I wanted to talk about this for a minute after sharing the painting first.
I figured out what was throwing me off a bit on my other recent drawings! ☺️
I’ve got a whole trait of my art style that I’ve been shutting out and I didn’t even know it until I drew these two together in a painting, again. When I showed someone this page on the exact same day they said that it looks like my style, “spindly, like Tim Burton.” I was like, “wut?” And they said that it’s the limbs on both of them and how they look kind of thin and long.
This was something I was first aware of and didn’t like about when I first started drawing people because they looked really stiff, and because it doesn’t work with all body types and I thought it would be an issue and something I shouldn’t do. I tried to fix it, and you can probably tell now by me admitting this. I did this same thing in my other painting. In both of these we have Kat and Raúl moving around ALSO, and so don’t look very stiff at all. I do this by “mistake,” often because I just forgot this variation of what my art looks like comes off quick when there’s a big background. I just got so used to trying to “fix” my art that I didn’t realize I was “fixing” it, but now I’ve realized that that actually doesn’t work in my favor anymore. I also tend to draw people really small on the page, even before doing anything comic related and this also is something that added to my confusion about what was happening and what I think I need to be more self accepting about personally, when I draw and paint
See his body and arms are a bit longer and spindly here as well?…. Yeah 🥺 and now that I know this, I’m going to just work with the fact that I do this naturally.
I also would force-make his face more square. as my new painting has shown me about my suspicions about my own art, he doesn’t need it. his head and face is entirely ovals and not square at all.
Omygod, the second picture with Kat’s skirt has red swoops. That’s me taking “notes” lol. Btw, her jacket is the same as Raúl’s. Is subject to change… and I gave her a Mohawk because she’s more than earned it. Raúl has a beret because of course. I settled on that even though it’s cold and berets don’t cover much, but I must have him put a hat on outside and that he needs something to stay warm… (Help me)
my internal Matriarch cannot help herself and I wouldn’t feel the end of it if I did not give him gloves, scarf and a hat. 😓I was not expecting this and I don’t know what else to do about it… it is driving me insane often when I realize this and see him without a hat on in the blistering ass cold
Edit: I will look back at the advice on my previous posts but alas, I still deal with inner negativity and this is how I try to deal with it.
Learning how to draw for me is incredibly difficult. It always is for beginners, but even more so for me because I have social anxiety and have dealt with an extremely harsh inner critic since I was a child. I didn't have that many friends growing up and despite absolutely loving anime and manga to the point of constantly rereading the manga I owned, I just couldn't get into drawing. Every time I tried I would feel such a deep sense of shame and embarrassment for what I drew that it made me not want to draw. And I mean DEEP. And it still affects me to this day.
I have wasted so much of my life because I have always listened to that inner critic. I wasted so much time that I could have spent drawing and if I had drawn as a kid, I would have been at the point I want to be at now. But nope, I wasted my life and now I have to take the amount of time it would have taken me then to learn now. I try not to think about it but it's hard when I genuinely had SO MUCH TIME to learn how to draw back when all it would have taken was for me to love a series or character to draw.
I don't want it to take 5+ years to get good. I don't want to be shit. I could have been good by now and that's what hurts. If I had continued drawing as a child I would have been able to draw the Hogwarts Legacy fanart I want to draw. I would have been able to draw my MCs with Sebastian, Ominis, Professor Sharp, and Rookwood. I would have been able to join in when everyone posted art of their MCs and I would have been able to fully enjoy looking at their art and fawn over and talk to one of my favorite HL artists.
Apparently the vtuber Mori Calliope said something along the lines of "If you quit when you are shit, you will stay shit". It is something so obvious and I understand it, and yet I can't help but feel like shit when I look at my drawing level. There are kids now that draw like professionals and they are still kids. I'm 26 and I have skills that are less than theirs. I find myself constantly asking how I can get from not being able to draw things like faces, hands, eyes, etc. to being able to draw them decently. The answer is by practicing. I know that but it's hard when I hate myself and my level so much. I just need something that makes me happy about drawing itself--something that makes me keep coming back and wanting to learn. But I don't know what that would be. I want to practice for hours a day--I even planned for that originally, but I still lack that one thing that keeps me coming back to draw everyday without thought.
I won't hide it. I have self doubts. People shouldn't pretend that everything is under control anymore. This is truthfully me. Not social media me. Even though I'm so anxious, I'll still do what I gotta do. Thanks for lending an ear.
Quick question: how can you make your bg transparent in procreate? I cannot figure out a way to do it and I need to be able to do this to make some stills for my yt videos (here’s my channel, don’t have anything posted yet though)
If there is a way to do this, please let me know, thx!
Me, when I have the best character design ever and want to share it with you guys but can't figure out how to draw on anything other than paper and my computer's camera is dogshit and I don't have money to commission and even if I did I'm bad at describing my character without feeling like the most cringe person on planet Earth even though cringe culture is dead.
{This is about my John Hancock and Nick Valentine redesigns that I REALLY like but. see above.}
I once showed grandpa some of my spamton drawings, and he said that this must be caricatures of Poland's former (then actual) prime minister Mr.Morawiecki.
[Spamton shop sprite /picture of Morawiecki from wikipedia]
And he was asking why i drew him happy, and why I shouldn't bc he's bad politician and person (his opinion, he takes as fact).
Then I got super weird, since I also drew him in a dress and holding hands with devil (I assume it's what grandpa thiks of Jevil). Maybe that's actually not bad, he was so confused, he didn't ask why I am drawing man in dress in the first place.
[From my only art blog @kisiel-z-kosmosu ]^
Context: Morawiecki is often accused of lying by opposition, so there are caricatures potraying him as Pinokio or with long nose in general.
I have no idea how to explain to grandfather who Spamton is + it's funny so I keep it that way.