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aeternallis · 2 days

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Colin's jealousy just hits so well for me this season because unlike Simon and Anthony's jealousy (which mostly comes from male ego and physical lust), Colin's jealousy is born from something much deeper, beyond the surface-level, primitive instinct of seeing he has competition. That's not to say some of that isn't influencing Colin's actions, it most certainly is, but it's not the main force driving his emotions.

His jealousy doesn't come from out of nowhere, yknow?

His jealousy is born from shared history with one of the few genuine relationships in his life that he holds close to his heart, an unconscious, albeit cherished understanding that Penelope is a constant in his life. It's born from the slow, painful realization that he had lost her without even knowing it (further shaking his already flimsy resolve to try and fit into society's standards of being a typical rake), and whilst making a genuine effort to earn her good graces back, unwisely set himself up to lose her again.

Whereas Simon and Anthony's jealousy is superficial (and logically speaking, doesn't make much sense and only speaks to their self-entitlement due to their positions in society), Colin's jealousy is a humbling experience for him, which lends itself to his growth as a character and as a man. It's no wonder he'd described it as "a feeling that is like torture, but something he cannot, will not, does not want to give up."

Can y'all imagine Simon and Anthony having the same sentiment as that without it coming off as OOC? Simon was determined not to continue his family line and Anthony couldn't let go of his pride and obligations, pursuing Edwina until the latter had to set her foot down akjhdjsvbd If they had had any choice in the matter, both of them would have done their utmost to not have to feel anything towards their love interests pre-marriage. (Colin too made an attempt with that second brothel scene, but let's be real, it was half-assed at best)

Colin wants Penelope so much to the point he'd fully embraced even the torture of wanting her. And honestly? That's so damn refreshing to see, considering the typical romantic leads we usually see on television are trying to repress their emotions, not embrace it.

Colin yearns and wants, and he wants unashamedly. He's not jealous of Lord Debling; it's less about Lord Debling himself and the superb qualities he has that makes him an eligible gentleman specifically for Penelope and her circumstances, and more about being threatened by the concept of any other individual having the chance to establish that same emotional connection he has with Pen, and the possibility of that growing into something even more.

For all his kindness, Colin is actually quite possessive of that special connection he has with Penelope, and for a man who's already at odds and ends with his purpose in life and who he is in the grand scheme of the ton, understandably so.

It's why I knew in my gut during my first watch-through of s3 part 1 that although Colin had offered to help Pen find a husband by teaching her how to seduce men, he had never actually set out for it to be a successful endeavor. Lol If anything, it was just an excuse to be able to spend time with her. He had, albeit subconsciously, probably pictured the entire exercise to be something more along the lines of the incident with Lord Basilio, i.e. joking/gossiping w/ Pen about her prospective suitors and how unsuitable they are for her.

It's why Colin's excuses regarding Lord Debling about being a bad marriage prospect for Penelope sound so damn weak, his best reasoning being that he's "too particular."

For Colin, no man was ever going to be good enough for Penelope if it wasn't himself.

#bridgerton #polin #colin bridgerton #penelope featherington #colin x penelope #colin's brand of unhinge is on an entirely new level in terms of bridgerton's history with unhinged male love interests

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romanreignsbae · 3 days

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Stressed out - R.R

SMUT❗️

Warnings💗: daddy kink, unprotected p in v, 69ing, rough sex, multiple orgasms.

Requests are open!

Y/n walked through the doors of her home, in her waste state yet. She had just had the shittiest day at work. She started off the day, without her husbands goodbye kiss because he had to hit the gym early. Which only made her start her day crankier, then she headed to work, and got caught in a massive traffic jam causing her to make it to work barely on time. Then all her patients we’re ordering her back and forth to do tasks for them. Then to top it off her boss told her ‘she needed to learn to do her job more efficiently and act like she’s grateful for it.’ Like jeez, could she catch a break?

“Hey baby!” her husband said while walking into their main hallway. She didn’t even have the energy to respond and walked towards him and fell in his arms. “Damn baby what’s up with you?!” Joe playfully asked Y/n. “Shut up and hold me” she grumbled into his chest. He chuckled at her words and picked her up. She wrapped her legs around his waist as he walked to the kitchen. He sat her down on a island stool and began preparing her a snack.

After a few minutes of Joe shuffling around the kitchen, he came back to his wife and placed what he prepared in front of her. “Thanks” she said lowly and began eating. “So..you gon tell me what’s bothering you?” Joe asked cautiously. The last thing he wanted to do was make her upset. She sighed before she began speaking. “It’s just everything has been getting on my nerves today and I just feel like I woke up on the wrong side of the bed..” she explained. He took notice of the sadness on her face. He hated seeing the most important person in his life upset in any shape or form.

Joe knew that feeling all too well, especially with his busy schedule. “I know babygirl, I know.” he said understandably while stroking her cheek a few times. “But…ya know…you could take some of that frustration out on me..” he said with a smirk coming to his face. She looked up at him and without a word she pulled his shirt and brought him in for a passionate kiss. Their tongue’s both fought for dominance, and Joe let her win, just this once.

She pulled away gasping for air. “Lets..go upstairs.” She took Joe’s hand and led him up to their bedroom. Once they got into their bedroom she pushed him down onto the bed. She crawled on top of him and began slowly undressing him. Joe was growing inpatient but he knew she’d been having a bad day, so he’d let her have her fun…for a little.

Once they were both fully undressed, Y/n moved her body closer and closer to him until she was fully sitting on his face. She then leaned forward and started placing mini kisses on his tip. Joe took some action too and grabbed her hips and started rolling them onto his face. He nibbled at her clit causing her body to jerk and move upwards. He grumbled and kept a tighter grip on her hips. “Lemme eat my pussy in peace” he grumbled with his mouth full. While Joe was devouring her, Y/n moved his cock deeper into her throat and started taking him as far down as she could. His hips jerked upwards causing his tip to hit the back of her throat. She gagged around his cock and removed her mouth.

She then started using both of her hands to get him off. After a few more of his hip thrusts his cum came out altogether and landed on his thighs. She cleaned him up with her tongue and then focused on her own orgasm. Joe started pushing his tongue in and out of her at a fast pace bring her closer to her climax. “Uh yes daddy!” she moaned out. He hummed, causing vibrations to go through her. “I’m gonna-” Y/n got cut off when her body starting shaking in ecstasy. All her stress piled up from the day left her body almost immediately.

She felt Joe continuing to use his tongue to lick up every last bit of her cum. “Mm sensitive!” Y/n squealed out while trying to get off his face. Joe finally let her up and laid her down on the bed beside him. He climbed on top of her and kissed her passionately. The kiss was cut short when she pushed his chest back. “Hey! I thought you said I was in control!” she told him.

“Shhh” he cooed while pressing a finger to her now bruised lips. “Let daddy make you feel good.” He lined himself up with her entrance and began sliding in slowly. He groaned feeling her tightness fit around him perfectly. She sighed out in pleasure and gripped his arms. Once he was all the way in he pulled back out and slammed into her.

She yelled out. “Daddy! Slow down!” she barely managed to get out. He lightly slapped her face. “Didn’t I tell you to shut up?” He began thrusting out of her at a animalistic pace, with her moans coming out in sync. He looked down to see tears on the verge of falling from her eyes. He then finally stopped moving altogether. “Hey, baby you okay?” he asked softly. “No! Why’d you stop?!” she yelled out. He chuckled and spoke lowly. “Don’t say I didn’t warn ya” he slammed into her roughly causing her to scream out.

“Your so tight baby! Fit perfectly around daddy’s cock” he said into her ear. After a few more thrusts he felt her squeezing tightly around him, signalling she was close. “You gonna cum for daddy?” “Yes!” she moaned out. He rubbed down between their bodies and rubbed her clit. She started shaking uncontrollably and after a few more thrusts Joe filled her up.

He collapsed on top of her. She laid there for a second and then pushed him off. He fell onto the bed beside her and looked at her confused. She climbed onto him. “Aren’t you tired yet?!” he asked.

“It’s my turn now” she said with a smirk.

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theodorenmyth · 17 hours

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Regrets.

Pairings : Lorenzo Berkshire x GN! Reader Summary : Lorenzo Berkshire, once confident in his choice to leave you for another, finds himself trapped in a web of regret and longing. Realizing his mistake, he is determined to win you back, even if it means facing the darkness he once embraced. A/n : Enjoy (⁠・⁠∀⁠・⁠) Warnings) : ANGST. mentions of cheating, trust issues, fluffy end tho Word count : 1.2k

The dungeons of Hogwarts had always been cloaked in an eerie silence, broken only by the occasional drip of water from the ancient stone walls. It was a place where secrets festered and shadows whispered, a fitting backdrop for the turmoil brewing within Lorenzo Berkshire.

He had chosen wrong. When he left you for another Slytherin, it felt like the right decision—ambition and cunning were prized in his house, and she had those in spades. Yet, her sharp edges had cut him deeper than he'd anticipated, leaving him yearning for the warmth and understanding he'd once found in you.

As he walked the dimly lit corridor, his footsteps echoing softly, Lorenzo's thoughts were consumed by the memories of your time together. The way your laughter filled the empty spaces in his heart, how your touch grounded him when he felt the world spinning out of control. He had been a fool to let you go.

Reaching the familiar spot near the Potions classroom, he leaned against the cold stone wall, waiting for you. You often passed by here on your way to the library after dinner, a routine he had memorized during your time together. The minutes ticked by slowly, each second a reminder of the agony he'd inflicted on both of you.

Finally, you appeared, your figure illuminated by the flickering torchlight. Your eyes widened in surprise upon seeing him, but the softness he once adored was replaced by a steely resolve. It was a look that cut deeper than any curse.

"Enzo," you said, your voice betraying none of the emotion he hoped to hear. "What do you want?"

He straightened, pushing off the wall and stepping closer, though careful to keep a respectful distance. "I need to talk to you," he began, his voice tinged with desperation. "Please, just hear me out."

You crossed your arms, raising an eyebrow. "Talk, then. But make it quick."

Taking a deep breath, Lorenzo plunged into his apology. "I was an idiot," he said, the words tumbling out in a rush. "I thought I knew what I wanted, but I was wrong. I hurt you, and I regret it more than anything. I miss you, and I'm so sorry."

Your expression remained impassive, though a flicker of something—pain, perhaps—crossed your eyes. "You made your choice, Lorenzo. You can't just come back and expect everything to be okay."

"I know," he replied, his voice breaking slightly. "I know I don't deserve your forgiveness, but I can't keep pretending I don't love you. I made a mistake, and I'll do anything to make it right."

You shook your head, a bitter laugh escaping your lips. "You think an apology can fix this? You broke my heart, Lorenzo. Do you have any idea what that felt like?"

"I do," he whispered, his own heart clenching at the sight of your pain. "Because every day without you feels like torture. I see now how much you meant to me, how much I took you for granted."

Silence fell between you, thick and heavy. Lorenzo could see the internal struggle in your eyes, the battle between lingering affection and the hurt he had caused. He took a tentative step closer, his hand reaching out but stopping short of touching you.

"I don't expect you to take me back," he said softly. "But I need you to know that I'm sorry, and that I still love you. More than anything."

You looked away, your jaw clenched as you fought back tears. When you finally spoke, your voice was a whisper. "I loved you, Lorenzo. So much. But you shattered that trust. How can I believe you won't do it again?"

He swallowed hard, his own eyes stinging. "Because losing you was the worst thing that ever happened to me. I can't promise I won't make mistakes, but I swear I'll spend every day trying to be worthy of you. Please, give me a chance to prove it."

The raw sincerity in his voice broke through your defenses, and a single tear rolled down your cheek. Lorenzo's heart ached to wipe it away, to comfort you like he once had. But he knew he had to wait, to let you decide.

You took a deep breath, meeting his gaze with a vulnerability that took his breath away. "I need time, Lorenzo. Time to think, to heal. You can't just expect everything to go back to the way it was."

"I understand," he said, relief washing over him. It wasn't a yes, but it wasn't a no either. "Take all the time you need. I'll be here, waiting, whenever you're ready."

With a small nod, you turned and walked away, leaving Lorenzo standing in the shadows. He watched you go, hope flickering in his heart for the first time in months. It was a fragile hope, but it was enough to keep him going.

Days turned into weeks, each one a test of Lorenzo's resolve. He threw himself into his studies, determined to show you through actions rather than words that he was serious about changing. He avoided the girl he had left you for, her presence a constant reminder of his folly.

Every chance he got, he left small tokens of his affection for you—a note tucked into your favorite book in the library, a flower left on your desk in the common room. He never pressed, never pushed, respecting your need for space.

─ ⋅ ⋅ ⋅ ──── ♡ ─── ⋅ ⋅ ⋅ ──

One evening, as he was leaving the Great Hall, he spotted you sitting by the lake, the setting sun casting a golden glow around you. Heart pounding, he approached cautiously, unsure if his presence would be welcome.

"Mind if I join you?" he asked softly.

You glanced up, surprise flickering across your face before you nodded. "Sure."

He sat down beside you, the two of you watching the rippling water in silence. It was a comfortable silence, one that spoke of shared memories and unspoken words.

"I've been thinking," you said finally, your voice barely above a whisper. "About us."

Lorenzo's heart skipped a beat. "And?"

"And I still care about you," you admitted, turning to look at him. "But I'm scared, Lorenzo. Scared of getting hurt again."

He reached out, gently taking your hand in his. "I understand. I can't promise I won't ever hurt you, but I can promise I'll never stop trying to be the person you deserve. I love you, more than anything."

You squeezed his hand, a small smile tugging at the corners of your lips. "I love you too, Enz. But this time, we take it slow. We rebuild what we lost."

Relief and joy flooded through him, and he nodded eagerly. "Slow is perfect. As long as I have you by my side, I can wait as long as it takes."

In that moment, under the fading light of the setting sun, the shadows of the past began to lift. Lorenzo knew it would be a long road to earning your full trust again, but he was ready for the journey. With you, he felt whole once more, and he vowed never to let you go again.

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auroras-void · 3 days

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I love Izutsumi dungeon meshi sm.

Like she's a catgirl so obv she was always going to instantly become my favorite character, but also I just relate to her a lot I think. It helps that she looks a lot like me irl but also it's deeper than that, and it's also a little odd because I think I relate her to my past far more than my present.

Like is it weird that this catgirl is actually just straight up replacing my memories of my pre transition self?

I hate past me bc they were a miserable bitch who was kinda a jerk to everyone, but now instead I just imagine past me as Izutsumi instead and I feel so much better about myself.

Like, yea she's immature and rude but it's just because because she's young and a little stupid, and so few people have tried to engage with her on an emotional level with compassion, and tried to understand her personal needs and idiosyncrasies.

And she hides because she's been taught to hide. She got given a name that pleased someone else instead of her, no ones ever really wanted her to be herself.

She lashes out at affection but it's because she doesn't know how to communicate her boundaries or advocate for herself yet, but deep down she still craves it like anyone else, maybe even more than most. She's not trying to be mean, she doesn't actually want to be like that, she's just scared and overwhelmed with the world and doesn't want to admit that she doesn't know how to do anything else.

Plus like, she's just a cat.

You can't honestly stay mad at a cat. They lash out sometimes yeah, they bite you, they scratch you, they hide from you, they built different from you, they got different needs and boundaries, and you'll get bit even more if you don't respect it, but like, they just do that, and you don't even need to understand why to know that they aren't any less worthy of love for being like that. You just do anyways, because just intuitively you already know deep down that all cats deserve love.

Like, honestly it's let me come to terms with my past and be so much gentler with myself for my failures. It softens the scorn I have for myself with all my childhood memories because I don't see that miserable little boy being a jerk anymore, I see this young catgirl who's trying her best but still just struggling with the lack of validation and understanding she's received, who still deserves that love and acceptance not just in spite of her angsty reactions, but *because* of them.

Not to mention how gender affirming it is to have someone else to imagine instead of myself. Like it helps a lot I think, because I get to see my past self for who she was on the inside all along instead of what others decided I was based on how they interpreted what they saw at my surface.

That boy in my memories doesn't exist to me anymore I think, it doesn't benefit me to keep that interpretation of me alive, and Izutsumi is the perfect replacement for him I think. In my mind I'll have always just been a catgirl like I am today.

And all cats deserve love.

#post #personal #dungeon meshi #izutsumi #catgirl #catgirlposting #trans #transfem #vent #adhdtism

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m3r1m4r5u333 · 2 days

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"Look, you hid in a place you knew, where you could feel safe... I understand the motivation."

Buddie fans... Sometimes I just feel tired to navigate this fandom, okay. Feels like it's always;

"Gay Eddie, gay Eddie, gay Eddie.... Oh no! They're now writing him like he really loved Shannon, I don't like this because then he's straight and buddie cannot happen!!"

Yeah umm... And why would Eddie's love for Shannon be any kind of threat to buddie?

Haven't we already worked on this equation before, guys...?

Ahem.

✨Bisexuality does exist!✨

There is no reason why Eddie can't have loved, can't still love them both:

Shannon and Buck.

Sure, might sound odd with how rocky the marriage was but let's remember that we never got to see the beginning of Eddie's and Shannon's romance, the magical era before their naïve, immature highschool sweetheart romance was hit on the head with adulthood problems.

Really, Shannon isn't a threat to buddie. Buck obviously loved Abby, too, and eventually moved on.

The thing is, it was maybe just a bit easier for Buck, to move on, since what Abby didn't do was know Buck for like half his life, have a child with him, suddenly abandon Buck and his child for umm years, then return and beg for forgiveness, then once she was forgiven... reject Buck's proposal and ask for a divorce, and then promptly die in front of Buck. As a nice juicy cherry on top of this already very well baked "bye bye mental health"-cake.

All of this might, you know, kinda traumatise someone and make the grieving process extra hard, and make regaining trust in people and love kinda tricky, and overall, make moving on a fairly slow, complicated uphill battle.

Doesn't mean it's impossible!

And yes I know, obviously Eddie romanticizes Shannon. That's what people who are grieving tend to do!

That doesn't mean he never loved her. Flaws and conflicts can co-exist with love, you know. I mean, I don't know about you guys but everyone I've ever loved has been flawed, and all of my deepest human relationships have sailed through some rocky terrain.

The love has been the most persistent passenger on all of those rides. I think some rocks I've sailed through with people have even made our love deeper. Because sometimes conflicts make the relationships more intense, make you get to know the other person a bit better, conflicts can pull you closer to each other. So yes, even if you happen to get close because you just really need to yell at their face... Well, what you're feeling in that moment is hardly indifference, is it.

And also, with the way Eddie has also been throwing heart-eyes at Buck, for years...? Before Shannon returned and asked for forgiveness, even.

Clinging to this concept of a magical romance with Shannon might just be Eddie's safe place to hide, his avoidance tactic, the way he hides most of his (seemingly) unrequited feelings for Buck from himself, and others.

Maybe Eddie thinks he cannot really love Buck that much... if Shannon is the greatest love of his life. To Eddie it might feel like it's just not safe to love Buck because loving Buck would likely just lead to more pain.

So that may be one reason why Eddie has been clinging to this idea of a perfect, magical romance with Shannon, one reason why we're hearing all this

"Shannon, oh Shannon, you are the love of my life, the only person I've ever loved."

Maybe it's because to Eddie, that must be true. It's how he protects himself from pain.

And it's also how he cherishes the memory of her. Because confronting her humanity, the reality of how troubled their relationship was... might mean letting go of her, and moving on from her, and that's hard because Eddie loved her, and he doesn't really want to confront the truth.

And the truth is that the fairytale is over, that she was in fact very much a human, just a person, just another mortal like the rest of us... Flawed.

And that means that she wasn't untouchable, that death really took her and she's truly gone.

#ryan guzman #eddie díaz #bi eddie diaz #eddie diaz #buddie #evan buckley #911 buddie #911 abc #buddie 911 #evan buck buckley #911 on abc #tv: 911 #shannon diaz #i did not make these gifs btw

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deerlottie · 2 days

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can you pls write something about lucy & a transmasc reader? maybe like hc about how they grew up together, were friends, had crushes on each other, lucy supporting reader when they came out, then finally them dating. Lots of fluff maybe some suggestive stuff as well 👀

warnings: FLUFFFFFFFF, tmasc!reader, some NSFW themes

she was the first person you saw when you came out of the cryochamber

she helped you look for your parents before going back to find her dad and brother. needless to say, you were immediately smitten by her. and lucky you because your dads were friends, so you spent a LOT of time together.

thinking about having sleepovers with her in her family's vault as a kid :( staying up late and eating jello cake until you puked. she'd beg you to let her do ur makeup, and you didn't wanna say no and upset her, so ofc you agreed despite this sick feeling in your stomach that hated the thought of putting it on.

she didn't understand why you started crying when she showed you the final result in the mirror - she thought you looked pretty!

you def came out to her pretty young too. maybe around 11/12. which is also the time when your feelings for her started. you'd feel giddy walking to history class with her, feeling your heart thump whenever she'd smile at you. it was just a whirlwind of emotions that entire year. you felt like you couldn't tell your parents about your new gender identity so you kept it bottled inside. but lucy being your best friend knew something was up and cornered you maybe a little too harshly to ask what was going on. you felt like you were going to burst out with embarrassed tears with how demanding she was being, but you know she was just worried about you. you eventually blurted it out, red faced and all, and you were shocked by her casual response.

"so like....if we get married, you wanna be the husband?"

you felt like you could faint right then and there. you've never been more endeared. she didn't quite understand what being trans meant at the time, and neither did you, but she knew that nothing would change between you two.

she'd immediately think of new names to call you if your deadname was too feminine :( calling you nicknames and something inside of her fluttered at how red you'd get when she'd innocently write your guys' names in hearts.

OKAY. on how you guys got together...i genuinely think it'd kinda just happen? like she already assumes you're dating with how affectionate you guys are with each other, and you dont question her cheek kisses as she walks you back to your vault until she Really kisses you one day. she's awkwardly shuffling on her feet, swinging your arms togethers as she waits for you to make the first move. she gets a little impatient and REALLY wants to kiss you, so she tugs you in for a messy kiss and OHH!! she'd make so many happy noises as you kiss her back :(( you're kind of left in shock as she waves goodbye and legit skips back to her room 😭

it's never really spoken of again 🤷‍♂️ you just accepted that you're dating her now and you couldn't be happier

fast forward a couple years, you're both young adults, and you finally start T!!! lucy would be so VERY excited to watch you do your first shot :3 and if ur scared to do it, she'll do it for you with zero hesitation. she'll bribe you with a little makeout session if you stop whining and procrastinating her doing the shot too

i think she'd keep a little notebook of ur progress ;( jotting down everything. from the way your morning voice seems to get deeper, and to every tiny baby hair you get on your chin. speaking of voice, i think she'd have a HUGE thing for how deep it gets :P begging you to keep talking just so she can hear your rasp, and maybeeee she's rubbing her thighs together while you speak :(

also very excited to monitor your bottom growth 👀

dates with her would go crazy Just saying. i've spoken about this before in my other lucy headcanons, but she's suchhhh a sap and hopeless romantic :( little picnics with her and she plans them out weeks in advance. heart shaped sandwiches with your initials written in mustard or ketchup <3

brain going empty but lucy maclean i love you. i just know she'd be the most supportive of you coming out as transmasc and doing everything in her power to make you feel safe and comfortable and loved >______<

#.myworks #lucy maclean thoughts 💭#lucy maclean x reader

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iturbide · 2 years

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I think theres been a misunderstanding ,I dont disagree with that as edelgards goal,im saying conquest is her ultimate goal specifically because she wants to enact her own changes across all fodlan.

She does not want to stop at adrestia , she wants it done across the whole continent and she believes it must be her making those reforms. Even if Dimitri and Claude want similar changes (and we actually see Dimitri making reforms) she still believes it needs to be *her* at the head. And that means conquering the Kingdom and Alliance to return the "superior" Adrestian Empire back to its former glory with *her* holding the reigns.

that's why she will not stop even if Rhea is dead , even if the central church is gone, and even if she already made her reforms in Adrestia and has control over the southern church . its the " raze it all to the ground and rebuild it from the ashes" mentality.

Oh and Im glad you mentioned the branches of the church because she... doesn't actually care about them.

On claudes route she tells claude that as long as his people don't follow the central church she does not care who they follow , so they're free to follow the eastern church over her own southern church.

The branches appear to be largely Independent from the central church. Thats why the western church is able to get away with xenophobia and their multiple attempts to kill Rhea. That's also why edelgard is able to revive the Southern church and control it herself with no interference from Rhea.

Edelgards reforms are in regards to the nobility and system of inheriting titles, not necessarily the faith itself. Thats why she focuses solely on the central church while largely ignoring the other churches. as you said, it's because she believes the "monstrous beast" that leads the central church is the reason for everything she condemns (fodlan being divided , the system of nobility and inheritance, the obsession with crests, etc.)

Tldr: im not disagreeing with you. My point was that all conquerors make similar justifications for their wars. even if they believe their cause is righteous, the end result is the same.

I still feel like you're unfairly boiling down Edelgard to a 2-dimensional figure, though. As I said, I can't comment on Three Hopes, and I don't personally consider it canon, so I am not speaking in regards to anything from that game -- but in Three Houses, it's not just rote imperialism that drives her.

It's true that she believes that she needs to be at the head of change -- but this, in Three Houses, stems from the fact that by her own admission, she believes that Claude and Dimitri are on Rhea's side. She says as much after her class escapes from Garreg Mach after the attack on the Holy Tomb:

The Church of Seiros has great influence and power. Their control over the lords of the Kingdom and the Alliance is nearly absolute.

Again, she is wrong about this. This is not an accurate assessment of the situation -- in truth, several noble heirs from the Kingdom have every reason to hate either the Crest System or the Church itself (including Ashe and Sylvain), while there are prominent nobles in the Alliance who basically pay lip service to the Church because they feel it's expected of their station, including Lorenz:

The truth is, I am not a particularly devoted believer either. But it would be unbecoming for a noble like me to neglect his prayers, wouldn't it?

But Edelgard lives in a situation where trust is dangerous. She doesn't remember her time in Faerghus as a child, and therefore doesn't remember Dimitri; all she has to go off of are the close historic ties between the Kingdom and the Church (a belief undoubtedly strengthened by Dimitri taking Rhea in after the fall of the monastery in Crimson Flower). And Claude is widely regarded as an untrustworthy schemer, not just by Edelgard but by Garreg Mach at large, so there's nothing he could say to win her over.

So no, Edelgard does feel like she has to be the one heading change -- because she can't open up enough to trust anyone else to do it. Again, this does not make her a bad character. This is part of what makes her as a character interesting and compelling. Again, I don't think it's fair to boil Edelgard's character down to Lady Walhart, which is what it feels like you're doing in these messages. She's not: she set out to do this because she saw a legitimate problem, and unfortunately her solution involves brute forcing a solution.

#answered #anonymous #fire emblem: three houses #edelcourse #again: thank you norbah for all of the edelgard discussion #you are my resident edelgard expert #and i feel that my understanding of her is deeper because of it #i don't condone the imperialism #but i also feel it's unfair to say her acts are just a power grab #when she makes legitimate criticisms #and tries to enact a solution in her lifetime

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quantumshade · 7 months

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can you elaborate on gender with the twelfth doctor... im spinning she/her pronouns for twelve around in my head so much it gives me life. even if you dont feel like/dont have any further elaboration i want to thank you for introducing me to that concept

because she's a girl...? i don't understand the question she's just a girl

#i am being facetious; thank you very much for the kind ask!#real answer is that pronouns can be kind of an aesthetic choice #like a new outfit or haircut #and it's a choice i could see the doctor making #i think the doctor is always sort of apathetic about gender regardless of the body they're in #and will go by whatever pronouns people perceive them by because it saves time #and why waste time explaining their gender when they could be talking about the planets .#so calling themself a 'man' or a 'woman' is for the sake of not confusing their human companions who care more about that sort of thing #than they do rather than actually seeing themself that way #and i can also see them feeling a sort of joy if friends were to refer to them with pronouns that don't match their perceived gender #because it shows a deeper understanding of who they are #again i think this regardless of body; i think ten would happily respond to she/her pronouns or thirteen with he/him etc etc #but twelve sticks out to me so much a.) because she's my favorite #and b.) because i think she cares the least about what other people think of her #doctor who #delia.txt

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hooved · 1 year

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lwaxodo but yuri

#lwaxodo but an AU where my None Gender Left Girl odo headcanon is real and lwaxana may not be able to read his mind or anything #but still picks up on it because uhh i'm making it part of this AU now that deanna is trans. so lwaxana sees some familiar Signs #and she helps odo realize it #i mean she was like the first person to really love and understand and accept odo for who he is #i think she understands a little bit more than he's able to y'know. even without the use of telepathy #anyway imagine if they had more than 3 episodes together and lwaxana comes back with a gift for odo #as thanks for helping her get out of her last marriage and keep her baby. which he says is unnecessary but she insists #and it's this beautiful shimmering gold dress. she knows he doesn't need clothes because he can just shapeshift them #but she says it made her think of him. the real him. gold and sparkling and beautiful #and he's so touched by it. he's never thought of himself as beautiful in any form but he has no doubt that she sincerely means it #ough. anyway. i got carried away with these tags #they're cute. i love their friendship and i wish we got to see more of it #they're so cute as a couple too tho i know lwaxana accepted that odo doesn't feel that way about her #they're still very important to each other. like it may not be romance but it's deeper than friendship. i love them. we deserved more

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girlcrushau · 2 months

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#me? about to use tumblr as a diary again? in 2024? unfortunately:/#but here have a waterfall i saw on a hike last week as payment #i am sO tired and exhausted emotionally after dating #there's this guy that i fr thought was going to last and be around for a long time. we spent like every moment together that we could for 2 #months straight and if we werent physicaly together we were texting or calling or on ft . just every part of our day had the other in it #not once did i ever feel unwanted undesired or uncared for. not once did i feel that i wasnt sure of his intentions. i felt safer with him #in those 2 months than i ever did with any one else i could think to compare to.#until one day he just didnt think it important to communicate any more. after 3 days of nearly nothing .. hardly any talking . i asked if #he was ok if we were ok. what was going on in his head. he said some ive just been with my buddies and family and havent been on my phone #and just. immediately thats heartbreak yanno. thats :// thats what they say when theres a new girl. but there'd never been a reason to think #there was another girl so i was like ok we're gonna trust bc this dude has been So good in every way. so i said imy but i understand. enjoy #your time with your buddies and with your fam -- i cant wait to hear about it (and hold you)#and i havent heard from him in the 3 weeks since. just randomly #so last night #i send the dreaded 'i miss you' text.#i dont expect to hear back and i accept the hurt that will come with that and the confusion that i've felt settles deeper into my heart #until this afternoon i hop on ig and see a hard launch that was posted an hour after my text was sent #that shit kinda hurt different. but also sent me into a bit of a delirious state where all i could do is laugh bc are you for fucking real #did she see my message? i know it. bc i know him and i know that he wouldnt hide anything from the person he's giving his heart #and his softness to. i can almost imagine how he showed her and promised her theres nothing to worry about #and there really isnt anything to worry about because he genuinely is the type to give his all to the relationship he's in #which feels silly to say after what happened w us. like no there wasnt a title ever #it sucks to call it a situationship because a month ago we were laughing in bed together about how we could never bc we were all in.#just the timing of the hard launch makes me giggle. did my text push them to have a conversation about what they are. was she really the #reason that he went away on me.#im trying not to blame myself . trying not to think about the phone calls i didnt answer. about what i could have done differently. trying #not to think about where we would be if i didnt let my anxieties hold me back. if i wasnt scared about what he'd think of the parts of me #that i keep hidden just a little bit longer than the rest.#and at the same time im trying not to put him on a pedestal. but that pedestal is just where i wholeheartedly believe he belongs #he set the bar for me. he set the standard. i was never too much. i was never too little. he made me feel perfect just as i am

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sylver-drawer · 3 months

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Tfw you make a whole new love interest for Athy because you dislike both of the canon ones

#both of them have similar flaws at different levels #no hobbies #no interests #no meaningful relationships nor the desire for any outside of her #they care but only at surface level and don’t care at a deeper empathetic level #like hey I like you but I actually don’t think I know what I like about you #and my care for you is explicitly more like I care for your attention #and I don’t really care about what you love #I only care about what you love if it affects you because if something happens to you your attention is also gone #I also don’t actually know that much about you #even though they’ve both spent different amounts of time with her #they don’t actually know nor understand Athy emotionally nor has Athy actually opened up about a lot of things #like the closest she’s opened up in her whole third life was to Jennette and that’s depressing #Ijekiel has seen a lot of her lonely and sad side but doesn’t know her internally or at a deeper level #Lucas has spent the most time with her but doesn’t understand her feelings completely at all nor does he understand her reasons and drive #nor does he really care about them as long as she’s alive #which applies to them both #also both would kinda suck politically and foreign affairs-wise speaking #Lucas would suck at foreign affairs because I physically cannot see him understanding or caring enough about others #he can fake kindness but he can’t fake understanding #and understanding is key for foreign affairs #Ijekiel would be better and his foreign Arlanta knowledge would help #but also #his social skills aren’t that much better than Lucas’#there are too many cons for both of them that could outweigh the pros #and plus the pros Athy can easily access as friends anyway #I am a strong advocate for single Empress Athy or marrying a completely different and qualified person she meets in adulthood #like what happened to the flowery boy and lone wolf or literally any other noble in Obelia that’s around her age #or even foreign nobles #syl tea

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many-gay-magpies · 1 year

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the thing that always messes with me about villains whose entire motivation is "i wanna rule the universe and become a god" is that im just left wondering why? like if a character becomes a villain because theyve been hurt and want revenge or something i can get that but why would you even want to rule the world. whats the motivation behind that. it seems like it would be really stressful

#magpie thoughts #this is partially something im realizing about morando in 3below #most of the toa villains before him had been really 3D and interesting; like gunmar was pretty single-minded but #i always took that as him being the LITERAL PERSONIFICATION OF THE CORRUPTION THAT THE SURFACE WARS WROUGHT #and then bular just wants to be with his dad and angor has been manipulated for literal centuries #even colonel kubritz is kind of understandable with her whole wanting to protect earth from invaders shtick even if its like. aggressively #-prejudice and xenophobic. but then again thats like half of actual earth officials so thats not to unrealistic #BUT THEN you have morando. i feel like he wouldve been more interesting if his motives had more to do with him feeling injustice because of #-fialkov and coranda's shit ruling. and at first it kinda seems like thats the case! but no hes just a power hungry dick taking advantage of #the royals' shit ruling to get allies because he wants to rule the universe. like WHY #and then i kinda feel like the toa villains from there on out just get kinda. worse?#mainly the arcane order honestly #because their entire thing is hating humanity and wanting to remake the world or whatever #which is cool in THEORY but it never goes any deeper than that. WHY do you hate humanity what did they do to you. idk man #ANYWAYS #concluding my rant lol #toa #tales of arcadia

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wyrmswears · 2 years

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no one else was making content for this series so fuck it, i get to decide canon now

#'why is wolf island in bigger text than the others' would you believe me if i said i wrote classic british tv show wolfblood on accident #friends please look away from my silly werewolf blorbo #demonata #grubbs grady #the demonata #GREAT OK SO I HAVE A LOT TO SAY #i reread the beginning of lord loss semi recently and it gave me feelings as well as a deeper understanding of the circumstances tm #like?i knew WHY they died. but i didnt realise that gret was aware of it.#seeing her being genuinely terrified of it??? wow ouch my feelings #also grubbs being scared enough about losing his family to not even entertain the idea #i also seemed to have misremembered? like i thought grubbs just came home from school to see It but instead they sent him to a relatives in #order to try and keep him safe as possible #i think in timeline 2 electric boogaloo that grubbs doesnt smoke because even though there isnt That going on. it still reminds him of it #speaking of timeline 2! i have feelings about it. namely shit like imagine finding out that your younger brother is actually immortal and #all powerful and this is his second time experiencing life and also #hes a werewolf #tbh the werewolf part is probably the least shocking #anyway also grubbs is trans and since there isnt a fandom for this no one can disagree with me #i hate that hes canonically tall as fuck and buff but its ok we persevere #wyrm draws

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psychedelic-ink · 1 year

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I'm so conflicted because, on one hand, I want to see my therapist and just talk without having the feeling that I need to shut up and not talk about what I'm feeling

On the other hand, it's so expensive and I feel like seeing her isn't really helping me anymore

#tw mental health #sil bitches to the void #for the last sessions the biggest advice I got was : go and join some activities and workshops #which i cant because one its expensive #and two the core of my issues isn't that I'm not going out #i go out all the time #albeit its by myself but still its not like i locked myself in my room #i just feel like its something deeper and the fact that i talked about my small anxiety attack and she didn't really add anything to that #it just rubbed me the wrong way #but also ive been going to her for years and it did help #i dont understand why its not helping anymore

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myteastainedpages · 1 year

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what else was intimacy if not the memorisation of her thoughts, her dreams, her fears?

the atlas paradox - olivie blake

#i just liked this line #because on the one hand yes that is a pretty accurate conclusion to draw of what intimacy is #but it also sounds so robotic and systematic #memorisation sure but what about understanding? exchange? your own feelings?#like yes there is intimacy in knowing someone’s thoughts and dreams and fears that well of course there is that’s a big thing #but it works the opposite way too and he doesn’t seem to be worrying about her knowing him too well #and again it’s the word memorisation there’s just something about it that feels too… logical? strategic? i can’t think of the word #sorry i feel like the way i’m going on about this makes me look like i think it’s deeper than it is i’m just having fun #with my silly little thoughts #bookblr #the atlas paradox #the atlas six #the atlas series #olivie blake #to be alone with queue

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larrythefloridaman · 2 years

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You know :)

nccts is funny. anyway cyberbullying prism is a way of life and i am committed to it i am putting her in a shoebox with no airholes and floating it down the Alafia River to be carried to and sink to the bottom of Tampa Bay where she will be torn asunder by the sharks

#considered marking 'i like them enough to project my own issues onto them' but thats not quite accurate #the nccts have made prism's character into a frighteningly real depiction of an abusive parent that reminds me of my own experiences #and so theres stuff that feels almost instinctively true about her and her relationship with the cods that isnt #bc im seeing my family in it and probably projecting a little because of the parallels im seeing #so i guess it's more 'wow... they are LITERALLY my dad' (derogatory)#i hate her very much (she is an extremely effective antagonist)#she's metatextually interesting bc 'narrator thats a character aware that its a story and has godlike power over it' is not a New concept #but shes a very interesting take on it because shes proper introduced several seasons in #and shes grounded in the world she exists in because her actions have consequences in it on people who are just as real/fake as she is #so its easy to fully invest in the idea that this world is meaningful even if it isnt real unlike some other metafiction thats so consumed #by pretentious metatextuality that it becomes kind of hard to care if thats not the point because it undermines itself and your investment #but cpuk comes with 1) so much investment from seasons of fun and goofy storytelling beforehand #and 2) a thin 4th wall to begin with #so its neither surprising nor undermines its world that the emissary of the highest god of its reality is Literally A Narrator #that polices and alters the narrative to her whim with the goal of driving it toward a meaningful and satisfying conclusion #whether the characters would Really be ultimately happy with their predetermined trajectories as chosen by her or not #because she wont doesn't and doesn't know How to understand them deeply enough to really know what they Need #just what they want on a surface level. without really understanding why they want it. because she can't really imagine something deeper.#which leads her to an often flawed idea of what their 'happy ending' would be especially when she doesn't want to face an ending at all #and thats not even getting into how she's come to view her wards the ciblings like sacrificial lambs on the altar of meaning #someone has to keep things in line. someone has to be a tragedy. someone has to be the villain.#even if it means shaping the lives of the fellow immortals in her care for the worse so that they ultimately hurt themselves and others #girl i think you gave your youngest son a paranoid complex that if someones too Nice tm to him theyre lying and only cruelty is honest #and on top of that your daughter has literally disowned you and her godhood about how you make her feel #your only kid who trusted your opinion on Anything came to you for advice on connecting with people and you gave him an identity crisis #i cant say i dont understand why prism's like this. and i empathize with the problem. but i am still hissing and killing and biting also #*because she can't really imagine a state of content #she can imagine people having depth she just. cant imagine a state of contentment with the self and ones own life #so how's she supposed to really help other people to reach that point

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