#as you can see i am Completely Normal tm

[constantvariations]

Why did they create such a useless character to show Cinder's backstory when Salem is literally right there AND the real question the audience wants answered???

Imagine if it had been Salem who stayed at the hotel and saw something of herself in the scrappy servant girl. She saw how the Madame treated little Cinder and offered a way out only if Cinder has the power to be useful to her. Maybe she put Cinder to a test of how far she was willing to go for freedom, or maybe Salem wanted something from the Madame that she wouldn't give so it was up to Cinder to provide

Either way, Salem gets a young disciple that's ruthlessly ambitious and easy to manipulate and Cinder gains the illusion of freedom under a new master

#rwde #ofc salem wouldnt be grimmified in this version bc she'd stand out too much to do under the table shit #or she still could be but the world actually looks like an anime like it did in the beacon days #v4 on is far too grounded in reality design-wise #where the hell are the folks w wild ass hair colors and styles?? the most we get is joannas green but she says like 10 words so who cares #tis some bullshit and why i refuse to call v4+ rwby an anime #anyway this was somehow prompted by me comparing vergil to cinderella #as you can see i am Completely Normal tm #ngl tho vergil is a better cinderella if instead of riches-rags-riches its power-powerless-power #cinder starts at the bottom so her baseline mentality is way off if you want to do a cinderella remake #rags to riches is abt underdogs clawing up the social ladder against all odds #but riches rags riches is abt reclaiming what was yours #if we use cinders random disdain towards schnees in v8 as inspiration we could have a story of rival businesses #cinders father gets booted from power/high society thanks to Jacques's maybe legal maybe not methods and meddling #could go several ways from there: #her father could die and she'd be left homeless and alone in the cruel underbelly of the wealthy and powerful #she could find work w the Madame and try to endure the abuse so she and her father can pay the bills #her father could straight up sell her to the madame #itd be a horrific way to learn the significance of power and how easily it can be taken #i wanna like cinder so bad but v5 on fucked her irreparably. she doesnt even dress well anymore ffs

[crowsongcaws]

PLEASE SAVE BIGB'S DESIGN

TL;DR at bottom (also this sounds like anger and it isn't, I'm just dramatic) Screaming, crying, on my knees BEGGING PLEASE

I know so many other Life Series/Traffic Life characters have reoccurring tropes they aren't able to escape from fandom-wise (cough cough DESERT DUO cough cough) but please for the love of EVERYTHING!!!!!!!!!! Let BigB be free of the cookie thing!!! It really is "yeah I don't watch him but I included everyone else so I'll include him and he has a bunch of cookie fanart so yeah BigB = cookies <3" It's a funny little callback sometimes, but for him, it's just that people don't know what else to give him. He hasn't even been OCified!!! (OCified as in a fanon version of himself has become widely known and accepted over the canon character i.e. Grian being an avian, Scar being ridiculously buff, Jimmy being a canary etc etc)

I understand why people would be hesitant to make him some sort of hybrid like most other members, but he doesn't have to be a hybrid to be OCified! For example, although Martyn also tends to be elf-like or sometimes something monster-related, he's widely regarded as a Listener! And guess what? BigB was also in EVO!

"But BigB's skin had a cookie on it---" AGES AGO, PLEASE LET IT DIE "Joel isn't 'OCified'---" Didn't ask, don't care, talking about BigB right now At this point, I could draw a cookie with eyes and limbs and say it's BigB fanart and everyone would be like "yaaay!" I desperately want and NEED to see BigB with non-cookie related designs. Can he have little stuff hinting towards the cookie thing? Of course! That's part of his character! Just PLEASE add on literally ANYTHING ELSE. BigB with 4c (read it again, FOUR-C) hair with shaved sides and a heart shaved into one side. Same hairstyle but the sides are braided back and one of the sides has a heart braided into it. Cottagecore BigB with mohawk braids that go back into a bun with that little bandana headband on! Imagine he's in friendly floral clothing holding a bouquet of flowers, and the center of the flowers look vaguely like eyes but everything else about him looks so typical you barely notice at first glance because he's totally Normal(tm) and completely unaffected by Evo as opposed to literally everyone else. Please give BigB a new outfit. That sweater is TIRED. Let it REST. Give him literally ANYTHING ELSE. Give him a fucking corset idk! A dress! Ball gown! Spacesuit! My Chemical Romance merch! LITERALLY ANYTHING ELSE. "I don't think BigB as a character would wear a corset/dress/anything feminine---" Why? Go on. TL;DR Stop making BigB's personality revolve around cookies (and also being a cheater because of Double Life for that matter) and please add literally anything else to his character design/personality traits I am begging and screaming and crying because I can't unsee it

#bigbst4tz2 #Please appreciate BigB #I'm anti-cookie #I'm not an expert/number one fan of BigB but I have eyes #trafficblr #life series #traffic smp #life series smp

[nancynancydrewdrewdrew]

Honestly I find the character of Colin/Justin and the way he is handled to be disgusting, especially in a game meant for young girls. When I was a kid playing the Phantom of Venice, I didn't really notice anything wrong with him, and even thought that he might have been there as a cute boy character for the fans to like, like Henry from CRY or Dave from SHA. I never LIKED him, but if you were on the message boards at the time I'm sure you remember how nearly all the Alternate Endings paired Nancy with him, and so I figured that was the function he was meant to serve in the game.

The problem that I'm seeing now playing this game as an adult (and like, honestly I've replayed it when I was an older teenager and didn't pick up on it so yikes) is that that IS what the game is treating him as. Nancy and Helena have a conversation about how he's boring, but cute, and he has an attractive air of mystery. This isn't something I'm reading into, that is literally the text of the conversation. The problem is that is absolutely NOT what he is, and so I've compiled here a list of Yikes (tm) moments that go directly against this characterization. I am going to put it under a read more bc it ended up a lot longer than I meant it bc I don't self edit and I wanna save your dashboards, but I know the clue crew likes to read lol so get ready:

1. LITERALLY your first interaction with him--he assumes Nancy shares all of his same interests because he finds her attractive, and bullies her into going along with what he wants. If she says that she is not interested (like I chose) he gets upset with her, and Nancy responds by placating him and saying that no, she actually WAS interested in tesserae! And he won't be nice until she literally begs him to show them to her. Then, after he gets what he wants, when she understandably says "that's nice but I have to go", he begins to INSULT her and once again she responds by falling over backwards to get him to like her again

This is harmful to young girls for a number of reasons, namely that a) Colin views Nancy as an object to project his own fantasies on to and becomes upset when she is a real person with her own interests, and b) It shows that NANCY is in the wrong for hurting his feelings, and it is her responsibility, not his, to make him feel better. There is something to be said for placating a dangerous situation until you can get out, but that is not the case here and Colin isn't being violent, he's just being a dick 2. He is SO UPSET at the fact that Nancy has a boyfriend! This is a point that comes up multiple times in the game, and was a jumping off point for many people on the message boards to ship him with Nancy. He has known Nancy for mere hours when he starts being pressed about this. This is not cute and romantic. This is very weird. He should not feel ownership over a girl he met so recently, and the game just treats it as a "haha, Colin is so funny" type of situation, when it is super predatory and gross.

3. The whole thing with the sausages--he gifts Nancy tainted sausages (which I fully do admit was not his intention, he was just trying to win her over with gifts which is a whole different thing I'm not getting into), and sends them with a signed card. Then, when Nancy asks about them, he lies and says it wasn't from him. Then, when Nancy points out it absolutely was, he is upset again. This whole thing is just so weird, and he acts like it's Nancy's fault for trying to figure it out rather than his fault for not telling the truth.

4.The absolute shift in his demeanor and tone when the bulb goes out in his microscope is insane. He starts yelling and berating Nancy for something completely out of her control, and when she's like it's just the bulb he's like hee hee sorry lol oopsies! Do this work for me now! And Nancy DOES it! Like that was a totally normal request after a totally normal interaction! This was annoying when I was a kid, but now that I'm an adult and recognize this as an actual abusive tactic that many men use to paint themselves as still good guys while flying off the handle it leaves a really sour taste in my mouth.

5. Why does he leave the note when he leaves the Ca on Nancy's bed??? There are so many other places to put it, like his desk, her desk, the coffee table, etc... that aren't as creepy as "this guy you've known for two days is fucking around with your bed" 6. Okay Helena says he's cute and sorry bro but that is just not the case. I'm being mean here and it doesn't really have a point that aligns with the post I'm making but let me dunk on him for a second--he has fucking Justin Timberlake ramen hair that wasn't a good look when it was popular in 1999 and it certainly wasn't popular at the time the game came out. He looks like he auditioned for N*sync and got cut first round and made it his whole personality As parting thoughts, I understand that there is a degree of Nancy trying to keep her suspects happy and unsuspecting at play. What I don't love, however, is that there are multiple conversations in the game where Colin is treated as annoying, but harmless. Because to me, that sends a very dangerous message to girls about what behaviors are acceptable for men to have towards women, and how they are meant to respond. I might be blowing smoke out of my ass here, because I played this game as a kid and didn't notice anything wrong until I was an adult, so it might not be a problem. But on the other hand, I also didn't see any problem with his behavior other than, like the game says, he was kind of annoying. So do with that what you will.

Also there is a lot of gross "save the children" rhetoric these days where they pick and choose benign things to focus their anger on rather than look at things that are actually harming children, and I hope I didn't come off that way in this post. My point is, even if you take away my points about harmful messaging to kids, I think Colin is a creep lol

#phantom of venice #nancy drew #cluecrewplaythru #clue crew #nancy drew games #her interactive #ven

[prototypelq]

DMC Questions Anon here!

This has always been on a "maybe" list of questions I'm not really sure if I actually want to ask or not, but decided why the hell not with Valentine's Day around the corner (I would ask on Valentine's day, but with my at least ten days between questions thing (which I still might be a teensy bit flexible with) doing that would mean I wouldn't be able to ask another question I want to ask when I want to ask it).

What are all your Devil May Cry ships? Which one is your favorite? Which do you think about the most?

Hi Ember, thank you for the ask! It's Valentine's, so I think I have a kind of obligation to answer this one today xD Sorry for being less active lately. However, I'm not out of the DMC woods yet, and I will try to participate in fandom week however I can.

Now, for the ask itself - I think the answer is rather obvious. DMC is primarily a family of losers drama, and I'm all here for it. Except NeroKiri and Sparda/Eva, those are adorable and we should appreciate them more)))

That being said, in a safe space, far far far away from canon, I really dig Dante/Lucia and Vergil/Lady*.

*Actually I think Vergil/Lady could be a possible post-dmc5 development too, or at least, I see their personal arcs aligning a bit past that point, cause both will need to adjust to 'normal human life', maybe they can go through that journey together. sadly the same cannot be said for Dante/Lucia, I think their opportunity in canon is far gone at this point, still I imagine they have nothing but respect for each other

Both of these will be adorable, also I can only envision the extreme 'double date' shenanigans, or, lord forbid, 'date advice' for or for twins. The romantic comedy potential in this far-far-far-away-from-canon scenario is completely off the charts. I'm surprised we're not talking more about this tbh.

Here be some date ideas, because I can be a shipping mess and I am legally allowed to today:

Sparda/Eva went to concert dates. I am all hands down for 'weird girl' Kyrie headcanons, and I am also both hands down for the same for Eva. She was a metalhead, maybe even a singer in a band. Even if she wasn't, you can pry my headcanon that she's the origin of the twins' musical talent out of my cold. dead. hands.

NeroKiri should go to a concert date too, for sure. But I think a sunset walk around the city, or maybe a fair would also be a good thing for them. Definitely cinema dates for these two. In general, they're probably good with any time spent together.

Dante/Lucia - Prime Soft Material TM. Dante is a prime gentleman when he wants to be, also Lucia is quite tender by nature. I imagine they'd have a good time on a botanical garden walk (Dante's okay with pretty much anything, Lucia would like something beautiful and educational). Maybe a picnic.

Vergil/Lady - wohooo these two are explosive. I imagine half of their time together is spent in a competitive mood, as both crave and thrive in it, and the other is them just... relaxing together somewhere, probably somewhere expensive, these two are classy. I feel like they'd be at each other's throats and head over heels almost in equal measure. If we're talking post-dmc5 scenario, then it's much more timid for them. At this point in their lives both are kind of tired of constant danger, even if the hunger for adrenaline will forever remain. It'd be a much slower and gradual process for them, likely developed over casually meeting or going on missions together. (Dante and Trish sniff them out miles away and squeal in true shipper glee on the inside) As for date ideas - vinery trip, maybe a literature evening (if Lady has it in her) or a theatre date. Last one seems the most likely to me.

#i am shipping trash sometimes #in alternate universe far far away my brain is running in circles over dante/lucia thoughts #i love all of these but dance/lucia would consume me whole sorry not sorry #dmc ships are fun to think about in a way this is the most 'normal' talk dmc fans can have #everything else is psychological drama the likes of which psychiatry has never seen or demon gore #dmc questions anon #dmc #eva x sparda #dmc eva #dmc sparda #nerokiri #i love this ship name its adorable #dmc kyrie #nero sparda #vergil x lady #dante x lucia #dmc lady #dmc lucia #vergil sparda #dante sparda

[stevie-petey]

hello i wanted to say this earlier when you were talking about the wiritng of duffer brothers and specifically how they will likely be bringing back the love triangle again and i just wanted to add how it feels like a step back for all three of them! i felt like nancy breaking up with steve was important for both of them, for steve to realise that he needs to do some serious introspection and let go of the life that he knows is fake, and for nancy it feels doubly important to not attempt to stick with something just because it was there in the past, and instead allow herself to move on from a stage she feels complete with and move onto what she really wants (johnathan), even if it's unconventional! and then for johnathan it felt like the more classic, someone is choosing me when i am not usually chosen moment. i honestly, truly, wouldn't even be that mad if they break jancy up, just because, y'know they're like 19-20, and it's okay for nancy to decide she wants to explore things outside of hawkins and it's pretty normal for most people, and would strengthen that "moving on" theme they were able to capture in s2, but if she goes back to steve.............hmmmm. feels unfair thematically for steve to go back to a person he dated during a specific period of his life he wants to get away from, feels unsatisfying for nancy wheeler to be delegated to Love Interest TM (as u mentioned) AGAIN, and feels bad for johnathan because omg why??!!?!? would u do that to a character whose already lost a lot of the importance and relevance that he used to have???? remember when he used to be the main character (not to mention they literally cut out his new friend argyle for the hell of it). idk i feel like after s2 they just stopped caring about a lot of these core characters and there are so many moments i could point to and be like hey guys nice regressing you did there.

my apologies, this is getting really wrong, but you mentioned that you like themes and i LOVE your themes it's very cathartic. i am excited for s3 to see character themes continue because i understand ur working with the show itself here but it immediately upset me when they made, like, russian soldiers, the main villain of the season. i felt like we had developed two very good seasons exploring the US's ability to use its citizen's bodies, especially women and girls' bodies, in its war for imperial power, and were doing some good digging at the crux of the cold war, with the upside down and its monsters making up great metaphors for the war crimes and unnatural horrors it's willing to unleash onto people as long as the government and military benefits, with brenner and the scientists and the labs all representing this part of the government. and then we get "russian communists are bad".......right......and i'm sure you believe that....... i understand that they needed like a new villain, but i think it would have been better for them to continue that thematic critique they had established already. like, the base being in the lab is perfect! wow! what an immediate link to capitalism and consumerism in reaganamics and the ways it is designed to hypnotise you to spend your money and feed the economy that thrives on unethical practices and can only exist if it has a population hooked into the addiction of product consumption that in turn provides the economics to increase the empire. DO SOMETHING WITH THAT, GODDAMIT. The mindflayer even mind controls people which fits so well into this theme but they insisted on having the russians be the human villains of the show and it blew it so bad for me :(. i don't know exactly what they should have done, but i think maybe even having a portal open to the upside down because of all the artificial-ness of the mall mixed with the constant ads trying to convince (ie control) people to bye stuff mixing with hawkins freakiness would have been more fulfilling for me. obviously i know you won't be doing anything like that but i'm excited to get some relief through character relationships from this huge problem i have with the duffer brothers.

yeaaaaah u can def tell the show was going a bit haywire once season 3 released BUT the seasons vibes were immaculate u cannot argue with that. however yeah its wack how they brought up some cool villains and powers and then just. dropped it. do we know what happened to all those flayed people ???

as for jonathans character just becoming less and less important as the seasons go on ,,,, i grieve that every day. he deserves so much better in that aspect. and nancy !!! and steve !!!! like the love triangle pisses me OFF !!!!

as for ur russian rant imma be real i followed a bit of it but my brain is so sleepy and im not a history buff but ur SO real and valid for all that. i think the russians were fun but apparently everyone hates them ??? wild. i also have poor media literacy but thats not important rn

#procrastinationprincesses #ask #m speaks #like seriously did everyone just die who were flayed #did everyone just believe the mall fire story ???? #why would they all conveniently be at the mall at the same time #sigh

[plegg-culture-is]

Fannish plegg carton culture, specifically protogenic-endogenic plegg culture that later finds itself to be full of permanent resident soulbonds is —

In very very early childhood:

*Projections literally playing H.O.R.S.E or whatever that basketball game is. Of course the main fronter never played, because they are too short.*

"Huh!! Well I mean those barbecue sauce was spicy before but it's 0.05 seconds later and I feel completely different as a person and also this barbecue sauce is no longer spicy. Oh well. The teacher called me a liar over barbecue sauce so I'm gonna be a shithead to them and have a meltdown"

In middle school:

"What would Gohan do if he was in this world???"

"What would Jayfeather do if he were in this world??"

"OMG. WHAT WOULD. IZAYA ORIHARA DO IF HE WAS IN THIS SITUATION JIST SOME MIDDLE SCHOOLER NOW"

*Has full-ass slow changing "see through my eyes" quasi-ceremonies based solely on vibes since we didn't have innerworld completely built yet*

*Chasing each other in hallways and all people saw was a small autistic child running for no reason lol*

"Why the fuck can I never feel my face when something horrible happens to us me? Also I relate too much to Silver from Pokémon HeartGold/SoulSilver"

In high school:

"Yep just Gon and Killua from Hunter×Hunter chillin' over there. Nobody can see 'em and these feel pretty distinct from hallucinations considering I can't literally see them. Eh. Maybe just imagination."

*Checking out a pro-endogenic blog in 2015* "Yup I am just a curious singlet"

*Still chasing ourselves through hallways just less or more hidden because people are stupid.* Why the fuck am I so angry all of the time. Why the fuck do I feel like there should be more to all of this.

"Hhhh Illumi Zoldyck from Hunter×Hunter patting my head is completely normal. So is pretending I am Ethan from Pokémon HeartGold/SoulSilver I'M NOT PRETENDING ThOUGH??? I DO NOT KNOW WHAT TO CALL THIS all I know is I am definitely Ethan, , not Ethan? And Illumi Zoldyck is petting my head and we are working at a McDonald's right now. What the fuck is happening" *Proceeds to ignore this and never tell anyone until we are today years old*

"My vitriol for Hisoka Morrow of Hunter×Hunter has three sides to it. I hate him and his canon. I have no clue how to explain the other two sides to this and I cannot stand my friend obsessing over this character" *Proceeds to also ignore this one too, and never tell anyone until we are today years old*

In university:

"Hey 30 year old Gladion idk if you're actually a figment of my imagination anymore but yeah sure your sister Lily and her daughter Mei can chill in here in this brain for awhile. Does this mean I'm genderfluid lol?" (Narrator: this is, in fact, NOT what genderfluidity is supposed to feel like.)

"Oh well I guess Itonai from Assassination Classroom is just decided to sleep in the bed tonight. Get the fuck off of my bed ya lazy bum. Noooo it's just wei — get back in our head you freak (//lovingly, platonic)"

*Just feeling fucking uncomfortable around sysmedicalists but especially the sysmedicalists who were anti-endogenic as well (yes there are pro-endogenic sysmeds!! Uhm but definitely not plural, nope)*

"I am now talking to these projections while brushing my teeth. Lucifer from The Devil Is A Part-Timer has literally crash-landed into our brain along with Emilia Justina. Wtf?"

*Discovers the word endogenic yet again and gets the weird euphoria again*

*Maybe our late second year at university, at fucking 11PM, after anime club finishes — Kusuo Saki just fucking chilling on top of the table via projection* "Heeey so remember that one time in high school where you had weird daydreams about that pink-haired psychic boy and the blonde with drills? Welp, Mami Tomoe picked me up on the way here —" *Queue freakout of the main fronter at this point*

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SO ANYWAYS that is. Uh. Some Stuff(tm) yaaay, anyways the good thing about this is we don't think our queer shit would ever, ever be as fucking weird as our plurality shit in the context of the societal context and chronological context we, Rusanya, live in, so figuring out we're aceplex (since we found the plurality first and asexuality is more of a veil) was mostly just an "AHA okay then lol" and we just kind of slap every label on the planet onto us that we like that we think applies, both on an individual and collective level. :D

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#plegg culture is #pluralgang #plurality #actuallyplural #plural system #egg carton #submission #anendoandfriendo #protogenic #endogenic #fannish #long post

[pyporapy]

Hey Jay :) give me a rundown of your OCs >:)

This has been sitting in my askbox for a while and I forgor to reply sorry Birby 😭🙏

Anyway!!! Let me give you the shortest possible rundown of my ocs as I try not to die in the process:

This is Grisha. He’s a bitch and can see dead people but it’s not a good thing. Chronically ill because of the dead people thing and has Some Issues regarding religion. Suffers of the godforsaken combination of “too many trust issues” x “very desperate for human connection”. God’s little chew toy and very painfully aware of it

This is Felix. He tries to be cool but is actually just some guy (and a kinda lame one at that but in a good way, at least). Has some deep-seated issues regarding himself and his sense of identity after years of pretending to be someone he isn’t for people that were never all that worth it but surely this won’t ever come back to bite him in the ass at some point. Neither will the fact he keeps running away from the past. Very emotionally congested but acts like he’s alright and chilling. Loves his daughter and is a true doñita at heart. Also he’s half ecuadorian which is important to mention to Me, an ecuadorian

This is Laura. She’s as close as we get to the only normal person in the cast but if anything she’s just the Least fucked up one. Constantly stressed and an overachiever. Enough caffeine in her blood to kill a horse. She does a good job at making people respect her but also she’s a girlfailure at heart. Not nearly enough social skills which is why her best friend is the only other guy in the office who doesn’t have friends either. Needs a hug and a nap but is too proud to ask for any of those. Doesn’t believe in the supernatural at all so she feels like everyone around her is pulling an incredibly elaborate prank to which she doesn’t get the punchline

This is Viktoria. She’s a bodyguard and a trained assassin since childhood. Feels incredibly disconnected from her emotions due to this that when they hit her on like a random tuesday at 3 AM she doesn’t know what to do. Feels more like a tool than a person and is so used to people not actually paying attention to her as a human being that when someone does she’s too awkward to keep the interaction going. Can and will kill you but she just wants to retire at this point. Tough and terrifying but also kinda lame but she’s allowed to be. As a treat

This is Cain. He’s a priest but he doesn’t actually believe in God, at least not in the orthodox way. Only reason he has the job is that they found him outside the church like a kitten in a wet box and decided to take him in, and the only reason he keeps the job is that somehow he’s good enough at it that more people join the church. A huge asshole so people either genuinely like having him around or just put up with him. Can also see dead people but it’s not nearly as catastrophic as Grisha’s case. Also incapable of forming healthy connections with people but that’s a problem he refuses to unpack

This is Gabrijel. He’s a millionaire and a model and a celebrity and a philantropist and a cult leader but the public is unaware of only one (1) of those things, and you can probably guess which one. Manipulative and cunning and overall a pretty terrible guy but charismatic enough for people to think there’s nothing wrong with him. Completely derranged but composed enough….until he Isn’t. Viktoria can’t stand him and anyone that works directly under him doesn’t like him but he’s too pretty to be bothered I suppose. Wants to bring literal Hell onto the world bc he thinks he’s Jesus or something bigger. Wouldn’t want him to haunt the narrative or anything, that would suck

The very general plot is that a bunch of people are being murdered. Grisha and Laura investigate it. Felix gets involved because he knew one of the victims and has mysteriously large amounts of information. Gabrijel is responsible for it and it’s all linked to his evil plan(TM). He first tasks Viktoria with killing them but Viktoria is done with his shit so she acts as a double agent for him and for Laura so she can Maybe get a day of peace in her life for once. Everything goes to shit at some point but I can talk abt it later since I feel like this is already too convoluted(?). And Cain is just There for the drama of it all ig

That’s it ty for asking and sorry for taking so long avdhebfhej hopefully I will share some more canon stuff here or on instagram instead of silly things 🙏 they haven’t left my head in over six years and I might start making it everyone’s problem I’m afraid

#forgot to add that homosexual sheananigans ensue but i think that was obvious #grisha is living in a horror thriller #laura and felix in a crime procedural #viktoria in a psychological drama #gabrijel in those movies abt girls having the craziest summer of their lives #and cain in a telenovela #that’s the summary of the summary dhufnfjfnfjrj #anyway i had fun doing this so if yall have any more questions drop them in my askbox i promise i’ll try to not forget ehe…… #long post #pyporapy oc

[party-gilmore]

absolutely wild learning about my austistic leanings later in life because like

my parents just thought i was “eccentric” and found me rather entertaining, weirdness and all (plus their own probably undiagnosed AuDHD making their benchmark for normal skewed anyway) and my mon specifically was always so “mever change for anyone just be you” from a very young age so i just…

never experienced the concept of masking i guess?

Not as masking, I mean.

i would read accounts from autistic people talking about their experiences and struggles and pressure to conform and masking and the mental effects thereof and i would feel empathy because i “went through similar issues” but i th

i thought i was just being bullied for being Weird. just in general. like kids do. that this was a case of “well this sounds a lot like what i go through, but im not actually autistic so it probably isnt my place to join the conversation.”

it just never clicked that, “um. hi. these are the exact same behaviors you do. and there were moments in your life that almost led you to masking. because thats what it would’ve been. masking. but your dumb ass thought it wouldve just been ‘changing how you act and who you are in order to be bullied less’ which okay TECHNICALLY yes that is an accurate if watered down description of masking too, but.

Then you refused to on principle, because bullying is bad and fuck you and got angry about it to the point of overcompensating and INCREASING your Behaviors (tm) until you completely skipped over one of the key experiences that wouldve helped you identify with other people on the spectrum later in life.”

I just rolled through life like a steamroller of righteous, spiteful confidence that my preferences and actions were nobody’s business but my own and vice versa unless they clearly and directly affected others - so much so that I never actually set any kind of benchmark pattern for the way (NT) people around me act.

So I never had a benchmark for masking.

like im going back through all my memories of friendships that soured because i took everything at face value instead of trying to read deeper into cues. because I would always just say what i wanted people to know, straight up. like if i wanted attention i would ask for it if i wanted them to know i was hurt i would tell them. That made so much sense to me i assumed that was the norm. Because clearly. Thats logical. and obvious. So certainly other people are doing the same.

I got blinsided a LOT by the games my school friends and later some early adult friends played, yeah, but AGAIN (see: steamroller of self confidence) I simply assumed that was THEIR problem, not mine, and just… grieved the friendship and hoped for their sake they’d eventually sort their shit out 🤣

I literally thought they were the ones having difficulty with social contracts and cues and relationships.

Then over the past couple years the more I see accounts from other people in the AuDHD spectrum, like “yeah neurotypicals actually [thing i had been assuming was just an asshole trait for years without questioning it], heres what they really mean and a good script for responding” and “its funny how i [exact behavior i did for years] and no one realized i was austistic till later” im like… 🙃

And the last kicker was the post about food touching with the tag response “sometimes masking your autistic traits ends up more autistic than the unmasked trait” and my gut reactions were, in order:

…why would you bother to mask that, why is the way you eat anyone elses business?

i mean i guess it would ease up the pressure a bit, i got bullied for that too, i can see how maybe you wouldnt want to have to put… up with…

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oHHHH SHIT IS THAT WHAT IT WOULDVE BEEN. IF I HADNT BEEN SO ANGRY ABOUT BEING ASKED TO CHANGE. IT WOULDVE BEEN MASKING. IF I’D KNOWN WHAT THAT WAS. THIS WHOLE TIME.

its just… its just been a series of months of me shaking my head and realizing my entire life has been that meme like “Am I having difficulties connecting socially??? No, it is everyone else who is wrong.”

🤣 girl help

#if its not obvious ofc this is about my personal experience with autism #not trying to say anything about whether its better to mask or not to mask i think thats up to each individual personal and their situation #whatever is most comfortable to them #…not me putting disclaimers in the tags of a personal post just in case anyone takes it the wrong way so i need to clarify #because suddenly i dont trust whether or not my tone comes across as intended anymore and am afraid of sounding arrogant #i bet THAT doesnt have anything to do with the AuDHD at ALL for SURE 🙄

[pitynostars]

ok so first things first, i loooove gatwa's doctor so much already. if nothing else, i love the masterclass in acting he's putting on, his expressiveness is so impressive. he brings a very fun energy to the role

the church on ruby road has me feeling a bit mixed as well. the plot was kind of meh, and i didn't like how in the alternate universe ruby's mum was just so mean without her. it didn't make sense. like what makes ruby so special, hm 🤨 what's this one white blond baby got that all the other babies in the world don't 🤨 i know the point was to show how much ruby meant to her mum, but like. there are other ways to do it than have a complete 180 in characterization.

i'm honestly not super interested in the mystery of ruby's parentage (which apparently seems like it will be a huge thing unless they're just making stuff up to fake us out, in which case, good on them). but i don't want it to be some big reveal i'm sorry 😩 especially not because if it is, people will bend over backwards to say how great storytelling it is when they'd never say that if moffat did a plot like this. i hadn't even considered the possibility really, when i'd first watched it, i thought it's just not that deep, but maybe i'm wrong. the people who are theorizing that ruby is rose and tentoo's daughter are sooo funny though like

ur only saying that because she's blond and we all know nobody on this show can be blond without being related to The Blond(tm) 🙄

that literally means they abandoned their kid. yes. such good parents 😫

i also feel like we didn't....really get to know ruby that well? i'll reserve judgement to give them more time obviously, and millie seems very green (not a judgement on her, and she and ncuti seem to have a lot of fun energy together) so there's still time and there's a lot of time in general for the stories to get going, and it had to do double duty as a christmas special and an intro episode for both new doctor and new companion so like, my feelings may also change with time. anyways those are my thots for now

yesss i was sold on gatwa very quickly i just hope he doesn't become 10th doctor rehash number 2345932853845 i am so tired. give him something new. also praying him and ruby don't have a romance angle there were a couple of moments in CORR i was like. GOD NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO NOT AGAIN.

CORR plot being meh i agreeee but also xmas specials plot is a lot of times like a wafer and as someone who watched it quite roasted ngl i kinda appreciated it 😂

YEAH omhg tho with ruby disappearing and her mum (i want to say carla??) completely changing as a person??? i get that the point was supposed to be like one little change can make such an impact etc etc as well. but also i was just like. .... ok but what about the other kids wasnt good enuf ???? maybe i'm a cynic lol. but fr have another MORE kids on the wall bc she's trying to fill a gap she doesn't know is from what !!!! IMAGINE.... especially with it being sort of set up as a doctor/companions parallel oh my god

nooo oh my god i know what you mean about rubys parents i like that theyre setting it up as a counter to 13s "it doesn't matter i'm good as i am my past doesnt define me" etc. but i really want it to not be interesting. i want her parents to just be like. normal people who had to make a hard choice lol. oh my god. i just realised. we're gonna go thru a fucking rey star wars arc with her im gonna lose it byee... imagine she ends the series like "im ruby doctor" :) i would quit watching.

but yeah 100% it's gonna be a big thing. atm i dont care but i guess we'll see and hope they do something interesting with it.... prayers she's an alien tbf

rose and tentoo would be terrible parents tbf i said what i said.

YEAH i know what you mean i feel like that about gatwa too i think its hard making the first intro for both an xmas special because it has to be kinda silly and rompy so you cant rlly get too into the grit of the characters?? still reserving judgement on them both, but its taken me a while to warm up to like. everyone in dr who since bill--- wait i take that back i loved bel in flux from like her first scene but she's not a doc or companion.

#replies tag #long post #dw spoilers

[charcadett]

Hey! So uuhhh 👉👈 if the request is still open, may I ask for Larry with a reader who's capable of becoming a champion but they prefer working another profession instead? Like perhaps as a researcher?

Larry is such a curious character when it comes to being really good at Pokemon battling, so I wonder what he would think being with someone like that. Maybe at one time reader just finished fighting the elite four with ease but they just tap out before they fight the champion? Can be against Paldea's elite four or other region's elite four

With that said thank you for reading this! No pressure, your writing is really cool and I'm fine reading anything you post. Have a nice day!! :DD

Okay, this. Accidentally just became me dissecting Larry’s character like he’s a frog and I am but an over-excitable seventh grader. There’s not a lot about the reader, they’re there, but it’s a lot of Larry. I don’t think I said anything new here and also went totally overboard with this. I just *clenches fist* am obsessed with this guy. I hope you enjoy this anyway!

Livin’ Like Larry (Ft. Reader Who Quits The Elite Test Right Before Fighting Geeta)

- Larry’s interesting in a way because not only does he insist on doing the bare minimum in terms of effort, but he also works enough overtime that he has to be “strictly told” to take a break. He uses Normal-type Pokemon and has a particular fondness for them, however, it’s obvious that he also likes Flying-types. His tie is light blue with a cloud pattern, his ace is Staraptor, and the only time any of his speech is punctuated with an exclamation point is during his Elite Four battle when he’s using Flying-type Pokemon. Not to mention during his gym rematch, he has Braviary on his team, another Normal/Flying-type.

- On top of all that, not only does he give the TM for Facade when you beat him, but during his first Gym Battle when he Terastillizes his Pokemon, he says “I think it’s time to show you that real life isn’t all just being true to yourself...” Larry seems to prioritize comfort over everything else. He keeps himself busy, and he eats good food, which he does enjoy. Where other people enjoy spontaneity and excitement, Larry enjoys a reliable routine. And as much as he seems to dislike his job, he seems too comfortable in it to branch out.

- He’s a normal guy living a normal life surrounded by completely extraordinary and passionate people, which honestly, ends up making him the odd one out. I think if Larry genuinely went all out from the start of a battle, he’d be one of the strongest trainers in Paldea. But he doesn’t. He consistently puts in the bare minimum effort. That’s just what he’s used to and he’d like to dedicate his energy to something he actually enjoys doing. Like eating massive plates of food at the Treasure Eatery.

- Seeing you blow through the Gym Challenge, completely sweep the Elite Four, and then change your mind so suddenly before fighting Geeta was not something he expected. It’s for a simple reason. You changed your mind. This isn’t something you want to do anymore and you have a research project at home calling your name. You apologize and say you had a lot of fun battling everyone – which is really all that matters – but this isn’t for you. And then you go home.

- Larry expects that to be the end of that. He’s not one to dwell, especially not on things that happened at work. But one day, he catches you at the Treasure Eatery, and like when you beat him after his Gym Match, he offers to buy your meal. You chat, just small talk until Larry finally asks you why you quit the Elite Test so suddenly.

- “I wasn’t having fun anymore. I’ve been researching a bit about the Great Crater recently and it’s all I could think about during every battle. I figured, at that point, I should just head home. Has that ever happened to you?”

- It has happened to him. Everyday. The number of times he was daydreaming about what good food he could be eating instead of doing paperwork or battling numbered in the thousands. But Larry only shrugs and says, “Sometimes…” And that was the end of that.

- It isn’t until a certain student at the Academy comes and absolutely wipes the floor with him three times that he really takes it into consideration. He’ll give you a call and see if you wanted to try out a new restaurant he’s had his eye on for a while. Food tastes better when you’re with someone you like.

#pokemon x reader #gym leader larry x reader #elite four larry x reader #larry pokemon #honestly my scalding take is larry is autistic and masks hardcore #which is interesting because everyone in the pokemon world is so eccentric and out there #and larry is so viscerally normal in comparison #anyway #*aims autism laser at him*

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AHEM. Spoilers below for Harry Potter book 7 and Artemis Fowl book 8. You have been warned.

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Another little warning: This is going to be a bit ramble-y. If someone can put this into words better than I can, please do. I may come back and fix this later, but, knowing me… that’s not likely.

I figured out why the Main Character Death tm thing works for Artemis but not for Harry.

Let’s review the similarities between these two, first.

They both know ahead of time that they are getting into something that has a 99.999% chance of killing them.

They both died as a direct result of something The Big Bad did.

They both came back to life as a direct result of something Big Smart Genius Person did.

They both feel that they have no other choice.

(Before we really get into this, I would like to note that I am using both the HP books and movies for this. Since the author worked so closely with the movies, I feel that they are still a viable source of HP lore. I will not, however, be using the AF movie. It is a piece of hot dumpster garbage and I will not be swayed on that.)

So. Why does this Main Character Death tm thing work for Artemis, but not Harry?

For Harry, I always felt that the sacrifice fell flat. He wakes up on the very next page in that weird afterlife-spirity realm with Dumbledore. We KNOW that Wizard Afterlife exists by this. Dumbledore himself confirms it, or at least attempts to. (“Of course it’s all happening in your head, Harry, but why does that mean it’s not real?” yada yada yada) Harry will end up there if he dies. Also, what does he stand to lose by dying? Sure, he loses Ron, Hermione, and all of his friends, but he gains his family back. Even though the Resurrection Stone was likely a sham, we can see by Harry’s reaction that he is genuinely looking forward to seeing James and Lily and Sirius and Remus again.

There are no stakes. Harry wakes back up in the Forbidden Forest, secure in the knowledge that he is going to win. And, frankly, the author (may she rest in peace) set us up for a BIG win. If you’ve been paying attention for the last seven books, you know that Harry’s got this in the bag. It’s obvious from the first chapter. He beats Voldemort as a baby. Why should he NOT survive the Killing Curse a second time?

The other part of Harry’s story that is different from Artemis’s is that he has the knowledge that he is 100% walking into a death trap. He even says (at least in the movie) “I am ready to die”. This is his purpose. He’s fulfilling his last act as The Boy Who Lived. His story is complete, or it would have been had he actually died. The world would truly have been better off with Harry dead, and Harry would have been better for it.

In fact, all of Hogwarts believes he is dead. Neville’s rousing speech in the movie is proof of that.

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The reason this works for Artemis is that there are still stakes in play. Harry waltzes up to Voldy and basically puts his own head on the chopping block, knowing that it will give the good guys the win they need. We as readers know that he is probably going to live, based on what we know about Harry and the author’s penchant for not killing off Really Important Characters. AND even if he dies, he returns to his family. It’s honestly his best-case scenario at this point.

There are no stakes for Harry.

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Artemis, however, still has stakes. He’s just barely gotten to live a normal life with his parents and brothers. He has formed a good friendship with Holly and Butler, and he still has so much left to do. (We see this in Atlantis Complex. He has the knowledge, resources, and genius to straight-up fix global warming.) The world would be worse off without Artemis Fowl.

And then he dies.

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What’s worse is that he has hope.

Harry walks in thinking there’s no way he can walk away from the Killing Curse a second time. He has accepted his death, putting no failsafes in place just in case he may have the option to come back. Artemis walks in thinking that his human DNA could overpower the tiny bit of fairy DNA. He has hope. It’s a slim hope, but he has it. He puts failsafes in place, just in case something does go horribly wrong, in the form of a kiss on Holly’s forehead and keeping the chrysalis operational, as well as a living will. He has accepted the fact that he certainly could die, but he says it himself, “I always thought there would be time for goodbyes.” He’s not ready.

After he seals that will, he thinks, “No going back now.” If anything, he feels trapped in his fate, while Harry accepts his. Directly after that, he nearly throws up. He’s scared as hell. There is, of course, the matter of Artemis’s reaction to Opal’s death: “All this time. All this strife and nobody wins. What a tragedy.” Again, acknowledging the stakes.

He didn’t know what would happen after he put Nopal’s hand in the white handprint. All he knew was that he may die from it, but he didn’t want to. (Yes, he tells Butler not to grab the defibrillator, but Artemis Fowl knows more about magic than most fairies do. He knows he’s screwed. Knowing you’re going to die is not the same as accepting it). There are still stakes in play. He is completely unsure of what he is doing, maybe for the first time in his life.

The other huge difference is that Artemis could still fail. Opal could open the second gate. Harry knows his goal and he knows Voldemort is arrogant enough to go through with killing him. Voldemort is predictable. Opal is… less so.

Finally, Artemis does actually die. There is a six-month period where he is straight-up dead. His parents mourn him. There’s a frickin’ funeral. (Harry has no such period. We know he’s going to come back relatively quickly after he “dies”.)

And yet, his most loyal friend, the man who was like a father to him, doesn’t believe it. Butler doesn’t attend the funeral and he truly believes that Artemis Fowl will come back.

It takes Holly six months to even give Butler that hope, and yet he still clings to nothing. I would wager that Holly believed the same. (e.g. “Yes, well, the barely conceivable is Artemis Fowl’s specialty.) She’s more evidence-driven, however, which makes sense considering she a. got that evidence about a week later and b. kept it to herself and Foaly until she knew they had something to work with. (It was also illegal, to be fair.)

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Artemis Fowl was not ready to die, AND there were still stakes in play— and that made his death all the more poignant.

#artemis fowl #the last guardian #harry potter #deathly hallows #holly short #voldemort #domovoi butler #hero dies trope

[katyspersonal]

Ok ok ok I'll stop talking about PG TV shows I promise, but I've watched some more episodes of Miraculous' 5th season and I am glad I continued despite the Headache Episode TM

- I actually really like how much their writing progressed in terms of psychology? Like you guys know I absolutely love this shit, aside of Thomas having the first recorded case of abusing a fictional character (Chloe) the characters are now written so much more interesting? And themes addressed are much deeper? I am just hooked all the time?? Like, are you ever just absolutely GLUED to characters simply thinking and having problems and personalities, even when nothing is actually happening?

- I guessed that Zoe actually had a crush on Marinette instantly, before anything actually gave it away xd That was really cute

- Damn I spilled my tea at the Felix episode :т Fuckin' RED MOON. Not only it was really cool and beautiful, but I also can never see red moon normally because iS tHiS bB rEfErEnCe???? fshshd But in general, I love where they are going with Felix's personality and motivation.

- Okay sorry I am still angry at retconning Marinette's stalkery obssessive traits as "trust issues over trauma Chloe caused to her", because it just doesn't work since.....

well, she WAS dating Luca despite not having learned every single thing about him including personal private life prior -_-" So where did the "I will never love anyone unless I know everything about them" go? They are not even trying sometimes т.т This is what happens when you are so desperate to yassify your flawed OC that you neglect previous events that contradict it :smh:

- THE SCENE WHERE GABRIEL TRIED TO BE ALL "IT IS REAL LIFE KID" TO MARINETTE ABOUT HER dream to become clothes designed and attempted to blackmail her and then she went against his demands AND ALSO COMPLETELY TRASHED HIS FUCKING PANCAKES FSHFDJHGHSFD IT WAS SO SATISFYING TO SEE FHSDHDGHSDF THANK YOU MARINETTE

- Again, spilled my tea when Lila's mother appeared to be mute because I could clearly remember she was talking,... then I realized she looked very different, so I realized Lila had two mothers.

- I also thought of something after Adrien mentioned to Gabriel that him and mom were also "different", like him and Marinette are 🤔 I thought 'damn, now Kagami is third-wheeling Adrien and Marinette in the exact same way as how Natalie used to third-wheel Gabriel and Emilie 🤔' ...and then Felix appeared to hit on Kagami, so I guess not fdshfhdhdsdfs I did think of a smart parallel, though.

Okay, just 7 more episodes of season 5 to go

#watch log #miraculous ladybug #me: nooo I can't talk about PG TV show in my mostly-soulsborne blog #fantomette who's been discussing owl house while it lasted: smells like weakness #dshfhdhsd look look I know it is my blog blablabla all that #I just feel awkward because of the CONTRAST #like I discuss bloody rituals and monsters made of 10000 corpses of the innocent and religion and monstrous mutations and aliens #and then suddenly BAM a cute cartoon show #like blogger like consistency fsdhfhds

[crinkled-emotions]

Can you please do a Top Gun rooster one for “Let me take care of you. Please.” and “I know you hate being sick, but you need to let me care for you.”

Please work please work please work-

Hey anon! I was about to be like “I wrote this I think?” and then I went back and looked at it and I was like lmao I think I wrote the prompts separately for Rooster, but I don’t have anything on at the moment so I guess I can go again?

If you’re wondering where I’ve been lately- my askbox thinks it’s funny to either delete asks, or it just doesn’t post them no matter what I try! I’ve been working on this in the background and I have a couple other things on my mind.

This gif- I’m glad Jay is laughing lmao, because I’m like- Miles, dude. Are you good? The difference in their reactions pfft. I don’t wanna know. I am here to write sickfics not smut.

Maverick paused mid-lecture and his brows immediately furrowed when he watched Rooster grimace. Connecting the dots, Maverick sighed.

“Bradley, were you cleared by medical yesterday?”

The team had planned to get into the air and do some practice when Rooster had pulled out at the last minute, claiming he was feeling really intense pressure in his sinuses. Of course he hadn’t gone to see the doctor. Little shit.

When Rooster stared at the floor, silent, Maverick had his answer. He straightened his shoulders, trying to channel Ice’s Admiral Stance (tm). 

“Lieutenant Bradshaw, until you have been cleared by medical, you are excused from lectures and air drills.”

“Don’t pass go and don’t collect two hundred bucks,” Hangman muttered. From his spot across the aisle from Rooster, he watched his shoulders tense and his back straighten, moustache twitching ever so slightly when he glared at Maverick. Despite Rooster being bigger than him, Maverick seemed unbothered by the way Rooster’s hackles were up.

It made sense; Maverick had a hand in raising the man in front of him since he was four, of course he wasn’t intimidated.

“Go.”

Maverick was firm. Finally, Rooster got up and stormed down the aisle, letting the door slam behind him as he left the room. If it had been Admiral Simpson or Admiral Bates, it would have been a completely different story. Maverick rolled his eyes at his godson and an awkward silence fell over the crowd.

“I saw this tik tok the other day-”

“- what the fuck is a tik tok?” Maverick asked and Phoenix’s brows shot up. Bob was already scrambling for his phone and the awkwardness quickly dissipated.

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Maverick gave Rooster the afternoon to settle whatever bitchy attitude he was having due to being sent out of class like a moody teenager, then decided he should probably go and check on him. Knowing Bradley Bradshaw and his fear of doctors, he'd mostly likely be wallowing in self-pity back at his place.

Sure enough, the Bronco was in the driveway and Maverick could see he'd opened one of the front windows to allow a gentle breeze through the house. A part of him wondered if Bradley cleaned the house with the same products Carole had when she'd lived at this same address twenty years ago.

God, had it really been that long since she'd passed? There was no way-

"What do you want, Maverick?"

Maverick jumped, realising Rooster had opened his front door and was leaning in the doorway, arms crossed. He'd changed from his uniform to jeans and a t-shirt, and other than a heavier flush to his cheeks than normal, he didn't appear all that sick. For a moment, Maverick wondered if he'd done the right thing grounding him.

"Well?"

"I just wanted to see how you were doing, kid."

"Great."

Rooster turned on his heel, about to close the door, but Maverick called out to him.

"Bradley, wait. Wait, B. Look, about earlier-"

"What about it? Thanks for that, by the way. Did you pass that on to Cyclone?"

Maverick raised an eyebrow. He hadn't seen his kid this bitchy since- since- since... since.

"Hey. What's going on with you?"

"You kicked me out of a TOPGUN lecture, Mav! I'm a little ticked!"

"Because you said you were going to the doctor yet you showed up to class and you were worse yet there was no mention of a doctor. Did you even fucking go, Bradley?"

Silence.

"Bradley. Did you go to the doctor yesterday?"

"No, okay? I didn't go."

"What did you expect me to do if you didn't go to the doctor, kid?"

"Look, can you just go? I'm fine, I'm gonna go once the base settles."

"Do you want me to go with you?" Maverick asked. Rooster stared at him for a moment, before he went into the house and the door closed. Maverick was not going to take his chances and follow for the time being.

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Maverick went home and settled into his evening of dinner, a beer or two, then he caught up on some Australian off-road adventuring shows before he realised it was 11pm and he was at risk of falling asleep in his recliner like an old man.

If Bradley had seen that-

Bradley!

Maverick patted his pockets, trying to figure out where his phone was. When he located it on the kitchen island he checked his messages and found nothing. Not a peep from anyone, but especially not Bradley. Sighing, he pocketed the device and began switching everything off downstairs. Once the door was locked he searched for his glasses (another thing Bradley didn't need to know, alongside the reason for his papers being pulled-) before finding them under a book he probably wasn't going to read anytime soon. It just wasn't holding his attention.

Finally, he brushed his teeth and curled up in bed, sighing in relief at the crisp, cool sheets. For San Diego it was surprisingly still, no cool breeze coming in through the window, and Maverick had a feeling he was going to be kicking the covers off that night.

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The night was toasty indeed, but Maverick managed to sleep through the whole thing without a nightmare or a fear of overheating in the warm air. He dreamt of him and Bradley having a beer together at the Hard Deck, sorting their shit out. He dreamt of Goose and Carole, and how much he loved them. How much he missed them, too. What they would do in this situation-

They never would have been in this situation. Carole dealt with teenage Bradley firmly but with a loving tone even when she knew her time was coming. Goose had missed most of Bradley's terrible two's but everything he had witnessed he'd managed with kindness.

He managed to drag himself out of bed, the ache in his back from the Darkstar ejection still irritating him a little. The doctor said there wasn't a lot they could do- it was stiff in the morning and when it got cold but most of the time he was okay so the Navy couldn't kick him out on a medical discharge just yet.

A glance at his phone told him Bradley had tried to call once last night, around 2am, and Maverick's heart rate picked up as he listened to the voicemail.

"Mav, uhm. Hey, I'm... I'm sorry about what I said, I- uh... look, the therapist says I have to be more honest, so I guess I was triggered by you kicking me out of class. It, uh, I... I think I was reminded of how I felt when you... when you y'know. Pulled my- when you... yeah. I- I''m okay, so don't freak out. I'll call you later but I had to say this now while I know you're asleep. I... I love you, Mav. I'm sorry."

He frowned, reaching for his uniform and jacket sitting on a chair in the corner of the room. While he dressed he tried to call Bradley back, check on how he was going, but it went straight to voicemail. Maverick decided that was a later problem considering how bitchy he'd been the day before. Coming down the stairs he tried again, only for it to go to voicemail again. He paused in the living area, staring at the lump on his couch.

"Bradley?!"

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"Mav..."

"Hey, kid. When did you get here?"

"Uh, probably... 2am I think?"

Rooster sat up, letting the blanket fall to the floor as he scrubbed at his eyes. He was pale, hands shaking a little as he tried to stand but Maverick rushed over, putting his hands on Rooster's shoulders.

"Stay sitting kid, it's okay. You're okay."

"No, I'm- I'm sorry, I didn't- I don't know why-"

"I know you hate being sick, but you need to let me help you."

Rooster struggled against him for a moment but Maverick rubbed his back, frowning at the mild fever.

"Hey, hey. Let me take care of you. Please."

It was the gentle tone of Maverick's voice that made Rooster blink, and his shoulders slumped as he leaned back into the couch. Maverick sighed.

"Yeah, okay. Tell me what hurts and I'll call the infirmary."

"Thanks, Mav..."

#Top Gun: Maverick #Top Gun Maverick #TGM #Bradley Rooster Bradshaw #Bradley Bradshaw #Rooster #Pete Maverick Mitchell #Pete Mitchell #Maverick #Callsign: Rooster #Callsign: Maverick #sickfic #hurt/comfort

[momentsofamber]

Hey uuuuh did you know... Ur big swaggy and hella stronger than ur demons? 😉👍 You've overcome them in the past to make it to today, you'll overcome today's with the lessons from the past, and the future doesn't know what it has coming to it 📣👏😁

Anon, this was so nice to wake up to. 😭 Thank you so much!!

I'm so sorry it took me all day to respond to this and I'm about to ramble so feel free to skim this, I'm gonna dump it under a read more. ( Do people even still use these in 2024? askdjhf )

I never directly attacked anyone in my time while pretending to be an anti. I was just completely silent on the matter, letting my morality complex and p.edophobia ocd wage war on my well-being.

It's ironic, I've been on this site since about 2010; and in 2012 when I started to be at my first most active point on tumblr and had a friend group on here, I would blog about Wincest (SPN) on main and no one said anything or thought anything of it, they just kept scrolling. That was the norm. People just SHIPPED whatever they wanted.

Flash ahead to like 2018 and suddenly everywhere I go there are now neon eyesore banners on posts, including fucking stimboards and whatnot with 'p.roship d.ni' and 'a.nti-a,ntis d.ni' ( I'm censoring that just so this post isn't blacklisted from proshippers because that is NOT my stance ) and I was like 'I don't even know what these terms MEAN?? where did these come from??' but I was too afraid to ask anyone so I just. Stayed silent and promised myself I'd only reblog "safe" content and that I was "happy" I'd "become a better person since then". ( spoiler: I was lying to myself. )

And over the years any time I made new friends who had never seen that content on my blog back then, I'd just say I didn't support Problematic Content(tm) and I'd only talk about and rp and reblog ships that were "normal", because I was now so afraid people would reject me at any time because it seemed like the anti crowd was so large and violent and nasty -- my mental health at that time would not have been able to handle that hatred.

-- in fact I had this SAME experience in the plural community with the a.nti-e.ndos for identifying as a median system. ( we know now that we are a bpdgenic osdd-1b system, but we still prefer most median terminology to describe ourselves. ) But the traumagenic DID systems who were pro-endo were so much more welcome to interacting with us than the exclusionists. And it's the same bullshit different flavor happening here with the proshippers.

How much overlap is there between a.nti-e.ndo and a.nti-p.roship rhetoric, I wonder? It's wild. I wish I had learned how to undo my black and white thinking so much sooner and listen to new points of view instead of just shying away from the unknown in fear.

But this is a new year, and this is a new me. This blog is going to be a source of love and positivity and learning about other people's experiences. Any discourse or negativity ( even the validating kind ) will remain on my sideblog. I don't have to like or even agree with everything I see online, but I am going to support people's right to say it, do it, make content of it, as long as all parties involved are consenting. ( Fictional characters, animated or live action, do not have the autonomy to consent or not consent so people can do anything they want with fiction that makes them feel happy and fulfilled, full stop. Yes, this includes RPF and selfshipping. As long as you keep your content in your safe space and no actors/musicians/etc involved in the creation of that character you're using are able to see it - I will support your right to make or consume any content as you see fit. )

#proship #proship safe #proshippers please interact #ambers.ask #ambers.txt

[chancellorxofxtrash]

Protective/Cooperative Polycule Moments

Or: I am extremely in denial about the Geats OT4, I am eating Crumbs here, let me live

I'm not gonna include every time one of them helped another one, but I'm trying to include stuff where more of them worked together

Of course I have to start with this. Who do you think I am. Because we stan a bisexual problem Ukiyo Ace

A brief look into Ep 8

Concerned for Keiwa, and yes, Michinaga, I SAW YOU START RUNNING

Next up Ep 12 My Beloved

I have a completely normal amount of feelings about how, while the last Michinaga had seen Keiwa, he wasn't a contestant, he falls easily into the old-new set of things. How him, the most untrusting bitch ever turns his back to Keiwa and Neon. He glances back, but as soon as he sees their backs also turned to him (the angriest bitchiest player ever), it's all focus up front. Immediately circling around the civilians, trusting the others to have their backs. Meanwhile Ace is giving his big speech about how they are here from their free will. Yes, I know this is their mission now, and if nothing else, they can trust each other to carry out the mission, but this is my post and I can read into things as much as I want. I told y'all I'm eating ot4 crumbs from the fucking floor.

Also I could screencap the entire fight afterwards where these three are concerned because I Am Very Hinged about how well they worked together. I mean - Keiwa blocking a Jyamato, Neon yeeting it up in the air from behind, Keiwa's shurikens hitting it in the air to slam it down, only for Michinaga to beat the shit out of it with TWO chainsaws? Fucking ICONIC. This coupled with the way Ace and Keiwa fought together in this episode as well could tell you everything about why am I so fucking Hinged about this episode.

I JUST LOVE BATTLE COUPLES AND BATTLE POLYCULES ARE EVEN BETTER OKAY LET ME LIVE

Anyway Ep 13, aka Heated Polycule Moment Of My Heart

I just LOVE the two newbies protecting the two veterans. I love how bitchy Michinaga is about it. I love how these four are having their Moment(tm) while Win is fighting for his life. I love everything about them.

And this was the last time the four of them were together, at least SOMEWHAT on the same team. Can I get an F in chat.

I refuse to screencap Ep 15 on account of it Breaking My Heart, but all three of them clearly being distressed about Michinaga's death... yeah.

Ep 17

Again I could screencap so much of this, of Keiwa's and Neon's plans to save Ace, and them fighting Girori together, and Ace's clear FONDNESS for the two of them, leave me here to Die

After this, the three of them had their Moments(tm), but the Amogus games got more complicated of course, and then them fighting together became the norm once the JGP kicked off, so I won't go through all the moments (even though it often ended up like... in pairs. Like Ace trusting Keiwa, Neon trusting Keiwa, working together in pairs, etc, so harder to list).

But. BUT. Ep 28. I gotta add this to the end of it

They attacc... they protecc... but most importantly...

Please take your half-plant angry bull boyfriend home thanks

#kamen rider geats #geats spoilers #geats ot4 #i am Not Well i am Grasping At Straws #My Crops Are Dying #I Need The OT4 Back On Vaguely The Same Side Please

[malcolm-reeds-pineapple]

Okay so I hope you guys r ready for a long one because baby I’ve had an interesting week.

So on Monday I accidentally no-call no-showed to my second job. I only got the messages like an hour after my shift was supposed to end so like I really fucked up. The next day, I got an email asking me what happened and I was immediately overcome with anxiety and just didn’t respond. Then on Wednesday I was like okay I really need this extra income so I will deal with this. I’d had a great day sales wise at my Real Job (tm) so I was feeling jazzed enough to want to deal with it. I got home an immediately I was The Opposite Of Jazzed and send off my login information for my email to my best friend who dealt with it because she’s the best person on this fucking planet.

So then today, Thursday, I got into my Real Job and found out that my boss was recommending me for a full time leadership position. I was very pumped and still am. Then, after that shift, I hightailed it to my second job (the one I no-call no-showed at on Monday) and sat in absolute fucking agony for 30 minutes while I thought about what to say in the impending Corporate Meeting Regarding My Behaviour. I got in there and turns out I was going to be completely on my own for my first close and I was like cool great I don’t have to Have a Meeting.

Everything was going good for a while until I met my fucking supervisor: a middle aged man with a ponytail. Immediately the vibes were off but I was like Nah you’re just not used to working with men. My Real Job (tm) only has 12 men on the payroll company wide and my previous jobs have all been predominantly staffed by women/queer people so like I just don’t see many straight/cis men in the workplace.

Anyway I was right to have weird vibes about him because the ENTIRE NIGHT anytime we came face to face he was hitting on me. At one point I was trying to get him to come over without hollering over a customers head by making eye contact with him. He comes over and just said “oh sorry I didn’t think you wanted me to come over I just thought you were checking me out” and I just laughed uncomfortably because there was a customer right in front of us. He proceeded to get uncomfortably close to me and do the task I was trying to do completely wrong.

And then finally, it was time to close. This was my first time closing and I had no clue what the procedure was in the slightest. I get locked in a fucking cash office with him while he got uncomfortably close to me and we counted my till. At every other job I’ve ever had I’ve either counted my own till and had it verified by someone else the next day or just not had to deal with it. And normally I am not the type to feel anxious about being locked in a tiny room with someone because I know I’m fuckin safe but this dude?? Dog the only thing that brought me comfort was the fact that we both knew there were cameras in there. Like I know he was probably trying to be nice / funny and all but like he just gave me the creeps.

Anyway I’m counting down the days until I find out if I get that leadership position at my Real Job so I don’t have to go back to my second job ever again. A 30% discount on groceries is not worth it at this point what the fuck. Like I’d already lost patience with my second job pretty soon after I started but like this is just another nail in the coffin. I’m losing my mind because realistically I’m probably just missing a joke of some kind so I can’t really go to HR with anything cuz like he didn’t do anything but have pungent vibes and creep me out but also I don’t ever want to work with him again because I care about my own peace too much. I’ve got a light at the end of the tunnel so I’m just gonna avoid him until I can secure a full time gig at My Real Job

#captain’s log #idek what to make of this #like clearly this has disturbed my peace #but also it’s no big deal? #idk I talk a lot about dilfs but irl middle aged men give me stage 4 diarrhea