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starlos-hat · 4 months

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Slight UTY Genocide spoilers... i love this silly bird... also she is transfem!!!

#uty #ut yellow #undertale yellow #my art #uty martlet #martlet uty #undertale yellow martlet #martlet undertale yellow #sorry i haven't posted all day i've been a bit burnt out #also i'm still sick so that's fun...#plus im working on ch2 of if lost return to! so!#hope you guys look forward to it <3 take my silly art instead #starlos hat #ALSO her estrogen syringe is the dt vial LOOOL

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merrigel · 5 months

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I want it back = I drag its dead weight forward

#artists on tumblr #animation #in stars and time #isat #illustration #in stars and time spoilers #isat spoilers #like for real #anyway I'm still thinking about Siffrin Instarsandtime #shoutout to tumblr user jb-blunk for the words from the caption which inspired this whole deal #literally finished the game and had those words looping (haHA) in my head like 'how do I use this what can I do to match this feeling' LMAO #if you haven't played ISAT well. first of all stop looking don't glean anything from this shhhh- but also GO PLAY IT IT'S EXCELLENT #heavily based off the astronomical clock in Prague! I love that thing so it was really fun to try and make it more ISAT-like #bc the themes are already there yanno!! Stars n' whatnot! And then of course the craft types instead of the astrological signs!#Loop and the King for the sun and the moon!!#can you tell I thought about and planned this one for like. A while. Longer than I usually spend LMAO #so yeah go play it immediately come be absolutely ILL and SICK and PLAGUED about the secret boss with me #fanart #pic

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scificrows · 10 months

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Okay, my brain refuses to think about anything other than Murderbot, so I looked at every use of the word "friend[s]" in TMBD and... created some pie charts. Normal human activities.

Some Thoughts™ I had while putting this together (under the cut):

In All Systems Red, Murderbot notes that the PresAux crew are all close friends (twice! and goes on to explain their internal relationships which I think is very cute). This is pretty much the only use of 'friends' in ASR, except for when Murderbot says that SecUnits can't be friends with each other.

It seems that this may be one of the first times Murderbot has ever really been around a group of friends before? Murderbot notes that this is not the norm for its contracts and admits that the fact that they are all friends and the way they interact with each other make it actually enjoy that contract (before!!!! the hostile attack, so it already enjoys this contract before they start seeing it as a person etc ghghhhh). [Inference: Friendship seems enjoyable.]

The first character that calls Murderbot its friend is ART in Artificial Condition. Murderbot immediately refutes this (and then goes on to call ART its friend to its clients for the rest of the book). [Inference: Maybe ART is Murderbot's friend. And maybe that is... agreeable]

Rogue Protocol has more than twice as many instances of the word 'friend' as any of the other novellas. Why? Miki. Friendship and its implications for non-humans are a central theme because Miki is friends with everyone. Murderbot initially scoffs at the notion that Miki and Miki's humans are friends. At the end of the book, after witnessing how desperately Don Abene tried to stop Miki from trying to save them, and her grief after its death, Murderbot has to admit that she had in fact been Miki's friend. [Inference: Humans can be friends with bots and can sincerely care about them]

In Exit Strategy, Murderbot tentatively uses the word "friends" for its humans for the first time (several times actually). It questions whether it can actually call them its friends or not and later realizes that it had been afraid what admitting that the humans are its friends would do to it. At the end of the book, Mensah tells Murderbot the PresAux crew are its friends, which is the first time a human has directly said that to it (at least on-page). [Inference: Humans can and want to be Murderbot's friends]

In Network Effect, Murderbot seems to be more habituated to the word 'friend', confidently calling ART and Ratthi its friends, like it is no longer just trying the concept on unsure if it fits. There are many instances in which other characters refer to MB as ART's friend or the other way around and Murderbot's humans refer to Murderbot as their friend several times. Generally, there seems to be less hesitancy, because yes, all of them are Murderbot's friends, why wouldn't they be. [Inference: SecUnits can have friends. This SecUnit has friends. They care about it a lot.]

Conclusion: The Murderbot Diaries tell the story of a construct that does not seem to consider the possibility of friendship for itself and is fine with that - until it accidentally starts caring a little too much and suddenly more and more people annex it as a friend (ew) to the point where it can no longer deny that this is happening and has to begrudgingly admit that yes, it has friends now and maybe that is actually not a bad thing.

#the murderbot diaries #murderbot #𓄿 #hi i'm READY to write a thesis about murderbot i am having way too much fun with this #i created a pretty excel spreadsheet and everything #i don't know why i did this but now i can look at them while i think about this more! so i figured i'd share them haha #i didn't count uses of 'friendly' but special shoutout to when MB is all alone in its cold cubicle missing 20% of its body mass #and starts putting on a show because 'the friendly noise would keep it company' 😭😭#i feel sick thinking about murderbot all alone on its own not knowing what its like to have friends watching media for 'the friendly noise'#also YES okay i wanted to make a point about miki there but i just #couldn't bring myself to talk about that more so... yeah #also uhhh this data is very subjective #i didn't count particularly ironic uses of 'friend' and generally did not count every instance of friend and sometimes it was a hard call #also i probably shouldn't have counted the times murderbot refered to drones or secsystems as its friends (often after hacking them)#but murderbot does seem to care about them and shows kindness and respect and sometimes points out that a system is friendly #so while i don't think MB means “friend” in the same way referring to them as when it refers to ART for instance #i still think its CUTE and also kinda funny how many times that happened so i decided to keep those!!!#but yeah take my data with a grain of salt lol

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crystallizsch · 14 days

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Okay obviously Yuusha is shipped with Jamil because baby idiots /aff

But I can’t remember… is Yuuna shipped with anyone?

Does our favorite floofy-haired silly have a ship or are they just focused on their platonic soulmates Tweedle Dee, Tweedle Dum, and Tweedle Dumber (Ace, Deuce, and Grim - who is who? You decide! 🤣)?

HI HI YES yuusha and jamil, my baby idiots, i cant separate them ever 😔💖

also,,, i finally have an excuse to share this silly shitpost i had from a while ago that i didn't know when to post ---

(this is a joke) (and im pretty sure this joke has been said and done before LMAO)

okay so to actually answer your question: as of now, the main "ship" yuuna has is with tweedle dee (ace), tweedle dum (deuce), and tweedle dumber (grim) as their platonic soulmates 😤💖

when yuuna was my only yuu oc, i used to ship them with riddle (unrequited -> platonic) and leona (platonic)

and jamil (romantic) but shhhh that's some old and forbidden lore (lowkey i was insane for all that)

although i'm kinda thinking about bringing back that unrequited-crush-from-riddle plotline ---

(im going to have a short-ish ramble about it below if anyone is interested hfjdsajfklds)

i'm so mean to riddle aaagh bc i thought it’d be interesting if i had riddle have an unrequited crush on yuuna :,D

bc i like the idea of riddle being like "hey i insulted you and was Not A Good Person and Almost Killed You, but for some reason you're still willing to be kind to me and be friends with me" to yuuna

cue attempts at "courting" yuuna -- with riddle reading books, looking up stuff, asking for advice, etc.

he invites yuuna on a "date" without it being explicitly stated that it's a date; yuuna just thinks they're hanging out

come the confession and yuuna is just like "oh :D?" "i'm sorry i only see you as a friend"

but it’s okay they both get over it and they see each other as genuine friends now :]

anyways have some old art of them :3

also also i’m still debating on whether or not i want ace be another unfortunate unrequited crush

bc there's like a scenario i imagined where riddle sees ace making the same look he was making towards yuuna when he had a crush on them and then ace denying it

(this thought process is all inspired by the ghost bride event bc ACE IN THAT EVENT OMGGG)

sigh

i dont talk about ace much either but honestly i have a soft spot for him too 🥺

like the way he cares So Much (in his own being-a-little-shit way) and is just overall really genuine and protective of his friends

ahgklsjfldjsl

alright i'll end it here --

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coolsvilleprincess · 26 days

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Everybody give it up for more cleaned up sketches!! This time it's characters that I have simply been thinking about recently that are not the main gang, yes I did get distracted while cleaning up my Shaphne sketches, yes this is the result now I must return to the caves to finish them.

#my art #scooby doo #scooby doo fanart #Asamad Van Ghoul #scooby doo and the curse of the 13th ghost #the 13 ghosts of scooby doo #deputy dusty #yabba doo #scrappy and yabba doo #googie #scooby doo and the reluctant werewolf #red herring #a pup named scooby doo #I fear my element is either cute girls or older men there is no inbetween tbh #Asamad van ghoul is the only canon thing I took away from the curse movie tbh I like him and the concept of him he can stay #contantly thinking about how they tried something with dusty and yabba and then decided to never mention them again sick and twisted #they would be so good for a DTDVD movie guest star spot tbh like in my head the western vibe would go CRAZY hard #and I miss Googie like she's so cute and her colour scheme scratches my brain but her only movie is about CARS!! it's so sick and twisted #she should be at the club!!!#and red herring comeback would also be fun like would adult Fred and adult Red Herring still have a rivalry years later?? much to discuss #I feel like it has a good comedy premise tbh #I'm just yapping here I'm so sorry #Next order of business is to finish me shaphne sketches I got distracted whoops

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concert-bflat · 11 months

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Thinks about how. Gloreth only starts looking at Nimona differently/strangely when her parents call her a "monster". Just throws that label with such a negative connotation on her. Gloreth fucking fights for Nimona immediately in the beginning saying that she's her friend and never once looks at her with ridicule until her mom just holds her by the shoulders and tells her she's a monster, straight in the eye, straight in the face. And just the word is enough to cause the change.

Nimona's getting fucking attacked and prodded and Gloreth doesn't even feel sorry for her just because she's now re-contextualizing everything around her but with that word. I'm so sick. She looks not in hesitance but at disbelief before she runs away. She sees Nimona trying to defend herself from literal Danger in any way she can (she's just a kid and she's fighting with people who won't listen, never will, people that she can't get through) but just sees that as more proof of her being violent, monstrous. She sees her friend all alone, with the odds and the world stacked against her despite them being. so similar but just tells her to go back to the shadows.

And like. Of course she believes those words calling Nimona a monster and takes them to heart. Her parents, the ones she would probably trust most are the ones that told her that. And she's young, she doesn't know much about the world or much better. And of course, her parents and the whole village don't know any better. They didn't see what she saw. They don't know or feel the need to know much more than the definition of the word "monster". But it hurts. God it hurts. It's wrong. It's not fair. It's really not fair.

And it causes this whole legend that will stay with Nimona to ridicule her for generations and generations and birth this system that she's trapped by and causes everyone to be so brainwashed. The one that makes people scared and build walls. That births unecessary distrust.

God. Even in the scroll illustrating Nimona and Gloreth, Nimona is portrayed as such a bigger and scarier threat than she ever could be or would be, until Nimona internalized and gave into those images and despair of course. It's not fucking fair.

Thinking about how when the villagers saw Nimona as a "normal" person they were happy for her just living her life and playing with her friend, she was just another kid being happy like she and every ("normal", apparently) person deserves to be, and they were allowing her to be happy then when they find out what she really is they hate her. They call her a monster and drive her out immediately. They don't look into the details that contradict the stigma, they just feel betrayal when they weren't even the ones who were betrayed (Nimona couldn't fucking help being who or what she was. And she was her own person. She was still. A someone. Why do things have to be different now?). I'm so sickkk.

Thinks about how Nimona feels so hopeless as to just. Accept and yield to that label. That label that was passed down to Gloreth. To the whole world. Such simple but awful words. Aughhhhhhhhhhh

Another post I saw talks about how this is a movie about how hate is taught. And oh my god it is. Hate it taught. It's done so simply yet so, painfully effectively. So devastatingly. And that hate teaches people to hate the world back. God I fucking loooove this movie

Also Nimona's such a Creature /pos /affectionate she's so relatable I fucking love her and I'm insane okay that's the post bye

#nimona #nimona movie #nimona gloreth #this is all to jsut say the trans allegory is INSANEEEHAUEORBHAEOH it. touched me.#watched this movie with some irls after never hearing of it befroe in my LIFE and. as a person who had. a very miserable june at home #and is still having kind of a miserable time at home #this movie made me feel. very accepted and loved :)#lmao at one of the emotional points with nimona one of my irls like dragged me in for a hug #because i was laugh-sobbing very loudly because being dramatic is fun LMAO exagerrated reaction y'know #and they said it's because they couldn't tell if i was actually crying or not #and while i don't think i was in that moment #i think i was genuinely crying at some point #not in an obvious way. just slight tears. and not the laughing kind #and it was great. what a great movie <3333 #the fact these themes are also. extremely prevalent in another piece of media im currently hyperfixated on is sooo unfair you can't do that #also unrelated but i love how casually ballister and ambrosius' relationship is portrayed #it's so nice to see it just. be there. and be wonderful #all in all yeah great movie i am now sick for life <3 #also i spent this whoel post misspelling “nimona” as “nimora” i'm :skull: good thing i reread and edit before posting

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shikai-the-storyteller · 11 months

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Vegetta heard that some members of the server are scared of him and he was like "Why? I'm not even a tryhard, I was the last person to get slime armor" and I'm like... Vegetta people are already scared of you, WHY would you respond to that with "But this isn't even 1% of my true power''

#i talk #qsmp talk #Vegetta be like ''This isn't even my final form''#Vegetta be like ''well if you're going to be scared of me at least let me give you a good reason for it /pos'' lmao #It's always so baffling to me (as a KarmaIand fan) seeing how Vegetta's depicted in Fool/igetta fanworks #because the way people often depict Foolish as this incredibly powerful demigod (only sometimes incorporating his actual personality / lore #is how people depicted Vegetta (minus the ''we're disregarding his personality'' part that sometimes happens) in Karmaland #Like it's almost a perfect reverse uno in terms of how people depict Vegetta in KarmaIand vs Q.S.M.P #I'm not mad about it or anything I'm just genuinely amused by how people manage to underestimate him and STILL are afraid of him #like oh honey....... whatever Foolish's ties to immortality and godhood are pale in comparison to Vegetta's #(This is nothing against Foolish BTW his lore on the previous server was fun and I'm bitter we never got to see more of it)#(The entire death totem thing was sick and also the concept of totem gods is so interesting)#The way Vegetta is depicted in Karmaland is very strange #he seems like a being (not necessarily a god but definitely something powerful)#who made their world then stepped back so he could be a part of it #So even though he respects the guidance of elders like Merlon #(to some degree)#and talks about the ''gods'' (admins) as higher powers #the world still bows to him #and that includes the QSMP world #realistically we know this is because every single admin adores Vegetta and grew up with him #but we're looking at this through a lore lense #I can get into this more later - I feel like I should elaborate on my thoughts here and add some canon backing to explain myself a bit more #but you get the jist #Me: let's post a silly little thought about the minecraft series I'm watching #Also me: LET ME CITE MY SOURCES -#Listen man you can't unlearn some things #I'm a professional writer it's in my nature

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ageless-aislynn · 2 days

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Friends, my time has come.

I mean, it's a shame there's no option for "you sold me a computer infested with demons and basically your idea of tech support is 'Wow, sucks to be you'" but I made do with what I had. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

#georgette #computer issues #computer problems #ohhh dell you did not want to give me a survey about how happy i am with my ~*~dell experience~*~#i told it like it is #ooo but maybe i'll win the laptop!!!!!#maybe it'll you know explode in my face or something super fun like that????? 🤞😖🤞😂#aislynn's cause of death: dell computer #i would not be surprised #i'm more shocked i haven't had an actual literal health crisis over this past half a year of hell #of course i'm also constantly sick these days so maybe that's speaking too soon I DUNNO #ironically though georgette is doing a little better right now but that can change if i breathe her way you know?#but i still gave them my opinion straight to the face #i have truly suffered with this #as melodramatic as that sounds to say #my computer is my way to access the world #not just for entertainment but to help my elderly family members #i'm extremely hampered without it and not being able to know if it was going to crash in the middle of paying a bill or something #has been super stressful #i don't know if i'll ever be able to vid or make GIFs again #i don't know if she'll ever tolerate vegas #it's just a shame because on paper she should be an absolute beast #and instead she can crash with one tab open watching a youtube video #ageless aislynn

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moonsplit · 1 year

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OMG YAY!!

Can I request romantic Edric Blight×Fem!Reader, with an opposites attract trope where, whilist Ed is hexside's trouble maker, the Reader is a goodie two shoes who tells on him.

I can totally see Edric being flirtatious towards the Reader and her reacting non-chalantly, however Ed can see straight through her and can tell that she actually has a crush on him.

Just- lots of mutual pinning involving Edric pretending to be overly confident in himself and the reader being so completely in love with who he actually is.

↠ "Em's gonna hate me" ↞

* pairing ↠ TOH - Edric Blight x fem!reader * word count ↠ 1167 * tags ↠ fluff, opposites attract, Ed is kinda an insecure fuck

* notes ↠ Words cannot describe how much I adore Ed <333, also I really hope I did him justice in this!

Again? This is the third time this week!

At least be more careful about being caught, Blight, it's like he wanted you to catch him!

"Heyyy princess, lets not tell Bumpikins about this, yeah?"

"Fat chance, why would I do that for you?"

"Because of my devilishly good looks?"

You could totally go on about how that was entirely not true

But you just stared at him before turning on your heels, moving swiftly to the principal's office

Edric followed you close behind, clamoring to keep up

"What's wrong, cat got your tongue~?" He teased

"Sure, whatever you say," you rolled your eyes

He was insufferable, really.

Sure his eyes were a pretty gold, and that one time you caught him without his concealment stone- he was cute, and you wondered why he'd try to hide his need of glasses, or his barely-there mustache

But that didn't change the fact that he was insufferable!

He'd play those juvenile pranks all the time

Illusions were the least destructive, at best they were just annoying

Not to mention the fact that they were almost always near you

In your way, going to class, lunch, hell even going home!

It's like he wanted to get in trouble, maybe he was testing his luck now that the detention pit was out of commission-

"C'mon, you know you don't really want to tell on me," he said as you neared Principal Bump's door.

"I do, you're always in my way."

"I could take you on a date, compensation for ruining such a precious princess's precious schedule," he gave a fake pout, giving way to his grin soon after

"As if I'd want to spend more time with you."

You did.

You actually really did.

You wanted to see the way his brain ticked, to see him when he wasn't putting on a show

And yeah maybe his teasing was fun, as frequent as it was-

But you weren't gonna let him know that!

He'd tease you to infinity, he'd never let it go-

"Aww, but princess-"

You opened the door to Bump's office, Ed scattering away

You rolled your eyes, moving in and telling Bump of the prank

It was a few days before you saw Ed again, and for once- it wasn't because of a prank

He was on a bench outside of the school, idly messing with the button on his caplet

You hesitated

Should you ask what's up?

No, it's good he was being quiet. He wasn't causing trouble-

But it was so unlike him-

You moved over.

"What are you planning, Blight?"

He startled and looked up at you, smile plastering on his face. "Hey princess! Just planning my next big prank, you know how it is,"

"Liar, tell me what's actually happening and maybe, just maybe, I'll let you off with a warning for the next one."

He let out a laugh. "You're cute when you worry,"

"You're not, now spill before I tell Bump you're cutting class."

"You are too-" he pointed out, giving a smirk as if he had bested you

"I'm allowed, it isn't skipping class if you're a hall monitor in your free period."

"Darn, well-" he sighed, stretching out in an exaggerated way.

You waited, staring at him

He gave a small snort. "It's nothing, Em just bailed on something. I wasn't even looking forward to it, sooo- how about a date tonight, princess? Since my plans cleared up."

You considered it, he could use a pick me up-

But also, do you really wanna know what constitutes as a date in his mind?

You shook your head. "Nah, I have homework."

"Boreee! Fine, I'll just follow you home-"

"Wh- Edric!"

He laughed. "If you have homework, I can help- you know I love excuses to be in a girl's room~"

"Titan, why do I even bother talking to you?"

"Becauseee you're secretly in love with me?" He offered

"Sure, as if-"

You ignored the way your cheeks heated up, and he just laughed at you.

He wasn't joking about following you home, apparently

"Sooo, where are your parents?"

"At work? I'll have you know they're very busy people."

"Oh so we've got the house to ourselves? And you invited me over? You really are in love with me!"

"You invited yourself over!"

"You say potato I say potato,"

You rolled your eyes, dragging him to your room. You didn't want him snooping through the rest of the house

"You're gonna tell me what's the deal with Emira while I do homework."

"There's no 'deal' with Em, princess-"

You could see the lie, he wasn't very good at hiding when his heart dropped

"There is, tell me or you're out of my house."

It was an empty threat, you wouldn't kick him out just for not talking

Well

Maybe you would

But not today, at least

"She just bailed on a prank, that's all,"

"Why?"

"She made plans with a friend, it's stupid, we've been planning this for days!"

"But you're still upset by it,"

"For stupid reasons."

"Like what?"

"You'll make fun of me more than I tease you, cutie,"

"Try me."

He paused, the two of you in silence for a few beats- nothing but the sound of you writing.

"Well, uh- Em's the only person I really get to hang out with, she knows me so well- sometimes I feel like she's drifting away from me and I'm just- stuck to her side like some sort of abomination glue!"

You nodded.

Ed hesitated. "Don't- tell her, she already thinks I'm too clingy."

"Oh you're definitely clingy, but that's not bad."

"Isn't it?"

"Nope, your pranks are worse."

He gave a laugh, charm falling from his wrist.

And in a poof, there was the true him that you'd only seen once before.

"Shit-"

"Don't worry, titan forbid a 16 year old have a mustache," you joked

"No I mean- I still look awesome, of course"

"But you wear the concealment stone whyy?"

"Because glasses aren't a good look on me, duh,"

"Mhm, that's the reason,"

"Oh shut up! I tease you with pranks and you tell on me, that's our thing-"

"Oh so we have a thing?"

"Er-"

"Have you been doing pranks right in my way on purpose?"

You really didn't know how it took you so long to realize that fact.

"Guilty as charged-"

His smile was so dorky.

That was your only thought, his smile was dorky and you could see his face go red

"Sorry, I'll- go,"

"Nope! You don't get to bother other people just because I made you be vulnerable,"

You wrapped a few vines around his ankles, sprouting them from the ground. "Stay, you said you could help with homework."

"I'm suddenly very scared," he joked

You smiled at him. "You should be! My homework is combative,"

His smile fell a bit as he looked down to his ankles.

You laughed at the antics, just sitting on your bed. "That's what I thought."

#bro ed is so much fun #also i'M STILL SICK FML #fluff #the owl house #toh edric #edric blight #edric x reader #x reader #fem reader

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kinnbig · 4 months

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#this is so incredibly stupid #but i've just spent such a long time worrying about my physical health and everything going on with that #(and there's still so much weirdness and uncertainty and scariness going on with my physical health)#but it just somehow never occured to me that i'm also depressed.#like. i had BAD depression as a teenager but i've been mostly mentally okay in the last 5 years. my issues have mostly been physical.#and then these last few months since all this scary health stuff started happening i've been so lethergic and unmotivated #and have been isolating myself from my friends #and struggling to find fun in any of the things that i love #i've been sad and stressed and empty but somehow. SOMEHOW. i did not consider that i was suffering from some Mental Unwellness dfkjfdjkdjkf #i just thought i was being pathetic #🫠🫠🫠#it sounds so stupid but now i realise i actually feel a bit better?#like oh. OH! depression! i hate you but i know what you are!#i'm not just a bad friend and an embarrassingly pathetic creature. there's a reason!!!!!#and there are ways to deal with it!!!#cool!!!#but also like it makes sense?! i'm incredibly sick and in a lot of pain and spending so much time getting tests and worrying #of course that's going to affect my mental health lol.#okay. anyway. yeah #tbd

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fitzrove · 2 months

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Its ok maybe if you look up the lyrics to was für ein grausames leben and read them in english you will be okj<3

#[gnawing and biting]#ashjdjgjg i think i don't want to live in vienna after all #i'm by nature an easily depressed person and in some places it's too easy to make your life revolve around dead people and death at large!!#i had a lot of fun on my trip but i also had some terrible times #mostly the part where i was sick #one thing that i think would pose a major issue long term is the insanely narrow opening hours for supermarkets - in germany many stay #open until 10 pm. closest one to my hotel in vienna closed at 7:30 pm...#also i just can't deal with big crowds and tourists in my living environment full time dhhfhfgh i always need to be somewhere away and #voluntarily go into the tourist parts only if i want to #like how in cambridge it was insane in the center but i would walk 30 minutes every morning from by the train tracks :') a nice quiet #residential street and i could shop at the local sainsbury's and only go to the historic city centre when i felt like it and could prepare #so like i have to live in a quiet area but within reasonable distance of (and with good transport to!) a more exciting busy area #but um yeah now i have to awkwardly tell everyone irl that i've been talking about it to that i don't actually want to do it anymore xD #it's ok i still want to live Somewhere Interesting with historical stuff...#if i manage not to have a mental breakdown that is ahshhdjdkf #i like my current town a lot :')

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jendoe · 1 year

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"well, well, i didn't know barbie liked tequila shots." - nate mercer

template by @jacobseed | nate belongs to @phillipsgraves!

#*ajedits #oc: joan havoc #me and char doing our yearly saints row replay just means joan is chewing on my brain like a rat #i love my overly pink barbie doll #also yes. i know. joan and nate are the most Awful couple. meeting in a hooters and then 10 years later .. 💀#but still. power couple. he's the boss and she buys up all the Property lmfao #this template was fun! really made me use my brain tho i am so bad at description #and i'm still sick so i should. probably go back to bed LMFAO. mwah. love yall

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bylertruther · 1 year

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modern au mike would be the repressed internalized homophobia harboring kind of gay that says shit like "it's not gay to kiss ur homies goodnight 🙄 that's just being a good bro" and is essentially playing gay chicken with will 24/7 which is why will never suspects anything and thinks it's totally unrequited. bc they have Always been like this . and still mike insists he's straight and who is will to say Um Actually esp when mike made a big stink abt dating his sister n also gets super defensive abt it any time they talk abt it or get anywhere even remotely close to talking abt it. hope this helps 👍

#the kind of enthusiastic ally tht makes those jokes n all of tht and after doing the gayest thing ever he's like well. i just love my gay #best friend and support him is that so wrong..... (proceeds to get jealous when someone flirts with will + comments n likes his every #selfie + actually lets will take pictures of them and post them whenever they hang out n go somewhere jsut the two of them + makes collab #playlists with will that are full of love songs tht will totally pokes fun at him about + all other Clearly Boyfriendisms stuff)#and max just Blinks at him.#with the tiktok sound and all #eventually will gets SICK of it bc a good boy a Kind and very pretty guy is actually interested in him for real and ISN'T deterred by mike #and his mikeness bc he likes him That much and will just . he's so conflicted. bc he can't do this with this new guy if he still loves #mike and still feels like... like there's this Thing between them tht's all in his head and he just. he needs to hear mike say it. he needs #to hear mike say that there's nothing here and that there will never be something here so that he can at least TRY to move on.#and mike... can't do that :( because. well. well us ee. he opens his mouth but the words don't come out bc they just Feel Wrong.#and then bada bing bada boom Gay Shit Happens #but also not rly bc they have always been gay. it's just that now it's Official. nods at u #upside down shenanigans doesn't happen in this specific au so i'm going based off of s1 and s2 mike tht is Very Clingy n Loving #mine

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topaztimes · 2 months

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Hi this is a vent post! Continue scrolling if you'd rather not see that

#Giving time...#Still more time...#Wouldn't want to plague any previews #Maybe another filler. Just for some fun #Is this enough?#It certainly is now #Alright start:#I'm so bored. I am so incredibly; intrinsically; entirely bored. I have been taught the same thing for four years straight #'It's only four years!' that's literally a quarter of my lifetime right there. My formative years are being spent stressed and in a state /#/of constant self-loathing #I was watching a YT video and the phrase 'attention-starved STEM major' came up and I was like. Yea #What am I even working towards? The hope that my version of capitalist hell isn't as bad as everyone else's? I'm just so sick of not /#/having a stable future what with politics and normal working people becoming more and more oppressed #I don't want to work and that's not because I'm lazy. It's because my brain is recognising that there is no reward anymore #I used to have such a little spark in Yr7. I remember having things to say and wanting to share everything I've done #I still do that now; sure I do. I don't enjoy it though #I thought I liked drawing but I'm realising that all I really like is the attention. I COULD draw things I like drawing... but then I /#/ don't get attention which my mind then classifies as zero reward #I'm very tired of doing things for no credit; reward; or validation. This is becoming a theme #Then I wonder what I'm doing wrong. What part of the algorithm am I not hitting. Then I realise that I'm just not marketable in a way #God. I'm seriously breaking rn. It's not even only because of GCSEs #It's just a culmination of doing all these things to be told that I am unworthy of Having as a result. It doesn't matter if I'm smart; my /#/ parents still don't own their house and can't afford to pay for heating most days #Literally what am I doing this for #And then I realise that all of this is ALSO attention-seeking behaviour! I'm my own worst problem; I recognise exactly what's wrong with /#/ myself but the body wants what it wants. And what it wants is validation that I'm not going to get in this life #Hi guys! Maybe don't interact. That could fix me #Wean me off of needing virtual numbers just to feel something. Jesus #I can't even be happy with the things that I make for myself. Because I make nothing for myself anymore #It's just a whole sad existence of an expected 12hr+ of school every day until I get a job I guess. Then it's 12hr+ of job every day until

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coquelicoq · 11 months

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just got a biopsy to see if my [checks notes] 15-week period is because of cancer. however then my friends drove me to get chocolate and the new martha wells novel so, you know, there are pros and cons here.

#the epic highs and lows of having a uterus #highs: people buy you chocolate!!#lows: all the other stuff :(#anyway i am. a lil stressed out lol #also pretty lightheaded! i'm not really even sure why because ok so yeah i was already anemic from the 15 weeks of bleeding #plus i was anemic before that also #plus there was a lot of blood during the biopsy. but i feel like that blood was just the stuff in my uterus that'd be coming out anyway #as opposed to new blood from within my veins or something #and i'm still sick lolllll #so it's a fun time. BUT! martha wells novel! and i lent all systems red to a friend who will hopefully become obsessed with murderbot #and talk to me about it constantly! (<-my endgame at all times)#it's so funny every time i've been to the doctor they're like 'date of your last period?' and i'm like april 9th. and it is ongoing.#and then we just 😬 at each other #anyway cross your fingers for me. apparently if the biopsy comes back negative they don't have other ideas for what could be going on #not sure how to feel about that. obviously i don't want to have cancer but it's very stressful not knowing what is going on #do i just bleed forever indefinitely??? i'll be real with you lads that doesn't seem great :/#she was like next step would be to put in a hormonal iud and i was like that is absolutely not an option that i will consider #i would sooner get a hysterectomy #so idk maybe i will get a hysterectomy! biopsy results in a week. okay. ending the tags now #if anybody wants me to trigger tag for cancer mentions let me know and i can definitely do that going forward <3

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whysamwhy123 · 4 months

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HALLEJUAH!! I REMEMBERED HOW TO ACTUALLY FINISH WRITING SOMETHING FOR A CHANGE!!

Of course, it's not any of the fics I wanted to finish. I went back to what is essentially my bread-and-butter now and wrote a short-ish, random OrangeHook fluff. But considering how much writing's been a struggle as of late, I'm just glad that I successfully finished something. I was back in one of those stretches where I couldn't seem to write much of anything. And this fic isn't about their age difference or Hook being a cuddlebug, so...progress?

Unless I decide I completely hate it (which is always a possibility) expect something to drop on Valentine's Day, tis the season, after all.

#What is wrong with you Sam you should not be allowed to write #Small victories you know?#Will I ever get sick of OrangeHook?? Apparently not #Can't even remember the last time they interacted on screen but that ain't stopping my brain LOL #On a more serious note - I really do hope that I can get back into the swing of things and make some real progress #On the bigger fics I want to work on #I want to finish the messy angst OrangeHook fic at some point even if it's unlikely to appeal to anyone #Annnnnd deep down in my cold dead heart I still wanna make an honest attempt at that DG Dead Dove fic #Even though that would be even more unappealing + a huge undertaking because that bitch would be loooooooooong #Also I had a slightly less angsty OrangeHook idea recently about them having their first fight and I wanna write that too for some reason #And there's still a part of me that really wants to continue Business/Pleasure because I have soooo many ideas for that AU #But that would require me to get over my inability to write smut #And I don't know how to do that (would appreciate any advice on that if you've got some...)#But at the same time I don't wanna beat myself up for not being able to write much - if anything - most days #This is a hobby after all - it's supposed to be fun #There ain't no deadline and it's not like I'm letting anybody down #Just gotta do at my own place #And write whatever absolute trash I want to write 😈#My tags are always so obsessive like SHUT THE FUCK UP SAM #But if you've actually read all these - hey. Thanks. Love ya 😘

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