#agony i want to write

[dabislittlemouse]

♡¸.•*' thinking of dabi slowly realising what he feels about his angel is beyond possession or any dark twisted desire that he used to think of, it is a deep intense feeling that he’s never experienced before, something that frightens him to the core and makes his chest burn, and this time not from his quirk, he’s used to those kind of burns, he wishes it were those kind of burns, he can at least control them somehow, he can endure the physical burns.. but when the heart burns, that’s when he loses control, the only fire he is suddenly afraid of, and you are the fuel to it…

#late night thoughts #and he hates you for it #but that only makes him want you more #cant write dark content these days you guys i need fluff #i need ROMANCE #GIVE ME INTENSE FEELINGS AND AGONY #tainted angel core #dabi #touya todoroki #mha dabi #my hero academia #boku no hero academia #mha #dabi x reader #dabi x you #dabi x y/n #bnha x reader #mha x reader

[luck-of-the-drawings]

my TWO FAVORITE THINGS IN THE WORLD, VAMPIRES N COWBOYS... deacon keller is SUCH a fun character, hes charming and funny but ALSO formidable and STRONG when he feels he needsta be. i hope him and arthur can get a chance to talk more and be better friends. l ike really good friend s. . like. like really good f. hangon i gotta go i think i hauve rabies.

#jrwi fanart #jrwi show #jrwi suckening #jrwi suckening spoilers #deacon keller #arthur bennett #OOUGUGHHAAOGUguguhh i feel so cringe whenever i ship two characters. like theyre not even REAL #why cant i be more 'hyperfixated' on getting bitched or something. CHRIST. anwyay i want em to hold hands or smth. yknow. freak stuff. #SO DEACON KELLER!! HE OVERHEARD ARTHUR TALKIN ABT THIS PLACE GETTING ATTACKED.. WE SAW HIM APPROACHING #AND THEN THE WHOLE FEAST PORTION OF THE PARTY HAPPENED N HE GOT STUCK #BUT HE KNEEEWW HE OVERHEARD ARTHUR SOMEHOW!! i just think thats neat. hes dedicated to protecting his people. hes respectable!! #GOD he doesnt even have that much screen time but i LOVE HIMMM n his silly lil shadow steed named Sunshine.. like cmon.... ugh..... #hes sweet n hes funny and he CAARES about the things hes in charge of on some levels. he certainly does his best to look after his own. #god idk what else to write here other than how much hes been on my MMMIND lately. the doctors are still running diagnostiscs #i just think hes so neat... also i think its funny that hes afraid o snakes. OH YKNOW lemme just talk abt my damn art. first o all this too #SSSOOO LONG. WEEKS EVEN.IVE BEEN WORKIN ON IT SINCE EP 5 WAS ON PATREON.it was sposed to be justa buncha doodles but then it Evolved #idk man...cowboys are just so cool...especially w VAMP POWERS..fastest shot in the west for a REASON BABY...n with the red smoke #n the glowing eyes..CMOn thats so cool i hadta get my visions into reality. the eyes were inspired by the music video for RATTLESNAKE (kglw #that where the IM THE SERPENT lines come from.lyrics from tha song.ooh yeah i love kglw so much...i also have other hidden messages here #i like to hide things...ALSO ALSO. I HAD SO MUCH TROUBLE W SO MUCH O THIS. the two bits with arthur n deacon biting eachother. AGONY #POSES ARE SO HHARRDDD SAME WITH THAT doodle o arthur slammin deacons head into the ground. WEEKS to get that pose RIGHT. I BLED SO MUCH #OHH AND GUNS???COWBOYHATS?? HIS GAY LIL JACKET? W THE DANGLIES?? AGOONYYY IT TOOK SO LONG TO PERFECT IT..especialy guns. OUUUHH #i also dont draw mustaches enough... which sucks bc im weak for a good mustache... BUT i think im doing pretty well on that. #it was hard but yknow what!! i think i did good! i rly like how this all turned out!! EXCEPT FOR THA FUCKIN RIBBON BOW THING I FORGOT TODRA #IN THE TOP RIGHT... THAT I JSUT NOTICED...its fine its fine i dont care that much. this is good enough to FEAST upon so im content n happy. #anyway i gotta leave ina few hours to start TRAINING for my NEW JOB!! CHEER FOR ME!! TRUCK IS A BLACKJACK DEALER NOW!! IEAAAHHH BABYYYY!!!! #thanku for reading my weird lil scrolls i bury beneath my posts. if u leave tags i WILL absorb them. and feel joy.

[sabotourist]

i feel so much about delta you guys

red vs blue really looked at me and said here is our logic fragment. this is the logic man. he feels logic. he has a strong survival drive. but also he loved york enough to be willing to die with him.

sigma wanted so fucking bad to be human, to be whole, to chase what they came from and what they were. that he totally missed the fact that delta fucking made it. Delta was more than the Logic Fragment. He had his own bonds, his own wants, his own drive because of his relationship with York.

And in his attempt to become whole again, Sigma... completely undermined that. Made delta into the Logic Fragment again. just another fragment, not a person of his own.

do you ever think about how if sigma had slowed down and really tried to work with maine, that maybe things could have gone so so differently?

i think about that.

#i could keep going #i feel so much about delta and sigma #sigma is ambition #he wants to be whole but then was used to break apart the alpha #no fucking wonder hes like he is #meanwhile delta is so fucking #genuinely caring towards york #hes more than logic!!!! #mind over matter makes him justice as well #but even putting that masterwork aside #hes a fucking person!!! #and he died and im so sad about that #because he didnt have to die #pretty much every major death in this show was avoidable and that kills me #this show is agony dude it writes death as the tragic yet unceremonious bitch that it often is and that kills me #doyle got to go out with a bang but fuck he deserved better too #anyway yeah i love these lil halo dudes #red vs blue #rvb #delta rvb #sigma rvb #york rvb

[ddarker-dreams]

#i’m genuinely in agony over this bc i will see this guy frequently and cannot make it awkward #i just wanted to write for chrollo and instead i’ve been thrust into the pits of hell

[shukakumoodboard]

greetings gaaleesbians i have returned victorious from my venture into the sacred lands of the Tokyo Metropolitan Area and other glorious places in japan with absolutely banger toilets and thusly i can resume my scheduled shitposting. here’s some nejiten garbage from the draft of the upcoming chapter of tgod

#this is so stupid god bles #no one asked i’m posting this from a plane how’s that for commit to the bit #i went to one(1) australian restroom and i want to go back #fought for my life not to buy a lee figurine and only just barely survived the Agonies over it #nejiten #neji hyuga #tenten #gaalee #look i know it’s not a gaalee section but it’s a gaalee fic fucka yuou #gaara #rock lee #writing gronp hours #fictalk #nart

[ministarfruit]

sure bro I'll give you a massage

#vtuber #holostars #holotempus #regis altare #magni dezmond #challenging myself with poses #writing the alt-text is funnier than drawing it #ah yes. what is this image #'altare stomping the shit out of magni while he screams in agony' #I want everyone to know I write alt-text with full stoicism #I'm sitting here like. full business face on. writing 'altare punches magni so hard he emits a horror movie scream' #don't worry guys he's helping

[alkalinefrog]

“I love you. Goodbye.”

@twiafom drew homunculus!Jack and it was so beautiful and the quote they chose was super poignant aslfkjsaldkf. It inspired me to TELL MORE OF THE STORY.

Quick background context, this is an FMA au and Hiccup lost half his heart trying to revive Jack bawwww :’’’D

#my art #hijack #jack frost #hiccup horrendous haddock lll #POKEDEX VOICE: THEY(ME) HURT THEMSELF IN THEIR (AGONY) #hey maybe hiccstrid happens after this and I can pretend to be normal for a hot sec laskdfjlasdfkj #HEY do you want LESS angst in your hijack FMA AU?? check out Twia's hijack week piece!! It's MUCH MORE UPLIFTING I LOVE IT #I'm planning a alchemist!Jack and mechanic!Hiccup drawing as we speak! #FLOWER/COFFEE SHOP AND PUNK/NERD ARE COMING I SWEAR #for those writing fics for this au you don't have to take this as the 'canon'! #your interpretations are just as good as mine and I'm so excited to see what you make!!! #feel free to take inspo if you want! #twia we spiraling #storyboards #rise of the guardians #how to train your dragon #hijack fma au

[cave-cryptid]

Alright so

In Tangled

An extremely serious and important topic and piece of media

That I NEED answers on

Since Gothel was retaining her youth and in turn her life through Rapunzel, but she had to repeatedly seek out "treatment" to do so, wouldn't that mean Eugene would have to repeatedly be healed by Rapunzel? Wouldn't the wound in his side gradually split apart over time and threaten to take his life once again unless Rapunzel intervened??

Does that mean he's left to endure never-ending agonizing pain that comes and goes as time goes on and as she heals him?

ANd wouldn't that mean if something ever happened to Rapunzel, if she died before he did, unless she somehow is immortal {I don't know} wouldn't that mean the healing effects would immediately reverse for Eugene and the stab wound that almost took his life would then succeed?

I suppose on a lighter note though, they'd get to die together

#aghaheggsgdhe #I just have THOUGHTS and QUESTIONS #I really hope that's true because the angst in that sort of turn of events and storytelling is phenomenal #why is that giving me writing inspiration #why do I love angst and agony so much #the world may never know #tangled #disney #disney princess #disney prinesses #rapunzel #flynn rider #eugene fitzherbert #so many tags because I want to discuss this #walt disney

[howdidthisevenhappenanyway]

*taps microphone* so i’d just like to talk about all the little kids in coruscant who would absolutely be out of their mind with love and awe for the corrie guard, and their fire engine red painted armour

these kids

these kids would wait at their windows to watch them drive past their window on a scheduled patrol. they’d be so thrilled to see them in the market. or when Fox is standing next to Palpatine in the press in his extra red paint

their parent will be like ‘want to talk to them?’ and the kids will get all shy.

they might even draw pictures of them to give to them

because no matter what the adults think, abiut flesh droids or military police being given more and more responsibility (that theybwould see as power) as the war went on, but little kids know what’s up. they know how cool garbage men are, and fire men (with the shiny red paint), and other civil servants that adults don’t think are awesome but kids know

and you know, you just know that Sergeant Hound, with his cute mastiff and awesome bucket paint would be the absolute pinnacle of coolness to an eight year old coruscanti child

#I forgot to take my pain meds today and then did things so I’n stuck in bed in agony but I thot I’d write out the cute headcanon #that I’ve been thinking about for a while #how the adults would listen to the propoganda that makes civil unrest more likely #because palps wanted turmoil at home to make the senators nervous so they gave him more power #he would absolutely use the guard like a sledgehammer #adults would also know why the corries have mastifs and riot gear and why there were shock troopers posted on a republic planet #and about the raids that keep happening to innocent people #and all of the money and drugs and material goods and wven food and water that were being confiscated for the most flimsy of reasons #and the people who were being arrested never to be seen again #but the kids #would think they were so cool and act like they were celebrities #ok good meeting #I’m writing a winged clone fic and so you can imagine how much this is turned up to eleven when the corries have WINGS and can FLY #some kids would obviously think cody or rex or any of the other clones that ended up in propoganda next to obi-wan and anakin etc were #the best but they would get into arguments with the kids who were all about the corries #some autistic kid thinking hound is the height of clone existsnce #some other autistic kid thinking the logistics offocers were awesome #I just like thinking about it #coruscant guard #corrie shenanigans #corrie guard #commander fox #commander thorn #commander thire #commander stone #sergeant hound #clone trooper hound #star wars ​headcanons #fluff

[athetos]

There’s actually a hidden meaning to Baru’s cryptarch title, Agonist, that’s not stated in the book. Yes, it’s explained she picked the name because it means “one who suffers”, and by god, she certainly suffers. But it’s also a term used in biochemistry, . It simply means a chemical that activates a receptor; for example, serotonin is an agonist for serotonin receptors. But there are two types of agonists - endogenous (ones that the body produces naturally), and exogenous (drugs). Keeping the serotonin example, the medication buspirone is a serotonin agonist, as it essentially tricks the receptors into thinking that it is serotonin.

And that’s just it! Baru is tricking the empire into thinking she’s faithful to them, that she’s a loyal agent. She’s doing the work they expect of her, and they are (hopefully) none the wiser. So when she betrays them, much like quitting a drug cold turkey, the empire is going to (again, hopefully) fall apart. I think this is an extremely clever hidden meaning, and since Seth Dickinson studied neuroscience, I think it’s safe to say they were aware of this definition when they gave the title to Baru.

#confession: this was the first definition of agonist I thought of when I heard the title #when she said ‘one who suffers’ I then realized it comes from agony #but I finally had the thoughts to write this out because it occurred to me most ppl wouldn’t know this #baru cormorant #the masquerade series #I REALLY want to ask Dickinson if this was an intentional thing #it has to be probably

[skrunksthatwunk]

why the fuck did i write about birds this fucking sucks. i just found out birds only sleep for a few minutes at a time, hundreds of times a day. do you know what this is going to do to my structure? the logistics of their road trip? this is already like three days late and i've been fighting for my life to get A Plot Like Any Plot That Makes Sense out and now the birds fucking sleep for 5 minutes at a time.

#i should've just bailed and written another story when i had the chance #i'm not joking i've never fought a fiction piece this hard before. usually because i'm not writing for specific deadlines #and not a piece so big. and not one that's gonna be workshopped. i wanna blow them away but if things keep going the way they are everyone' #gonna tell me the pacing sucks and it feels pointless and the characters feel really confused. I KNOW. I KNOW THAT. FUCKK #i'm the type to do about 15 passes before i let someone see my 'first draft' and i'm just not gonna be able to do that if i want to get it #in time for a workshop. every day i delay is making things harder for my classmates y'know?? but i've been writing like 1k words a day #and it's still not done. GUHH #I DON'T LIKE WRITING THESE CHARACTERS THAT MUCH THEY'RE NOT FUNNY OR ENDEARING AND THAT'S MY LIKE. #MAIN SKILL AND VIBE WITH SHORT STORY DUOS. BUT NOOOO I HAD TO MAKE THEM DIFFERENT CUZ I WAS SICK OF DOING #THE SAME DYNAMIC OVER AND OVER. BITCH THIS IS YOUR FINAL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! TRIED AND TRUE GETS THE BLUE (RIBBON)!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #head in my hands head in my hands head in my hands head in my hands head #going to work on it some more. fuckk #the voices aren't consistent and i'm trying to make it clear that this is toxic bird yuri and not a mother/daughter thing but the maternal #themes are kind of fucking with that but they're important and i don't wanna get rid of them but it feels forced cuz im forcing it #sigh. i'm gonna have to cut the yuri. these two don't work romantically at all. what a waste of time. #i watched the entirety of mnthly girls' nozaki-kun in the past two days while avoiding writing. did you know that? the lengths to which i'l #go? anyway it was fun i appreciate fellow creative agony and i uh never knew how they did screen tones and wasn't expecting that somehow #so i learned something new (hooray). anyway back to. fucking. bird story stuff #i'm so mad i hate these two (<- lying. just pissy) i hate this story (<- mostly exaggerating. throwing a tantrum) #eughhhhhh i just wanna lie on the floor and cryyyyyyyyyy (<- completely deadpan irl. not That upset just kind of sick of shit) #i'm so burnt out and it's only gonna get worse. ughh #why can't someone just come in and write it for meeeeeeeeeeheheuhhh (<- would hate that)

[sfsolstice]

god i get so miserable when i can't write

#solstice shares #i feel the need to write with such desperation all the time #and when i can't articulate something the way i want to #(aka last night and today) #god ! #it's agony !

[merakiui]

:)

#meraki mumbles #i listened to 100 gecs and was hit with The Vision #regardless of the poll results i want to write agony #if i can finish this fic in time for halloween it will be perfect for a halloween fic :D #i’m excited because i get to tell the story in four parts according to the four horsemen of the apocalypse in the book of revelation >:) #a rollo fic is not a rollo fic without religious imagery and symbolism

[aastarions]

me every day staring at my unfinished fic

#c shut up #it bothers me to no end!! how little i can focus on writing some days!!! #and its not even oh i need to write this so i can post it #i also want to write this for me!!!! but my brain will not let me!!!! #i am in agony!!!!!

[ongreenergrasses]

the people have spoken so as requested, i have archived all my tumblr prompts by fandom on AO3! links are below if you’d like to take a look, and if you prefer to read on tumblr, you can look under #prompts for everything

The Old Guard

The Hunger Games

Good Omens

#.txt #prompts #my writing #the agonies this caused are something that I will not go into bc it was like. actively painful once I got to the 40th prompt and I was like #MAN don’t I ever shut the fuck up??? what is this #the old guard #the hunger games #thg #good omens #anyway i’m going to reblog this about six hundred times bc if you want these things archived it is my duty to let u know that I did it #I also was a flippant ass for go and tog titles but I couldn’t think of anything for thg title so I took it seriously LMAOOO #it’s still a crap title though

[marc--chilton]

still losing my mind at the way houses relationship with john would have fucked up the way he sees being an omega. just,,, teen house, young and confused, experiencing these absoloutely brutal heats. not understanding why they are so bad and hard when theyre supposed to be a time where an omega feels good. already feeling broken and wrong, and then having to face john's anger and disappointment over him being an omega

like i can only imagine how it would affect him in heat, a time where he would be less able to think coherently. and constantly remembering how traumatic and horrible his heats as a teen were, the memory making him feel bad and in turn making him feel physically worse. just like,,, a constant feedback loop of remembering and feeling bad -> feeling physically worse in turn -> reminding himself even more of his childhood and feeling worse

i feel like after having to deal with his first few heats without a strong family net to acclimate to the changes, once house is outta there and doing his own thing he tries to never deal with his heats alone. he marks his cycle religiously, makes deals with alphas in med school to help him through them, or even finds street suppressants if he's especially desperate.

man. you just know john has put him outside for some of his heats, too. nothing to nest with, no scent blocking patches, just left him in the yard like a sacrificial lamb. it goes without saying how dangerous that is.

hell, once he's employed i wouldn't be surprised if he stole something from the hospital to bring home in case a heat comes up that he can't deal with, something that'll knock him out for the worst of it.

#asks #certified-moth #house md #writing a fic that is basically just heat whump for a lot of it as i type this #house's heats are bad always it's just how it is for him #but once he has the infarction it's even worse #his leg becomes another focal point for pain to localize to and the scar is so severe that when he's in heat #it runs scary hot. like where the muscle is missing sits just a molten core of pure agony #fainting spells and delirium become new side effects as a result #it is a pathetic miserable sight and he WANTS to be alone so no one can see him like that #but dealing with them alone is torture so he just doesn't win. it fucks with his issues of self #something else to resent about his body #he and wilson develop a fairly solid unofficial........ thing early on in their friendship #it would have taken wilson more convincing had he not witnessed the effects himself and got his caretaker heart twanging #even when he's married. which doesn't necessarily mean he's cheating but uh. it doesn't help in his case #all of it compounds into a very big mess that does not help the success rates of his marriages #goes to show how much more time wilson spends with house than his wives when he's more synced with house than them #now THAT is an offense. THAT'S what can get feelings hurt #it makes him feel bad but he tries to reassure himself by comparing their heats to house's. they don't understand how bad it is #<- probably the cause of several arguments #wilson trying to get bonnie or julie to understand why he Needs to do this and bristling when they Just Don't Get It #“house didn't break up our marriage but he sure didn't help” etc #mgv