#be calypso here

[hongism]

update;

tldr: all i’ll be writing on this blog moving forward is mists of celeste. if that’s all you want to know about the status of both me and this blog, then you can stop reading here! i won’t be offended or bothered if that’s all you want to know!

however if you’re interested in a more in-depth explanation as to why i came to this decision then you’re welcome to keep reading to understand where i’m at.

why am i doing this?

there are multiple layers to why i’m taking this step. first off this is not a goodbye, as much as i’m sure many people are expecting that with how often i’ve been absent from this blog this year alone. one, i made a promise to myself when i very first started this blog almost 4 years ago that i would deactivate once i reached a certain milestone. since then, i’ve chosen not to deactivate and i think i will always leave this blog up as an archive even when the day comes where i will not be here or be posting anything here. i also have hopes and goals to finish mists of celeste and i think i will hit that milestone before i finish the story (maybe not anymore but, that’s beside the point). 

two, with being so close to such a significant milestone, i think there are certain expectations i have regarding my fics and the success of those fics. frankly, almost 90% of my following came from when i started writing for a.tz/s.kz, not b.ts. so it isn’t a disconnect in what people followed me for because i haven’t been writing for b.ts for several years by now. but even so, my fics still don’t do well. the reblogs mostly come from me, the feedback mostly comes from people who read from me regularly or mutuals, and the ratio of likes to reblogs is a never-ending issue that is never going to change. i’m grateful for anyone who stops to read and leave feedback on my works, and i am especially grateful to anyone who stops to read and leave feedback on my works that are not mists of celeste. and now with tumblr mucking up the tag system and preventing my works from being shown in the tags even when i do everything recommended, my works are going out to an even smaller audience that is not even 1% of my follower count. even with atinyblr being slow these days, i see other writers doing well and getting 500-1000+ notes with apparent ease compared to what i see on my own works. 

the shift in interest in the community has also affected me a lot. people are less likely to read a 10k+ fic that has plot mixed in with smut compared to a 1-2k pwp smut fic, which is fine. but that isn’t what i enjoy writing. and i understand that over time, i have lost the audience i used to have when it comes to writing that stuff. even for moc, barely anyone on the taglist i run with every update reads the updates. it’s an upsetting reality for me as the writer because i see my follower count go up and up yet my interaction and notes go down and down. which is primarily why i don’t like being here anymore to be frank. i have my friends from here but i talk to them off tumblr so i don’t feel a need or a compulsion to be here to talk to friends. i know that whatever i post won’t be received the way i wish for it to be received. and i now have this lingering fear that anytime i post anything at all tumblr will decide it shouldn’t show in tags at all.

and three, people are still dragging up things that happened in the past that i have tried so hard to move away from and want nothing to do with anymore. and belatedly, as much as i changed my url at the time, i realize that i won’t ever be able to fully distance myself from being involved in that in the past as long as i am calypso, hongism. i really hate that because i’ve had to come to terms with a lot of the bad things i suffered here on this website and in my real life relationships that were public here on tumblr, but i will always be known for my association with those things in a negative light.

what about your other series?

i won’t be writing them anymore! i appreciate all the love and affection given to them but frankly after blood masquerade i came to the realization that even if there are a lot of people interested in an idea, they aren’t all going to be interested in the final product. the ratio of votes to even likes on the fic itself was so grossly skewed that i found myself both baffled and discouraged to even continue writing it. aka; why am i putting so much heart and soul into something and not seeing an outcome that is balanced or fair? it wasn’t even an insignificant difference but rather something close to a 50+ difference in notes and votes.

will you ever change your mind?

maybe? maybe not? probably not. at some point in the distant future i might find myself wanting to go back to ideas that i had, like the wooyoung and san series i had planned for october this year but right now i have such a dismal and bad relationship with this blog in general that i don’t even want to think about posting anything here.

and one more note regarding moc:

i think i’m done writing interims. there has always been a disconnect in the readers of the main chapters versus readers of the interims, and i’ve always known that would be the case, but it is greatly disheartening as the writer to see such a divide on the work that i put my heart and soul into. so for now moving forward i just want to do main chapters and nothing else unless i feel so in love with an idea that i just have to put it out there.

overall i understand that this post as a whole is very moody and emotional and negative but i hope you all understand that this has been something i’ve been struggling with for the better part of a year here on this blog. i feel a disconnect and i feel no way to grab the ropes and tie myself back here the way i used to be here. even looking at other writers who have come up into the scene on atinyblr, i feel very lacking as a writer and i also feel a disconnect from them because i’m a writer who has been around here since 2020. it’s dumb to say that i feel ostracized in any sort of way but i do feel a bit distant, and i understand that in my attempts to curate a corner for myself on the internet, i created a very specific niche for myself in mists of celeste. i have always said that that is my magnum opus, and i still believe that to be the case. and at risk of sounding horribly arrogant, i feel i’ve isolated myself on an island that is mists of celeste and any time i try to broaden my horizons to do something outside of moc, it’s destined to fail. so for the sake of my mental well-being i need to step back and dedicate hongism to mists of celeste so that i can curb any expectations i might have had about other projects i wanted to do. 

so no, it’s not a goodbye, just a note that i’m slowing down and that the only thing i’ll be presenting to you all here on hongism moving forward is mists of celeste. it’s something that’s said a lot but it’s not something that i admitted myself until recently, but having come back multiple times this year with this mentality of ‘if i just push myself through this then it’ll be fine’, i now realize that if i don’t care for myself then how can i expect anyone else to care about me either? and i think i need to do this to care for myself and have a better mentality about my presence here.

#caly chats #as far as asks go #im trying my best to reach a mental space where i feel okay enough to #be calypso here

[sunnybearvampire]

i am not normal about the calypso episode i will never be normal about the calypso episode. something something queer joy and love and found family and you can't ruin that or take it away. finding yourself and expressing yourself fully for the first time and finding a group of people that will not mock you but encourage you with every last breath left in their lungs. seeing all of those unique and amazing people gathered to see you perform. fully for perhaps the first time realising that there was never something wrong with you, something was wrong with the world for not accepting you as you are, worthy and deserving of love. you are the unicorn. i am mentally unwell i shall never recover.

#this is so clear to me ned tried to fuck with them and immediately got iced #and stede's first real kill of the series being a racist asshole who interrupted something that was such a joyful and queer and amazing- #celebration is so so special to me #yes you tortured my crew but most importantly you fucked calypso's birthday #this amazing space of acceptance and revelry #and we've been threatened by your kind before #and we've been scared for our lives any time we were forced to enter one of your spaces well guess what #this was our space you entered and our boundary you violated and the punishment is death #there is no place for one of you here #we will not let you take away what we so painstakingly carved out for ourselves #izzy hands #stede bonnet #our flag means death #ofmd

[helpallthenamesaretakenblog]

right where you left me is so incredibly calypso coded in this essay i will-

#AND I BET YOUVE GOT A WIFE SOMEWHERE KIDS AND CHRISTMAS BUT IM UNAWARE #I CAUSE NO HARM MIND MY BUSINESS #YOU LEFT ME NO CHOICE BUT TO STAY HERE FOREVER??? taylor you cannot make this up #percy jackson #pjo #rick riordan #pjo fandom #pjo tv show #heroes of olympus #pjo tv series #calypso #calypso pjo #caleo #leo valdez #pjo hoo toa #toa #greek mythology #percabeth #greek myths #greek gods #classical mythology #ancient greek mythology #taylor swift #taylor nation #percy jackon and the olympians #swifties #tswift #taylor swift eras #evermore #right where you left me

[ofmd-ann]

"I didn't even want your fucking record. I only broke it 'cause I was bored."

#his side profile here is just something #edward teach #ed teach #calypsos birthday #our flag means death #ofmd #ofmd gif #my edits #ofmd s2 #ofmdann edits

[ruegarding]

some of percy's thoughts abt the gods in tlt

and one bonus som

#perseus “fuck them gods” jackson #otherwise known as: percy understood luke's feelings this entire time his problem w luke was always personal #luke betrayed HIM luke hurt HIS friends etc #will never forgive rick for acting like percy only understood luke in hoo like it's been here this whole time smh #(if rick wanted to talk abt luke then percy should've been considering joining gaea my official opinion) #the whole scene w calypso in botl...well i could say a few things abt that honestly...part of it has to do w ethan :3 #anyway yes percy does have some positive thoughts but i'm not including them bc that's not the point of this post #i also left out some stuff bc it was repetitive and vague and fifteen quotes seemed like enough to get the point across #perseus jackson #percy jackson #percy jackon and the olympians #the lightning thief #pjo hoo toa #pjo books #percy #min talks pjo

[artworthless]

#sometimes I wonder if I should post art with them here... #au #borderlands #borderlands 3 #ava the apprentice #borderlands ava #troy calypso

[notasocialismjoke]

girlthings imply the possible existence of womanthings, an unfathomably horny word that immediately makes me think of lady dimitrescu

#calypso from pirates of the caribbean is also a womanthing i think #and glados? #holy shit this has been sitting in my drafts for three months #why did i just leave this in here?

[bugsinthebayou]

princess calypso

#not sure what here eye color should be so multiple versions #her crown is made of orthoceras fossils btw :] #sketchbook #oc: calypso nudibranch

[bitspices]

OK but can we all take a second to appreciate:

That Wee John as the goddess Calypso

is a reference to both Ursula from the Little Mermaid

and Divine, the drag queen that inspired Ursula in the first place

He has the exact same eye make up even!!!

This show celebrates queer culture in so many ways, they didn't just put Wee John in drag, they deliberately did a direct reference to a very queer (both in development and themes) disney movie and to drag culture. And we love to see it.

#I am HERE for queer culture being acknowledged and celebrated #this show is so thoroughly queer #our flag means death #ofmd 2 spoilers #wee john #calypso's birthday #ursula #divine #queue continuum

[rosieshipper]

#I’m feeling stuff after the latest episode #so here’s a poll #I’m gonna go rewatch the entire series now for comfort #bluey #bluey heeler #bingo heeler #bandit heeler #chili heeler #muffin heeler #socks heeler #stripe heeler #trixie heeler #radley heeler #frisky heeler #calypso bluey #not selfship

[confusedraven1]

the fact that the crew continued their party even after being tortured is…amazing. and important. and very queer.

“be queer and spread your joy and celebrate, not in despite of being hurt, but because you SURVIVED. after all this time, you’re queer and still here.” 🏳️‍🌈🏴‍☠️

#queer #queer pride #we’re still here #ofmd #our flag means death #ofmd s2 spoilers #crew of the revenge #calypso’s birthday

[royaipercabeth]

The farther into Heroes of Olympus I get, the clearer it becomes exactly how much Rick Riordan just loves his main character.

Like, everyone is supposed to be attractive and powerful, right? But Jason gets hit on by like. Two people? Leo and Hazel have a tentative crush they decide would be disastrous to act on for many many reasons. Nobody hits on Annabeth or Nico because they're scary. But Percy gets hit on by EVERYONE.

Unless they're his enemy (or a god he has insulted), literally everyone loves Percy Jackson.

#I'm not even kidding right now #obviously Annabeth loves him but like #there's also Calypso #Reyna #AND HER SISTER #Nico #shoot maybe that's everyone but still #the others get a passing eyebrow waggle #while people falling for Percy (but not able to have him) #are literal plot points I CANNOT #Riordan loves his boy so much and I am so here for it #it makes it a joy to read #percy jackson #pjo #hoo #I'm in the middle of House of Hades right now send help #hell even Artemis tolerates him #and RACHEL #how could I forget Rachel

[dick-chugger]

I was wondering why Izzy's drag look seemed so familiar. And then I remembered.

#i dont usually like posting my face herr #*here #but im practically unrecognizable is drag makeup #ofmd #our flag means death #ofmd spoilers #ofmd s2 #calypsos birthday #izzy hands #drag #selfie #me

[angelcak-3]

almost every time I read about percy from another characters point of view I get pissed off so I’m just. not going to do that anymore

#stop blaming that kid for not visiting the underworld in the MIDDLE OF A WAR???? #hate it here what the fuck oh yeah lemme just. pop down into the abode of a dude who tries #to kill me several times. to visit another dude who tried to kill me. and I’ll just pray he doesn’t regain his memories in the middle of the #conversation. fuck off!!!!! #pjo #did the same shit with the calypso thing #leave him ALONE

[arsenicflame]

my most bitter proposal for a season 2 fix it is that the crew refuses to let ed back on the boat (as they should) so stede throws a tantrum and ultimatums that if ed stays so will he but the crew just take him up on that.

they make their inn in the wreckage of anne + marys house and the crew goes off and continues to have fun hijinks with izzy as the ship parent

#they run the ship as a crew; sharing all their profits and the labour equally. they really are together as a crew #they don't get caught up in pirate wars because they're revisiting scamming rich boats with calypsos parties #theyre doing a 'donate to our church' bit and pointing at izzy saying 'look! we help the elderly and the disabled!!!' #(izzy is miming slitting their throats when the targets back in turned) #theyre having fun and theyre all happy and alive and have hope #nyxtalks #ofmd #ofmd s2 spoilers #our flag means death #[redacted bitter comments about ed + stede but i literally do not care about what they do here] #stede can restore annes antiques i guess #also. the crew give anne + mary a ride in my heart its wonderful theyre great. #idk i was already frustrated about how easily ed was let off the hook and stede doing that so like. crew. please say fuck no see you never.

[likeafairytale]

I think this kind of love is wonderful.

#mine #calypso le fey #calypso x yasmeen #calypso x anastasia #zelda of hyrule #zelda x nate #zelda x yasmeen #achilles petrova #achilles x anastasia #achilles x yasmeen #miakoda #miakoda x anastasia #malachai blackwater #kai x aeron #this is a hot mess #i didn't know which pairing to choose #we have so much great friendship #i had to made sacrifices #sorry for the ones not here #i love them too #this is definitively something nastya said #'love for the sake of love' this is beautiful