#anyway im back hi his biggest defender and examiner always ❤️

[lingeringscars]

I'm having a lot of feelings about 1x11 as is to be expected. Bellamy saying what he wants to say and then saying but I'm not the guy who says stuff like that to keep up his selfish asshole image despite clearly Caring So Much the entire episode. Immediately asking raven if it helped, knowing it didn't but hoping it did anyway. How clarke says only people who can be spared should go hunt, but when clarke, finn, and myles don't come back, it's raven, Octavia, Bellamy, and monty who go search for them, all arguably essential personnel.

And then when they find myles, Bellamy does exactly what he would have done if he had been there when they were attacked. He says they need to get myles, who is extremely injured, back to camp. He immediately says he's sorry to raven when he finds out that clarke and Finn were taken, because he assumes that means they're dead or worse, but he can focus on and save this one person, myles, who is in direct danger and in need of help.

#it's such a good br/aven ep obviously but its also such a good ep that showcases who bellamy really is at his core #because these things persist! #it goes on my list of bellamy always had the ability to use his head im tired of this dichotomy list #bc instead of bringing others and risking them after dark (esp after roma died going after o) he makes the logical call #and he won't leave myles behind #and you see moving forward how often he protects or chooses to protect someone who is in direct danger even at the expense of those who will #be later / eventually #murphy goes for echos suit because emori is gonna die without the helmet #and bellamy stops him because taking off echos suit dooms her and shes in direct danger of being killed #even tho emori is also dying #anyway im back hi his biggest defender and examiner always ❤️ #muse: bellamy blake #meta: bellamy blake