#and i mean in the religious context.

[dog-girl-zezora]

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#personal #mental illness is scary as it worsens... you knew someone who was somewhat normal once and they spiral into something else #i was there once luckily only as a teen and i managed to find my way out of that with many bumps alomg the way #but ever since ive had an extremely tight grasp of my mental wellbeing #my feelings. my delusions. my issues. #i think seeing this person talk to me again made me recognize that not everyone is so lucky. #its easy to fall to madness #it feels unlike anything else... #ive never had anyone tell me they thkng of me as some kind of holy fool #and i mean in the religious context. #that my battle with religion and my personal relationship with god was sexy or desirable #im not pure. not in the slightest. my thoughts and my heart wish for violence and harm unlike any other #im evil but i work with it. i choose to recognize these feelings within me to understand myseld better. to help myself live #im bipolar and i refuse to be seen or thought of as some uwu pure small bean godly holy fool #i am a fool. i am normal. i am evil. yet i am kind. #i dont know. #kinda wild to me to be told these things. half my ego is really ecstatic about it. and the other half desires to show evil. #anyways i hope my friend gets better... its out of my hands and by god i will witness it

[formicarum-rex]

no middle ground. i know that even if you mostly use it as one way there are probably situations where you'd use it the other way too. what is your knee-jerk instinct?

#inspired by a convo with a friend #i consider fish to always be meat #a dish that has meat could have fish as the only protein #a dish not having meat means there isnt any fish either #(but i know in religious contexts it sometimes isnt considered as meat. ex friday fasts)

[cream-and-tea]

[IDs in alt text]

some judge and calliope stuff i was going to post on valentine’s day but forgot about! anyways me and the girl i pulled by being a wretched beast.

TAGLIST (ask to be +/-). @vellichor-virgo @transmasc-wizard​ @houndmouthed @muddshadow @just-wublrful @corkywantstowrite @shrunkupthejams @andromedaexists @caninemotiff @lungs-and-gills @lychniscitrus @phantomnations @onomatopiya @deer-in-headlights-stare @arctic-oceans @redbloodprose @definitelynotclayface @cannivalisms

#drawing calliope is always SUCH an event because yeah his absolutely religious dedication to a specific aesthetic #is a very funny character trait it also means i’ll think stuff like ‘maybe i can just put her in something simple this time’ and #have to internally kick myself like. no. all white and incredibly elaborate or u are not being true to the character 😭😭 #thank u judge for dressing like a nova scotia fisherman to balance it out lol #if anyone needs added context for these guys it’s (very VERY) basically that calliope is a werewolf. judge is not. judge is..okay with this #calliope is NOT. they’re both side characters in lmd who become #a bigger part of the story as it goes on. they are not normal about each other. #a note for this is a note for lesbian devotion complexes everywhere lol #creme does an art #creme does a writing #god i need a judge and calliope tag #wip: ghost story #tw romance

[tired-fandom-ndn]

I don't usually give a crap about grammar but I DO think it's important to try to show the bare minimum of thoughtfulness and respect when using words from languages that are from marginalized ethnic groups or often appropriated from in your own culture, especially when those words are often misused in harmful ways.

#this is why i am so insistent on fujoshi not being pluralized #because grammar is fake but misuse and appropriation of language is very real #and people want to take a very japanese word and twist its meaning around in a way that is harmful #woth absolutely no understanding of the language or cultural context it comes from #same with seraphim being treated as singular #like i cannot get into the thousands of years of appropriation and butchering of hebrew especially in religious contexts in these tags #but it's fucking bad. and the least we can do is try to correct ourselves and remember that this is a word taken from another language #and has been misused and appropriated in both religious and secular contexts #and that's a form of antisemitism we can learn to recognize and try to fix when we see it or contribute to it

[rockscanfly]

if izzy is the crew’s dick then does him losing a leg count as circumcisi—-*gets shot in the head*

#please do not @ me about circumcision in a religious context I know I KNOW #izzy hands #ofmd crew #crew of the revenge #ofmd s2 #ofmd #our flag means death

[mad-hunts]

[ TRANSCRIPTION: I don't understand I don't understand I don't understand Why did you leave me, Marcy? We were supposed to be together forever. Is it true that you're an angel now? ]

#OF MONSTERS AND MEN: musings. #JOURNALING: a snapshot into barton's mind. #yeah uhhh... this is one of those darker pages in his journal. but not THE darkest #i kinddd of wanted to give you guys limited context as to what this page is about but let me just say it has to do with marcy. so yeah... #barton was REALLY going through it whenever she died NGL #i mean barton has never been a very religious man buttt he honestly liked to think that marcy was in a 'better place' #though that doesn't mean that he didn't want her back... to the point where he would draw her as an angel and... well 🫠 #TELL her he needed her to come back even though logically she would probably never see this page as wherever she may be #it is far away from here. but Barton pretty much almosttt had a psychotic break after she died and that had fueled him to draw some PRETTY- #... interesting thing's to say the least. but ahahhh i know that this one might've been slightly jumpscare-y though i- #hope that y'all still liked it!! #YOUR NEED GREW TEETH: character study. #tw: religious imagery. #tw: slight gore.

[soldier-poet-king]

'have you ever had a normal series of thoughts in your life?'

no. today a friend made a lighthearted remark in jest to lift my spirits and objectively i KNEW that and told them i appreciated it but also then went off on a long tangent about my inability to trust said jest at face value because im incapable of not taking everything both extremely literally and seriously, while also prying apart every single possible angle or connotation of the simplest sentences just in case i miss some significant moral or factual implication.

my kid brother had to ask everyone in the family pre-written survey questions as part of his homework last night which turned into a whole affair because i physically cannot answer with a simple agree/disagree/i dont know to each statement because they don't take into account xyz facts or they don't give enough information about the situation and various implications would change my answer drastically.

in other news, every single survey, diagnostic question, medical intake form, etc. is Literal Hell to me because the questions are not clear and specific enough for me to factor in every possibility and give a truthful answer and i can't just give the answer they want or that im 'supposed' to give because that wouldn't be the true answer! it would be lying! and there's no option to give a full 'well technically......' explanation of my answers!

#the duality of fran #i am no longer asking if i am neurodivergent #APPARENTLY THIS ISNT NORMAL #which like. until i was in my early 20s\ #deadass just thought everyone thought like this #HOW CAN YOU BE BLASE ABOUT THE LACK OF CONTEXT IN DIAGNOSTIC QUESTIONS #u know the post about autism screening and the one about do you have difficulty wearing socks #i personally do not have sock issues. but the overthinking and literal interpretations of said questions #YEAH ME TOO #also u can see why. from a religious perspective. i have ocd and am hyper scrupulous #and why confession is literally just the obsessive mechanism for what if over explanations #and i am physically incapable of seeing it as a method of grace #it is a MENTAL TRAP THAT CAUSES ANXIETY BECAUSE I MIGHT LIE AND I HAVE TO EXPLAIN LITERALLY AND THOROUGHLY #who the fuck can just take things at face value #i mean what i say. i mean everything SO intently all the time. that's WHY i have to explain thoroughly #what if someone took my words at face value without an explanation and therefore misinterpreted them #ABSOLUTELY CANNOT BE ALLOWED TO HAPPEN

[hella1975]

hi hella do you have thoughts on the tiktokification of ethel cain (given her leaving social medias) anyway sorry if you dont i just love the way you think xx

i think a very simplified explanation of what tiktok does to music and why it fundamentally always Grates on me is that people on tiktok cannot just listen to a song. it's no longer enough to enjoy a song or an artist. you're not a 'true fan' if you just simply listen to the music and find any level of enjoyment from it. you have to instead know every single lyric, and every meaning of that lyric, and then when that isn't enough because the masses are now also doing that, you then need to know what the artist's thought process was for the lyrics, where they were when they wrote it, exactly what they mean by it. interpretation is no longer allowed because the 'true fans' correct you with what the artist said in a niche interview from 2019 and 'if you really liked the song you would know that'. it doesnt matter what the song means to YOU because it now needs to be consumed in the Exact Way Tiktok Says It Should Be. and then of course it all becomes narrower and narrower and all the while the fans are TEARING the artists apart in an attempt to be the one individual listening to them most often and most correctly and with the most thorough understanding, and the artist is just. some guy. like literally just a person behind a screen reading every stupid as fuck thing and seeing the same stupid as fuck comments over and over and over again and it's like yeah. that would drive me fucking insane too actually

#there is no correct way of consuming media. like this need to be special and the snobbery it creates is something even ive been guilty of #like i will say ive only ever joked about it (like i made a post a while ago about tiktokers not realising gibson girl #was about drugs and prostitution) but i cant think of a time ive ever been ACTUALLY pissed about it #and that was more me being annoyed the tiktok crowd had got ethel cain anyway like IN GENERAL lol #but people on tiktok are actually IN that mindset. like they truly believe there's a correct way to listen to music #and they WILL police you on it if you dont adhere to that and they NEED it to be memeable so they can feel like they have inside jokes #with the artist despite them being a fucking stranger and it's WEIRD and more than anything it's fucking ANNOYING #and at the end of the day someone who listens to gibson girl bc it hypes them up and they have no idea about the lyric meaning #or its context in the rest of the album or in fact who ethel cain even is #are doing just as much justice to the art as people who listen to every single song religiously and know every single meaning #ultimately music is created to make people feel things. art is created to make people feel things #if you felt something listening to it then great. that is literally the only requirement needed. you dont need the artist's social security #number and worst traumatic experience in order to be considered thee fan of all time #ask

[stedebonnit]

Just saw a post that irked me that started off by saying Aziraphale has never suffered and as someone with religious trauma and who grew up in an emotionally neglectful and chronically invalidating envrionment I want to be the first to say that suffering is not defined by rigid standards and that there's a reason neglect and manipulation are classed as forms of abuse. I didn't finish reading the post because I got really angry seeing it so I apologize if I missed context by choosing not to engage further but I just want to make it abundantly clear that suffering and abuse are not black and white concepts, and just because someone is in a space that tries to paint themselves as good doesn't mean that they are good (I mean, seriously, if you haven't learned that from this show then idk if you've even watched it), and just because someone is unable to see that their situation is abusive does not mean that they aren't suffering (and in fact people saying that reeeeally smell of "if they were abusive why didnt you just leave?" Vibes)

#d speaks #sorry for the rant #that post just really upset me #and seeing replies that were all like 'i hope aziraphale suffers next season so he knows what its like' actually made me feel sick #again i apologize if I was missing context to that post bc i didn't have the spoons to click the readmore #and I read the replies bc i hoped someone was disagreeing but no such luck #but it just really hurts to see ppl undermining emotional neglect/abuse and religious trauma like that #just bc az doesn't have the ability to see it quite as clearly #like are yall forgetting the time heaven tried to burn him in hellfire? #or the constant repetition of 'you will fail and if u question us we'll kick u out'? #oh or what about the time the angels physically assaulted him for standing up for earth? #or the way he EXPLICITLY told gabriel that he was horribly cruel before losing his memory #like just bc az made a choice u understandably dont like doesnt mean u can use it to invalidate his trauma #(and by extension the trauma of ppl who relate to him who have experienced the same shit)

[pacificgasandelectric]

it would just be very very cool. if more ppl would be capable of being anti-israel, anti-genocide, anti-colonization and anti-human-rights-violations, and ofc pro-palestinians without also being anti-jewish about it.

#mine #sarah rivka rachel and leah fucking save me. #i don’t deny that there Are genocide apologists out there ofc & many of them use judaism as their justification #but literally so do christians and so do fundie sects of islam and so do various other religious & non-religious groups bc It Turns Out: #taking & enforcing power by hurting ppl is NOT unique to One Group Who Has All Power Ever. #literally makes me want to start biting to see ppl parroting ‘jews are all rich & powerful & have dual loyalty’ tropes #but it’s ok! bc instead of ‘those filthy jews’ they said ‘those colonizing israelis’ or ‘those genocidal zionists’! #if your rhetoric is indistinguishable from the way that literal nazis veil their rhetoric. maybe. the things you are saying are Bad. #‘oh well zionist just means ppl who support israeli colonization! they’re Bad so it’s ok to wish death & violence & extermination on them!’ #oh so suddenly words are devoid of context & history? sure jan. 🙄

[dolokhoded]

simon peter is the funniest apostle to work with because in theory he's the most loyal, most by-the-book of the apostles so you'd expect him to be the most logical and collected one but 80% of his concerns (pre crucifixion then everything went downhill and they all died) are that he has a crush on every person he encounters

#🧅 #im not religious just insane.jpg #true poly disaster. funniest shit ever. #cause yknow simon p's a fisherman he's married he's a very poster family man #and he loves his wife he really does. im not gonna make the only guy who's married fucking Hate his wife and want to like. go have gay sex #instead cause mlm good mlw bad. but he does have his. Issues. concerning how he views women #he's gonna work on that though i'm not leaving him like that don't worry. peter already knew the torah by heart probably for peter turning #to god meant learning how to respect women. and yknow people he considered 'ungodly' in general. to respect humanity as he respects god. #tee hee i love this arc. i love all of them but i dont ever rlly talk abt this one. #but anyways yes he does love his wife. #then some strange guy shows up while he's fishing and he's like follow me son of jonah i will make you a Fisher Of Men. and peter's like #TEE HEE OKAY JESUS i will come fish men with you. #which......okay....simon....... interesting that u wanted to do that..... with zero context.... #and then cue weird thing with magdalene. which. they don't end up together by Any Means. #they hate each other. they have not spoken in a civil manner once. but they do have a weird bond between them than only aromantic people #can understand. #WHICH BTW i already knew there's a thin line between polyamory and aromanticism. but it really showed when while trying to #explore how peter experiences polyromanticism i found myself projecting a lot of my own aromanticism on him #(is polyromantic a correct term? i'm not sure these terms really confuse me especially considering the time period cause like. polyamorous #describes a relationship with multiple people which peter obviously wasn't in in 30 AD. but he Did have romantic feelings for multiple #people so is that polyromanticism? or is that a completely different term? idk. bare with me.) #very interesting. anyways yeah there's that. magdalene is aro also to me. so yeah this is one of the most fun dymanics i have in this lore #cause like. polyromantic person and aromantic person somehow having the same mutual not platonic not romantic but a secret third thing #connection with each other. i love thinking about them

[gxlden-angels]

Sometimes working through religious trauma is a heartfelt hour talking about reclaiming your bodily autonomy after being sexualized and shamed from a young age with your religious trauma coach and other times it's this text message from your therapist then a caption suggestion to "show my tumblr friends":

#for context my therapist is jewish #and he likes to point how Jesus was too but JC's whole story is only really told from a christian perspective #basically saying I don't have to conform or suffer for someone else's narrative #and y'all already know 'gayboy' is my favorite thing to call Jesus 'gayboy' Christ #so naturally he combined the two #But I had a great conversation about childhood neglect with my religious trauma coach today #And how overcontrolled my body was as a whole #from my hair to my health #everything was a sign of my sin somehow #even when I first got acne I had an intense fear that people would think I was having sex or dirty somehow #because my family constantly pointed out my acne #and my church at the time's girls' group taught us girls that had oral sex had acne around their lips #My medical needs were neglected #my autism was ignored or punished #etc etc #and this conversation was right after the texts from my therapist #I mean literally mins before #my car broke down so uh that's fun #and I had to switch from an in person to virtual appointment with my therapist for tomorrow #and he was like 'uh no this actually a punishment from The Lord. jk lol yeah I'll send you the telehealth link now' #and I was like 'I called Jesus 'gayboy' too many times and now I'm in Hell (my schools' shuttle system 🤢)' #[he graduated from the school i'm currently in undergrad for so hes seen the decline in our shuttle system's quality. #Ive been left for using a walker and told 'glad Im not as bad as you yet' when in a wheelchair] #and that lead to this message as well as the caption he wanted in quotes under it and ^ for tumblr #he calls yall 'my little tumblr friends' #hes so Offline I love this man #I told him tumblr will love it so yall better not make me a liar /j #this was so much information I hope y'all enjoy my lil journal entry for the day <333 #ex christian #religious trauma

[shredsandpatches]

saw a post just now that had these two paragraphs in it (quite far apart; emphasis added)

purity culture is being told to forgive your abuser, rapist, or even just people who have slighted and hurt you or else you will never fully heal, or that it makes you in someway bad too, or even just as bad as them

...

purity culture is doing something bad, and when you try to seek atonement or correct the mistake, that it is unforgivable and will alway be a blight on you, even if others can "learn to look past it"

and the dissonance is kinda making me feel off and wrong, is that also purity culture or what

#idk man #the first one kinda stacks the deck by leading off with rape and abuse #and maybe the implication is that they're not sorry for hurting you #but i don't think op would think you had to forgive them even if they were #but still #idk i was watching a video a while back about a fictional character and the qualities that make him redeemable #despite the text being clear on him having done terrible if non-specified things #and the main argument ended up being 'because he's fictional' #and i just sorta wondered #what does 'redemption' even mean in that context #what does it mean in a secular context #like the religious meaning is specifically one of salvation

[storm-of-feathers]

Something insane is that Young Sheldon decided to retcon Sheldon not being autistic by saying actually he is his mother just refused to accept that and therefore everyone has lived under the impression that he isn't (which also re contextualizes the "I'm not crazy my mother had me tested" running joke which is now even less of a joke)

#also um about young sheldon #its... good?? i hate to say this. but its unironically good. #and it handles specifically subjects like faith and neurodivergency surprisingly well????? #but like ESPECIALLY characters like mary george and connie are handled extremely well #and contextualizes a lot of things that were present in bbt #and. ironically. makes bbt so much fucking worse in its treatment of sheldon #ie how he cant handle people arguing for long periods of time (and thats played as a joke) #but with the context young sheldon provides. holy shit of course he cant. and the fact its played with a laugh track is so much worse now. #ITS FUCKING WEIRD THIS IS NEVER A SHOW I THOUGHT ID LIKE BUT #i mean god maybe its bc i *was* sheldon #i wasnt advanced any years or anything like that but i was the outcast autistic kid living with an extremely religious mother #and the show is surprisingly very nuanced about it. #in its general take that faith and christianity arent bad but the way mary weaponizes it sure is #its so... much. #anyways. i began looking into it bc i saw clips on tiktok and was like huh this looks a lot better than we all thought it would be #and not only is it better. but its SO much better that it makes bbt look WAYYYY fucking worse

[wouriqueen]

Wondering how much the fact that Louis partially consented to enter vampirism fueled his distress about the nature of vampires (am I of the Devil). Obviously this all comes from his religious upbringing as well but knowing he at least partially chose this, as opposed to having forcefully been brought into it, and knowing he did it to be with a man who murdered Lily and Father Matthias, the latter in front of him - how much would this have amplified his upset.

#louis de pointe du lac #iwtv #interview with the vampire #not that reflections about good or bad are limited to the religious context #he could still have wondered about being an inherently bad creature had he not been religious #i mean this would not make sense for an animal but they're not just a different species #they're former humans with all main humanity attributes besides mortality #so they're eating their brethren #as dre said they're serial killers #my posts #iwtv meta #my iwtv

[actuallyyangxiaolong]

Okay so I've seen a lot of non-Arab Americans on here calling Palestinians martyrs in english lately and PLEASE STOP DOING THAT IT DOESN'T MEAN WHAT YOU THINK

Unlike in Christianity, martyr in Islam means more than just dying for religion/a cause. Arabic and the Quran even have 2 words for it! Shaheed (شاحيد), the version that is used to refer to Palestinians, covers a lot of people. To my understanding (I'm not Muslim), it refers to people who get special in honors by God in heaven and are therefore respected in society. Like, it's the most honorable way to die, almost. There are a lot of people in this group is Islam (yes ppl who die for religion but also people who die from plague, childbirth, illnesses like heart disease or organ failure, being crushed, drowning, and basically a bunch of other similar types of deaths). Most natural ways to die seem to be covered by this- other than senseless violence.

So, when calling Palestinians martyrs, arabs and Muslims basically mean that they should be honored. Kind of like, how Christians might say "rest in peace, they're in heaven now", in Islam you can say someone has been martyred. They're shaheed. They'll get an extra nice heaven.

Unless you are literally spouting Hamas propaganda (don't do that. it's a very White thing to do), martyr does NOT mean that they have died to help advance the Palestinian cause. THEY ARE NOT JESUS. They didn't die for Islam or your sins or whatever else Christians think martyr means.

It just means they are going to heaven. Please, Christians (and ex Christians) in the US stop calling Palestine people martyrs it doesn't mean what you think and you are referring to them basically the way Hamas and Israel do- as if they are all trying to advance a cause or Islam or violence

They are just people and it's sad and horrible when they die but they aren't people dying in a jihad battle for religion or freedom they're just dying

Martyr doesn't really work as an English translation of shaheed and I'd say borders on propaganda and misinformation. It also reminds people of jihadists (shaheed people who die in battle for Islam, nowadays largely terrorist groups like ISIS) and flattens all arabs into the terrorist stereotype again. Please stop using it in posts

#palestine #free palestine #i finally put a finger on why the word was making me so uncomfortable #its just so inherently religious in an american context that it doesnt work to describe the situation #and it feels a little racist and orientalist bc ppl on here would NEVER use it for like any other group??? so why here #like ohhh its back to islam and jihad and thinking of all arabs as barbaric religious terrorists #like christians haven't had martyrs in 2000 years so ofc the usage seems ancient. barbaric. savage #but its a different meaning of martyr. more expansive. just a totally diff concept