#and he died defending others

[little-pondhead]

DP x DC Prompt

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There are no more heroes.

Well, okay. Rewind a bit.

Danny has been doing the hero thing for a while now. He’s had a big reveal; everyone has accepted him (including his parents), the GIW disbanded, the Anti-Ecto acts repealed, and generally, everything is going great. Some of the A-Listers are even training as junior ghost hunters to help give him a break from his rogues! (Being Ghost King makes things hectic sometimes, and he just needs the extra help. Sue him!)

The point is, literally nothing is wrong with Danny Phantom’s afterlife.

And then Valerie Gray, the Red Huntress, disappears in front of his eyes.

Danny is baffled! She’s just…gone! Valerie just popped out of existence, like she was never there. But no matter how hard he searches in the Ghost Zone, he can’t find her soul anywhere. His core isn't broken in grief. So she’s not dead. Which is good. So then, where is she?

Some of the others come forward with ideas on how to find her. A few ghosts volunteer to go out into the mortal realm, an area Danny had declared off-limits, to see if she was out there. Danny approves it. He rounds up some of the friendlier (i.e., discreet) ghosts and Amity Parkers and demolishes the outside travel ban.

So everyone spreads out, looking for their dear frenemy and teammate. But it becomes apparent very quickly that something is wrong with the rest of the world.

There are no more heroes.

Every single living superhero on the face of the Earth has just…vanished. Villains are running amok; the countries are in chaos! Some aliens are invading Earth, mythical deities are trying to take over, and society is crumbling to the ground. Everything is on the brink of collapse.

Well, Danny was still there. And so were his people. They were pretty spread out, so could they just…take up the mantles? He also knew where to find the souls of dead heroes in the Zone; surely they wouldn't mind coming out of retirement for a little bit, especially if they couldn't die again. Oh! And that skeleton army leftover from Pariah Dark's reign might be useful in repelling those invading forces.

Honestly, there were more than enough hands to go around! And with the heroes gone, Danny didn't mind letting everyone out for a little break, as long as they followed his rules. They wouldn't stop the search for the other heroes, but hopefully, when they found them, the heroes wouldn't mind Danny's intervention too much. :)

In other words:

Someone fucks up, and all of Earth's living heroes are either wished out of existence or are whisked away to some far-off realm where Danny hasn't checked yet. In the attempt to figure out what's going on, Danny lets the dead run amok over the Earth as they search for clues. The skeleton army repels the invading armies, the souls of dead heroes deal with the world leaders, and his rogues and other Amity Parkers set up shop in place of famous heroes, trying to get the cities under control again.

Basically, they just do their best to keep everything from imploding until the Justice League and others are back.

(And why is it that Danny hasn't disappeared? Well, whatever caused everyone to go poof! only affected living heroes. Anyone heroes that were dead in the first place, or even just half-dead, stayed behind.)

#pondhead blurbs #danny phantom #dpxdc #reveal gone right au #ghost king au #for plot reasons #it doesn't count if the hero had died and then came back to life #lots of heroes would still be around then #but this is me pushing the halfa!jason todd narrative work with me here he deserves the fun #deadman is there too #and he's just thriving honestly. it's so nice to be around his own kind even if the world is ending #maybe ellie is whooshed away too cause she never technically died but she took up danny's moniker when he was crowned #vlad is ecstatic cause danny put him in charge of several states while they looked for clues including Wisconsin #skulker is replacing superman and just has a shitty S painted on his chest and just eats kryptonite like candy the first time he meets Lex #Kitty and Johnny take over in gotham and sam is now the new wonder woman #idk man just stupid stuff like this #the press is flabbergasted cause the fucking KING OF GHOSTS just showed up and he's 14 and just looking for some friends #Danny: hey guys sorry about the zombies and fire i'm just here to find my coworker and lil sister and maybe the other heroes #Danny: in the meantime i'll just let my army into the mortal realm to defend it while we figure out what's going on pls don't yell at us :) #the press: how do we explain this to the justice league when they come back. how do we explain that earth was saved by a 14 year old boy- #also idk which heroes are technically dead but are still kicking so if you feel like someone deserves liminal status slap it on them idc #some villains are trying for world dominance and some are just trying to find their buddies. their fight buds. where'd they go? :( #joker gets bitch slapped by a skeleton two days in and waylon becomes bffs with wulf #danny uses the watchtower as a base of operations and it's the only thing he doesn't want to give up when the heroes are back #i have no plot ideas beyond this #i just want everyone to be baffled that an army of the dead showed up while they were gone and just made sure everything stayed cool #later danny realizes he was technically the ruler of the world for a bit since his people were everywhere keeping the villains in check

[vldsideblog]

Btw Keith likes his food spicy. I’m talking redneck bullshit spicy. He’ll also add hot sauce to basically any meal possible. Half the reason he isn’t allowed to cook for other people is because he forgets that not everyone has his spice tolerance and love of putting hot sauce in spaghetti.

#the other reason he’s not supposed to cook for other people is because he’s really bad at cooking in general #pidge steals food off his plate one day and almost dies #their Italian taste buds couldn’t take it #vld #voltron #voltron legendary defender #keith kogane #keith voltron #keith headcanon #character headcanons #autistic keith #hcs #texan keith

[boysborntodie]

Hot fucking take: During the entire Pony and Darry fight, Pony was, at no point whatsoever, wrong.

Ofc I sympathise with Darry. He’s just twenty years old and had to give up everything because he needed to take guardianship of his younger brothers. Without his parents, he feels obligated to be a parental figure to Pony (not to Soda as much since Soda grew up early and found his footing) and struggles because he holds Pony to his own standards and doesn’t understand that Pony’s different. And he was so worried for Pony and cares for him so much even though he struggles to express it.

But in the end, that doesn’t change the fact that Darry does hurt Pony and there really isn’t an excuse for that. Darry’s not an abusive person but people do hurt each other. And, despite this not being his intention, he made Pony feel like Darry didn’t love him which is sad because Darry cares for Pony, of course he does, he’s struggles with expressing his feelings but he often shows it. But also Pony is not wrong for not recognising this and for feeling like he wasn’t loved because Darry was often unhappy with him (there’s many hints of Darry struggling with toxic masculinity, including this one; thinking he needed to be strict with Pony instead of coddling him like Soda does).

The point isn’t to make excuses for Darry (and esp put Pony down, it’s literally so wild to say Pony should’ve been more understanding from the start: he’s fucking 14, not only is he supposed to self-absorbed but he should be. And people who say he shouldn’t have ‘overreacted’ are plain weird); it’s to understand that Darry’s redemption isn’t in his reasons for acting, but in the fact he is genuinely apologetic (which allows Pony to forgive him) and strives to do better after. That he’s a flawed, normal person who is, in the end, determined by his decision to become better.

#darry’s one of those characters people can’t be normal about #they either label him a fucking abuser despite the fact that he’s genuinely a good person who loves and cares for the others #and struggles because he shouldn’t be in the role of a parent to his 14 year ols brother #and in the end does do better #or blame a 14 year old for getting slapped across the face #literally what the fuck did pony do here? he defended soda not even himself #and if he dis defend himself… like literally so what? #the outsiders #se hinton #ponyboy curtis #darrel curtis #darry curtis

[stop-breaking-my-heart-telltale]

if dorian didn't show up, do you think louis would have shot minnie?

I do. I know some people think either he wouldn't have or he would've missed so that's why the writers had him shoot Dorian instead, but mmmmmm no, I don't personally think so. I like to think that if he had taken the shot, his shaky hands would've caused him to shoot her fatally.

Mostly because I'm already so normal about the fact that of the Ericson crew, Marlon and Louis are the only ones with a body count. Well, that we know of, but shown to us in the game, at least. Plus, we know it's Louis' first kill.

Like yeah, Clementine and AJ become part of the crew and they have bigger body counts, and if we're counting indirect kills caused by actions, then Tenn has a count... and I guess everyone has blood on their hands for blowing up the boat... but I'm talking about killed directly with a weapon like....... I lied, I'm not normal about that at all, Louis and Marlon are the ones who have killed someone in Louis' route. I'm also not normal about the fact that Louis kills Dorian and then even as he's clearly in shock, he tries to go with Clementine to get AJ, and then later on when they talk about it, he says it feels like bile but not quite and he's glad he has it in him to do it.... listen, listen, listen... I'm obsessed with that.

Anyway, so if Louis shot Minerva, I think he would've accidentally killed her and can you imagine? He's already enough of a mess after killing the woman who pinned him down and tried to cut his finger off [or succeeded] but he knew Minerva, they were friends before the twins were taken. Even Violet couldn't kill her even though that would've been the smarter thing to do, and we know thanks to meta knowledge that killing her would've saved lives, but Violet couldn't, and I don't think Louis would intentionally either.

Speaking of Violet, if Louis killed Minerva, I hate to think about what that would've done to Vi. I think she might've actually left at that point, like what was planned before it got changed to her being burned. I don't think she would've attacked Louis over it, though, like yeah she attacked Clementine in the cell but Louis? I don't know, but I don't think so just because it's Louis and he'd be a mess about it anyway.

Though if he did kill her, it would be a neat parallel to draw... y'know, because Louis forgave AJ for killing Marlon even though he was pissed and heartbroken, and Violet was annoyed with him the entire time... but could she ever forgive Louis for killing Minerva? Y'know? We already have a similar parallel with AJ shooting Tenn, but still.

If Clementine killed Minerva in that moment, though, then I could see Violet attacking her since in her eyes, Clem proved her right.

So yeah, I get why they added the Dorian kill to his route. It adds another compelling element to Louis as a character, but we also need Minerva alive for episode 4; Louis can't kill her, he can't miss, and he's not going to stay with her because we need Violet to stay on the boat and him to be on shore for all routes.

#asks #twdg louis #twdg minerva #twdg clementine #twdg violet #twdg marlon #twdg tenn #honestly whenever i see someone say louis is the boring option i'm just like '.......that's your opinion but also how can you say that??' #then again i'm sure other people look at me saying violentine just isn't for me and they say the same thing so y'know... i can't talk haha #also time is such a weird thing because i look at the entire cell scene in louis' route and like... i'm not even mad about violet anymore #like yeah i still don't believe she was brainwashed like i'm sorry y'all only believe that because kent said something about it #not because there's all this evidence toward it in game like vi being pissed at clementine makes sense she doesn't need to be brainwashed #for it to work like her being vulnerable and easily manipulated into submission makes perfect sense especially with minerva there #it's like everyone was pissed that she attacked clementine and people needed a way to excuse it so it's not violet's fault when like... #that's literally what makes it interesting like calm down it's okay if violet is pissed and scared and behaves accordingly #also my controversial opinion of the day that i'll hide here in the tags so maybe people won't find it sksksk but #I personally find the concept of vinerva and the doomed tragedy of it more compelling than anything violentine did #like i'll defend violentine and i do believe it's an important and good ship it's just not my personal favorite #anyway but then the whole thing with lilly and minerva is so good and louis screaming FUCK YOU at minerva?? amazing love it so good #i love when the soft character who never chooses violence is so pissed off that all that anger they have boils to the surface and it's raw #like... he's SO mad he's SO furious he's SOOO UPSET like he wasn't even like this when marlon died or anything like he hit his limit #and then shooting dorian through the mouth while an accident is just well done i love it and i love his reaction of mortification #and apologizing and YET he still tries to go with clementine he's trembling and can barely string together a sentence but he wants to go #he wants to help her he wants to save aj THAT is the gut reaction he has after everything that just went down #'louis isn't loyal or good for clem because of the vote' babe tell me you don't understand any nuance of louis' character without telling m #it's fine IT'S FINE you don't have to agree and i just have to remind myself that it's fine not everyone likes louis we're okay #this drives me crazy in the best way like y'know what? i love the cells scene in louis' route all of it even the stuff i used to rant about #even the stuff that used to piss me off now i'm just like 'no wait past cj was dumb she wasn't looking at it this way aaaaaaaa' sksksks #that was my tag ted talk about the cell scene thank you

[soul-of-the-hero]

When you realize that now both Zelda and Link have functionally died, lost themselves, and remained in a magical stasis for many years for each other

#totk spoilers #botw spoilders #ITS KILLING ME FUCK THIS GAME IS DEVESTATINNGGGGGGGG #Link dying in that feild and and spending a 100 years in the Slumber of Restoration #because he died defending Zelda #then waking up wiped totally of any memory and personality completely divorced from the person he was before #and Zelda eating the Zonai Stone the person she was dying to become lost as the Light Dragon for thousands of years #just to save Link #and give him a chance at beating ganon #zelink if you want #I’m partial to it tbh but #I personally see them as indescribablly special and deeply bonded to each other #in a best freinds but way more without being traditionally romantic way #totk #botw

[magnusbae]

yall guys didn't even hear me rant about how fucked it is that Dream was not allowed to mourn his raven and how his feelings been bluntly disregarded because clearly someone else knows best for how he should mourn the loss of his companion

#I am not even nearly started ranting about how badly Dream is treated in every single episode other than episode 6 😂 😂 😂 😂 #Needless to say lucienne wasn't exactly /okay/. #Imagine your beloved friend or pet had died and someone tells you 'you need to get a new one' and you say you're not ready and unwilling #And they go and get you one anyways :))))) #We can love Matthew but it doesn't make it any less fucked that Dream's mourning and loss wishes and feelings been fully disregarded #After he clearly communicated what he wants and doesn't want #It would have been find if he said nothing and wasn't ready—an unfortunate situation #But he literally said he CAN'T have any more Ravens #The only time we saw dream cry was over Jessamy #He wasn't allowed any time to truly mourn her #And someone just decided that they know best and got him a raven despite him saying no #..... Ah...... Whoops.... It's defend dream to the fucking death week... I guess. #buns.txt #dream of the endless #buns.hc #buns.all

[lorillee]

trucy..................

#lorillee liveblogs aa4 #sorry i kind of just want to stare at a wall for a million years a moment here #she just found out her dad was alive and here not six months ago and then he died and he never even said a word to her #and not only that but her other dad literally met him and shes staring down his murderer right up on the witness stand #and not only that but the murderer on the witness stand was the man who ruined her life in the first place #by framing her other dad for forging evidence and thus getting him disbarred and her dad declared guilty #but none of that matters. none of it matters right now. her personal feelings are entirely irrelevant #because what matters right now is the truth and the defendant & perpetrator facing justice #she putting on a complete poker face so she doesnt distract apollo from his mission #and shes fifteen. shes only fifteen

[creativesplat]

Zelda's Birthday. Worst day EVER.

I couldn't figure out what to draw for the MiphLink Week prompt 'Birthday' and then decided to just sketch out some rough concepts and ideas I had for the last day of their lives, that happened on the Birthday mentioned in the game.

#This came out of the idea that Link couldn't reach Mipha and Mipha couldn't reach Link #Mipha couldn't heal him and so he died #He couldn't defend Mipha/ kill Ganon on time and so she died #hence the hands #reaching out and brushing fingers but ultimately failing #(inspired by zelda falling in the ToTK trailer) #Then it's limp (dead) Mipha being cradled in Link's arms - what Link has always regretted - he wasn't with her when she died #then it's Link and Mipha fighting for their lives (but still fighting in sinc as though they're still together - they rely on each other wh #en fighting and without her he is lacking and without him she is lacking) #and then its Link dying in Zelda's arms #and the Ghost of Mipha comforting him #miphlink #mipha #link #botw #Zelda's birthday #birthday #breath of the wild #miphlink week 2023 #miphlinkweek2023 #miphlink week #character death #ghosts #champions #should I have done fluff? #probably #oh well #someone has to keep the tragedy lovers in the miphlink community fed #and that someone is canon... #botw only

[cleromancy]

all else alside genuinely always baffled when people say "canonically when tim is sleep deprived and exhausted, he'll fall asleep at random/inconvenient places" as an argument AGAINST him drinking a lot of caffeine

#like putting aside the canon zesti thing & how adhd makes caffeine not ncs keep you awake #if this is what happens when hes not caffeinated most likely he is going to try something to remedy it. #also like theres a time when before bruce died hes getting coffee thinking about not becoming bruce and when u think about like. #other xhanges he made after bruces death esp stuff for his image as tim drake wayne ceo. #why is swapping out the energy drinks for espresso where u draw the line. #look sometimes ppl exaggerate it to the point it gets on my nerves too but #can you put some of that energy into defending jamet from the equally widespread way worse fanon that she was comically evil mayhaps. #dc #...*janet

[popiplant]

Vyncent Sol? Hella sharp face energy, he might be a good starter if you’re specifically trying not to do a Sans face? Also he’s my special guy and I’d love you forever.

what do u mean his hero costume doesn't look like that whatttt..... .. .. . ...

#ort is my passion #ask time yaya #HE JS A VERY SPECIAL GUY #SPEEDING THIS BECAUSE ITS ALMOST MIDNIGHT AND I GAVE SCHOOL TOMORROW #anyway yes i love he #beloved #also i kinda half lied #i DO draw other face shapes but they're all so.... the same... #ANYWAY ×2 #tag time #jrwi #jrwi prime defenders #jrwi pd #vyncent sol #jrwi vyncent #jrwi fanart #dies

[hecksupremechips]

Honestly though I think it’s really a bad sign when I look at Shin Tsukimi and literally feel like he’s a self insert 😩

#the klock keeps ticking #yttd #i wanna replay yttd so bad but i also like Gotta play other stuff with the time i have akskks #but yeah the brainrot this specific character has given me idk if I ever really talked about it but it was BAD #i like obsessively played the game in like 3 days and it was not a good idea lol but just like shin #i had to take like a week to recover from this guy cuz i couldnt stop thinking about him and how hes just like me fr #first off just the very inconsistent personality hes got going on that is very me he has these different personalities he wears to cope with #all the traumatic shit happening hes both so helpless its comical and so manipulative its terrifying #and idk its really interesting how like good and bad he is at being manipulative like hes very smart and can analyze weaknesses and lie so #good not even he knows the truth but hes also grasping at straws he doesnt think things through at all #like the second main game he just didnt prepare at all hes fumbling his way through everything its going so bad #he just wants to go home he wants to outdo the game makers but hes being used by them so bad he wants it to STOP #and its just the way that like. it hits so hard cuz you know hes really not a bad person not at all he doesnt want any of this hes just #being horribly manipulated and doing whatever he can to survive but its also really scary how #well hes able to lie and manipulate and claw his way through but hes also weaker than a grade schooler #and you never forget that either and as much as he cheated his way through he still failed it was all just a cheap trick in the end #and all of this hits very hard like his personality is eerily similar to mine and just the way he thinks and acts #cuz im the same like im weak and a dweeb who likes funny cats but im also emotionally detached and observant and selfish #but where it hits the hardest is his relationship with midori like oooof that one was too real just like #the first person who was ever his friend was horribly abusive and treated him like a child and didnt respect any boundaries #and he just got sick pleasure out of seeing shin be upset and he was like. a groomer #and shin was fucking relieved when he died but also kept his scarf and adopted his personality to survive #and still goes by sou after ch2 and the scene that gets me the most is when shin ai is asked about his relationship with midori #and you can just SEE how horrified shin is because his deepest shame his abuse is being shared to everyone without his consent #and hes reliving it all in that moment and literally seeing who he used to be experiencing the abuse #he just curls into himself and like covers his ears and pulls his hair thats literally what i do AAAAAA #im just so grateful for the direction they took this character kokichi ouma wishes he was shin tsukimi so bad #and yeah just like damn. its scary how similar i am to shin like damn i really am going through it huh oof #I LOVE HIM I LOVE HIM I WILL DEFEND HIM WITH MY LIFE HE DID ALL OF THAT STUFF YOUR HONOR BUT LISTENNNN #have you considered that hes cute and smart and weird and maybe just needs friends who arent assholes

[lingeringscars]

I'm having a lot of feelings about 1x11 as is to be expected. Bellamy saying what he wants to say and then saying but I'm not the guy who says stuff like that to keep up his selfish asshole image despite clearly Caring So Much the entire episode. Immediately asking raven if it helped, knowing it didn't but hoping it did anyway. How clarke says only people who can be spared should go hunt, but when clarke, finn, and myles don't come back, it's raven, Octavia, Bellamy, and monty who go search for them, all arguably essential personnel.

And then when they find myles, Bellamy does exactly what he would have done if he had been there when they were attacked. He says they need to get myles, who is extremely injured, back to camp. He immediately says he's sorry to raven when he finds out that clarke and Finn were taken, because he assumes that means they're dead or worse, but he can focus on and save this one person, myles, who is in direct danger and in need of help.

#it's such a good br/aven ep obviously but its also such a good ep that showcases who bellamy really is at his core #because these things persist! #it goes on my list of bellamy always had the ability to use his head im tired of this dichotomy list #bc instead of bringing others and risking them after dark (esp after roma died going after o) he makes the logical call #and he won't leave myles behind #and you see moving forward how often he protects or chooses to protect someone who is in direct danger even at the expense of those who will #be later / eventually #murphy goes for echos suit because emori is gonna die without the helmet #and bellamy stops him because taking off echos suit dooms her and shes in direct danger of being killed #even tho emori is also dying #anyway im back hi his biggest defender and examiner always ❤️ #muse: bellamy blake #meta: bellamy blake

[iamrizaka]

https://www.tumblr.com/iamrizaka/732187980188516352/lee-fletcher-and-michael-yew-escape-from-the-camp?source=share

Apollo gives his guilty children as slaves to Hermes.

CHILD SLAVERY! ! ONLY IN THE WORLD OF THE GREEK GODS !!!

#i dont even know what hermes will do with them #on one side apollo literally gave up his children after they betrayed others and went against the gods #ON THE OTHER SIDE he gave them up to hermes #they joined after luke #luke died to save the olympus #and hermes knows that and loves and cares for him in his own way #(im not a hermes defender i swear) #maybe he will try to be better after he sees these kids all beaten up #who followed his son with the idea of a better world #maybe he will try to help them #or maybe he doesnt care #i dunno but it will keep me up at night now #apollo #hermes #pjo #percy jackson and the olympians #pjo au #rizasks

[yuridovewing]

results are in!! im skipping the rest of avos. yay :3

#ok to compromise ill go ahead with my ‘’read the wiki and pull up the pdf for important stuff if i really feel the need’’ #i think this is for the best. as many people have said its not worth it #like theres only so many ways you can say ‘’alderheart is boring here’’. you know hes boring here #ill read the sleekwhisker parts. at least. ok. #and the shadowkit bits #just bc i know thats good context to have for tbc #other question… should i also skip squirrelflights hope #cause on one hand it sounds like an absolutely miserable read and the passages ive seen seriously piss me ofd #‘’hollyleaf died defending her lie. im allowed to bitch at this funeral bc im a quirky empath :/‘’ i want these characters to die #but on the other hand…. idk. could be interesting for tbc context…. #avos liveread

[chryzure]

aurora and chrysi should’ve been rlly close friends before the timeskip too. yesss, aurora tried to kill her, but what friend doesn’t go through phases like that? (says this to chrysi & chrysi agrees. says this to azure & he studies both of them. then agrees. says this to LUC & he’s like, “i think that’s atypical, but maybe a therapist can help you work that out.”) anyway, mostly thinking abt a charlie bone au where aurora sides w chrysi and azure and.. jacks, i guess 😬 AND all the other “good” aligned ppl in the red king’s room, and her siblings reject her for it. but it’s bc her friends are nice to her… what has her family done? shove her off to the side where she has to pretend like she’s a fairy princess to feel like she’s lovable? she’s sticking w her friends, thank you very much!!

#and she gets to use more aggressive spells to PROTECT HER FRIENDS. i think she’s the type to attack someone #for being mean to her friends… i love her oh my god my best friend my sister my daughter #but YEAH… anyway castor isn’t in the red king’s room since he doesn’t have magic (until he dies and is brought back wrong) #& he sides w aurora bc that’s his twin and also he feels left out from his family too #GOD BUT CAN WE TALK ABT AURORA’S CHILDHOOD #lala was being such a bitch abt how… aurora liked feeling like a disney princess? #for throwing flower petals behind her? and using magic? and generally entertaining herself away from her family??? #like… look between the lines… aurora was probably so lonely……… #i bet she met chrysi separate from jacks &castor #so she feels annoyed and slightly jealous of others knowing chrysi besides her #since chrysi was the only one that paid her any mind & was nice to her #of course she had a crush on chrysi… she jst didn’t process it bc the comphet came in SWINGING #chrysi&aurora childhood summertime friends…………… DO YOU HEAR ME #they’re the weird girls making potions together and pretending to be fairies!!! #and i know they did the ‘sleeping beauty’playtime thing and aurora always got flustered when chrysi insisted on being the prince #……☹️☹️☹️ STOPPPP I LOVE AURORA. AURORA VALOR DEFENDER NO.1‼️‼️‼️ #memorie.txt #p.fated #au.charlie bone

[running-in-the-dark]

shit I think I've just admitted to myself for the first time that I kind of hate my dad

#like I've had. conflicting emotions since he died in 2016 #talked through it a lot with my therapist and everything #but. #I think it's only now been long enough that I can be honest and say he really sucked #he was nicer than my mother so he was always my favourite #but he wasn't NICE #he constantly yelled at us #he never stopped my mother from blaming me for everything #right until he died he only cared about his girlfriend and his job #there was never one word about being sad about us (his children) #he did everything for whatever shitty woman he was with at the time. we were never a priority #he treated his girlfriend's daughter (my ex best friend) much better than he ever treated me and she is THE WORST. #like #fuck. that's not okay #he left his first wife and his two small children for my mother #he's always been shitty and I just didn't want to admit that both of my parents were not nice #I mean like I thought it was normal to constantly insult each other and like call your children/parents assholes and whatever #but that's not normal??? #like I even had to defend his shitty girlfriend's daughter all the time. she was so young still and he constantly said mean shit about her #fuck. I'm just so tired #I don't want to think about this anymore #and I will never admit this out loud around anyone in my family. because it was always my mother vs my dad and I was in the middle and #everything he did was my fault. he was the worst so I was the worst #(oh but they also had an affair for like 20 years after their divorce. while she was married and he was in several relationships) #(fuck my parents really just suck all around in every fucking way ľ