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veys-mood-of-mentalbreakdown · 1 year

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Aaaaalright i feel like this would probably be perfect for r/amitheasshole but i couldnt be bothered to put it on reddit. But I’ll formulate it like i would if i posted it there (EDIT: tried to post it to r/AITA but it wouldnt let me cuz its over 3000 characters)

Am i the asshole for wanting to tell a birthday party guest to not come anymore

This weekend March 11th 2023 the body will be 19 years old, to celebrate this we’re having our first actual birthday party with friends. We’ve invited 5 friends and all of them are coming some of them also sleep over as they come from far. Including the person id love to tell that they arent welcome anymore, we’ll call this person K.

As i said before this is the first time we ever thrown a party, so we are understandably stressed to get everything perfect. We don’t ask for help of the guest because we want to get it all ready ourselves (which as of now we have succeeded in and almost have everything ready).

K from day one started complaining about everything and anything. First it was about alcohol. About if we had vodka, and if we had different vodka than a certain brand because they only like that kind of stuff. Then it was about food, constantly making a problem about the snacks ans foods we were getting, i would share screenshots but i cant for privacy reasons so i’ll put it down as a list

- will there be enough food?

Yes there will be enough food

- will it be cold or warm, we only like to have warm food for dinner

We will make sure there will be cold and warm foods and foods you can eat both cold and warm

- yea but will there be enough

Yes there will be enough

- snacks dont sound like food to me

We call it snacks because we’re going to get tapas like dishes, meaning many different kinds of food

- will there be enough??

Yes K there will be enough

- i just dont have a right feeling about this

About what? The party or the food?

- the food at the party, i have a bad gut feeling about this

She then also started getting upset about the people we invited to our birthday party and the fact some of them are system’s like us (she is fully aware we are a system) saying that she thinks it’s going to be too much to handle, which i can get, i just don’t understand why she didnt tell us up front and said she wasnt going to come instead of getting angry at us for it.

She then said it would be a rollercoaster of emotions for her, and wanted to have a moment where she could just talk to our host privately about her emotional baggage at our host’s birthday party, and ofcourse like the good friend our host is, he agreed to play therapist because he’s afraid she’ll leave and bitch about him to others.

We made a playlist for music for the party, inviting everyone that will come to add music so theres a bit of everyone’s music tastes, we asked if everyone could add party vibe music and asked to not add music sorts that are triggering to us or others coming to the party (we specified what triggers us and asked everyone to specify if they have any music that can be negatively triggering)

Full knowing this, K asked us if she can add Reggae and added a few too, knowing full well that this is one of the things that is highly triggering to our host as one of the big ab*sers in our life only ever listened to that stuff, they got upset when we told them rather not and then our host said “okay but not too many, 1 or 2” to satisfy her, knowing it would most likely cause flashbacks of some sort. She then said “you know what its your party” and deleted it from thw playlist under the condition that she gets to have moments at the party where she can listen to her own music, which fine by us ig.

She then said she wasnt sure if she was going to come after all because of all the things she spoke about before that made her feel uncomfortable and feel it might be too much for her weren’t fixed. So we said alright.

Then she said she knew it would be too much for her and said she was going to come later.

I really want to tell her in a polite manner that she needs to fuck off and isnt welcome anymore at the party, she single handedly made the pressure and stress so high and blames us for it when we told her we were handling it and it was stressing us out.

After which she also said “im sorry, i feel like im too much in our business”

So are we (am i personally) the asshole for wanting to tell her she no longer is welcome?

#did #osdd #did system #dissociative personality disorder #alter #dream smp fictive #dream smp #fictive #r/aita #am i the asshole?

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literaila · 7 months

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Hi verity its me i just wanted to let ypu know that due to a terrible mishap my old blog is deleted which breaks my heart cause it has all the fics i loved delted ans gone forever it included a fic of your that was the first one i ever read but i cant remember the name of it

It had a terribly funny line about pilsbury cake that made me laugh so much if you find it coud you link it please so i can reblog it

Thanks

that would be cookie dough

glad that tumblr could never hold you back. thanks for letting me know

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straightjacket111 · 2 years

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there of bunch times . like alot that ive hate myself due to my past, my mistakes, and hurting her. i wish i was perfect that i have no mistakes, bad past and all of that. the reason why im hating myself is bcuz.. i hurt her. i feel very disappointed not only js her but i feel like a burden to everyone. always causing problems. even with my parents. but hurting her. eith all my mistakes makes me so fucked uo for what ive did . i wish i was never exist because. no one will feel hurt or anytg. everyome wud be happy. because rheres no burden. and the mistakes ive made is alot. and its like happen and happens and happens. like how tf am i gomna stop this cycle. it feels like it was stuck with me. i fuckinf hate myself for this. i just wan myself to really fully change. its like i js wantu to delete everyrhing. my thoughts ans all my social medias and my friends. bcuz i felt like i deserve it. i wouldnt mind if shes gonma do it back to me bcuz i deserve it. like im always the cause of problem to everyone . like everyone in my life. i cant make anyone happy . i cant make her happy. and fuck. i fucing hate this. i js wan everyone to be happy. including her. i know ive let her down the most but deep inside i wish i wasnt like that. i wish i was js innocent. with no bad past. with am great attitude . good in my studies. knows how to talk and all that. i really failed myself alot. i really fsailed. idw to hurt her anymore. idw to make any mistakes anymore. so please god. help me. help me clear this thoughts by not making me hurt with all my mistakes and my past . i reallh love her i cang bare to see being hurt and leaving me. it hurts more than anything in my life. please.

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popping-tropics · 4 years

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Guess who's join the oc x canon character in poptropica club-

#poptropica #poptropica oc #oc x canon #poptropica ameila #quite biker #ok look they're both butches-#and like I imagine biker being chill ane ameila being more excitable-#so they're like both similar and a bit of opposites at the same time-#also like ameila works on airplanes and quite works on motorcycles- they're like the sky and land with machinery-#also at first ameila would try to lay hints that she liked biker but she was way to oblivious to notice #also ameila is lesbian and biker is bi!#mainly cause ya cant spell biker without bi jsjsjd #i just realized im rambling in the tags- welp whatever i ain't deleting it-#so uh congrats if you read all these tags lol

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br1t1sh-sh0wer · 3 years

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Larry Timeline Oct-2010

-> October 1st, Jay twitted

“Babycakes!! XXXXX Where is my son! he he xx Love Lottie & Fizzy (@harry_styles live on http://twitcam.com/27x7q)”

-> In october 4th we got the 1st video diarie.

-> October 7th, Hannah (Louis´ gf) twitted:

"@Real_Liam_Payne Tell Louis to stop ignoring me please. Thanks sweet :)"

(The tweet got deleted)

-> For the next week, we got some X-factor behind of scenes, with lots of Larry cute moments. The following days there are lots of Larrypics together in public, such as with the others members. (I’m not putting them cause I don’t have enough patience, sry)

-> I don´t know the exact date, but larry got out to have dinner with Diva Fever, a gay duo.

-> In X-factor week two, we have some more recorded vlog to X-Factor surrunded with Larry touches and smiles.

-> October 10th, Louis twitted:

"Thanks for all the comments about my smile :) I cant stop smiling on stage :)"

(Not Larry relationed, but I just love this so fucking much, idc)

-> October 11th, the 2nd video diary was posted.

->In week three, there are more founds, and touches (mainly Louis touching Harry´s curls).

-> October 18th, the 3rd video diarie was posted. Harry was sick and Louis said "I think he´s got temperature awm" and bit Harry´s shoulder. Niall almost died in the background. Lots and lots of Larry moments.

-> October 19th, Harry twitted:

"When you Smile, The Whole World Stops ans Stares for a While :) .x"

-> October 24th, a fan asked about Louis and Harry for Hannah:

"@h_walker1 haha they´re like best friends in the group, right?"

Hannah responded

"@1DirectionITALY Yeah they love each other :) x"

(both tweets were deleted)

-> October 25th, 4th video diarie. We have the "almost" larry kiss, when Louis was prentending to confuse Harry and Liam while blindfolded.

-> October 25th, we have some more videos, such as jealous Harry in a interview, and Louis kissing Harry´s cheek.

-> October 30th, "The X Factor 2010 - It´s Question Time Week 4". That´s that one vid where Louis sits in the interviewer lap, and Harry is just hardcore judging.

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blindbabie · 5 years

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I DELETED MY NICK IMAGINE FEOM LAST NIGHT.... I CANT BELIEVE I JUST DID THAT....

Like I wanna cry, cause I won’t save so I had to keep rewriting it ans now I deleted it on ACCIDENT 😭💔 is there anyway to bring it back?

#prettymuch #nick mara #austin porter #brandon arreaga #edwin honoret #zion kuwonu #prettymuch imagines

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teddy-feathers · 5 years

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okay not to be depressed on main but j deleted my vent blog and i actually need to get these thoughts out

before therapy...

i don't think i ever realized how bad i was. oh of course i was bad - cant be swinging from "everythings on fire but i dont care infact let's just add gasoline and get it over with cause im so chill about it" to "im drowing in emotions basically all the time there is no off switch" and not know hmmm something might probably just possibly be wrong mayhaps

but.

i was looking for a way to gage just how bad i am currently

and started answering questions with idk four levels of rating for answers and i realized back then i wouldnt have beeen able to judge because i honestly thought and wished i was just being dramatic but looking back? yeah mark that bitch at concerningly high

and then i saw a list of things people say when theyre suicidal and. dude yeah. i said all of those things. i still say all of those things when times get rough

the difference is now i notice its getting bad and donsomething about it

i quit my job recently because i got really bad really fasr and noticed.

i say i wouldn't do it but a strong enough impulse with how tired I was constantly? short on sleep and over worked, stressed and... yeah. i was going around a corner the other day and just thought about how scared i was of myself and how frequent that impulse was and how because of how low my mood had gotten ei figured out that during those times i dont give a fuck about the life ive been building im just tired of sealing with everything and i want it to stop

i dont... want to but im tired all of the time physically not emotionally.

i dont go around like i did telling myself awful things because ive SEEN evidence and i KNOW and with practive i BELIEVE the good things and the realistic things.

which is GOOD!

but emotionally? i didnt realize that even though I KNOW better i still FEEL that way.

even though i know its stupid.

and i dont... beat myself up for feeling bad as much and i dont do a lot of things.

im a lot better and i dont care if anyone else can see the progess I'm living it. or. trying to.

its hard you know?

but im still not okay and thats hard to swallow or accpet when im a lot better than i used to be and i dont. want to waste time or whine or... i KNOW better? i know all the steps and what to do to succeed. i know how to act despite how i feel and I now have therapy tools so i can even help myself there and have been for six months now and.

its not enough?

like. im spoiled. ive got a good life. my aunt makes sure to remind me of that and how ungrateful i am and how i dont do enough every time we talk and honestly she doesnt need to? because even if i KNOW that its bullshit even if some parts of it are true it's just been twistedd... i do that enough to my self? i cant. not do that.

and getting more help and being like "i dont know if i can do the things it takes to survive for any great length of time because of my issues but id like to still get rewarded for making an effort with continued survival?" well thats just life isnt it.

we're all out here struggling to make ends meet and when i give it my all i succeed so whats the problem? i CAN'T do it for any length of time. a year tops. six months average. ive got proof. but like. nothings wrong sonits just me.

so logically i should get a job that works me less. stresses me less. right? but i cant live on that. so go back to school - which i cant explain how much i cant do that even if it was a full ride for whatever reason. tech school might be a thing but id no shit prefer a damn apprenticeship over that nightmare which isnt a thing.

this new job IF i get it and IF i make it through training and IF i can keep it is probably going to work me just as hard as my last job - only ill have to do shit outside. BUT I'll get paid more and BUT I'll have insurances and theoretically ill be able to pay and go to therapy as well as work on my physical health. which. cool beans. IF i can obtain and keep the job long enough eithout loosing my shit

but like. i am bad. should i even bother trying when there's a good chance ill go through all this effort only to self sabotage again

what should and can i do like idk

im better ENOUGH to not just. give up. hence the applications and actually answering the phone today but thats just because i havent sunk into apathy for a long while. it doesn't feel pointless to try its just

the consistent problem i have is me. i keep getting in my own way. and i can't stop that?

everything was going really well and then last weeked i realized is deive myself off the road to either get a break or get everything to stop so i quit because it's not the kind of place i can take a day off and i didnt think a day would fix it

hell a week hasnt

and like

nothings technically wrong with me. im NOT as bad as I was and i did yard work yesterday. everythings not fine inside but im better at functioning despite that so youd think id find a way to just keep doing that.

ive got to get dressed ans eat and go out so i guess thats the end of my vent sorry

#vent

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yourformerparamore · 5 years

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Abdulrahman A.

September 20, 2016

This was the day that i met him. He asked for my number and later that night he called me. so basically we talked a lot on the first call. we talked about everything that we have in common from the movies, music and tv shows. But we have something really special. It was gaming. So we exchanged ps4 accounts and we started playing together. Everyday and we talk everyday for hours. I fell for this guy. He always compliments my paintings, how my non girly clothes look so good on me, he cried when i painted him. And we talk about our families. I was happy when i talk to him and i had feelings for him.

One day, our town was under attack from terrorists. He was the only person who stayed talking to me all night just to make me feel safe cause i thought it wad my last day. But he sends me voice messages cause we couldn't call cause my internet is really bad. I could hear his crying voice. He was so worried. He kept motivating me. And i was so happy he was there for me.

Until I decided to confess my feelings for him. I told him that I loved him all this time. But he told me he has feelings too but he can't say them cause he doesn't want me to have hope that we can be together and marry. I didn't understand. so days passed I didn't talk to him. And one day he texted me. And i asked him how hes doing. He confessed too. He told me that its so hard to live avoiding me. Not talking to me hurts him bad. And that he loved me since the first day and he hates it cause he loved a girl he cant marry.

I still have those screenshots to this day. I dont plan to keep them forever. Anyway it was so hard to move on from that dude. I thought there was no one better than him. He was so perfect. But a little bit self absorbed. He does have the arab atittude. And i loved how clingy he was when I havent texted for more than 8 hours. Ill find 15 chats saying "nadine". 10 chats daying 'yo'. 5 chats saying "oh, ffs" and one chat saying "where u at". So hell just annoy me like this when he wants to talk to play with me. He likes annoying me a lot in gta v. Killing me a lot. And he hates it when i get higher kills than him. Lol arabs

So he likes to show off about his car a lot. Yeah their family is rich. So i guess he can get what he wants. He hates non girly girls. But idk why he liked me. He liked anime so much. So he would compare me to an anime. Hes really cute when he smiles cause he got braces. And hes so hot when he wears the traditional saudi thawb. Lol. Hope he achieves his dream in becoming a pilot.

Days passed we started talking less. His life got busy cause he found a job. And we dont play anymore like we used to and i got sad. And one day we just stopped talking. So i was in a process of accepting that maybe i was the one he used to pass time and boredom. And that hes not coming back. So i stopped checking his Instagram, his twitter ans his snaps. I deleted snapchat too.

I talked to him recently, he was happy that i moved on and didnt stop my life because of him.

We had an amazing special friendship for more than a year. Im glad that it ended.

Personal message:

Yo! Wassup thanks for every positivity that you shared with me. Thanks for all your appreciation. You're the sweetest guy ive met. And thanks for the psplus you gave me before. Lol And if you ever married. Congrats, fatimah betta ride that dick good.

#nadinexabdulrahman

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straykids-jiisung · 6 years

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i ahve hightened empathy/sympathy/emotions today and while it is really really cool and insightful and just a really cool feeling, it also means that everything i consume (muisc/tv/internet) just leaves me with such a lot of feeling in my chest and makes me cry over every little thing.

Start of the day - read some stories- wasnt that bad, still didnt really have that much heightened emotions - in fact in was actually nice cause i wrote some nice messages about stories and art work.

building up - i watched the good place and starting thinking about the character who cant decide on anything and feels anxious about everything. I suddenly thought og god some people are like this, how do they DEAL with it. It really must be hard.

now the main top of the mountain (where ia m right now) It started where i saw another video about The East Light - they were filming a chat backstage video, standard stuff, every kpop group does it, in the background a member was being punished for a mistake apparently saying that it hurts. The way that the members were acting, saying oh he made a mistake, hes being punished all nonchalant like it was a normal thing, they went to show the beating but the company deleted the video. They were acting all happy and normal and if there hadnt had been a translated version of the video, i wouldnt have known that there was anything wrong.

To chear me up i thought i know, i watch an episode of doctor who, of course i chose the wrong one - turn left- where half of Britain is boomed or gasses, theres no room for everyone so the government made a decision to put non british people go to ‘labour camps’. The man was acting all happy for donna to not scare her and then the grandad says oh its happening again and then she sees that man from before crying in the truck thing and i think then she realises whats going to happen.

And its not just fake world that im worrying/upset about. Its this world. Dad says that hes never seen the world like this before, people are getting murdered left right and centre for doing their jobs. A journalist went to a place to apply for a marriage licence on got murdered because he was a journalist and said a bad thing aka the truth abut some higher up.

Global warming is a massive thing, and it is going to get catastrophically in my life time, and us normal folks ant do anyhting about it and it jsut makes me so so sad and angry that rich people get out of taxes and dont do anyhitng to help just because theyre rich and have power and they wont help cause all they want in life is to stay rich ad if it doesnt benefit them, they wont do it.

Ive just got tons of things in my head, tons of thoughts and i just feel some emotions that the people might be feeling and its a very cool thing but also a lot.

I mean, i was listening to music, and heard chan sing i cant sleep, and that was like 500 different emotion, i love his voice but the words hes singing is just so, and i was just thinking about his life and how hard and stressful it must of been but then i thought well at least he has close people to help him and then i compared it to me and how i nee to work harder and if i do, i might get close people as well. cause in this day and age, it feels like if you wasnt to be really close with someone you have to be in a romantic relationship, but i dont WANT a relationship, i want friendship.

This village sucks, its so isolated and theres no people. on one hand im glad that im going back to england soon because i love people and i love the school and placement but i will miss my mum and dad and siblings so so so much. Its been ard trying to think of who i should spend time with, mum or dad.

I think englands better for me. Im sad because i will never achieve anything great. I have gt some minnie projects coming up:

10 - inktober

11 - write left handed, writing in general, assignment

12/1 - the dance project

2/3/4/5/6/ ....???

i really wish i could push myself hard, overcome my comfort zone and o something really great. I admire chan so much as he has really pushed the limits ans he has a really nice voice and i wish i could have a nice voice like that, but im a girl and i don’t have singing voice or work ethic to be proud of.

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the-confused-student · 6 years

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I have not logged onto this blog for a terribly long time..

Hello! I have not forgotten about this blog its just as of late I have had nothing to post. Im not like everyone else in this community who still does work despite the end of exams. I have no reason to continue to work since next year's topics have no connection with the first year of sixth form. Ill give a little update on what has been going on lately though.

I dont think I have talked about this but my communication studies paper 2 was probably the worst exam I did. I honestly hated that subject and thay has probably caused me to do so badly. I had 0 motivation with that subject.. even thoigh there wasn't really much to study as that paper has nothing to do with our syllabus its weird. That together with the fact my teacher hasnt given anything practice essays so they could correct and guide us and then they were on sick leave. We got a new teacher and that messed up everything. We were all over the place. For this subject you have to do something called a school based assessment/internal assessment. It composes of a written part (introduction to your topic.. mine was cosmetic surgery, a preface on your reflective piece, a reflective piece.. I chose short story, and an analysis of your reflective piece discussing the aspects of communication in your piece) and an oral part. I did excellent in my written part. I actually got full marks. For my oral part.. I knew my speech really great but my form teacher.. said something about a deceased teacher who I was very close to ans it caused me to break down. I got 9/16 in my oral presentation. Now for my written exam. I dont want to blame the teachers really because I chose to neglect this subject. I wasnt expecting it to give me so many problems since I was previously a Literature Student but boy. I think my hatred for this topic overcame me. We have 3 essays for each module. My module 1 essay was quite fine. But I took too long on it. We have 2 hrs and 30 mins to do this exam. I spent about 54 minutes on this essay. Instead of my ideal 40. My module 2 essay was horrendous. They asked us about dialectal variation when really and truly you could obly see two aspects of it instead of the 3 you needed. I bluffed my way through using the narrator as they spoke in Standard English. For one of my questions I misread "contempt" as "content" and I thus answered it wrong but I still stated some things that should give me marks. For our communicative behaviours.. I also hardly found any. For my module 3 essay.. I only had about 25-30 minites left and I had to rush. We had to make a proposal on encouraging Volunteer work within the school and.. I don't like thinking about this essay because we had 0 pointers on writing this up as it is not to be written in normal essay format. My sub teacher simply said "do it like a business proposal" ahh..

After this exam I had my biology paper 2 exam. This was much better. But we still had ridiculous questions (i answered everything though and I marked myself.. I had a good set of marks). They gave us a 10 mark question on mRNA transcription. Anyone who has done that should know the process isnt even that long for it to be worth so many marks. Granted we had to draw. But I couldnt see where the marks came from?? There were other things on the paper that bothered me but I did it aince May 18th so I cant remember all.

After these were just paper 1s which are multiple choice. I did really good in these especially since I did past papers and they bring back alot of questions. The order of best to worst though I think it would be Chemistry, Environmental Science, Biology and Communication Studies. Also we are given 1hr and 30 mins to finish these papers. I finished them in 25-40 minutes. Our exam board allows us to leave after the first 30 minutes but my school does not permit us to leave until times up. So essentially I sat in an exam room for a very painful hour doing nothing. This is terrible because it leads you to check over alot and change answers(I did this to one of my answers and now I will be getting it wrong.. sigh)

My chemistry multiple choice was my first one. I had a two week break between my first amd second multiple choice. This was really bad because I instantly went into vacation mode amd lost all motivation to study.. I managed to do my past papers though so no need to study.

I did my last exam as of yesterday 10:30 am. It was my biology paper 1. I felt so happy.

I was doing a 1500+ celebration but as no one really noticed it I decided not to bother. So that post was deleted in case any of you were confused.

Annnnnnnndddd thats it. I have been seriously considering doing a results reaction.. maybe liveblogging it? I definitely would not be showing my face.. I dont know if Ill even talk about my results because Im scared to see them. They are coming back im August and I think thats when A levels and gcses come out too? As I said before our education system is based on the British's. I wonder who would be doing reactions to their results? Let me know because I love to see them!

If I happen to do good in my exams, Ill definitely talk about what I did during my first year of sixth form. Actually maybe regardless I can talk about my first year of sixth form if any of you are interested.

#if they are any typos #i did this on my phone so excuse them #studyblr #new studyblr #studyspo #new studyspo #study blog #new study blog #study time #exams #sixth form #study motivation #study notes #study inspo #study inspiration #studysthetics #study aesthetics #studyspiration

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nothing-but-kpop-dreams · 7 years

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BTS Reaction: finding their s/o singing/rapping their solo songs (requested)

I know that not all of them are going to exactly “find” them in the middle of singing/rapping, but hopefully you still like them all.<3

Sorry for any errors.

Jin:

You had you music blasting through your earbuds as you pulled the cake out of the oven. When Jin’s ‘Awake’ came on, you immediately pulled your phone out and made sure you put it on repeat. You sang along to the song as you got the ingredients ready to make the frosting for Jin’s birthday cake.

You were in the middle of singing ‘Awake’ for the third time when suddenly someone pulled your earbuds off.

Considering that you were originally the only person in your apartment, you shrieked in fear, spinning around with your icing spatula as your only weapon.

Thankfully, the intruder turned out to be your boyfriend and the air soon returned to your body.

Jin was already in a fit of laughter with that signature window wiping sound escaping his body. “Jagi you should have seen your face!”

“Ya! you gave me a heart attack!” You said, threatening to hit him with the spatula.

“Aish, I’m sorry! I just wanted to tell you I loved your singing voice!”

Suga:

You and Suga were walking the streets of the shopping district in a half ass disguise. Both of you only wearing face masks and caps to not be recognized by any ARMY.

You both passed this music store that was blasting music on their speakers to attract customers.

“Pst, babe, do you hear what i hear?” you pulled your mask off to expose your smirk.

Suga rolled his eyes at you, already predicting what you would do next.

“A to the G to the U to the STD!” you began rapping. You did your best to add some “swaggy” moves, all of them in attempts to get a smile or laugh out of your boyfriend.

You could see his eyes squinting adorably, knowing his gummy smile was under his mask. This only made you rap harder. “A TO THE G TO THE U TO THE STD!” you were so loud you were starting to get attention.

Suga quickly put a finger to your lips. “Shhh!”

Now far from the music store and unable to hear the song and use it as a reference, you tried to continue to rap on your own. You rapped in a soft whisper, keeping your “badass” moves to a minimum. However, you didn’t exactly remember all the lyrics,,,or know the right ones to begin with... and were probably a bit off beat, but you kept rapping anyway.

Again, his finger stopped your lips and he shook his head at you in disapproval. “Leave the rapping to the pros baby.”

Rap monster:

“Y/n, you ready to go yet?!?” Rap monster called out from the living room. He concentrated on his reflection in the mirror, fixing his wig to look just like your hair. He made last minute adjustments to the dress you ordered him to wear because it was “a dress you would wear”. He groaned. “Stupid Halloween party. why did i agree to this couple idea?!?” he asked himself. “Y/n! How about now?!?”

“Y/n?!?” you said coming out of your bedroom in your boyfriends clothes. You wore a pair of his jeans, that you had to roll up because his legs are so much longer than yours and you wore his t-shirt and sweater that were definitely too big for you. The only things that weren’t his were the sneakers you bought and the bleached wig you ordered just for the occasion. “I am not Y/n, I am Namjoon!” you said trying to mimic his voice.

“O-M-G! Namjoon?!? From BTS?!? Rap monster said in his attempt at some form f a female voice. “Can you rap for me?!?” he asked adding a school girl giggle.

You began to nod your head to an the beat of his song joke. “Uh -Yeah -Uh -Yeah- *mumbles through the fast parts* *emphasizes only a few key words* fame, girls, money, thats ma honey to the 100 to the 100! *mumbles again* *only clearly says all the bad words* You know I got a mufuckinn beat I got a mufuckin rhyme I got a mufuckin flow I got a mufuckin style-”

“Wow!” Rap monster said cutting you off in fake amusement. “That’s like so hot!”

You popped your sweater with as much swag as you had. “Well, that is why i am the best.

Rap monster rolled his eyes at you. “Babe, let’s go already.” he said in his normal voice. “And remind me to give you rapping lessons when we get back.

Jhope:

Your close friends dragged you out to a karaoke bar as your late birthday celebration. But you knew it was mostly their way of trying to cheer you up after you have been moping around for weeks over how much you missed your boyfriend while he was on tour.

“C’mon Y/n, rap your boyfriend’s song!” they all demanded.

“No, i cant rap like him.”

“Rap it! Rap it!” they all chanted.

With a few bottles of liquid courage already in your system, you had the guts to give it a try You looked to the screen and clicked your favorite song, that songs being 1verse.

You flew through the lyrics, trying to as many of Jhope’s vocal touches as you could. A very drunk you thought you were doing well. Certainly, your drunk friends thought you were straight up spitting fire.

“Oh my gosh! Y/n that was so good!” a familiar voice spoke out just the song ended.

You whipped around and found your sunshine smiling at you. “Hobi!” you yelped. you ran up to him, and attacked him with a hug, feeling his arms snake around you. “I thought you wouldn’t be back for another week!”

“I wanted to surprise you!” he said before he pulled you into a kiss.

“Awww!” “ So cute!” your friends cheered.

“Let’s keep the partying going!” Jhope smiled. “Put that song again so we can rap together!”

You and V finally had your schedules match up and you both decided to take a mini vacation together. There was a long drive ahead for the two of you and you decided to be civil and each of you had half an hour to play your music in the car. V had won the game of rock, paper, scissors, so he got to play his music first.

Finally, his half hour came to an end and it was now your turn to blast your music. “Yay! My turn!” you cheered as you ripped the aux cord off his phone and plugged your phone in.

“Agh! Fine!” V groaned with a playful pout.

“You’ll like my music.”

“But I like mine more.”

You laughed at his little attitude, he was just too cute when he was pouty. “Trust me, you will LOVE this song. I know you will!” you said as you searched through your song list for the right song.

You clicked the song “stigma’ and you peeked at him to see his reaction. Within the first few seconds, is eyebrows shot up and and a cute smile lit up his face. “Aw, jagi, that is my song!”

You began singing along right when the lyrics started. You let your voice get disgustingly out of tune as you reached the chorus, because your vocal range did not match the emotions you were trying to covey. How your boyfriend had such a voice and such a talent still amazed you.

V giggled at you, still trying to keep his eyes on the road, but sneaking peeks at you from time to time. Just before the song ended, he joined and sang out of tune with you. “Aw jagi, your voice is so beautiful when you sing my song!”

Jimin:

You sat at your vanity, applying to makeup as you jammed out to your loud music.The next song that came up was Jimin’s song and you squealed to yourself, as was your usual habit of your favorite song coming out on your speakers.

You began humming along immediately and when the lyrics started, you began to sing to yourself. Words weren’t exactly words as you applied your lipstick, eyeliner and mascara. The sounds that came out of you were more like whale sounds rather than actual Korean words since most of your concentration went to your makeup.

Suddenly, you heard a fit of giggled in the room. You jumped in your seat , causing mascara you were putting on to smear on your eyebrow and forehead.

Jimin laughed harder.

“Jimin! How long were you there?!?” you could feel your face burning

“I saw everything!” he held his hand over his stomach because he was laughing so hard

You looked at yourself in the mirror. “Jimin! You made me mess up my make up!”

Jimin came up to you, handing you one of your makeup wipes. “Sorry sweetie, I got bored waiting for you to get ready then I caught you singing and I thought you were so cute.”

Jungkook:

It was the first time in months that you and your boyfriend both had the days off at the same time. This time was now dedicated to being lazy together.

It was the late morning and you were the only one awake. Seeing the mess the two of you made the night before, it was best you cleaned before Jungkook woke up and you two started another movie marathon.

You plugged in your headphones, grabbed a broom and began an attempt to clean. Of course, being in the lazy mood you were already in, you were easily distracted by the music to actually do any type of real cleaning. Instead, you mostly sang along to your music.

The beat of Jungkook’s song ‘Begin’ started to play and you were quickly sucked into the vibe of it. You were deep into the lyrics. Your eyes were closed, your arms were flying dramatically and you were using the broom as a microphone.

Eventually the song ended and your performance was over. You opened your eyes and as you waited for the next song to start, you heard the sound of someone laughing. You turned around and saw Jungkook standing by the kitchen doorway. His phone was pointed at you ans he was in a fit of laughs. “Babe, oh my- ha! I am- haha!” He was luaghing too hard to keep talking.

“You better delete that!” you ran up to him, and tried to snatch the phone out of his hand.

He was fast and held it above his head. “Now way jagi! I am going to keep this forever!”

-Admin Boat

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