#and if they do get in — they will share photos on the scene ☺️☺️☺️

[accio-victuuri]

It’s time for team building! 💪🏼💪🏼💪🏼 like before, it’s for tickets to attend weibo night. tho we don’t know yet if they are gonna be there, most likely they will, but anyway — it’s time to help out our fansite sisters!

if you have a weibo account with at least 600 points, just go to the links below and follow the steps.

无尽夏 ( link )

限时狂想 ( link )

反驳遗憾 ( link )

无须修图 ( link )

洛洛山河 ( link )

click the link per fan site above cause they have their own unique vote links. click on it and then give them your vote. only the first 30 will be able to win. you all know how much i appreciate the fansites & this is a way to show support and thank them. i think the closer we get to the ceremony, other sponsors will open ticket draws based on likes and reposts which will be much easier. will post about that when the time comes. these sites are currently 3, 4, 15, 17 & 18 and they should stay that way or move up. 💪🏼

THANK YOUUUUUUU!!!!! 🤍🤍🤍

#yizhan #bjyx #this is a very simple thank you to our fansite sisters #and if they do get in — they will share photos on the scene ☺️☺️☺️

[future-boi]

Doctober 2023 prompt #13: Photo Album

I've compiled a handful of my favorite behind the scenes photos from the movies! [Warning: very very long post lmao]

⚡️ First, the real star of the franchise: Einie

⚡️ Next, the star who was forgotten, the first Marty: Eric Stoltz (I'm still waiting for the Stoltz cut of the movie😤)

But according to Thomas F Wilson in this interview, Stoltz went method to the point of annoyance. And looking at this photo...

I believe it.

Everyone, including his stunt double: 😁😜😏😄☺️

Him: 😐

But the casting was A+, he really looks like his son!

⚡️ And speaking of Thomas F Wilson...

This guy seems so fun to work with.

Just look at him chillin' with the gang 🔥🔥🔥

You kinda forget that his character's such a jackass 🤭🤭

10/10 casting

⚡️ More on the casting...

LOOK AT THEM

OMG MY HEART

they so adorable 😍

And here's prolly my fave photos of Crispin:

⚡️ Can't forget the other cute couple

This one:

this one's the one that I wanna draw sometime in the future fo sho 💜

⚡️ Some of the action behind-the-scenes shots

⚡️ Prolly the best behind-the-scenes shot here. Definitely poster worthy haha:

⚡️ And now a cute lil photo of Michael just chillin with some yogurt for those that made it to the end of this post:

So, did something a bit different from what I usually do. If I had more time, I would have drawn a bunch of these, but alas. 😓 I tried to get a couple of the more obscure behind the scenes photos to share in case others haven't seen them before

Inspo for this prompt: It's an album... of photos... yes

#back to the future #bttf #doctober 2023 #art inspo #michael j fox #christopher lloyd #lea thompson #crispin glover #claudia wells #thomas f wilson #eric stoltz #behind the scenes

[clayberesford]

//I finally decided to make a role play account for Clay Beresford. Honestly I have been wanting to rp his character so bad and give him a happy ending he deserves. If anyone wants to write with me, let me know and I look forward to bringing him to life ☺️

A few reminders to consider

Please be respectful and kind on here

Note this is an 18+ account , but I still prefer to keep things still clean. I am open to some adult romance scenes if it's planned and follows with the storyline.

Please do not share with me any spam and inappropriate photos and content.

Note: I am also not here to look for a relationship with anyone in RL. I am married and have a life outside of RP and just simply here to just enjoy writing my character so please no asking for personal information, unless I get to know you for a while and feel comfortable. Also please no asking weird or creepy questions. You will be immediately blocked!

That's everything I need to say for now. My future posts will be me posting as Clay. If you have any questions about my character and role play feel free to DM me and we can discuss. I look forward to writing on here soon. I also have a main account here too @clayberesford-anakinskywalkerfan

Note: credits of these gifts belong to their creators, just simply using for my rp character only.

#awake 2007 #clay beresford #hayden christensen #role play account

[silhouette-cosplay]

Just wanted to say that I absolutely LOVE your stuff! The fact that you are able to make such amazing costumes is mind blowing to me! You have been one of, if not the, biggest inspirations pushing me forward to want to start doing my own cosplay work.

You're also one of the few cosplayers I've seen so far whos done thor 1 (Jotunheim) Loki, so just wanted to ask, what coloured fabrics did you use for it? I've been collecting references to try and break it down for myself, but due to cinematic lighting and things within the film Im finding it difficult to be be sure of the colours, and knowing what palets other people have used could be very helpful.

Once again, absolutely ADORE your stuff 💚💚💚

Heya!! Thank you! :3

So yeah the Jotunheim costume is STUPID hard to research and I totally relate. I cross referenced movie stills with behind the scenes photos to try to get an idea of the actual colours, and what I came up with was: black for the main portions, a dark ashy grey for the leather bits, and then there are hints of a grey-olive green in the undershirt, mainly at the shoulders and around the neck.

I’ve also compiled a google drive folder of all my refs which I’m happy to share! (You should be able to download things, let me know if you can’t for some reason)

And if it helps to have peeks at my construction process, I have a WIP album on my FB page, HERE

Hope that helps!! ☺️

#jotunheim loki #loki: jotunheim

[tiistirtipii]

Day 123 of missing AkkAyan. I was going to pick a different scene for today but I opened episode 10 to find it and got lost in repeating this beautiful moment. Undoubtedly one of my favourite scenes I’m focusing on just the first part of it for now.

It’s their first day at school as boyfriends and Ayan is ready to use that to his advantage. His claim to Akk has been put into words in a way it wasn’t before. Before it was just two shared kisses and comfort they provided eachother and while Akk still can’t admit his feelings Ayan made it so he didn’t have to, he let Akk ‘allow’ himself to be his boyfriend. Sure he asked a few times and wouldn’t let Akk sleep but that let Akk almost hide behind the pathetic excuse that is he was just trying to get Ayan to stop annoying him. Something along the lines of ‘yeah sure I’m totally only agreeing to be Ayan’s boyfriend so he will let me go to sleep not because he makes me feel happier or safer than anyone ever has haha’ and that technique of Akk’s to hide behind being annoyed is exactly what he uses in this scene as well. When Ayan asks him if he misses him at all, Akk’s answer of, “I did! Happy now?’ Is a great example of the deflection he uses to allow himself to be honest. He did miss Ayan but he can’t just say that, that’s lowering himself to Ayan’s very sappy level and Akk is too cool and too repressed for that. Ayan of course is very aware of this which is what makes it work for them. Ayan can annoy Akk into being honest and see straight past the insults it takes to get to that point to see the true meaning beyond 🥰.

The scene itself is very pretty, it’s no ep 7 island scene but the lighting here is beautiful and in light of (haha) the gorgeous photos we got of First in the sun today it seemed perfect to talk about. Ayan’s face shines as well but I can’t tell if it’s because of the sun or how widely he is smiling and I can’t tell if that’s the sun shining in his eyes of if they’re bright with love and adoration.

There are so many little bits and pieces I love about this scene I’ll just start listing them. The audio work at the start and the way you can hear their shoes along the floor and Ayan’s palm smack against the wall. That paired with the quick cut from Akk looking so confused to Ayan smiling so widely as the audio fades away makes that moment especially rewatchable. It seriously scratches some part of my brain. I love Akk’s eyes the whole scene although I love them in every scene. First’s eye acting is unmatched and the way his eyes soften from concerned to shy has me entranced. The way Akk’s hand comes up to grab onto Ayan’s backpack, failing at keeping Ayan away and instead holding him there. Ayan’s mini pout.

Akk’s seconds of consideration before he admits to missing Ayan, probably when he thinks about the benefits of being honest or just denying it or doing a mix of both as said before. Ayan’s absolutely radiant smiles throughout the whole scene as he gets to act as the mushy boyfriend he has always wanted to be. The way Akk pulls Ayan’s hand off from the wall behind him and Ayan doesn’t even hesitate for a second to place it right back. How he doesn’t care at all that Wat and Kan are coming and continues on to ask for a kiss.

There’s the fact that this scene is the last scene shown in the intro yet technically we never get that exact scene from the intro because we don’t get a shot from that angle and Ayan’s hand looks to be completely behind Akk’s head (stopping it from knocking into the wall☺️) but because that scene was in the intro it was something to look forward to.

I remember early on I couldn’t picture Akk and Ayan looking at each other with that much love and it gave me butterflies to imagine that’s the two idiots on my screen who hated eachother were going to get to that point eventually.

There’s more to this scene but I’ll leave that for another day. I miss Akk and Ayan, more and more every day.

#AkkAyan #the eclipse #the eclipse the series #first kanaphan #khaotung thanawat #missing Akkayan #it was SUPPOSED to be a short one today and look what fuckin happened #every goddamn time I end up with a full essay #I just love them too much.

[tiffanylamps]

Just recently finished Beyond Evil and I'm beyond in love with Shin Ha Kyun and have been binge-watching anything with him in it and noticed he seems kinda flirty with men. I'm American and am still getting used to South Korean skinship so maybe I'm just reading too much into the way he interacts with men but in some videos he just seems so into his male co-stars (for example: bts of running man; my brother photo shoot; murder take one interview). Plus, I feel like some of his acting choices are super sus (there are a few twitter threads that have been enlightening like wtf was the popsicle scene???). But I read he dated Bae Doona and Kim Go Eun so part of me thinks he's just really shy around women and maybe even has a secret gf now but a friend of mine thinks his past relationships were fake bc there's rumors that those two women don't like men? I'm so confused and don't really care how he identifies as long as he's happy but was wondering what you thought (you don't have to pub this if it's too weird!). I'm also side-eyeing Yeo Jin Goo and how he acts around older men in particular lolllll.

Hey! Thanks for sending me this ☺️

I will prefix this by saying that I don't know much about what is considered "acceptable" or common interactions for male relationships (platonic of otherwise) in South Korean culture. So, much like you, I don't have much of a gauge of Shin Ha Kyun's interactions.

Also, I love my man Ha Kyun but I haven't delved much into his personal life or much of the BTS for his work (other than Beyond Evil). But to me, he seems like a introverted, funny, charismatic, almost shy man who is very easy to get on with. He's professional, intelligent, serious, and extremely capable. But also, immensely private. So, I think if he was comfortable with the public knowing his dating history, he would let it be public knowledge.

As he doesn't seem to want it to be publicly known, I don't really feel comfortable speculating on it. Our man likes who he likes, and let's hope he's happy with whomever is lucky enough to share a life with him. But I totally get where you're coming from and I understand the curiosity 😊

Yeo Jin Goo is a funny guy, who really seems to have outstanding chemistry with all of his costars. He does seem to look up to some of his older male costars and that admiration shines through.

I think both of them should be applauded for keeping their private lives private because that's sooo difficult these days, especially for people in the public eye.

I do think this topic as a whole is very interesting (queer people in the public light), especially with social sensibilities and constructs ever-changing. But it is difficult to discuss without including real-life examples, which kind of goes against what I'm comfortable discussing here... What I'm trying to say is as a queer person, I would love to know of more public figures who are queer but also as a (in real life) "closeted" queer person, I understand the want/need to keep these personal info private ☺️

I feel like that's a bit of an unsatisfactory answer but I hope you understand where I'm coming from. Thank you again, if there's anything else you'd want to discuss, please never hesitate to contact me ☺️

Have a great day!

#shin ha kyun #shin hakyun #i hope this doesn't come across as shitty 🫣 #yeo jin goo #anonymous #anon ask #answered

[vlads-fangs]

Tom Hanson: A comfort imagine #1

I know I call all of these things ‘imagines’, they might not actually be called that but I’m using that term for them☺️

I needed some comfort today, things have been really tough and stressful lately so I decided to write this. Tom Hanson has recently made it back on the list of favorite comfort characters. For those of you who aren’t familiar with him, he is a character from the late 80s tv show ‘21 Jump Street’ played by Johnny Depp.

⬆️❤️Based the end scene off this photo, I just luv him he cute and precious❤️⬆️

Idea: even if it feels like the weight of the world is crushing you, Tom is there to lift it off your shoulders :3(I know this sounds cheesy but I can’t think of how else to describe this ha)

Comfort :)

Everything has been getting to you lately. Your job, trying to keep steady grades in your classes, and just trying to maintain a healthy life. You sat on the curb your elbows resting on your knees with your chin in your hands. You just wanted to enjoy parts of life but every time you tried something would happen.

“Hey- you ok? I was about to order but noticed you came out here. Do you..not want anything?”

You heard the familiar sound of your good friend Tom’s voice. The two of you have been friends since middle school, he knew when there was something wrong. Taking a seat beside you on the curb he nudged you gently with his shoulder.

“Do you want to talk? You know I don’t mind.”

You always appreciated his compassionate side. He’s been your closest friend for so long you always went to him for almost everything. There have been times where you might have over shared a little too much but even then he was very kind and supportive. It was never one-sided though. You told him in the past that he could always come to you for love and support and so he did. The two of you got along perfectly, sometimes you even wondered if he liked you…you liked him.

“I hate how everything I try and do just falls apart, or I make a decision that ends up exploding in my face later. I try to keep a smile on my face so people don’t think I’m crazy or losing my mind..but I feel like I can’t do that anymore.”

You ranted all of this to him, as always. He didn’t always have the best advice but he still knew how to comfort you and calm you down. Scooting a little closer, he put an arm around your shoulders pulling you in a little closer. You leaned your head against his shoulder sighing shakily. Every time you were in a deep emotional state the slightest bit of comfort would make you cry. You hated crying in public, but you did it anyways. Tom sat there with you rubbing your shoulder with his hand. You tried to wipe your tears away using your hoodie sleeve. Tom looked at your face and lifted his hand to wipe a couple tears that had dripped down your cheeks.

“My hands are clean, I promise.”

He joked lightly, making a small, weak laugh come from you. Just that little act of affection made you feel all warm and calm side. You gripped onto his jacket sniffling while starting to collect your self.

“I’m gonna go into the bathroom and freshen up..I’ll be right back out.”

You went inside the cute little café heading to the restroom. While you were in there Tom went into the café to order a drink for you. It wasn’t just any drink, it was your favorite. He knew your exact order when it came to your favorite drink. Once he got one for you and one for himself he went outside sitting on the hood of his car. You looked at yourself in the bathroom mirror and fixing your hair making sure you looked decent enough. Walking out of the bathroom you headed outside. The first thing you see is Tom sitting on the hood of his car with two drinks. He smoked and held your drink out to you, scooting over some to make room for you.

“I got you your favorite, [insert your favorite drink order here].”

You walked over and took the drink smiling like an idiot at how sweet he was to you. You sat next to him and criss-crossed your legs. You leaned your head on his shoulder.

“Thank you, Tom.”

“You’re very welcome, hun.”

[🖤if you made it this far, thank you so much for reading this🖤]

#imagine #fiction #comfort character #comfort #johnny depp #tom hanson #21 jump street #90s style #80s #cute #soft

[buttercupjosh]

a summer in syracuse

(Gif credit to @tylerglasnow)

word count: 5,115

warnings: none

genre: summer romance, strangers to lovers, self insert, fluff

a/n: I’ve been quietly working on this fic since February and I’m finally dropping it. I actually applied to a summer research opportunity at syracuse university (unfortunately, I didn’t get in) and I had one of those before you go to sleep, dream prompt scenarios that was like “imagine if COVID didn’t exist and you went there and somehow ended up falling in love with Joel, what would that look like?” So based on the different details I would come up with to help me fall sleep (I never dreamt about it), here’s my beezy fic. I haven’t written a fic since 2014 and I’m no Nicholas Sparks so I tried my best at this. I’ve also never been to upstate New York so I just relied on my imagination and Google to help create the scenes. I’m not transitioning to becoming a fic writer, I just caved into the idea and wrote it out. It’s written with a female reader in mind because I’m a cis female but if you want to, you could make it apply to anyone. It's intended to be a self-insert to where the reader can imagine themselves or a character of their choice in the position. It’s also lowercase intended and there’s no dialogue because I wanted to do something different. Shoutout and thank you to @thestarsintheskyburnout for reviewing and editing this story for me. I’m open to any and all feedback, comments or questions; just put them in my inbox or dm me. Thank you in advance for reading, I appreciate it and I hope you like it😌 (p.s. if you have the time, I would also really appreciate if you checked out my other piece, know your heart. Thanks☺️)

(Note because I already know that someone is going to bring it up: yes, Joel actually has a vsco that he still actively uses. The only reason why I know that is because last year, someone (I can’t remember who) shared a photo from his vsco on here and put it as a source for a photo. I probably won’t share the vsco info for the sake of controversy and drama. Don’t come into my inbox about it.)

(Optional listening/songs of inspiration: summer love by one direction, space cowboy by kacey musgraves, san francisco by 5sos, streetlights by wanderer, driving by wanderer, into your eyes by wanderer, know your heart by wanderer (promoting it again because this song is so good), and my spotify playlist)

“you were mine for the summer, now we know it’s nearly over. feels like snow in september but i always will remember. you were my summer love. you always will be my summer love” -summer love by one direction

you were fidgeting in your seat from excitement and also as a way to keep yourself awake. you hadn’t slept much the night before because you were making sure that you had everything you needed for your trip and you were tired from spending the majority of your day in either an airplane or an airport. you kept tapping your feet on the floor and began sending your final texts to your family and friends and you were looking for the right playlist before the plane took off. you were blessed with the opportunity to go spend 8 weeks in syracuse, new york to work on a summer research project at syracuse university. you were so wrapped in your bubble of excitement and exhaustion that you didn’t notice the guy who sat next to you. he looked over at you with a side eye and he contemplated switching seats. this flight, however, was full so he stayed in his place. he grew slightly annoyed with you and wondered how someone could have this much energy for a boring flight to his hometown.

as the plane began rolling away from the terminal, you took out your gum and politely offered the guy in the glasses with the sharp jawline next to you a piece. he accepted and you noticed that he was wearing a black philadelphia flyers sweatshirt with the number 86 on it. something about him felt familiar so you complimented him on the sweatshirt and asked if he was a fan of the team. that’s when he revealed who he was, introducing himself as joel farabee, a forward for the flyers. that’s exactly why he was familiar to you because you watched him play before during the 2019-2020 playoffs and during the recent 2020-2021 season but you didn’t pay much attention to him specifically (your attention was more focused on a defenseman, a giraffe named phil myers). what were the chances that you would be seated together on a flight to syracuse? you told joel that you were a fan of his team but that you didn’t pay close attention to the entire roster. he laughed because he knew that he was only in his second season in the nhl, putting up great numbers but still gaining momentum within the team and that the team had other superstars, who casted a larger shadow over him. you knew that they had a rough season. you apologized for not noticing him and he accepted it. he asked you about why you were so excited to go to syracuse, it was a college town with nothing much to do unless you like to be outside, party or spend time in the library. you explained to him about the research project opportunity you were granted with and how it was your first time going there. for some reason, knowing that it was your first time there, it sparked an idea in joel. he decided that he wanted to be a tourist in his hometown and show you around. yes, he did spend the majority of his life there and he goes back every major holiday to see his family but he never really got the opportunity to show what the region had to offer and he wanted to do something slightly different this summer. his typical summer plans were to work out, practice at the rink, hang out with his friends, spend time with family, go fishing and catch up on sleep. he could still fit those things into his break and make time to show you around town. he offered to make your summer in syracuse fun, even though you would be spending 8 weeks cooped up on campus. you accepted the offer and exchanged numbers. as the flight continued, exhaustion began to wash over you and before you knew it, you had unintentionally fallen asleep on joel’s shoulder. yes, you had your neck pillow but your head had moved a bit too far over to the left. realistically, he should of woken you up and politely asked you to move your head off of him but he understood that you had spent the majority of your day traveling and were exhausted so he left you alone.

as the plane descended and made its way to the terminal at syracuse hancock international, he woke you up. after realizing that you fell asleep on the shoulder of someone you just met, you apologized to him again and he accepted it. at baggage claim, you thanked joel for being a great flight buddy and he chuckled at your words. his bags came out first and he waited with you until you got yours. he offered to take you to campus but the school had already given you a $100 uber gift card for transportation and you had already ordered the car. before heading your separate ways, you arranged to make plans at some point during your 8 weeks to hang out. in his mind, he had already started planning all of the places he wanted to take you.

____________________________________

after arriving on campus, getting settled in your dorm, and meeting your roommate, you noticed that joel followed you on insta and added you on snapchat. you snapped him a photo of the sunset, which he screenshotted but left you on opened. the following morning, joel sent you a snap back of the home cooked breakfast he was enjoying. you snapped him back a photo of a tree while walking to the research lab, and thus, a streak was born. you and joel began texting each other back and forth consistently. he already knew where he wanted to take you but he didn’t want to initiate the first move yet so he waited until you brought up wanting to go out since you had a much busier schedule.

about 2 weeks into your stay, you had finally decided that you wanted to ask joel about going somewhere. joel suggested going to destiny usa (the large mall in the area but going shopping together in a busy setting wasn’t the best way to get to know someone), the museum of science and technology or the art museum (both places piqued your interest but your research program already arranged dates for a group visit) and even going hiking (it sounded good but it felt odd since you had only just met each other). finally, you both decided that going to lunch at dinosaur bbq (a popular restaurant in town and one of joel’s favorite spots) the following day was the best choice.

the next afternoon, you nervously waited outside of the dorm hall and joel pulled up in a black audi. you took a deep breath before going inside. you trusted that joel was not some secret, dangerous creep and that his intentions were good. in your mind, you decided that if you both didn’t vibe well together during this lunch hangout, you didn’t have to see each other again afterwards. you were going to reject joel’s offer to show you around town and you could always ask your roommate or another member of your cohort to explore syracuse with you. ultimately,  you were wrong; having lunch with joel was actually a lot of fun. it was awkward at first because you were nervous. you barely spoke to him on the ride to the restaurant, not wanting to embarrass yourself by saying something wrong in front of him or creating the wrong impression. on the other hand, joel was cool, calm and collected. he didn’t think too much of going to lunch with you. he could tell that you were nervous and he didn’t want to push you to speak.

while you waited for your food, you carefully tried to choose your words and began opening up to each other. you both exchanged surface level basic details about your lives. the heart to heart stuff was being saved for later on, because you didn’t want to push each other away with the deeper details and the trust between you two hadn’t yet been established. you tried not to include hockey in your conversation, but it was a huge part of joel’s life and he had no issue talking about it with you. he willingly answered your questions about the behind the scenes of the nhl and you equally responded to his questions about your research project. you learned that you both shared certain things in common and some things you differed on; he even made you genuinely laugh a few times. throughout the meal, you realized you admired joel’s dorkiness and charm, while he admired your down-to-earth spirit and kindness.

when the check arrived at the end of your meal, you graciously offered to pay for both of your meals. joel declined your offer to pay and instead put his credit card on top of yours. you gave him his card back and made a compromise with joel. anytime, you went somewhere together, you would pay for something in exchange for his time and service of driving everywhere. he didn’t mind paying for things and driving the 15 minutes from his home in cicero to pick you up but he agreed to it and you both shook hands. his hands were larger than yours, but oddly, they fit together like matching puzzle pieces. joel took you back to the university and before leaving, you asked joel if you could hug him as a sign of gratitude. normally it would feel weird to hug someone that you had only known for a short while but hugging him felt natural and comfortable. after hugging him goodbye, you told him to text you when he got home. he promised you that he would before driving off and he kept that promise. ___________________________________

after that first initial hangout, you started having joel around more. he would sometimes come visit you in the library and keep you company as you studied. he would always bring snacks or take you out to go get food. sometimes, he would annoy you and you would end up spending more time dealing him and his antics than reading the book’s contents and working on the project. he never said it, but, he was in awe of your academic prowess. he had only spent a year in college before moving onto the nhl and seeing how passionate you were about the topics you studied amazed him.

after a study session, joel offered to take you to go do something fun and he suggested going to the zoo. he hadn't been since he was a child and felt a sense of nostalgia. you were both grown adults, but, a trip to the zoo wouldn’t hurt anyone. you ended up strolling around together at the rosamond gifford zoo on a saturday afternoon. you would stop and read the facts on each of the animals at the exhibits and joel would take photos of them on his vsco and send different ones to his friends. he saw a meerkat and sent a photo to tk. joel told you that you were like an elephant, big brained and full of knowledge. you rolled your eyes at him and indicated that you wanted to get dippin dots. over the cool treat, you and joel exchanged stories from your own childhoods. you told him about where you were raised, your hobbies, and your love for stuffed animals when you were younger. joel told you about his life here in town, his time in boarding school in connecticut, about his days in michigan playing for the us national development team and his short time at boston university.

after the ice cream was finished and the stories were concluded, you wanted to stop by the gift shop to pick up a souvenir from your trip to the zoo. you picked up two magnets (one for your parents home and one for your place). before checking out, you needed to use the restroom and asked joel to hold onto the magnets until you got back. joel took advantage of your short absence to purchase the magnets for you. you were surprised by the kind gesture and thanked him, though you insisted on buying them yourself. as you were both exiting the zoo, joel mentioned how the rose garden was close by. he knew that he wanted to take you there to see the flowers but he didn’t want to be awkward. he knew that the rose garden was a romantic place and as far as you both knew, you were just friends and nothing more. from your perspective, you knew that joel could possibly secretly be involved with another girl back in philly or in his DMs, and he could also have any girl he wanted at the drop of a message anyways. realistically, you were both single and neither of you wanted to admit that a summer romance was quietly blooming between the two of you. after you listened to his suggestion about the rose garden, you had decided to opt out. you definitely wanted to go check it out but you didn’t want to make joel uncomfortable by going there together when you weren’t dating each other. on the ride back to campus, you awkwardly asked joel for more information about the rose garden. he responded telling you how beautiful it was in the spring, how it’s one of his mom’s favorite places in town, and sharing a story about a time he visited. after listening to his commentary and saying goodbye, you wished that you had accepted the invitation. little did you know, joel was feeling the exact same way. ____________________________________ your research project was progressing well, but, as you got closer to the deadline, you jokingly told joel that you were so stressed out and busy that you just wanted to go down niagara falls in a barrel to escape it all. this inspired joel to actually take you to see the marvelous waterfalls to get your mind off of the stress you were feeling. it was a 3 hour drive from syracuse but it was worth taking the trip for you.

on the ride to the falls, joel let you decide the soundtrack for the road trip and he learned that you held a deep love for music. he learned which songs and artists meant a lot to you and even asked you to add some of the songs you played into his library. you didn’t think much of it at the time (besides the fact that you were getting this boy to listen to other genres besides country and rap), however, joel was quietly planning on making a playlist full of the songs you loved - even though some of the songs you played were definitely out of his comfort zone. the purpose of the playlist was to help him feel connected to you after you left.

after the 3 hour drive, you finally arrived in the late afternoon. you did not bring your passport with you, so, you were unable to cross the border into canada and explore that side of the falls. you hopped together, alongside other tourists, onto the maid of the mist boat ride. it took your breath away to see the waterfall up close and in person. you were speechless by its amazing beauty. you felt the mist of the water dance across your skin and your eyes widened in wonder. you couldn’t believe that you were actually in front of niagara falls. while you were inside a bubble of awe, joel admired you and your reactions. it made his heart full, seeing the joy spill out of you. he made sure to capture photos of you and the falls and you both took touristy photos in the classic yellow waterproof ponchos at the cave of the winds. your favorite photo taken that day captured you and joel laughing in the titanic pose in front of the falls. it looked a bit silly but it was a really cute photo of you two together. joel’s favorite photo was a side profile shot of your face, with the water cascading in the background. although, you felt otherwise in the oversized, bright plastic coverup, he truly thought you looked beautiful.

after picking up more magnets and a t-shirt from the gift shop, and watching the falls illuminate at night, you headed back to syracuse. on the ride back into town, you and joel stopped at a diner off of the highway. you sat across from each other, admiring the details of each other under the light, just as you had many times before. however this time, a wave of vulnerability kicked in and you decided to share more about the intimate details of your life with joel. in your mind, some of the things you shared weren’t so great and you felt they could be a reason for him to stop liking you. however, joel saw how the not-so-pretty, broken parts, the seemingly boring, uninteresting things and the little details of who you are, pieced you together like kintsugi. the scars that lined you were flowing with the gold of your love, compassion, and kindness and he liked that about you. it’s what made you so different from all of the other girls out there. sure, on paper the qualities of who you are could be what he needed in a partner but physically, you may not match the expectations of wags within hockey culture. his heart whispered to him that you were something special and that the physical beauty of this world didn’t matter because he knew that you were beautiful on the inside.

at the end of your meal, the waitress dropped off the receipt explaining that she adored when couples came in together and seeing a happy relationship reminded her of her and husband, after losing him many years ago. joel blushed at the waitress’ remark and you thanked the waitress for her service before leaving. you and joel had never talked about your feelings for each other. it was definitely safe to assume that you were friends and nothing more but there was something more lurking under the surface. your hearts both, connected by an invisible string, could sense that love was there but the words never slipped out. the rest of the drive back was awkward. while the music hummed in the background, you speculated that joel wasn’t probably looking for a relationship and you assumed that you didn’t fit his standards anyways. you weren’t a model, you weren’t a sorority sister, you weren’t someone who had a shot at competing on the bachelor. you were just you and you were content with who you are. you knew that dating an athlete wouldn’t be easy but if you knew that he was into you, he was worth the risks and challenges.

while you were wrapped up in your thoughts, joel reached over and grabbed your hand. you were surprised by the move but didn’t let go. he didn’t say anything either because he had similar thoughts about his feelings towards you racing through his mind. you didn’t know that he felt the same way, seeing that you were full of internal beauty and you shined like a light on earth. he was also terrified of what could happen next for whatever was going on between you. he knew that he considered you his friend and he could feel himself falling for you, but, he was worried about what he couldn’t see below him. he wondered if you could handle the pushback associated with being a wag or if you even wanted to be romantically involved with someone like him in the first place. he also wondered if you were falling for him as well or if you just wanted to remain friends.

before you both knew it, you arrived back to campus. despite the awkward car ride, as usual, he dropped you off and you gave him a hug goodnight, telling him to text you when he got home. as soon as you walked into your dorm, you immediately confided in your roommate about your trip to niagara falls and your feelings for joel. she knew that you had been spending a lot of time with joel and she admitted that she adored how well he treats you. your roommate advised you to listen to the whispers of your heart and focus on what it said to you. you considered her words and hoped that your heart said the right things to you and guided you into the right direction. ____________________________________

your final research project presentation was thursday afternoon and your flight home was scheduled to leave friday morning. joel really wanted to make your last night in syracuse special. he was proud of you and wanted to celebrate the completion of your research project experience by taking you out to eat at his favorite hometown restaurant. going out to eat together was not a new thing for you, he had taken you to several different restaurants, but this place was special to him. francesca's was only reserved for special occasions. it was where he had celebrated several of his birthdays, his high school graduation, when he got signed to the flyers, and other important events. based on advice from his older brother, he had never taken a girl there unless that girl was important to him. although you had only known each other for less than 3 months, you meant a lot to him. he knew that you were someone his family and the team would adore.

he waited for you in his car, just as he had done countless times before but this time with a bouquet of flowers for you. he had spent hours with you but the butterflies in his stomach fluttered loudly tonight. he peered out of the window and he thought you looked absolutely stunning in your dress, the color you wore looked amazing on you. when you got closer to the car, he got out, handed you the flowers, and went around to open your door. he complimented you on your outfit and it made your cheeks warm. the flowers he picked for you were beautiful and you admired how he was being extra sweet tonight. on the ride to the restaurant, you complimented joel, saying he looked handsome in his outfit and you thought to yourself that that the both of you look good together.

the restaurant he took you to was very nice. it had brick walls and a lively atmosphere. you could sense that joel was a bit nervous, which was odd, since he was never nervous around you before. you questioned him about it and he explained  the significance of the restaurant to him. you were taken aback that he thought you were special and important enough to him for him to bring you here. that made your heart whisper to you. you had listened to what your heart had to say and not surprisingly, it did say the right things to you.

at the end of the delicious dinner, you wanted to go get ice cream, so joel took you to  the cold stone creamery inside of destiny usa. you both sat and ate ice cream on a park bench in onondaga park, looking out onto hiawatha lake, and admired the stars in the night sky. the reality of your last night in syracuse began sinking in. joel knew that you had an early morning flight, so he drove you back to campus sooner so that you would get enough sleep for your journey back home. he drove to the front of the building and he promised that this moment wasn’t goodbye and he was going to take you to the airport the next morning. before leaving, joel reached over in the backseat and handed you a bag. inside of the bag was a bee beanie baby, a keychain of gritty (the mascot for the flyers), a black philadelphia flyers hoodie matching the one he wore when you first met, and 4 magnets - 2 represented the city of syracuse and 2 were flyers magnets. you were thankful for the sweet gift and admired that joel paid attention to the things you liked. you went in to give joel the usual goodnight hug but this time, he asked if he could kiss you goodnight instead. you accepted the offer. ____________________________________

you didn’t sleep well the night before. your mind was racing with the thoughts of the great night you had and you also wondered about what would happen between you and joel. you said farewell to your roommate and promised to keep in touch with her. her flight was leaving at a different time but yours was an early morning flight back home. it was too early in the morning for you to go to breakfast together so you planned on getting something overpriced and filling in the airport. as he promised the night before, joel was taking you to the airport to say goodbye. he still had about a month left before training camp started but he wished that you would change your ticket and stay longer. you were dozing on and off during the trip to the airport, joel looked over at you and his heart was full. this was the last time that you would be together like this in his car. you were going to miss the unintentional familiarity that you developed sitting in his passenger seat and being physically close to him. he enjoyed the way it felt having you next to him and he too was going to miss that feeling.

as he pulled into the short term parking lot at the airport, you woke up from your nap and an overwhelming feeling of sadness washed over you. you didn’t want to leave him. you had such a good time in a new place and you had gotten to spend time with an amazing guy who treated you so well. your heart swelled with the gratefulness that you had felt for joel, sacrificing his time to spend time with you. he could have brushed off the fact that it was your first time in syracuse and spent part of his summer with anyone else and do his typical summer routine with his old friends. he was under no obligation to drive around his hometown with someone that he barely knew but he had chosen to spend that time being with you - which neither of you regretted for a single moment.

after checking your bags and receiving your ticket, it was time to say goodbye. you weren’t sure how long the line would be for security and you were a little hungry and tired so you knew that you didn’t have much time left together. you were sad that it was all over and whatever you and joel had was done. as absurd as it sounds, you actually fell in love with the friend who made your summer in syracuse fun. the tears began to slowly flow and joel wiped them away. he embraced you in a hug and kissed the top of your head. at that moment, the busyness of the airport quieted for you. in that moment, it was just you and joel holding onto to each other for one last time. he reassured you that this wasn’t the end of what you had together. he still wanted to talk to you, see your beautiful smile, he wanted for you to come visit him in philadelphia and of course, he wanted to show his favorite girl (besides his mom) around town; he wanted more of you and the light that you shined into his life. neither of you wanted to let go but you had to separate in order for you to make your flight on time. he squeezed you a little tighter and planted a departing kiss on your mouth. you smiled at him with tears in your eyes. he joked for you to not fall asleep on anyone’s shoulders unless they were his and got a giggle out of you. although, he thought that you wouldn’t hear him say it but he quietly murmured an “i love you” and you repeated those 3 precious words back to him.

this goodbye hurt a lot but you both knew that the leap made to spend your summer together was worth the fall into the deep unknown of your friendship/relationship. you both wished that you could press rewind, start over and relive the time that you spent together during the past 6 weeks. you weren’t sure if or when you were going to see each other again, you still had time before you graduated from school and joel would be busy with the upcoming hockey season. although, the chaos of what’s to come loomed ahead, you both promised to not forget about each other and to at least remain friends and keep in touch. the future was full of uncertainty and you also weren’t sure if joel would patiently wait for you. he could always find another girl to fall in love with and spend his days with. you also could always find someone for yourself, which would be okay, only the future could tell. you hoped that somehow this would all work out, with the two of you finding a way back to each other. regardless, he had made a impact on you that you would treasure moving forward. you were each other’s summer love and the possibility of moving on hurt but the love you had shared wouldn’t go away as the seasons went on.

with one final hug and look into each other’s eyes, it was time to leave. as you walked towards the security checkpoint with tired eyes, you were exhausted, but it wasn’t a dream and it wasn’t a joke. the feelings and things you had experienced with joel were real. you were brought together for a reason and it was no mistake that you sat next to each other on that flight. an opportunity fell into your hands and you both had chosen to not let it slip away. you were both the one that the other had waited all of this time for and that patience had paid off. even if it didn’t end up turning into a full romantic relationship, the friendship and bond that was created between you was worth the time and effort that was put into it. your summer in syracuse was over but you would never forget the memories you made with a certain flyer and the love that you shared with him.

#joel farabee #philadelphia flyers #Joel Farabee imagine #joel farabee fic #joel farabee x reader #hockey fic #hockey imagine #hockey writing #my writing

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Hi Phoenix!! This is Comsic from AO3 🤗💕 First off, I hope things have been okay with you, and the writing process has been going well (I mean, as well as writing can go, anyway 😅) I saw your tweets regarding Ep 6 of HB (not to mention that lovely fanart!!!) and I hope you don’t mind if I share some of my own thoughts, because hoooo boy, is there a lot to unpack.

So. Blitzo has a MASSIVE inferiority complex. I figured as much from the previous episodes, but this really hammered home for me that he has huge issues regarding his sense of self-esteem/self-worth. I definitely think he feels unworthy of Stolas and fears he means nothing to Stolas in the long run/is seen only as a plaything—this was made especially evident this episode by those two silhouettes of him fanning Stolas during the vision sequence: he quite literally faded into the background. And not to mention that he crawled up the stairs, as opposed to walking upright on his own two feet. Don’t get me wrong, I absolutely think that he feels SOMETHING for Stolas (there’s surely a reason that the bit with Stolas is the only one that isn’t visually dark during his vision) but like, yeah… our boys have a LOT of work to do.

Now, this may be an unpopular opinion, but when I first watched the episode, I thought the kiss between Blitzo and Stolas was very… sudden??? I mean, I’m sure they’ve made out a lot offscreen, but I suppose I was caught off-guard by how quickly they shared a kiss together onscreen: I suppose I just wasn’t expecting that to actually happen until some of their personal issues were resolved, i.e. I had it in my head Blitzo had a “no kissing outside the bedroom” rule on account of that being too “intimate”. But the more I thought about it, the more it seemed like maybe it wasn’t so sudden.

Like, I don’t think this was their Big Damn Kiss; it wasn’t really the “focus” of the scene, if you catch my meaning. They seem to be shaping up to be the main couple of the show (will they/won’t they), and I feel that The Kiss between them will have a whole scene/episode building up to that moment, rather than it being almost… downplayed???? That kiss, I think, will come after a couple seasons’ worth of character development ☺️☺️

Not to get Angsty on you, but that whole vision fucked with Blitzo’s psyche, I have no doubt about that, and I think that he’s going to freak out about the fact his feelings for Stolas aren’t as straightforward as he may have been trying to convince himself they were, and he’ll call their relationship off/self-sabotage/do something to Stolas that may or may not be related to THAT scene from the teaser trailer :( I don’t think the photos exposing them are going to bite them in the ass just yet, it’s way too soon, but the fact that Stolas’ image was shown onscreen the longest at the very tail end of the episode suggests he’s going to be the one hit the hardest by whatever punishment awaits.

I’m this was so ridiculously long, but I just have a lot of Thoughts about this episode, and I figured you would understand 😂😂 take care!! 💕

Hi there, Comsic! 🤗💕 On the writing side, I'm in a bit of a transitional phase right now deciding between working on either TUT ch5 or P&B ch4, especially since both of them have such different atmospheres—and I'd just seen ep6 of 'Helluva Boss,' so that's fresh in my mind—and writing styles. Eventually I'll make up my mind but I'm stuck in indecisive limbo right now, ha.

(This is me^ with my two WIPs, and having to decide which one.)

I love your analysis. I totally understand. I'm flattered that you had a lot to say and went to my Ask to unload THE FEELS from ep6. Because I, too, was hit with THE FEELS. (Ah, the pain train especially. I anticipate we're in for a bumpy rollercoaster ride of suffering in the later episodes, but from a writer's perspective, it's necessary because in order to get the deserved Happy Ending, the main characters have to experience character growth and development. The mutual pining is a staple, as well as establishing character flaws and things that'll need to be resolved between them as well as the context of the hurdles they'll have to face, before we get to the well-deserved "actualized" relationship. I fully hope we get something close to what we saw in the Instas as we progress, with the fluffier times between them.) If we don't see "Stepdad Blitzo" in the show canon, I hope for a "Boyfriend Blitzo" with him officially and openly with Stolas in a relationship in a later season, with him shown to somewhat mesh well with Octavia eventually and maybe the two girls getting along too. I want to continue seeing the chemistry between Blitzo and Stolas, even if there needs to be a brief period of separation to get their sh*t together. I'm putting my expectations low, so that if HB exceeds any of it, I can happily lose my mind and scream.

Blitzo's inferiority complex will have to be addressed in canon eventually. Right now, we see it being set up. The kernels should eventually lead to a situation where Blitzo can't take it anymore (possibly leading to an emotional eruption) and there should be an episode that serves as the "healing episode" where he'll need to learn how to deal with it. It's ok if you got angsty on me, haha. Oh gawd, I'm not ready but I wouldn't be surprised if we see Blitzo self-sabotaging himself in the show. Or it could be a moment where Stolas is forced to stop "their arrangement" (leading to an unhappy owl) and Blitzo can have that time to himself to realize that he's being a dumb-dumb. Personal issues take time to be resolved, and I hope the show shows that growth before awarding us (so that it feels EVEN MORE SATISFACTORY).

I'd liked how the Vivziepop crew went for the open-to-interpretation symbolism in ep6. It makes the writer in me salivate. Of course, I see some takes that jumped the shark a bit too much in the speculation imo, but I think most of us saw what the crew was trying to convey. I can see the foreshadowing and the building blocks that the show is trying to set up for future confrontation(s)/ episodes. It will be painful, but what's a little pain and suffering when we get to the promiseland (hopefully; crossing my fingers and knocking on wood)?

Ah, the kiss. Haha, tbh, I get it. On my side of things, I'm rather desensitized to it as a slowburn writer myself who has to write about people kissing and leading up to them doing the horizontal tango. I didn't expect to see a heavy tongue makeout session in ep6, but I could tell the animators—and especially the storyboard artist who'd worked on those frames and tweeted it—really wanted to give the fans some food. I like the hc myself of Blitzo being uncomfortable with kissing outside of their arrangement in bed, with him slowly growing comfortable reciprocating gestures of affection and even initiating a kiss himself once he gets to a certain point. But it's ok. I don't see it as their "Big Damn Kiss" moment personally as well; I took it as a fanservice gift which I appreciated. I hope in a future season and episode though, when they lay their emotions bare, it's an over-the-top dramatic or touching moment where they actually kiss and it's a point of the story where it means something emotionally (like, yes, this is their happy moment, so they deserve this kiss and it's worth celebrating and losing our minds over).

The last few minutes where we see them recorded on footage...hahaha. The conflict has been established. This is indeed gonna come bite them in the ass. It was a nice touch for the crew to have Stolas say about not wanting to get in trouble, and like a self-prophecy, at the end of the episode we see that he will indeed most likely get in trouble (either with the higher-ups or humans, or what have you). It was a nice cliffhanger to establish a future conflict. (Gotta keep us on the edge of our toes and make the story interesting.)

Take care as well! Stay safe and healthy! 💕💕

#spoilers #helluva boss episode 6 #stolitz #helluva boss #anon #ask #phoenix talks #this is coming from the POV of a writer so I'm a little more open to a lot of things the show could throw at us #I see many directions they could go in and hope that whichever ones they choose can deliver that satisfactory feeling #I didn't edit this whole reply it was written in one go so hopefully it makes sense #comsic #or is it cosmic