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captainsweet · 1 year

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Oh, the polls are out. So I should probably uh, make my casing point to be voted for? (Idk how to word it)

You should totally Vote for Uncle Shredder, because um, uh, they've been on Hiatus for about a year now, (yikes), and if you vote for them they'll finally get off of Hiatus and continue their story.

And what's better than Uncle-Nibling bonding by committing various crimes?

I already have multiple things in the drafts that are begging to be completed, and if I do win this poll, I will release and finish the ones I decide are best for readers enjoyment.

I'm also trying out a new writing style so I can see how well that bodes and I may even churn out multiple pieces of works I was supposed to do.

One of them even includes Dinosaurs and honestly I'd love to release that one, and there's even some crossovers.

So vote for them, I promise it's completely worth it and you won't regret the decision at all, not even a tiny bit.

Vote for Uncle Shredder please and thank you ♥️♥️

(Desperate Tagg @non-rise-tmnt-au-competition)

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hella1975 · 2 months

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just rewatched the cameo dante basco did for taob a few years ago and im going a little crazy about it

#‘I know you’re a little stressed about what uni you’re gonna get into’ I AM ABOUT TO GRADUATE KING. CAN YOU BELIEVE #I actually don’t watch this cameo as much as I should it’s been months since I last saw it and it’s bc I genuinely tear up every time #‘your voice matters’ ‘keep writing. /keep writing/’ well bossman my head is in my fucking hands to be frank #and ofc REDEMPTION IS A HUMAN WORD. IN ZUKO’S VOICE LORDDDDDDD IM GOING CRAZY #taob #atla #everyone who organised that cameo know i am kissing you in a manner that would disgust and confuse the general public

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warblercore · 6 months

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social glee-dia

this post is for the people who dress like a muppet (me)

#idk if that hat exists but if you have reason to believe it does? send me the link PLEASE #my art #glee #glee fanart #i need burt hummel to have a glinstragram #he follows like four people and comments a thumbs up on every picture he sees #his profile picture is a picture of carole #finn #kurt #santana #blaine #i didn't spell souvenir wrong. tina did because this is a real screenshot of posts made by real people. obviously...#i should probably know how to spell that word. anyways.

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luck-of-the-drawings · 7 months

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two wrongs WILL make a right! ive got another lease on life, and im using it well, who cares if this is all fucked up cause we're all GOING TO HELL! IM JUST WILLIAM WHO SHOULD BE DEAD, HAD TO FOLLOW THE THREAD, thought he was just chillin! now he is a villain! HES ALWAYS SUCH A BUMMER, HE WANTS TO TRUST HIS BROTHER WILLIAM IN A HALLWAY BY HIMSEEEEEEEEEEEELLLLLFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF

#jrwi fanart #jrwi show #jrwi prime defenders #jrwi pd spoilers #william wisp #RRAAHHHHGH I KNOW THEIR LIL PARODY OF MICHEAL IN A BATHROOM OR WHATEV WAS SLIGHTLY COMEDIC. LIKE WIWI IN A HALLWAY #HAHAAA HIS NAME IS WIWI ISNT THAT FUNNY. ISNT THAT FUCKIN FUNNY. AND YYYEEEEEEEEEEETTTTT!!!#WILLIAM IS SO FUCKIN SAD DUDE... ESPECIALLY DURING THE GRAYSCALE ARC. HE REALLY THINKS HES BETTER OFF DEAD.#HIS FIRST DEATH WAS AN ACCIDENT! AND THEN HE WAS SADDLED WITH ALL SORTS OF POWERS AND RESPONSIBILITY HE DIDNT FUCKIN WAANT #AND IT TURNS OUT HES STILL DEAD! HIS BODY IS ROTTING AND FALLING APART AS WE SPEAK!! THATS SO FUCKING SCARY!!!#BUT THEN. OOOHH BUT THEN HIS WONDERFUL FRIEND DAKOTA TELLS HIM. ILL GIVE YOU MY HEART SO YOU CAN LIVE AGAIN. AND IT WORKS!!!#WILLIAM ACCEPTS LIFE AND REJECTS THE WISP POWERS AND FEELS SO SO THANKFUL TO HIS WONDERFUL BEST FRIEND DAKOTA.#A DEBT TO REPAY EVEN IF DAKOTA WILL NEVER CASH IN ON IT. HES JUST A PERFECT HERO LIKE THAT.. BUT WILLIAM.. OHH ROTTING LIL WILLIAM..#EVEN WITH NEW BLOOD RUNNING THROUGH HIM HES STILL DEAD INSIDE. HES STILL USELESS. POWERLESS. SELFISH AND IMPULSIVE AND STUPID AND JUST.#NOT A HERO. WHICH IS FINE! IF ONLY HE WAS A GOOD ENOUGH PERSON TO RETURN THE FAVOR TO DAKOTA THOUGH. BUT HES NOT. HE DOESNT THINK SO.#WILIAM REALLY BELIEVES THAT HE IS FORSAKING EVERY GIFT OF LIFE HE HAS BEEN GIVEN. HE THINKS HE SHOULD BE DEAD BUT HES TOO SCARED TO DIE #JUST FAR TOO SCARED.. OF EVERYTHING.... WHICH IS EXACTLY WHAT BRINGS US HERE. I GUESS THE GOOD NEWS IS THEYLL FORGET.#HE JUST WANTED TO TRUST HIS BROTHER. HE WANTED TO HAVE A BROTHER AND FIX THE RELATIONSHIP WITH HIM AND HONESTLY?#I THINK I WOULD DO THE SAME THING IN HIS SITUATION. MAYBE USE MY WORDS BETTER BUT YKNOW. THATS HIS BROTHER!!!#OKAy okay william makes me sooo EMOTIONAL but now ill mention the ART #THIS WAS Aboutthe time i actually figured out how to draw the white streak in williams hair. IT PISSED ME OFF SO MUCH ORIGINALLY but imPROU #AND THE SHARP SPIRALS!! I LOVE THE SHARP SPIRALS. I LOVE DRAWING HIS HAIR JUST IN GENERAL... I JUS LOVE DRAWIN WIWI...#OHH And xavior... poor xavior... theyre still looking for cantrip arent they? they have no idea where she is..and DAVID YOU BIIITCH #david bell is such a good fucking antagonist. he COMPLETELY believes himself to be in the right and bizly plays him SO WELLL!!#BECAUSE HES SMART!! AND SMART PEOPLE CAN LOGIC THEIR WAY THROUGH ANYTHING! THATS WHY SMART PPL FALL INTO CULTS TOO!#BC A SMART PERSON CAN FIND A GOOD WAY TO JUSTIFY ALMOST ANYTHING TO THEMSELF. DAVID IS SMART AND THATS SCAARRYYYY...#IM So excited to see the consequences of williams actions carry on into season 3. i hope they contact allen and exavior and do. idk. someth

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skinnypaleangryperson · 4 months

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Wow, incredible. Back to back from night to morning I read the most unnecessarily rude, abrasive thoughts from a thread on Rick and Morty Reddit, and in the morning and even worse one from BoJack Horseman read (unsurprising, since they're always the worst). When it comes to these communities and the complete lack of "morality"when it comes to these parts of the modern world I'm starting to wonder if I'm in complete hell. When I rent about it on other platforms I'm much, much more deservingly abrasive about the way that these literal absolute abrasive terrible clones are constantly coming out with every day of their life like it's the same person with a different account in a slightly different body, but what's disturbing is that it actually is a different person every time despite the fact that they all have the same exact a morbidly terrible cheap awful malicious personality.

Of course it would be the two things that all of my passion projects, daydreams, and want for community have poured into for the past couple of years. It can't be a coincidence that the most morbidly unnecessarily rude, hypocritical, terrible and attempt at being "abrasive" people would be on these reddit communities. Obviously most of them are self-projecting or are being rude to complete strangers on TV show Reddit communities of all things, and the fact that they have even one minute in their life to do something so low and scummy the way that these people do just goes to show the kind of people that these people are in that they shouldn't be worth worrying about much less being affected by. They wish they had that kind of power.

Still-I've been inwardly 😬😬😬😬 for the past 24 hours. I don't even look at a single comment on these Reddit communities anymore because I know it's just full of either repetitive boring g***bage, or full of people that are so rude and terrible on top of that g****bage that you can't even believe that these people can even function. Every single day it's like they're trying to outdo themselves from how unnecessarily hypocritical, rude, and unnecessarily morbidly distasteful they are, and that's the generous Tumblr exquisite way of putting it, that they are with their excuses for what they call words.

It's amazing that no matter how much you tell these people that no one cares and to not bother their people with their low quality awful rude abrasive unjustified thoughts that nobody wants except for people as low as them, and no matter how many of these clones that I block they just keep coming out like little bugs battering at my face.

#is Tumblr going to terminate me for this?#I tried to keep this rant as bland and as curated to their warm little reality that they want to keep huddled on here even though it's #The complete opposite of actual reality on every other app and in real life in every possible way #You get terminated just from saying a swear word on here I swear #these communities have been punching back to back so frequently lately that I literally can't even believe that this is real f****** people #I know that's just a Reddit specifically and that it's full specifically of absolute pathetic losers that are just beating up on people like #them about as someone at that just wanted to enjoy the things that they consumed with other fans it's insane they absolute s*** that I have #to see and put up with #if I come across as pretentious writing this it's just because this is my tumbler rant #everywhere else on this Earth I am much more upfront and reactionary the way that things should be

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dallonwrites · 5 months

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random sunday afternoon thoughts but i think the thing with writing advice isn't only that it's just that -- advice -- but also that most of the time it's really just an intro to some kind of craft theory. like you can see a post about how to write better prose for example and it can give beneficial ideas -- show don't tell, specific language, utilise the senses -- all of these are good as theories on craft but with any theory there are exemptions, there are ways to bend it. you also have to ask why this is a theory in the first place, what idea of good prose does this theory come from? but ultimately the thing is no writing advice can tell you how to work that advice into your writing voice/specific story. so seeing these posts as examples of craft theory rather than advice helped me out a lot because instead of wondering which advice to take on for a story, if i "knew" enough about this writing thing to make that call, i was seeing these posts as an intro to a theory on craft, and then i'm asking myself what i can do with this theory, what can this theory do for my story? where does this theory come from? what kind of story/writer does it consider, what kind does it not?

atm i'm writing a flash in 1st person present which is not a POV i use a lot and before i would read as many resources on 1st person present as possible -- which in itself isn't bad, resources exist for a reason! -- but i'd always get stuck because in my attempt to learn as much about "how to write" something as possible, i would forget the only person who can teach me how to write something in my story is me. those resources do help, but the answer is in my story. and that answer will look different in the next 1st person present story i write. there's a garth greenwell quote i love about drafting that says "if anything i try to forget all considerations of craft or technique, to work from a place as near to ignorance as I can manage". i think part of taking in writing "advice"/craft theory is also understanding the gaps in it that are filled in by your story, what will strengthen and what will weaken it. and understanding writing advice as just craft theory helped me because it's just that -- theory, possibilities with craft -- and isn't meant to answer specific questions about how to write a specific story, and you will also learn a lot more if you let yourself lean into the unknowing that is a natural part of writing. because you don't need to know craft to write, you just need to know what your story needs, and a lot of advice and "rules" are really just intros to craft theory that can help you start to know where to look for your story's answers, rather than giving the answer itself. tldr most writing "advice" and "rules" is just craft theory, and instead of trying to shape your writing to fit "advice/rules" you should be thinking about the ways you can shape theory to fit your writing

#i don't think you need to unpack every piece of advice you read in this theoretical way but i do think its important #when a lot of popular advice does get passed around at what is ultimately an introductory level #for example i see a lot of advice posts on story structure here that are very obviously surface level takes on #western ideas of story structure -- which is why i think its so important to see these things for what they are #which is craft theory. and then thinking okay where does this theory come from who does it benefit who does it not take into consideration #i'm obnoxiously literal about language sometimes but i think advice as a word holds a lot of weight because it kind of suggests that the #person giving it knows something you don't? not that i think people giving out writing advice see themselves that way #but seeing these things as someone sharing writing theory rather than advice/rules makes things feel more balanced to me #and someone may know more about a specific craft thing than you of course. that's why sharing craft and learning from other writers is #such a beautiful thing. but do they really know more about writing than you?#do you know more about writing than them? that's not something you can measure #the person that knows more about a piece of craft theory than you doesn't know how to write your story better than you #i don't know a lot about writing fantasy and someone with more experience will know more about #things like worldbuilding craft etc. building magic systems and lore.#but that doesn't mean they know how to write my fantasy story better than i do. because it's my story.#i can learn from them but what i'm learning is craft theory. not how to write my story. does that make sense #+ i will learn how to write my story by embracing the fact that i do not know how to write fantasy i just know fantasy craft theory #but also im someone who doesnt believe craft rules should exist in the first place lol but that's another post

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watermelinoe · 10 months

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patrick star it's not my wallet meme but it's just "class-based oppression exists" "yes" "oppression is based on material class and not how an individual is perceived" "yes" "for example trans men who pass as men socially are still oppressed for being female" "yes" "because oppression manifests as more than surface discrimination" "yes" "therefore even straight-passing bisexual people are oppressed for being bisexual" "NO you can't be oppressed for being straight!!!!"

#by this logic bi people in same-sex relationships would be ''functionally gay'' bc that's how they're perceived #but that isn't how it works #so the same must be true for bi people in other-sex relationships #even if your argument is that bi people are only oppressed for our same-sex attraction #we are still same-sex attracted regardless of how we are perceived #(and my argument is not that bi people are oppressed ''for being OSA'' but that bisexuality is a complete sexuality)#(not some switch flipping between OSA and SSA. both are always ''on.'')#''you can just hide it'' isn't the magical get-out-of-oppression card they think it is #nor is hiding the default state for every bi person? like. i didn't come out. my peers could Tell.#i would have to actively change myself to be seen as a straight woman #but even if i was. i would still be oppressed on the Material Reality of my being bisexual #i can't believe this is a controversial take here on Material Reality tumblr tbh #it's material reality until a bi woman is explaining how being bi has had material consequences in her material life #and wants a word separate from homophobia bc homophobia should be about homosexuality only

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pochapal · 10 months

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tomorrow i will have been reading umineko for one whole year

#:)#still can't believe i ended up reading at a 1 chapter a month pace #i never even intended to liveblog umineko in the first place lmao #which you can tell because the first few posts are just like 'i'm gonna start umineko'#'hey maria is a really good character and is correct about everything btw'#'battler jessica and maria are the only bitches on rokkenjima i trust and care about'#'i'm going insane what do you mean there are chapters just dedicated to failsibling drama arguments'#and then i started note taking and then after the rose garden scene i fully lost my mind #funny skimming over the 1-6 thoughtdump and seeing less than 2000 words of bullet points lmao #i love how the first couple posts of my liveblog so perfectly capture the exact moments of my descent into derangement #iirc someone sent an ask like 'you should definitely try keeping notes when reading umineko and share some theories every now and then'#not knowing that i'd already started my ridiculously meticulous note document and that this pushed me to go all in on my thoughts #although i'm gonna be honest i think *the* moment my brain broke with umineko was that 1-7 scene with kanon #literally all of this is because i Paid Attention to the fucked up servant dynamics and had the most unhinged brainblast known to man #funny to look back and reminisce on all this now lmao

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apoloniaspiegelgold · 4 months

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All my life I've been told by all kinds of people that they can never really tell what I'm feeling or what's going through my mind because apparently I'm always just hiding everything behind a smile so that I've become rather unreadable. And then he just. Takes one look at me and goes 'Yeah. I know that face, oh here we go again, she's about to unleash her thoughts. She's gonna bash that theory I just showed her so hard. Where's my popcorn?' I hadn't even said anything yet and he was already laughing.

And to be honest. It's quite nice to be known, actually.

#i only went to his office to ask if he wants to join me for lunch he didn't have time and yet i still somehow ended up staying for 1.5 hours #'thanks for the conversation' he said when i left. 'and thanks for keeping me from my work'#as if HE hadn't kept me from lunch when he kept our conversation going on and on with his 'wait i still wanted to show you this'#talking to him always feels like wellness for my brain somehow. like. we're different people but we think the same way.#i don't have to translate my thoughts to be understood he already gets my point before i've even finished my train of thought #every time work tires me out so much that it feels like i can't think straight anymore then i talk to him and suddenly my brain works again #and i like how he calls me out on my nonsense when i lose myself in a contradiction or don't say what i want to say or say what i don't mea #and he lets me go on extensive rants about statistics despite not knowing anything about it and doesn't even complain #he just always says 'i'll pretend i know what that means' and says i should learn it well so he can ask me for my help with it later #recently he came to me right after teaching saying 'you won't believe how much i just messed up. let me show you how i failed'#and then proceeded to recreate the entire situation and his thought process at that moment and i just #there is a very big word running around in my mind that i dare not speak of but maybe one day #i don't even know if he even sees me as much as a friend maybe i'm just some co-worker he likes talking to occasionally you know #what does it mean what does it all mean #ramblings

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prolibytherium · 3 months

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I get sooooooooo fucking bored of flowery prose sometimes, like it has its place but I see so much online writing where it feels like every sentence is a calculated attempt at making it big in a webweaving post.

#It's MOSTLY just a personal taste thing for me but for real if you're trying extremely hard to make each and every sentence #a hauntingly beautiful earthshattering layering of metaphor it usually has the exact opposite effect. It dulls any intended impact and #makes the parts that actually SHOULD be impactful just another wet pile of word slop in the soup. Strike some balance..#As far as personal taste goes I love me some brutally dry prose it's so sexy #You know there can be 'themes and motifs' in that too? Believe it?#Wish I had some examples off the top of my head but I've been in 'reading nonfiction only' mode for several months now

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lesbiansanemi · 9 months

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Why the FUCK do I wanna write a goddamn hanahaki fic

#HELLO????? I don’t even READ hanahaki fics #(<— it’s my hubris I believe I can personally save every fanfic trope I don’t like)#but no I wanna write specifically the version where it’s not about your love being unrequited #but about your love killing you the inside out because you can’t accept it and be honest about it #I think it would work really well for renkaza….#kyo would be the one with hanahaki obviously because he’d never be able to accept he loved a demon #you see where I’m going with this yeah #anyways…. I wanna write it. should I????? should iiiiiii?#I mean no I got too much other shit going on #but also it would be so fuuuuuuuun #I think it’d end up being one of those like lengthy 15k word one shots #kaz rambles

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coquelicoq · 1 year

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[Image description: A laundry room sign with instructions for using the washing machine, first in English and then ostensibly translated into Spanish. Next to the High Efficiency logo is the text "HE (High Efficiency) Concentrated Soap is Recommended" and below that is "Por favor usar un jabon haute efficacité". Below that is a picture of the machine with parts labeled in English and Spanish. /end ID]

it's embarrassing how long i was standing there trying to figure out how to pronounce haute efficacité in spanish before i realized that haute efficacité is, in fact, french

#aka my second language #the language in which i am currently reading aloud every single word in the dictionary #it was actually the é that tipped me off. i was willing to believe that haute was a spanish word (why) but that accent got me #idk why though bc spanish can definitely accent the last vowel #and it was an acute accent aka the accent used in spanish #and there was only one accent in the word (rather than multiple accented letters) which is how accenting works in spanish #so really if i had bought into haute (again why did i buy into haute though) i don't see why the é should have tripped me up #i had already suspended disbelief so far and the é wasn't even that implausible #you guys would have loved to be present to hear me attempt to pronounce haute efficacité as though it was spanish #very comical #signs #my posts #spanish #french

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ehlnofay · 4 months

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wip wsunday (night)

tagged by @wispstalk (thank you kindly!) tagging back @ervona and @everybodyknows-everybodydies if you so please.

I put my long-ish tes piece on the backburner to take a break and write shorter things featuring my best friends elder scrolls characters from my mind and then I put THAT on the backburner because my very sweet grandmother paid for me to buy bg3 and. alas. look I can't play a game of this nature without fleshing out my player character far more than necessary and then I get curious. so here's a very shoddily scribbled bit from my very first playing-around piece (a rambling description of my character's extremely abandoned house)

#I'll make a blog for this game once I have more writing #and have played more of the game #I'm only just in act two so I feel like I should hold off trying to talk about it to the internet until I know more stuff that happens lol #but I'm already very attached to my still-forming character. they have problems like you would not believe #and I love to write a shitty little guy #got less than 6k words so far. across three bits of writing. and idk if I'd post any of them #they are mostly just exploring voice and tone #but I'm having fun with it! it's nice to try new things every once in a while #and this game provides ample fodder for weird messed up friendships (my favourite thing to write ever)#plus since romance is made to be such a big part of it #it might be the kick in the pants I need to actually attempt to get more comfortable writing romantic dynamics #which I do want to do. it's just hard and awkward when I don't feel it #ANYWAY #prob won't post anything much more about this game or character until I make the other sideblog #but. you know. huge news for people who are fans of bg3 and fay from tumblr #I'm sure there are millions of them #getting late now. goodnight!#ask game #wip #fay writes

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around-your-throat · 1 year

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thinking about changing my theme into some rainbow eyestrain fuckfest but that's probs not the best idea lol

#anywaysssss took my phonology finals today 🙄🙄#hate transcribing 💥 forgot the symbol for the ow diphthong and it was in every word 💥💥💥💥#got to the point where i started calculating my score...... i did percentage math by hand on the draft paper can you believe that shit #anyways i should still get an A even if i got 60% so its whatevers 😮‍💨

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unproduciblesmackdown · 11 months

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that moment when: everyone's lives are restricted and constricted and these imposed consequences are attributed to anyone's continual individual failures to seek, find, and follow the Correct Path through Life, and so everyone is left on their own to only be seeking & finding these failures as well as the only answer to how their lives can be better....versus Not seeing the world as the free marketplace meritocracy of everyone's personal failures/successes, nor everything in your own life, and thus not forever having to scrutinize Where You Must Be Bringing It Upon Yourself by fucking up or at least failing to do the correct thing, and exist only in perpetual punishment for your ongoing failure and occasional temporary reprieves from it. recognizing everything that wasn't & isn't & wouldn't be [this is because you're bringing it upon yourself] and thus having more capacity & capability to look at the realm of your personal individual self, reality, experiences, life through the perpetual instances of seeking, finding, and following your own needs/wants through one's inherent personhood and exercises of autonomy and recognition of where & when & how one recognizes moments of their existing freely & in more resonant genuine alignment with themself, you know? endless examples to be found in endless fractals of [where & how are people's lives made smaller]. and that of course this doesn't preclude the ability/option at any time to question one's choices, since you'll be able to find more Actual choices available to you (and, also crucially, find more actual choices made by others that are in the pursuit of limiting Yours) to look at, and people getting to exercise their autonomy isn't the same as "everyone doing anything they want regardless of how it affects others" since that [how does it affect others?] element instead being Regarded would be able to lead to recognizing that, in fact, an effect might be the infringement on others' autonomy, hence: There's A Problem....like the ability to just go ham with [questioning???] anything in existence, certainly including oneself, b/c the "norm" is such that rather you're only supposed to be able to question yourself for your failings (or those positioned as less than, thus, beneath you) and not even have the language to express a questioning of aspects of life beyond that b/c stop calling anyone "cis" they're just Normal, Just Be Normal and it would all be fine

#brought to you by: i think one of my feelings lately of A Shift is in my less than ever running this like continuous background function of #looking for Thee Answer (just like the black suits) in any & everything that could serve as the Key to like. whatever could fit into place #to like set things on a [hell yeah. life? better] path. juxtaposing this recent sense of things with the [lol. in retrospect i Do see a new #context wherein i can Recognize smthing abt myself] past going on of like. granpa greentext story be me be fifteen i'm in college b/c i hat #school i also mostly assumed i'd probably fail out freshman yr but didn't. i've never known what i'd wanna major in & as a sophomore i'm de #supposed to figure it out in time for scheduling my jr yr classes (though Ideally have known from the start / been scheduling thusly) & so #many evenings during dinner i'm furiously perusing the daily print news as i've been doing for some yrs to Keep Up W/Current Events but now #also consciously like ''boy i hope in the course of doing this i stumble across some info that sparks some eureka moment of Getting what my #major should Obviously be so i can understand the rest of my life around [do job] b/c i sure as hell don't understand it around [be married #much less [be parent] so one option remains obvi'' whereas now i realize like lol you Were figuring out a guiding light in doing so & that #perspective being honed was one of Having A Political Analysis times....which also provides another Example of [only being able to interpre #what makes your life & your world the way it is: via Your Personal Failures to have already Had Better] in that just like i often forget i #misguidedly (but also reasonably; clearly also using & seeking that autonomy & freedom) tried to have a better existence within the #situation i was in by Coming Out As Trans to parents via an email that was then not directly discussed ever; b/c any legitimate discussion #was not permissible like how so many matters of [supposed correct existence] are Unspeakable so as to be Unquestionable #languaging that succeeds & sustains itself having to be expansive / flexible / creative / evolving too. Making Up Words hell yes #anyways so i also forget i Did try to propose majoring in things that Did more approach what i was suspecting were things i'd wanna do #but even the first like expression of anything on the periphery of that was met with ''no you'd hate it b/c you'd have to deal w/Stupid Ppl #every day'' (by which was meant; with believed inherent synonymity: poor people) & then i also will oft forget i pushed for it any further #which i Know i did b/c of it next being met with angry & aggressive ''i've never heard you talk abt that interest before So''#(wonder why? withholding info to protect yourself=finding room in one's life for existing more freely; exercising the autonomy to Do That)#but it's easy to forget b/c The All Encompassing Perspective was rather [i'm sure Failing to just Know my major for the sole possibility fo #defining one's entire life: The Correct Dream Job] & then Failing to push it or just express it & be understood ''correctly'' even if i Did #have any ideas in that realm. vs seeing how i Was succeeding & was recognizing shit & pursuing it & looking out for myself & etccc #it's undeniable lol like the framing even that Blaming Oneself is an autonomy seeking response. b/c your autonomous power in your own life #sure Would be more immediate if Everything Really Was Your Fault (when ofc really this is abt obscuring & denying the responsibility of ppl #who have the power over others' lives & then have to act like this is all the fault of the Others; they themselves have never Truly Chosen)#no victim blaming no condemnation of anyone's ''passivity'' here babey #re: the undeniability it's how like. maybe you've only Just realized you're not cis but in doing so it's like ''oh That's what i already #recognizing in various ways throughout my whole life'' it's all always Been there/going on & perspex shifts + new lenses can reveal them

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snekdood · 1 year

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Idk why i expect charitability from ppl who probably listen to whatever their staple favorite left-leaning video essayists says about the Other Leftists they dont like and takes it to heart and doesnt form their own opinion with the information provided (or the information specifically and intentionally left out to make the person look the worst that they can) just kinda does whatever that persons says because Its Probably Correct

I mean, theyre "on the left" and uses all the words you like, nevermind what their intentions or long terms goals are or how thatd reasonably be practiced irl or if it'd actually hurt the general cause of progressives and make things even more divisive and worse bc they value being petty more than actually having any values.

#yall be like 'i better go watch this black person who believes in racial separatism and take everything they say to heart and not form my #own opinion because the Correct Thing To Do is to let every minority im not say shit that would only help nazis in the long run Because Im #Not That Minority So Clearly I Have No Stake In This'. like idk. its one thing to pretend you understand every thing about a certain #minorities experience that you dont have. its a whole other thing to actually challenge people on their beliefs. and if the person you #are challenging cant give you a good enough answer or dodges or gets MAD at you for even asking - you should probably avoid them or at the #very least not just believe every fucking thing they say and never come to your own conclusions on shit.#people are supposed to have the critical thinking ability to have their beliefs challenged and give you an actual answer #theyre supposed to want you to understand. theyre supposed ro be able to explain it to people who dont understand #and arent in the same spaces enough to understand. if you cant explain to me why racial separatism is somehow Ideal then why should #i listen to you. just to do whatever you say no questions asked or else im bad and very problematic?#like how am i supposed to take this kinda person seriously when they go around calling shark3ozero the c word and other #racist shit. like you're not serious lol. you have no issue just acting like the people who disagree with you on something are just purely #bigots.#when the people you attack are far more on your side than the fucking republicans who yall barely even mention. which is interesting.#anyways if you believe in dividing everyone by race understand that thats LITERALLY what white supremacists want. that is Not the ideal #world for me. idk about you. and if you understand this and still follow me gtfo of here #you're a dipshit and prolly an accelerationist and i dont have time for your bullshit and likely nihilism.#you're gonna end up killing yourself thinking the world is only ever against you and everyone who disagrees w you is a bigot.#and i dont mean necessarily actually putting up a noose i just mean you're gonna isolate yourself SO MUCH from other ppl and stay only in #your one little space. that if you ever lose that space for whatever reason you'll be left alone w no help.#or you'll isolate yourself so much and stay inside forever and be hella paranoid in grocery stores thinkin everyone there Wants To Kill You #and im not gonna act like ik whats in the mind of someone who believes in racial separatism. that was more of an example. but i can try #to understand and i can tell that someone has to go through a lot of bs to think thats the only solution. im not trying to downplay why ppl #might think thats the best option. but really its the same shit w terfs and cis men and it kinda seems like its a solution born from trauma #with convoluted justifications for why its Fine actually #thats how it looks from my angle rn. if thats not the case and you feel like its different im always willing to hear different angles on #stuff. im never married to my positions as im not exactly a static person who never changes.#id say thats quite the opposite of my Whole Thing

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