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onesidedradiostatic · 29 days

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Intro Post + FAQ!?!?!?

STRIPES TRUTHERS DNI!!!!!!!! (this is a joke)

I'm not replacing my pinned post because I like my pinned post. it's special to me. it describes my blog in a single gif. but I'll link this in my bio.

hi! I think this was long overdue. first of all, introduction!

I'm pink! she/her, 19, filipino-chinese, 🇸🇬

I am an asexual sapphic on the aro spectrum! I'm not repulsed in either department though, I consider myself mostly sex-neutral and romance... idk, ambivalent irl, favourable in fiction.

keep in mind that hazbin hotel itself has a lot of explicit humour, so canon-typical level of that kind of humour should be expected here. however, outside of text-only nsfw jokes, I typically don't post or reblog nsfw art (and IF I did, I would use community labels/appropriate tags). I may also tag certain text-only nsfw joke posts as #suggestive, just as a precaution.

and now the FAQ...

FAQ

Other than one-sided RadioStatic, what do you ship?

I've actually done this before, but decided I'd update it a bit.

cherrivel is only there because of the need for velvette to have someone at the hotel to be obsessed with, refer to this post. it is currently unserious and could easily never come up in my posts I just thought to include it because of that one time I brought it up. other crackships may come up if I find it funny (ie adam x mammon).

this shouldn't come as a surprise to anyone, I do not like any reciprocated romantic alastor ships, I'm not here to police anyone for what they do in fanon, but all I ask is no one send me anything of the sort. I interpret alastor as a repulsed aroace, and the dialogue in which his asexuality is implied in canon implies to me he would never pursue dating (rosie knows alastor wouldn't be dating charlie because he is aroace, which implies she knows he is an aroace that doesn't date**). so that is how I choose to portray alastor in my posts.

**TO BE CLEAR, there IS nuance to this. because action =/= attraction. funny situations such as a fake date with vox as a distraction that he doesn't like at ALL entertain me. but I do not believe he is the type to pursue it under normal circumstances.

regarding qprs... well, as you can see, I really only care for qpr radiorose, but this is the part where it comes down to personal preference. qpr radiostatic largely depends for me, maybe if it's like an au where they never had a falling out or something but otherwise, I don't personally really see it, but that isn't to judge anyone who does. HOWEVER, I do like thinking about their past friendship, here's a post I made before regarding alastor's side on it.

Who's your favourite character?

unfortunately, it is the stupid tv man in my pfp. alastor is my second favourite though if that's not immediately obvious (wow tumblr user @onesidedradiostatic's faves are vox and alastor who could've guessed?)

Do you know [insert pre-series information here]?

I need to clarify, I am NOT a pre-series hazbin fan. I only got into hazbin properly at episode 5-6's release, prior to that I had only watched episode 4 out of curiosity due to twitter discourse. any information I have regarding pre-series stuff comes from the wiki, tumblr posts or anons who have informed me of stuff. my main source of information is the main series, that is how I first consumed hazbin after all.

What the fuck is the "Lucifer's Commissions Saga"?

it all started with an anon talking about the most unrealistic thing about vox owning an alastor body pillow being that alastor was able to be printed on it without glitches. I then dropped a stupid idea I had in my head for a bit about lucifer being offered 50k to make a sexy alastor painting for vox. one reblog later. well. it turned into vox commissioning lucifer for the body pillow. and then a bunch of asks came in related to it and it turned into a saga which is now my legacy. feel free to scroll through this entire thing. also a fanfic of it by ChaoticAce2005 now exists. go check it out. AN ANIMATIC BASED ON ONE OF THE POSTS BY NATAKARANIA ALSO NOW EXISTS. CHECK THAT OUT TOO.

The original post mentions Val commissioning Lucifer for the art for Vox, Val is canonically a talented artist, why would he do that?

in my defence, I kinda forgot about that when I posted the original joke. later asks, I've mended that val HAS drawn for vox before but vox nitpicked too much and val's not always willing to do a fully rendered sexy alastor... so vox has to outsource. and he just happens to do so to the king of hell.

Hey, hey, listen! What if Vox doesn't have a crush on Alastor but wants XXX instead!?

hey, I respect you! I respect your opinion and hc. but this blog is built around that concept specifically, I like vox wanting something he can never have, wanting romance from a guy who literally cannot feel the same way about him. so I'm probably not gonna be as passionate about other takes. but your opinion is valid! I'm just not really sure what you want me to say other than respectfully disagreeing.

Why don't you use RadioSilence for one-sided RadioStatic?

radio silence is the name of another book made by the author of heartstopper, alice oseman (which I heard also has a canon aspec character!). even though it is already a used tag for this ship, I refuse to contribute to flooding the book tag with hazbin hotel. it's already an issue I see even when searching #radio silence with the space, I think those in that fandom should be allowed to search for content without being flooded by content from another fandom. please understand.

I instead use #onewaybroadcast in accordance with this poll. I still use the regular #radiostatic and #staticradio tags in addition to it for more reach and because vox's side still technically counts under it, if anyone doesn't like specifically one-sided radiostatic for whatever reason, they may filter out the specific tag or block me.

Tags

#osrs.txt - all text posts, including asks #osrs.art - self-explanatory, art done by me #osrs.mp4 - videos which can range from compilations, shitpost edits to high effort edits #osrs.helluva - my helluva boss reactions/liveblogging and related stuff

#radiostatic parent trap subplot - the short series of asks joking about the torn picture vox has reminding them of the parent trap, turning into a crack subplot #projecting irl experiences onto radiostatic squad - where a bunch of anons came together to recount irl experiences with incels and say "yeah this is vox" #the ays - angel dust realising he and alastor are the reason for the vees' focus on the hotel and decides to brand both of them as the ays #lucifer's commissions saga - everyone's favourite as explained above, and also the biggest arc on this blog (my legacy) #alastor's modern sexuality label crisis - started with alastor misinterpreting "asexual" as asexual reproduction, continued on to him misinterpreting more modern sexuality labels #vox's stupid fucking turtleneck - it started with me trying to start up a debate on the colour of vox's turtleneck in the vox and val photo and escalated into people in my notes and askbox trying to gaslight me into thinking the turtleneck has stripes instead of it being a KNITTING PATTERN. this is what the STRIPES TRUTHERS DNI is referring to btw #cursed yellow val - tag name taken from andy-solo1, started as a response to the turtleneck discourse, I believe the turtleneck is a similar colour to val's wings therefore yellow turtleneck truthers are implying val's wings are also yellow #respectless anons - started with an anon trying to correct colour names and saying "not to be velvette..." and ended up with other anons being kin assigned characters #all the fucking parodies - there's been 2 parodies for you didn't know and 2 for respectless by others based on shit from this blog now, this tag is needed #the fanon val killjoy beef - tag made for the made up concept of valentino and katie killjoy beefing, started from this post

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ainri · 7 months

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hello! I'm the one who asked for one of illumi (yandere) could you make it headcanons?

illumi zoldyck as a yandere (hcs and drabble.)

•hunter x hunter

•yandere illumi headcanons + small drabble

•mostly fem oriented

•assasin/servant reader

•fic warinings: !dark content!, mentions of death multiple times including reader + reader’s family, insinuated character death at end, forced labor, undergarmnet theft, swear words, mild gaslighting, obsessive thoughts.

•🔞

•masterlist

•a/n: this is my first request so ty!!! tbh i rlly like writing yanderes like its just so fun? anyways someone should really do a crime count because i had to put some extra stuff in the fic warning so that people wouldn’t go crazy on me or call me insensitive 🥰sorry for the wait i completely forgot abt tumblr…..🙊if it doesnt make sense its because i rushed it bc i felt bad for how long i kept my anon waiting (sorry anon pookiebear) and its 1:27am 😞😞

continuation of this post!

<🌟🌟🌟>

-how did you end up this position again?

-oh yeah thats right! your parents were also assasins who just happened to have ‘issues’ with the zoldycks.

-they had personal issues with silva due to a deal gone wrong between the two assassin families.

-how did silva handle getting played by your parents? by sending out an order to kill them.

-but silva is a higher class man with much bigger issues. who’s better to do the job than his son illumi?

-of course the original order was to kill you, your father, and your mother.

-when illumi saw you walking back onto your family’s estate something in him just snapped.

-he just couldn’t help it; he had to have you, no matter the cost.

-that was the moment he realized he couldnt just let you die or kill you.

-you were…special?

-that was the first mission he had ever failed… he just couldnt bring himself to kill you.

-after silva finished beating the shit out of him; illumi had an idea.

-illumi spoke of this idea to silva; to make you a personal servant in return for you and your parents’ lives.

-of course silva agreed, once silva privately told you of this ‘agreement’ you had to agree.

-best to not test the zolycks’ willpower and to not test the waters.

-working as illumi’s personal servant was fine, that was before your panties started disappearing randomly from your laundry bin.

-“master illumi, i hate to bother you with this but have you seen my panties?”

-“no. what are you saying servant?”

-he quickly retorted back, almost, no, way too quickly.

-of course, this all started to add up when the male zoldyck house staff started to ignore you + avoid you like the plague.

-apologizing profusely to you over the smallest mistakes or accidents.

-this was all bizzare…. you needed answers, as quickly as possible.

•••

it was a calm day of cleaning when suddenly you walked in on it—illumi torturing your male coworker who helped you clean the atrium yesterday. “master illumi, what are you doing?” the servant asked horrified and confused,

“none of your business servant-“ he stopped himself to reword his sentence, “you know what? no! i was teaching him a lesson for speaking to you. besides you only belong to me!-right? right? say you belong to me! i killed all of those men—no, boys for you and you can’t even say, ‘thank you master illumi.’!?” he was yelling, now losing his temper.

“master illumi i didnt ask for you to kill for me! whats wrong with you? you-you-you psychopath! youre being completely delusional and irrational!—“

CLANG

all you saw was black as you felt your vision go blurry with illumi hitting you in the head with skme heavy blunted off object.

“i don’t appreciate that (name), i don’t appreciate it at all. you ungrateful woman. all i ever wanted to do was love you. clearly you cant even allow me to do that much. what a shame.”

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#illumi hunter x hunter #illumi zoldyck #hunter x hunter headcanons #hunter x hunter x reader #dark content #yandere headcanons #yandere #yandere illumi #illumi x reader #illumi zoldyck x reader

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swallowtailcherry · 2 years

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Hii ,hi how are you? I Hope you're doing well, i want to warn you about an anon that gas been sexually harressing people on Tumblr and sending nudes of girls and boys, please stay safe.

And i know this Is a really sensibile topic, but....could you please make something for Jack the ripper or Poseidon with a s/o that Is searching comfort from them After getting harressed?

Feel free not to do this,bye stay safe and Remember to take care of yourself

Seeking comfort after being harassed {Jack the Ripper/Poseidon}

Thank you for the warning! Everyone please be safe from those people.

1. I am sorry for this, but I'll do the physical harassment (I know this is a sensitive thing for those who have actually experienced this, so I apologise for possibly bringing back bad memories.)

2. My first time writing about Jack, please be gentle-

3. I'm writing for both of them because I feel like it.

4. Long as frick so get a snack lol

Warning: mentions of murder.

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Jack the Ripper🔪-

One of your friends had dragged you to a bar one night, insisting you needed to get out more. You didn't have any plans that night but you still refused. After some convincing, you agreed to go.

A few minutes in and your friend is already gone, leaving you by yourself at the main counter. You only took a few shots, but stopped yourself after the 4th shot.

Suddenly, some drunk guy sat next to you, resting his rough hand on your shoulder. He tried so many times to get you to talk, but you just ignored him and walked out the bar. You began your lone walk to your home.

Just when you turned a corner, hands began to caress your sides. You thrash in the guy's grip but he just held you tighter. You took out a small pocket knife and stabbed his leg. You took off the moment he let you go, running inside your house and locked it.

You had a hard time sleeping after that.

The next day, you refused to get of bed, let alone the house. This worried some of your friends and tried to ask you why, but you kept quiet, which led them to ask the friend who took you.

"I do not know. They just left without even saying anything." That was all they said. They decided to drop it once they realised their question won't be answered.

The next night, while it was dark, you heard a knock on your bedroom window. To your surprise, it was someone who you grew close to, Jack the Ripper. Your first encounter was when he was injured and you, a kind hearted soul, took him in, unaware of who he was. He originally wanted to kill you but seeing how kind you were, the thought of killing you soon went away.

"Milady, what seems to be troubling you?" He asked, his mixed eyes staring into your soul. Your dropped your head down low, refusing to let him see your tears. You wanted to lie your way out, but Jack would be aware of it.

"I-I was forced to go to a bar and this disgusting man touched me and tried to-"

"What did he look like?" You looked up, seeing the man's face turn to his usual murderous expression, but it seemed more dark.

"W-well, he had black hair and blue eyes and looks a little bigger than you. He also had some facial hair on his jaw." You described the man the best you could. Jack didn't say anything and disappeared into the night.

2 nights later~

Sweeping the floors of your house with a headache wasn't the best idea. After finishing off, you rested yourself on one of your chairs. You felt a piece of paper under your hand and picked it up. It was folded neatly and had beautiful handwriting. You opened it up and read the short letter.

I apologise for leaving you in your time of need, but I had to get rid of the beast who tried to corrupt you.

You felt a presence in your room and turned around, spotting Jack, twirling a knife in his hand. Without a second thought, you jumped up and hugged him. Jack held his arms away from you, not knowing what to do.

"You didn't need to kill him." Your voice muffled by his chest. Silence filled the room after you spoke.

"It was entirely necessary. I refuse to let them take your beautiful colours away."

Tears been to fall out, staining his shirt. Jack lowered his arms, slowly wrapping them around your waist.

He always thought he'd never meet a kind person, until life decided to let him meet you.

Poseidon🔱-

Being married to one of the most fearsome gods has its ups and downs.

One up is that you're the only one who can meet his gaze and live the next day.

One down is that he refuses to let you show affection in public to not ruin his public image in being perfect. (It does upset you, but you understand)

He sees you as his equal, so it isn't much of a surprise when another god stupid enough tries to have his way with you and he is informed.

This god won't leave you alone, even when you declined his invitation to accompany him.

"I told you many times! I do not wish to go with you!" You yelled at the persistent god following you.

It all started when he approached you and started a normal conversation. Then, he started getting a little too touchy with you, brushing his hand against your bare skin, his hands lingering on your shoulders and hovering over your chest for too long. That was enough for you to storm out and head back to your husband, the god you truly love.

"Come on, beautiful! I just want to know you better." The god exclaimed, grabbing your wrist. He pulled you closer to him, smirking victoriously when he saw your frightened face.

"I don't think she feels the same way." A familiar voice chimed in. The god froze in his spot, giving you the chance to wiggle out of his arms and step away from him. You felt relieved to see Heracles, his usual smile not present on his face and replaced with a menacing glare. The god trembled in his shoes and just took off to who knows, too afraid to even try to speak to the towering demigod.

"Fucking coward." You thought, watching the god disappear around a corner. You felt the demigod's hand on your shoulder.

"You should go back to Uncle. I bet he's missing you." Heracles' face changed to a more cheerful one, his smile exposing his pearly whites. You giggled at his sudden change and nodded.

"I should. Thank you for saving me!"

"No problem!"

With that, you took off to see your husband. Before entering, you took the time to stand up straight, take a deep breath and walked in. You faced your husband, slowly making your way to your throne next to his. Sea Blue eyes observed your form, noticing your slightly messy hair and increased speed of your breathing.

He knew these were your signs of discomfort.

"Who is responsible?" His chilling voice filled the silence. You felt exposed upon hearing his question and hesitated on answering. But you gave up.

"Just another god." You finally answered, your hands gripping the armrests nervously. You knew lying to your husband would be impossible.

"Come here." He demanded. You quickly complied, standing in front of him, unsure of his next demand.

"I said, come here." He demanded again, his eyes staring right in your own orbs. You swallow slowly, stepping closer to him. This was strange, he never demanded, let alone asked for anything like this. With hesitation, you wrapped your arms around Poseidon's waist. When he didn't push you away, you lowered yourself down to sit on his lap.

Crying was out of the question if it was for anything else, but after what happened, you couldn't help it.

Your quietly sobbed, tightening the hug. Surprisingly, Poseidon did nothing but sit there, listening to your sobs.

Poseidon will have to wait until he can deal with the living filth that decided to get his dirty hands on his wife...

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Writing the harassing part was really uncomfortable, but I pushed through to complete this :D

#ror x reader #snv x reader #poseidon x reader #jack the ripper x reader #never thought I'd tag that #but here we are #some fluff #ror x reader fluff #record of ragnarok x reader

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multiplicity-positivity · 14 days

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not to like drag you into syscourse but the whole reason we bacame anti endo was do to the amount of hate-harrasment we got from endo systems, we have had we to many endo systems tell us that we deserve our truama and-or that our trauma wasnt enough to make us into a systems + the amount of endo systems that tell us that we have it better/easier because we formed from trauma and that we can get a dignoses easier do to that then endo system (and some more private stuff we wont bother you with) it just made us really distust endo systems but we want to become pro endo but have no idea if its even worth it or even safe for us do to the trama we got form pro endo blogs

(had the courage to send this do to the ask of one other anti endo annon that wanted to become pro enod,also sorry this came out venty then i wanted to )

hey, thanks for coming to us with this. we’re really glad you did. we welcome any anti endo here who is willing to listen, learn, and be vulnerable with us. we’re all systems here, we’re all people, and we’re all capable of positive growth and change for the better.

this got long, and pretty heavy. so it’s going under a cut to spare those who aren’t interested. if syscourse is a trigger for your system, please scroll on!

we’re sorry to hear you’ve been hurt or harassed by pro endos in the past. we have, too. in fact, we have split an alter in the past due to a pro endo harassing us and spreading cruel rumors about us online. we’ve been called an abuser by pro endos due to our antiracist stance and activism. we’ve also been told by pro endos that we deserved the abuse that we went through as a toddler that caused our disorder to form. so we get that distrust, anon. we really, truly do.

it’s gotten so bad for us that we avoid calling ourselves “pro endo” outright. do we love, support, cherish, and believe endogenic systems? absolutely. do we want to uplift them and help them feel welcome in the plural community? without a doubt. but we cannot bring ourselves to call our system “pro endo” specifically due to the harm we’ve faced from pro endos in the past.

but the thing is, the harsh and violent words from a few pro endos should not reflect on the validity of all endogenic systems or endogenic plurality as a whole. some pro endos can be really mean, especially online. but that doesn’t change the fact that most endo systems are just out here existing, attempting to live their best lives and avoid being fakeclaimed and harassed by people who don’t know them. we have had the privilege of meeting dozens of endo systems in our time running this blog - nearly all of which were thoughtful, kind, and caring folks who don’t spend time harassing other systems in any way, shape or form.

anon, you can in fact be supportive of endo systems without ever interacting with them directly. you can educate yourself and attempt to learn more without ever calling yourself “pro endo.”

if this interests you, we’d really encourage you to try browsing some endo friendly tags on tumblr to get a feel for plurality without trauma and those who identify that way. (note: please block the “#radqueer” tag before doing this, as a lot of radqueers will clog the endo tags with posts. endogenic plurality has nothing to do with radqueers, despite some folks saying otherwise.)

the “#pluralgang” tag is absolutely amazing. you could also check out “#plurality,” “#actually plural,” “#endo safe,” “#endo friendly,” and “#endogenic.” by just scrolling the tags, you can try to expose yourself to some endo systems without committing to following anyone or interacting directly. maybe this could help you work through some of that distrust.

of course, if you do reach a point where you feel comfortable calling yourself pro endo, go for it! there are tons of amazing, wonderful pro endos here on tumblr who surely would welcome you into their spaces. but you don’t have to directly engage or identify with that specific label in order to be supportive and accepting of endogenic plurality. it’s okay to listen to others with different life experiences and support different system origins without identifying with the pro endo label.

we’re always here, happy to field any further questions you may have or provide resources if you’re hoping to learn more. and we truly are wishing you the very best in your future. we’re sorry this got so long, but we hope it can help put your mind at ease a bit, or at least help you feel a little less alone.

if any endogenic systems sees this and feels comfortable interacting with anti endos who are willing to learn, feel free to comment or reblog this post so anon can maybe find some endo systems who they can potentially follow without facing any backlash. no pressure, of course! again, we do think that everyone is capable of positive change, and past anti endos or ex anti endos should always be welcomed in our spaces with open arms.

#oh anon… we really do have nothing but well wishes for you #we hope you can find peace comfort and a better understanding of endogenic plurality in your future #some trigger tags:#syscourse #anti endo #pro endo #trauma #harassment #fakeclaiming #abuse

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lotusmi · 1 year

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what happened?

well. I will try to clear everything that happened...

"i am x void"

Starting with the I AM X VOID comment. I was not mad with her about that. Why? Well because it is okay to have different views on topics. She asked "they are not the same?" I said, "they are completely different for me". I was ok with this and everything was right, since we had discussed other topics before and we respected or different points of view, such as "affirm persist". I remember once she asked me if lucid dreaming and astral traveling were the same thing, I explained they are not the same, everything was ok. After replying her reblog, I left to watch a movie and only logged again this morning.

"You unfollowed her"

Why would I? I did not. It could be a tumblr glitch, maybe i forgot to follow the new account, maybe I missclicked the following button. Again, after replyng her reblog, I even found one of the first asks she sent me and I even rebloged it, because everything was okay.

+ this that an anon sent me, it really makes sense:

I forgot to unfollow Glossy, the girl who lied to me. Why would I unfollow a friend?

"You and Roselle said shit about her"

This is a LIE. I never said anything against Unique. I and Rosie almost don't text each other. And if we did, who would share the screenshoot? Also, where is those screenshoots? No one sent me any

There was a person who was posting fake screenshoots about Riri. Everyone here knows how Riri write, everyone knew that it was fake.

+proof of my dms with Rosie

"You talked shit with other bloggers"

she mentioned angel, multiversebaddie, remcycl333, and konniesreality.

Ok. I never dm angel EVER, tho I really love her posts on states

proof (there is not even how to text her since the dms are closed) :

multiversbaddie:

i only texted her once and it was to explain a thing about the void:

also she texted me today and i had no idea what she was talking about:

I even thought it was about Glossy lol. We only texted each other 2 times..

About Rem, I love all her posts. But we never talked ever and I don't even have her dms too.

Konnie:

she texted me twice. When she first texted it was about a personal thing of her, and the second and last, was when they both had a fight or whatever:

I could screenshoot all the times I defended her in my dms or all the hate asks i've been getting today, but I decided not to do it. I already had proved myself here. Also. Fleur, Vesora and Unique are the only bloggers that knows my other social media.

Early in the morning I thought all of this was a misunderstood. But now I see how disrespected I was by being accused of things I did not did by a person i thought was a friend of me.

Unique, how many times I did checked if you were okay? How many times I was there for you? I defended you? I sent you a lot of asks when my anons were sending you hate, asking them to stop it. But you did not posted any of them. I know it was your decision and it is okay. But why post all of this without proof and say this was my fault? i would had sent all of this in your dm but you decided to block me without reason.

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ssadumba55 · 2 years

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Worried (Buzz Lightyear X Reader)

Request: Hi! So sorry to bother you about this. A long while ago I sent a request for Buzz Lightyear x toy reader taking place in the Halloween short where they encounter the iguana. Did you by any chance get it? Or did tumblr eat it?

A/n: A few notes on this before you read, I did not want the reader's story to take away from Jessie's story overcoming her anxieties/PTSD and finding a way to manage it which is why I left the plot of the special alone and mostly intact and added reader as a secondary thing to it. As such, reader and Buzz don't actually interact much until the end, so apologies for that. But I did have fun writing it and I hope it's somewhat what you wanted. I also just love writing sibling! Woody which is why there is a lot of Woody content. Thanks for inspiring me to watch this great short again anon!

Sometimes, you have to admit, your friends aren't the smartest. Especially when they’re scared it seems. As soon as Mr. Potato Head left Bonnie’s suitcase to do some exploring, you knew that this was going to be a long night. While the others panicked and scared themselves half to death, you slipped away.

There had to be a logical solution to all of this and you were going to find it. The motel was creepy at night in the dark, but you wandered the halls searching for any sign of something odd or strange. Nothing really caught your eye or stood out to you as odd, the whole place was strangely quiet.

Bonnie did a lot of traveling, even before Andy’s toys showed up but you’d never been in a motel this quiet at night. It was eerie. Suddenly, you wished you hadn’t left without telling Buzz or even Woody or Jessie where you were going. They were going to be worried sick about you, most of all Buzz. You wouldn’t call what the two of you had a relationship (not yet anyway) but there was something between you. All of the other toys saw it and he had a tendency to get overprotective when situations like this happened-

There was the sound of a bell and footsteps in the distance and it piqued your interest.

It was the first sound you’d heard all night. Clearly, there was something happening in the motel lobby. Racing down the hall, you stopped near the desk, waiting to hear if there was a conversation happening between two humans but the room was as silent as the rest of the building.

Then, the motel manager’s voice broke through the silence.

“Hmm. One of those Potato Head toys… They don’t make them like this anymore, I’m sure we could fetch a penny or two for this. Nice find, Jones.”

Potato Head! Looking around the room to make sure there was nobody around, you jumped just barely managing to grab the edge of the desk and hoist yourself up. Thankfully, there were a bunch of boxes stacked on the counter, it looked like somebody had a lot of mail to send out the next day. You slid behind the boxes, poking out from behind slightly to get a look at what was going on.

The manager was placing Potato Head in a glass compartment. As he did this, the bell sound rang again and he turned around, clearly slightly surprised.

“More, huh?” You watched him kneel next to a basket, eyes narrowed as he picked up Trixie, Rex and Mr. Pricklepants. He lifted them and brought them out of your field of vision, though you could hear the snap of a camera. Hmm. So he was selling these toys?

Quietly, you crawled into one of the empty boxes and laid down among the packing peanuts. When he’s gone, I’ll sneak over there and over the cabinet for everybody.

You laid there listening as the bell was rung three more times. Woody. Buzz. Jessie. The sounds of footsteps passed multiple times, but you were never exactly sure when was the right time to jump out. Sometimes, if you strained your ears you could hear the toys in the cabinet arguing, probably about how to best get themselves out.

Just as you were thinking that maybe it was a good idea to jump out and proceed with the rescue plan, a robotic voice spoke loudly from what you assumed was the man’s computer.

“You have a sale!”

There was an uneasy feeling in your stomach as you heard the man exclaim 2000 dollars. 2000 dollars for what? Was it one of your friends? You remained hidden under the packing peanuts, then realized that might not have been your smartest idea as the box was lifted and you were jostled slightly. Something was placed atop you, on the packing peanuts, followed by his voice once more.

“Happy Trails, cowboy Andy…” And then the box was sealed. The two of you remained still and motionless as he carried the box back to what you assumed was the front counter. Then, as soon as his feet receded, you pushed Woody off of you. He startled slightly, rolling over to the opposite side of the box. There wasn’t a lot of room in here, but there was enough for you both to lay comfortably with a little bit of extra space.

You couldn’t see his face, but Woody was clearly annoyed with being kicked. “Ouch! Who did that?”

“It’s me, I’ve been in here the whole time!”

“(Y/n)? You’ve been in here the whole time? Buzz is worried sick about you! Thought you already got sold off but we didn’t see your picture on the wall.”

A sinking feeling hit you in the gut, maybe it hadn’t been a good idea to go wandering off all alone. You’d thought you could save your friends all on your own, but you’d only wound up getting yourself stuck in a box with Woody. Some help you’d been.

“I thought I could help, but I couldn’t find a window enough to jump out and help you guys,” you admitted, staring up at the top of the box. You were grateful for the darkness, so he couldn’t see your face and you couldn’t see his.

Since the gang arrived in Bonnie’s room, you’d had a difficult time trusting them and even now that you considered them friends, sometimes you still found yourself believing you had to do everything on your own.

It was a tough habit to break, but slowly the walls were coming down. Still, laying here you knew what it looked like to Woody. What it would look like to the others. That you still didn’t trust them to get you out of situations like this.

“Help me find a way out of this,” Woody nudged you, “there has to be a way out!”

He pushed against the top of the box and you let him, feeling around with your fingers the bottom of the box, under all the packing peanuts.

“It’s no use!” He sighed in frustration, giving one last annoyed shove against the top of the box. You made an equally annoyed grunt, letting him know that you were no more successful in your endeavors than he was.

You wrapped your arms around yourself, starting to feel slightly worried. You’d never had a problem with tight spaces or anything like that, but with no way out here, you were starting to understand why Jessie did. There was no way you and Woody were making it out of here on your own. All the other toys were locked up tight in the cabinet. You were never going to see Bonnie again…

“This is all my fault, if I had just stayed with you guys…”

“Then you would’ve been taken too.”

“But Buzz wouldn’t be worried about me, at least. And maybe I could’ve helped get us out of that cabinet!”

Woody shifted slightly, clearly trying to find a more comfortable position in the tight space. “There’s nothing you could’ve done, trust me. I’m glad you’re here, we can still find a way out of this and save the others. From the outside, you and me can reach the handle and-”

“Shh! I think someone’s coming!”

You’d heard muffled sounds the entire time, and the two of you had mostly been ignoring them but now you heard the sounds of footsteps creeping closer to your box.

“Okay!” They responded to somebody far in the distance, someone you couldn’t hear and then, your box was lifted and placed somewhere else.

Uneasy, you moved your hands in the packing peanuts restlessly and Woody found your arm in the dark. He squeezed your arm gently.

“Even if we don’t make it out of here, when we get to where we’re going we can find our way back to Bonnie. There’s nothing we can’t do if we work together, so don’t panic!” His voice was hushed because he wasn’t sure if they were still being carried but it calmed you down as your box was placed somewhere else. The two of you laid still once more, now content with the knowledge that even if you ended up miles away from Bonnie, you’d still somehow find a way back.

The sound of the mail carrier coming back and forth could be heard through the box and you listened quietly. You wondered if Buzz would miss you if you never ended up coming home. Or would he mount a rescue mission from wherever he was like he had for Woody in that story they always tell.

Woody’s hand remained on your arm, grounding you and-

“Woody! Woody!” Jessie’s voice cut through the silence the two of you were sat in, she was clearly on a mission to find her friend. Relief flooded through you as Woody pushed once more against the top of the box with all his might, you helped him.

“Jessie! Jessie, over here!” You hoped his voice carried and, thankfully, it seemed like it did because a moment later the flaps were opened. Sunlight! Ah, you’d never take that for granted again!

The two of you sat up immediately as Jessie laughed, slightly breathlessly.

“(Y/n)! You’re here too! Where’d you come from?” She asked slightly confused, as Woody climbed out of the box.

He frowned, pointing back in the direction of the motel. “We can catch up later, the guys are going to need our help.”

The three of you hurried into the vents, racing back as fast as you could to the room with the glass cabinet where all of your friends were being held. From then on, everything seemed to happen too fast for you to comprehend. Woody and Jessie both seemed to have different ideas in mind to save the day, but it was Jessie’s quick thinking in the end that wound up saving everybody.

Bonnie and her mom collected all of you (much to your relief), returning you to the safety of the bag in the trunk. Now, with time to finally not worry about the people walking by and disturbing the toys, you all came to life. Immediately, Buzz was all over you.

“You’re not hurt are you? I mean, we didn’t see you so we assumed the lizard got to you and-” His hands were on your shoulders, something he was only barely able to do seeing as you were just a tad bit taller than he was.

You patted his hands with your own. “Relax, Buzz. I’m fine. I was a little scared when Woody and I got sealed in that box but he helped me calm down. Sorry I scared you all by wandering off on my own… I really wanted to help!”

You still felt guilty for worrying them all but Buzz pulled you into a crushing hug. You were grateful you had no bones to be broken.

“All that matters is you’re safe,” he mumbled to you, just quiet enough so that the other toys who were potentially hurt couldn’t hear. You kissed his cheek and he spluttered, pulling back slightly in surprise at the sudden display of affection.

You grinned. “I’m glad you’re safe too, space ranger.”

He stared at you and you met his eyes, holding his gaze for a bit before you were about to pull away when he once more pulled you closer to him, this time though connecting your lips. Funny how it was your first kiss and yet it felt so right, like you’d done it a hundred times before that.

“Gross! Get a room guys!” Woody’s voice cut through the special moment and Buzz did pull away to pull you to a more secluded part of the trunk.

Maybe this motel trip had been good for something after all.

#disney imagine #pixar imagine #disney x reader #buzz lightyear x reader #buzz lightyear imagine #toy story imagine #gender neutral reader #gender neutral imagine #toy! reader

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mustangs-flames · 5 months

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Hello. I stumbled across your AU on AO3 and I would like to tell you I am actively writing this post through tears. Anyways, where did you get the inspiration to start this AU? Many of the subtle things- the things the alternates say, the religion, the construction of the first story, entwining the pronouns of he, it and they, everything entwining and crumbling down, was so masterfully crafted. Do you have a degree in literature, if you don't mind me asking. I hope none of these questions are too invasive, please let me know if they are. Are many of these things written from personal experience? That aside, what do you think overdriven assimilation is? I always assumed that it was a alternate that had become so accustomed to human society that it completely forgets the fact it's an alternate, ||somewhat like Adam|| <<<<< SPOILERS FOR VOL 4!! But your take on the overdriven assimilation is very interesting. Like a skin stretched far too long up until it can't stretch anymore. One more thing that I feel is very interestingly explored in your story is the use of belief, since I find it to be one of the most interesting parts of being human. Everyone believes in something, and part of me wonders if thats the reason for our evolution, compared to say- an alternate who cannot feel, or think, or any of the sort, still being under the belief that mark is it's, and it being in such denial, fighting to hold on to its beliefs that it is the one in control, even when you, as a reader, can clearly see that control slipping away. Is this the main theme of Hail, True Body? I am very sorry for the disjointed thoughts- I am quite literally crying and it is 2 a.m. and I really felt the need to praise your work and I've interacted with anyone on Tumblr before, so I'm trying to write the best I can. Thank you for your masterful writing, you should write your own book. (If you want to.) -Sincerely, a sleep deprived and overly emotional anon with a lack of impulse control.

Hi! Wow! Thank you for sending this in! I'm sorry the AU made you cry, but I'm so glad to know you enjoyed it so far! It means an awful lot!

To answer your questions:

1. Inspiration came from before the AU was ever an AU to begin with. 'Its Name Was Cesar Torres' was very much a passion project that was just supposed to be a standalone fic and it had a very different ending before I decided that I actually wanted to explore the idea of an alternate gaining humanity and Mark as a character more. Initially INWCT was written because I couldn't find anything that really spoke to me and my idea of what an alternate gaining humanity would look like - I wanted something that explored it without compromising on the horror of TMC canon and what alternates were really like. I also wanted to read something from the perspective of an alternate with the idea that it learns to be more human like for selfish reasons, but those reasons slowly become more personal and complex, forcing it to question itself and its nature - whether it has to be one thing or the other, or if it even could step out of those categories to become something else entirely. Thus, INWCT was roughly planned out and I started writing it. By about chapter 5, I developed it into an AU, still under its original premise - to explore humanity and what it means to be human without compromising on the tone and horror of the canon series! So I scrapped the original ending for chapter 6 and worked it into the one you all got!

2. I have a joint honours degree in English Language & Literature!

3. Yes, many things in the AU come from my experiences! Alt!Cesar itself was inspired by my own feelings as I worked through a lot of gender and body dysphoria before coming out at trans. Mark's religious trauma, guilt, and internalised homophobia is based on my experiences with the Church and faith growing up. Quite a few of the characters who become disabled and who are already disabled are based on my own experiences with disability, as are those with depression and anxiety. There are more, and some are written from outside perspectives I had on certain things growing up. I probably won't talk about all of them outside of the fic though.

3. Overdrive Assimilation in the AU looks the same as it does in canon TMC - creatures and people with impossible proportions, that look wrong like the deer alternate does. However, the AU interprets it as alternates that are too impatient to learn how to mimic people and things, which is why the deer alternate fails to look like a convincing deer. It just makes approximations because all it cares about is getting a kill whatever it takes. A doppelganger alternate like alt!Cesar is practically flawless because it takes time to learn the nuances of the person/thing it wants to replace because it wants to use that position to then lure other unsuspecting victims in - alt!Cesar spent about 7 months in the Torres household learning to perfectly mimic Cesar and Lola Torres (and even Mark's voice). When an alternate falls into its true form though, it becomes overdriven because it's no longer making the effort to try and disguise itself.

4. Control and the loss of it definitely comes into alt!Cesar's story a lot, and both he and Mark share a parallel with their beliefs. Alt!Cesar clings to the idea that he can become the alternate he used to be before INWCT just as tightly as Mark clings to his faith.

Don't worry about coming across as disjointed or anything with your thoughts! It means an awful lot that you sent them in - it's always really nice to know that something I wrote was liked by someone who read it <3 thank you, it really does mean the world /gen

#hail true body au #mustang answers!#this was such a nice message. thank you anon <3 #i hope the rest of the au lives up to expectations!!#i really needed this today

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lukewarmbreadatamoderatepace · 10 months

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given that social media sites now remain active for a decade or more, I feel like the old blocking systems need to change and adapt to account for that. Someone I blocked literally 10 years ago on tumblr might well be an entirely different person by now! (and vice versa-- lord knows I was Much Worse ten years ago! If I encountered 10-years-ago-me today, I'd probably block her too!) There's accounts way back in my blocklist that it's very likely I blocked for reasons I no longer endorse.

Realistically I think this is probably rare edge cases, and no one besides me would actually use this kind of thing rather than just hardblock forever, and so it wouldn't actually worth the effort of tweaking relative to other things you could spend that effort on. But material reality never stopped an Ideas Guy from spouting off with Ideas and I'm not letting it stop me

Things that seem useful to include in blocking systems:

"Reason for block" included as a field when you block a person (optionally the person could be shown this? Kinda like how subreddit bans work from what I remember) (discord's ability to attach notes to any given user is SO USEFUL and I wish every social media had this, as someone who is so so bad at remembering people with my brain)

Some kind of timeout-- after X years, a lil popup that asks if you want to review blocks for people who are still active on the site (if the blocked account is inactive it won't come up unless it becomes active again)

Block appeal feature? I've known people who have a stance to the effect of "message me on anon if I've blocked you and you want me to unblock you and we can talk about it" which is kind of an awkward approach. Which actually doesn't even work any more since you can no longer send anon messages without being logged into an account. ^This seems really easily abusable (any avenue where a blocked person can contact the person who blocked them is fraught) and I'm not sure how you work around that. One appeal per [X] years?

Oh also this is different but like. An "ignore" feature as the default form of blocking. There's a decent number of accounts I have blocked because I find them obnoxious (or have other baggage), but I don't regard them as like, a harassment threat, and if I could just make my internet experience one that's indistinguishable from one where they don't exist, but without preventing them from reblogging stuff I'm the OP of, I'd do that. (Probably? Probably I would do that.)

I wish there was a way to crowdsource blocklists that wasn't super duper incredibly vulnerable to abuse. Probably the fix here is just, like, subcommunities with established norms and moderation (this is why everyone's migrating to discord!)

#meh

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lavender-teardroplettes · 15 days

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I am apologizing if my English is bad because I am using a machine translator to help me. I am from lily’s blog without a question box and I want you to help me understand this issue. By addressing the anonymous hate you are only giving it a platform and spreading awareness to your followers?

We should not be getting involved or anything like that because we have followers who can say mean things and express different opinions than us. You cannot expect your followers to listen to what you say and agree with everything you do. If you tell us not to send threatenings and private information there will always be crazy followers who will do the opposite. They will not listen because they are messed up and think this is funny to get a reaction out of you ,but if you keep talking about anonymous slander and getting involved then you are giving these people a platform and a reason to be heartless on the internet. Only windy and saint should be involved and maybe it is a good idea if they keep it private next time. Like personal messaging. You can see what can happens if you make personal drama public on this website called tumblr. It will blow up and become out of our control because millions of people can access it.

For my thoughts I think Lily should be held accountable for sharing windy’s message and giving the anonymous people an opportunity to be mean. They have a big community and it is insensitive to believe that there is not malicious people following them. I think everyone who is not the wind or saint need to step away and do not be involved. This is not our argument and repeatedly talking of it will only continue the cycle of anonymous hate and grievance. We need to back away and not talk about. Saint said it very clearly and respectfully that we should not engage the hate by sharing and exposing it to our followers. windy said that they need space from all of this and we should all respect it. We need to be more self aware of our actions and the harm it can cause even intentionally or not.

I notice there is a real problem in this community and it is encouraging anonymous haters. Why we never had this problem before bigger names like restart heart comes along? It was calm in this community but your friends are ruining the peace by participating in anon culture and doom scrolling. I am asking you with genuine sincere emotions to stop this. Stop giving anonymous a platform to be mean by turning off the anonymous question box and blocking. Do not answer rude asks and they will get tired and move away. This is my advice which you do not need to listen to but I recommend it. Please have a good morning.

I’m not going to fault you for English not being your first language- I work with many people with a language barrier in not only the limited Spanish I know, but also sign language for two deaf/hard of hearing employees.

I want to first ask why you’re coming to me about your grievances with Lily. Not just you, but other anons. Just because my ask box is open doesn’t mean that I’ll just allow you to shit on them for what they decide to do with their blog. And I’m also Lilith’s number one call out friend when I don’t agree with their actions before they make them public. Saint ALSO has a big community, the same could be said for them and how their mods interacted with the situation. And I going to say it again- no one ENCOURAGES these anons, but it’s clear who isn’t expressing discouraging this sort of behavior. I’m not encouraging anons to hate on me when I see one that’s worth responding to just for the sake of discussion and offering perspectives and I will be more than happy to block a stupid ask that’s just there to hurt me. I want people to really sit and marinate on the words I’m trying to express. If I blocked every anon that came my way, then what was the point of you taking the time to write this? Shouldn’t other people see it as well? I’ve been on tumblr for a long time despite this being the SECOND blog I have ever made, this is just how I respond to anons.

You blaming RH for pointing out something that was already an issue before this new falling out isn’t new- Lily’s had countless instances of vitriol and hate sent their way along with other people- they just can’t ignore it. They’ve been DOXXED in the almost same exact way Saint is being in a way that is…oddly too coincidental for me but I’m taking that with a grain of salt since I’m aware there’s a group of people who have been oddly quiet recently until now, but that’s just if my speculations are correct.

I’ll state it again- I don’t encourage harassment and I’ll be more than happy to shut that shit down- I’ve just been careful with how I speak because I don’t want to give people the excuse to further be racist to me or call me an “angry black man”. Again- there are nuances I’m more than happy to point out when I see them.

#si speaks

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glitterjay · 17 days

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HI IM SO EXCITED THIS IS MY FIRST TIME SENDING AN ASK TO ANY TUMBLR BLOG AND IVE BEEN BUILDING UP THE COURAGE TO INTERACT W U BUT LIKE IM SO EXCITED HI COULD I BE 🍄 ANON ?

also i have a lil request and also please do not feel pressured to write it i’m just spitballing ideas here :

i’m VERY delusional when it comes to enha and recently during my uni classes (lectures are boring as shit) I’ve been conjuring up ideas of what would happen if i met enha and we lived happily ever after (wow im rlly delulu)

for example, reader gets sent to korea as a secret agent for a covert agency (bigger than law enforcement) that clears up any corruption in industries (in this case, the kpop industry) and she’s undercover as staff for global boy group, enhypen. while she’s staff there, her suspicious behaviour seems to catch the eyes of the boys and they all agree to keep an eye on her bc they suspect she’s a sasaeng but in reality she’s just tryna dive deeper to uncover info abt their care and any mistreatment from the company and also find leads that can lead her to the core of corruption in the company

one night, enha notice her going thru a restricted section in the company but before they can confront her, she disappears without knowing they saw her. the next day they’re treating her rlly bad bc they think she’s a sasaeng and reader gets rlly upset, she complains to her spy boss guy that she’s getting sick of this behaviour and he agrees to pull her out of the mission, before she leaves tho she leaks info abt the corruption in the company and the mistreatment of idols to the news and HYBE gets investigated by the police.

everyone in the company are talking abt who the leak was and enha suspect it was reader, they feel sorry abt the way they treated her and try to find her but realise she quit her job and they’re probs never gonna see her again.

WOW THATS A LOT BUT I HAD A LOT OF THOUGHTS ABT THIS SPECIFIC SCENARIO u can decide what happens next bae <3

drink water and get good rest ilysm keep doing what ur doing :))

- possible 🍄 anon

you can definitely use 🍄! it's an honor to me being the first blog you send an ask to! i wish to see you more in my ask, anon :].

this idea is just... wow. (/pos) i could make it into a long au / series and credit you for the idea! my dms are open if you'd like to discuss more, or, if it's more comfortable for you, you can stay anonymous and keep using my ask! anything works, really. my readers come first always <3

welcome to the club!

#🍄'anon #c's friendly ask

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I think that anon belied a common misconception among many well-meaning people, too, that is actually worth addressing, wrt my donation posts: I DONT usually get money from strangers, and I DONT put those posts up with any expectations at all! Sometimes they don't work! Sometimes we get nothing for weeks on end, or just $5 here and there, and we go a month without everything that we need, and we make do with what we can find anyway.

But the thing is, when I do put up a post and I ask for money, I'm NOT asking strangers. I have a TON of connections near & far that I talk to online. I'm putting out a call to all of my friends, giving them an update, and saying, "hey if any of you is better off right now, we could use a hand!" often my friends are no better off than me, and they can't help. that's fine! Its hard times for everyone! that's why I know they don't begrudge me for asking.

In fact, a lot of my friends send me money WITHOUT me asking!! one of my IRL friends has learned to recognize when I need more help and I'm playing it down. They gave me $60 just recently, after I waffled for hours about taking their money, and finally told them I could get by the rest of the week on $30-50. Another friend, someone I've known since we were toddlers, sent me $80 out of the blue several months ago just bc she missed us and was thinking of us, and she had a little extra. Last time we talked to her, I mentioned how our food stamps got cut, & we'd be out for another week. She venmo'd me $30 labeled "pizza tears" before we even got off the phone (which I think was hilarious fwiw). A different friend recently heard that Bel and I wanted to go on a date to taco bell, and when I said we could do it for under $20, she gave me $50 and said "make sure you get the cinnabons!!!" Another friend bought me winter boots and socks this year as soon as i said i didnt have any- THE best, warmest, cosiest socks I've ever owned. Last year, one (1) of my tumblr mutuals covered my ENTIRE cost of post-op care for top surgery. I said "I'll probably need $$$" and they covered all of it! That same person has bought me groceries, meds, and gas on many other occasions, too. All of these people are folks I've known for years either thru tumblr or IRL.

Very occasionally, it's a newer mutual or even a stranger. One time, when I was still on Twitter and very early in my transition, I said something about how gender affirming my old high school Chuck Taylor's were and how I missed them so. My mutual from another COUNTRY immediately sent me $60 for gender affirming Chuck Taylor's. I haven't spoken to that person since Twitter went south, sadly. If youre still out there, I named my shoes after you, Bergamot & Jones, and I think of you every time I step outside. Another time, a guy who wasn't even my mutual sent me a bunch of binders and boxers for free. Sometimes even my old coworkers from my mall days pop up out of the woodwork and send me 20 bucks or something.

I have more stories like this. Not even just about money. Like that guy who saw me pop a flat tire in the mall parking lot and insisted on changing it for me.

I actually also never feel guilty about asking for what I need, or accepting it, and you shouldn't either. I don't like this idea that you need to grovel and be exactly This self-flagellating and full of hatred and remorse to ride and earn one (1) morsel of kindness. What do I look like, a Catholic? You dont have to apologize for wanting to stay alive. You didn't ask to be born, and you weren't the one that put a price on living!

You know what I do instead? Pay it forward. Yes, I ebeg often, yet I, too, will sometimes send $5, $10, $30 to people I care about whenever we wind up with a little extra. You can't save money as a poor person anyway, it doesn't work, so why cling to my last few pennies when someone else could use it right now? I've watched Bel give away his last $5 to a different homeless person twice since we've been living in the car. One time we stayed and had dinner with the guy and his dog. He was a hitchhiker named Ray and he was SO interesting to talk to.

There are studies that show that the most generous people when it comes to donating are NOT the people with the most money. It's the poorest ppl in the community who have been or are in your shoes, and who know how you feel, who pitch in when you need it most. Hence the community $20. The idea that panhandlers are expecting something from well-off strangers who can't empathize with us is like... kinda silly lmao, we know most of those ppl hate our fucking guts and want us dead, actually. (Are rich ppl really just that threatened by the idea of sharing that they see someone going "help please (generally speaking)!" And they immediately go "ugh, ME????? How dare you ask ME specifically for MY hard earned money?????" Idk it kinda tracks.)

I also use a jovial tone in a lot of my posts because I have to ask for help a lot, and it gets tiring to everyone to constantly hear "I'm soooo sorry for being such a needy piece of GARBAGE, AGAIN, I really hate that i have to do this, but..." because that's just The Friend Who Is Apogizing For Breathing. That doesn't feel good to hear any more than it does to say, no one likes that. And yes SOME people DO want you to feel that way about needing help- but its not going to be the people who will help you, I promise you that. Also, think about what you're saying when you talk about yourself like that. Why are you garbage? Because the cost of living is too high? Because your boss doesn't pay you a living wage? Because your landlord wrings you dry? Because you can't afford your meds or food? How is any of that actually about you at all? How does being hungry and wanting to live make you garbage???

Deeply unfortunately, you also tend to get more attention with a chipper tone and a preemtive "thank you" instead of an "oh God oh God oh God I'm so sorry I'm so fucking sorry, fuck!!!!" I also won't imply urgency where there isn't any. Sometimes we DO need money asap and it's like, we'll literally be stranded in the woods with no food if we don't get it. But other times, we need money, but like, we have time to figure it out. I save the urgency for the times I really need it.

Instead I focus on the positive: I DO have a lot of friends who care about me, all over, and even strangers who care about me, too! Those people have been keeping my ass alive for YEARS! They shouldn't have to do that! I shoudlnt have to beg to continue to use my own organs! But also, how cool are my friends for being the realest commies I know??? They're not going to just let me die out here. Why would I be sad about that? Why would I feel bad about people caring about me and wanting to see me pull through? Why would I apologize for proving that the human loving spirit is in fact alive and well? In the times when there IS less urgency, I think it's just nicer to my friends to make a lighter hearted post once in a while- you know, for the ones constantly seeing this stuff and helping me out. I think it's nice to acknowledge them in a positive way, instead of always being like "god im do sorry that im STILL BREATHING, i know you guys HATE that!!!"

Like. Idk if this is making sense. Remember that post where the person was telling their partner, "I'm just so worried that you'll think I'm stupid and want me to shut up," and their partner said, "Thats kind of mean, I wish you wouldn't think of me that way"? It's like that. If your friends and mutuals wanted you to shut up and die and feel guilty for living, they wouldn't be sharing your posts or donating to you, and it's kind of... mean? To get off on that foot. It's like we expect people to only help us begrudgingly. Thats not true at all! Donation posts are optional. Most people who reply to them do so because they're in a position to help and they WANT to, because it makes them feel good.

It's thanks to my friends that I am still alive to make all these delightful posts for them to read. They want me to stay alive because they like having me around. So i try to continue to be that presence in exchange for their love and suppport, and yes, i will incorporate that into my posts asking for help, especially if its a less time-sensitive ask. Idk like, re-framing a situation and focusing on the positive is a basic coping skill from many types of therapy and I hate to say this but it really is good for you. (Also fwiw I try to always say "thank you" to every individual who sends me money, each and every time. Sometimes they don't let me send messages back thru the pay apps, and sometimes I forget, but I try to every time.)

Plus, damn near EVERYONE needs help right now! Poverty and income inequality and chronic houslessness and chronic ILLNESS are all at ALL TIME HIGHS. Pre-covid 25% of the population was disabled. I wonder what it will look like next time we get a handle on those numbers?

So just to be clear, again: I don't expect donations to pull us out of poverty! If that were realistic, it would have already happened, ive been doing this for a decade. I don't expect strangers to have a stake in our situation, either. All either of us want is to be able to keep living our lives as best as we can for as long as we can- and a lot of our friends, and other people, DO sympathize with that. That's a point of pride for the community I've chosen for myself. I refuse to feel guilty about surrounding myself with caring, wonderful people who actually read my posts. That sounds like a pretty big win for me actually lmao.

AND I refuse to feel guilty and self-deprecating over circumstances that are out of my control and don't actually weigh on my character whatsoever. Being disabled isn't a character flaw. Being unemployable bc of my symptoms isn't something that's "wrong" with ME. Being homeless during an ALL TIME RECORD HIGH of homelessness ISNT something thats "wrong" with "me," and it's not something I would want anyone else to feel guilty over, either! These things don't determine who I am as a person or the impact I have on the people around me. Clearly I continue to have a positive impact and be a good friend, or asking my friends for help wouldnt be keeping me alive. I simply don't have enough followers to get that much money from strangers lol. And I have more followers than a lot of people (around 1500 currently).

So yeah, this is to everyone else who's ever felt horrifically guilty for asking for help online or otherwise: even if you dont have a lot of connections and you ARE asking for help from strangers, needing one another isnt a character flaw! The people who care will WANT to help anyway, period. It makes people feel good to know they can help. And yes it does make people feel better to hear a "thank you! we are still alive and happy to be here!" Over a "fuck God I'm so sorry I'm still alive and burdening you all so with my high cost of breathing!!!!" I'm so sorry that you have to have a body! Me, too, bud. It's rough, but it's gonna be ok.

Anyway needing help is morally neutral. Now im just thinking about the way the upper class has poor people at each other's throats for the perceived "selfishness" of needing help- because in a world where you are constantly burnt out from work, and the value of a dollar is so horribly out of proportion to the effort it takes to earn, sharing that hard-won effort with anyone else does sometimes feel like too much. Im thinking about the way hoarding wealth & resources & keeping them behind paywalls is seen not only as morally superior but a sign of objective intelligence and life skills, vs how the way sharing is construed as foolishness, the way needing help to stay alive is construed as greed, while the upper class that literally stays healthy and youthful and thrives on the blood, sweat and tears of the lower class gets to pat themselves on the back for being morally superior, individualist, and "not needing anyone." Kinda makes me sick when I put it like that!

Anyway. Again, needing help is morally neutral, especially in this economy, and I refuse to hate myself for circumstances that aren't my fault and for having people in my life who are invested in me and want to see me pull through. Everyone deserves friends like that, and I hope you find them.

#me #homelessness #disability stuff #long post #car living #in case you missed the context #i had put out a donation post w a lighter tone. the one w the kitty gif on it #and this anon was like soo mad that i was 'trying to be funny and cute' instead of begging desperately #but ive been wanting to make this post for a while anyway just bc so many people do this #the whole oh my god im so fuckint sorry i have to do this again im so sorry to besmirch your dash and darken your doorstep etc etc #im sorry but i really feel like the ONLY people who WANT to hear that #are ppl like my anon who spend 0% of their time helping anyone ever #and most of their time saying shit like '97% of poor people have refrigerators' type shit #(real thing from fox news a few yrs back icymi. like poor people arent THAT poor. see. refrigerators!)#the only type of person who wants to see you self-flagellate for needing help getting meds #is someone who doesnt think anyone should ever have help getting meds.#wow i couldve just said that and instead heres a 10k word essay rofl.#anyway!!!!!

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Can you draw redraw with this cuties!?

https://at.tumblr.com/sashamoon19/704241433319784448/99wl4qlai8a5

This concept art features Gorgeous Nathan from the gym club (AKA Pre Felix) and Marietta (Or Marinette)!

You have very nice drawings,I like it,Dude!!Very beautiful and creativity.Your drawings are just a masterpiece!!!

Firstly, I must thank you for helping me identify that the dude in this concept is Gorgeous Nathan. I always thought he couldn't be Felix because he seemed different, and it's not just because of the outfit, though that's a heavy reason. I never thought about it being Gorgeous Nathan but that does make the most sense. Also, I must say I very much appreciate you referring to him by his full title. Beautiful. We always appreciate Gorgeous Nathan from the Gym Club. (I will bully this man relentlessly for this title, I swear). For those who don't like using links that they can't be sure where they lead, this is the image anon is talking about:

Anyway, I'm not sure if you were actually asking me to draw them separately or redraw this image. I went with redrawing it. I do have this image and I very much love it more compared to the final product. So I decided to redraw it based on what ended up being the final product and on this sketch version. The final product involves the weird combination of Marinette and "Bridgette" and Felix. There was not much else in the scene besides two people and a car and while I liked the focus on Felix and "Bri" it looked so barren and lifeless somehow compared to all other concept images. That isn't to say the art is bad, of course. The art was very, very good. It just didn't have quite the same life I loved about the other concepts so it's one of my least favorites. Here's them compared side by side:

I quite liked the sketch because of life it had and I wanted to somehow mimic that without people so I decided to add a lot more plant life and hopefully bring more "energy" you could say. I'm not sure I did it justice. I also did some very sloppy coloring because I thought it would be fun. I don't really love the outfit Marietta have so I did my best with what I was provided. That's one of the things I preferred about the final image. I will say I couldn't help myself and added Marietta's necklace even though this isn't quite the Marietta we know because she seemed to have the more Marinette-like bangs.

But here it is... I did my best. I much prefer the original products myself but this was fun. I recommend clicking on it. This image is big so Tumblr makes it look worse. XD

I really had to deconstruct this image. I went through tracing the very basic shapes of it to get the basic idea of the energy then I went to making my own building blocks so I could draw my own style over top of that then it was redrawing it all over again and so forth and so on... I basically drew this image multiple times. Can't say I'm all that thrilled with this one. I actually don't quite like it. But I do try to be honest about my art journey. I am one of those artists who believes it's the fun that's important and I had a whole lot of fun making it. Except Gorgeous Nathan's head. That wasn't fun. Very unfun. You think I would hate his hands but no it was his freaking head. Ironic since that's the stuff I draw the most; heads and faces. I hope you at least like it, even just a little bit. Maybe one day I can draw them again without trying to measure up to someone else's work, I suppose. That's probably what threw me off a lot, that I really wanted to do it justice even though I knew this would be a very simple drawing. Thanks for the request! It was very fun to draw this version of the characters! I also very much like the story this one tells! Also anon, I gotta ask... are you the same anon sending me all the wonderful asks in my inbox? I, of course, appreciate them but it did get me curious! I hope you're having a wonderful day, afternoon, evening, night, or whatever time it is where you are! <3

#marietta #gorgeous nathan from the gym club #I will never get over this title #I will never not make fun of gorgeous nathan from the gym club #ml concepts #ml concept art #miraculous ladybug #digital art #TB's art #sketch #ask me anything #anon ask #ask me about miraculous concepts #just having fun #marietta and gorgeous nathan both deserve more love #forever calling him gorgeous nathan

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maireadralph · 2 years

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Entrapdak Fandom Events:

Okay I had some time to write and as you all should know by now I am at my happiest best when planning 1001 things. Right here’s some thoughts and ideas I had for some upcoming Fandom events Thoughts, feedback and comments are always welcome - I just like throwing out many ideas and seeing what sticks!

Entrapdak Positivity Month:

I propose we move this event from the previous October date to mid January-Mid February. Same length but different month

Why these weird dates?

Those dates line up with Entrapta’s Birthday (Jan 24th) to Hordak’s Birthday (Feb 18th).

These dates should allow our friends in the Southern Hemisphere (*waves from London*) to partake without having to stress about academic matters.

These dates also allow people to work on their pieces over the Christmas and New Years Holiday period downtime.

These dates should be free of anything Antis or Haters want to throw our direction as they wouldn’t run alongside other SPOP related art challenges (eg Catratober).

These dates also allow us to have Valentine’s Day as a sneaky bonus 😉

While not murdering the October challenge completely I propose a mini Entrapdak Positivity Month for those that want it this year - an Entrapdak Positminity Month with 14 prompts (not yet written), for those that like an extra challenge can do the prompts for both a fic and a pic

Entrapdak Zine 4:

As those who have read the current issue may have noticed the deadline date has already been locked in for the next issue (thank you Past Me for being TURBO organised with those phone reminders). I’ve yet to write up the post for the next issue, set up the countdown timers or find a fitting theme but for the most part it’ll be the same as previous and out before Christmas just like Issue 2.

Entrapdak Secret Santa:

I’ve not noticed this event been done in my time here so I’m going to propose this as a possibly.

What is it:

A fun event where people sign up and are assigned a person to give a “gift” to. As this is Tumblr and Fandom may I suggest the gifts be a pic or a fic and sent digitially to the recipient via the Anon feature

How will it work?

People sign up during a period. There will be a confirmation check-in deadline post which people can confirm to by either commenting or liking the post or sending a DM/chat message/anon message to me. Those that fail to respond a week of the confirmation check-in post will be automatically dropped from the project.

Those that confirm I’ll pair up randomly and only the Gifter and I will know who they are gifting to (if there is an odd number I’ll Gift to that person no questions asked).

The Gifter sends the gift by a set deadline and it is their choice if they wish to be identified or want the work to be published publicly.

If everything works to plan everyone who signed up with both send and receive one gift and if we’re really luckily the work will be shared with the whole fandom!

There is a risk that a Gifter might ghost their Giftee - that’s not cool, we need to be cool to each other please don’t do this

I will have to look into the dates and planning but I think this could be a really fun thing to do especially if the fics are short little one shots, the pic are sweet little things and it could all be done during the Christmas and New Year Holiday period (or even beforehand 👀)

#fandom event #entrapdak #hordak #entrapta #spop #<-tagging for audience #planning #entrapdak positivity month #entrapdak positminity month #entrapdak zine #entrapdak secret santa #buzz writes things #long post #sorry not sorry

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borathae · 11 months

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IM REALLY SORRY FOR THE LONG ASS ASK JDKDKDKDKKSJSJSKSKDKDKDKKS I normally write them in my notes app because tumblr hates me and the app closes randomly sometimes so I didn’t even notice it was THAT long jskskskkskls AND I had so much to catch up with! Again I’m sorry jskskskksks

But now I come to scream about the new chapter! Oh Sibi I knew that I would come back here to eat my words regarding Tae and Jimin at some point but I didn’t know it would be so soon for Tae, he went from being past the red line to being on the yellow one with me cause I’m still a little wary about the fact that he can still fuck up again, but I really hope it doesn’t happen, for real all I want for him is to be happy with the people he loves and care about, he deserves happiness after everything 😔 and I love seeing him interact with Yoongi in a non violent? or cold way 😭 like yes please talk about things, like Tae said, they are in love with the same woman they should at least try to get along for her now that he’s trying to be better 🥺 I get Yoongi too tho he almost killed the love of his life so I would be wary too, BUT we are going in the right direction now at least with Tae 🥳 I do have a question, will Jimin get a redemption arc too to the point that we get to like his annoying ass? Or he will only get to be tolerable? Hope it’s the first one tho 😂

Also I cried when they were talking about Yoongi wanting to be mortal again, (please wrap this tiny man in lots of warm blankets and give him kisses he deserves all the love in the world 😭😭😭😭) I kid you not I was as affected by it as Tae, I’m on his side, I understand our prince but please not, I can’t bare the though of him dying from grief or the though of him dying of old age with OC because what about the others? What about Kookie? Maybe it’s selfish on my part but I truly want them all to be happy together for eternity 🥺 but I guess that choice will fall on our OC when the time comes…

Oh and I think that using the blade to turn Namjoon mortal would be the biggest fuck you to him and the biggest punishment considering how lowly he thinks of humans, what better punishment than turn him into what he despises and thinks is the lowest form of life 😎

And I had an idea, maybe it’s very dumb but here it goes… the gang can grab the “Magnus Vasistas” book, change the cover (without opening the book of course, maybe even with magic?) for one that relates to something that Namjoon would find interesting, since he loves reading, somehow leave it were he could find it, so he opens the book, gets sucked into the void and problem solved! jskskkskskhsjs

And the lore??!!!!! What do you mean Yoongi Boongi was a warlock?! Sibi that’s so hot of him jsjajajksksk I had the same reaction to that piece of lore that I had to you hinting that Jin was Jack the Ripper in SA sjakksksksksksksksksk can you tell us something regarding vampire lore that you really want us to know but it’s not in the story please? I would love to know more but don’t know what to ask!

Anyways I LOVED this chapter and how wholesome it was for our both boys I’m glad they are getting on better terms with each other, and that there’s hope for a much better relationship and understanding between them 🥺 and I hope our oc is ok, I’m worried about her 🥺

That’s for now Sibi, I can’t wait for the next chapter!

-Shy anon

Don't apologise for long asks! I love every asks you guys send me no matter how long or short it is heheheh 😔💜

for real all I want for him is to be happy with the people he loves and care about, he deserves happiness after everything 😔 and I love seeing him interact with Yoongi in a non violent? or cold way 😭

YES GOSH me too :( istfg he deserves all the happiness and friendship heheeh

I do have a question, will Jimin get a redemption arc too to the point that we get to like his annoying ass? Or he will only get to be tolerable? Hope it’s the first one tho 😂

Yes Jimin will get a redemption arc fajdsjf I am attempting to make you guys like him with it afjasdjf like I do want this lil bitch to be liked at the end HAHHAHAH

I kid you not I was as affected by it as Tae, I’m on his side, I understand our prince but please not, I can’t bare the though of him dying from grief or the though of him dying of old age with OC because what about the others? What about Kookie? Maybe it’s selfish on my part but I truly want them all to be happy together for eternity 🥺

same same same :( istfg just thinking that Yoongus Boongus could die one day rips me apart 😭😭😭

RIGHT?? I think so too fadjfaj that would honestly be such a fuck you to him fandfda

Right??? That's what I was thinking too 👀 the problem with this book though is that the spell is reversible. You just gotta know the right spell and then you can drag whoever is captured in it back out again. So if Joon has some evil witches on his side, all they have to do is do their lil magic and he is free again 😩 Time does pass differently in it though. One second in the real world feels like one month of agony in the book. So yeah honestly? It would still be a punishment in the end fajdfj

THANK YOU OMFMGMG I LOVE THAT YOU LOVE IT SO MUCH EHHEHEH I honestly love working on lore mgmgmmgmg there will also be more regarding Jinnie coming very soon *cough* today *cough* ohoohoho

As far as lore is concerned mhhm I don't really know because I tried to include everything that was lore related mhhm 🤔 maybe the fact that Namjoon was the best in anything that had to do with thinking whilst Yoongi was best in manual classes. Joon was always found copying spells out of books in the most beautiful handwriting and sometimes you even found him trying to think of new spells. While Yoongi was always best in putting the magic into action. Imagine it like this, Joon is going all like "I thought of something. What if you tried to mix this herb with this herb and then chant these words?" while Yoongi was all like "yes, I will try" and together they tried out the new spell. Many times it ended up with them failing and getting dirtied by a failed spell, but sometimes they were succesfull which resulted in them reporting to their teacher and getting praise.

Ah yes and then magic education would have taken ten years to finish. They started it when Yoongi was seventeen and Joon was still sixteen, but ended it just a few months after Yoongi hit his twenty fifth year. By that I mean that is when they went too far and their teacher cursed them rip to them ahfadhf

OMGMG THAT LORE JUST MADE ME SO EXCITED OMGMGM I hope lots of people read it because it's really important hehehehhe

#asks: magnus venatio #asks #shy anon #hcs: sanguis duology

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callioclops · 4 months

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Woah, a pinned post

Figured I may as well start using Tumblr as an actual blog rather than a promotional tool for streaming that I no longer do and letting it just sit here and occasionally reblog something funny from my friends, so I'm making a introduction post.

Hi, I'm Calliope or Callie for short. I'm an autistic trans woman and I use she/her. My primary interests include structural analysis of TV and anime, and getting way too deep into the mechanics of various video games inevitably resulting in an attempt to flawlessly optimise whatever it is I'm meant to be doing. As you can imagine this draws me to roguelikes a lot, but also fighting games, RPGs, etc.

If you fall under any of these groups kindly fuck off: Homophobes, TERFs and other transphobes, and honestly just as a general catch-all if you harbour a hatred for any group of people for no reason besides their appearance or the way they refer to themselves.

Quick pre-emptive Q&A:

Why do you have anon asks turned off? - Simple answer is that I don't want anon hate. I think if you want to be mean to someone online you can at least have the courage to stand by what you said without hiding behind a circle with sunglasses. If you want to send an ask but don't want it to be public that it's you, put "[/p]" somewhere in the ask. If you aren't being hateful I'll respect your want to be anonymous. Obviously I'll still know but that's the best I can give.

What TV shows/anime do you usually talk about? - That's very dependant on what I'm watching at any given time. I'll try to keep this up to date (no promises) with what I'm currently interested in. At the time of writing (23/12/23) the two main ones are Rick & Morty and My Hero Academia. These two specifically I have heard are a turn off for a lot of people due to the fandoms, personally I don't really interact in that space.

What posts can I expect? - Probably not that many in all honesty. I'm writing this at 11pm and it's entirely possible that I'll just forget about this for weeks on end. But if I am to post it will likely be short rants about any of the above mentioned media. Either talks about specific episodes of a show or mechanical intricacies of video games. I like to imagine that it will be educational in a way that is completely incomprehensible in an academic capacity.

Why a cyclops? - Initially, I was attempting to 'transition' my online persona at the same time as I was transitioning in real life and wanted a pun or portmanteau based on my new name. Callioclops was the only one I could think of and I stuck with it. Over time though it really grew on me, I had design ideas for an icon (Thanks to @caeruluspirit for the profile image), I really just became engrossed in cyclopes and monocular creatures in general. I think part of this fascination also stems from an irl friend who has depth perception issues and once tried to explain it to me by saying "The sky is in front of the trees." I've been thining about that every so often ever since.

So yeah, I'm going to try and be a bit more active on here. Share a piece of my autism with a wider audience. If that interests you stick around, if not then by all means keep on moving.

#intro post #really have no idea what to put here but I guess there's not exactly a wrong way to do this so

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