#im referring to myself because thats me but

[entroart]

Hi there, just a few things

Hi, I'm an artist, and I'm plural too :3. Or at least, I think I am? It's complicated. There's a lot of denial all the time.

You don't have to say anything that you don't want to of course, and answer in as much or as little detail as you'd like to.

So my questions are like.

1) How has being plural affected your art journey?

Im asking this because I have really bad executive dysfunction, and find it extremely hard to actually do what I want to do, meaning not much art practise, but I know that my other alters don't have it as badly.

2) How is your system communication? How did you make it better if its good.

Our communication is very.... poor. There's 3 definite alters, including me, and maybe a couple more, but I never hear about them so idk. Either way, even between just the three of us, I almost never hear anything from the other two. Apparently they have better communication between each other, but idk how true that is cus I can't really ask them.

3) Can you visualise things? I have aphantasia, and it makes me need a lot more references for when I am occasionally able to bring myself to draw. I'm interested to know how it works without that inhibition.

Thank you very much for reading, I love your art and wish all of you the best. <3

Question Barrage!! 1. Well to be fair is mostly everyone doing their thing. Bridget is trying to learn how to art to help me so thats nice (lemme show her progress)

Other alters also draw, for example Abyss that tends to do fruits

Or one of our littles Chain that did art yesterday

So each alter different art and stuff, I think thats how I can answer that question. 2. Our communication is alright, we can talk to each other easily and dont need to write for that, so in that regards fine 3. Yes, we can see a 3D image and rotate it (shit is frustrating cuz then not being able to properly draw makes me feel horrible)

#transgender #lgbtq #art #doodle #original art #disabled artist #plural system

[triptych-of-voids]

i know you say youre not a rp acc and not kin, but i wanted to ask, your art of medic, are you depicting yourself? should i refer to medic in your art as you? example "i love how you drew yourself in this"? idkk i dont wanna poke around but i wanted to be sure im referring to you correctly??

this is a good question, just one that im not sure i will ever be able to give a satisfying answer to. i did answer something similar here that im definitely not an rp account but im neutral on kinning, because the term seems so broad that i cant say for certain if thats whats going on. maybe! or maybe not! hmm and then my art of medic.. yes it is depicting myself. but i also recognize that medic is a fictional character, so it doesnt bother me if people refer to medic as medic! im just drawing him, it doesnt have to be more complicated than that. if that makes sense. its all one in the same to me so it doesnt matter and you dont have to worry about it :]€

#its in the same way i will make posts talking about medic sometimes or will sometimes answer asks in third person #im referring to myself because thats me but #i do understand that hes also fictional character from the video game Team Fortress 2 #and i know people have their own interpretations and ocs and whatever else #i try not to think about it too hard or i will only give myself a headache #tl;dr dont worry about changing the way you refer to medic on my posts i know what people are talking about #i will know what you mean #it does not bother me #i think i would actually find it Worse if someone refered to Only my drawings of medic as 'you/yourself' #but then talked about every other medic thing as normal #is this comprehensible...? i hope so #it feels like there was another thing i was going to say also.. but ive already forgotten it oh well #see i dont bite at least not at first #thank youu for the ask my friend!! #its just a difficult question to answer because i dont fully understand what is happening either #there has to be some way for me to explain this better i just havent found it yet #THE POINT IS thank you for asking and i dont mind please talk about things as you normally would. smiles ^^ #the doc is in #replies from the void

[bloodrock-lobster]

as someone with BAD dysphoria stemming from my voice, there is a NEXT LEVEL high i get when someone calls my phone and the conversation goes like

them: "Hi im calling for [Legaldeadname]."

me: "Can i ask who's calling?"

them: "I'm calling from [place] about her upcoming appointment. Is she around?"

me: "Oh, okay. this is [Legaldeadname] speaking."

Them: [OBVIOUSLY CONFUSED 6 SECOND PAUSE]....OH

#LIKE I KNOW LADIES CAN HAVE DEEP VOICES. I KNOW. #but i have an insanely effeminate legal name #and ive had bad voice dysphoria my whole life. my voice was referred to as a squeal. #and a fear of making appointments with a name thats not on my insurance card #my oic at work literally told me when she called to introduce herself that she was #CONFUSED AS HELL because of how masculine my voice is #I CANT LIKE. TELL. But im getting gendered properly more over the phone and in person #okay thats not true i can tell a little bit and i bear hearing myself talk so like. its changed a good amount #LIKE ITS THRILLING. I FEEL GREAT WITH IT. ITS SO GOOD.

[rose-lalondde]

pro tip: if you think you have adhd then don't start a master's program before you even get a diagnosis (also you need a stronger prescription, you have astigmatism, and reading glasses aren't gonna cut it)

#i can handle one class just fine but 2 classes??? im killing myself #im working too so its like i never have time for myself and its just a neverending well of assignments and work plus i hate the schedule #why is everything due at 10:59 and why is it due in the middle of the week but i have to come back the next 2 days and write responses #one of my classes will trade out a disucssion for the week with an assignment thats due at the end of the week and i like that sm better #the other class makes use do a discussion and an assignment in the same week #and usually they're all due at the same time so i go to work and then go home do my homework and then do more homework on the weekend #then go back to work do you understand my problem #anyway my mom casually confirmed that i have astigmatism recently which ??? #but my eyesight is fine but driving in the dark is hell and its not b/c of the dark! #any kind of bright light blinds me like it could be a sunny day and i won't be seeing shit for that entire drive omg #just realized that this might be the cause of an increase in headaches wait... #ok back on track: adhd consultation (maybe) in a month and a half! #i don't have a therapist so im hoping my doctor can help? or at least refer me to somebody that can help b/c looking is hard omg #where the therapists at omg #moon posts #long one today because i am procrastinating so i can give up <3

[arcaneyouth]

i keep accidentally making my characters fatter than i mean for them to be. this is not a bad thing in the slightest. and many of them are still skinny. its just really funny that its happened multiple times now. slowly turning my default body type to draw into My body type and im taking my ocs with me

#specifically referring to eden i made edens new ref and made her chubbier and straight up did not realize #until i was looking at her toyhouse profile and suddenlt realized shes skinny. #i remade kazooies ref and actually had to fight myself to make him skinnier because i was just automatically making him fatter #not by a lot. but unlike eden kazooie IS skinnier than that in my head and i just ????? #with eden some switch flipped in my brain and was just like yeah shes always been fat and now looking back at her skinnier refs #feels weird. but kazooie???? not the same #my brains really feeling like whoops sorry. fatification beam #oh my god no wonder drawing raid is a nightmare their body type is supposed to be beanpole #even skinnier than id typically go for #theyre a stick #drawing thems always so hard im sobbing im forgetting how to make my characters skinny thats SO FUNNY #i could go farther. not as fat as they could be. tbh #but they do look more like me. which is cool. i used to never draw my ocs That fat #it may not be a lot of fat but it is like me <3

[flamboyant-king]

You know me. I like barely ever show any NOT SAFE FOR WORK drawings on here. So instead, I'm sharing drawings of my face AS I was drawing each NOT SAFE FOR WORK thing.

And the subject is right there, smack dab in the middle. Being tormented by the sins of the egg. (I drew him really cute but I can't share the rest.)

ALSO, I'd like to state that it's not corngraphic except like two maybe, it's more so like violent. We are all just having fun beating this guy up. Like, step right up and stomp on his face type shih. I never ever ever draw violent stuff, unless it's lewling related, so this is like cathartic.

This uhh feeling will fade after Halloween hopefully and we'll go back to our regularly scheduled wholesomeness and cammypus.

#i looked in a mirror 20 feet away as reference because im like NYAHAHA WHAT EVILS HAVE I COMMITED #and i see my own smug face in the mirror like 'yes this will get me hunted down' #sketches #i do comedy slapstick violence but ya know doing more darker jokes and adult humor feels nice like im not censoring myself #i mean i still am by not showing you guys a lot of the bloody or even H O RN Y stuff but ya cant expose everything #like for those of yall who have followed me for years id say were all legal here for more than my usual 13+ content #i just want ro be appealing to a broader audience IN CASE i ever did make it somewhere but haha its been what #8 years since i started this blog. any credit i had died off with teeny taku fhjdjsksajsk #ive got no image to uphold. i have nothing im trying to promote anymore. i do but ive lost the plot ya know #im just having fun and im glad you guys are just ...letting me? like i looked at my old stuff #with the cookies the pokemans the fehs the ocs. and yall just let me go freaking wild and thought #yeah ill give that a like. bless yalls hearts. bless ya souls. ive got thousands of posts on here and yall just let me run wild #and thank you for that. ya never pit pressure on me. kts me outting pressure on myself. #i do wish there were folks that did look forward to some actual tangible content instead of me shitposting with no cohesiveness #but thats just hard with adhd. and try as i might with medications and alarms and deadlines and what have you. its just. difficult #like even the tags here are derailing. but i hope that alongside me just having fun doing my thing. i hope i can get on course #where there is a clear line to follow in my life but i dont lose sight of it as i trail off #but for now. im just drawing experimenting and straight up goofing around. have fun you guys #i may not show you everything but just know im having fun too.

[fearcicada]

I am technically aroace but it's like I feel like being ace is so much less important to me and a much smaller aspect of who I am than being aro so I like. Never think about it. Being ace is like ok whatever I'm not attracted to people but being aro is like (the way I view humanity and relationships has been fundamentally altered in every which way and affects how I see the whole world)

#just how i view being aroace obvi #i see a lot of people who just refer to themselves as 'aro' and I'm not thsr because i still separate these two aspects of myself and don't #just think of it as that but #mentioning that im ace feels soo much less serious and unimportant than mentioning im aro #a few days ago my friend was like ''happy ace day!!'' or whatever and i was like wow. cool. this means nothing to me i didn't even know #that was a thing. i stay knowing every aro day week event etc on earth though #words #aro #aromantic #ace #? i brought it up im tagging it #asexual #im always so self conscious about when im tagging things like i don't wanna be that guy that's just like tagging shit thats barely #mentioned in a post or stuff that like someone going down thst tag wouldn't wanna se LOL #but at the same time im obsessed with making sure everything i reblog or post is organized well so im not gonna NOT tag something ... #mine #Aromanticism

[dirt-str1der]

Yaoi has poisoned all of your fucking brains !!

#Yakuza HATEblog #i dont want to hear about the new yakuza trailer where kiryu proposed to soemone he wouldnnever do that thats so scary #also they refered to sayama as the cop lady like please show some respect to her she didnt be annoying for you to forget her #ive become homophobic now because i hated seeing a particular post so much like that will never happen you are crazy #like no this isnt how kzmj can win they have never even once considered a future together because kiryus foreplanning ended when he lost #his brother and majima has spent half her life waiting for saejima to come back like they have more important things to worry about #and kiryu is not able to share his kids with anybody he cant simultaneously raise haruka with someone he has to either be a single dad or an #absent dad no in between and sometimes haruka is left parentless in the middle of that mess but its not kiryus problem hes driving cars amd #beating people up .... well he does care sorry for insinuating he doesnt ... he thinks about his kids every day #but i guarantee you he does not think about majima every day i swear it to you he does not care about her that much !!! i have to forever #stress this doesnt mean that he hates majima but it simply means that shes not his priority AND SHE WILL NEVER BE !!! kiryu will never #risk it all just for a suckle on that majiwilly like he doesnt like her that much ... if kiryu didnt even give majima so much as a phonecall #when he was ignoring her the entirety of y3 AFTER tossing her back to the wolves just so he can play house at okinawa.. hes not going to #suddenly realise that he wants to spend the rest of his life with majima hes going to be pondering how miserable he is while beating the #fuck out of people because sorry i didnt actually pay attention to the gaiden stuff is kiryu a hitman now or some sort of mercenary either #way its so hot that hes paralleled by y0 majima because hes so depressed and wants to kill himself and forced to wear a nice suit and do #things he doesnt want to while being kept on a tight leash like hohooho ... have sex with me ...!!! #im going to kill him myself to put him out of his misery if i have to ... just let kiryu run off to america and join the cia im kidding but #wait i just thought of him actually running off and sayama pulling some strings in the force to keep people from looking for him because #shes like a bigshot cop now ... i think she should be able to cradle him gently and keep him like a show cat #a shivering wet penis in the rain and she takes him in and gives him a loving home ... i feel a little embarrassed talking about hetships #but the concept of kiryu just being in her house and living with her is making me laugh like wow ... hes straight now.... like obviously hes #still not going to be like lets get married 🥰 but sayama would want to... i believe that she could forge their documents so kiryu isnt an #illegal immigrant anymore and she gives him an american name so john yakuza can become real ... its like a fake dating au but they really #arent dating theyre just having sex and acting out scenes from a kdrama but eventually kiryu will have to go back because hes so sad #without his kids and he needs to see them one last time to pass away peacefully. sorry i just remembered how much older kiryu was than #sayama like thats a bit funny ... like i still think kiryu should be into older guys or girls but like we cant always have that happen #like how majimas options for getting fucked by creepy old guys are getting lesser year by year because those old geezers keep dying and hes #old now too ... like theyre so old thats fucked. i know ive been saying how kzmj can never win but i do think majima should breastfeed kiryu

[angel-of-sweet-revenge]

Normal people: vent about their feelings in a diary or blog post

Me: makes a whole ass zine at nearly midnight

#okay so i was CONSIDERING the vent zine #and then um something and then i was like “yeah no i cant rest until i get this out” #so i sat down and made this vent zine that's gonna embarrass me next year lmao #am i okay? ... actually I'm trying to be okay now #I'm just questioning something about someone #sorry to keep referring back to That Thing it's just been on my mind a lot #even before that vent post for a while now i was wondering if everything really was okay. if it was making me okay. #because i dont want to be selfish and abandon someone when they need me. I've been abandoned before. #but it's been going on like this for a while and I'm taking too much of it in #i cant even see their name on my phone or like receive a message without going through mini heart attacks wondering if something's wrong- #-again and if i need to hear another drama again #it kind of feels uncomfortable as well in a way. like they're oversharing and that I'm not supposed to be knowing so much #maybe that's just me though. maybe im automatically distancing myself without realising it? #i dont know i just want to hide and not be so... involved i guess? #i think maybe I'm a person more suited to lighter friendships. or maybe there's been so much heaviness that this is just too much now #i dont know. i dont hate them at all but i wouldn't be too upset if they ghosted me (maybe thats just how i feel right now) #i dont know if I'm running away from my problems instead of trying to fix them or something #i have fixed them before. i have communicated and fixed issues before but this time i just cant anymore #okay that's enough rambling. it's midnight #mind you my zine does look pretty good. for a zine made out of a single sheet of paper and written/doodled on in black pen with a lil red #alright that's enough from me now. if you've stayed for this long go drink some water-i know you havent hydrated in ages #(says the woman who hasnt hydrated either-)

[k00kiecrumbler]

I'm like a lawyer with the way I'm always trying to get you off ( me & you ) - fall out boy

I just wanted to put that because I missed putting songs in my posts...

anyways, um still monke brain...even though I'm torn between the rt cowboy voice and the guy who voiced Godot in the anime [ and by that, I mean the English dudded] .

#the fact i still have the moments with this voice. it like the meme with the if im one of a fan. that me?? i dont remember how it go... #rtgame #i have struggles with the legs that is why the first two look like that...but my bud approved these pictures... #i also have to screenshot them too because the jpeg look like absolute shit...so there a little blur but thats that #godot!rt #tw wacky backgrounds #i hate to breaking to you guys but i think i like the english dudded of godot...idk why but i think it because i sounds like him in a sense #but when he says your honor. we throwing fits and punching air 🤪 🙃 #he look lovely with the harness. im proud of the improvement aaaaa #[ i like when rt voiced with a NY accent...i cant voiced myself with a NY accent...] #[also the von karma animation was fuckin lit. that all >:) wolfzie. a legend ] [ also also im lacking on AA. im still on case 3...] #i keep forgetting but i use myself as the references for these. am i capable of being a pose model? * stares at hands*

[comet-wire]

Ngl I've been having a gender crisis again on top of all the stuff that's happened with my dad, I think I still identify as male/masculine idk 🗿

Same with my ace/aro spectrum placement ☝️🗿

#comet rambles #putting in queue to deploy later #parent loss tw #just in case by association n implications ☝️🗿/nm+gen #when i get stuff set up with my checking account i was already thinking of getting a new chest binder once our personal issues with finance #has been figured out definitely #i dont wanna say much n jinx stuff so ill leave it at that #personal #gender shit is hard n i really think i may be a he/they or he/him still #or if not then closeted butch lesbian idk #most signs point to male gender identity leaning though 😔👍 #also my social battery is outta wack but i needed to get this out so i apologize to anyone who i have yet to respond to/gen+nm 🥹 #like i genuinely still feel as though ive been born in the wrong body and i tried to accept my feminity and it went well!! #like i started embracing my femininity the past few years and now i think im over it because it feels like i just attempted to try #and be something i wasn't if that makes any sense #i hate being referred to as she/her or as a girl even if i understand some people will still see me as fem despite my personal identity etc #its not that i hate my femininity its just i feel anything but female while still enjoying traditionally fem stuff at times #hope this makes sense #🗿👍 #still ace/aro though just cant figure out if i only enjoy the thought of romance (cupiosexual/romantic) or if i feel comfy in one #i know im sex repulsed though thats for certain #as of lately chris Redfield and Albert Wesker have become two of my transition goals and idk what to do about this lmfao #i wish i was kidding #but im not 😭 #sitting here like EVA shinji with his head in his hands in the damn chair image/lh #also wanna be a rootin tootin goth cowboy 🥰 #if it turns out im like a comphet butch/nb lesbian im gonna shit myself though/lh+nm

[saturnisfallingdown]

not to get controversial or anything but like....  happy isn’t normal, happy is hard, it’s impossible sometimes. but you did it, and you didn’t need worshipers or new identities, you just helped someone. so, for what it’s worth I’m proud of you jasper,

#/reference #IM FEELING THINGS OVER THIS MONOLOGUE AGAIN #lucids #cult-ish #jasper jasperson...... come back to meeee i miss youuuuuu #'and thats cool because happy isnt normal its hard its impossible sometimes but you did it so for what its worth im proud of myself' #literally continues to help me so much!!! supporting loved ones leading to greater self love is so so important and like uwuaeue!!!!!

[k0kichiimagines]

i hate writing cvs and teachers r useless at help i love them and i appreciate it but "i have no skills to put on my cv what should i put" - "aww no everyone has skills just think of something"

#SAME WITH REFERENCES #like i dont know people #it reminds me of when i tried to ask for another way to do a piece of homework because you needed to ask multiple people things #and my teacher refused to believe that i truly did not have a single friend to ask #and then finally went ok but said to ask other kids in my class #ma'am i had a panic attack after texting someone a simple message i truly cannot physically do that without passing out #i did not do the homework i couldnt be bothered to make up answers #so much of psychology was that though lol i just had to make up friends and answers #thats so humiliating to admit actually #see i used to be so sad that i didnt have friends but im not rlly anymore / srs #i havent had friends in years let alone close friends #i decided to stop trying it only ever results in stress for me lol #i dont even knkw what to talk about #like people dont rlly care about ur goals or interests or sharing theres or hobbies like what do we even do #its more lonely to have friends then not i think #and it does suck being alone but you get used to it even if ur extroverted and drained like me LMAO #its not like im anti social i just dont put myself out there #i want to live in a city apartment and fill it with pretty things #and learn an instrument #and get a pet #it's 2am im rambling im tired LMAO

[skippingseaglass]

i forget if someone already said this and i'm just repeating it because i liked it but when people say "the transgenders want to ravage our lives and prey on our children" i really can't help but laugh because like

you know what i wanna do?? i want to help an old lady across the street and i want her to call me a fine young man and pat me on the head (to be fair i would probably be about her height i'm really short) and i want her to have a nice day and i want me to have a nice day

#being nice to strangers already feels great but if i was referred to masculinely when people thank me public polite would be like crack #i would literally never get tired of it #the only reason i dont seek it out is because i am usually percieved as a woman #and that shit *sucks* #it still feels nice to just be nice to people #thats why im kind of the god of customer service #well. and the fawning. from uh. the abuse #but mostly because im just very nice to people #it would be nice if i could feel like myself in those situations #and not uh #the false image projected upon me by my mother #the one i am forced to basically larp as #urgh #whatever #it'll be over soon enough #i really should ask for a ride to a barber shop again #or i guess i could take myself there with a lyft or something #whale whatever #another daydrian another slaydrian

[cfrog]

My favorite part of writing is doing whatever the hell i want, then turning around and english class analysis-ing myself. Yeah Moe's character is an exploration of the horrors of growing up, particularly as a trans person. The transformation of Moe's body into something completely unknown with incomprehensible rules is a metaphor for puberty and also being neurodivergent. I definitely didnt just go "wouldnt it be fucked up if a kid was a cartoon" this was soooo on purpose

#just watched that queer body horror video essay. Ha Ha I Do That #i make a guy. i give em a problem. i What Does It Mean myself. i give em more problems with that in mind. profit. #my oc talk #ive only very recently started refering to leddlabs as a 'horror' story. because i dont think its very scary in any way. #but it sure does have a lot of body horror and violence and psychological stress and the format kinda draws from Saw #but to me thats just guys being dudes. just dudes doin puzzles. you know how it is with puzzles. #*walks out of a room covered in blood* just finished a jigsaw puzzle :3 #ok im rambling i go to bed now #plus have you seen ledd??? he goes :). that is spookys house of jumpscare horror at best. #lab moe

[sparklecare-good-au]

HELP YOU MADE US GET A SATURN FICTIVE 😭😭😭

ok good for you i guess??

#idk what you expect me to say here...like...thats my fursona that i based off myself so like...eugh...i dont want to be rude or anything #but im really uncomfortable with...this?? i guess #its in the faq that im really uncomfortable talking abt this because saturn is literally supposed to be me. #im not trying to be mean or make you feel bad anon; because i doubt you knew abt it #all of this im saying rn is more for future reference