are people behind screens #recapkid

[triptych-of-voids]

i know you say youre not a rp acc and not kin, but i wanted to ask, your art of medic, are you depicting yourself? should i refer to medic in your art as you? example "i love how you drew yourself in this"? idkk i dont wanna poke around but i wanted to be sure im referring to you correctly??

this is a good question, just one that im not sure i will ever be able to give a satisfying answer to. i did answer something similar here that im definitely not an rp account but im neutral on kinning, because the term seems so broad that i cant say for certain if thats whats going on. maybe! or maybe not! hmm and then my art of medic.. yes it is depicting myself. but i also recognize that medic is a fictional character, so it doesnt bother me if people refer to medic as medic! im just drawing him, it doesnt have to be more complicated than that. if that makes sense. its all one in the same to me so it doesnt matter and you dont have to worry about it :]€

#its in the same way i will make posts talking about medic sometimes or will sometimes answer asks in third person #im referring to myself because thats me but #i do understand that hes also fictional character from the video game Team Fortress 2 #and i know people have their own interpretations and ocs and whatever else #i try not to think about it too hard or i will only give myself a headache #tl;dr dont worry about changing the way you refer to medic on my posts i know what people are talking about #i will know what you mean #it does not bother me #i think i would actually find it Worse if someone refered to Only my drawings of medic as 'you/yourself' #but then talked about every other medic thing as normal #is this comprehensible...? i hope so #it feels like there was another thing i was going to say also.. but ive already forgotten it oh well #see i dont bite at least not at first #thank youu for the ask my friend!! #its just a difficult question to answer because i dont fully understand what is happening either #there has to be some way for me to explain this better i just havent found it yet #THE POINT IS thank you for asking and i dont mind please talk about things as you normally would. smiles ^^ #the doc is in #replies from the void