#i dont know.

[copepods]

true ending

#rain world #five pebbles #looks to the moon #rw saint #art #fish makes art #i dont know.

[therosesfeelright]

decked out voice BDOUBLEO'S MOTHER

#i dont know. #hermitcraft #decked out 2 #ethoslab #bdubbleo100

[canon-gabriel-quotes]

wear headphones :)

Transcript:

As much as I'd love to witness more of your prowess, I'd very much like to have that body of yours.

Is that a strap-on?

Machine, I'll cover you in more than blood.

Fuck. *exhale* Shit. Fuck-God! mmmm-ohohoho. fuck. fuck. h-Harder, Machine. Mph! *whimper* Hah... Come on!

End transcription

Sorry for this. I promise this is the worst thing I'll ever post. Unless he somehow manages to do something worse.

I can't really provide the audio sources in a neat way because this is 6 clips stuck together.

#ultrakill #gabriel ultrakill #gabv1el #WEAR HEADPHONES. PLEASE. PLS. SAVE YOURSELVES. #suggestive #<- if i use a 'stronger' tag than that im 99% sure the post gets shadowbanned from showing up in the tags? #never ask me for anything ever again. #why did he say any of this #i dont know. #surely this will make people unfollow #or will it do the opposite #at this point. i have no idea #animals. all of you. ANIMALS. its ok im one too. we're in hell (together) #i didnt make the gif im sorry all i know is that its from twitter #yeah sorry for the recycled audio. i only have the 2 whimper clips...... so far. #but the actual talking parts are all new #i want to see that angel obliterated. send tweet. #smiles. evilly. #i dont know about you guys but im normal #anyway #if he somehow ever finds out about this blog im krilling all of u............. pls............ #he cant know we are farming clips #(mostly joking) but yeah id prefer if this didnt spread past tumblr pls omg #we are past 700 followers now. idk what to say other than. wow. #ok surely no one is reading to this point. bottom gabe real. canon. true. thanks. #lets never speak of this again

[dadlink]

etude

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main: @pluviatrix

#dadlink #legend of zelda #loz #mj art #webcomic #i dont know. #guess what my fave disney movie was as a kid

[taitavva]

dead mom club

#im being normal about this. #returning to the regularly scheduled program in uhhh #however long itll take me to watch season 4 <3 #+ i have no idea how to draw levi #he's built like an anime twink but. smaller (?) #what does he even look like #I DONT KNOW. #no one look at this im not being normal LMAOOO #i havent drawn in like 10 yrs #persona 5 #p5 #persona 5 royal #p5r #shingeki no kyojin #snk #attack on titan #aot #procreate #2023 #goro akechi #levi ackerman #4 hours #taitavva sketches

[fun-k-boards]

I know I complain about being queer a lot, how I hate it because of how hard it can be sometimes, but I also love being queer. I love not beating myself up about being single or a virgin, I love having a body that's 'strange' for a boy to have, I love being able to switch between feminine and masculine with just the clothes I wear. These are all things I kind of hate sometimes, when I'm insecure, when I'm being told that it's wrong, but when I'm happy, when I feel at peace with my sexuality and gender, that's when I truly adore being queer. About being 'different' 'confusing' 'unlovable'.

The community can be toxic, it can be isolating, but it can also feel like a home. You can find people you just wouldn't be able to find elsewhere. Like-minded people. People who identify the way you do. People who are different from you. People who you can't understand. People who can't understand you.

And in my opinion... That's kind of the beauty of it. Being different is good, we shouldn't force ourselves to believe we're all the same because we're not and that's a good thing. I love being queer. I really do.

#this post probably makes no sense #but. #i dont know. #its strange #lgbtq #lgbtqia #lgbt #lgbtqia+ #lgbtq+ #lgbt+ #queer #trans #transgender #asexual #aromantic #aro #ace #pride

[cynmixandhisfixations]

im so disappointed.

yk, i really loved niji en. luxiem and noctyx especially, before xsoleil came around, was my introduction to vtubers. the first vtuber i really watched i think was petra, but i never followed her.

mysta was the first luxiem boy i watched. that introduced me to vox, then luca and ike, then shu. through vox, i learnt about shoto. soon after, i learnt noctyx had just debuted, and they were having their propnight collab, where i watched sonny's pov. that was what got me hooked. that was the day i started following nijisanji. that's one of, if not the only fandom introduction i can vividly remember.

they didn't save my life or anything, at least i don't think, but i know i would not be here without them. this fandom, along with another that i won't name, was the ones that sparked my confidence to start writing fanfics. that was around the time, too, i started dedicating myself to my original works.

niji en was a fandom i felt genuinely safe in, and that only grew when xsoleil came around. some of my first fandoms were things like undertale, creepypasta, fnaf, mlp, genshin impact, eddsworld, hell, i was part of dreamsmp & mcyt's fandom for the longest time. i'm still into all of the aforementioned fandoms, except for dsmp/mcyt. basically, i've seen some shit. and i don't think i've, ever seen something this bad.

i never thought i'd see a fandom, a community, i love and cherished crash and burn so hard. and so fast.

i think i'm still in denial. i don't think it's really sunk in yet. i could just move on to hololive or vshojo, but it's not going to be the same. it'll never be the same. even if, by some goddamn miracle, nijisanji were to pull through this... it's never going to be the same. i've heard that even the JP side are wondering what the fuck is going on over here.

no matter how you look at it, anycolor is fucked. vox, elira and ike all have permanent stains on their careers, millie and enna probably aren't safe either, and god only knows what niji's gonna do to their other livers. it's gut-wrenching to watch this, and seeing how the fandom is reacting so violently as well...

it stings.

it really does.

#dokibird #nijisanji en #nijisanji #elira pendora #selen tatsuki #vox akuma #ike eveland #anycolor #nijien #long post #millie parfait #enna alouette #i have a lot of thoughts #but i don't think i could properly convey them #maybe i'll post about that later. #i dont know. #but i'm just #really disappointed #happy valentines day ig...?

[uncle-dusknoir]

hold up, do people actually eat Paras mushrooms? i'm not like... a vegan or whatever, but why Paras? I wouldn't be able to quit thinking about some of it's spores getting in... gettin' in my blood or something... eeeugh.

#cw... oh god #i dont know. #pokemon consumption #please tell me how i should tag this #implied body horror #basilblogging

[neolxzr]

aira is the "would you still love me if i was a worm" boyfriend hiiro is the *asks a million follow up questions about this hypothetical scenario* boyfriend and kohaku is the "can we please go back to sleep its 4am" boyfriend

#cryn rambles #kohiiai #airaposting #hiiroposting #guys would you still love me if i was a worm #of course i would love aira if he was a worm. wait howd you turn into a worm #i dont know hirokun im just a worm now #do i know youre the worm? #yes you know i am the worm #can you still talk? #no im a worm worms dont talk stupid #rabuhan i would still love you if you were a worm. now go back to bed #can i turn aira back into a human? #i dont know. #who turned you into a worm? #I DONT KNOW #GUYS GO TO BED

[aspd-thoughts]

I, eh, might have szpd

#I dont know. #I do fit the diagnostic criteria for aspd #But also like. Idk maybe I have both. I need to do more research #life of a cluster b

[frecklystars]

im sorry i gotta vent one more time about this situation and then i'll put a lid on it for the night 😭

dude im still so so so baffled that my abuser, will full awareness that it's easy for me to run into the *thousands* of commissions of herself that she has floating around online, literally changed her fucking color scheme to barbie pink because she knows pink was a trigger for me because of her. that's so malicious. i asked a group of friends who also struggle with cptsd and i was like "hey am i being paranoid, or-" and they were like "no, that was intentional behavior. that is how manipulation works" and it just. hurts. it sucks.

because i know the truth of why she does those tiny, subtle little actions that she knows would hurt me, and i cannot point at them in the public and say "look how this person is intentionally hurting me" because she'd phrase it as "what did i do? i just made a pink OC :) i do nothing wrong." this happened one time when she joined a patreon that i was a part of, that she KNEW i was a part of, specifically because it would fuck me up knowing she was there. and then when the patreon artist confronted her about that she was like ":) i do nothing wrong. im just supporting an artist! what's so bad about that"

it just reeks of venom that somebody that is not in my life anymore would go such lengths. she told me in the very beginning "i'm getting too attached to you. this isn't going to be good for you." and i had no idea what she meant. i know now. she'd tell me some disorders she had that would "make her act this way" and i asked my therapist about those, and she said "well let's assume she's telling the truth and she has these disorders... yeah she's going to be attached to you for a very long time. it's obsessive behavior and it's manipulative and i'm sorry it's probably not going to stop until she's attached to someone else" ... yeah that's horrifying! i remember the days she'd tell me in a creepy voice "i'm getting attached to you... this isn't good for you." and i was like, wtf does that mean...

the fact that i've been out of contact with this person for over one year now, and coming up in one week it's going to mark another year that i am still harassed and in danger by this person. i wish i could go into more detail about all the stuff that i've been dealing with offline but it's just so much and i am just, i am so tired. i am so exhausted of dealing with this person whether it's online or just battling the flashbacks and triggers.

i still feel really. bad. when i see barbie pink now. the fact that she changed her OC to make sure it was specifically that shade of pink because she knew it would trigger me... on a st/rscream commission of all things. my god. ive learned my lesson that i can never ever ever ever look at any TF images whatsoever unless if it's strictly from the source material, because she's just. everywhere. google images. i can never look at TF fanart ever again because she is more than likely to have commissioned these artists more than once. i am never touching the fandom again and i'm fine with that. i won't make any more friends who are into TF and that hurts but in the long run i accept that.

but dude. barbie pink? really? my god. i keep hoping i'm just freshly triggered and i'll move on, but i don't want to be scared of barbie. she's the one who was healing me. i don't want to lose barbie, then i'm going to lose the entire hyperfixation. i can't let this happen to me again. i feel it slipping away from me but i don't know what to do to stop it from happening. this cannot be a tr/nsformers situation all over again dude this canNOT happen to me again, i will not survive this a second time

#vent #maybe i have to draw myself with barbie and use the colors or something #i dont know. #if more ppl were online i'd ask for advice #😭 dude im exhausted

[thetisming]

Veronica has a pretty average sized mouth and kurt and ram claimed they had a sword fight in her mouth, and for that to work theyd need to be pretty small dicks. and post

#heathers #heathers musical #kurt and ram #i dont know. #i might delete this later

[sidekickblr]

I dunno what it is I see a scalpel and I have an anxiety attack lol

#can you tell im not at home rn #ask me why im exploring lower levels of the hero commission government building thing and I'll say #I dont know. #sidekickblr #sidekick posting #sidekickcore

[mewo-cressei]

She amazing my digital till I circus

#tdac #the amazing digital circus #I dont know. #i genuinely dont know

[babeclownart]

#disco elysium #smiling friends #shitpost #DON'T ASK ME WHY #i dont know.

[bisan-is-trying]

They say an important part of recovery is to tell someone you trust about it so they could help you, but what if you don't have someone who you really really trust with such sensitive information? What if you have been struggling for 11 years and still unable to get better no matter how much progress you make because the results are always the same and you can’t bring yourself to burden someone else with such information? What then ?

#i dont know. #but what i know is i have to keep trying #the moment i really give up is the moment i actually die. #recovery #relapse #its gonna be okay. #nov 2023