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stellas-and-tonitruses · 4 months

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⚠ SPOILERS FOR CHAPTER 93 AHEAD! ⚠

now that we have finally met demetrius, it seems like a great time to dissect his first scene and proper conversation! :]

his wide, unfocused stare hides ✨unexpected complexity✨, as expected of a desmond

he's impatient (common desmond trait at this point)

he's nonchalantly exceptional, as we expected and have been repeatedly told thus far

...but most importantly, amidst a sea of accomplishments, he is burdened with a lack of people skills and visibly frustrated by it, as evidenced by his conversation with damian in this chapter.

the analysis and speculation continues under the cut!!

so, a breakdown of the main meat of his introduction

similarly to every single time there's an interaction between damian and another desmond, damian is the one who reaches out first by calling out to demetrius, who immediately asks him what he wants. damian tries to begin with small talk, congratulating him on his accomplishments of the day

demetrius is brief and to the point, but it doesn't feel to me like he is annoyed here. perhaps curious, perhaps indifferent, we don't know -- demetrius is a boy of few explanatory thoughts, after all

merely in the next page, demetrius is revealed to have a blank mind for most of this conversation.

i don't believe this is a sign that demetrius was experimented on or anything. obviously, this does not rule out that he has been experimented on, but i don't think his lack of thoughts are indicative of that, nor do i believe anya was too far away (in previous chapters, she has read the thoughts of people at greater distances than this with ease!). i think this has something to do with his upbringing, but also very importantly his state of mind at the moment

his eyes are wide open, but his stare is unfocused. i think this is an intentional choice to hammer in that he's not really here at this moment, listening to what is undoubtedly to him pointless praise. he has likely tuned all of it out completely.

(as a side note, if we wanna involve anya in this situation more, we could assume that he is intentionally cloaking his thoughts from anya or any other potential mind-readers, but while i do think donovan is very likely involved in project apple, i severely doubt the financial benefactors of project apple would spend likely a lot of money to figure out a way to shield the thoughts of a middle schooler, regardless of who his dad is, from potential telepaths. as far as we know, anya is the only one with this specific power and demetrius is unlikely to have any information that would incriminate the operation. if that was an issue, i don't see why they wouldn't spend their money to protect melinda's mind, since she likely has way more info than demetrius ever could.)

moving on from that side note though,

we do not see demetrius' face as he says this! this is important to me

we are left unaware to whether or not he is disappointed or just trying to abscond to take a nap (he really needs one)

but then, he says this:

this, to me, is a direct attempt at connecting!! he's trying to reciprocate the small talk, the praise, trying to continue the conversation. his thought, "i don't understand him," may feel contradictory but to me, it only underlines his frustration about this, because he knows what damian is going to say next:

even though it was expected, this is not what demetrius was hoping to get out of this. his downturned eyebrows give a feeling of discontent. he is not blank, he is visibly frustrated, visibly annoyed.

and we are thus made aware of a boundary demetrius and melinda both share:

never mention donovan.

for one reason or another, this is the boundary damian has overstepped with both his mother AND his brother now, without ever being informed that it IS a boundary in the first place

so demetrius, upset, turns around to leave and throws this at damian:

this is important, because damian has shared a very similar sentiment to anya before, albeit in a mournful tone.

demetrius likely feels similarly neglected by his parents, but is long past feeling sad about it. he has moved straight to anger, understandably!

but the bigger reason for his frustration, imo, relates to a problem damian once again ALSO has: people treating them as a gateway to their father and nothing more.

demetrius has more than likely also been treated like this, and probably still is unless his peers have learned not to engage because of his brief, snippy responses, so he is familiar with the feeling of being used.

...and damian unknowingly treated him the exact same way, even though he's also grown to hate it.

of course, he's 6 years old and he meant no harm by this -- he's just a lonely boy trying to be noticed by his neglectful parents, after all, what else could he possibly do?

but for demetrius, this is the end of the conversation. he is not his father's manager, he's not even that close to him, so why does his brother only ever talk to him when it relates to their father?

as he said before: he doesn't understand him, and why he keeps doing this. does he not know there is little info to be gained?

he doesn't understand their father either, with his impossibly high expectations, never pleased, never happy, never available

and lastly, as ewen and emile try to introduce themselves

demetrius has one final thought.

and he casts aside this entire conversation, leaving the scene as empty as he entered it.

of course, the chapter doesn't end here, but this is where demetrius' involvement in it does, leaving us with a newfound understanding that while to damian, demetrius represents everything he can only strive to become... to demetrius? his accomplishments ring hollow in the face of everything he wishes he could understand.

we do get an extra flashback that hearkens back to a better yesterday, but while donovan is lacking some very important details (those scars, that dead disinterest that follows his every move -- he seems mirthful somehow here), we don't know if this scene represents a time when they were closer or if it's simply evidence that as far back as everyone can remember, demetrius has been doing nothing but studying all the time

could this be evidence of something nefarious relating to project apple? eh, not particularly, not to me. the boy's just studying hard, any relation to project apple would have to be more recent in the timeline imo

TL;DR:

demetrius has been built up throughout the past 92 chapters as a figure larger-than-life, and this has been thanks to most of our knowledge of him being directly affected by damian's perception of him, as the younger brother living under his shadow

however, he has now been humanized by his flaws: a short temper and a lack of social skills that comes paired with a clear want to connect, to understand, to converse. he seems to be a very lonely kid, everyone around him either jealous, putting him on a pedestal or actively seeking to use him under the false impression that he has important connections, and although he doesn't mean to, damian has unknowingly been treating demetrius in the same way, only seeking him out when he wants to know something about donovan.

interestingly, him and melinda share the same trigger, that being donovan himself, though we do not yet know if their reason for this is also shared.

CLOSING THOUGHTSSS

it has been so exciting finally meeting this little goober-- i thought i might never see the day 😭😭😭

thank you to whoever read this far, i literally made this blog just now so! HOPE I DID WELL!

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#spy x family #sxf #demetrius desmond #damian desmond #donovan desmond #manga spoilers #spy x family manga spoilers #sxf spoilers #ch 93 #chapter 93 #sxf ch 93 #sxf chapter 93 #spy x family ch 93 #spy x family chapter 93 #spy x family 93 #trying to cover all possible spoiler tags for anyone who has them blocked sorry #sxf theory

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yumeka-sxf · 4 months

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Becky's homewrecking is one of my most favorite stand-alone chapters...and the anime version did not disappoint!

Everyone's reactions to Becky's hilarious delusions are just so perfect - Loid being baffled and totally clueless, Yor being flustered and completely misinterpreting things, while Anya just observes it all with quiet amusement.

Plus the scenes of Anya imagining Becky as her mom, and even the short sequence of showing Becky her house - gah, everything about this chapter/episode is peak SxF comedy~

Becky completely ignoring Bond...poor pup 😂

If Loid thinks he doesn't understand children based on Anya, Becky certainly did not help! (also Bond in the corner still feeling rejected)

Yor's "encounter" with the car worked much better in the anime 🤣

I honestly feel really bad for the driver!

Also this poor guy, lol. Though I'm sure the money Becky gave him was more than enough to cover repairs on the machine 🤣

I know some people found this chapter uncomfortable, but I don't get why. If Loid reciprocated Becky's feelings, then yes, that would be bad, but he doesn't. He reacts how anyone would if some delusional little kid decided they had a crush on you - by being confused (and hoping that your wife doesn't interpret it wrong!)

It's not unusual for little kids, especially little girls, to develop silly, fleeting infatuations with adults (I'm guilty of that myself when I was Becky's age, lol).

Anya's willingness (at first) to go along with Becky's delusions was fitting - she idolizes Becky's lavish lifestyle, especially the food (and since Yor's food is, well...) Plus someone at her impressionable young age can be swayed easily. But I'm sure if somehow this delusion became a reality, she'd realize that Yor is the best Mama and Becky should just be "best friend" 😅

This chapter also confirms that Yor didn't completely forget everything that happened after the bar incident. Or at least she remembered it more clearly after Loid supposedly had the conversation with her again, lol. Just shows how important his compliments are to her.

I love how the episode's key visual is a throwback to the one from episode 6! I hope we get to see more Yor/Becky interactions again.

We also got a short anime-original story featuring Fiona. Everyone was expecting chapter 60 to be adapted, but I'm kinda glad it wasn't since it and the Becky chapter seem a bit too long to share the same episode. Not a whole lot to say about this segment other than I liked how Fiona's actions mirrored the Forgers' activities on their vacation. We also got to see more of her "training" in the woods that was hinted at after her tennis match with Yor.

I liked this bear hitching a ride.

And omg, foreshadowing for chapter 67!

And it seems like the final episode of the season will adapt the 2-part story of Loid and Bond's fire rescue. I know there's a scene of Fiona in the next mission preview, but it's likely from a quick anime-only scene while the rest of the episode will adapt the two parts of chapter 62. The big indicator that this will be the only story adapted is that the next episode only has one title, "Part of the Family."

Can't believe we're just one week away from the final season 2 episode AND the CODE: White movie! Later today there's going to be a Jump Festa panel about SxF so I'm hoping there will be a season 3 announcement - stay tuned!

#spy family #spy x family #sxf #spyxfamily #loid forger #yor forger #anya forger #bond forger #becky blackbell #sxf anime #fiona frost

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rosymindtwilight · 6 months

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TwiYor First Kiss should go like:

Yor asks Loid if they should kiss more in order to appear more like a normal couple.

Loid is hesitant because he doesn’t want to get bodyslammed by Yor for the umpteenth time, (and also because he doesn’t want to confront his own feelings) but eventually agrees and says Yor should take the lead so she only does what she’s comfortable with.

Day by day Yor gets closer and closer to kissing him. Eventually she’s able to do hand kisses, then cheek kisses and nose kisses. Loid does not reciprocate them yet so as not to make her uncomfortable, but is becoming increasingly flustered by her kissing him so often and with more ease.

One day Yor finally works up the courage, approaches Loid as he is cooking dinner, and asks “Can I kiss you?”

Expecting another cheek kiss Loid bends down for her a bit and nods his consent.

He is shocked when Yor’s hand is on his cheek suddenly turning his face towards hers, and she places a soft, warm, yet chaste kiss on his lips.

She breaks into a wide smile as she removes her face from his and cheers, “I did it!” And dances around the kitchen.

She doesn’t fully recognize what she’s just done and of course doesn’t notice her husband standing mouth agape eyes wide cheeks flushed, letting the chicken burn in the pan.

Anya comes out from her room and laughs and joins her mama dancing in the kitchen, not knowing why until she reads her mind, and then of course-

“Mama and Papa were flirting?”

#spy x family #loid forger #yor forger #i have brainrot #anya forger #twiyor #loiyor #loid x yor #twilight x yor

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piracytheorist · 11 months

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Sometimes Spy x Family things hit me like a sucker punch to the stomach. This time it was about the innocence of each Forger's love.

Anya and Bond are almost by nature innocent in how they express their love; Anya by being a kid, Bond by being a creature that doesn't grasp the concept of greed and malice. They were created and treated as scientific experiments in the past, and being part of the Forgers gives them the opportunity to belong without them having to provide a specific use to the family. They can be safe, protected and taken care of, and they instinctively show a lot of affection towards their carers for that. Anya knows her parents' secrets and Bond has visions of their futures, but nothing stops them from seeing and loving the kind hearts that Yor and Loid (deep down) have. They needed a place to feel safe and nurtured, they got that, and they reciprocate with affection.

Yor feels accepted for being herself. As much as Yuri loves her, his constant idolization of her has very likely caused her some impostor syndrome and a lot of insecurities, as she constantly berates herself whenever she doesn't do something in an absolutely perfect way. But Anya accepts her as a mother immediately, Loid doesn't demand anything from her role as a wife and mother, and they both praise her successes, with Anya being openly affectionate with her. Yor cares for Anya's future and is touched by Loid's care for others. She doesn't have to put up a show (aside from hiding her assassin job) and in fact, their praise inspires her to learn to do better instead of pressuring her. She wants to stay because her contributions will be accepted and appreciated, while at the same time keeping a level head about it. She wants to give and she found a place where that can happen without being judged or overwhelmingly idolized for it.

As for Twilight, living with the Forgers is probably his first time as a spy that someone else's achievements touch him. He's genuinely proud of Anya's bravery and good heart in saving the drowning boy, and Yor's strength and the kind way she uses that to make Anya feel safe are important to him to the point of inspiring him to open up to Yor. He constantly deals with violent and corrupted people, but despite or maybe because of that he appreciates what Anya and Yor are even more. He loves them not for what they provide to him, but for how through tragedy and loss they've kept their kind hearts (something that he feels he lost and is secretly mourning? Maybe?) and how they don't hesitate to give to a world that took and took and took from them.

The beauty in this family is that none of the Forgers ask for what they need (aside from Anya getting the less than bare minimum of having her needs provided for) and yet they get it. They receive it whole-heartedly and it's what makes them treasure their place in the family.

#Spy x Family #sxf meta #the Forgers

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coraniaid · 1 month

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Character asks:

Xander, 1 and 21.

1 Why do you like or dislike this character?

Going to focus on the why part and avoid coming to a firm conclusion about the implicit binary choice.

Season 5's The Replacement posits that there are two Xanders -- one suave and self-confident, one a bumbling walking punchline -- before revealing that both of these Xanders are equally real and exist as aspects of the true and singular Xander, with neither having primacy over the other. However, while there are indeed two diametrically opposed versions of Xander Harris, real fans of the show know that they don't exactly correspond to what the show suggests here. The true distinction is between, on the one hand, the Xander who grows up miserable and alone in an abusive household and is determined not to become his father and who loves and supports his friends unconditionally and is maybe/probably/definitely bi but doesn't seem to realize it yet and, on the other hand, the Xander who makes frequent gross sexual comments about all the women he knows and visibly and bitterly resents the ways they outshine him and who considers it his moral duty to give them terrible, patronising, unsolicitied advice about their personal lives whenever he can.

As in The Replacement, both versions of the character have equal claim to be the 'real' Xander. The much more irritating one is perhaps more present in the early seasons (especially when the writers genuinely seem to be trying to set him up in an actual love triangle with Buffy herself, but also throughout much of his 'romance' with Cordelia) but he never really goes away, even after the writers started trying to find new things to do with his character from The Zeppo onwards. He shows up in Season 5 to explain to Buffy how it's all her fault that her boyfriend metaphorically cheated on her while she was selfishly worrying about her sick mother and he's actually a really great guy Buffy never properly appreciated (he doesn't say "can I have sex with Riley too?" in this episode, but he might as well have done); he shows up in Season 6 to sulk about the fact that the woman he left at the altar dared to sleep with somebody who wasn't him and how much she "disgusts" him as a result; he shows up in Season 7 to help kick Buffy out of her own house.

But, equally, the sympathetic, loyal and, yes, even heroic Xander isn't just some post hoc fandom creation either. There are hints even earlier, but Season 3 and especially Season 4 really do make it clear that Xander's home life is horrific. He does risk his life to save Buffy's in Prophecy Girl, even when Angel wouldn't, even after Buffy had been clear she didn't reciprocate his feelings toward her. He does eventually admit to some of his worst behaviour (his jealousy about Angel, his betrayal of Cordelia). His treatment of Anya, while horrible, really does make sense as an attempt to do the right thing for somebody he cares about by somebody almost utterly consumed by self-loathing.

His speech to Buffy in the second half of The Freshman ("when it's dark and I'm all alone and I'm scared [...] I always ask: what would Buffy do? You're my hero.") is, despite what he says immediately afterwards, genuinely touching. The way that, in The Replacement, even the cowardly incompetent side of Xander is willing to risk his life to protect Anya from what he thinks is a demon is honestly kind of sweet. His speech to Willow at the end of Season 6's Grave ("I'm not joking [...] I can't imagine the pain you're in [...] You're Willow [...] I love you") and to his speech to Dawn in Season 7's Potential ("You gave her your power [...] You're not special. You're extraordinary") both feel like genuinely well-earned moments in light of everything we've seen of Xander so far.

The fundamental tension inherent to Xander is that he doesn't smoothly and effortlessly develop from one version of the character to the other. It's not as simple as the grating Xander from the early seasons "getting better". Both sides of his character are present -- and either side can be dominant -- from the very beginning of the show and right until the end.

21 If you're a fic writer and have written for this character, what's your favorite thing to do when you're writing for this character? What's something you don't like?

Well, I am a fic writer and I have, technically, written for this character (he is the POV character for one fairly short chapter of Coexist.) I think he is a very hard character to write well (especially in the high school seasons) and I'm not at all sure I managed.

Honestly, I think well-written fanfic takes on Xander that actually treat him seriously as a character are incredibly rare. (Off the top of my head I can think of exactly one example. I'm sure there are others -- and I'm sure part of the issue is that I only really read a particular subset of Buffy fanfic -- but I doubt there are many others.)

I think a lot of fanfic writers really just don't like Xander at all (and so only write the horrible Xander, if that, and only so they can have the characters they like call him out on his worst behaviour), whereas other writers lean too heavily into the sympathetic Xander (and either have him explicitly realize and denounce his own poor behaviour early on or just write a meek and mild 'Xander' who just needs a hug and who has never even thought about saying anything inappropriate to any woman ever, which ... well, that's not the character that appears on screen, is it?).

I think the trick to writing Xander well, such as it is -- and the approach I tried to take myself -- is to try to treat him as sympathetically as possible without pretending he isn't often prone to jealousy and making mean-spirited comments, that he isn't a bit of a massive hypocrite at times and that he doesn't often say "funny" things that aren't when he shouldn't. That's harder than just playing up the angle that Xander's parents are awful and he's trying his best and suggesting he'd be much happier if he just followed Anya's advice to Buffy and found a "nice, boring, boyfriend", but I think if you don't try you're not writing a sympathetic version of Xander Harris so much as you're creating a whole new character.

Yes, Xander (mostly) is trying his best, and his parents (especially his father) are awful, but very often Xander's best is far from good enough. He will say awful things sometimes and he probably won't apologize for it, even if he does secretly feel ashamed by it. You have to try to write both versions of Xander -- both the one that makes sense as one of Buffy and Willow's best friends and the one who really doesn't seem to have anything in common with them at all -- if you're going to write the Xander.

That being said, the absolute worst thing you can do to Xander is give him magical powers or superhuman fighting skills so he can Help Buffy Patrol. That's not who he is! That's not true to either version of the character!

(... sorry, I lied. That's the second worst thing you can do to Xander. The actual worst thing is what the comics do with him and Dawn. No super-powered fantasy fanfic could be more horrible and ill-advised than that.)

#btvs #asks #thanks!

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treason-and-plot · 2 years

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Chantal approaches Anya at the after-party and asks her how she’s enjoying herself. Her normal speaking voice is so loud that Anya has no problem hearing her over the music.

“I’m having the best time,” says Anya, and means it. She has just been talking to Roy’s boss’s wife who was very sweet, and before that she was dancing with Skylar and a couple of boys who apparently are well-known football players, although she has no clue if either of them was ‘Jakey,’ Skylar’s mysterious date. Roy is holding court with Freddie in a corner of the room, his award propped up next to him on the banquette. He blows Anya kisses and winks at her whenever he catches her eye. Anya is so grateful and happy to be here, her heart aches with emotion and her cheeks ache from smiling. And she still feels drunk around Freddie, but she’s sure the more time she spends in his presence the sooner she’ll be able to develop a tolerance to his celebrity mystique!

“That’s great, hun!” says Chantal. “And I have to say, Roy is very taken with you.” She leans forward in a heavy cloud of perfume and rasps in Anya’s ear: “This is strictly between us girls, but he told me he’s head over heels!”

“Oh my God,” says Anya. “Seriously?”

“Seriously, doll,” says Chantal. “That man is gone. And as one of his closest female friends, I feel it’s my duty to ask you if his feelings are reciprocated. Freddie and I both care very deeply about Roy’s emotional wellbeing! Not just because he’s our friend, but because he’s Freddie’s agent! He can’t work to his full capacity when his personal life is in disarray, you understand what I’m saying?”

“I-I think so,” says Anya, her smile faltering.

“So tell me, how do you feel about Roy?” says Chantal, her eyelashes fluttering conspiratorially.

“I have very strong feelings for Roy,” says Anya. “Trust me, I do. I think I could definitely fall for him. But you know, it’s only been a week since our first date, so-“

“A week since your first date? “ says Chantal. Her voice is so shrill Anya fears for the glasses hanging behind the bar. “One week? Are you freaking kidding me?”

#Anya #Chantal #Roy #5 years later #back to Bridgeport #Freddie #Alec from Adidas #sims 3 #ts3 #ts3 story

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hvcmixtape · 1 year

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boyfriend!wonwoo + you take your niece to a halloween party!

"You're sure you're okay going to the party?" You look at Wonwoo in the mirror, cocking an eyebrow at your boyfriend. You shuffle in front of him to adjust the crooked knot of his tie and. "You look really good by the way," you mumble your words as you press your lips to his when you flatten the lapels of his blazer.

"Of course I want to go." His lips curl into a tiny smile. "Plus, I'm excited to spend some time with Ga-Ram."

Ga-Ram is the daughter of your sister who always ran toward Wonwoo before you. Who can really be upset? You want to run to your boyfriend all the time too, but you do feel a betrayed pang in your heart every time it happens.

Since your niece is still young, your sister doesn't fee the need to take her out for Halloween if it's more of a hassle than fun. But that doesn't stop you from bringing Ga-Ram to a party and dressing her up like she was your own.

"If there's a costume contest, we're winning by the way. We have such a good costume!"

You stare at yourselves in the bathroom mirror once again.

As Wonwoo dons a green suit and red tie, you're in a tight black dress and tights.

"Right," he nods along. "Ga-Ram's winning us brownie points though."

"I'm so lucky I convinced unnie to let Ga-Ram in on our costume. Us as Loid, Yor, and Anya? Power team." You ball up your fist and lift it up.

Wonwoo taps his fist against yours with a grin. You've never been more privileged to be in such a situation: here with your long-term boyfriend, getting ready to have fun with your niece on Halloween. It could be just a few years until you and Wonwoo have a little one of your own...

You sigh, holding yourself up against his chest. "I love you." You're tempted to go in for another kiss, a longer one than the peck before, but the doorbell prevents you from doing anything else.

"Ga-Ram!" Wonwoo softly exclaims to himself before the two of you attend to the front door. He's so whipped for this cutie, and you don't even mind.

When you open the door, you're greeted by your sister, her husband, and of course, "Hi Ga-Ram!" Even as you kneel and hold your arms out, the little girl wraps her arms around Wonwoo's leg.

You pout, standing up straight. "Hi unnie, hi oppa," you go in for hugs that are thankfully reciprocated. "Her costume looks great! Thanks for making it, unnie,” you smile, tongue in cheek.

"You owe me," she says, wagging her finger at you. You roll your eyes in return, but laugh because when have your puppy eyes ever worked on her? "Hi Wonwoo, looks like another point to you," your sister chuckles as your boyfriend's holding Ga-Ram on his hip.

Wonwoo bounces her, gaining a laugh from the toddler. He shrugs humbly, but you know he loves hearing it. "Are you excited to go to the party, Ga-Ram?" He punctuates the question with the tiniest head tilt toward her.

She responds with an expressive yes and a nod of her head. Wonwoo's face is brighter than the sun with you or your family, but especially with Ga-Ram.

When Wonwoo lets her stand on the floor, he doesn't let go of her fingers. All five of them wrap around two of his own, gripping them tight so not to lose her favorite uncle. "Thanks for letting us bring Ga-Ram. I know the other members are also bringing their kids and nieces and nephews."

"Of course. Let's all start heading out," your sister says and she leads the charge out the door. There is some bickering between you and your sister when reinstalling the car seat into Wonwoo's car but it's all worth it when Ga-Ram has the brightest smile waving goodbye to her mother.

With Wonwoo tapping on your thigh while he drives, you feel relaxed, even when Ga-Ram is singing loudly along to one of her favorites, Darling. (Even if she doesn't understand or speak English.)

Soon enough, you're unbuckling your niece and heading toward the front door.

Ga-Ram never lets go of Wonwoo’s hand throughout the party: when going around the aunties and uncles getting candy in her basket, placing chicken nuggets on her plate, and munching on too many squares of chocolate. She near bursts into tears when Wonwoo tells her he needs to use the bathroom and she can’t follow him in.

When the guests are all gathered, Ga-Ram can’t help but to feel attached to her uncle. (She has no problem with leaving you be though).

Of course, you win the costume contest, something you were looking forward to. (And with your stunning costumes, how could you not?) When they announce that you, Wonwoo, and Ga-Ram have the best ensemble, Ga-Ram does grabby hands on Wonwoo. He knows exactly what to do.

Lifting her up underneath her arms, the smile on your face can’t be brighter when he spins her around and lands her on his hip.

“You’re so cute,” you whisper in his ear. “Ga-Ram is so lucky to have someone like you.”

“And I’m so lucky to have someone like you.”

(You have to literally pull Ga-Ram off of Wonwoo when you’ve brought her back to her parents. Something about being the most prettiest uncle, and you can’t agree more.)

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sage-nebula · 1 year

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I have not seen Spy X Family in person but I’m getting the feeling that Loid’s insistence that everything he’s doing is “for the mission” and nothing more might come back to bite him if Yor (and her brother too I guess) find out he’s a spy. The whole “So none of it was real for you. You were just playing a part” thing.

First: You really should either read or watch Spy x Family, and preferably both. Hands down my favorite manga / anime series of all time. It has everything. Drama, intrigue, romance, found family, hilarity. You want it? This manga has it. Read / watch it and let your life be enriched.

Second: HMMM, not really? First of all, Yuri (Yor's brother) would celebrate on some level because he's super jealous of Loi-Loi and doesn't want his sister to be with him. Like he says that he wants his sister to be married to someone who loves her, and I think on some level he believes that, but no guy will ever actually be good enough to pass his metric, which we know because the front that Twilight puts up as Loid Forger is literally the perfect man. So while Yuri would of course be enraged that Twilight deceived his sister (on top of all of his other professional reasons for hating Twilight), he would also be glad to have a reason to arrest and torture him to death. Literally.

As for Yor, this is a fake family to her, too! (Well, "fake family" — she's becoming the mask just as much as Twilight is.) She's the one who proposed the sham marriage so that the Secret Police wouldn't suspect her of being a spy since she's single (which has happened to other single women around her age in her country), and so that she could therefore keep being an assassin in peace. In fact, there's a chapter where Twilight mistakenly comes under the impression that Yor has developed romantic feelings for him, and decides to take advantage of her feelings by acting like he reciprocates them by kissing her, and before his lips touch hers she kicks him in the face so hard she breaks his jaw. (Which he 100% deserved for trying to use her. Shame on you, Twilight!) So Yor wouldn't have a revelation of, "This was all fake to you?" because it's fake to her, too! She's no more cognizant of her feelings for Twilight than he is of his feelings for her. They're both dummies in the dark. The four-year-old in their midst is the only one who has any idea what's going on, but she's too little to know what to do with it. On that note, ANYA is the one Yor would likely feel angry for; knowing that Twilight used this little girl would piss her off big time, until she realizes that he really has come to love Anya too (and she already knows that Anya loves him, and her as well, because Anya gave them "a perfect 100 points!" during the Eden interview).

All of that said though, Twilight thinking "this is all for the mission!!" is all in his head. He's never said it out loud, and he wouldn't because that would blow his cover as a spy, lmao. Unlike Agent Daybreak, Twilight actually knows what he's doing. (Which is why his services can't be bought with a child's allowance.) So there's no way that either one of them would overhear it. The only one who would hear it is Anya, and she's definitely not telling because a.) she's terrified of what will happen if she reveals her powers, b.) she loves her Papa and wouldn't want her Unkie to arrest him, and c.) she's even more terrified of losing her family, which is why her insistence on helping Twilight with Operation Strix is so heartbreaking. She has no idea that she's accelerating the end of the family she cherishes and wants to keep so badly. :')

#randoxtalore #spy x family #agent twilight #loid forger #yor briar #twiyor #yuri briar #anya forger #forger family #keep in mind I really doubt the Forger family will separate at the end #but at this point in the story Twilight is still absolutely certain the Forger family is done once Operation Strix is achieved #although in the manga he makes a note that WISE will make sure that Yor and Anya are taken care of #and it's phrased in a way that suggests he thinks Yor would keep custody of Anya? not sure tho #but anyway I'm sure it will work out in the end. i have faith #let's just hope Endo-sensei rewards that faith :')

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boyfriend-syndrome · 1 year

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This has been in my head for the past day so let me just brainrot this out really quick.

What if Spy x Family took on some more… Happy Sugar Life esque events?

It just makes so much sense to me lol

Loid could potentially not know what love is, just like Sato Matsuzaka. Just like her, he had lost his parents at a young age, though the circumstances were different

(Images from both animes)

They both look to be around the same age as to when they lost their parents, and since Loid was drafted into the war at a young age (I think anyways, correct me if I’m wrong) he would be raised without love and could very well end up the same as Sato had.

Humans naturally have a need for affection, and being raised without it, as in Sato’s case, would lead to confusion and uncertainty when receiving it. I think anyways, I’m not a health expert.

So with that said, theoretically, Loid could be going through life not knowing what love is and wants to learn as he craves it, but is unable to reciprocate any feelings for anyone. So he’s confused and lost.

(Source: Happy Sugar Life Chapter 48.5)

So then, what about Shio?

Shio was Satou��s driving force for all of her actions, essentially being the fuel to the fire. Shio had also allegedly taught Satou what love was and introduced her to new feelings that she hadn’t received as a child.

Where is the child in all this?

Well, that’s where Anya comes into play.

(Source: Happy Sugar Life)

Anya, at this time, had just run away from the institute. She still has her telepathy powers, and as such, is being searched for high and low.

So how would this come into play?

Loid is a spy and currently working on Operation Strix, and needs to obtain a child and a wife in order to get close to his target. He had bought the apartment and is now working on obtaining a child.

Due to searching for a good apartment, paperwork and everything, the task had taken all day and now it is nighttime. Most, if not all orphanages are closed and obtaining a child would not be possible until tomorrow.

He’s walking around aimlessly at night, attracting female attention. He’s given up on finding love long ago, as that mission had gone to flames much like his identification papers.

He turns down an alleyway, not having much in mind.

And then he runs into Anya.

Now, when they meet, both of them instantly hit it off. Loid needs a child for Operation Strix, and Anya needs a place to hide. It’s a win-win for everyone.

Though, for Loid, it’s a bit more than that.

He asks her where her parents are, as he doesn’t know this child and doesn’t want to take her away from anyone. Anya says she doesn’t have a family. Loid asks her if she loves anyone, as that could make more sense to a child.

Anya says that she only loves ‘those people’ because she wanted to live. And that isn’t love at all.

Loid realizes that this girl could teach him what love is. So, with that in mind, he takes her to his place and cares for her, consequentially learning about parental love in the meantime.

(Source: Happy Sugar Life chapter 31)

Anyways that is all I have. I might go into more detail later.

#spy x family #happy sugar life #crossover #loid and anya

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sophsun1 · 2 years

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I never watched Angel (the series), and btvs was fine without knowing what they were up to, so i think you'll be fine with the crossover eps

Also, I'm living for your Xander hatred! I completely agree with you there.

Hey!

Yeah a mutual said the same thing I will check it out after my Buffy watch just out of curiosity to see what they did with the characters. People have told me they develop them both more which makes sense seeing as it's their own universe. On btvs Angel was mostly limited to his romance with Buffy and Cordelia was used for comedic relief and had wasted potential.

Yeah I don't know what the fandom consensus on Xander is but I just can't take to him in the three seasons I've watched so far I generally find him infuriating. But again people have said that he goes on a character journey and we see growth from him so who knows maybe I'll mellow towards him or not yk.

I'm aware that it's a 90s show and it's the age old it may be problematic but it was of it's time argument in regards to some of his attitudes towards the women which are irritating and he is portraying a high school boy which you take into consideration I guess for some instances. But it's mostly been his pushy attitude towards Buffy and his jealousy over her not reciprocating his feelings and the moments when he's shamed her over Angel. Not telling her the truth about Willow trying to save his soul in S2 finale and especially when he called her out in her return in 3x01 about how she abandoned them with no understanding of the trauma she'd been through and seemingly using it as a way to punish her over his jealousy about Angel. They had a chance to develop him and Cordelia which they wasted as he spent that relationship still thirsting after Buffy and the ridiculous cheating plot with Willow. Like the ladies of Sunnydale deserve better!

I do enjoy his lighter comedic moments and his friendship and love towards Willow is sweet when he's not getting jealous over her relationships. Seeing him in the zeppo episode where they explore his role in the group and even though he doesn't have any superpowers he's always there helping out and ready to fight regardless is great.

I know he gets with Anya in S4 which if he hurts her he deserves death tbh as I love her so *eyes him suspiciously* I guess I'll find out if he becomes a real devoloped boy or stays an insufferable jerk 🤷‍♀️

#soph asks #i know he was apparently based on j*ss #so that doesn't help at all #but some things he's said have been very stfu #my expectations are low for the future seasons #but i may be surprised

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ao3feed-damianya · 2 years

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Red Carnations

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by Cat_anime

What will you do , if the person you love the most doesn't reciprocate it back ?

What will you do if you fall for a person who keeps up the act of loving you ? Who doesn't accepts or rejects you ?

Heartbroken , you starts searching for new companionship , Friendship Yor is one who genuinely falls in love first , with her fake husband

Loid doesn't feel the same way , he is all for the mission .

“I love you ", she says , tentative but heavy with emotions.

His only response is , “I know.”

He looks at her with Pity, She is heartbroken .

She regrets saying those words

Melinda ,she admires Yor Forger a lot , She genuinely likes Yor A strong pawn like yor , should be by her side

So when , Yor is obviously heartbroken, she knows how to get Yor on her side .

Loid Forger , aka Twilight He was used to have several relationship and faces . He is willing to do anything for his mission .

He may love his daughter.

He may have didn't felt the same way about his ( Fake) wife , but when he does fall in love, its might be too late ,

Will he save his marriage for real ? Or will Melinda take his Yor away ?

Words: 2455, Chapters: 1/?, Language: English

Fandoms: SPY x FAMILY (Manga), SPY x FAMILY (Anime)

Rating: General Audiences

Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings, No Archive Warnings Apply

Categories: F/M, F/F

Characters: Loid Forger | Twilight, Yor Briar Forger | Thorn Princess, Melinda Desmond, Fiona Frost | Nightfall, Anya Forger, Sylvia Sherwood | Handler, Shopkeeper (SPY x FAMILY), Original Characters, Donovan Desmond, Damian Desmond

Additional Tags: TwiYor, LoidYor, yor and fiona been besties, WISE (SPY x FAMILY), Garden (SPY x FAMILY), yorlinda, Based on Twitter Post, Based on Song, Westalis, Ostania, Secret Service police, One-Sided Attraction, One-Sided Relationship, Unrequited Love, Not Actually Unrequited Love, Possibly Unrequited Love, Requited Unrequited Love, unrequited Twiyor, unrequited yorlinda, Or is it ?, i am bad at tagging, Angst and Hurt/Comfort, Angst, Angst and Romance, Angst and Feels, Angst and Drama, Angst and Tragedy, Fluff and Angst, Angst and Fluff and Smut, Cheating, or is it cheating ?, Rejection, Regret, Ambiguous/Open Ending, Sad Ending, Hopeful Ending, Sad with a Happy Ending, Alternate Ending, i don't know ending, The Author Regrets Nothing, Author Is Sleep Deprived, The Author Regrets Everything, Bisexual Female Character, Emotional Manipulation, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Heartbreak, Manipulation, I'm Bad At Summaries

2022-07-29T20:41:17Z

#anya forger #damian desmond #damianya #anya x damian #damian x anya #fanfic #spy x family #sxf

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amstories · 1 year

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S04E19: The One Who Went Back

Pairing: Vivien x Leandro x Anya from If I Fall by shirlengtearjerky

Prompt: “The one that got away or the one you got away from?”

Note: This is one of my entries for Ate Leng's Ficlet Writing Contest last 2015. This is not affiliated with shirlengtearjerky or any of her stories. I wrote this when I was young so please bear with it.

Anya broke up with him two years after they reconciled. (Naging sila rin kasi dati pero naghiwalay sila. After that break up, they met again and decided to reconcile.) He thought their relationship would be better than before. But it became worse.

He still loves Anya, yes. But the Anya he loved is already gone. And the Anya he returned to is not the same Anya anymore. So they had to end their relationship before they destroy each other.

But after that, he met Vivien, who made him forget all the pain Anya caused him. They both had a wonderful relationship. But of course, there'll be a conflict in every good relationship.

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It’s been five years since she was left hanging. It’s been five years since that koi pond incident.

Limang taon na siyang naghihintay. Limang taon na rin siyang umaasa. Limang taon na magmula noong iniwan siya ni Lean. Limang taon na rin siyang nagtataka kung bakit siya iniwan ng taong minamahal niya.

He asked her to meet him at their usual spot–the university’s koi pond. That time, she already felt something bad is going to happen. Pero hindi niya naisip na ang ‘something bad’ na ’yon ay ang pagputol niya sa relasyon nilang dalawa. They could have a long distance relationship if the problem is he’ll go abroad to continue his studies there. Pero kasi hindi eh. He just left. What makes it difficult is that he just left without telling his reason.

What are the possible reasons on why he left her? Studies? Nah, he could've at least told her if it’s just about his studies. Family? Not really, nandito ang close relatives niya like his cousins. Someone else? Well, maybe. But she doesn't want to think of that. Ayaw niyang mabuhiran ng madumi ang pangalan niya sa isip niya. Ayaw niyang pinagbibintangan siya. Ayaw niyang hindi nagtitiwala sa kanya. After all, she loves him that much. The thing is she’s not sure if will be reciprocated by the same person.

For him, it hurts to be left by someone you love. Of course, he knew the feeling of being left, too. Bonus, yung taong pinakamamahal pa niya. The person who makes his day perfect is the same person who broke his heart in just a prick, too. Mahirap ang maiwanan, yes, he knows that. Mahirap din ang maiwanan na hindi mo alam ang dahilan kung bakit.

But for him, leaving someone you love hurts more. The hurting is more aching to the heart if you haven't even told her the reason why you left her. Believe it or not, mas masakit ang mang-iwan lalo na kung ayaw mo naman siyang iwanan.

Five years nang iniiwasan ni Vivien dumaan sa koi fish pond na ’yun. But for the first time, she had the courage to remember that aching moment she had.

“Vivien, I’m sorry.” She didn’t know what to feel. She didn’t know what to react. Nag-sosorry pa lang siya, nasasaktan na siya. “But I have to leave the country.”

She begged for him to stay. She actually begged for him to stay in love with her, kahit hindi na siya physically mag-stay. But no, hindi siya pinagbigyan nito.

“I have to fix myself first before giving my whole self to you.”

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After five years, Leandro decided to go home to the Philippines. He thinks he’s ready to face the two ladies in his life.

“Are you sure with that, Lean?” Zades asked. She knew the tragic love story of Leandro. Siya lang din ang naging karamay ni Lean sa New York habang ineendure niya ang sakit sa puso niya. “Eh sinong uunahin mong harapin? The one who got away or the one you got away from?”

“You always ask the good questions, huh,” Lean said, amazed with his friend. Hindi niya rin kasi masagot kung sino ang uunahin niya.

“Ito, Leandro. Sino ang inaasahan mong meron kang babalikan?” Yes, it is true. Zades always ask the good questions. Nang wala siyang masagot ay nagtanong ulit si Zades (to prove a point), “Sino ang unang mong naisip when I asked the question?”

“The one I got away from.”

“There you go!”

After a week he arrived the tropical island, he invited Vivien for coffee to have the ‘talk.’ He was expecting everything was going to be fine. Fine, meaning back to their normal selves wherein simula na ulit ng relationship nila.

He was about to ask to her if she could be his girlfriend now that he is sure with his decision when her phone rang.

“Hey, babe. Yeah, see you later! I love you.”

As she put her phone down, he already knew that he needs to back off. He’s too late to give himself to her. He’s too late to go back to the one he got away from.

Before they separate ways, Lean held Vivien’s hand tightly– tighter than usual. Napatingin sa kanya si Vivien kay Lean nang gawin niya yun but he didn't looked at her. He doesn't want her to see the pain in his eyes. He doesn't want her to see the agony on his face. He just wanted to show her how he feels by squeezing her hands, hoping that she could understand what he feels, even just a bit. Besides, he might break down if he chose to tell everything he felt. Because hands speak more intimately than words.

#amstories #ficlets #vean #leanya #iif #shirlengtearjerky

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piracytheorist · 1 year

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Huh going back on my posts I realized something

When Twilight sees Anya's bad midterm grades, he thinks "I should work harder to get her to get better grades next time. But at least she didn't fail so that's a win for her". He considered her bad grades as his fault, but her not failing as her win.

When Nightfall sees Yor bring milk for Loid's coffee, she thinks "You don't even know Senpai drinks his coffee black, you're useless," but when she sees him put milk in it, she thinks "Of course! He pretends to like milk with his coffee as part of his Loid Forger persona! I love you!" She considered the milk offer as Yor's mistake, but Loid's acceptance of it as Twilight's smart move.

Do you see it? Do you see how differently they see the distance between "Twilight" and "everyone else"? Twilight blames himself and praises everyone else, while Nightfall blames everyone else and praises Twilight.

Due to her obsession, Nightfall resorts to incorrect assumptions about him (thinking that the milk is for cover instead of his stomach issues) and rude behaviour towards everyone else (in comparison to Twilight internally praising Anya for managing not to fail) - which also comes from incorrect assumptions; in episode three, Yor offers to make coffee for Loid, and Loid asks for black coffee, so she knew that at first he was drinking black, and only later on decided to add milk; she noticed both his original preference and the change in it. Nightfall doesn't know that, and her rude nature makes her immediately assume that Yor doesn't notice, doesn't know, and doesn't care as much as Nightfall does.

And truly, that is what makes her incompatible with him. She idolizes him instead of seeing him clearly and recognizing his weaknesses (unless she can use those to promote her own strength and value), and is rude to everyone else, something that Twilight himself is averse to; Nightfall considers Twilight's dream simply being one of peace, when in reality it's one of a peaceful world where children don't need to cry - and this world cannot be achieved with people as rude (and as prone to discipline via physical violence) as Nightfall.

She is another case of "everyone is a hero in their own story". She doesn't see anything she does as wrong; the worst thing she'll think of herself is that she's inadequate in something, but that will only spite her to work to become better. It would be a great state of mind to be in, if it weren't for her selfishness - and truly, that's where her obsession comes from; if she was a little more empathetic and a little more understanding, she would not only see Twilight's flaws and weaknesses as what they are, she would also see that Twilight doesn't reciprocate her feelings and is misunderstanding the reasons behind her actions as ambition instead of affection.

She may be in love with him, but it's a selfish, obsessive, blind kind of love. She doesn't see the man, she sees the idol she has created from what she knows about him, and she thinks she is the only one reserved to have him; no matter what he thinks.

#sxf Nightfall #Spy x Family #sxf meta

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prose-for-hire · 3 years

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Kiss me quick

Pairing: Spike x Summers!reader

Request: Hi! Can I request a Spike x Summers!reader, where the reader is trying to keep their relationship on the downlow since none of the Scoobies really approve, but after a big win the reader finally kisses him in front of everyone, proving that they do care deeply for one another and everyone just has to accept it.

Requested by: Anon

Warning: Reader gets injured but nothing serious. sex references/implication of sex.

You looked out into dimly lit street, the dark had surrounded you now but ever since you had been meeting this way you couldn’t help but smile whenever the sun began to descend from the sky. You were stood, under a streetlamp, three streets away from your house. Just far enough where nobody from your household would catch you meeting him this way. You had been meeting like this for a while now.

He got a kick out of coming up behind you and immediately pressing you against the nearest wall and crashing his lips to yours. His favourite greeting entailed leaving you breathless and ready to pull him closer no matter what your surroundings were. He often mumbled his hellos through stolen kisses. His passion never died, he was all in. Completely yours.

You couldn’t shake this feeling. That you were completely in love. You had silently tried to fight it to begin with, knowing that those around you wouldn’t approve. That Spike himself may not even reciprocate your feelings. But soon it became clear that there was no hiding these feelings that always bubbled to the surface whenever he was near.

You had started fooling around to begin with, before it all changed. For the better, both of you agreed. Your feelings had taken hold of you both, fuelled by the touch of skin. The depth of mind. Unspoken emotions kept the two of you in a chokehold before you finally spilled your feelings for the other.

Ever since you quit college, you had spent all of your free time sneaking around with Spike. It was, honestly, as thrilling as it was annoying. As much as you wished you could just tell everyone how much you loved Spike - how amazing he was with you, you couldn’t. You had to hide it, the implications of your friends and sisters finding out would be a fate worse than death. In fact, for spike it may mean actual death this time.

Unfortunately, you were the middle child. You were a year younger than Buffy and she never let you forget about it. Meaning, Buffy thought she was the boss of you. Not to mention Dawn basically clung onto your leg to stop you from leaving the house (and thus, preventing you leaving her behind where she couldn’t follow you around). This meant that, often, you didn’t get much spare time for sneaking around with Spike. But, God, did you make it your biggest priority. After�� saving the world… obviously.

When you did manage to share these intimate moments, it was everything. It felt as if you were the only people in the world. The only people that had ever felt anything close to this. Nobody had loved this deep. Cared this much. You were both so sure. These feelings, they were eternal. He vowed it to you, one early morning you had spent with your naked bodies pressed together, baring your souls well into the night.

Any emotional scars you harboured seemed to heal just by speaking to him. By having that soothing voice share his own darkest moments with you in return. How that voice, those eyes could have seen and done so much and still make you feel undeniably safe you weren’t sure. But, you trusted him. Even if danger appeared to surround him at every turn. You wouldn’t change him for anything. You loved the good, the bad and the oh-so-attractive parts of him.

Vulnerabilities turned to strengths when you were together. Rough edges appeared smoother. Promises held meaning. You adored him and he confessed to you that he had never been so comfortable in a relationship. He could be himself, could express his feelings without being concerned you would turn away from him.

The first night you invited him into your home made him elated. You had to make him swear not to tell Buffy because you knew she wouldn’t take it well. Like, at all. As much as he would have loved to rub it in the slayer’s face that he had been given access to her house – he loved you too much to even think to upset you in this way. So, you carried on this way, unable to keep your hands and lips from each other for more than an evening at a time. This meant mostly, he stayed at the Summer’s residence or you left to the crypt. Sometimes, you even went for real dates – so long as you were sure that everyone else you knew would be busy elsewhere.

Tonight, you were going to the Bronze together. It was a little more of a risk than usual, but he had insisted on taking you somewhere he knew you would enjoy. Muttered something about not keeping you in the shadows before taking your hand and leading the way. The truth was, Spike was in fact just very smitten with you. And he pretty much wanted everyone to see that you were with him. This was ‘everyone’ except the scoobies and any family members you happened to have crawling out of the woodwork. It was safe though, everyone else was going to some college party and Buffy had told you that it was uncool to have her younger sibling come along.

Buffy was the only one that viewed you as the ‘younger sibling’ the others were friends with you because they were fond of you. Because, well, sometimes you appeared more mature than Buffy did – not that they would ever say that to her face. Although there was always that slight worry that if they hadn’t been friends with Buffy they wouldn’t have been as close with you. You were barely a year younger than Buffy but she was still incredibly protective of you as she was the oldest.

What you hadn’t banked on, whilst you rubbed Spike’s thigh under the table, was that Xander hadn’t been invited to the party. He saw you immediately and made his way over to you with Anya close behind. You almost choked on your drink as you saw them come up behind Spike. You snapped your hand away in shock much to Spike’s displeasure.

“Hey, Y/n-” he started and then stopped when he saw Spike’s presence, “He bothering you?”

“No, he’s just-”

“Warming you up, right pet?” His eyes glistened as he spoke, an eyebrow raising which made Xander scowl. You tried your best to hide the smile at your boyfriend’s words as Xander looked between you both. Xander liked to think of himself as your older brother and had decided you needed defending. You opened your mouth to say otherwise but ended up being cut off by a very urgent ex-vengeance demon.

“It doesn’t matter that they’re dating right now, we are all going to get ripped into pieces if the demon finds us!” Anya shouted. You hadn’t been as secretive as you thought then.

“An!” Xander hissed, sharing a look. At the exact same time you and Spike shared a look too. You wondered who else had seen straight through your sneaking around and longing glances you shared through scooby meetings.

You were sharing looks for different reasons though. They had obviously discussed what not to say beforehand and Anya had characteristically ignored his warning. There was some kind of demon threatening the town. Again.

“What’s going on, Xander? Anya?” you tried for your ex-vengeance demon friend when Xander didn’t speak. There was definitely something odd going on. At her name being called, despite Xander’s warning, she launched into an explanation.

“Xander got annoyed at our sex-spell and ripped a page out of my very rare copy of ‘magic, sex and me’ which ruined our entire evening!” She scowled and crossed her arms before continuing, “Now we have to kill it instead of having our sexy time” she pouted.

“We’ll pretend we didn’t hear about a sex spell-”

“Well, I want to hear about it. Can’t get it up, mate?” Spike taunted which only made Xander redden further after Anya’s admittance. Xander stepped as if to hit your vampire but you stepped in the way and wheeled Xander away, changing the subject.

You asked instead about what this demon was like. Anya explained that it was a Scorn-demon. Ridiculously hard to kill and bound to the pages of a book as no mortal prison can hold it. It looked as if you were in for a long night. Which is exactly what you and Spike had planned although for a very different reason.

“If all of us are looking, we’ll find it quicker” You offered, Xander had been embarrassed to explain because of the reason they were doing a spell. But now Anya had told anyone anyway, he was grateful of the help. You got to your feet, ready to follow them out as Spike got up beside you.

“Looks like no bugger’s getting any tonight” Spike muttered, rolling his eyes as you apparently volunteered you both to assist your friend.

“Just working ourselves up… right?” You offered which made him smirk. God, he had been rubbing off on you. You almost felt yourself mirroring his smirk at your words. He wanted to pull you in and kiss you until you admitted just his presence could get you worked up enough alone, but he knew the importance of hiding this from your friends. Which, really was the only reason he didn’t take you right there in the middle of the Bronze.

Instead, you just trailed behind Xander and Anya’s bickering and tried to locate this demon. You called Buffy’s cell and left a message. You knew this was probably going to end with a battle you were unequipped for. You just hoped that you ran into your sister before you ran into the demon. By all accounts he sounded nasty.

As you walked, you and Spike kept sneaking glances at the other when you hoped the others weren’t looking. It was hard, having to maintain this distance when all you wanted to do was reach for him. Show him your affection freely. When you caught the other’s eye, you couldn’t help but smile. You felt so lucky, to have someone that cared so deeply. Someone who wasn’t afraid to share their love so freely.

You wanted to slide your hand in his, tell him just how lucky you felt. Just how much you felt for him, although you were sure he must be sick of how often you told him you loved him. He never was, of course. It was the sweetest music hearing that phrase from your lips. He kissed them a thousand times just to catch the remaining sweetness from your tongue. With those words, nothing should be wasted. He wanted to savour every syllable of your love.

You kept walking until you had to come to an abrupt halt. Dawn turned a corner and crashed straight into you. Turns out, your hopes came true: you did come across your sister first. It just happened to not be the one you expected.

“Oh, I didn’t know you guys were ready for, like, double dating yet” Dawn teased. She, too, had decided that you and Spike had to be dating. She often brought it up to annoy you but she believed it all the same. Spike never corrected her and you had stopped bothering too. You would only come off as defensive and she would tease you for that. You honestly couldn’t win living under the same roof as Dawn, she could be relentless.

Spike leaned in to whisper something in your ear, his lips so close to your ear you could imagine the way they would feel if he leaned in further and pressed against your skin. You smiled at his comment, he always made you laugh. He liked to hear your laugh and it passed the time while he waited for the fight that was coming.

When you looked back up, Willow and Tara had caught up with your group. They gave you a knowing look at how close you were stood to Spike. You wanted to lean on him, inhale deeply and press kisses against the curve of his neck. You loved the way he gripped you closer when you did that. But you had to snap yourself out of this thought at the arrival of your sister. Buffy immediately started giving orders, not before she gave you a warning look for letting Dawn come with you after she scowled at Spike for his mere presence.

“I brought the research – I think there’s a spell, but we’ll have to weaken him first” Willow muttered, frowning at Anya and blaming her for this spell and putting her best friend in danger.

“The spell needs lovers to complete it. Do you think you could help us Anya? Xander?” Tara asked softly, “But I’m not sure if that’s enough to hold him”

Because the demon was attracted to love and sex, couples were needed to cut off his power at the source. It fed from lovers and by concentrating that power it could reverse and thus weaken the demon within a certain spot.

“Well, if we need couples we have at least three pairs here. Maybe that would be enough?” Willow asked. Making everyone look around to count the pairs. Everyone’s eyes then landed on you and Spike. The last to look was Buffy who raised an eyebrow between you both.

“Does everyone know we’re dating?!”

“Pretty much, sweetie” tara nodded.

“We just didn’t wanna embarrass you. It’s… Spike” Buffy cringed at even the thought of it, “I, uh, thought you would have kinda got it out of your system by now though” Buffy hitched her nose up at the idea of the two of you, but shrugged. She saw it as a meaningless relationship. The kind she had with Parker in her first year of college but more often.

From what you gathered as they didn’t correct her, nobody really thought Spike capable of any kind of meaningful relationship. And with him not being able to actively harm you, they just decided to avoid the topic entirely until one or both of you got bored of the sex. The only one that hadn’t thought anything of your sudden proximity with Spike every time he turned around, was Xander. He really would have said something if he had known. But he still wasn’t convinced now – no matter how often Anya insisted.

You slid your hand into his, now that everybody appeared to know that you were together at least. He smiled at this, looking down at your hands back to your face. This smile, it was softer than he would usually show in front of the Scoobies, it was one only for you. Where he felt such genuine happiness. Such adoration.

As usual, nobody really wanted to discuss your love life (rather just ignore and hope it went away) and so began to look away from you and discuss the demon again. You began following the trail of destruction. He wasn’t so hard to locate really and Buffy immediately attacked him as Willow and Anya set up in a large triangle around the fight. Each couple was at each point of the triangle as the recital occurred. A flash of light surrounded the demon and Buffy before it faded, showing the demon now fighting sluggishly.

You tried to protect Dawn the best you could while Spike and Buffy took it in turns to throw punches at the now marginally weakened demon. You and the others helped when you could but he was so strong even now the spell had worked, that humans barely affected him.

Somehow the demon broke from Spike’s hold and started for Dawn - who he had sensed as the weaker member of your group. You charged in front of your younger sister to try and distract him. This lead to him twisting you and throwing you into the air and crashing into a nearby storefront. You were flung straight against the wall and hit your head quite badly. He watched you falling like a ragdoll, appearing limp due to the blow.

His gut dropped. He left Buffy to the fight. All that mattered now was that you were okay. He had never been so scared. Spike rushed over to you, dropping to the floor so that he could cradle your head in his lap. There were a few seconds where he didn’t know what to do.

But then just as he thought he may have lost you, hope was restored again. You open your eyes, your smile a little dazed as you looked at him from your position in his lap. He looked up to the sky in relief, as if silently thanking the powers. His eyes danced with emotion as he looked back into yours. He wouldn’t know what he would do without you. Couldn’t even imagine it less his heart would begin to ache with phantom loss.

He was so overcome by the thought of losing you that he immediately caught your lips with his. Pouring every single feeling he had ever experienced for you into that one kiss. His hand cupping your cheek, the other on the small of your back – pressing you closer to him. As if this kiss may well be your very last. You reciprocated without hesitation, your lips felt as if they had been moulded just for this very moment. This kiss, it said everything. Promised everything and you smiled into it. Your lips moving against his urgently, insisting he feel your love for him. Even in your weakened state, all of your energy went into kissing him.

In the same moment, Buffy managed to finally slay the beast and Tara and Willow muttered some words that sent him into the book he would now again call home. Buffy whipped around to catch you both kissing so desperately. The rest of the group stopped still and staring too. Every mouth agape in shock. At just how much you appear to feel for the other. This wasn’t just a quick shag when the feeling struck. One wasn’t taking advantage of the other. This was love. The truest kind. And nobody could deny it now, not even Xander.

After you parted, reluctantly on both parts, he took on your weight as you all walked back, everyone except him in silence. He doted on you, pressing a kiss against your temple every few paces – just because he could now in this company. He wanted to offer you all of the comfort he could. He was whispering to you trying to make sure you didn’t fall asleep. He was sure you had a concussion (I mean, you kissed him that way in front of all of your friends without any worries after all).

Buffy didn’t even object when it appeared that Spike was walking their way home. She didn’t know what to think anymore. Everyone could see just how deeply you cared for each other. It was undeniable, even to your older sister.

Spike was just pleased you would make it and be okay. And… he began to get smug that he was finally able to show the slayer that he could access her house this entire time.

#spike btvs #spike x reader #spike imagine #spike x you #btvs #Buffy The Vampire Slayer #buffy the vampire slayer imagines #btvs x you #btvs x reader #btvs imagine #spike fic #gn #gender neutral reader #gender neutral #spike

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SXF Chapters 49-51

It has been a long time since I made a recap, but I wanted to wait until the arc had enough info to give my opinion about.

Starting with the sub plot of the Forgers, all I have to say it's that it was well constructed.

While Yor protects Olka and Gram, she subconsciously wishes to be with Loid and Anya, but wonders what she's going to do next. Not only about her job, but about her role as Forger: she accepted being Loid's wife to not worry Yuri, then she caught herself feeling threatened by Fiona enough to consider the murder for one moment.

As well as Loid, she got carried away by her feelings to the point she forgot why she was being there, as Forger and assassin, to begin with. After her talk with Yuri in chapter 44 she realized that her main goal was finished; Yuri has already grown up and she doesn't need to be a hitman to support anyone economically. But she has being an assassin for a long time and she somehow takes pride in what she does. Probably that pride will be supported by this arc if she saves Olka, Gram and Zeb.

The dilemma is complicated: she enjoys being part of this family, however, she remembers it's a facade. Being assassin has made possible the survival of her and Yuri, and she believes it helps to clean the streets of people who can harm the new world the peace has created, although it carries many consequences to her life and those around her.

One day she could have to choose a path, but she can't tell her family what she does in order to protect them and because she may be afraid of them leaving her. Mr. Forger or Thorn Princess? Maybe both?

Loid is in a similar situation: with a job he knows he helps others, getting off guard by his feelings towards his family and unable to tell them or understand Anya. I'm 100% sure he never had to face a mission that include taking care of a child, less raise one. Because of Anya's telepathy she knows what happens around her, but he doesn't; this leads him to misunderstands her attitude and think the worse.

At first he tries to act like a normal, good dad, getting as answer harsh words. In chapter 50 he cools down and return to his Twilight side for round two, failing again until Anya calms him down. Meanwhile Anya has another conflict: as any child would do she decided to obtain the tickets to have fun, believing she can help Ma on her mission.

Although she still wants to, I think it's clear in some panels that she's realized her selfishness and now she wants to help Ma to compensate it. After all, imagine being at her shoes: having parents who hide their identities from each other and put both on a cruise while your mother is on a mission that could doomed your family if your father finds out this would be a really bad thing, and the fault of this was because of her.

But she's so focused on helping Yor she forgets about Loid's feelings after all those reactions coming from her frustration that she paid with him.

Zeb and Olka, although being on screen for short time, have a good presentation. She's just a woman caught in the crossfire of a conflict between mafia groups, paid with the loss of her husband and all her sons except Gram.

Seen from afar her desire of a normal life, she's in this because she was born the daughter of a mobster, although her group may not be as bloody as one would think about mafia. I find curious the parallels between Olka and Yor: Olka didn't choose her family, fell in love with a man and became mother because of this love; Yor chose that life because of her family, became wife and mother because of it and probably it's her love towards Anya that will keep her in the family until she falls for Loid.

Zeb is the childhood friend that fell for the "bad guy" 's daughter and stayed by her side because his loyalty to her and the family that helped him become the man he's today. A coward and apparently dumb nice guy, he maybe is not qualified to protect her but knows Olka well enough to know how to reassure her, even if it means making a fool of him. I'm sorry for Olka, but I hope they get safe and someday his feelings are reciprocated.

The informant has his own problems too. It seems not all assassins respect the client-provider relationship, it's a rough job where anyone is expendable. Will he be able to scape from the boat without being killed? Will we know more about him? Only time will tell

Giving his grey morality I'd like him to survive. He already stated he gives information to who pays better so he could be a good ally or a minor antagonist.

About the chapters, this arc had been felt slow to me. However, the arc is constructed to present many things and for that Endo needs to take his time. Along with the biweekly updates the dynamic action scenes that seem short it's why the pace feels slow.

However, whether it's good for ones or bad for others, this arc is important to the story's development and I prefer that Endo doesn't overwork so I'll wait patiently to have a further understanding of how this arc contributes to the general plot.

Next chapter comes the day after my birthday. I can't wait!

+ Bonus

"A different frequency than the secret police's line". Loid's aware of the informant's transmitters placed all over the boat, mistaken them with the secret police aboard, which it doesn't need to be entirely wrong. How it would have been the arc if Yuri would have been there too? It's a good writing idea

Talking about romance, someone's going to propose. Wish you the best buddy!

That's all. Bye!

#spy x family #sxf #chapter 49 #chapter 50 #chapter 51 #anya forger #twilight #loid forger #yor forger #thorn princess

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