#and I'm always about to cry

[paigelts05]

Someone wake me up when the twats in charge at unity have backpeadled their "pay per install" plan entirely.

I'm too tired for this shit.

#game development #game dev #unity #I've been making a game in unity #and the news of that change made me actually feel physically ill #it's like there's a pit in my stomach that won't go away #and I'm always about to cry #all happiness is overshadowed by the fact that not only a game engine I use has gone to shit #but that everyone else is suffering this crap too #is this what depression feels like? #fuck unity

[chthonic-kids]

IT'S ON SIGHT CHRONOS

#hades #hades game #hades supergiant #hades 2 #hades 2 spoilers #THIS IS ALL SHE HAS TO REMEMBER THEM BY #CHRONOS YOU ABSOLUTE BASTARD #this trope in fiction always fucks me up real bad and i'm trying so hard not to cry about it #SHE'S GOTTA SAVE A FAMILY SHE BARELY KNOWS BUT STILL LOVES #melinoë #zagreus #persephone

[asukachii]

In the summer-like colors running down my cheeks

The words that curse you are stuck in the back of my throat

"Will we meet again?"

[black and white version]

(I don’t like putting watermarks so, PLEASE, if you want to post these gifs somewhere GIVE CREDITS! Also, don’t use them in edits/videos. Thanks~)

#jujutsu kaisen #gojou satoru #gojo satoru #getou suguru #geto suguru #satosugu #jjk 236 #spoilers #jjk #jjk edit #jjk spoilers #gif #my animation #asukachii #i have like four or five different versions of these... i'm always so indecisive #btw i'm gonna cry for them and i'm still in the delusional stage for gojou #i'm probably going to notice some mistakes or things i want to change tomorrow morning i just know (..) #also i must admit i was tempted to post them here on december 24th... that would have been so perfect #but i'm an impatient person so. #i'm about to implode

[aletterinthenameofsanity]

There's something to be said about Nine and Twelve as parallels, about them being these seeming grumps with hearts of gold who must relearn optimism while being fundamentally kind at the end of the day, and Eleven and Thirteen as parallels, as these lonely tinkerers who travel with multiple companions at the same time but push people away before they get too close because they are creatures built on grief, and Ten alone, as something that is all and none of the above, who starts out as a creature born of love but who loses said love and is willing to die and must find grounding but loses said grounding and declares himself the Time Lord Victorious because if he cannot have love he has to have something, anything, he can call his own, and about how all five of them are shaped, fundamentally, by their grief and their guilt over the Time War and being the last of their kind and how every companion leaves them and they will always, always be the last one in the TARDIS, always be the last one surviving, no matter what, and yet all of them, at the end of the day, die to save someone. Die to be kind, just one more time. Because that is what ties them all together. That is what makes them the Doctor.

#it's just something i've been thinking about when writing eleven and thirteen #ninth doctor #tenth doctor #eleventh doctor #twelfth doctor #thirteenth doctor #hi i'm having a lot of feelings about my favorite tragic hopeful kind afraid angry protective LONELY alien today #it's about how they stole a TARDIS and ran away from home #about how they've always been running #and then the Time War keeps them running #and so do their companions #the companions that push them to be kind also push them to be cruel #because they are both the source of hope and tragedy at the end of the day #and i'm fine #i'm not crying you're crying #doctor who #meta

[wilsonsmcgillsweatshirt]

I will never recover from the knowledge that thymoma generally has a very high survival rate, and in most cases that it becomes fatal, the patient has unknowingly lived with the cancer for years. There's a chance that Wilson was sick for half the series and didn't even know it.

#I'm just imagining House looking back at the last few years in horror thinking about the possibility that Wilson had been sick all along #I can see it leading to him feeling like all of their memories are tainted #House definitely blames himself as well even though it was never in his control #I can't imagine how much his already extreme self-hatred was amplified #And he probably looked back at all the mistakes he made and all the fights they had and realizing that - #- while they were having all these fights that now seem so trivial that Wilson was probably sick #They wasted all that time unknowingly with Wilsons cancer slowly progressing as they argued and fought #It makes me want to cry #I'm not a doctor and I know this obviously isn't always the case but from what research I've done this seems the be the standard mostly #house md #house #greg house #james wilson #gregory house #hilson #wilson #housemd #favs #favourites

[villa-kulla]

So in the end, Breaking Bad was about loving life at the expense of the people around you, and Better Call Saul is about loving the people around you at the expense of your life. 

god.

#better call saul #breaking bad #bcs spoilers #that is not even a spoiler it has been the theme tHE WHOLE ENTIRE TIME #IT'S ABOUT LOVE IT'S ALWAYS BEEN ABOUT LOVE GODDDDDDDD #wow just wow #beautifully done #crying again lmao wOW #speechless #but it was literally everything i wanted. #anyways #i'm a wreck lol #shares

[winepresswrath]

sudden yearning for time travelling teen jiang fengmian lands at lotus pier fic that winds up being about a perfectly nice kid having a varying series of "oh no. i don't like that. that's a lot" reactions.

#i think in order for this to be satisfying i have to give grace and interiority to teenmian #i'm picturing an older teen like 18ish? maybe even early 20s? #big crush on csr he's already pretty sure isn't going to work out #but at least he'll always have wei-xiong #anyway this is my ploy to give jfm a chance at an ugly crying meltdown #he's trying so hard to be even keeled and like #maybe take this as an evil vision designed to teach him something #but somewhere in between my crush stole my man and then they died #my whole sect burned #my grown ass son who is older than me making the vibe sooooo weird #and my grandson! child of my dead???? daughter?????? #is just like yeah he never talks about you. no never never #and then wwx blows into town and idk somehow they all end up at dinner together and jfm politely calls lqr a punk ass bitch in front of lwj #because what???? context clues suggest lqr has the fucking nerve to not like wei xiong's baby after All That #only for adult son with the weird vibes #to imply only filial piety is keeping him from naming the real #punk ass bitch #anyway this ends with jfm crying because clearly he marries yuanyuan and she HATES HIM and then his own son ALSO HATES HIM #and would rather stupid Lan-er-gongzi #be his dad. #if you like lqr so much why don't you just join the lan sect then????? #and that's how jc learns he didn't get it all from his mama #jc didn't mean it he was stressed! this isn't his dad it's an a-ling sized kid. but it's still stressful

[hajihiko]

Having an angry little friend can be good when you need someone to be pissed on your behalf

#I've always found it very cathartic when people get angry over stuff I've kinda chilled about #I'm no good at being mad but I like to be bitchy on my friends behalf so they can feel the vindication without being mean lol #Fuyuhiko kuzuryu #Hajime hinata #Sdr2 #Super danganronpa 2 #Danganronpa 2 #Kuzuhina #They're talking about the Experimental Human Rights Violations #An art #I think everyone should get to indulge in punching things about their issues just as much as they should cry and laugh abt it

[fridayyy-13th]

don't mind me, just thinking about this MAG 022/MAG 200 parallel again for the ten-thousandth time

#man. tma was right those words can last. crying #i know this has been talked about front-to-back it's not like i'm thinking up any new analysis #but this just. always manages to wreck me. every time #friday chats #the magnus archives #mag 022 #mag 200 #jonmartin #jonathan sims #martin blackwood

[arthursfuckinghat]

#there's so many more but feel free to let me know any others you like! #personally I love william so much like what a down to earth guy he's always so cheery and fascinated by plants like arthur #his sweet nature and the way he interacts with arthur- god I could cry #and he always remembers arthurs name 😭 #“well I'm ignorant ugly and nasty” #“well lets see if we can do something about that :)” #god I love u william you're so lovely #the way they get so casual and friendly the more you complete his requests too :') #he wants to help arthur #gahh #rdr2 #red dead redemption 2 #mick squeaks #arthur morgan #william rdr2 #blind man cassidy rdr2 #moonshiners rdr2 #hamish sinclair rdr2 #marko dragic rdr2 #albert mason rdr2 #algernon wasp rdr2 #francis sinclair rdr2 #margaret rdr2 #charles chatenay rdr2 #mr black rdr2 #mr white rdr2 #charlotte balfour rdr2 #whew #tumblr polls #polls

[jeiyuuen]

Honestly, how am I supposed to live normally with the knowledge that Luffy's flower is sunflower while Law's is Queen of the Night?

#I'm not usually insane over sun and moon things but #they can have it #And looking into Law's flower has been very fun and productive #gave me much to think about #this may seem like a jump but all I can think is that Luffy would absolutely treasure Law #I wish I can articulate my thoughts better but we know Luffy very much treasures what is currently in front of him #He thinks of the Law that's in front of him #Not the one who might not be there tomorrow #Sending my brainwaves to fellow mentally ill people #lawlu #lulaw #jeiyu txt #No because the sad connotations of Law's flower is the part that HE would focus on #But it's okay because Luffy is different #And has always viewed him as a good thing in his life ever since Law saved him in Marineford #Their reunion in Punk Hazard is insane btw because Luffy was really so happy to see him again I'm gonna cry

[bestiarum]

#always. #like one moment i'm laughing at something jaskier says and a second later i start crying because i think about #literally anything lol #and also The Horrors of trying to make everything in the books make sense AND reconcile it with the games and whatnot #and then think of the implications of everything #like one thing that always gets me is thinking about what happens After. like how the witchers all have to die. #and all the other characters too #anyway yeah i've been thinking about this way too much lol #the witcher #wiedźmin #wiedzmin #geralt of rivia

[mymarifae]

i think the most important thing in the world is vbs being best friends who love each other so much and are super affectionate with each other like. listen to me:

- when toya hugs kohane he'll pick her up a tiny bit (a tiny bit is all he can manage. noodle arms) and she squeals with delight every time

- toya just really likes hugs in general. it's suuuuper common for him to just come up behind akito or an or kohane and wrap his arms around them and lean his head against theirs. hello and goodbye hugs with him always last a good 20 seconds because he won't let go sdjfjsnfkd

- kohane loooooves to tuck her hand in the crooks of her teammates' elbows while they're walking together. this way she won't get lost <3 sometimes she'll hold onto like, akito's elbow with one hand and an's with the other. it's very cute. and as vbs has grown closer, she's started to switch to hand holding. (don't tell anyone but akito's her favorite to hold hands with because he swings their arms as they walk and it's cute)

- also, kohane's hair tends to be messy because of her damn hats and this bugs akito so he spends a lot of time fussing over it. he'll just sort of...tug her closer and take out the pigtails and comb through it with his fingers. at some point she starts packing a brush in her bag to placate him. i like to think akito knows how to do hair because ena will sometimes make him do hers so after a while he stops just rebrushing kohane's hair and starts pulling it up in different ways... braiding it... etc... and he starts keeping things like hairspray in His bag. yknow. jic

- the hairstyling extravaganza extends to an and toya too. (i mean there's only so much akito can do with toya but he tries...) it's a calming thing for him - fiddling with his teammates' hair as they plan setlists or wait backstage. and having your hair played with is always nice <3

- i think shortly after teaming up an started giving kohane little kisses on the cheek. not as a romantic gesture - just simple affection! and after a while, she starts kissing toya and akito too. toya is always happy to lean down so she can pepper his face with little platonic kisses, but she usually has to wrestle akito. it's all in good fun and he'll always relent and let her kiss him in the end

- speaking of platonic kisses, i ALSO think that akito gives toya little kisses from time to time. it started back when they were still BAD DOGS. toya wasn't having a great time one night and after soothing him with a good sturdy hug, akito kissed the top of his head. it completely floored toya and akito blew up when he realized what he did. and they never fucking talked about it <3 but since toya didn't seem MAD about it, akito decided to stick with it and kept giving toya kisses like that. it's not common, and he ONLY does it when they're alone. except for when they make up after their little divorce arc in the main story. IGNORE the gunjo sanka mv and listen to me. they HUG after their heart to heart. and akito kisses toya's cheek. right around where he punched him

- but an's overaffectionate nature kind of rubs off on akito after a while. so he becomes less stingy when it comes to kisses and starts giving them to kohane and an too <3

- they lean against each other while sitting like kohane might cuddle into toya's side or an goes and lays her head on akito's shoulder

- and they have sleepovers and they fall asleep comfortably tangled up together (or not comfortably. at all. seriously cuddling while sleeping can get so uncomfy but it's worth it to be so close to someone you love). ken's taken quite a few adorable (and sometimes really funny) pictures of all four of them passed out on piles of blankets and futons. just dad things

i could go on forever it's just. platonic affection is so important to me and it's so frequently Ignored in fandom spaces. and in the case of vbs and the prsk fandom specifically, there's a tendency to separate vbs into akitoya VS anhane. which is so 💔 because the whole POINT of their story is that while they started off as separate duos, that's no longer the case! they've become such good friends. they're inseparable.

like even jokes about akito and an being "wlw and mlm hostility" are starting to wear on me because... they're friends, guys. they're incredibly close. akito is always looking out for an and is right by her side to support her through all the shit she's currently struggling with. there's no "hostility" present in their relationship. like, if you actually look at the game's text, an... rarely teases akito. the person who teases him the most is actually toya but you know... whatever... gotta reduce an down to a mean lesbian amirite... completely ignoring that she's one of the kindest characters in the whole game...

idk. i juuuuuust wish that this fandom wasn't so defensive and obsessive over shipping akitoya and anhane (mostly akitoya while anhane is a second thought but YOU KNOW) because it results in so many people watering down vbs as individuals And as pairs - because all they care about is shipping. like i promise that the other dynamics in vbs are worth exploring (both platonicallyand romantically but too much of this fandom still feels threatened by m/f vbs ships). and hell, explore akitoya and anhane on a platonic level, too! don't just jump to shipping them because teehee boyxboy and girlxgirl. take the time to understand what draws them together in the first place

i love friendship. i love when friends outwardly express their affection for each other and it doesn't have to have any romantic implications. can we talk about friendship for once like this game is literally The Ultimate Friendship Simulator feat. Hatsune Miku

#it's so dark in here #project sekai #akito shinonome #an shiraishi #kohane azusawa #toya aoyagi #vivid bad squad #kind of a cross-post from twitter i'm just thinking about these dorks again... #every day i become more and more partial to akikoha and antoya over akitoya and anhane. like i'll always love vbs every way but #the set up of akikoha and antoya more clearly represents how much their friendships have grown. yknow. i'm going to cry #also antoya is so funny because it's like the only an ship where she gets completely disarmed and becomes an easily flustered mess #and toya isn't even doing anything. he's just standing there being a corny dork and an's like AAAAAA AKITO HOW DO YOU PUT UP WITH HIM #and akito just laughs. and gets a pillow thrown in his face for it #polysquad and m/f vbs ships are GOODyou are all just mean. #also if you ask me there is no 'm' in vbs anyway akito's a lesbian and toya is. um. all of it.evrry gender but also NONE of them 💖

[vcrnons]

WOOZI Headliner @ UNESCO Youth Forum

#woozi #jihoon #lee jihoon #seventeen #svt #*mine #my gif #tw eyestrain #svtgifs #forsvt #heymax #maddieblr #userhev #usermery #jennalook #userbexrex #i always feel like there's someone i've forgotten I'M SORRY #anyway do we have a second to discuss his hands. his. his hands #can we talk about them real quick because i-- #crying into my soup rn

[to-be-a-dreamer]

So on the list of things that have made Gorgug genuinely mad:

Telemaine Lomenelda

That time Fabian tried to kill him over a fake hat

Learning what his parents do in their free time

Guy claiming he never shits

An FBI agent showing up at his house without a warrant

Porter (just in general but specifically Porter being one of the multiclass paladin advisors)

Tell me what I'm missing this is fun it's like the world's slowest drinking game

#i have never been normal about a zac oyama character and gorgug has always been one of my very special little guys #but he is on top of his game this season i am loving him #i really hope that 'i think gorgug might be getting a little too mean' is a joke and not an actual thing i will cry #let him be a sweet little guy with anger issues #i mean like i'm so down for more gorgug character development #but it's gonna hurt my soul #gorgug thistlespring #zac oyama #fantasy high #fantasy high junior year #fhjy #dimension 20 #dimension 20 fantasy high #dimension 20 fhjy #d20 fhjy #dropout tv #this show has too many tags

[fire-lizard-ro]

Lil post about HSR men with religious themes for none have lead me into temptation I found the way myself-

This is for you @pix3lplays <333 (I was screaming at her about it, lol-)

I love???? Religious themed characters and the works that come out of that??? I have an Argenti smut fic in the works with heavy religious themes, but here's a mini ramble about Argenti, Sunday, and Luocha.

CW: blasphemy :))), religious themes, softcore gore almost but not really???, somewhat dark themes/dark romance

Yeah I grew up with church and stuff sorry if some of it does make sense to the general public lololol-

For Argenti (snippets from my fic I'm working on):

"He would sooner rend his mortal form to pieces than ever hurt you. Even a little. He would splay his torn shell across the canvas of stars that blanket the universe that was made for you for whatever other higher powers- whatever fate exists should there ever come a day in which his hands hurt rather than protect. So that they may judge what remains of his soul for his crime."

"At your behest he would present his heart, ripped from his chest, for you to take. You were his heart, anyways… Without you there was only a hollow cage within his chest where never again would the echo of a heartbeat reside. The fire nothing but ash where there was once a blaze of life and passion."

For Sunday:

It's either he makes you his church and his bride (talking about how the church is god's bride) or you make him your elohim your "I am". Perhaps both.

His penchant for control is perfect for this. He will be your only god for you are to have no false idols. Only he must remain in your heart for he is the owner of your soul, your life, your breath. He is the light and the truth. His word is law.

But of course, a god must tend to his flock. He will take good care of you for your devotion.

For Luocha:

The thorns. The almost rosary like item he carries, wrapped around his hand. The words he speaks. "Death is not the end. The dead will return."

Pix brought to my attention the idea that some have about Luocha carrying your body, devoid of breath and life, in his coffin.

And to that I respond:

"So devoted was he that not even the sacred soil of the earth would be allowed to have you. Even in death."

He would search until the ends of the universe to find a way to bring you back to him. Even though his god was made of flesh and blood as he, it mattered not. Only you could possibly be the divine for you were his cornerstone. Without you he would fall apart. God works in the waiting and surely this was his divine burden- His test from you to prove his devotion. He was sure he would one day complete this task for you and bring you back. You, the life beyond death. You the light in the midst of his darkness. His eloah, his elohim, his almighty.

#Roro writes #CW: blasphemous use of religious themes and sayings #fight me about it I will not apologize ofwjegoi- #THEM!!! #hsr x reader #honkai star rail x reader #hsr sunday x reader #sunday x reader #hsr argenti x reader #argenti x reader #hsr luocha x reader #luocha x reader #Roro almost always has brainworms about this sort of thing so here have this- #screaming crying when is it my turn gimmie #I need more of this sort of thing someone please write it I'm starving so I had to write it and feed myself #oh to languish in the devout love of a servant worshiping their god oiwjgei- #aAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA-