#all very vague but just in case

[crithits]

also mods are asleep post the rough rundown of backstory hcs (tw for drug/alcohol addiction, familial death)

- eddie’s mother was a teen mom. she left when he was very young because of problems with his father. he has no idea where she is or what she’s up to & has no desire to.

- eddie’s father did a lousy job taking care of him throughout eddie’s entire childhood. he was also young when eddie was born and struggled with drug & alcohol addiction the entire time eddie was in his care

- eventually eddie was removed from his custody at 13 and placed in the care of his father’s brother, his uncle. his father passed away when eddie was 16.

- eddie’s uncle cares a lot for eddie and has always supported & encouraged him more than anyone else in eddie’s life. he doesn’t quite understand eddie’s interests and is a very emotionally distant person but he loves eddie and eddie loves him

#to be deleted #this is a night blogger exclusive #i’ll make a more detailed meta later on #i just wanted to get my thoughts out there #alcohol tw #drugs tw #familial death tw #death tw #all very vague but just in case

[lbhslefttiddie]

then and now

#svsss #arts #backlog #shen yuan #shen jiu #luo binghe #you may be thinking: hey is that yqy over there? yes #why does he look like a salaryman?? because yqy is a sims 2 character trapped in the vessel of a student council president. next question #hey levanna what the fuck is going on here?? you know what. not even im 100% on that one chief #i had some vague notions about a murder mystery featuring a lbh who could see ghosts #and the ghost of a boy who has been stuck in his old friends' haunt (lol) for oh i dont know. thirty years #but see the thing is that sy doesnt know why he's here either! #he doesnt even remember dying but. well. he was always a sickly kid. he cant say hes surprised he suddenly kicked it #honestly it was such a mundane occurrence for him it must have been too boring to recall #but lbh spends time with yuan gege and pretty quickly comes to the realization that this is NOT the case #he finds like an old new article and in reality sy was found murdered in this place 30 years ago #and its much for likely that the trauma of the event is why he cant remember his death at all #oh and there was gonna be some drama where lbh suspects sy's now much older twin #who is now a teacher at their old school and a very different person from what sy remembers #but it wasnt sj he's just fucking traumatized by his brother being murdered in what theyd considered their safe place #he hates this school and he hates qi ge who never Really talks to him but is still fucking HERE (also teacher) #but he cant leave either bc he cant let go #and part fo him is still hoping to find answers for what happened back then #anyways i think this premise is all very good and sexy #but levanna's brain frankly was not built for writing murder mysteries #free to a good home if any of you fuckers want it #death #murder

[therapized-eddie]

But I feel like feelings like yours about bucktommy (just not being into it) aren’t the same as what the people you’re talking about mean when they say people are being puritanical about sex. Because there’s a significant amount of buddie fans right now that act like Buck is practically debasing himself by not saving himself for Eddie. That’s what people are talking about, not people who just aren’t invested in the ship.

i mean i get you anon but unlike you in your ask acknowledging some people may just not be into it, in my experience on 911blr i see very little acknowledgement from most bucktommy shippers that there could be reasons not to vibe with the pairing that have nothing to do with wanting buddie. or with queerphobia or fetishizing or puritanism. those words get thrown around too much and eventually i snap.

#like i know this is going to sound dramatic #but you have no idea what it's been like to not care about bucktommy the past few weeks on here #constant posts delineating all the ways people are stupid and wrong for not shipping them #vague posts made against me and mutuals of mine calling us bi or queerphobic for things we've said #posts i think that were mostly deleted now so i guess we're all just acting like it never happened #it's been really frustrating #as someone who's been active in this fandom for over 2 years #to have so many people make me feel like shit #well it hasn't been fun #i'm sorry to unload in the tags here #anon this is not directed at you #you have been very nice and i love you #jess replies #anon #anti bucktommy #<-tagging that just in case #911 discourse

[tomwambsgans]

reading fight club and thinking about the motivation to do all that shit being a deep, deep insecurity with masculinity and particularly one's desires to be touched by another man (and when he punches you, you get to feel something really intense, and it's acceptable to feel intense being touched by another man then)... and how my own relationship with masculinity and desire for other men has NEVER included a desire for mutual violence, like i've been a physical bully but never open to actual fights because that means getting hit back, and pain is just too different from pleasure for me. i've always hated physical pain to the point that i go out of my way to avoid even risking it, i find it innately traumatic and fear anything discomforting being done to my body, and this fact in and of itself has actually always been a sort of insecurity of mine wrt masculinity.

and of course (why else would i be posting this here) i'm thinking of tom's (pansy) attempts at expression of masculinity through violence, and thinly-veiled expression of homosexual desire through inciting a (wimpy) mutual fight, and how in spite of his deep DEEP insecurity he is, like me, so clearly NOT remotely capable nor even inclined to a fight club situation. and it's no question that this is because gender overlaps very much with class. it's tom's middle class origins and high upper class aspirations that interact so much with his security in his gender (ironically to be willing to fight is actually more vulnerable than he's capable of, like he hates vulnerability so much it loops back around to becoming effeminate, but like in the way that wealth and advancement of society changes certain rules of effeminacy) and his innate sexuality. fight club portrays a world of not just toxic masculinity but blue-collar toxic masculinity, where men at the bottom of society's barrel are brainwashed in a way to not believe that they deserve anything, and where that brand of masculinity is envied by the lower middle class who feel like cogs in a machine that doesn't reward them. they figure it's all worth throwing away.

meanwhile, tom (and greg) (and i) have always believed that we deserved more than we had. above tom's insecurities ARE a total rejection of physical pain (enough to even convince oneself that discomfort isn't there!) and a drive for pleasure and decadence, and this is why his relationship with violence is what it is.

#tom wambsgans #succession #meta #mine #this is also my thesis on why tomgreg fight club makes no sense #unless you're just using fight club as like a vague thematic framework/inspiration #and utilizing the fact that the world of succession represents the system tyler is trying to dismantle #like where fight club says keep the spirit clean by putting all the harm in your body instead #everyone in succession is the opposite #they GLADLY soil their spirits in exchange for pristine comfortable bodies #of course it's still hypocritical in the former and devolves into fascism and maybe something like that #could be utilized in a succession related narrative #in any case it would take a very smart person to make it work lol

[skibasyndrome]

So one thing I've always loved about uni/studying/learning new things is when you have different subjects or different tiny dots of knowledge and slowly, as you learn more and more, those tiny splashes of knowledge are becoming less isolated, and you realize that it's all connected and - at least with my subjects being in the humanities - you sort of “unlock” this new perspective on a certain aspect of the human condition. And like, that's fun enough and - if I'm being honest - probably my favorite thing about studying already as it is, BUT NOW, now that I've finally gotten back into writing as a hobby this is just ANOTHER dimension for me to expand that knowledge into and to use that knowledge for. And I am absolutely living for it. So happy to be back on my bullshit and so happy to be at a place in my life where these two passions of mine fit so seamlessly together and one passion benefits from the other and vice versa

#god I love that I get to do this #to be less vague: I am taking this course (and a lecture as well) on the aesthetic and philosophy of night darkness dream and imagination #and like that is already SO up my alley you don't even know #but besides getting to learn about the influence of those themes on literature of the 19th century now I also get to practice it you know? #I mean I've always had this fascination for and this... predilection to write about vampires or ghosts or “dark” themes like that #and I just continue to do that now but like???? ugh idk I feel so? /seen/ when I learn about the way people used to do that and still do an #that it's something so... essentially human to be interested in? #which of course technically I knew bcs we have all this media abt these themes. but something about learning /why/ we enjoy these themes an #/why/ there is somehing so very cathartic about engaging with them? something so freeing and so subversive about doing it? #like I love learning things that make me understand myself and my motivations more deeply. also on a creative level #and idk... this is all probably a very jumbled mess but I wanted to share my joy with you in case anyone read up to this point <3 #simon.out. #yes this is about the potential wilmon vampire fic I am plotting out rn and yes I am going to be absolutely unbearable about it #vampire wilmon

[valeriefauxnom]

Hey big fan. How tall do you think the androids in DL are?

Not gonna lie, it's always a bit shocking to hear one has made anything to earn a 'big fan', but thank you very much nonetheless!

As for your actual question, though, I think they're roughly about human height, judging by art? Of course I've gone over how art sometimes varied wildly in height, but as mentioned in that post if you have seen that, Dragalia did seem to try and keep a 'comparison heights' straight, at least. They might not have kept straight if Euden was 4'11 or 5'9 but he was shorter than Ranzal and Luca, etc.

And what we see in the wyrmprints, they seem consistently human in size:

(Well, these are both with sylvans, but sylvans are human in height as well, ears notwithstanding, so the point stands).

As funny as it might have been if every android was big or really tiny, I think it probably makes sense that, being created and wished for them to be 'humans' by Maestro, they resemble humanity as much as possible.

Now, just because Laxi, Mascula, and the androids from their era are human sized, others might not be.

They're a recreation of the older models in another case of Dragalia's humans trying to resurrect older tech, the same tech that made the dragons Very Displeased 1k years ago.

Now, Eireene and Finni, who unfortunately have among my personal least favorite designs in Dragalia, don't really give any indication either of being a wildly different size than Laxi or Mascula. Like this art here, where they are about the same size as Laxi and in a similar 'dwarfed by Ranzal' category most everyone falls into to varying degrees.

That doesn't mean there aren't standouts.

Anassa, for example, seems to carry a much bigger presence in her art. Being something of a commander and command center for the 1k year old model androids, it stands to reason she might have more weapons built in, more data processors, or other things in greater quantity. While we don't have a model or comparative art to truly say for certain that she is bigger, she certainly looks it.

(Does she even have legs??? Is she a roomba that would be foiled by anything over a 15° incline or a sudden height change, ex, stairs??? I mean yeah, doesn't she fly and drop down the one time, but even then, there's any number of environments that might make it awkward or impossible to use it to navigate a hazard.)

Ahem. Anyways, the point is that the general androids, be it Maestro's recreations or their elder Nier:Dragalia -er, Ex Machina, a part of the Humanoid Liberation Agency/the ones living in the sky, seem to be human sized. But there might be a few special model ones out there like Anassa who serve a unique and important purpose to justify the time, energy, and resources designing and creating them to fulfill their goal.

Now, admittedly, androids in Dragalia would be a weak point in my general knowledge since they never really quite struck a chord with me enough to inspire a fixation on them, but yeah, as far as I can tell, they're human-sized with perhaps some rare exceptions. The most I can say that might not be wholly normal is their apparent tendency towards a sort of gaunt build, which, to be fair, it's not exactly as if they can build muscle to change that.

Hopefully that answered your question satisfactorily!

#dragalia lost #dragalia #inbox responses #thanks for the ask! #While I uh 'majored' in the royal family I'm more than happy to try and sift through other lore! #So yeah I'm always down to talk Dragalia or Scaling or other video games like Tales of the Abyss! #...I suddenly realized that Dragalia and Abyss share another thing in common: endings that are very much in dispute for what happened. #It's probably one of the top two fastest ways to start an argument among players for Abyss #And while the Dragalia fandom isn't quite so occasionally hostile about differing interpretations it's a funny coincidence. #Anyways. Dragalia. One thing I have a bit of qualm with is how quick the new androids are accepted. #Like Finni 'the emotional one' of the pair you'd expect to be the bleeding heart will casually talk about rampant murder of innocents. #These are androids that have been told over and over that all non-Ark humans are not worthy of life and need to all be killed. #That's not something that completely disappears overnight. Yeah enemy of my enemy and all that but... #When EUDEN is the one expressing the most vague caution to saying 'welcome aboard' you know something's not quite right. #And that in this case is 'is bringing a pair of androids known to have been involved in committing genocide and one of whom has a tendency #...to go berserk into our castle a good idea?' #But yeah this is a rant in tags but. I just don't quite like how they handled that detail regarding the Ex Machina androids.

[iinryer]

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#said it in the tags of the marjan tk carlos doodle I posted but. feeling very unsure about how i will be engaging w ls moving forward #still very much support most of the cast and I do enjoy this silly show #but it’s difficult coming to terms w the fact that their golden boy is a nationalist and zionist #just so unbelievably disappointing and depressing to see #so unless some personal views make some drastic corrections sometime soon im going to be engaging differently than before #i don’t know what that looks like yet. bc i know there are people who still deserve the love #but it’s frustrating to see. i wish it wasn’t the case but if he wants to make this bed he can lay in it and deal w the concequences #i also apologize for wording this kind of vaguely I just don’t know how to be eloquent about it #but for clarity: im genuinely nauseated by the shit ronen has been posting #and I fucking hope he finds his sense but shit dude. #this isn’t about boohoo an actor I liked has bad views #it’s about having a moral fucking backbone and a shred of dignity and critical thought before spreading genocidal propaganda #to your massive audience #so #anyways #i felt like it was important to at least address my position bc silence is not an option with shit like this #and also it’s been making me feel physically unwell since I first saw it and i think I needed to get it off my chest lol #viva palestine. now and forever. no caveats. no ifs ands or buts #iinryer talk #also sorry for making this an all tags post but this isn’t up for discussion. so.

[cuteniaarts]

Behold, my latest and most enamouring new obsession:

Malina, Lady of the Chief of the Northern Water Tribe. As if Red Lotus child OCs weren’t niche enough

#my art #artists on tumblr #the legend of korra #lok malina #still feel like that’s too vague of a tag but I can’t come up with anything better for now #and yeah. she has completely stolen by heart and I don’t know how to feel about that #don’t think I ever was this attracted to my own art before #to be fair the design isn’t mine. it’s very heavily based on something nina drew back in 2021 #because I did not have the energy or creativity to come up with my own thing #but the art is all mine and I genuinely adore it. super proud of myself which is a rare occurrence #anyways. kat and I spent three days digging this niche lower and lower and now have a he #*hell of a lot of lore about this basically nonexistent character #for lore about a lady from the North Pole a lot of it is rather hot… to the point my cheeks are burning non stop #I would say I’d let her do anything she wants to me but in my very specific aroace-adjacent case it’s more like #I’d let her tell me to do anything she wants to her #if that makes any sense and I have not completely lost my goddamn mind yet #okay. enough yapping. back to the art itself #lazy background because I suck at those and am not currently attempting to learn them. I’ll probably do that over the summer #about time anyway. my characters have been placed against an off-white background for far. far too long #this is the first piece in just over a year that isn’t tagged with sotrl. which is kinda weird tbh #I’ve been drawing my OCs almost exclusively for nearly 5 years so it is genuinely surprise I’m branching out #*surprising #less branching out and more diving from one hole into another but y’know #anyway. in my personal and very correct opinion she turned out absolutely gorgeous #her servants are way too lucky and unalaq is way too much of an idiot. no offence to vaatu but he could never beat out this #and I also have Kat’s personal and very correct opinion to back up my own. two against the void. once again we’re winning #I wanna draw her a lot more bc she has completely possessed my brain. I just wish character interactions were easier to draw 😭 #I’ll figure it out. just need to fight my visualisation issues for a proper idea. brb #okay I’m almost at the tag limit so. in summary: #she 🩵🩵🩵🩵🩵

[futureghost97]

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#vaguely weight-related ramblings below #just talked to my best friend candidly about how I’m doing mentally/emotionally for the first time since surgery #and uhhhhh it was very healing! insane to verbalize some of this stuff outside my head for the first time #and to reveal that I’m really close to a goalpost I hadn’t mentioned to anyone before now #wooooo #also very helpful to talk to a girlie who has experienced the Social Realities of weight fluctuations and accompanying mourning periods #I told a friend whose weight does Not Fluctuate Very Much and has never been fat that people have been nicer to me #and suddenly certain folks are flirting with me that haven’t before #and she was like. maybe it’s just because you smile more now bc you’re happier #but girlie I am out here with a stink face at all times! that is not the case! #so yes it was very healing to hear my best friend without prompting say ‘yeah they’re all coming out of the woodwork suddenly huh?’ #bleh I must sleep but am not sleeby #stardew time #my stuff

[scribefindegil]

not tagged this time except by dint of “and anyone else who wants to” but I’m so excited about my newfound ability to Make Words that I’m posting another wip snippet! this is from the multi-chapter post-finale Mob fic i’m working on:

As they left the restaurant, Reigen dropped a hand on Teruki’s shoulder.

“You know, this got me thinking,” he said. “Your parents are working overseas, right?”

“Yes,” said Teruki, with the sort of practiced ease that Reigen exuded at the office every day. “But I’m perfectly happy with the independence it’s provided me!”

“Yeah, yeah, of course. But I imagine not everyone sees it that way, yeah?”

Teruki’s mouth was a thin line. “Mm.”

Reigen produced a business card from his pocket with a flourish. The effect was somewhat spoiled when his foot caught on the sidewalk and he had to windmill his arms to stay upright, but the card floated over to Teruki’s hand with a flash of yellow and a whiff of ozone.

“All I’m saying is,” Reigen told him when he’d recovered his balance, “I’m an adult who actually lives in Seasoning City, if your school ever needs you to produce one. Standing offer. Think of it as a thank you for helping out around the office.”

#yes everyone and their mom has written about this but #a) this was the 'the last line you wrote' for the writing meme there is a lot more to it than that #and b) 'holy shit two cakes' is real and we should all embrace it #anyway the fic is going to be called 'In Case Of Emergency' and it is very silly #this excerpt does not make it look silly but i have Schemes #Schemes for some very ridiculous ensemble stuff #if you have ever looked at a Mob fic with a big psychic emergency and gone #'but what if Musashi was also there?' #then have i got some Schemes for you #anyway #i super hope i can keep up my momentum and hash out the first chapter (which is a vaguely standalone prologue) soon #but if not i will just keep picking away at it! #putting these characters in Situations #scribe writes #mp100

[sonknuxadow]

it feels like almost every post i see about dr starline is either woobifying him and pretending he did nothing wrong or saying hes a bad character and their only reasoning for that is that he did bad things. even though hes a villain and hes supposed to do bad things thats the whole point? i dont get it . where am i

#i'd be more understanding of the second argument if like. starlines actions were portrayed in a positive light #and the writers wanted us to believe hes a good person. but thats not the case at all hes very obviously supposed to be evil #the comic doesnt defend him his actions are obviously wrong and we are shown the negative impact hes had on the people hes hurt #so i dont really get. how his actions make him a bad character? hes just a bad Person. which is a completely separate thing #im not even a starline fan either those takes just kinda confuse me #and im NOT saying you cant dislike him because of his actions. or be uncomfortable with fans of him who call him a girlboss and stuff #i can See why the way he treats surge and kit would be very upsetting for some people and i agree that its horrible he did that to them #just again. that i dont really understand the take that hes a bad character because he does bad things. hes supposed to be bad #i never really see people talk about other sonic villains who are just as bad if not worse like this either? just starline. idk #not vagueing anyone in particular btw this is just a response to many many posts ive seen #and i dont agree with the people in the first category either to be clear i just didnt have as much to say about that

[piplupod]

it makes me laugh a little bc i was so scared of showing my crocheted isopod to the group bc these women are all in their 60s-80s and they've been knitting for most of their lives so they're all way more advanced than I am, and my isopod turned out swell but it is a tad wonky, the shell plates are not perfectly lined up etc etc

so i was scared they were going to react to it like "ohh isn't that neat :)" sort of patronizing when u can tell they think smth is darling in the same way a child's drawing is darling fsdjkl, but NO !!

THEY WERE ALL SO IMPRESSED. like genuinely in awe and delighted by this little critter HFDSFJKL ?? i think it's because they don't make plushie type of things basically ever, they just make clothing type items (i wish i could show yall some of the sweaters these women have made, some of them are absolutely STUNNING), so the isopod was just so much different from what they're used to seeing maybe? and that's why they thought it was so cool?

I DUNNO they just made me bring it out again every time a new person came into the room to join us the day i brought it JFDSJKL and then they'd all pass it around again and fawn over it and i was just so confused and ridiculously pleased bc i'd been so afraid to show it before 😭

#THEYRE SO INCREDIBLY NICE HONESTLY #i love this group sm dsgjkl im so so so glad i have joined #they've all been so welcoming and they are like. genuinely happy when i arrive :') #and they engage me in conversations and ask me questions abt my projects AUGH theyre so kind #makes me get emotional if i think abt it too much tbh sdjkfjkl idk if i've ever felt so much like an actual human being before fdsjkl #the only downside is i cannot talk abt it w mother bc she had an old lady group a few yrs ago that was cliquey and not welcoming to her #so she gets really angry at me if things go well for me when they didnt go well for her fdsjkl #which wouldnt be an issue in this case except for the fact that she ASKS me about the group every now and then fdsjkl #i just have to be very vague without being suspicious and go ''it was okay yeah so'n'so is making this cool sweater/scarf/hat/etc'' #and leave it at that fdsjkl #pippen needs 2nd breakfast

[werewolfetone]

Lying on my bed giggling kicking my legs thinking abt the changes I just made to my oc lore

#wall of the text in these tags im warning u. #read smth interesting which vaguely inspired me + changing the way i write the entire craig family but esp. frederick... feel as though the #way his situation was depicted before was inappropriately like... light? wrt the fact that fundamentally his arc is about a child falling #in with a hate group and then developing psychic powers out of guilt. it does not make sense in context btw. but in any case i don't like #the way i was handling it before so im changing the way it's written!!! thinking i can do it more realistically now!!! #+ also im making major changes to the family's make up. before it was sarah + frederick & annie + f&a's Evil Uncle + their father who left #to find work + their dead bio mother + sarah's dead husband + sarah's kids. is now s + f&a + Evil Uncle + father who just ran off with his #gf w/o warning them forcing them to move + s' dead BOYFRIEND who she was never married to + dead mum is the same + s' sole kid with her bf #+ the kid who she had with the Evil Uncle. this will further fuck them up which is good as this is necessary for the story to work At All #there is a very good chance many of the other families will also get an update soon including the breen family + wilbur's family... which i #have not even thought about beyond the fact that he has one... #anyway i dont know why im talking about this in the tags. keep my oc insanity contained on the sideblog i specifically made to contain it #challenge -- impossible! #ocs #jory.txt

[reginrokkr]

𝐂𝐗𝐈𝐈𝐋.One of the recent headcanons I wrote made me think about a small piece of text found on the Scribe's Box that talks about people building a nation without gods and whose words might predate as far in the past as when a sapphire nail dropped in Sal Vindagnyr:

◜I've heard of people who are building a new nation without gods. Perhaps they'll have the power to stand against this world.◞

This makes me think two things:

1) That those who later on would be known as part of the Khaenri'ahn race were already against the gods during the Era of the Saints, predating the Apocalypse and that perhaps there is a slim chance that they have a connection to the dragons of back in the day —not necessarily by blood although it's not entirely impossible either, as Enkanomiya talked about Vishap-people and there is actually a NPC in the event of Three Realms Gathering, so if there was any dragon "open enough" to procreate with humans, there is a chance of this being a thing too— in terms of similar mindset in regards of the gods and the world even if, ironically, humans are Phanes' creation in Teyvat.

2) The second part that addresses a power to stand against this world is soundly in tune with Nibelung's pursuit of a power that could contest Phanes, only to tragically backfire on him, his kin and the whole world— which gives more weight to the belief that at least in a similar mindset kind of manner, these people could've shared the sovereigns' mindset. Furthermore, there is Khaenri'ahn machinery inspired by dragons, which is highly telling that they know of their existence, rare as it is in this world.

#◟༺✦༻◞ Events to be remembered in blue veins ┊Addendum.┊ #I won't get into the vague resemblance of Neuvillette's pupils #coupled with a transversal coloring outside his pupils I presume #with the pure-blooded Khaenri'ahns #as that could very well be just a stylistic choice #without further depth about it #but for some reason it feels like this is gaining traction #there is also the theorized ring of Nibelung #that is the ring Dain had when Zurvan found him #which again it's all speculation #but it is a funny coincidence nonetheless #for now I'm just sticking with what's more probable #although it's also a good exercise to keep these in mind just in case

[britneyshakespeare]

It seems hard to me when I look at her sometimes, and think how many without one tithe of her genius or greatness of spirit have granted them abundant health and opportunity to labour through the little they can do or will do, while perhaps her soul is never to bloom nor her bright hair to fade, but after hardly escaping from degradation and corruption, all she might have been must sink out again unprofitably in that dark house where she was born. How truly she may say, 'No man may care for my soul.' I do not mean to make myself an exception, for how long I have known her, and not thought of this till so late—perhaps too late. But it is no use writing more about this subject; and I fear, too, my writing at all about it must prevent your easily believing it to be, as it is, by far the nearest thing to my own heart.

Dante Gabriel Rossetti writing of Lizzie Siddal's health in a letter dated 23 July, 1854

#european date orientation even tho it feels unnatural to my american brain #quotes #pre raphaelite #dante gabriel rossetti #rossetti #lizzie siddal #elizabeth siddal #elizabeth eleanor siddall #he really did admire her. not just the vague and vain concept of 'love' but he truly respected and appreciated her. #as much as a young victorian man could anyway...... #this book by jan marsh is so insightful. it's truly flipping a lot of my expectations and previous assumptions #i didn't realize how deeply he cared for her in all the years they were just courting. ppl made it sound like he encouraged her only a bit #in her artistic pursuits but he gave her all the credit and praise for everything. #lizzie could make one stroke on a canvas and he'd start crying #i think ppl confuse his later lurid affairs as a widower w him being a playboy in his 20s. which doesn't appear to be the case. #i remember reading somewhere years ago that there was no evidence he committed adultery in their (albeit short) marriage but ppl assume #based on what they know about him. but he and lizzie were still very young when she died and he was much more bright-eyed and bushytailed #it seems in her very early adulthood. #didn't yeats also lose his virginity when he was like 40??? and he of course got around w a lot of women once he did. #ppl always make assumptions of what historical figures must've been like based on their modern assumptions of how ppl behave #jan marsh is smashing my entire schema of dgr as a young man and im kinda here for it #the girlies are gagging for guggums

[thesquireinvictus]

My landlady wants me to find a hidey key and go let myself into next-door so I can let their dog out (they're away) but 1) the dog doesn't like me, 2) I've never met the people next-door and they don't know me from Adam, 3) my landlady didn't tell next-door about this or ask their permission to do this, 4) Am I the only person who finds this insane??

#like I'm not going into a complete stranger's house on your say-so #they don't know me I don't know them it would be disreputable and dishonest #I'm also blind so I will more than likely stumble around outside their house looking for this key and the other houses could see #and get suspicious #like I just don't need this in my life #Also what's (very) frustrating about this is that my landlady asked me to do this one time before and I was like 'I'm not comfortable doing #that but you can introduce me to the dog in case I need to do it in a real emergency' #and that was it that was all I agreed to was to say hi to the dog (who it turned out did not like me!!!!) so that I would have some vague #idea of what to do for the dog in the event of an emergency that prevented my landlady from performing the duty #I'm gonna FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF