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beaulesbian · 2 years

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You guys just gonna mope around all break?

this is such interesting scene bc of multiple reasons:

its the next day after the roller skate rink “accident”, but also after the fight mike and will had about ignoring each other in the past year (that’s on both of them)

but it’s also after mike learns that el wasn’t telling/writing him truth, as well as will saying hes been feeling miserable the whole day, feeling like a third-wheel.

you can see so much of the pining, and concerned looks from will to mike. but this whole scene mike doesn’t even glance in will’s direction. and basically doesn’t notice him this whole episode (and the more mike doesn’t notice him, the more will looks).

but at the same time it does feel like he’s not ignoring him on purpose, but because of all the information he needs to process for himself.

and will is ever so patient with mike - and i think mike sees that. bc if he noticed at the skate rink how will was “rolling eyes, not talking”, then he can see how quiet, cautious will is again.

he goes to talk to el, trying to find out why she wasn’t telling/writing him what was happening there for real? but instead she turns it around, thinking he’s scared of her, and therefore unable to love her. it’s a clever exchange of deception and hidden insecurities within both of them, bc mike didn’t expected that.

he went to cali with intention to just be a perfect boyfriend and spend time with el, but instead el doesn’t make sense to him, and his best friend is sad. and mike feels it’s all his fault.

he couldn’t find the right words for el, even tho he knew what el wanted to hear, so if that’s was what he wanted to say back - he could have. but i have a feeling he needed to explain to her something a bit different.

he feels the fight with el is something they can’t come back from. so in the meantime, he tries to fix his friendship with will.

suddenly, with will it seems easier for mike to find the right words again. an apology, a reassurance back at will that he didn’t deserve how mike was acting towards him (*cough* since s3...)

we find out that mike’s been missing will a lot - “i feel like i lost you or something.” it could be that until he went to cali, he wasn’t sure how will feels about him, (- again bc of s3 and that fight, probably.) and he’s not sure how he feels about will, or about el. he’s just very confused.

but hopefully these conversations with will help clear up to mike at least a little bit of his feelings, opened up the possibilities that if he and will can still be best friends, than not all hope is lost. that, when they find el, he can explain, and then maybe tell will some things he realized along the way.

#byler #mike wheeler #will byers #i know what you are mike #ajds i love that saying now #stranger things #byleredit #strangerthingsedit #mine #gif:byler #askdjs this got long again bc of one scene lmao anyway #they live rent free in my mind #byler meta #i guess #byeler

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alectology-archive · 2 years

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Oh, this part definitely completely flew over my head when I first read the book. Egwene is also descended from Aemon’s line and technically has the ability to access the memories of their lives - this means 3/5 of the E5 are canonically haunted lol. This also means Mat AND Egwene were pushed aside to give Perrin the Manetheren plotline.

Also. What is up with Aemon’s line and why do its descendants have access to their ancestors' memories?

#that sweet scene between mat and egwene in salidar lives rent free in my mind. *bangs pots* they should be best friends!! what the fuck!!!#Mat obviously has his head stuffed with non-bloodline memories as well in tsr but they seem to take precedence over the memories from #aemon's line whenever plot requires it.#hm. anyway. I'll see if I can find anything on the wiki later.#aelia reads the eye of the world #wheel of time #mat cauthon #egwene al'vere #text #wot notes

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instantarmageddon · 1 year

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I read basically every rebranded vampire series that got re-released with new covers around the time the first twilight movie came out and it drives me bonkers that they don't get talked about more. I feel like if I could go back and scour the forums on 90s-era webpages I would finally know peace

#i was a lonely kid that could speed read like nobodies business i went through books one novel every two days for most of middle school #anyway come talk to me about weird old vampire stories that live in my mind rent free #night world #vampire kisses #thirst #the last vampire #the vampire diaries #the house of night #vampire academy #the mortal instruments #vampire chronicles #the historian #obligatory disclaimer that not all books tagged are that old or obscure i just tagged every vampire adjacent book i could remember #so as to reach a wider audience #who else remembers the fucked up ice cream truck torso torture scene in thirst #it haunts me

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wavesoutbeingtossed · 2 months

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I know we keep talking about it but I’m still so uneasy at the potential thought that Taylor was so worried about the impact she had on her loved ones that she sliced off parts of her self bit by bit (first publicly and later privately) out of love for her partner to give him the security she thought he craved and in return probably assumed she would receive his unconditional support to create and grow and love at home to strike a balance that would work for both of them. But instead it seems that when she was the one who needed support and compassion, she was met with silence, and ultimately for every inch she gave the person took a mile and ran until she had nothing left to give 😵‍💫

#wrote this in the middle of the night and hurt my own feelings #I’m so proud of her for sticking up for herself #but sometimes it baffles me how much was happening behind the scenes #that the entire public image we had of them was wrong for so long #like I’m not being parasocial or whatever #more like detached observation as a pop culture consumer #‘I know my pain is such an imposition’ is sooooooooooooo #and has lived rent free in my mind since last spring #anyway ttpd is gonna fuck

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zecoritheweirdone · 8 months

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me when i think about vagabonds by scorpionoesit for too long

#zecori rambles #my art #realized that this is my blog and i can post whatever the hell i want here. you all have to suffer L /lh #idk if i've talked about this fic; like. a Lot here. but know i am so so so normal about it #(i am vibrating in place as i say that)#i wanna talk about it so so soooooooo fucking badly #i need to ramble to someone about this fic #i also feel the need to make more art for it #unfortunately a good portion of the characters don't actually have mentioned designs; and i am. bad at making them myself sknddknsks #mainly the outfits; the outfits is what trips me up #this goes double for superhero/villain outfits. and guess what fic is a superhero/villain fic;;; sksnwksjks #i'm also bad with poses. tried drawing that one scene where tommy finds masquerade on his couch and. it is Not Good.#shoving it in a closet and never speaking of it again.#(didn't know. how to draw karl on the couch 😔. tried looking up the pose he was mentioned to be in; but uhhh–#–let's just say there were no good reference pics;; fkdjksjs)#anyway. holding this fic so gently. it lives in my mind rent free #mx. scorpio if you're reading this. o/.#you know; next time i get motivation to draw; i should make digital art of v!michael. haven't done that yet;; dkdjsksj #or i could also continue drawing vagabonds dragons designs like i did yesterday;;; skdjskjsksjs

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misspoetree · 2 years

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Nothing to see here, only Vegas' breathless giggle to drive us all even more insane.

#not me forgetting what I was about to do because random ep. 11 scenes keep invading my mind #that fucking giggle though #I still have no words #anyways #I hope your Friday was less weird because I really got nothing done today 💀#kinnporsche #kinnporche the series #vegaspete #vegas theerapanyakul #bible wichapas sumettikul #kinnporsche ep11 #another clip that lives rent-free in my head

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skateboardtotheheart · 1 year

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Wille ended with a smile, a teasing glint in his eye, but Simon couldn't return it. His eyes were still fixed on the bruise standing out starkly against Wille's pale skin. Hesitantly, Simon reached out, but he stopped himself before he made contact with the injury.

“God, Wille, this looks awful.”

“It looks worse than it actually is,” Wille shrugged.

Simon wanted to protest, but held himself back beyond the shake of a head. Instead, he moved onto the question that had been plaguing his mind since Wille had sat up.

“What the hell happened?”

Wille bit his lip, looking away from Simon and down at his lap.

“Nothing. I promise it’s fine.”

“Wille, if you were hiding it, it’s obviously something.”

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When Simon notices a bruise on Wille's shoulder, he's determined to figure out where it came from, despite Wille's secrecy about it. When he pushes the subject, Wille admits it happened during gym class. Simon comes to the realization of when Wille would have gotten hurt during gym.

set post season 2, simon and wille have a talk about what happened during the dodgeball game

#whats up im back on my bullshit #and by bullshit i mean moments from season 2 id kill for #the dodgebalm scene lives in my mind rent free HOWEVER it was frankly very aggressive #and i'd sure like to see the boys talk about it #so i wrote it myself #anyways #enjoy #young royals #young royals fanfic #prince wilhelm #simon eriksson #wilmon #young royals season 2 #yr s2 spoilers

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meteorcrab · 1 year

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Finished watching mgs V cutscenes. I knew exactly what was going to happen and yet. I wanna throw myself out of the window

#AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH #'why are we here? Just to suffer?' unfortunately yes kaz you're here just to suffer #anyways #that scene of kaz and v shooting skull face will forever live rent free in my mind #fuck big boss and his catboy #metal gear

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enzombie · 1 year

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I cycle through which is my favourite Enzo scene cus I'll never say out loud it's the knuckleduster scene

#WAIT I JUST DID-#anyway lol #one of the scenes ever fr #lives in my mind rent free #the way the door opens to him standing there #the monologue while he takes off the cape #the smirk #'this is going to hurt'#even the lighting #it's TOO GOOD #izombie #enzo lambert

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lovelynim · 4 months

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Thrilling Bet

Honkai Star Rail - Dr. Ratio x Aventurine

A/N: I know it's WAY too early to write anything about these two, but that leaked LC is living in my head rent free and I needed to get this out of my head so... yeah.

Also, keep in mind this is written before official releases and they may be OOC.

Summary: Aventurine comes up with an interesting bet.

Word count: 1482 words

“Ve~ri~tas,” Aventurine nearly sang, bursting into the room without the slightest care or respect for the other man’s privacy. Ratio closed both the book in his hands and his eyes, taking a deep breath. ‘Patience, Veritas, patience,’ he repeated inside his mind, remembering why he agreed to deal with someone like Aventurine in the first place and how they even ended up together.

Turning his head to look at Aventurine, Ratio gave the blonde a cold, piercing glare. “What?”

“Are you busy?”

“Well, I was rea-”

“Good, because I just happened to find out something really interesting and I’d like to share it with you, my dear Veritas,” Aventurine chuckled after promptly interrupting the other, placing his hands on Ratio’s shoulders as he stood behind his chair. “And I’m sure you’ll love to hear this one.”

“Could you not touch me so casually?” Ratio hissed, slightly flinching when he felt the touch against the bare skin of his left arm. “And, please, go straight to the point this time. I don’t wish to waste another afternoon hearing about your gambling adventures.”

“Geez, so cold, are you mad at me? You are so tense today, you need to relax ~” Aventurine insisted, returning his hands to the top of Ratio’s shoulders when the scholar tried to dislodge them. Aventurine pressed his thumbs, as if to give the man a massage while starting another of his monologues.

Ratio let out a small groan when Aventurine refused to stop touching him, but couldn’t help but feel a shiver running down his spine as that massage-like motion started. It was almost good enough to make him ignore whatever Aventurine was ranting about this time. Ratio hated to admit it, but Aventurine knew how to get him to do things, to get him in the mood.

But there was a fatal flaw in this whole scene, one that not even Ratio’s most complex calculations could have foreseen.

Aventurine’s touch felt ticklish. Not like a light tingle or a bothersome fluttering over his skin. It felt annoyingly ticklish. Enough to have Ratio gritting his teeth to avoid letting an embarrassing smile make its way to his face.

“Veritas, are you listening? You're way too quiet - even for you,” Aventurine called, bringing Ratio back down to his senses. Aeons, he was so focused on finding a way to ignore that feeling that he couldn’t even bother to hear that gambling addicted blonde.

“No, sorry. I dozed off for a second. You were saying?” Ratio muttered, letting out a sigh of relief when those hands finally stopped pressing into his skin.

“Oh? Were my hands this good?” Aventurine teased and Ratio could hear the smirk in his voice. “My, I can always give you more if you want, handsome, you just need to ask nicely.”

“That was not- sigh. Suit yourself,” Ratio stopped himself, letting out what sounded like a confident chuckle, but it was only an attempt to hide what was really going on from Aventurine’s attentive gaze.

As someone who gambled that often, Aventurine had an amazing eye for details, noticing every little thing, catching all the signs and figuring out the meaning behind every sign one’s body could give. Still, Ratio also knew that man liked the palm of his hand and that there was a chance he could make it go unnoticed. “Anyway, back to the topic. What was it that you needed to tell me so bad that you couldn’t even knock on my door?”

“Oh, that?” Aventurine giggled, lightly tapping Ratio’s shoulders with the tip of his fingers, “I already forgot, it wasn’t that important.”

Uh oh.

Despite a calm exterior, Ratio felt like things were starting to drift from the path he planned them to go. It didn’t take a gifted intellect like his to figure out that something else caught Aventurine’s attention, that something aroused enough of his interest to put his ranting aside for a moment.

“You know, Veritas,” Aventurine started, stopping the massage and gently sliding his hand from Ratio’s shoulder down to his arm. Walking around the chair the scholar was sitting in, Aventurine took off his glasses with his other hand, eying the other man with a gleam in his eyes. “I actually wanted to ask if you wouldn’t have time to play a game with me. It’s been a while, no?”

Ratio crossed his legs, leaning back into the chair as he looked up to Aventurine’s face with a defiant, but uninterested look. “I could swear I told you I was in the middle of a readin-”

“Fantastic, so, it’s a simple bet, nothing ‘unreasonable’ this time, I promise,” Aventurine insisted, mimicking Ratio’s way of talking when using one of his comments about the blonde’s endless games.

“And if I agree, will you get yourself out of my room?”

“Maybe,” Aventurine grinned, squatting in front of Ratio and uncrossing his legs, resting each of his hands over Ratio’s knees. “Are you ticklish?”

“Hm? Is that your game?” Ratio asked mockingly, putting up a confident act.

“Not really, but it takes an important part on it. Because I could swear I saw you smiling when I was fiddling with your shoulders.”

“I’m afraid we are not on the same page.” Ratio sighed, resting his head on one of his hands while he considered the pros and cons of kicking that blonde away from him at that exact moment.

“Please, a man like you could have done better at feigning ignorance,” Aventurine smirked, slightly digging his fingers into Ratio’s legs. “Answer me, Veritas, are you ticklish? Because I bet you are.”

“Statistically speaking, every person is ticklish to some degree. It’s only natural for us to-”

“Nah-ah, I don’t care about statistics,” Aventurine interrupted before pulling himself a little closer, making Ratio freeze on spot. “I’m going all in on this one, Veritas.”

“...There could be a huge backlash if you lose this ‘bet’, Aventurine…” Ratio warned, hoping he could develop a way to sink into that chair in the next seconds.

“And that’s the fun part, Veritas. There is no thrill if there is no risk.”

Ratio could feel the heating spreading across his face when Aventurine looked at him like that. His heart beat fast and his thoughts crashing one into the other, giving him no logical solution for this situation. “That’s enoug- AGH!” Ratio squeaked like a dog’s toy when Aventurine quickly moved his hand and squeezed his side, his fingers digging into that exposed portion of skin and sending electric shooks up to his smart - but now useless - brain.

“Hah,” Aventurine laughed, “jackpot.”

“Aventurine, no. I’m seheheri- ah! N-nohoh!”

And so, Ratio found himself trapped against that chair, stuck between the soft cushions and Aventurine’s hands. The gambler didn’t waste a single second, using one hand to dig and stroke Ratio’s exposed sides while the other pinched the top of his thigh. “You know the drill, Veritas, I won the bet, so it’s only fair I get to enjoy my prize.”

“D-dohohon’t- ahAHah, t-take me fohohor one of yohohour stuhUHupid games!” Ratio managed to protest between giggles, holding into Aventurine’s arms as he tried to pry his hands off his body. “Now stohohop this, yohohou idiot!”

“Ah, as expected of you, Veritas, even laughing like this, you’re able to keep that sharp tongue of yours,” Aventurine mocked, dragging his nails against Ratio’s side and making the man’s laugh rise an octave. “But I have to say, your smile is as handsome as I expected. You don’t disappoint, do you? Heh ~”

“S-shuhush! AhahAHa, e-enohOHOhough!” Ratio threw his head back, taking as much air as possible to his lungs in a deep gasp before breaking into a renewed fit of laughter. He managed to get a look at Aventurine’s face through squinted eyes and - if the small tears clinging onto his lashes weren’t distorting his sight - he looked more amazed than ever.

Ratio couldn’t remember Aventurine smiling like that even when accompanying him to his wild gambling nights. Was tickling him really this amusing for him?

In those short seconds he was lost in his thoughts, Aventurine managed to get a hold onto Ratio’s legs and sit himself on top of his lap. Now at a much closer distance, they could admire each other’s features: the rare sight of Dr. Ratio with a flustered expression and Aventurine looking dazzled by his new discovery.

“So,” Aventurine whispered, giving Ratio a break from the tickling but pushing him against the chair by his shoulders, keeping him pinned in place, “where else are you ticklish, Veritas?”

“H-hah…” Ratio wheezed lightly, closing his mouth shut before his lips curled into a grin, “take a guess, Aventurine. No, rather… make a bet. But you know better than anyone else that the higher the stakes-”

“Yeah, yeah, whatever… I just want to see that handsome smile again, Veritas. It’s worth the risk.”

#honkai star rail #honkai star rail tickling #dr ratio #aventurine #aventurine x dr ratio #aventio #lee!dr ratio #ticklish!dr ratio #ler!aventurine #tickle fic #written before canon #veritas ratio

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district9and3starkids · 1 year

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Little detail in NPMD that’s living rent free in my mind (spoilers ahead!)

I know the fandom has been obsessing over figuring out the lyrics to everyone’s favorite chaotic™️ scene but I wanna acknowledge something in the choreography that caught my attention💃🏻

Okay so first off MASSIVE PROPS to Lauren for choreographing this so amazingly. If you pay close attention you’ll notice that each of the Lords in Black has their own cute little 8 count dance related to their character (some more clear than others).

Pokey💙

switching back and forth between his hand and the mask (I’m assuming representing him wanting to block out every voice that’s not his own).

Nibbly💗

need I explain???

Wiggly💚

I’m assuming the arm motions are supposed to represent his tentacles

Blinky💜

also self-explanatory

Tinky💛

… okay honestly this one tripped me up but it fits the vibe

Okay so this alone was a cool discovery, but THEN I noticed that the Lords in Black cycled through each other’s choreography throughout the scene. After a million watches that I absolutely don’t regret I’m pretty sure I figured out the pattern to be: Wiggly➡️Tinky➡️Nibbly➡️Blinky➡️Pokey🔁 in a looping order. There were a few discrepancies in this pattern (I think possibly either due to choreography mistakes or maybe it was just to make the choreography look more symmetrical?) but this was the order that most commonly persisted:

Anything in parenthesis is what I think they were supposed to do because it’s a simple switch that fits the pattern (Corey never did Tinky’s dance but did Nibbly’s for 2 cycles, Lauren had Nibbly and Tinky’s reversed).

Anyway this may already be a thing because I definitely need to get caught up on Hatchetfield lore but I’m wondering if there’s any significance to this order?

It almost matches the order that we were introduced to the Lords in Black in (Blinky being the one out of place):

Wiggly (Black Friday)

Blinky (Watcherworld. NMT Season 1, episode 1 part 2)

Tinky (Time Bastard. NMT Season 1, episode 2 part 2)

Nibbly (Honey Queen. NMT Season 2, episode 1)

Pokey (Yellow Jacket. NMT Season 2, episode 4).

It almost matches reverse order to when we were first introduced to all of the dolls in The Witch in the Web: Pokey➡️Blinky➡️Tinky➡️Nibbly➡️Wiggly. Nibbly and Tinky are reversed, which could maybe be connected to Lauren reversing their dances in the order but I feel like that’s too far of a reach:

It also almost matches the order that the names are read from in the black book (again reverse order and Nibbly and Tinky are switched):

^creds to whoever typed out the script cause my digital ticket expired by the time I realized I wanted to double check this

It makes sense that invoking the names ends with Wiggly since it’s been implied at multiple times that he is the most powerful and terrible of the Lords in Black but other than that I’m clueless.

One moment that perfectly matches the pattern in the dance if you reverse it is the one real picture we have of the dolls from Nick’s Twitter:

If you start with any of them and go backwards it matches the (most consistent) pattern from the dance perfectly: Nibbly⬅️Tinky⬅️Wiggly⬅️Pokey⬅️Blinky

There’s more stuff that shows up in the choreography throughout the dance that intrigued me but this post is already way too long and I’m guessing with my luck there’s probably 0 significance to the order that the dances were done in buuuut yeah I’m driving myself insane on this so if anyone has any insight let me know!

Nerdy prudes must die🤪

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daytaker · 3 months

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NightBringer Satan is a Gift.

I understand everyone has their own opinions on how good/not good NB is as a game or a story or whatever, but in my opinion, Satan's characterization is soooo enhanced by it. I know that this isn't an opinion that everyone shares, but to me, Satan felt emotionally artificial sometimes in the original game (more on that below).* He felt kind of awkward and like he wanted to connect with MC but something was blocking the kind of connection they develop with some of the other brothers. (Disclaimer: I've only done season 1 of OG, so I can't speak to how he's characterized later on. I know, I know, shame. But I'm trying my best.) Getting to see what Satan is like when he doesn't have any control over his emotions makes the stiffness and artificiality make more sense to me, and they become admirable because we get to see just how hard it is for him to get everything under control.

I think they did a really good job with the pacing of his development in NB too. Satan in Lesson 1 and Satan in Lesson 19 are different, but there isn't a moment where he suddenly starts controlling his emotions better. I think there's a lot going on behind the scenes with him as far as his emotional growth and self control are concerned.

Also let's not forget some very important things about Satan that make him, IMO, one of the most interesting characters to work with as a writer:

Satan was never an angel; he had no fall from grace.

Satan was created from Lucifer's wrath---he is literally the product of trauma and self-mutilation.

Satan is significantly younger than his brothers.

He spent the first year of his life more or less trapped in a castle with his deeply emotionally wounded brothers.

He has a deep resentment towards Lucifer that sometimes defies reason---he wishes he didn't dedicate so much of his time and energy to him, but it's basically a compulsion.

He hates his deep association with Lucifer, and he hates that he has a lot in common with him.

And these lead me to some headcanons that live rent-free in my brain every day of my life.

Satan sees himself as a reminder of the Great Celestial War and everything his brothers lost in it, including Lilith.

He is divine retribution against Lucifer for his failure, for leading his brothers to failure, for letting his sister die.

He acts as a counterbalance to Lucifer's pride by bearing the weight of the shame that Lucifer can't fully accept now that he is the Avatar of Pride. Even if Lucifer pushes it out of his mind, Satan never forgets that he failed in the worst way possible.

His biggest aspiration is to become a full and complete person outside of any association he has with Lucifer. He feels like some sort of parasitic tumor that exists only in opposition to his brother, and he wants desperately to escape that role that he feels he was born into.

Anyway, Satan is great, hail Satan, all that good stuff. Did you know I have a lot of thoughts and opinions about Satan? I know, shocking. For more of my takes here's my fic about him (on AO3).

*I think Satan almost metaphorically represents certain elements of autism---emotions that don't come out the way you intend, masking and its limitations, hyperfixations that are barely under control. In Fandom Discourse(TM) there's sometimes a level of focus on more 'cutesy' autistic traits that we find endearing in characters, like social obliviousness and gleefully indulged hyperfixations. But emotional control, emotional masking, emotional seepage, emotional artificiality---these are also real and messy and often times they aren't cute and they're uncomfortable to see in yourself or in someone else. I really don't like diagnosing characters so I'm not about to claim Satan "is" autistic, but as someone who has been called essentially 'spectrum adjacent' by doctors, I relate to the awkwardness and the desire to appear normal despite knowing you're not and emotions spilling out in ugly ways---um. That got really long and personal.

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laylaisthename · 1 year

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ILW // Here they are! All 7 different end cards you can get in the many many more variations of the niche endings available in the game.

Google Drive Link to the cgs here

I am beyond honored to have been allowed to leave my own mark in the game like this, and honestly never in a million years expected to actually become involved with the game.

Everyone is fine to use these as phone backgrounds but if you do youre legally required to tell me which one is your favorite.

Putting it under the cut for length, but here's a breakdown of each card;

Starting with the Evil!MC end cards, that are lovingly dubbed Judas' Kiss if you stayed with Matty, or Scorched Earth for MC's solo end.

The images really mostly speaks for themselves; the flaming heart, hand in atrocious hand if you chose to share the power with Matthias, but then when you put it next to the solo end is where it got fun for me. The heart is broken, its just you now, but the glowing eyes are smiling. My first time testing the judas kiss route I did not hestiate for a second to hit "kill him"

Next is the death card

I really liked the idea of (if your mc wasnt a huge dick anyway) that they give you a grave outside the cave, something for people to leave Rowan flowers and gifts. A classic grave didnt quite feel like it fit so I settled on a cairn. It felt very fitting with the Power being a respect for nature and such. I set it to be at night, with moonlight streaming down on the grave to give it a melancholic sort of feeling, with the sun charm sunny gives you strung off it, and then placed flowers at the grave to kinda show that people have come by because they care about Rowan. Meanings for the flowers are below and while not canon, I like to think each of the LI's left behind one of them; red roses from Abel, blue violets from Amalia, sunflowers from Lincoln and the marigolds from Joss, though really they were all chosen more generally.

Onto the blood end card! Which I named New Horizons, and not because of animal crossing. A winding road in the mountains at sunset; the road has been long, it has been hard and now youre choosing to move on. Symbolically what i wanted this card to be is that feeling of leaving everything behind. The sun is setting on your old life as you go to embrace the normal life that Blood MC wants so much. Youre on the top road moving around the bend, not sure where life will take you but that's alright, you have the rest of your life to look forward to figure out where you'll go.

Onto my own canon end; the Mixed end!

Lovingly called "Best of Both Worlds" because mixed rowan is playing that hannah montanna life. More seriously; this card in contrast to the blood end is not about leaving everything behind, but embracing what you are. The card itself is set at dawn to contrast this; soft yellows and pinks, morning dew and fog clinging to the forest floor with a streak of Power playfully dancing among the trees. Its the dawn of a new day, seeing everything in new light after the darkness of the past weeks/years rowan spent trying to understand themselves. It's my personal favorite end even if my mc and Linc gotta do long distance for a while. But to me its about accepting yourself; moving on from the grief of losing your family without alienating yourself from your memories of them and embracing that Power side of yourself without being changed by it. The life you built after being ressurected is your own and no one can take that from you.

Next up my almost canon end, that does live rent free in my mind because I love angst.

Closed gate shadow end, Far, Far away (yes this is a shrek/starwars/nerd refrence); its a fairly straight forward card, thought it does have one of my personal favorite little details. This is the second draft I made of it after this scene from Lincoln's shadow goodbye stuck with me; looking up through the trees at the night sky.

I really wanted to hide an eye shaped constellation in the stars but couldnt make it look good sadly :sob: But my favorite little detail are the fireflies and how some of them are cyan; touched by the power Rowan is now again a part of. Not canon, but I like to think these little cyan fireflies come to sit on the LI's heads next they wander too close to the woods (Fireflies by Owl City starts playing).

Shadow end is just. Its so beautiful really. From sharing your experiences with the wisps, how Rowan's wisp has been changed by their time as a person, how despite their grief they are not sad or unhappy, melancholic yes but this is where you want to be. Its a cosmic love, the joy of having lived, coming inside on a cold winter day to find your home warm and inviting, your family waiting for you to tell them about your day. The card itself is a little whimsical, hopeful despite the closed gate that the power will forever be part of the world, even if its been cut off. And this brings us to the other shadow ending card; the flower

Eternal Bloom, a ghostly hand reaching out to hand this flower over to the world, a final gift, a final goodbye. Maybe a promise of "I'll see you soon" but first and foremost, it is a promise of love.

Thats right babes. Its all about Love. Unfading Love.

symbolically there isnt anything hidden in the card, but thats also in part of it at face value telling you all you need to know; its about love! its a gift, for you, to remember me by. You have not forgotten me, and even changed as I am, I have not forgotten you. Rowan's change in personality after merging shadow was sooooo heart breaking tbh but ITS SO GOOD. You found joy in what you were, but its time to come home, take off your coat, hang it up, take off your shoes.

And it is all about love! All these cards (well, not all of them) were for me made from the heart, trying to keep in line for the different themes each end resolves to give the players something to remember each route by.

To anyone that made it this far, let me know which one is your canon card/which card you like best! And im kissing you on the lips I love rambling about my thoughts and if you got to here then you deserve a reward. So.

#ilw #it lives within #it lives within spoilers #art #but seriously i will forever remember these last 4 months #it was soooo much fun seeing my name in the credits #also fun fact! I made male harper's outfit!!!#and reb picked it but i also did the colors for female harpers #we wanted them to match #and i liked the red bc it reminds me of their power fit

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