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tutuandscoot · 1 year

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The gift from “Carmen” took my breath away for a moment 🥹 When Tessa couldn't continue due to pain in her legs and Scott was trying to reassure her that everything was ok 🥹 I found it extremely sweet and compassionate that he cared so much for her and to reassure her that they might as well stop and abandon the competition. ❤️

At the same time it breaks my heart to see how she, having arrived at the boards with the coaches, is so broken and afraid of disappointing everyone… I really don't know where she recovered the strength to continue despite the pains 😭😭😭 the fact that she had to resume immediately so close to a very difficult lift was once again proof of how much total trust she places in Scott, in the fact that he will always be there for her, that he will not let her fall, that he will never blame her and that in a moment so hard he could sustain her, in any way ❤️

THIS!

A MILLION TIMES THIS!!

The essence of their partnership is care and compassion and they would never do anything to hurt each other. He only ever wants what is best for her.. the amount of instances of teams getting mad at each other for what ever reason.. No. NEVER TS.. she said in their book that to this day she feels regret over it and that she really felt she shouldn’t have stopped in the first place. The pain she was in for so long, probably skated so many competitions in some sort of pain, never wavering, never showing weakness, it MUST have been so bad this time for that pain to override her formidable mind.

And yes. HIM. You can see as they round the back of the rink she’s saying (implying) ‘I’m sorry, I’m sorry, please let me keep going’. That immediate panic ensues and she wishes she could take that moment back, she’s so mad at herself for stopping and there’s nothing she can do, the (so called) “damage” has been done. But Scott. He just talks her down off the ledge so beautifully. He knows exactly what to say, exactly what to do to calm her- not coddle her, not blame or get mad at her, just get her back to the state of mind she needs to be in to make the right decision for her. It’s pretty clear to make out he’s saying: “you can’t, don’t Tess. Ok, ok. Stop”. And at one point it looks as though she’s saying: “I can” right before he just says Stop.

The moment she kind pushes him away ruins me.. she’s so devastated, so not in the right frame of mind to think clearly, probably every possible and fanatical consequence is running through her mind- this competition, home worlds, the Olympics.. what has she done and she’s just wishing she could take it back, she can’t think clearly and he has to think for her. She’s trained her mind for so long to mask her pain and when it can’t she doesn’t know what to do.. this I think is the closest I’ve ever seen her to broken. It’s beautiful how he almost has to get slightly rough with her to just stop her from spiralling. So he grabs her head, then her hand to get her to stop- for so long that has held so much value to them, they love to hold hands and she’s knows when he squeezes her hand that everything will be ok.

It’s also so lovely the way he takes charge of dealing the the officials (insert this into my Things I Love series). It’s obvious he would do that but I still love it, and he just tells them she’s hurt.. I may be reading into it but even the way he says that, you know he’s so worried about her and they’d dealt with that so many times, so many times she was ‘hurt’ and CHRist he was so patient with her.. he stuck by her all those years through it all and I don’t think this was so much a matter of ‘shit it’s happening again’.. her legs were still something there and he always would’ve been worried about it- not competitively but just for her wanting her to be ok. I don’t know how to say it definitively enough but.. Tessa is his ONLY partner. She stops, he stops. She may not ever skate again, he may never skate again. I need everyone in the world to understand that without each other, there is none of this. This is only them, their entire lives up until like 2019- 22 years (more or less) was VirtueMoir, and a huge part of them will remain VIRTUEMOIR. I can only imaging the obscenities Scott would of hurled at anyone who told him he should get a new partner coz Tessa (‘s legs) ain’t it.

There’s no way he was at the boards convincing her to keep going against her own will, I think he was leaving that decision completely in her hands, only supporting her in her decision to start again if she was certain- and he knows her so well he can tell when she’s certain- she’s so strong willed, he knew she could do it but was also only going to do what was best for her- determined by her because she is the best ice dancer ever and you don’t get there by not being an incredible athlete. The way he shoos the camera man away, then getting mike to actually move him. This without a doubt is the moment I fell in love with SM. He’s seemingly saying ‘she shouldn’t keep going..if she’s in pain’. I really have no idea what was exactly said… but you know the gist of just being concerned for her safety above all else.

Then once they do decide to continue, as they wait for the music to restart and he’s just talking to her. The way he makes it so everything else in the world disappears and it is only him she sees and hears. He’s going to be her voice in her head telling her she can do it because she probably isn’t in a place where she can fully do that herself.

When he switches their handhold, they were doing that proper handhold back then but not as often as the comeback. I imaging he’s telling her “you’re incredible T, you’re the best in the world, no one can do what you do. Just focus on your breathing, breathe with me. I’m here for you, we’re in this together, right till the end I’ll always be here with you”. They take their time getting into the lift and he’s really careful with her- kinda leaves his left arm up, even though she can’t see it, but feels that protection there. He stays in her ear the whole rest of the program, getting in her face, you can even see in their close holds he is giving her more support than he usually would need to- she had never been one to clutch onto him in hold or be wobbly on her skates (apart from the 2009 season coming back from first surgery she was obviously weaker), he’s just giving her whatever she needs to keep going- it was her decision to keep going so he will be there for her no matter what.

I love on the ending, how he hangs there.. there’s something very emotional about that too. Like I felt that was hard for him as well- to finish. The extra emotional exhaustion that took to get to the end, not to mention restarting- yes they got a pause to catch their breath but they would be trained to the rhythm of the program and stopping unexpectedly.. it can mess with how they regulate their stamina.

Then the sheer disappointment on her face.. again I just want to hug her- I image he did once they were out of the k+c.

What a burden it must’ve been on her mind to be one half of the best ice dance team in the world, soon to be of all time, and to have this chronic problem that at any moment almost could just shut her legs off.. training full time, competing 7 times a year, improving, getting stronger and remaining innovative, the worlds bench mark.. no wonder she felt like a fraud. God I just want to give her the biggest hug in the world because no way she could’ve realised back then how incredible she really was. When she talks about blocking so much out because it’s too painful to think about and reliving all the guilt she felt for Scott. This is the part of their partnership that is just so special because they protected each other even from themselves, the very person she felt enormous guilt for, was the person protecting her from feeling that about him. The freaking psychology of their partnership jeez I want to study it.

Again like with the video camera man, seemingly a photographer wanting a pic of them in the k+c and he just gives that subtle shake if the head that means everything. Keeping everything she doesn’t need in her world right now out of it. No doubt he would be disappointed, frustrated, maybe even angry, but (like I’ve said before in an unrelated post) none of that is directed at her, just the situation. He is disappointed for the team- not himself and not in her. Everything she’s been through and has hardly ever shown weakness- only one other time they stopped mid-program. He knows how strong she is so for it to have happened he knows it was bad.

They just took such good care of each other. They were so kind and wonderful to each other. With using that wording there’s a sense of softness and delicacy.. the connotation of weakness. And I don’t associate them with ‘weakness’ at all, but I love how there’s this delicacy to them- to me it encapsulates how they allowed their emotions to live freely with each other. They never had to put up a front or brave face- the other could always see behind that. Here T puts up a brave face for everyone else but he can see the pain and trepidation in her eyes, and he knows he has the responsibility to get her through it, and he’s the only one she trusts to get her through it. He can see her at her lowest and doesn’t need to tell her to toughen up, because she’s the strongest person he knows. She is always strong but he allows her to feel anything and everything she wants because he is her safe space. They do that for each other- they never have to be anything but themselves for each other. It’s not in any way a weakness or makes you weak to be told and showed everyday.. every moment that you are cared about that person is so grateful for you.. it adds softness and an air of magic and I would actually say only makes them stronger because they know that person beside them is never not gonna have their back.

Just when I think I couldn’t be more inspired by them I rewatch this moment I’ve seen a thousand times and… the enormity of the example they are of what trusting and caring about someone truly looks like. And not just looks like but feels like. They feel so freaking much for each other. They just care to the ends of the universe about each other. To be so seen and so understood.. yes this is an unorthodox relationship and they are in an extremely unique/high pressure environment, they need that trust to do what they do, but watching them and feeling the compassion, concern, unwavering belief that the person they live everyday of their life with is the the best, and they need each other. No matter what else that ever meant, that is more special then anything I could imagine.. and this is just one example of that.. every moment of them exudes the same trust and loyalty.

#ask #uhh I’ve wanted to talk about this moment for so long #I’ve cried many times watching this and I’m sure I will again #I can’t believe a love this pure actually exists #I can’t believe two humans can be this kind and wonderful to each other #THEM #and their endless love for eachother #fd: carmen #4CC 2013

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soobpricity · 1 year

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mikrokosmos

synopsis : after coming back into contact with beomgyu , the person who wavered your view of love and couples , the two of you are forced to work together for a project. in the end the two of you have to deal with unwanted feelings.

star 30

you ran through the long hallways, looking for the door with a sign that had your group’s names on it. eventually running into sakura, chaewon, yunjin and yena who were all standing directly outside of the door, urging you to arrive quicker. as you entered the room, taking a seat in one of the makeup chairs, getting your hair and makeup done by the girls as quickly as possible. thankfully there wasn’t much to do with the hair and makeup as you previously had gotten it done, but they made slight touch ups.

“yn !! why would you scare us like this , we’re next in line !!” yena complained as she finally took a seat feeling a bit less nervous as you finished up. your body relaxed taking a minute to close your eyes.

“i told you i was busy, yena.. but then i felt bad-“

“can you at least tell us why you were so late, yn ?” chaewon asked. patting your head, smoothing your hair out, attempting to smoothen down a few loose hairs.

“you can probably check any social media.. oh ! just search up mine and jake’s names !!” you exclaimed. pulling out your phone from your purse that you had taken along with you, handing the phone to chaewon. as you heard her nails tapping against your phone. a shocked expression appearing on her face as she gave the phone to sakura.

“you were getting married to jake !? TODAY ??!!! and you just left !!!” chaewon yelled, sakura proceeding to ask questions as she also passed the phone to yena, who seemed quite confused.

“not really married- ‘ts not a real marriage if you don’t love one another.. right ? plus jake and i agreed to ditch our spots today and reveal that it’s all been fake, this entire time.” you stated. getting up from the makeup chair, “after all nobody would like to be in an arranged marriage,”

“wait, so yn, where are you going after this ?” yunjin asked , worried for your sleeping and living arrangements.

“hm? me.. i think i’ll see my brother.. i don’t know if he wants to see me, but i’ve moved a few of my necessities to beomgyu’s place.”

“you could always-“ yunjin begins to invite you to stay with her. although you cut her off.

“-it’s best if i don’t, yunjin, your parents and mine are friends, i don’t even want to really stay with beomgyu. just because i’m worried my mom might say something to him…”

“oooh, you can always stay with me and sakura, well we can’t really ensure something long-term, but at least until you can stabilize your situation a bit.”

“thank you so much, chae, i’ll check in with my brother first and uhmm.. well depending on what he says then i’ll let you know.” you responded, sending a bright smile towards her.

“also.. yn, i thought you were an only child ?” sakura questions, taking her seat on the arm side of the couch.

“mhmm. that’s what it looks like because that’s what my parents and my brother want you to think.. he separated himself from the family because he didn’t want to be forced into business.. he really loved to dance and sing- we didn’t talk much.. mainly because he was taught things that my mom believed i shouldn’t be taught.”

“there’s so much to you that we didn’t know about… but anyway.. you missed rehearsal earlier so just try your best !!” yena gathered all 5 of you in the middle of the room, making a circle and putting your hands in the middle. “ready ??”

a/n: i did change yn’s pfp in the middle of doing these twts. also WERE ALMOST DONE WITH MIKROKOSMOS. just a few chapters left.. maybe 2-3 more ?? depends :)). also i don’t know if y’all noticed considering the fact that i didn’t write the performance scene…. but i suck at writing things like that but don’t worry i will 100% mention beomgyu’s reaction !! ><

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marengogo · 2 years

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NAKED - 4: RUN Jungkook

There For You - by Martin Garrix, Troye Sivan [There For You]

[Music is a very big part of my life and I’m MOSTLY INCAPABLE of writing without music, so I just thought I'd share what I am listening to while writing this]

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It’s June 12, 2017, 「BTS Festa 2017」 pulls up now remember that these festa dinners/events are usually filmed beforehand perhaps days, longest a month, most likely depending on their schedule and amongst their usual excitement and bickering we are very randomly and oh-so-casually made privy of a particular piece of information regarding Jungkook: During 2016, the only birthday present he gifted was to Jimin and the public the boys wants to know why.

[Here is the BangtanSUBS link to that dinner and the TimeStamp (TS) for that particular questions is → 53:27

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For the life of me, I’m not sure exactly what they expected him to answer, or actually let me correct myself real quick; I'm not sure exactly what Jimin expected him to answer. If you watch the entire video, the members make it clear throughout the session that because they are all around each other so much, they ran out of things to ask or discuss about each other, hence most of the questions they came out with were for lack of anything real to say and really just to create lighthearted banter.

During this brainstorm-for-banter one of the members did bring up the question, which sparked JM’s interest and the way I’ve always pictured JM in my head during this moment, was him going “you know what? Yeah. Let's ask this …”. Mind you, this was a period (as shown from the infamous JinJikook vlive:

) where JM seemed to almost be requesting from JK to come forth saying things he thought he wouldn’t hear if not in front of a camera 😬.

JK didn’t answer the question, at least not in the direct way that perhaps JM wanted him to but he was hella smart about it!. If you watch the whole video you’ll see that from the moment the question was asked, JK wasn’t even given the time to reply, it was a whole back-and-forth between all the members who probably felt like some sort of grave was being dug, until JM would bring it back to subject and try to make JK answer. But JK did handle it like a pro and replied that he’d place more care in choosing member’s gifts from then on.

Why did JM want something from JK so badly? Why was JK fighting not the give this something to JM? I’m afraid we will never know unless they tell us and for the rest it can be all up to speculation, but this goes well into Jikook 2016 dynamics so I can’t digress 🥴 Back to todays topic!

So, in my opinion, JK might have dodged a bullet that day but I think it was finally made even louder and clearer that soemthing had to be done. Jungkook needed to RUN. And not run as in “run away” but run in the RUN BTS way, he needed to get to work to “solve a mission” because whatever feelings or message he was maybe trying to convey to JM were apparently not coming across; so JK got to work.

October 13, 2017 & October 15, 2017 rolled around. The first being JM’s birthday, which he went on vlive for and the second being a VMON vlive after their concert in Osaka

During vlive #1, JM is wearing presents given to him by members (as he said), one is the shirt and second is the cartier nail ring, which we will then discover, during vlive #2, was a gift from Joon. As explained by Joon, he got the gift early and also gave it to JM early. The members were all except for jimin of course added to a group where Joon wanted to give people a heads up and make sure that they didn’t feel pressured to do anything by this time gifting culture among bts was taking afoot thanks to JM himself.

I know many might want to and had speculated know what JK thought about Joon’s gift but in all honesty, I do get the vibes of him being a person very focus on his own tasks and he was a man on a mission at this point in time. Hence, besides not being it his place to start dictating to his Hyungs what they could and could not give their member as a gift, to be very honest, as he probably was already planning this try trip for a while by then I think that Joon could have given JM a diamond studded cellphone cover and JK wouldn’t have cared.

JM appreciates gifts and affectionate gestures a lot, but what he seems to really love are messages and words of affection. JK knew that by then and he did indeed have a message. So it was that, on October 13, 2017, JK posted his happy birthday tweet and to everyone’s confusion and curiosity he also added the words “It’s not over yet …”

The trip to Japan wasn’t a random “let me gift him a trip”, many interviews prior and after their trip will indicate that JM REALLY wanted to go to Japan. The way I’ve always pictured JK as he decided in his plans of action was JK probably sitting down and thinking, “I’m not the best with words but I have something to convey, what do I do?” In an interview released on November 17, 2017 meaning the interview happened beforehand, and in this case obviously before their trip by the Japanese magazine Non-No, Jimin says:

And so it was that according to various accounts of a Jikook airport citing we know they were at the airport on October 28, 2017 and were definitely back by November 1, 2017 as they had the ”Love Myself,” UNICEF’ new project with BTS, in Seoul on Wednesday. (Korean Committee for UNICEF)” press conference.

By this time, November 1, 2017, JM had no idea what would happen exactly the following week. Even after he’d post his two VLOGs for their dear first trip (November 6), he still had no clue.

VLOG 1:

VLOG 2:

So then came November 8, 2017. On this day JK would release his first Golden Closet Film, in Tokyo (GCFT). I wasn’t around at the time, but I can only imagine how excite everyone would have been to see JK’s take of Tokyo through his lenses. Yet as views started rolling in and comments piling up, by shippers and not, one thing became unanimously agreed: Rather than Tokyo, there seems to be a lot of JM.

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Eventually we’ll find out that JK, amongst many of his sources, used a “how to make a travel vlog with your boyfriend/gf” tutorial video, which if it wasn’t eye-brow raising worthy already, added to his paying credits in order to use Troy Sivan’s There For You as the video’s BGM, it surly has maaaaany thinking.

Now we can stay here and analyse the song all day but one thing is for sure, every edit/movie/video has a climax, and for the climax of GCFT the clips were edited to match with the following lyric “Boy, I'm holdin' onto something Won't let go of you for nothing. I'm runnin', runnin' just to keep my hands on you. There was a time that I was so blue, What I got to do to show you?” and then for the GRAND FINALE: “Running, running, just to keep my hands on you. Running, running, just to keep my hands on you. Said, I’m running, just to keep my hands on you. But you gotta be there for me too”.

So here is what I think, feel and took out of this regardless of me thinking it to be a romantic love: JK had a couple of messages. As we may all know already or not LOVE is not as easy as the 4 letters it is made of, it varies greatly in meaning, display and intensity. However, regardless of the type of love he felt/feels at the time of him creating GCFT he clearly wanted the intended person of the video to know:

That he’ll be there for them, that he’d been running just to be there for them, but that at the same time, he needed them to be them for him too.

... I may be mistaken but how many times has JM publicly requested to hear something from JK after this? Feels, to me, like the message was delivered.

HAPPY 5th YEAR ANNIVERSARY for GCFT.

Always respectfully yours 💜💛,

Marengo.

PS - … Wanna get a little delulu? → Blood-Moon

#Jikook #JKK NAK #Jikook GCFT #JK

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taylorswiftandx · 1 year

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Taylor Swift and Can

Note: huge thank you to @meandmypagancrew who collaborated with me on the lyrics for this post! See also TS and Can’t.

'Taylor Swift'

Teardrops On My Guitar: Drew walks by me, can he tell that I can’t breathe?

The Outside: So how can I ever try to be better?

The Outside: I can still see you, this ain't the best view

Stay Beautiful: I’m taking pictures in my mind so I can save them for a rainy day

Should’ve Said No: You can see that I’ve been crying

I’m Only Me When I’m With You: When I’m with anybody else, it’s so hard to be myself and only you can tell

'Fearless (Taylor's Version)'

Fifteen: We’ll be out of here soon as we can

Fifteen: I’ve found time can heal most anything

Love Story: Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone

Hey Stephen: I know looks can be deceiving but I know I saw a light in you

Tell Me Why: Why do you have to make me feel small so you can feel whole inside?

You’re Not Sorry: You can tell me that you’re sorry but I don't believe you, baby, like I did before

Change: Because these things will change, can you feel it now?

Change: You can walk away, say we don’t need this, but there’s something in your eyes says we can beat this

Change: It was the night things changed, can you see it now?

Jump Then Fall: I hear the words but all I can think is, "We should be together"

Jump Then Fall: All I can say is, "Come closer"

Jump Then Fall: I'll show you you can jump then fall

Come In With The Rain: I don’t know what else I can say

The Other Side Of The Door: I’ll say, “There’s nothing you can say to make this right again, I mean it, I mean it”

Today Was A Fairytale: But can you feel this magic in the air?

Today Was A Fairytale: All that I can say is now it’s getting so much clearer

Today Was A Fairytale: I can feel my heart, it’s beating in my chest

You All Over Me: You know, you can scratch it right off, it's how it used to be

That’s When: And I said, “When can I come back?”

That’s When: And you said, “When can I come back?”

Don’t You: And you can say we’re still friends but I don’t want to pretend

'Speak Now (Taylor's Version)'

Mine: I say, “Can you believe it?” as we're lying on the couch

Mine: The moment I can see it, yes, yes, I can see it now

Mine: And I can see it, I can see it now

Dear John: And I’ll look back in regret how I ignored when they said, “Run as fast as you can”

Mean: Well, you can take me down with just one single blow

Mean: And I can see you years from now in a bar talking over a football game

The Story Of Us: This is looking like a contest of who can act like they care less

Enchanting: All I can say is it was enchanting to meet you

Enchanting: All I can say is I was enchanted to meet you

Last Kiss: I can still feel your arms

Last Kiss: You can plan for a change in weather and time but I never planned on you changing your mind

I Can See You: You brush past me in the hallway and you don’t think I, I, I can see you, do you?

I Can See You: ‘Cause I can see you waiting down the hall from me

I Can See You: And what would you do, baby, if you only knew that I can see you?

I Can See You: That I can see you throw your jacket on the floor

I Can See You: You can see me as a secret mission

I Can See You: That I can see you, oh I can see you

'Red (Taylor's Version)'

All Too Well: And I can picture it after all these days

The Lucky One: But can you tell me now, you’re the lucky one?

Come Back... Be Here: The feeling you can know so much without knowing anything at all

Ronan: I can still feel you hold my hand, little man

Better Man: Sometimes in the middle of the night, I can feel you again

Better Man: But your jealousy, oh, I can hear it now

Nothing New: It’s like I can feel time moving

Nothing New: How can a person know everything at eighteen but nothing at twenty-two?

Message In A Bottle: A message in a bottle is all I can do

Forever Winter: He says, “Why fall in love just so you can watch it go away?”

Run: We can go where our eyes can take us

Run: We can go like they’re trying to chase us

'1989 (Taylor's Version)'

Welcome To New York: And you can want who you want, boys and boys and girls and girls

Blank Space: I can read you like a magazine

Blank Space: I can make the bad guys good for a weekend

Blank Space: You can tell me when it’s over if the high was worth the pain

Blank Space: I can make all the tables turn

Shake It Off: Won't you come on over, baby? We can shake, shake, shake

Bad Blood: Now we got problems and I don’t think we can solve them

Bad Blood: And time can heal but this won’t so if you're coming my way, just don't

Wildest Dreams: I can see the end as it begins

I Know Places: I can hear them whisper as we pass by, it's a bad sign, bad sign

I Know Places: ‘Cause I, I know places we can hide

You Are In Love: You can hear it in the silence

You Are In Love: You can feel it on the way home

Suburban Legends: I am standing in a 1950s gymnasium and I can still see you now

'reputation'

...Ready For It?: But if he’s a ghost then I can be a phantom holding him for ransom

...Ready For It?: But if I’m a thief then he can join the heist and we'll move to an island

...Ready For It?: And he can be my jailor, Burton to this Taylor

I Did Something Bad: I can feel the flames on my skin

Delicate: We can’t make any promises now, can we, babe? But you can make me a drink

Delicate: Come here, you can meet me in the back

So It Goes...: 'Cause baby, I know what you know, we can feel it

Gorgeous: But what can I say? You’re gorgeous

Dancing With Our Hands Tied: So, baby, can we dance, oh, through an avalanche?

Call It What You Want: 'Cause he really knows me, which is more than they can say

New Year’s Day: I can tell that it’s gonna be a long road

'Lover'

Lover: Can I go where you go?

Lover: Can we always be this close?

The Man: I’m so sick of running as fast as I can

The Archer: Can you see right through me?

London Boy: We can go driving in, on my scooter

London Boy: You can find me in the pub, we are watching rugby with his school friends

False God: But we can patch it up good

False God: Daring you to leave me just so I can try and scare you

You Need To Calm Down: Like, can you just not step on my gown?

You Need To Calm Down: Like, can you just not step on his gown?

You Need To Calm Down: Like, can you just not step on our gowns?

Daylight: And I can still see it all in my mind

Daylight: And I can still see it all in my head

'folklore'

Exile: I can see you standing, honey, with his arms around your body

Exile: I can see you staring, honey, like he’s just your understudy

Exile: So step right out, there is no amount of crying I can do for you

My Tears Ricochet: And I can go anywhere I want, anywhere I want, just not home

My Tears Ricochet: And you can aim for my heart, go for blood

Mirrorball: I can change everything about me to fit in

Seven: And I think you should come live with me and we can be pirates

August: But I can see us lost in the memory

August: And I can see us twisted in bedsheets

Illicit Affairs: Tell yourself you can always stop

Betty: Betty, right now is the last time I can dream about what happens when you see my face again

'evermore'

Willow: Head on the pillow, I can feel you sneaking in

‘Tis The Damn Season: You can run but only so far

‘Tis The Damn Season: And wonder about the only soul who can tell which smiles I’m faking

Happiness: Both of these things can be true, there is happiness

Closure: I can feel you smoothing me over

Evermore: Oh, can we just get a pause?

'Midnights'

Snow On The Beach: Can this be a real thing, can it?

You’re On Your Own, Kid: Yeah, you can face this

Question…?: Can I ask you a question?

Vigilante Shit: They say looks can kill and I might try

Vigilante Shit: I don’t start shit, but I can tell you how it ends

Vigilante Shit: She don’t start shit, but she can tell you how it ends

Bejeweled: When I walk in the room, I can still make the whole place shimmer

Bejeweled: I made you my world, have you heard? I can reclaim the land

Bejeweled: And you can try to change my mind but you might have to wait in line

Sweet Nothing: To you, I can admit that I’m just too soft for all of it

The Great War: We can plant a memory garden

High Infidelity: You know there’s many different ways that you can kill the one you love

High Infidelity: Oh, there’s many different ways that you can kill the one you love

Dear Reader: Dear reader, bend when you can, snap when you have to

You’re Losing Me: How can you say that you love someone you can’t tell is dying?

Other Songs written by Taylor

All Of The Girls You Loved Before: All that I can say is, “All of the girls you’ve loved before made you the one I’ve fallen for”

Christmases When You Were Mine: Lately, I can never tell

Only The Young: Only the young can run, can run

Only The Young: Only one thing can save us, only the young

Renegade: Is it insensitive for me to say, "Get your shit together so I can love you?"

Safe and Sound: You’ll be all right, no one can hurt you now

You’ll Always Find Your Way Back Home: You can change your hair and you can change your clothes

You’ll Always Find Your Way Back Home: You can change your mind, that's just the way it goes

You’ll Always Find Your Way Back Home: You can say goodbye and you can say hello

You’ll Always Find Your Way Back Home: You can change your style, you can change your jeans

You’ll Always Find Your Way Back Home: You can learn to fly and you can chase your dreams

You’ll Always Find Your Way Back Home: You can laugh and cry but everybody knows

You’ll Always Find Your Way Back Home: You know that you can always turn around

You’ll Always Find Your Way Back Home: I always got a place where I can go

Official Alternate Releases

Vigilante Shit (Clean Version): I don’t start it but I can tell you how it ends

Vigilante Shit (Clean Version): She don’t start it but she can tell you how it ends

#taylor swift #lyrics #taylorswiftandx #lyric parallels #can

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mechanical-sunchild · 1 year

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bI hope you don’t mind, but I got some advice to ask of you. Haha, been a while since I’ve done that huh? This whole thing’s gonna require a lot of explanation so be warned, this is gonna be long, sorry!

So I’ve been practicing Witchcraft more actively this last year or so, and in particular I’ve taken an interest in Pop Culture Magic. Mainly just in an “Oh! Seems neat!” Kinda way. But recently, pretty much right after discovering Welcome Home actually(even predating my Barnaby ‘link if I’m not mistaken!), I became fascinated by the idea of Wally as a PCM spirit: what sort of offerings I’d give, what spells one might call on him for, things of that nature. And very recently, last night i believe, i actually decided to do something with that idea.

I won’t go into much detail, because it’s not essential to what I’m asking, but long story short: I successfully contacted Wally in spirit form(whether it’s *my* Wally I’m not entirely sure, but that’s what i was attempting to do), had a conversation via pendulum, and, after promising to paint a picture of him in return, convinced him to do a tarot reading with me about my canon/timeline/whatever you wanna call it. He seemed a bit hesitant to talk with me at first, giving me a “maybe/I don’t know/you shouldn’t be asking this” when asked if he wanted to talk but a hesitant “no” when I asked if he wanted me to end the summoning. Overall he seemed inthusiasticly interested in offerings(as well as the previously mentioned painting, he also appreciated the quartz I offered during the initial summoning and the promise of an apple at the nearest convenience), but not all that interested in answering questions or chatting.

With all that (unfortunately necessary) context out of the way, I can finally get to the thing I *actually* wanted to ask you for advice about. Tonight, I was bored and decided to try shufflemancy. The results were… fascinating? Mildly concerning? You’ll see what I mean:

First, i asked what Wally thought of me/our relationship. My YouTube mix spit out:

“Give a little” by LeGrand and CG5 (https://youtu.be/_YWEd7K1u9c)

The answer seems pretty clear to me. Wally feels that our relationship is purely transactional and that I only called upon him to get things out of him and give him offerings in return. A perfectly reasonable conclusion to come too based on our interactions, but one that made me feel a bit guilty nonetheless. While I’d love to hear your thoughts on this answer, the real kicker is the answer I got for my next question: how should I approach Wally to improve out relationship? I got:

“Your love (deja vu)" by Glass Animals (https://youtu.be/Ts–MxmAFkQ)

It would not be an exaggeration to say I did a mental double-take when this came on. As such, I asked for clarification. I received the answer:

"Too late” by The Happy Fits (https://youtu.be/f4ii2gSqfRM)

Upon listening to the above songs, you will probably be able to tell why I need some guidance. It’s probably necissary at this point to bring up the fact that, if I’ve been interpreting my noemata correctly, me and Wally were most likely romantically involved. Or rather queerplatonicly, but in a very affectionate, could-be-mistaken-for-romance kind of way. I’ve avoided bringing it up in past submissions for fear of making you uncomfortable, since in a previous response you mentioned being in love with Wally. But I’m bringing it up now because I think it’s necissary context for this situation, and quite frankly I can’t think of anyone else who I could trust to advise me on this. I fully understand if this does make you uncomfortable and you are welcome to delete this submission if that’s the case(/gen). But, if you do decide to respond, I’d really love some advice on what you think the shufflemancy is trying to tell me. I’d talk more about my conflicted feelings about these answers but I’m already running the risk of sending you a small novel.

-sincerely, and somewhat apologetically, your friend, 🍰 anon (no mention of a linktype because for whatever reason talking about magic puts me in Human ModeTM)

Despite my lack of ability to relate, I decided to answer this. First of all, in my noemata quite a lot of the neighbours had something vaguely queerplatonic going on so I absolutely do not hate you for that. In my canon I was close to both Frank and Wally in a more romantic way but I don’t think we ever fully got into a polyamory.

Second of all I’m not very spiritual, so I’m probably the wrong person to talk to completely. I don’t have an interest in witchcraft, at least not in a traditional sense. I believe that witchcraft only works because one believes it will. I’m not sure I actually believe contact can or is made in most cases with anything except the subconscious. I fully support the belief in universes where fictional characters are not fictional. I fully support people who believe they can make contact with these universes. But I don’t believe the latter myself. And if it is possible I’m not sure about the logic in treating them as if they were spirits, deities, or similar? Unless that’s what they actually are? I’m sure there’s plenty of arguments to and for this and I’m not going to involve myself I’m afraid.

If you ask me, I’d say that all version of contacting ‘spirits’ of any kind like this is actually an form of meditation. In other words, it allowed you to reach deep into yourself and receive answers from the back of your mind through the medium of believing to talk to another person. This may be especially so if your identity is only a linktype, as you have created this yourself so it’s spiritual aspects are purely up to your own self.

There’s nothing wrong with believing you can talk to your version of Wally through traditional or neo witchcraft methods and if that helps you, it helps you. I can’t and won’t tell you how to live your life.

But only You can say what those things mean. Whatever you think it means, that’s what it means. If you’re not sure, meditate or work on it some more. I can’t tell you what they mean or that you’re wrong or right because everything you just did relies so heavily on interpretation by the one asking questions. I hope you find something you like, or that brings you more peace. Never forget you’re in control and can stop and change whatever you like.

#submission #I hope this didn't disrespect your new beliefs #🍰.anon

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a-photo-of-a-ghost · 2 years

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I have tourettes and I do theatre, I just recently finished the show I’ve been doing, and I wanted to talk about that experience :)

I put a sticky note on my resume explaining I have TS and stuff, so that my directors would know ahead of time. I explained that it doesn’t affect my performance in acting usually because when I am concentrated on doing things like singing and acting then my tics can go away. They were so nice and chill about it and rarely even brought it up really. My tics are usually pretty mild, normally they’re pretty constant but small things (eye-widening, small noises, nose scrunching, head jerking, etc), and I’m pretty sure somehow most of my cast mates didn’t even know I had tourettes until like tech week when offstage I was having a conversation with a cast mate and I brought up my tics and we talked about that a bit. My stage director and music director and stage manager were literally all the coolest and nicest people ever. My music director gave me a ride one time and she’s neurodivergent too and has echolalia and she copied one of my tics and immediately was apologizing and felt so bad 😭 and I kept telling her it was fine lmao. It honestly makes me tear up how thoughtful and genuine she was, and my other director. A problem through tech and run throughs was them keeping my mic on while I was offstage and then the mic would pick up my tics lmao like whistling and popping, and my director asked if someone was whistling backstage the first time and I said it was me cuz I have a tic and she was like “oh ok that’s a tech issue, we’ll have to figure that out, cuz that’s not on you” and stuff. (Also random side-note the old guy who mic’d us gendered me correctly which felt so good lmao you don’t even know). But yeah literally I feel so lucky to get to experience working with the kindest most accepting and accommodating people, because this is the first show I’ve done since my tics have really developed and I got diagnosed, and I’m always worried about people judging or expecting me to suppress, so it was super awesome. I hope every tourettic theatre kid can have as good a company and people to work with

#tourette syndrome #tourettes #TS #tics #tic disorder #neurodivergent #actually autistic #actually tourettic #transmasc #theatre #theatre kid #musical theatre #queer #adhd #autistic #theatre with tourettes

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crystalcow · 3 years

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𝑆𝑎𝑝𝑛𝑎𝑝𝑠 𝐶ℎ𝑖𝑙𝑑//𝑆𝑎𝑝𝑛𝑎𝑝 𝑝𝑡 4

Masterlist // child reader ML //

Sapnap x reader !p !child reader

Pronouns used: none specified!

Warnings: swearing, mentions of death, casinos

➳➳➳➳➳┄┄※┄┄➳➳➳➳➳

𝐊𝐢𝐧𝗼𝐤𝗼 𝐰𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐧𝗼𝐰??

Quackity was telling you all of his plans

He rambled on for hours of his ideas for casinos and how he was going to marry Karl and sapnap

It sounded great

He had his whole plan set up! He even had Sam helping him with the building

But then he left

Just like everyone else

But that was fine! You were just with sapnap

Before Karl came running over rambling on about needed to move his library

He had a library?

“[Redacted] you need to stay close, please”

You looked at him weirdly

Who the fuck was [redacted]

“Karl my names Y/n you idiot” “flame..” “sorry”

He didn’t even notice it and then you had to spend the next couple days hauling over 100 books

“Oo hey what are these! The covers look really weird”

You had found his time travel books

Woops

That man raced over and in the kindest way possible, snatched it from your hands

“Don’t touch those, they are my special books”

You just shrugged and let him be, he freaks you out enough

So you all traveled to this area in the spruce forest and built a really ugly mushroom hut

But hey it’s fine! Foolish thankfully came around later that day and made everything better

So you stuck around

Maybe you needed this, this new start

Oh but prime knows that wouldnt last long

Karl started forgetting

At first it was simple things as just forgetting where he was or little stumbles with names

But eventually he was going away longer and longer

He started calling you by these strange names, some that sound Victorian and western and others that are unlike you

One day he didn’t call you by your name at all

You were hanging around the Sakura trees and the big yin Yang pond waiting for sapnap to come back with George

Then you saw Karl exit the library, running up to him for a hug

It’s been two months since you’ve seen him

You fucking hated it but you couldn’t help but consider him another parental figure

He loved it

But he just stood there as you wrapped your arms around him

Expecting the usual “[reda]- Y/n, I’ve missed you so much my sweet flame!”

But there was nothing just a sad one sided hug

“Hello? I’m sorry but do I know you?”

You were ready to cry

“I’m sorry, I uh must’ve mistaken you for the wrong person” “No that’s fine! Hugs are nice?”

So you left and ran into the library

Scouring throughout all of the books until you found them

The same 8 books you shrugged away

You read through all of them along with Karl’s other journals

You didn’t like going through his stuff especially, a whole invasion of privacy

The more you read the worse it got

What were you gonna tell Sapnap?

Who the hell is James, and [redacted]?

And why couldn’t he stop

It’s no use anymore

You were simply just forgotten

𝐋𝗼𝐧𝐠 𝐚𝐰𝐚𝐢𝐭𝐞𝐝 𝐯𝐢𝐬𝐢𝐭𝐬

The closer you got to the large building, the sicker you got

Kinoko Kingdom was supposed to be your free pass

But somehow you always end up here

You called for Sam on the comms waiting for the beep

The inside looked great to say the least

“What are your past relationships with the prisoner?” “No answer.”

“Where are you currently resided?” “No answer”

“Do you believe the prisoner deserves his sentence?” “Maybe”

You put all your shit in the locker and followed him through all the safety checks

“I’m glad you didn’t bring anything with you”

You stood on the platform heart racing as the lava went down

It was like a ticking time bomb

The small squeaks and scratches of the hovering bridge

He just stared at you

That sick stupid mask was broken by tommy that day in the black stone room

So you had to look into his face

Lets just say he looks good in Orange

“Barrier up or down?” “Down”

He backed up into the corner as you stepped in

Smiling

Once the lava cascaded down your smile turned into a sick frown

“Hello” is that all he had to fucking say?

“Screw you. Fuck you. Damn you”

He just looked you a small chuckle escaping from his lips

“Those all mean the same thing.” “Well I’ve been living in cinnamon town for the past couple months, and I’m ready to fucking burn some buns”

Yeah he just laughed

“I’ve missed you Hot shot”

“You ruined our damn life!”

Someone went quiet

“If you didn’t have to have a petty little war, or criminalize children we could’ve been fine! It could’ve just been you, dad, me, and George.”

You were pissed, everyone just kept leaving you.

Tommy and Tubbo, Quackity, Karl, Dream, and hell even Wilbur

“You come and visit me, after not having seen me for months and you just yell? Not a hello or ‘how are you dream?’ ‘How’s prison dream’ ‘how can I help you get out of this damn place’ “

You just sat down ready to just walk out into the lava

“I’ve been stuck here for months! None of you even cared enough to visit me, hell even Tommy came around.”

You might have felt a little bad after leaving him

The prison was cold even tho lava was flowing right there

“Why would you leave the discs alone..” “Because I had to end it.”

What were you doing here

What were you planning on saying?

“So, what do you do in prison”

“I have a clock.”

You got up to go look at the pretty clock

Then threw it at his face

“Ow” “deal with it bitch”

The longer you stayed the worse the feeling in your stomach got

so you buzzed for Sam waving goodbye

“Wait.. Do they miss me?” “Can’t say, but I think this may be for the best.”

He wanted his best friends

But he just got the annoying teenager

Oh but that wouldn’t be the last

𝐋𝐚𝐬 𝐍𝐚𝐯𝐚𝐝𝐚𝐬

You got a letter in the mail one day

Who the hell uses letters??

You were shocked to see the address and the small post card

“Come around some time”-Quackity

Ans on the back it had the cords

Oh well what did you have to loose? Sapnap was focused on Karl

and well Karl didn’t even know you

So you set off

It took you a couple hours travel by horse to get to the desert area

The large sign blaring in the red text

You gotta admit the place looked beautiful

There was a giant dick and different shops

You were shocked to see this random un human like guy

“Hello, I am Charlie a totally human guy!”

Yeah totally not slime

“I’m uh, Y/n?” He reached out for a handshake sort of thing

“Dap me up!” “Another time Charlie”

Maybe when you had hand sanitizer

“Ohh so your Y/n! Mister Quackity talks about you all the time, come on in!”

You were skeptical but followed anyways

Stopping in your tracks when you saw Fundy

“Furry?” “Fire shit?”

You went over to give him a side hug, ruffling his fur

“What the hell are you doing here ginger boy!” “Oh you know, just escaping nightmares”

You were confused then just let him be

You walked to the entry way of the place

A beautiful pond with flowers and an arch

“Did what the place where Mr. Quackity was going to propose!”

Going to?

You shrugged it off following inside

You hated to admit it, but you were excited to see him

Yeah you really needed a parental figure in your life at the moment

So when you saw him, he immediately pick you up in a hug

You didn’t fail to notice his change in appearance

That beanie stayed the same tho

Thank god

“Hey hey! Let me show you around the place, we can also go for lunch and talk.”

The casino looked great to say the least

Loud music booming from the speakers, along with the live jazz band on the side

Slot machines were going off every minute

“Have a chip, something to remember this by”

He handed you a red poker chip

It was a cool one tho, in the middle has a blocky sort of smile

Creepy and dopey.. sick!

So you put it around a spare silver chain

“So how have you been kid? ‘Ts been a while hasn’t it.” “Could be better..”

You both walked around the city in silence, offering to go in the super model shop

“No” “why not” “keep walking”

On your way to lunch you had to squint at what you were seeing

“Oh my goodness you’re still alive?!” “You’re alive!?”

You and revivebur just stared at one another

“Yeah he came back after I died!” “you what now-“

You just stared at Tommy and back to Wilbur

Oh god those shrooms were messing with your head

You should’ve gotten out of there a while ago

Quackity came over placing his hands on your shoulders

“Do I have to execute you both? Get off my damn property”

“Sorry Q. Say, Y/n wanna join Lmanburg 2.0?”

You back away holding your hands up

“I denied that offer once, and I’ll do it again. Fucking zombie freaks”

You obviously muttered the last part

Why the fuck did dream revive those two shits??

When did Tommy even die??

Your visit here has just gotten weirder and weirder

𝐌𝗼𝐯𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐥𝐚𝐧𝐝𝐬

Quackity got you away from the brits as quick as he could

So he brought you over to his office

“So kid, how’s your dad..”

Ah you expected this question

“How the fuck am I supposed to know. He’s living his life, Karl’s time traveling! Oh yeah did I mention he doesn’t even remember me.”

He looked at you with wide eyes

“So I’m not the only one they forgot..”

You slammed you hands on the fable dramatizing the situation

“How would you feel about moving here? I mean you could work for me in the casino!”

You thought about it for a second

You have two options

1. Live in shroom town with bubbles

2. Move to las Nevada’s with Quackity

You were sure Sapnap wouldn’t mind

I mean would he even care?

He hasn’t for the past couple months!

“You feel abandoned there, over here there are hundreds of people. You’ll have the time of your life”

You thought about it for a sec

“Alright hand me a contract”

So you signed

Making deals with the devil huh

Little did you know it would cost you your life

Devils little soul

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and this is the finale! I will take requests for sapnaps child, and I’ll do some shit with Quackity and the casino and go in more depth if wanted!

As always request and ask anything! And ask if you want to be on a taglist (child reader or general)

For those on the taglist I don’t know if you wanted to be tagged for all child reader shit or just dreams child.. so please tell me :)

@creatorofstars @georgenctfound @samistheidiot @smolbox-png @ghostlysenses @stellarinstigator @bobaducky

#sapnaps child #sapnap x reader #sapnap #sapnap x y/n #karl jacobs x y/n #karl jacobs x reader #quackity x reader #quackity x you #dsmp #mcyt #mcyt x reader #dream smp x reader #wilbur soot #tommy innit #kinoko kingdom #dream smp prison #las navadas #child reader

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stupidityismyjobsecurity · 2 years

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POCKET DUMP: ER scrub pants edition!

This is what I keep in my scrub pants every night when I work in the ER. Yes, it is a lot. Yes, I am a whacker. But almost everything here has been something that at least once I’d needed fast and didn’t fucking have. So; from top to bottom, left to right:

1. Writing utensils, left hip pocket; I carry way too many pens because nurses are thieves. Also always at least one off-color pen for signing things that will get photocopied and ALWAYS a sharpie.

2. IV start tourniquets, hanging from elastic loop below left hip pocket; I keep these here because it lets me grab them fast when I need them and also I think it looks cool as fuck that they swing around as I walk.

3. Lighters, left appendix pocket; for lighting cigars.

4. Retractible measuring tape, back left pocket; Ok, this is kind of another vanity thing. There’s this super old ER doc (like labcoat and button-up shirt old) that always carried one of these, and I thought it was kinda cool. I use it to measure out ortho-glass for postmolds and for laceration descriptions in centimeters.

5. Hemostat thingy, clipped to left appendix belt loop; ok so this thing is kinda fun. I keep two sizes of transpore tape and a roll of durapore tape on this where I can get at them in a hurry, I also keep IV disinfecting caps on it and a bunch of tiny yellow rubber bands that come in handy for all sorts of shit.

6. Waterproof notebook, left back pocket; transferred directly from my tac pants, this now holds phone numbers for different departments in the hospital and a running record board of batshit insane lab values (highest troponin I’ve personally seen was 27108[high-sensitivity])

7. ACLS Cardiac Arrest algorithm card, left back pocket; I keep this so I don’t have to actually memorize Hs and Ts, and also because I’ve written the doses for my ROSC pressors (Levo, Epi, and Dopamine) on it.

8. Pressors dosage card, left back pocket; this was a gift from a hospital pharmacist and might be the one thing on this list that I haven’t had to use (yet).

9. Wallet, right back pocket; Always keep this on me. I think I already talked about this in my other pocket dump post, or I just said it deserves its own post (which it does, gotta get around to that)

10. Extra gloves, left back pocket; always gotta keep some extras.

11. Badge, clipped to right appendix belt loop; so this has my name on the front, and the “Paramedic” rocker along the bottom says it on both sides. The bar code taped to the back is actually a hack that I figured out to bypass a system check in our glucometers (don’t tell management) and I also keep a keyring on the back. The keyring has the key to my break room locker, a restraint key, an IV tubing clamp that I’ve modified to act as a key for our IV pumps, and a few very special reminders to get out of The Hood in one piece at the end of my shift.

12. Leatherman Raptor trauma shears, right hip pocket; these things were a gift, but having used them for years now, I’d buy them myself if I didn’t already have them. Good shit. Worth the pretty penny.

13. Hemostat, shoved through rear belt loop and clipped to pants; these I use for miscellaneous tasks around the ER. Fixing things, clamping lines, temporarily clamping prematurely spiked IV bags, all kinds of shit.

14. Extra roll of transpore tape, right hip pocket; this tape is hard to come by in our ER, so I always keep an extra roll on me

15. 19g and 22g needles and empty 6mL syringe, right cargo pocket; for transferring blood to vacu-tubes or for giving meds.

16. Surgical scissors, right cargo pocket; I started carrying these after we had an emergent birth during which nobody had a good set of scissors for the doc to do an emergency episiotomy with. I use them sparingly and only for cuts that need to be cleaner than what I’d use my raptors for.

17. Flushes, right external cargo pocket; ALWAYS carry flushes when you work ER.

18. J loops and tegaderms, right cargo pocket; always forgotten at the worst times.

19. Mini IV Start kit, right cargo pocket; I honestly don’t know why I have this, because I pretty much carry copies of everything in it already, but here we are.

20. Sureprep wipes, right cargo pocket; Ok, so these are actually pretty cool. They come in Foley catheter kits and are supposed to be used to prep the thigh for securement of the Foley, but hardly anybody actually uses them. I swipe them up and save them because when you get a SUPER sweaty patient come in, these work great to create a sticky, but also aseptic, area to start and secure an IV. These have honestly worked magic for me, can’t overstate how much the medical world sleeps on these.

21. Djarum Black (Ruby) cigars, right external cargo pocket. If my health insurance asks, I’ve never smoked in my life. Truth be told, I only smoke at work, and these things hit like a truck. I like them because after one taste, the homeless hangarounds stop asking to bum a smoke off me. Too harsh even for them. Smokers get more breaks than non-smokers anyways.

22. Bulova Marine Star wristwatch, inside of right wrist; my last pocket dump I talked about my Isobrite watch and how cool it was. I still have it, still use it most of the time at work, but my Bulova is easier to clean whenever I get blood on it or otherwise contaminate it. Bulova makes a pretty stout watch, and this thing has held up pretty well through everything I’ve put it through, and I’ve put it through a lot.

23. Large-bore IVs (14g and 16g), right cargo pocket; these were the first things I started carrying because I realized I needed them in a hurry and didn’t have them. I’ve started carrying them on me all the time, and honestly?literally the most badass feeling in the world to pull a 14g out of your own pocket and sink it into the arm of someone who needs it.

Well I think that’s everything. I know it sounds like a lot, but honestly it’s not too bad. Heres what everything looks like when I wear it into work:

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cocochannel00 · 3 years

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The Azoff Family: A Case Study on one of the Music Industry’s Most Connected Families

(ft. a breakdown of the Grammy voting process and problems)

This is very long so I will try and split it up into categories for everyone (sorry I got carried away- I spent like 2 hours writing this) but enjoy!

*Disclaimer: I want to preface while the majority of this is based in research, some parts may be speculation. I don’t know the family personally so I can’t tell you what goes on behind closed doors but I can tell you how parts of the entertainment/music industry work. I’ve had 5 internships in the industry (one in marketing at one of the big record labels) and the rest of my work is publicity (what I enjoy) and events and a former advisor used to run in the same circles as Irving Azoff (and he spilled some tea last year) I’m not out here to diminish the hard work of any artists or their teams, I’m simply here to showcase parts of the industry that aren’t always shown.*

Please also see: Story Time: How Fan Pages Directly Impact Columbia Records Decisions and Harry Styles Image

IRVING AZOFF: NEVER STOP THE GRIND

Let’s begin with the great business man himself Mr. Irving Azoff Irving Azoff is the literal posture child for connections and power in the music industry (he was also inducted into the 2020 rock and roll hall of fame class which is like a huge fucking deal for a manager to be inducted so you know he's the real deal)

In conclusion, I love Irving Azoff and his drive.

Irving Azoff: Early Years Run Down:

He came up middle class (dad was a pharmacist, mom a bookkeeper) in Danville, Illinois

He dropped out of college to run a small Midwestern concert-booking empire and managed local acts in the era

Opportunity came knocking and he got the chance to manage the Eagles and the rest is history

He's one of the best negotiators and has negotiated business on behalf of stars like Stevie Nicks, the Eagles, and Jimmy Buffet

Azoff has been an incredible manager and his drive to always advocate for his clients while basically not giving two sh*ts about what people think of him has gotten him the incredible reputation he has today.

All of Irving Azoff’s Major Job Positions:

Former President MCA (major label)

Former CEO of Ticketmaster and executive chairman of Live Nation Entertainment, the behemoth formed from Ticketmaster’s merger with Live Nation.

In 2013 he and Cablevision Systems Corp. CEO and New York Knicks owner James Dolan formed a partnership, Azoff MSG Entertainment (Currently still CEO)

----> Azoff also ran the Forum in Inglewood under Azoff MSG Entertainment after MSG purchased it in 2012 (it was sold in 2020 to the owner of the Clippers) — why do you think Harry played the forum for the Fine Line show? Azoff connection

Azoff MSG Entertainment encompasses all of the other companies including Full Stop Management, Global Music Rights (performance-rights org), and the Oak View Group (arena developing company)

He also is the co-founder and manager of the lobbying group Music Artists Coalition, a group that helps lobby for artists-rights issues such as royalty rates, copyright issue and healthcare insurance (see he's not all bad)

Essentially what I'm getting at is this man knows anybody who's anybody. He's the man you want on your team to help promote your music, plan your tour, and get you on that Grammy nom list.

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JEFFREY AZOFF: THE CHILD OF NEPOTISM

So for those of you that don't know, Jeffery Azoff is Harry's current manager and the son of Irving Azoff (the third of four kids). He's currently a partner at Full Stop Management, the company owned by Irving and the one artists such as Harry, Haim, the Eagles, Kings of Leon, and Meghan Trainer are signed to.

Jeffrey graduated from the University of Colorado's Leeds School of Business and started working fresh out of college at his father's old Management company (Frontline Management) working under Maroon 5's manager Jordan Feldstein (the only way you get that kind of internship/job as a 21 year old fresh out of college is if your family or family friends gives it to you). He worked here for 5 years.

Direct Quote from Irving Azoff to Jeffrey (really tells you a lot): "Listen carefully, because I’m going to say this one time. You have a phone and you have my last name. If you can’t figure it out, you’re not my son."

After working for his father, Jeffrey moved on to the talent agency CAA (Creative Artist Agency) where he worked for roughly 3 and half years before joining his dad in forming Full Stop Management in 2016.

While he was at CAA, Irving moved over clients like Christina Aguilera and the Eagles to the talent agency to help with tour booking instead of doing it internally through LiveNation (he was CEO).

Even though I'm sure Jeff has had to work somewhat hard to get to where he is (or at least to mess up his dad's work as he doesn't seem like the type to take laziness well), the door into the industry and every job was basically handed to him on a silver platter.

Not to mention if you watch episodes of keeping up with the kardashians (like myself) you can actually see Jeff hanging out with kendall and the rest of the fam at their Palm Springs house (you know you're a nepotism kid if you have an in with the Kardashian crew). Invite me next time Jeffrey!!!

Think of the Azoff's as the mafia family of the music industry, you don't mess with the mafia

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THE GRAMMY AWARDS: STUDENT COUNCIL ELECTIONS ON STEROIDS

Ok so here's where we’re going to get into a bit more of the speculation/grey area. I don't need to tell you that award shows are corrupt (See the Golden Globes Emily in Paris scandal) and the Grammys are not an exception. Think of the Grammys as one big student council/government elections where despite the fact the teachers tell you six times to vote for the best candidate, you're still going to vote for your friends even if they aren't the best.

A simplified break-down of Grammy voting:

1) Recording Academy voting members (artists, producers, musicians- anyone involved first hand with the creation of music; All voting members must have been producers, performers or engineers on six or more tracks of a commercially released album (or 12 or more digital tracks) and record labels will submit nominations in various categories to the grammys (songs need to be released commercially between October 1 of the previous year and September 30th of this year). You can also become a voting member by either winning a grammy or being endorsed by a current voting member (hint hint)

2) Once received, the recording academy with have the academy of trustees and its reviewers organize them and approve any changes to the 30 categories/fields (aka they can add new categories or remove old ones; so no best ukulele album of the year -- this is where things get funky)

There's speculation that during this stage when these special groups of 8-10 people are organizing genres, there's an "unwritten rule" that you need to be careful what album you green light (especially for famous artists) if you don't want them to win) (Rob Kenner said this- he used to be on one of these committees). Famous people tend to get more votes from clueless or lay Academy members that don't know the specialized categories or don't care enough to listen to songs that aren't radio trending.

3) After the nominations occur, Voting members begin their first voting. Members can vote for the four general categories of record of the year, album of the year, song of the year and best new artist and a maximum of 15 categories, all within their areas of expertise. Now the interesting thing is that while these are the guidelines there is literally nothing stopping them from voting in whatever categories they want (i.g. a rapper voting in the opera category despite not listening to opera). Theses ballots are all tallied and the top 20 entries are determined in each category (funky moment #2)

In 12 of the 84 categories those top 20 go to the ballot and it's done; for the rest it’s not like that. 59 categories including the big four go to a "nomination review committees" (identities are protected so they can't get lobbied... sure) who take a look at the top 20 and narrow it down to 7 or 8. (these are the special committees the Weekend talked about when he was snubbed). They're supposed to choose the nominees "based solely on the artistic and technical merits of the eligible recordings" which lets be real if that was the case Watermelon Sugar (along with most of the others in the category) I don't think would have been nomimated as they are very generic pop (none of them are special... sorry to the WM lovers out there).

This committee is basically held to THE HONOR CODE SYSTEM... I mean tell me when the last time the honor code system worked in literally any scenario (literally wtf). Don't take my word for it though the former CEO of the Academy Deborah Dugan (a queen) filed a complaint against the Recording Academy basically claiming that the nomination review process was rigged (she was fired after 5 months on the job).

Quote from Deborah Dugan "Members of the board [of trustees] and the secret committees chose artists with whom they have personal or business relationships... It is not unusual for artists who have relationships with Board members and who ranked at the bottom of the initial 20-artist list to end up receiving nominations."

These review committees can also exploit there power by adding up to two nominees that don't appear on the top 20 list to the final voting ballot (except in the 4 big categories - which watermelon sugar that one wasn't nominated for)

They also have craft committees for like non performance stuff (like album notes, engineering and arranging) that don't even get voted on by the academy voting members

4) After all of that fucked up mess, the grammy's decided is ok, the ballots go back to the voting members for the final vote. Deloitte (an accounting firm) then counts all of them, seals them in envelopes, and delivers them to the Grammy award show.

** The Grammy's just announced this year they're removing the "secret committees" so let's see how things shift in the next couple of years**

So obviously I'm not saying this to discredit Harry's nomination or his win as Fine Line was in the US top 20 albums for the majority of 2020, however, we must acknowledge privilege. Harry has a big name to him and a huge following, and while all of that shouldn't be taken into account, it does. He also has the Azoffs, a very well connected family with friends in lots of places that would be able to put in a good word here and there to get support behind Harry. Harry won best pop solo performance for Watermelon Sugar in a category with Doja Cat, Justin Bieber, Billie Eilish, Taylor Swift, and Dua Lipa. Look at the names there, the songs (ya'll can try and remember them cause I'm too lazy to write it out) and tell me that those top names with all of the music produced didn't get there through some connections.

Do with all this information what you will and if you are interested in learning more about the entertainment industry on your own Endeavor (owners of WME, a big talent agency like CAA) is hosting a free online program called the Excellence Program to help guide the future generation of industry executives. The program is a-synchronous and starts on July 12th. Highly recommend giving it a go if you're interested!!!

Alright ya'll that's it. Feel free to message me with your thoughts!

Extra Sources if you'd like to read:

https://www.vice.com/en/article/pkdndn/how-grammys-voting-actually-works-and-where-the-alleged-corruption-lies

https://www.grammy.com/grammys/awards/voting-process

https://www.latimes.com/entertainment-arts/music/story/2020-11-05/irving-azoff-eagles-manager

https://celebrityaccess.com/caarchive/jeffrey-azoff-exits-caa-to-launch-new-management-company/

https://www.rollingstone.com/pro/features/grammy-awards-secret-committees-945532/

https://www.rollingstone.com/music/music-news/grammy-awards-eliminate-secret-committees-voting-changes-1163887/

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tutuandscoot · 1 year

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2/17 Practice deep dive analysis

Part 2

So as they are about to be called to start as the other team has finished, they stop with their little conversation they were having as they lapped the rink. It’s like when they go into dance hold, whenever they are in it they are in ‘business mode’. It’s like ‘ok no fooling around now’ (not that they do), but.. like they are in business mode and they of course are fully serious when they skate around holding hands proper (the handy holdy/pinky hold) but it’s more ‘professional’ in the stricter sense of skating. I hear it in my head (in reference to a different moment where they were switching from proper to dance hold- here they weren’t holding the going into dance hold) as him (or her) saying, ‘ok kiddo, show time. I have to be your partner now’. It’s feels odd to analys it and share my take on it since I have no clue if this is how they actually interpreted it, but it’s like the proper hand hold is more friendly, more coupley, more ‘I want to hold your as close as possible’ where as dance hold is more occupational. I just find interesting to watch them go in and out of that, like as soon as they take dance hold- specifically as they enter for their practice run through/performance, it’s like ok, serious time. And it’s beautiful because they immediately go into that zone and their roles in the partnership are immediately established and they are there to do a job. Ok what it is is: In regular hold they are equals as in best friends who see each other as equal humans who love each other equally but in dance hold they are equals in the sense of their shared responsibility and commitment to their dance partnership and the different roles they both have to execute to perfection. Also this here isn’t the only time- there have been many where they manage to change holds/take hands right in the blind spot of the camera so it’s like a magic trick they are suddenly holding 🥰

The ✨drama✨ as they present. You can tell mentally before they present they’re in it and focused, switched to the same frequency, but as they present they A R E their characters. And what I love about how they have always done this, is the subtle way they set the tone. I’m quite off put by the way many teams do it, whether it’s some ultra characterised entrance (which if it suits the program fair, but often it’s too corny) or a lot of teams would just be overly “sensual” and it didn’t feel real, then others where they had some flashy ‘thing’ as their names were announced then just slumped back over and made their way to position (I can give examples of all of these if you want me to). But with TS it’s all internal - which is the same way they’ve described how they feel and create movement together- it comes from their emotion or the psychology of the program whether it’s them or their characters’ psychology. So here they present and he’s immediately stalking her with a sinister, seductive stare, wringing his hands, feeling that sensuality in himself. Her projecting that tantalising femininity, doing so much yet so little- so much of it is coming from her eyes. It all comes from the inside out with them and because they are physically stunning athletes, so trained, so aware of how they look and relate to each other, that internal self talk/mantra, the story they have put themselves inside they can convey physically- BEFORE they even start dancing.

I don’t think I’ve ever seen anyone talk about how impactful this opening is. I also don’t think I have ever seen them this far apart on the ice in a choreographic sense. Obviously in ice dance, there’s the general rule that you are never to be more than an arm length (so fingertips touching) from your partner (excluding static start/end poses) which to be fair most teams (that I’ve watched) do generally stick to but you do see frequently partners far apart either choreographically or bad tracking ie things like twizzles. Anyway. The fact that they start so far apart is so impactful. Obviously within seconds they get close together and touch for the first time in T H A T lift (seriously what a GOAT era way to start a program). We all rave about how powerful their connection is and they dance so close the intimacy is burning, but what’s so cool is how they can do that from this far away as well. They can quiet an arena to being able to hear a pin drop. Everyone stops what they are doing because it’s as if they are staring lasers at each other. What they can do with literally nothing, just standing 10 metres apart looking at each other.. is insane. The emotion, power, chemistry, etc they project is like nothing else and all this to say is physically this is a simple, potentially nothing opening but what they do with it even before they move or the music starts I don’t think anyone else could- make you feel conflicted between feeling like you are intruding on something very private yet simultaneously unable to look away- and they don’t want you to. 🔥

(I’m just going to use one gif to talk about this but it applies to the whole practice). Something about this run through was just so effortless. I know this is the start but by the end they are moving just as freely and energetic as the beginning. It just looks so easy. So assured. So exact and precise yet not devoid of charisma, humanity, being in the moment. And in writing this I think that’s what they meant by achieving *EXCELLENCE* instead of perfection. (BRB having a mind blown moment).

I love their movement quality; the silkyness, the way they merge out of appearing as one figure- one being and then splitting in two. In moments they do move differently and interpret movement differently- ie in the ‘roxxxANNE’ *head head* moment at the end of the twizzles- there is a slight difference (which is perfectly fine) but in moving together like this here- they were just so made to dance with each other- that statement does not take away from the COLOSSAL amount of work it took them to get to this point, but I feel like you can say they were both made for each other and worked hard to be the best the can possibly be at moving together- those two statements don’t contradict each other. Also the rhythm of the way they move. There is moving musically to the rhythm/melody/beat but then there is their internal rhythm that is connected to each other’s (and it actually is because the make damn sure it is every time before they skate) and that makes up a huge component of facilitating things like lifts- the rhythm of how lifts work and contributes to making it so seamless- neither of them is rushing or doing more or less work than they need to. They are moving together rather then either of them doing more work then the other or against what is natural for the movement to work. As I said it’s so precise and just looks so natural.

… (following on from that point and without wasting a gif bc it applies to the whole thing) the way they emote during this practice is something else. There’s practicing the emotion or faces bc it’s part of the program but then there’s being emotional bc you truly love it and love being those characters- that’s what you feel from them, that it’s so honest and the love of what they get to do just pours out of them whether it’s practice or performance. And I kind of feel like even though this is so incredibly close to perfect, them knowing they are so ready, they are kinda playing with the performance a bit. Esp from him- it feels like he’s just letting go and fully embodying his character to a point that isn’t as controlled as the actual competition performance was.. and how cool that they can do that. Most people you have to drag emotion out of but them… and (side note) there’s that bit of Scott saying (in the context of finding himself as a performer, and I’m also gonna add- not that he said it but I feel like it’s true based on other stuff- he just wanting to do his best for Tessa and be amazing for her) how he might push the acting or emotion further than what he thinks his necessary and that’s when T says ‘that’s it I love that’ 😭 (sorry just take a moment to visualise scootie getting all excited when T says she loves what he did- he always felt he wasn’t the dancer/performer she was so when she says she loves that he trusts her with his life he knows that’s what she wants and loves oh my heart❤��‍🩹). So yeah, them being the performers that actually have to be pulled back sometimes because they give so much- which I was always taught it’s so much better to have to pull back a bit that having it dragged out against your will.

(Bc I’m never gonna miss an opportunity to gif this)

I’ve probably tried to explain what this is before but just let me do it again.. I know to the laymen eye this looks like them being super sexy and seductive for the sake of it and them forgetting they are in public and don’t want people to know about their super hot and sexy secret relationship🙄.. But just use your brains for a sec and remember this isn’t some fake af reality show and in fact they are at the most important event in their athletic careers- their craft and yes, JOB they have dedicated their lives to. They are the best athletes in their sport, meticulously rehearsing the routine that will win them gold.. again. The way these practices work is their music will play in full and they will practice pre-determined sections of the routine with music then before and after do the missed sections without music. The said program they are practicing is Moulin Rouge!, a famously seductive, romantic, sex driven story in which they are portraying very complicated characters with both true and impulse- driven motivations. In their sport of ice dance, it is required of them to act and portray their characters in an understandable sense through movement and facial expressions as well as interpreting the music whether it be instrumental or with lyrics. As part of this story exploration both in the workshopping/choreographic process, and once completed, it is customary for dancers to play with movement that does not become set choreography in the piece, for exploration purposes and even as a matter of being ‘in’ the character and finishing moments off with reactions that are not choreographed, but emerge almost unprompted as a matter of being in the world you have created. THAT’s what this is. They knew they were not continuing with the choreography, so instead, because they are so ‘in it’ they continue with physically bringing to life the internal dialogue they both are reciting in their heads as they dance-dialogue that is far more complicated and nuanced that the 4 minutes of program choreography. It’s beautiful to think about them diving head first into bringing this story to life.. the most important decision of their lives was to find their perfect FD, and they did find it, and it makes me emotional to think about them every day in the early phases of creation, them just exploring everything they could do with it- the romantic parts, the violent parts, the sex and seduction.. creating something from nothing is the most beautiful thing we can do as humans and they had done that their whole lives and now got to create something that was truly setting their hearts on fire. I doubt they ever wanted to leave that place- being in the head space of that beautiful, heartbreaking story and so I don’t blame them at all for spontaneous moments of improvisation where they could just BE those characters. Then of course the moment after is the best bit- how they turn to each other and break and you know how much fun they are having. They LOVED what they got to do and it breaks my heart that people thought they couldn’t just love what they did and that was that- it couldn’t be that simple, and yet it was and the smiles on their faces say it all.

I alluded to this in my super long analysis post on this lift that when they practiced here, they almost did it too good.

What I mean by that is they kinda over popped it. They use to term ‘pop’ to describe their execution of lifts, there is a crucial moment when they both have to be in the exact right place at the right time, use their coordinated breaths, plié, trajectory etc to make the lift happen.

In saying this lift is ‘over popped’, it looks to me like Tessa got slightly more air than she usually would off the back flip launch, causing Scott to catch and rotate her slightly earlier and higher in the air, where usually, there is typically more of a forward and downwards height she is at in the dive where he would begin the anchor point and manipulation of getting her to sitting up. (All this is more easily observed in video format). In this instance any semblance of a typical ‘lifting’ motion is erased (not that this has much of a typical ‘lift’ motion to it anyway) because she has all but launched herself to the height of the (sitting up) lift position. The rest of the movement continues *excellently* and without having scrutinised it like I have it would maybe be hard to tell, but comparing it to the performance version (and this is not meant as an insult or a bad thing) this looks a bit over excited where as the performance (from a movement perspective) is controlled and calculated.

I really want to hear from them the actual decision process for both changing the lift initially for the team event, and then going back to this. I imagine when they got to Seoul for their private practice between events there was a conversation like ‘so we’re going back to the original lift?’ and someone else went ‘yep’ and then they both said ‘yeah F*ck it this is what it’s suppose to be and we want it to be so as long as we do it perfect..’.

This in general is such an incredibly beautiful moment. They’ve just been through this big, traumatic event and it’s like he’s checking her to make sure she’s ok. The way he looks at her the whole time through that circling movement, bends over so far to legitimately take her in- as I said earlier, not just doing it because it’s the choreography, but because he as both Scott as well as his character adores her and is actually taking a moment to let her rest and make sure she’s ok (😢🤧). There’s some really beautiful photos of this moment and it’s one of my favourites in the program given it comes after such a memorable, highlight moment, it’s easy to forget there are beautiful, more nuanced moments that are all critical to the story- not just fill in chore. I also really love how they tried to keep- even if it changed chronologically and choreographically a bit, the moment in the original ending- the moment from Manon when she does the falling angel arabesques then the twist into the fall back and he’s caring her dying body through its final moments, there were times where he would kiss her (body) in that moment and with this it’s a bit different given the position he’s not really able too, but they’ve kept the intention and emotion of that moment in this revised version.

Also just the way he handles her. I know I go on about it a lot and it may seem like I view it as one-sided between them, but it’s not in the respect of a hetro relationship, it’s in the respect of dance partners and duty of care the man has over his woman (and I can speak on this because I’ve had partners that treated me well and others that didn’t) and Scott treats her like a freaking angel. I’ve said before the way he holds her head and anytime he’s holding her in a position where she’s lying back, how important it is in those positions just safety wise to have your head supported properly if not by someone else then yourself, holding your posture/strength correctly as to not injure your neck- which Tessa would 100% be doing anyway because she is so strong and well trained (and now this is where a bit of body language stuff comes in I guess which I am not an expert on) but the way Scott holds her like that- holds that part of her oozes of such commitment and attentiveness to her safety- the way he holds her all the way out of that position to standing straight, like he actually putting her back to vertical, where he has all her weight anyway- she has to do almost no work to get out of it and that’s just an extra (significant) level of care he has over her physically. And yes it’s also in the way he stays so close to her and the way he looks at her with the eyebrows doing */\* thing 🥹

When I said the other day that the thing I go softest over is their utmost and constant care of each other, well also way up there is their love for dancing together. You just know they do- you don’t get a connection like their’s without loving it (T has now said a few times that for a long period of their career she didn’t *love* skating.. but I do believe she loved dancing and skating with him.. just not the sport of skating). So knowing it and being able to believe it is one thing but when it comes out- uncontrollably pours out of them like this it’s something else. The way after the spiral they are basically making each other laugh with how much they are enjoying themselves. Both unapologetically singing, how it seems to have left their stream of consciousness that this is a practice for the ..Olympics.. and not just dancing for fun. So many athletes competing at the olys- the majority know they are not competing for medals- they are there for a PB- time or score and to have fun, and I’m sure they try to soak in the experience as much as possible. For the potentially medaling athletes- the ones with a good chance or are expected to win- they are there to do a job and have a lot riding on their result- TS were the favourites in almost every competition they entered in their senior careers (except for the first couple years) and if not favourites they were never far from the top (never lower than 6th as seniors). They put their whole careers and legacy on the line with this comeback and this result mattered a lot to them, and to many others. So how intimidating must it have been for all the other teams on this practice- 2 low ranked teams, one mid-ranked and one potentially top 5/bronze contender team, to be on the ice with the greatest team in history- expected to take it all, all the pressure on them, to be having THIS MUCH FUN and enjoying themselves THIS MUCH. Being THIS good and having THIS MUCH FUN being THIS GOOD. And in writing this I’m just now remembering how they said (when they came back to competition) that when they were on their 2 year break they would go to comps and watch other teams be taking it so seriously and not seeming to be having fun, and when they came back they wanted that to be a priority. To enjoy it. And they even told each other before every (competitive/performance) skate (but I’m sure everyday in practice too) that they are so lucky to have each other and love what they share and just have so much fun spending their days together and want to enjoy every minute of it.. (Scott- or I guess Tessa, can I please borrow that bucket the rice was in to soak up my tears, please and thank you). 😭😭😭😭😭

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#I’ll finish it there #part 3 to follow #I actually forgot how much I enjoyed writing essay posts #I havnt done it in a while and I want to get back to it #need to find some time management skills somewhere 🔎#anyway.. enjoy some weekend reading #2/17 practice #part 2 #thank you all for being patient with me

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theultimateultimateweapon · 3 years

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Kirby: Meta Knight and the Knight of Hades (Chapter 10)

Morpho Knight swung his sword down the slope, releasing a powerful shock wave. The crescent-shaped waves hit Meta Knight in quick succession.

Meta Knight flew left and right, but his arm was hurt and he groaned in pain. Morpho Knight didn’t even look tired.

Meta Knight remembered what happened in the underworld. In that world, he couldn’t feel tired, hungry, or pain at all. The red knight might not feel any of those feelings no matter how much he fights because of the power of the butterfly of Hades.

If so, does Meta Knight have no chance of winning…?

(No, it can’t be...) Meta Knight gripped his sword and thought. (Those who do not feel tired do not understand the breath of battle. Those who do not feel pain cannot read the movement of their enemy.)

Behind Meta Knight were King Dedede, Kirby, and Blade Knight. Both the great king and Kirby fought desperately, but they had finally lost their strength.

Only Meta Knight was standing. He didn’t know if he could get through this mess. Already, just breathing was painful and his whole body hurt.

(Good. I feel tired and painful because I am alive!)

Meta Knight gathered his strength and jumped up, slashing at Morpho Knight.

However, he repelled it easily.

Morpho Knight slashed violently at Meta Knight’s landing.

Due to his tiredness, Meta Knight, who had been struck before, couldn’t move. He held his sword over his body and guarded desperately, but the damage was great.

His head was fluttering. His eyes were hazy, and his feet were swaying.

(Will I… will I go to the underworld again? This time, forever?) When such an ominous idea came to him, something happened.

“Meta Kniiiiight!”

He heard a loud voice. Waddle Dee’s voice.

Meta Knight raised his face.

Waddle Dee overcame a broken pillar holding something.

“Don’t come any closer!” Meta Knight shouted out.

Waddle Dee turned around, gained momentum, and threw what he was holding in his hand.

“Meta Knight! Here…!”

Something flew through the air. Meta Knight quickly reached out and took it.

Immediately, Meta Knight’s whole body shook. His fatigue and pain disappeared as they were swept away. He felt the power in his hand.

“My treasured sword… the Galaxia!”

It’s unmistakable and genuine. Meta Knight held the Galaxia high. A bright light spilled from the tip of the sword.

Morpho Knight attacked. Meta Knight lightly dodged, shook up and jumped high.

“Spinning Knight!”

While spinning in the air, he slashed at Morpho Knight.

Morpho Knight flinched and was struck down.

Then, immediately, he held his sword horizontally and drill slashed!

Morpho Knight was blown off and struck against a collapsing wall.

Meta Knight had completely regained his power. The Galaxia gave him strength. And the Galaxia was also strengthened by returning to the hands of its true owner. The sword fighter and the sword, united for increased power!

However, Morpho Knight wasn’t finished.

When he stood up, he swung his sword down and sent crescent shock waves one after another. They flew with tremendous speed, but Meta Knight didn’t give up, dodging one after another, getting closer to him.

“Take this-!” Meta Knight swung after Morpho Knight.

Morpho Knight disappeared suddenly. He escaped with teleportation in an instant. Morpho Knight materialized above and behind Meta Knight.

Meta Knight looked back, feeling sick.

Morpho Knight slid in and rushed through the air.

It was tremendous speed. Meta Knight couldn’t dodge it.

“Kah…!” He was moving before he realized.

He grabbed the Galaxia, held it in front of him, and took a strong stance.

At the moment of attack…

“Galactic Counter!”

A deadly mystery that uses the enemy’s attack power against them!

There was no delay, the timing was perfect.

“...ts!” Morpho Knight stiffened his whole body and his attacks were slow.

The game was on. Meta Knight quietly stared at the enemy.

A streak of light spilled out of Morpho Knight. The lights gradually increased, two, three, and the brightness increased. His mask, his sword, and his wings on his back were swallowed by the white light. The knight turned into a ball of light and disappeared with a burst.

After the knight disappeared, countless red butterflies were dancing. The butterflies flew turbulently, fading little by little, and eventually disappeared as if melting away.

“Meta Knight…”

Meta Knight, staring at the disappeared butterflies, was called and turned around.

It was Kirby. He had been injured in the fight, but seemed to regain some energy.

“Did you win?”

“...Yes.”

“Meta Knight really is strong! I couldn’t do it at all.” Kirby looked a little sick.

Behind him, King Dedede stood up slowly. “Uh… Uugh…!”

The king, leaning on his hammer, managed to support his body and said with envy. “I was supposed to do it… I could’ve mustered the strength…!”

“Didn’t you turn and run?”

“I didn’t run off! I was getting a better vantage point!”

Blade Knight also stood up, in tears. “Meta Knight, sir, wow, you’re safe!”

“Yes. No need to worry about me.”

“But what happened? I could have sworn you were on the battleship Halberd…”

Waddle Dee rushed in before Meta Knight answered. “Meta Knight! You won!”

“Waddle Dee.” Meta Knight turned to Waddle Dee.

“I’m grateful you returned my strength with the Galaxia. Thank you.”

“I just carried it. It was the Galaxia that strengthened you…”

Waddle Dee jumped up. “Wait, we still need your help! Your knights are in a hole!”

“A hole?”

“This way!”

Meta Knight followed Waddle Dee to the knights.

The rescued knights were quiet, even surrounding Meta Knight. Everyone’s hearts were so full that no words came out.

Meta Knight opened his mouth. “It was foolish of me to worry, everyone fought so well.”

“Meta Knight, sir…!”

The Meta Knights wept as if the thread of tension had broken.

Sword Knight said. “You’re the real Meta Knight, aren’t you”

“Do I look like a fake?”

“No! You’re definitely real! There’s a big difference!”

Sword Knight saw Beryl crouching down.

Mace Knight snuck behind and grabbed Beryl’s head.

Axe Knight asked, “Let’s punish him for what he’s done. What do you think?”

“Hm…” Meta Knight thought about it.

Beryl was shaking, rattling.

Javelin Knight spoke. “Let’s tie him to the bow of the battleship and let him enjoy space travel.”

Trident Knight replied, “Why don’t we send him to Castle Dedede? Let the Waddle Dees take a break and let him do all the castle work alone!”

Axe Knight added, “No, let’s send him to all the towns he destroyed and make him fix them back up again! First, Dreamland!”

Meta Knight spoke. “That’s still too kind. Let’s tie him up so he can’t move and have Kirby perform a song for him.”

“Eh!?” Kirby was surprised. “Why do I have to sing for this guy!? What a waste…!”

“...No, trust me.” Meta Knight told Kirby. “Persuade him with your wonderful singing that he should never do anything wrong again.”

“...Eh? Persuade him?”

“Listening to a wonderful song can change someone’s mind.”

“Oh yeah… songs have the power to move hearts. I see!” Kirby was determined and nodded. “I will sing! It’ll be a moving song that will gentle the heart of any villain!”

“While you’re at it, would you like to serve your home cooking as well? You should make a special dish that will make him cry with excitement.”

“Okay! Looks like Meta Knight is kind to his enemies.”

“Waddle Dee.”

Waddle Dee, who was swaying and listening to the story, jumped up when Meta Knight called out.

“Ye...yes!”

“I’ll leave it to you. Hold Kirby a concert and set up a special seat for Beryl. Don’t forget to serve Kirby’s special dishes. Have Beryl eat until he is full.”

“Uh… uh… uh, yes…!” Waddle Dee imagined it and nodded in tears of fear.

(Me, Meta Knight…! What a terrifying thing! Kirby’s song is so terrible it could crack the walls of Castle Dedede, and Kirby’s food is so bad he could lose his appetite for the rest of his life…!)

Kirby said with a smile. “Heh, I’ll do my best! Let’s work together, Waddle Dee!”

“Ah… okay…”

“What should I sing? I have to sing with all my heart so Beryl doesn’t do bad things again… of course, I’ll do my best to cook too… Wow, I’m excited! Hey Beryl, I hope you’re looking forward to it!”

“Oh, oh. I’m sure I’ll change my mind.” Beryl was relieved and grinned.

The Meta Knights and King Dedede whispered in the shadow.

“Beryl’s acting like he’s saved.”

“How stupid, he doesn’t know the horror of Kirby.”

“Meta Knight is too cruel. No matter what he did, I’m sorry for Beryl.”

“How could sir make such a proposal…”

“Wow, he’s not kidding around! Good luck, Beryl!”

Meta Knight turned over his cloak and started walking. “Well then, let’s go back to the battleship Halberd.”

“Yes sir!” His subordinates saluted in unison and lined up.

Captain Vul and the Meta Knights were enjoying tea time leisurely for the first time in a long while.

Meta Knight wasn’t there. It seems he had something to do, so he went out without telling them where he was going.

Captain Vul was talking about, of course, Meta Knight.

Axe Knight said. “Even so, it’s strange. Why did Meta Knight, who had been unconscious on the Halberd, appear in the ancient temple?”

Captain Vul replied. “I have an idea, but I can’t quite explain it. I think…”

Captain Vul took a sip of his tea and continued.

“At that time, Meta Knight’s body and mind were disjointed. His body was in a bed in the Halberd here, but his mind was wandering somewhere else.”

“...Huh.”

“Usually, the wandering heart returns to the body. However, Meta Knight is a very strong person, so I think this time his body was called to his heart.”

“...Hmm.”

Blade Knight said. “Meta Knight has a strong body, though.”

“...Well, that is correct. However, if anything, his heart is stronger!”

“Persuasive, if not…” Sword Knight muttered.

“At that time, Galacta Knight took a big hit. Moreover, he was combined with the red butterfly to become even more powerful.”

“Yeah, but what about it?”

“I think I’ve got it. Meta Knight’s desire to fight a strong opponent called to his body.”

“I see, then I understand.”

The Meta Knights nodded.

“Meta Knight’s enthusiasm to fight can be a bit overkill.”

“Hold your tongue. Meta Knight doesn’t like fighting. He likes to make himself stronger.

“Regardless, his desire to fight a strong enemy caused a miracle.”

“As expected from our master!”

Around the time when the peaceful tea party was held on the Halberd, Kirby’s special dinner concert was being held in the basement of the Castle Dedede.

Meta Knight was standing alone in a flower garden of Dreamland.

A pleasant breeze blew and the colorful flowers swayed.

Meta Knight picked up a yellow flower and took a deep breath. It had a refreshing smell.

“It has a nice scent. Pink was… too sweet, wasn’t it?”

Meta Knight couldn’t forget Papi’s happy voice. The whole time he was trying to stop Meta Knight from returning to the original world… At the very end, he was desperate to save Meta Knight. Without Papi, Meta Knight wouldn’t have been able to return to this world.

He wondered, what was Papi doing now? Was he fluttering around looking for someone to talk to?

At that moment, a white butterfly flew by and perched on a yellow flower. It was slowly drinking from the flowers.

Meta Knight muttered in a small voice. “If one day you go to that world, let me know.”

The butterfly stopped moving, as if it had heard Meta Knight’s words.

“I’d like to thank that talkative butterfly with light blue wings. Papi was a good guide… no, a good friend.”

The butterfly fluttered away, and began to fly from flower to flower.

Meta Knight quietly watched until the butterfly disappeared.

(Chapter 9 - Table of Contents)

(The end, thank you so much for reading and all of your support!)

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fuck-customers · 3 years

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Trigger warning: mentions of anxiety (attacks) and panic attacks, use of Homophobic slurs, mentions of being followed to car, mentions of attempted hate crimes

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Shoutout to my old manager (he’s gonna be called Ricotta) at Ogres grocery store for having the audacity to tell me “Can’t you just finish out your shift?” After I had to stop cleaning to go to the bathroom so I could have my anxiety attack in a private place without being in front of any people that would walk by.

Cheddar also left me alone on a night that an older man came up to the counter and started looking at the things we had on display. I told him that we closed an hour ago (I was cleaning the slicers) but I might be able to help him find something or put in an order for him. He stared at me before he walked over, leaned across the counter and shoved his finger in my face, yelling at me about how he “didn’t serve this country for ungrateful f*gg*ts to refuse service” to him and asked me if “this was the Ogre way? Is this the American way?” before running his cart into the case before he stormed off. I had a panic attack (I’ve dealt with people following me to my car and yelling slurs at me and trying to harm me before) and had to call one of my friends to come and pick me up because I couldn’t get myself to walk out of the store.

Ricotta is the same manager who would yell at me if bakery things, that I was given when I came in for work and had to do in between customers at the deli counter, weren’t finished on time and told me that I needed to get faster (I wasn’t given proper training for the bakery. I watched the Deli/Bakery Head, I’m calling her Mozzarella, do things once and I was left on my own.) because Mozzarella could’ve done it faster. Mozzarella didn’t clean up after herself and would leave things that dropped for closing shift (ahem, yours truly) to clean up.

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By the way, this was my first job so after I quit I was genuinely scared to get another job because I thought it would be the same thing again :,)

-🧋 (so I can find my stuff easier)

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Taylor Swift and the sound "Bee"

Note: "Been" does not appear because in Taylor’s American English she pronounces it like "bin" even though in, say, some British accents it might have a strong "bee" sound. I also chose to exclude beauty/beautiful, interpreting the sound of "beau" more as "byoo" than "bee-you" but here is TS and Beautiful with those lyrics just in case.

'Taylor Swift'

Tim McGraw: And I was right there beside him all summer long

Tim McGraw: But in a box beneath my bed is a letter that you never read

Tim McGraw: And looking back on all of that, it's nice to believe

Picture To Burn: My daddy's gonna show you how sorry you'll be

Picture To Burn: 'Cause coming back around here would be bad for your health

Picture To Burn: Burn, burn, burn, baby, burn, just another picture to burn, baby, burn

Teardrops On My Guitar: That I want and I'm needing everything that we should be

Teardrops On My Guitar: And there he goes, so perfectly, the kind of flawless I wish I could be

Teardrops On My Guitar: I'll put his picture down and maybe get some sleep tonight

A Place In This World: I'll be strong, I'll be wrong, oh, but life goes on

A Place In This World: Maybe I'm just a girl on a mission but I'm ready to fly

The Outside: I didn't read between the lines and, baby, I've got nowhere to go

The Outside: So how can I ever try to be better?

The Outside: That I would give it all up to be a part of this, a part of you

Tied Together With A Smile: Hold on, baby, you're losing it

Tied Together With A Smile: That you cry but you don't tell anyone that you might not be the golden one

Tied Together With A Smile: Goodbye, baby, with a smile, baby, baby

Stay Beautiful: And don't you know, you're really gonna be someone

Stay Beautiful: Cory finds another way to be the highlight of my day

Should've Said No: I shouldn't be asking myself, "Why?" You shouldn't be begging for forgiveness at my feet

Should've Said No: You should've said no, baby, and you might still have me

Should've Said No: And baby, you know all the right things to say

Should've Said No: But do you honestly expect me to believe we could ever be the same

Should've Said No: Before you go, tell me this, was it worth it, was she worth this?

Mary's Song (Oh My My My): Said you'd beat me up, you were bigger than me

Mary's Song (Oh My My My): They never believed we'd really fall in love

Mary's Song (Oh My My My): Take me home where we met so many years before, we'll rock our babies on that very front porch

Mary's Song (Oh My My My): I'll be eighty-seven, you'll be eighty-nine

Our Song: I look around, turn the radio down, he says, "Baby, is something wrong?"

I'm Only Me When I'm With You: Friday night beneath the stars in a field behind your yard

I'm Only Me When I'm With You: When I'm with anybody else, it's so hard to be myself

I'm Only Me When I'm With You: And I'm only me, who I wanna be, well, I'm only me when I'm with you

Invisible: But if you only knew me, we could be a beautiful miracle, unbelievable

Invisible: And all I think about is how to make you think of me and everything that we could be

Invisible: Baby, let me love you, let me want you

A Perfectly Good Heart: Maybe I should've seen the signs, should've read the writing on the wall

A Perfectly Good Heart: And realized by the distance in your eyes that I would be the one to fall

A Perfectly Good Heart: No matter what you say, I still can't believe that you would walk away

A Perfectly Good Heart: How do I get it back the way it was before?

'Fearless (Taylor's Version)'

Fearless: So, baby, drive slow 'til we run out of road

Fifteen: It's your freshman year and you're gonna be here for the next four years in this town

Fifteen: You know I haven't seen you around before

Fifteen: 'Cause when you're fifteen and somebody tells you they love you, you're gonna believe them

Fifteen: This is life before you know who you're gonna be

Fifteen: We'll be out of here as soon as we can

Fifteen: When all you wanted was to be wanted

Fifteen: And when you're fifteen don't forget to look before you fall

Fifteen: And you just might find who you're supposed to be, I didn't know who I was supposed to be at fifteen

Love Story: Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone, I'll be waiting, all that's left to do is run

Love Story: You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess

Love Story: It's a love story, baby, just say, "Yes"

Love Story: Don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess

Love Story: Marry me, Juliet, you'll never have to be alone

Hey Stephen: Hey, Stephen, I know looks can be deceiving but I know I saw a light in you

Hey Stephen: I'll be the one waiting there even when it's cold

Hey Stephen: Boy, you might have me believing I don't always have to be alone

Hey Stephen: Hey, Stephen, I could give you fifty reasons why I should be the one you choose

White Horse: As I paced back and forth all this time 'cause I honestly believed in you

White Horse: I was a dreamer before you went and let me down

White Horse: Maybe I was naïve, got lost in your eyes and never really had a chance

White Horse: My mistake, I didn't know to be in love

You Belong With Me: So why can't you see you belong with me, you belong with me?

You Belong With Me: I can't help thinking this is how it ought to be

You Belong With Me: All this time, how could you not know, baby, you belong with me, you belong with me

You Belong With Me: Think I know where you belong, think I know it's with me

You Belong With Me: You belong with me, have you ever thought just maybe you belong with me, you belong with me

Breathe: Now I don't know what to be without you around

Tell Me Why: And I need you like a heartbeat but you know you got a mean streak

Tell Me Why: I'm sick and tired of your reasons, I got no one to believe in

You're Not Sorry: And it's taken me this long, baby, but I figured you out

You're Not Sorry: And you're thinking we'll be fine again but not this time around

You're Not Sorry: But I don't believe you, baby, like I did before

You're Not Sorry: You are looking so innocent, I might believe you if I didn't know

You're Not Sorry: And you got your share of secrets and I'm tired of being last to know

You're Not Sorry: And now you're asking me to listen 'cause it's worked each time before

Forever And Always: I believe it was a Tuesday when I caught your eye

Forever And Always: I don't feel welcome anymore, baby, what happened, please tell me

Forever And Always: You didn't mean it, baby, I don't think so

Forever And Always: Back up, baby, back up, did you forget everything?

Forever And Always: You didn't mean it, baby, you said forever and always, yeah

The Best Day: I'm thirteen now and don't know how my friends could be so mean

Change: But I believe in whatever you do

Change: Because these things will change, can you feel it now?

Change: They might be bigger, but we're faster and never scared

Change: But there's something in your eyes says we can beat this

Jump Then Fall: I hear the words but all I can think is we should be together

Jump Then Fall: Whoa, oh, I'm feeling you, baby, don't be afraid to jump then fall

Jump Then Fall: Baby, I'm never gonna leave you, say that you wanna be with me, too

Jump Then Fall: Whoa, oh, I need you, baby, don't be afraid, please

Jump Then Fall: Jump then fall, baby, jump then fall into me, into me

Jump Then Fall: And every time you're here, baby, I'll show you, I'll show you

Untouchable: You gotta come on, come on, say that we'll be together

Untouchable: I know you're saying that you'd be here anyway

SuperStar: And I knew from the first note played I'd be breaking all me rules to see you

SuperStar: When my world wakes up today, you'll be in another town

SuperStar: And I knew when I saw your face, I'd be counting down the ways to see you

The Other Side Of The Door: I said, "Leave," but, baby, all I want is you

Today Was A Fairytale: You were the prince, I used to be a damsel in distress

Today Was A Fairytale: I can feel my heart, it's beating in my chest

You All Over Me: You can scratch it right off, it's how it used to be

You All Over Me: And see that we were never really meant to be

Mr. Perfectly Fine: Mr. every single day until the end I will be by your side

Mr. Perfectly Fine: Mr. always at the right place at the right time, baby

Mr. Perfectly Fine: Well, I thought you might be different than the rest, I guess you're all the same

Mr. Perfectly Fine: Because I hear he's got his arm 'round a brand new girl

Mr. Perfectly Fine: Now I'm Miss gonna be all right someday

Mr. Perfectly Fine: And someday maybe you'll miss me but by then you'll be Mr. too late

We Were Happy: Before I had somewhere to be, back when we had all night

We Were Happy: When it was good, baby, it was good, baby

That's When: And that's when I'll be waiting at the front gate

That's When: I'll let you in and, baby, that's when

That's When: You let me in and, baby, that's when

Bye Bye Baby: Bye bye to everything I thought was on my side, bye bye baby

Bye Bye Baby: Bye bye baby, bye bye baby

Bye Bye Baby: Feels like I'm becoming a part of your past

'Speak Now'

Mine: I say, "Can you believe it?" as we're lying on the couch

Mine: You saw me start to believe for the first time

Mine: Do you believe it, we're gonna make it now

Sparks Fly: Get me with those green eyes, baby, as the lights go down

Sparks Fly: You find I'm even better than you imagined I would be

Sparks Fly: I'm captivated by you, baby, like a firework show

Sparks Fly: And the sparks fly, oh, baby, smile, and the sparks fly

Back To December: Because the last time you saw me is still burned in the back of your mind

Back To December: Maybe this is wishful thinking, probably mindless dreaming

Speak Now: I am not the kind of girl who should be rudely barging in on a white veil occasion but you are not the kind of boy who should be marrying the wrong girl

Speak Now: This is surely not what you thought it would be

Speak Now: It seems that I was uninvited by your lovely bride-to-be

Speak Now: Baby, I didn't say my vows, so glad you were around when they said, "Speak now"

Dear John: Don't you think I was too young to be messed with?

Dear John: Well, maybe it's me and my blind optimism to blame

Dear John: Or maybe it's you and your sick need to give love then take it away

Dear John: Don't you think nineteen's too young to be played by your dark, twisted games

Dear John: But I took your matches before fire could catch me so don't look now

Mean: Someday I'll be living in a big old city and all you're ever gonna be is mean

Mean: Someday I'll be big enough so you can't hit me and all you're ever gonna be is mean

Mean: Why you gotta be so mean?

The Story Of Us: But the story of us might be ending soon

Never Grow Up: I just realized everything I have is someday gonna be gone

Never Grow Up: It's so much colder than I thought it would be

Never Grow Up: Wish I'd never grown up, I could still be little

Never Grow Up: Wish I'd never grown up, it could still be simple

Enchanted: Please don't be in love with someone else

Better Than Revenge: She had to know the pain was beating on me like a drum

Innocent: Wasn't it beautiful when you believed in everything and everybody believed in you?

Innocent: You wouldn't be shattered on the floor now if only you had seen what you know now then

Innocent: Wasn't it beautiful running wild 'til you fell asleep before the monsters caught up to you?

Innocent: Today is never too late to be brand new

Haunted: You're not gone, you can't be gone, no

Last Kiss: That July 9th, the beat of your heart, it jumps through your shirt, I can still feel your arms

Last Kiss: All that I know is I don't know how to be something you miss

Last Kiss: Because I love you handshake meeting my father

Long Live: The night you danced like you knew our lives would never be the same

Long Live: One day, we will be remembered

Ours: Your hands are tough but they are where mine belong

Ours: 'Cause I love the gap between your teeth

Ours: And any snide remarks from my father about your tattoos will be ignored 'cause my heart is yours

If This Was A Movie: Last night I heard my own heart beating

If This Was A Movie: I was playing back a thousand memories, baby

If This Was A Movie: Maybe I've been going back too much lately

If This Was A Movie: But if this was a movie, you'd be here by now

If This Was A Movie: Not before I knew how much I had to lose

If This Was A Movie: I just want it back the way it was before

If This Was A Movie: Come back to me like you would before you said, "It's not that easy"

If This Was A Movie: Before the fight, before I locked you out, but I take it all back now

If This Was A Movie: You'd be here by now, it's not the kind of ending you wanna see now, baby, what about the ending?

If This Was A Movie: Oh, I thought you'd be here by now, whoa, thought you'd be here by now

Superman: Go save the world, I'll be around

Superman: Come back, I'll be with you someday, I'll be right here on the ground

Superman: And you'll leave, got places to be and I'll be okay

Superman: Don't forget, don't forget where I'll be

Superman: I watch superman fly away, I swear, I'll be with you someday

'Red (Taylor's Version)'

State Of Grace: And I never saw you coming, and I'll never be the same

Red: Like the colors in autumn, so bright just before they lose it all

Red: Regretting him is like wishing you never found out that love could be that strong

Treacherous: And I'd be smart to walk away but you're quicksand

I Knew You Were Trouble: A new notch in your belt is all I'll ever be

All Too Well: And I might be okay but I'm not fine at all

All Too Well: You used to be a little kind with glasses in a twin sized bed

All Too Well: Well, maybe we got lost in translation, maybe I asked for too much, but maybe this thing was a masterpiece 'til you tore it all up

All Too Well: So casually cruel in the name of being honest

All Too Well: I'd like to be my old self again, but I'm still trying to find it

All Too Well: Back before you lost the one real thing you've ever known

22: Everything will be all right if you keep me next to you

22: Everything will be all right if we just keep dancing like we're twenty-two

22: It feels like one of those nights, we won't be sleeping

We Are Never Ever Getting Back Together: Baby, I miss you and I swear I'm gonna change, trust me

Stay Stay Stay: Before you I'd only dated self-indulgent takers

Stay Stay Stay: I love you because you have given me not choice but to stay, stay, stay

Stay Stay Stay: Stay, and I'll be loving you for quite some time

The Last Time: I find myself at your door just like all those times before

The Last Time: And right before your eyes I'm breaking

The Last Time: You find yourself at my door, and just like all those times before

The Last Time: And right before your eyes I'm aching

Sad Beautiful Tragic: Good girls, hopeful they'll be and long they will wait

Everything Has Changed: I know something now, know something now I didn't before

Everything Has Changed: You'll be mine and I'll be yours

Starlight: I met Bobby on the boardwalk, summer of '45

Starlight: The night we snuck into a yacht club party pretending to be a duchess and a prince

Begin Again: I walked in expecting you'd be late but you got here early and you stand and wave

Begin Again: But on a Wednesday in a cafe, I watched it begin again

The Moment I Knew: Should've burst through the door with that "Baby, I'm right here" smile

The Moment I Knew: How you said you'd be here, you said you'd be here

The Moment I Knew: And the hours pass by, now I just wanna be alone

The Moment I Knew: As I say hopelessly, "He said he'd be here"

Come Back... Be Here: Come back, be here, come back, be here

Come Back... Be Here: The delicate beginning rush, the feeling you can know so much

Come Back... Be Here: In New York, be here, but you're in London and I break down

Girl At Home: And it would be a find proposition if I was a stupid girl

Girl At Home: It would be a fine proposition if I hadn't once been just like her

Ronan: I remember you dancing before bedtime

Ronan: Come on, baby, with me, we're gonna fly away from here

Ronan: And it's about to be Halloween, you could be anything you wanted if you were still here

Better Man: Hoping it might turn sweet again like it was in the beginning

Better Man: You're talking down to me like I'll always be around

Better Man: I hold onto this pride because these days it's all I have

Better Man: I wonder what we would've become if you were a better man

Better Man: We might still be in love if you were a better man

Nothing New: Lord, what will become of me once I've lost my novelty?

Nothing New: How long will it be cute, all this crying in my room?

Babe: What a shame, didn't wanna be the one that got away, yeah

Babe: I hate that because of you, I can't love you, babe

Message In A Bottle: And I became hypnotized by freckles and bright eyes, tongue tied

Message In A Bottle: You could be the one that I love, I could be the one that you dream of

Message In A Bottle: You could be the one that I keep and I could be the reason you can't sleep at night

Message In A Bottle: You could be the one that I love

I Bet You Think About Me: But now that we're done and it's over, I bet you couldn't believe

I Bet You Think About Me: I don't have to be your shrink to know that you'll never be happy

I Bet You Think About Me: Scared not to be hip, scared to get old, chasing make-believe status

I Bet You Think About Me: But now that we're done and it's over, I bet it's hard to believe

Forever Winter: He says he doesn't believe anything much he hears these days

Forever Winter: He spends most of his nights wishing it was how it used to be

Forever Winter: I'll be summer sun for you forever, forever winter if you go

Forever Winter: I'll be your summer sun forever

Forever Winter: I'd be in pieces on the floor, forever winter if you go

Forever Winter: I say, "Believe in one thing, I won't go away"

Run: We shouldn't be in this town

Run: I'd drive away before I let you go

Run: No one to be, no one to tell

All Too Well (10 Minute Version): You said if we had been closer in age, maybe it would have been fine

All Too Well (10 Minute Version): And he said, "It's supposed to be fun, turning twenty-one"

All Too Well (10 Minute Version): Just between us, did the love affair maim you, too?

All Too Well (10 Minute Version): Just between us, did the love affair maim you all too well?

All Too Well (10 Minute Version): Just between us, do you remember it all too well?

All Too Well (10 Minute Version): Just between us, I remember it all too well

'1989'

Welcome To New York: Kaleidoscope of loud heartbeats under coats

Welcome To New York: Searching for a sound we hadn't heard before

Welcome To New York: I could dance to this beat, beat forevermore

Welcome To New York: Everybody here was someone else before

Welcome To New York: It's a new soundtrack, I could dance to this beat

Blank Space: So hey, let's be friends, I'm dying to see how this one ends

Blank Space: So it's gonna be forever or it's gonna go down in flames

Blank Space: But I've got a blank space, baby, and I'll write your name

Blank Space: You're the king, baby, I'm your queen

Blank Space: Find out what you want, be that girl for a month

Out Of The Woods: To move the furniture so we could dance, baby, like we stood a chance

Out Of The Woods: When you started crying, baby, I did, too

Out Of The Woods: But the monsters turned out to be just trees

All You Had To Do Was Stay: And people like me wanna believe you when you say you've changed

Shake It Off: It's like I got the music in my mind saying, "It's gonna be all right"

Shake It Off: Baby, I'm just gonna shake, shake, shake, shake, shake

Shake It Off: I never miss a beat, I'm lightning on my feet

Shake It Off: You could've been getting down to this sick beat

Shake It Off: Won't you come on over, baby, we can shake, shake, shake

I Wish You Would: And I wish you knew that I miss you too much to be mad anymore

Bad Blood: Baby, now we got bad blood

Bad Blood: You know, it used to be mad love

Bad Blood: I was thinking that you could be trusted

Bad Blood: Did you have to hit me where I'm weak? Baby, I couldn't breathe

Bad Blood: Did you think we'd be fine?

Wildest Dreams: I can see the end as it begins, my one condition is

How You Get The Girl: Remind her how it used to be, be

How You Get The Girl: Remind me how it used to be

This Love: Baby, I could go on and on, on and on

I Know Places: Baby, I know places we won't be found and they'll be chasing their tails trying to track us down

Clean: Just because you're clean don't mean you don't miss it

Wonderland: Haven't you heard what becomes of curious minds?

New Romantics: Baby, I could build a castle out of all the bricks they threw at me

New Romantics: Baby, we're the new romantics

'reputation'

...Ready For It?: But if he's a ghost then I can be a phantom holding him for ransom

...Ready For It?: Touch me and you'll never be alone

...Ready For It?: You should see the things we do, baby

...Ready For It?: I know I'm gonna be with you so I take my time

...Ready For It?: And he can be my jailor, Burton to this Taylor

...Ready For It?: I'm so very tame now, never be the same now

...Ready For It?: Baby, let the games begin, let the games begin, let the games begin

End Game: I wanna be your end game, I wanna be your first-string, I wanna be your A-Team, I wanna be your end game, end game

End Game: Ooh, you and me would be a big conversation

End Game: I just wanna be drinking on a beach with you all over me

End Game: The truth is, it's easier to ignore it, believe me

I Did Something Bad: You gotta leave before you get left

Don't Blame Me: Lord, save me, my drug is my baby, I'll be using for the rest of my life

Don't Blame Me: I'm insane, but I'm your baby, your baby

Don't Blame Me: And baby, for you, I would fall from grace just to touch your face

Look What You Made Me Do: I don't like your kingdom keys, they once belonged to me

Look What You Made Me Do: Maybe I got mine but you'll all get yours

Look What You Made Me Do: I'll be the actress starring in your bad dreams

So It Goes...: 'Cause baby, I know what you know, we can feel it

So It Goes...: But honestly, baby, who's counting?

Gorgeous: You should think about the consequence of your magnetic field being a little too strong

Gorgeous: You've ruined my life by not being mine

Getaway Car: There were sirens in the beat of your heart

Getaway Car: Should've known I'd be the first to leave

King Of My Heart: I made up my mind, I'm better off being alone

King Of My Heart: Now you try on calling me "baby" like trying on clothes

King Of My Heart: And you move to me like a Motown beat

King Of My Heart: Drinking beer out of fancy cups

King Of My Heart: Baby, all at once, this is enough

Dancing With Our Hands Tied: So, baby, can we dance, oh, through an avalanche?

This Is Why We Can't Have Nice Things: Bass beat rattling the chandelier, feeling so Gatsby for that whole year

This Is Why We Can't Have Nice Things: Because you break them, I had to take them away

This Is Why We Can't Have Nice Things: It was so nice being friends again

This Is Why We Can't Have Nice Things: And here's to my baby, he ain't reading what they call me lately

Call It What You Want: My baby's fit like a daydream

Call It What You Want: My baby's fly like a jet stream

Call It What You Want: Not because he owns me but 'cause he really knows me

New Year's Day: You and me from the night before

New Year's Day: But I'll be cleaning up bottles with you on New Year's Day

New Year's Day: I can tell that it's gonna be a long road

New Year's Day: I'll be there if you're the toast of the town, babe

New Year's Day: Please don't ever become a stranger whose laugh I could recognize anywhere

'Lover'

Cruel Summer: I'm always waiting for you to be waiting below

Cruel Summer: And if I bleed, you'll be the last to know

Cruel Summer: And I cried like a baby coming home from the bar

Lover: Can we always be this close?

Lover: I take this magnetic force of a man to be my lover

Lover: Swear to be overdramatic and true to my lover

The Man: I would be complex, I would be cool, they'd say I played the field before I found someone to commit to, and that would be okay for me to do

The Man: I'd be a fearless leader, I'd be an alpha type, when everyone believes you, what's that like?

The Man: 'Cause if I was a man, then I'd be the man

The Man: Could all be separated from my good ideas and power moves

The Man: I'd be just like Leo in St. Tropez

The Man: If I was out flashing my dollars I'd be a bitch, not a baller

The Man: They paint me out to be bad, so it's okay that I'm mad

I Think He Knows: He got my heartbeat skipping down 16th Avenue

Miss Americana And The Heartbreak Prince: American glory faded before me

Miss Americana And The Heartbreak Prince: I see the high fives between the bad guys

Miss Americana And The Heartbreak Prince: American stories burning before me

Miss Americana And The Heartbreak Prince: Boys will be boys, then where are the wise men?

Paper Rings: Now I've read all of the books beside your bed

Paper Rings: Kiss me twice 'cause it's gonna be all right

Paper Rings: Without all the exes, fights, and flaws, we wouldn't be standing here, so tall

Paper Rings: Kiss you twice 'cause it's gonna be all right

Paper Rings: Wrap your arms around me, baby boy

Cornelia Street: And baby, I get mystified by how this city screams your name

Cornelia Street: And baby, I'm so terrified of if you ever walk away

Cornelia Street: I packed my bags, left Cornelia Street before you even knew I was gone

Cornelia Street: I turned around before I hit the tunnel

Cornelia Street: Sacred new beginnings that became my religion, listen

Death By A Thousand Cuts: 'Cause the morning comes and you're not my baby

Death By A Thousand Cuts: I ask the traffic lights if it'll be all right, they say, "I don't know"

Death By A Thousand Cuts: But I'll be all right, it's just a thousand cuts

Death By A Thousand Cuts: I get drunk but it's not enough, 'cause you're not my baby

London Boy: You can find me in the pub, we are watching rugby with his school friends

London Boy: Doesn't have to be Louis V up on Bond Street, just wanna be with you

London Boy: Just wanna be with you, wanna be with you, wanna be with you

Soon You'll Get Better: It's been years of hoping and I keep saying it because, 'cause I have to

You Need To Calm Down: You need to calm down, you're being too loud

You Need To Calm Down: Why are you mad when you could be GLAAD?

You Need To Calm Down: But you would rather be in the dark ages

Afterglow: I pinned your hands behind your back, oh

Afterglow: This ultraviolet morning light below tells me this love is worth the fight, oh

Afterglow: Tell me that we'll be just fine even when I lose my mind

ME!: I know that I'm a handful, baby, uh, I know I never think before I jump

ME!: Baby doll, when it comes to a lover, I promise that you'll never find another like me

ME!: I'm the only one of me, baby, that's the fun of me

ME!: You're the only one of you, baby, that's the fun of you

ME!: But I will never bore you, baby

Daylight: And so I became the butt of the joke

Daylight: Maybe you ran with the wolves and refused to settle down

Daylight: Maybe I've stormed out of every single room in this town

Daylight: Threw out our cloaks and our daggers because it's morning now, it's brighter now

Daylight: I once believed love would be black and white

Daylight: I once believed love would be burning red

Daylight: Things will never be the same

Daylight: I want to be defined by the things that I love, not the things I hate

'folklore'

The 1: We never painted by the numbers, baby, but we were making it count

The 1: If one thing had been different, would everything be different today?

Cardigan: Hand under my sweatshirt, baby, kiss it better

Cardigan: Your heartbeat on the High Line once in twenty lifetimes

Cardigan: And you'd be standing in my front porch light

The Last Great American Dynasty: Fifty years is a long time Holiday House sat quietly on that beach

Exile: I think I've seen this film before and I didn't like the ending

Exile: I think I've seen this film before

Exile: I think I've seen this film before so I'm leaving out the side door

My Tears Ricochet: And if I'm on fire, you'll be made of ashes, too

My Tears Ricochet: And so the battleships will sink beneath the waves

Mirrorball: I'm still a believer but I don't know why

Mirrorball: Because I'm a mirrorball, I'm a mirrorball

Seven: Your dad is always mad and that must be why

Seven: And we can be pirates, then you won't have to cry

Seven: And just like a folk song, our love will be passed on

Seven: Before I learned civility, I used to scream ferociously anytime I wanted

August: Whispers of "Are you sure?" Never have I ever before

August: Your back beneath the sun, wishing I could write my name on it

August: Canceled plans just in case you'd call and say, "Meet me behind the mall"

August: Back when I was living for the hope of it all, for the hope of it all, meet me behind the mall

This Is Me Trying: And maybe I don't quite know what to say but I'm here in your doorway

This Is Me Trying: I was so ahead of the curve, the curve became a sphere, fell behind all my classmates and I ended up here

This Is Me Trying: And it's hard to be at a party when I feel like an open wound

This Is Me Trying: It's hard to be anywhere these days when all I want is you

Illicit Affairs: You'll be flushed when you return

Illicit Affairs: So you leave no trace behind like you don't even exist

Illicit Affairs: Don't call me "kid," don't call me "baby"

Invisible String: Now I send their babies presents

Invisible String: And it's cool, baby, with me

Mad Woman: She should be mad, should be scathing like me, but no one likes a mad woman

Epiphany: Crawling up the beaches now, "Sir, I think he's bleeding out"

Betty: You can't believe a word she says most times, but this time it was true

Betty: I was nowhere to be found, I hate the crowds, you know that

Betty: If you kiss me, will it be just like I dreamed it?

Peace: Would it be enough if I could never give you peace?

Hoax: Your faithless love's the only hoax I believe in

Hoax: My broken drum, you have beaten my heart

The Lakes: I don't belong, and, my beloved, neither do you

The Lakes: What should be over burrowed under my skin in heart-stopping waves of hurt

'evermore'

Willow: Baby, every bait-and-switch was a work of art

Champagne Problems: Because I dropped your hand while dancing

Champagne Problems: Love slipped beyond your reaches

Gold Rush: Everybody wonders what it would be like to love you

Gold Rush: What must it be like to grow up that beautiful?

Gold Rush: It fades into the gray of my day-old tea 'cause it could never be

'Tis The Damn Season: I parked my car right between the Methodist and the school that used to be ours

'Tis The Damn Season: And I'll be yours for the weekend, 'tis the damn season

Tolerate It: I know my love should be celebrated, but you tolerate it

Tolerate It: Gain the weight of you, then lose it, believe me, I could do it

Happiness: And in the disbelief, I can't face reinvention

Happiness: There'll be happiness after you, but there was happiness because of you

Happiness: Both of these things can be true, there is happiness

Happiness: Beyond the terror in the nightfall

Happiness: Leave it all behind, and there is happiness

Happiness: Tell me, when did your winning smile begin to look like a smirk?

Happiness: I hope she'll be a beautiful fool who takes my spot next to you

Happiness: There'll be happiness after me, but there was happiness because of me

Happiness: Both of these things I believe, there is happiness

Happiness: There'll be happiness after you, but there was happiness because of you, too

Happiness: Oh, leave it all behind, leave it all behind, and there is happiness

Dorothea: And if you're ever tired of being known for who you know, you know you'll always know me

Dorothea: And damn, Dorothea, they all wanna be you

Coney Island: And I'm sitting on a bench in Coney Island wondering, where did my baby go?

Coney Island: 'Cause we were like the mall before the Internet, it was the one place to be

Coney Island: The sight that flashed before me was your face

Coney Island: I'm on a bench in Coney Island wondering, where did my baby go?

Ivy: I wish to know the fatal flaw that made you long to be magnificently cursed

Ivy: Or dare to sit and watch what we'll become and drink my husband's wine

Cowboy Like Me: Oh, I thought this is gonna be one of those things

Cowboy Like Me: Like it could be love, I could be the way forward only if they pay for it

Cowboy Like Me: It could be love, we could be the way forward and I know I'll pay for it

Cowboy Like Me: And the old men that I swindled really did believe I was the one

Cowboy Like Me: Oh, but that was all before I locked it down

Cowboy Like Me: With your boots beneath my bed, forever is the sweetest con

Long Story Short: Your nemeses will defeat themselves before you get the chance to swing

Marjorie: Never be so kind you forget to be clever, never be so clever you forget to be kind

Marjorie: Never be so polite you forget your power, never wield such power you forget to be polite

Marjorie: I should have asked you questions, I should have asked you how to be

Marjorie: 'Cause every scrap of you would be taken from me

Closure: Don't treat me like some situation that needs to be handled

Closure: I'm fine with my spite and my tears and my beers and my candles

Closure: Guilty, guilty, reaching out across the sea that you put between you and me

Evermore: And I couldn't be sure, I had a feeling so peculiar that this pain would be for evermore

Evermore: Sending signals to be double-crossed

Evermore: Can't not think of all the cost and the things that will be lost

Evermore: Oh, can we just get a pause to be certain we'll be til again

Evermore: Whether weather be the frost or the violence of the dog days

Evermore: I'm on waves out being tossed, is there a line that I could just go cross?

Evermore: And I couldn't be sure, I had a feeling so peculiar, this pain wouldn't be for evermore

Evermore: This pain wouldn't be for evermore, evermore

Right Where You Left Me: She's still twenty-three, inside her fantasy, how it was supposed to be

It's Time To Go: He's got my past frozen behind glass, but I've got me

Other Songs written by Taylor

Beautiful Eyes: I want to be somewhere where you are, I want to be where

Beautiful Eyes: You're here, your eyes are looking into mine, so, baby, make me fly

Beautiful Eyes: My heart has never felt this way before

Beautiful Eyes: 'Cause you're my lullaby, so, baby, come hold me tight

Beautiful Eyes: I want to be everything you need, I want to be where

Beautiful Eyes: Just as long as you're mine, I'll be your everything tonight

Beautiful Eyes: Let me love you, let me kiss you, oh, baby, let me miss you

Beautiful Ghosts: All that I wanted was to be wanted

Beautiful Ghosts: A flicker of light before the dawning

Beautiful Ghosts: Scared to call them my friends and be broken again

Beautiful Ghosts: And so maybe my home isn't what I had known, what I thought it would be

Best Days Of Your Life: I'll be there in the back of your mind

Best Days Of Your Life: And how you told me I'd be the only one

Both Of Us: Someday I will be strong enough to lift not one but both of us

Christmas Must Be Something More: Christmas must be something more

Christmas Must Be Something More: There's gotta be more, there's gotta be more

Carolina: It's between me, the sand, and the sea, Carolina knows

Christmas Tree Farm: And I just wanna be there tonight

Christmas Tree Farm: And everything is icy and blue, and you would be there, too

Christmas Tree Farm: Just being in your arms takes me back to that little farm

Christmas Tree Farm: Where every wish comes true, baby, yeah

Christmas Tree Farm: Oh, baby, baby, merry Christmas

Christmases When You Were Mine: I know this shouldn't be a lonely time

Christmases When You Were Mine: And everybody's here except you, baby

Christmases When You Were Mine: That'll have to be something I just say this year

Crazier: There's so much more, I'd never seen it before

Crazier: You opened my eyes and you made me believe

Crazier: Baby, you showed me what living is for

Eyes Open: Keep your feet ready, heartbeat steady

I Don't Wanna Live Forever: Been sitting eyes wide open behind these four walls, hoping you'll call

I Don't Wanna Live Forever: Baby, baby, I feel crazy

I Don't Wanna Live Forever: I don't wanna live forever 'cause I know I'll be living in vain

I Heart ?: Before you ask me if I'm all right, think about what I had to do

I Heart ?: And I'll be you thought you beat me

I Heart ?: I'll be fine if you just walk by

I Heart ?: But I can't believe you made me sit at home, cry like a baby

I Heart ?: You took everything I had, oh, baby

I Heart ?: And you'll know you didn't beat me when you look down and see

Only The Young: You go to class scared, wondering where the best hiding spot would be

Only The Young: They think that it's over, but it's just begun

Renegade: You wouldn't be the first renegade to needs somebody

Safe And Sound: You'll be all right, no one can hurt you now

Safe And Sound: Come morning light, you and I'll be safe and sound

Safe And Sound: Just close your eyes, you'll be all right

Sweeter Than Fiction: I'll be one of the many saying, "Look at you now, look at you now, now"

Sweeter Than Fiction: I'll be one of the many saying, "You made us proud, you made us proud, proud"

Sweeter Than Fiction: You know that I'll be there time and again 'cause I loved you when

This Is What You Came For: Baby, this is what you came for

This Is What You Came For: Who knows why it's gotta be this way

Two Is Better Than One: You came into my life and I thought, hey, you know this could be something

Two Is Better Than One: So maybe it's true that I can't live without you, and maybe two is better than one

Two Is Better Than One: I'm finally now believing

Two Is Better Than One: 'Cause, baby, two is better than one

You'll Always Find Your Way Back Home: And this girl is thinking that maybe this life is what some people dream about

#taylor swift #lyrics #taylorswiftandx #lyric parallels

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synopsis: tiktok makes langa a lil insecure

genre: fluff

pairing: langa x reader

warnings: mentions of insecurity and physical appearance, kissing

word count: 1.4 k

notes: i started thinking about what langa’s fyp on tiktok would look like (it would be chaotic. pure, utter chaos. that and cooking tutorials. no in between) and then I wrote a lil paragraph for sh*ts and giggles. and THEN it turned into...all of this. also, i wrote this during my study breaks so if the gramma/spelling is off, it’s because my brain is actually fried. enjoy!

langa sees all those tiktoks making fun of that face boys make before they kiss you and he’s like “ew?”

but then he tries to practice kiss in the mirror and he’s horrified because wtf wtf wtf wtf? has he been kissing you like this since you started dating him? why haven’t you said anything?

so when he’s over at your house for a studying session, the both of you sitting on your bedroom floor, you don’t notice that langa is purposely withholding from kissing you because you’re in study mode.

the timer on your phone goes off, signaling for you both to take a break. sighing deeply, you rub the back of your cramping neck and look up from your laptop. you turn over to langa, who’s eyes are glossed over from reading, his hair a mess from frustratedly running his fingers through his locks—he looks like he’s just been shuttled from another dimension.

“i’ve...been rereading the same five sentences for the last thirty minutes” he murmurs, sounding equally as dazed as he looks.

this earns a giggle from you, as you shimmy over to wear he sits. with a sympathetic smile on your face, you smooth his hair down as you coo “poor baby”, before you start giggling again.

langa, whose brain is way too fried to respond, can only stare at you, blinking ever so slowly. you settle closer to him, cupping his cheeks and langa catches your gaze dropping to his lips.

suddenly, he gets a mental image of those god awful expression he saw on tiktok and he’s shaken from his studying induced stupor. Wide eyed, langa wriggles out you grasp feeling a little bad at your confused expression.

“is something the matter?” you ask, frowning slightly. “i’m sorry—”

langa places his hands over your cheeks before you can finish your apology. “close your eyes” he says, straight faced.

you blink. “huh?” you question.

“can you close your eyes...please?” he mumbles, a lot less confident than before. he pouts a little in an attempt to conceal the fact that he’s slightly blushing (you notice).

still confused, you shut your eyes. “okay, but hurry up. your hands are cold—” you stop yourself when he feel his breath fan your face. without thinking, you inhale on instinct. it was embarrassing to admit, but you loved the scent of langa’s breath. he was impeccable when it came to hygiene, so he always smelled nicely. but you loved langa’s scent—it was hard to explain. he always smelled like mint and well, himself. him. him. him. him.

you knew what was coming next, but you couldn’t help but jump when his lips met yours—soft and hesitant. inhaling much more deeply this time, you slightly part your lips and lean into the kiss. langa hums appreciatively and you bring your hands up to grasp onto his forearms.

before you can open your eyes, langa swiftly pulls away, leaving you slightly dazed. you open your eyes to see langa cautiously staring at you.

“why...what was that all about?” you ask, trying to keep your face from twisting into a smile. you give langa’s forearms a squeeze and he drops his hands from your face, resting them on your lap.

“nothing...” langa mumbles, looking everywhere but at you.

he was obviously not telling the truth, and you knew that. but you also knew that the inner workings of langa’s mind was an enigma and if you were being honest, this wasn’t even close to being the strangest thing he’s done.

so you let it go—that is until he’s getting ready to go home.

you’re standing in the doorway, watching langa tie his shoes before he stands up straight and adjusts the strap of his messenger bag over his chest.

you grin. “that was hot”

langa blinks. “what was?” he asks, bending over to pick up his skateboard.

“when you adjust your bag like that” you reply softly, sliding your fingers over the strap before you bring your hand over his chest.

langa’s confused expression melts into a fond smile. you think he looks prettiest like this, smiling so easily with a gentle shimmer in his eye, like moonlight reflecting off the ocean.

“okay, i’ll keep note of that” he replies quietly and you can’t help but giggle at the sharp contradiction between his formal choice of words and the affectionate tone of his voice.

langa continues to softly grin as you giggle.

but then, oh shit, you’re staring at his lip again. langa panics, not wanting to ruin the moment but he’ll be damned if you see that ugly ass expression on his face before he goes in for kiss. but you must’ve seen it before right? did you notice but chose not to say anything out to preserve his feelings? did he really look like a fish while kissing you? a fish?

“all that studying must’ve fried your brain, huh?” you smile at him through half-lidded eyes, drumming your fingers against his chest. langa realizes he’s been staring at you with a dead expression and bites his lip.

langa takes the hand you’ve placed in his chest and grips it. “goodnight, y/n” he whispers before hesitating. “c-close your eyes”

the smile on your face falters as you take in langa’s tensed appearance. you tilt your head to one side. “why?”

“so...”

“so...?”

“i can kiss you goodnight”

there’s a long pause. langa’s grip on your hand has increased tenfold as he stares at you expectantly and he almost looks—nervous?

you blink, still confused, before langa reluctantly continues on.

“just...until i figure out how to fix my face...” he mumbles, eyes flitting off to the side.

“okay, now I’m really lost”

“i—” langa starts before sighing, deciding it would be better to show you. with the hand that isn’t clasped against yours, langa whips his phone from his pocket and unlocks it.

bewildered, you watch your boyfriend closely as he navigates through his phone—for what? you have no clue. off handedly, you think to yourself about how cute his expression is, brows furrowed and his lips set in a tiny pout.

“this, this” he rushes, bringing up his phone up to your face. you watch the tiktok he’s pulled up for you, in which a girl imitates the different ways boys go in for kisses.

you purse your lips in an attempt to conceal your smile, your chest jumping with an aborted giggle.

“oh, that’s—” the sentence dies in your throat when you look up at langa to see his dejected expression. “oh, no no no, langa, no. sweetheart, no”

“we’ve been dating for months—” langa mutters as you cup his cheeks, standing on your tip toes so that you’re eye level with him.

“no, oh my god, langa!” you half-whine, giggling as you try to get langa to look at you. he directs his gaze toward the ground, cheeks warm in against your palms.

“—and you didn’t tell me that I was making fish eyes at you?”

“well, not fish eyes” you offer thoughtfully and langa peers up at your earnestly. you drop one hand from his cheek to grab his forearm, raising his hand so you can examine his phone again. you rewatch the tiktok again. “your eyes don’t get scary wide and you don’t let your mouth hang open like that”

the sigh of relief langa let’s out almost sends you into a laughing fit.

“but...”

langa winces, giving a slight whimper behind shut lips.

“i mean, you do cross your eyes a little—”

langa shuts his eyes, face grim, like you just told him his puppy passed away.

“but it’s really cute, insanely hot, very model-esque!” you rush, but langa hangs his head. you fight the urge to roll your eyes at his theatrics.“there has never been a time in which you’ve looked even remotely mediocre, let alone unattractive.”

langa glances up you.

“but it’s embarrassing...” he murmurs.

“but your hot...”

“i can still be embarrassed!”

“so you agree?”

“agree?”

“that you’re hot?”

langa’s face flushes as you smile up at him innocently. “i...never said that” he mumbles, turning his face from you.

“well if it truly bothers you, we can practice” you offer, gently pinching his cheek.

“right now?” he asks incredulously.

“only if you’d like” you shrug, placing your hands on top of langa’s biceps. his heart beat quickens when you grin up at him coquettishly. “i think you kiss fine, but i can make you into a bona fide kisser if you want.”

“how long would that take?” langa questions. in his head, he imagines that it would take days—weeks, even, to scrap off the awkward expressions from his face.

“hmm,” you hum with faux thoughtfulness, tapping your finger against your cheek. “when is reki coming to take you to S tonight?”

“11:45?”

“i’ll have you done by 11:30”

langa blinks at you, cheeks slightly rosy. then, his face falls into that easy smile, the smile that you love so much.

notes: dramatic langa is very pleasing to me. this was supposed to be like, two paragraphs long but then it turned into all of this. please excuse me for any errors, i’ve been studying for midterms all day and I wrote this during my 5 minute breaks lfkgkdk@&:$:

i’ll come back to edit this!

#sk8 the infinty #sk8 the infinity x reader #langa x reader #langa hasegawa x reader #langa x you #langa x y/n

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