#See? Im still alive lol

[gabisart]

𝐷𝑟𝑜𝑤𝑛 𝑚𝑒 𝑖𝑛 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑑𝑒𝑙𝑖𝑔ℎ𝑡

𝐸𝑛𝑑𝑙𝑒𝑠𝑠 𝑠𝑢𝑚𝑚𝑒𝑟 𝑣𝑎𝑐𝑎𝑡𝑖𝑜𝑛 ☀️

#saint seiya #Julian Solo #siren sorrento #My beloveds.... #In summer mood ☀️🌧️ #See? Im still alive lol #Been working hard on commissions and patreon content... #Re-opening commissions soon 🥺 #But had to draw my richies before 😔🙏

[robotsandramblings]

🥵🥵

#im actually speechless........this set of pixels is the hottest shit alive #the Sassy Hip RETURNS......god bles #hunter #the bad batch #star wars #HOT DAMN #R&Rphotoset #come out here and get y'all juice...bc i know you's THIRSTY #can't wait to see other ppl's thirst tags... they're my fave lol #it's ok bby i know u get your ass handed to you 5 sec later but you're still hot af 🥰

[trashcreatyre]

So anyway, what if mephiles stole Elise's form instead? That'd be fun i think :)

#trashcreatyre's art #sonic 06 #sonic fanart #princess elise #mephiles the dark #au? maybe? #we'll see #but probably because i really like this design lol #also #you know how i always say i look at the melty face design and go 'yeah thats a woman' ? #im having the opposite experience with this design #this is the most guy hes ever looked to me outside the ghost au #n e way #doodles #watercolor pencils #also i think elise would be kinda excited about thos bc i think she probably really wanted siblings when she was little and her parents were #still alive #and its obviously not exactly the same but like idk yea

[thirdsonofeve]

Okay but what did the twins do with Nacho after the vet sewed him up? Did they just drop him off at his house like OK love you pls don't die👍 and pick him up the morning after like Heyyy get in we're going on a murder spree! Did they take him back to wherever they're staying (Hector's place?) to keep watch over him throughout the night? Did he wake up at like 3 am bc Leonel went to get himself a snack and sits by his bed eating fruity pebbles out of the box? Did they change his dressings in the morning? Did they pat him dry when he started cold sweating in the middle of the night? Did they have to hold a glass of water to his patched lips? Did they spoon feed him breakfast? Did Marco sit on the edge of the bed gently stroking his thumb over the needle prick in the bend of Nacho's left arm? Did Nacho try to not show how much pain he was in, holding back tears, insisting on walking on his own? Did he complain that he was freezing, expecting to be given another blanket and ending up with an assassin who's overly comfortable with platonic affection cuddled up in bed with him? Did he mumble one of their names when his father came to check on him as he slept on the couch the next night?

#im just imagining manuel being unable to sleep bc his kid has a bullet hole in him so he goes to see if he's still alive #and nacho is somewhere between sleep and consciousness and when manuel lays his hand on his forehead to check his temperature nacho #calls out for a 'marco' and manuel immediately is like i fucking knew it but this is not how i wanted to find out #leonel salamanca #marco salamanca #nacho varga #salamanca twins #should i even bother tagging this given that im seemingly banned from the sitewide tags lol

[theprinceandthewitch]

I'm pretty much done with TOH lol.

A braver and more energetic soul can try giving this show a constructive critique... because I will actually, wholeheartedly lose my humanity while writing out the script.

There is like... a problem this show has that permeates the whole thing: It says its going to do one thing, but then does something completely different. Like how the first two episodes of the series make you believe Luz is going to learn how her inability to separate fantasy from reality is actually inhibiting her growth as a person... only to make her a chosen one and to give her everything she ever wanted without Luz changing the way she treats people.

#TOH critical #Reaching Out is my most hated ep along with the series finale bc of how guiltrippy Luz is in RO #Oh yeah Amity i know you have a very valid reason for hating me rn bc its my fault your abusive dad found out you skipped tryouts... #...but you cant be mad at me bc my dad died on your special day. Also I am jealous of you for having an Alive Dad #even tho i know your father is a horrible person and treats you like dogshit lol. #i can never forgive them for lobotomizing Amity's character #like Luz can lie to her face repeatedly and she'll be like... this is fine im sure it wont happen again... #still crazy to me how Amity gets the female love interest treatment you see with m/f ships... how could you do this to her #i want to see the Amity who actually had a spine and was willing to kill to achieve her goals #but no she gets reduced to ''bad but sad girl''... and i start fighting and killing

[skunkes]

what they dont tell you about being incredibly introspective is that you'll think you're done making realizations and then you'll just make more realizations always all the time forever

#dude. guess who just found out the reason he's incapable of imagining himself in a good relationship #is bc he's never witnessed any growing up. #my parents dont have a relationship i would want #only one of my siblings is married and her husband sucks. other has never dated while ive been alive (im much younger) #+ my other sibling had. a strange relationship i wont mention details of but this was also like 5 yrs ago and he hasnt dated since #i have very few close friends and none of them dated as we grew up either #or even with some its like. i wldnt want your relationship lol... #the only Good relationships i see are online from ppl i follow. and then i cant trust em bc we only see the Good Parts #so like. do they even exist... i dont think so.... #if i wasnt starved for physical touch id consider throwing in the towel permanently #but idk maybe ill buy one of those pillows with the arms that wrap around you #and a few more **** and try and cope with it in kenland or al's farm forever #talkys #im still 100% serious about ppl who have good relationships being lucky bc i feel like #the chances of finding someone you mesh with and are attracted to and can communicate with. are so slim. #i can barely ever find someone meeting one of many requirements. i can barely make friends. etc

[joelletwo]

now it is incredibly late to be saying this but god the month-long hiring process has sucked kjsdf turns out thats the perfect amount of time for the excitement-anxiety to wear off and then the hopeful responsible problem-solving forward-thinking optimism to wear off and then the "fuck it" dissociation to wear off and whatever other defensive layers i had up between me and "huh maybe itd be easier if i died than to get a new job to do badly at" to wear off lol whoops. please. please. please. its literally gonna be fine once i actually get started and get in the swing of it. i JUST have to survive a few more miserable days <- NOT IN DANGER. just fucking miserable

#ILL WANT TO BE ALIVE IN LIKE A MONTH KSJHFG i promise i promise i promise. #bwahhhhh. compounding factors: i still have very few details about important things. see which of those i can solve on monday. #and. i will have one coworker lol. and ill be with her fulltime while im Getting Oriented. just me and her in a small office for #eight hour shifts. thats so much time i can make someone hate me right out the gate. thats also a temporary problem kjsfg #please. god. the actual work of this job is fucking easy street im looking forward to that so much. please dont let me fail at the #starting hurdle just due to the autism and the depression. #and please dont let me fuck up in front of nice older country southern ladies.

[angelxd-3303]

The way I screamed at seeing this on my YouTube subscription feed:

Markiplier lookin'...

#the walten files #the comment section was also comparing him to Jesus which is hilarious to me. #jokes aside im excited to see what Martin's up to #maybe we're finally gonna see what happened to Jack Walten. bro just dipped in the beginning of the series with no explanation. #Martin has implied that he's still alive tho #so what's he been up to while everyone else is dying lol??

[that-gay-guy-from-hell]

Oh hey look-! It's the Blue Man Group!

TLT Masterlist

#Im too tired to come up with a funnier joke rn lmfao #So... Im alive! #Been busy and just... emotions #(like I was on the verge of tears today because i dropped a pen... lol) #But here's some art WIP for y’all #Heard some snippets of Rust’s album and I am so hyped #Like i am gonna go donate plasma so i have the extra cash to buy it asap when it's released #but anyways #I spent nearly 4 hours between 2 days just staring at human skeletons; spines are hard to draw #and YALL CANT EVEN SEE MOST OF IT- #Bonus points for those of you who know what 2 Necronomocons Doc’s book is a combo of #I missed drawing this handsome blue bastard (lovingly) #*pats him on the top of his head* #I love him so so much #/pos..? I guess lol #the living tombstone #tlt #tombsona #Doc #Doc tlt #tlt Doc #the living tombstone Doc #Doc the living tombstone #digital art #digitalart #WIP #art wip #fan art #(color wheel meme WIP btw-- yes i know i started this MONTHS ago *places a finger on your mouth* shhh its our secret) #also the quality drop is abhorrent wtf lmao-- Should be a bit better than the OG but still is a bit wonky smh

[merevide]

hiiiii i have returned from the depths of the underworld (self imposed hiatus) (3 week break that felt like 3 years)

#posting this then going 2 bed so i actually have incentive to start posting again i’ve been meaning to for like. two days now LOL #i’ve just been genuinely stressed LMAO but i started reading a new book n getting into new media so things mightttt be okay. #u know its been a wild time if smth convinced me to take a break from tumblr for like a month #n it was lmao. first it was the fatigue then it was the health issues which the fatigue stemmed from #then it was doing work n then it was literally nobody cares am i alive yes am i doing well sure(?) #am i gonna be active WE'LL SEE #genuinely missed my mutuals which is why i was bad at this i still checked in from time 2 time just did not post #im like 5 days off of this being an actual month long break but i was like waittt lemme post smth before #the month ends i dont wanna skip february so yeah #tldr most chronically online person ever thinks that like 3 weeks away from her blog is like 3 years. iam right #my text #🍅🍅🍅 this was a long rant boooooo get off the stage #i probs sound like a hectic mess bc i am anyway goodnight happy bhm happy valentines happy february hope it has been kind

[rosykims]

like out of all the many, many traumas ive given elspeth my favorite has gotta be the deep roads lol. and specifically the way she never really got OUT of them. yeah so maybe her body did but not HER. shes still down there with ruck and helspith every time she closes her eyes. and during future expeditions when she goes down into the deep roads for real, it doesnt feel like some horrible nightmare it feels like REALITY and its the surface and love and warmth and alistair thats nothing more than a pleasant dream. one shes always going to wake up from. bc even in her happiest moments she's never not aware of the darkspawn digging up towards her just a few miles under her feet. and never not feeling the eyes of the deep roads looking at her, gleefully waiting for her, and knowing its not going anywhere

#i love shale but for elspeth's worldstate i dont recruit her bc im so obsessed w the dynamic of it being elspeth/alistair/oghren/the dog lol #oc: elspeth #tay plays dao #she got SEVERE shell shock being down there in the dead trenches after the realization that came from helspith's poem #why shes never seen any female darkspawn and why there apparently arent as many female wardens either #and like. Understanding that death is the absolute best case scenario for her. #alistair had to 100000% step up as the leader because she was completely out of commission. barely able to breathe let alone fight or lead #going from this unstoppable warrior who NEVER loses her nerve or control on a battlefield #to nearly dying to the broodmother bc she was so fucking terrified. bc all she could see was her own fate mirrored back at her #finally FINALLY understanding what it means to be a grey warden. and then trying to reject that reality with her entire body and soul #she pulls herself out of it enough to get out alive but she never had a moment of like... triumph over the deep roads where she had a burst #of courage and saved the day or whatever. thats not usually how trauma works and so alistair carried them thru that #thru the broodmother and the anvil and branka and back to orzammar just as elspeth was beginning to put herself back together #afterwards the lack of closure to what was one of her ''weakest'' lowest moments rly weighed her down with guilt and shame #and its only a year later during awakening when she finally reconciles with having NO choice but to go back into the deep roads #and being able to kill the mother. THAT helped. that restored some small part of her #gave her the strength to start going back down there when the need arose. resigned to an early death but ready to put up a fight #but ye. still such a fundamentally devastating thing she went thru which altered her entire personality to the point where she starts fully #embracing being a warden (bc how can someone who's seen what shes seen and done what shes done be anything else???) #and INSISTING alistair take the throne despite having always been supportive of his desire not to. even if it means she loses him. #bc its a last ditch effort to save him from the fate she's completely surrendered herself to #sigh. this game man. #i need dadw to Confirm that the grey wardens have found a cure and alistair and hof are safe because jesus christ. my girl NEEDS a win

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#shout out to my nana for saying my dad spends money like water #my dad who struggles with the idea of spending money bc of obsessive compilation thoughts but is making an effort #bc whats the point of saving up all your life just to die. nana? my dad whose wife is literally dying of cancer and is beginning to circle #the drain so hes deciding he wants to start spending his retirement money now while shes still alive. u old witch. Jesus christ. my mum #isnt gonna live forever. shes getting her bladder removed in February i think. imo ill just b happy if she lives past the end of my 5year #program. like holy fuck. i mean. its not really nanas fault. she probably has 0cd and probably has 0cpd. but like this is y u wanna try to #get better. so you dont grow into a miserable old fuck whose family hates u bc ur awful and killing ur husband thru ur illness. just saying #as someone whose can see their own behaviors mirrored in her. this is y i cant go on like this lol #hopefully i hit my rock bottom last year. ugh. i just wish i could sleep. when im not super depressed i cant seem to get a normal amount of #sleep and im exhausted all afternoon. im awake at night and early in the morning. it makes me nauseous too. insomnia i guess #but ive always slept rather little. maybe it was compulsive and now im just old and cant take it #hate it. wish it would stop but at least i dont feel like dying anymore i guess. im guessing the meds r exacerbating thr sleep issues if not #causing it. ugh symptom management i guess #unrelated

[godsfavoritescientist]

Ehy, I was curious, what's the plot of your long fic?

I'm glad it's piqued your interest! There are many pieces to it that I'm still ironing out the details on and/or will not spoil when it comes to actual plot events, but here's what I will say:

The Axolotl feels so much love for Bill, and genuinely believes in him, and at the start of the fic Bill is perplexed and offput by this. And my goal here is for Bill to understand that love by the end of the fic.

So the plot is like this:

1. Bill meets the Axolotl

2. The self-destructive downward spiral angst megavortex kickstarted by bill being brought back in a human body

3. Character growth, probably

#mylongficidea #featuring: bill and ford self destructive tendencies parallels #an attempt on my part to pick apart the concept of redemption itself #surface level funny bill shenanigans that are a cry for help lol #and im trying to fit in a b plot that tackles the question of 'what would an actual happy ending between the stans look like' #the one not all that vague thing i'll say is: bill wont be the only demon in the fic #i feel like ive been talking about it for forever but i promise its more fleshed out than it used to be #and maybe itll start out with ford wandering through stans mind in his sleep to 'make sure bills really gone' (aka see if hes still alive) #but you didnt hear that from me the spoiler police would arrest me

[blueside-hobi]

As much as I love overwatch, I am so sick of people being mean. It seems like 90% of games whichever losing side either blames their tank or support when 90% of the time it's definitely not either. Also I only play quick play games so these don't even matter. I can understand being upset if you're playing competitive but people still don't need to be rude. Quick play is supposed to be fun. I usually get people commenting on me being a one trick but if I play anyone else then I get told I suck. How am I supposed to learn new characters if I get bullied from trying them? And especially now that there's only one tank I constantly see "tank diff" in the chat. Like grow up. It is very rarely only one person's fault that a game is lost and that's usually because they leave or they are literally not trying and just running around saying hi to the enemy team. No way was it all the tanks fault. And it's literally always the damage players complaining about it. Like maybe you're losing because you keep saying rude shit in the chat and you're bringing morale down and nobody wants to play with you.

#idk if the age group is just super young or if its literally just assholes that play but they need to do something about it #i feel like in the old overwatch it was easier to report people #but im also still new to this so maybe i just dont know how yet #and i mainly feel bad for the other people that have to play with them or when someone says something about my teammate #like i dont give a shit what people say to me personally #being a mercy one trick will give you a thick skin lol #but like i cant help but think about the next healer they play with #because it still does suck #like i get over it and continue like i dont see the comments but i wouldnt blame someone for stopping from healing them #any time someone on my team says something mean about our other healer i make sure to be extra aware of that healer and keep them alive #and ill take care of the asshole if they stop because i dont expect them to put up with them #the best though is when you start with a really toxic person and youre losing so badly that it genuinely hurts #and then they leave and all of a sudden you win #like yeah it was totally everyone else dude #overwatch

[dallonwrites]

feeling silly might submit the one flash piece i have that's submittable (lol) to another litmag just to see what happens.

#i've already gotten 3 high tier rejections in a row from said mag so at this point another just feels like part of this beautiful dance #i dont simultaneously submit beyond like. 3 submissions so im like OOOOH he's soooo crazzzyyyyyy #i did not initially see the story as 'fitting' the mag but i don't think it necessarily. does not fit. if that makes sense #like not my first thought but idk i feel alive i feel crazy #let me read it first to see if it still hits #havent read her for a month LOL

[acaciapines]

as someone who’s very excited to read your Dess raises Kris AU, something that i’m really excited for is the dynamic between Dess and Chara! From the little excerpt we saw of them in the past i’m so curious as to how they’re relationship functions / how it’ll effect Kris growing up and such. If it isn’t too much to ask, could you go a bit in depth as to how they ‘work’ in a sense?

jkegkjdfgdf IT MEANS SO MUCH THAT UR EXCITED.....WOW.....like i am too its just so fun to know other people are!!

and! yeah so. i go into them a lot in this post here where i said. a lot of what my ideas are right now (and its said better lol) but i can for sure talk about them forever and ever and ever. most relationship of all time.

under the cut cause Oh My God it was not supposed to be this long.

so!!! i think a lot of how dess and chara work is that as time goes on it becomes increasingly obvious that They Do Not, actually. like, the way i see dess is that she is very much a person who needs to be on the move--she cannot stay in one place. that just...isnt who she is, and its stifling, and she HATES being weighed down. and kids, uh, sorta do that to you lol. vs chara, who like...has defined xirself around this role xe took up, 'cause the huge difference between them is that chara chose to have frisk and dess just sorta ended up with kris, right? so thats one point they arent ever going to like, understand the other one on.

so a lot of what leads them to deciding to stick together is this sense of loneliness they both feel...dess for being someone who is always on the move has also always had people with her: azzy, for one, but i think shes also the sort of people who makes a lot of like, surface-level friendships? i think shes A Lot and most people never get to know her that well, but like...chara DOES. and vice-versa for chara: people never bother to get to know xir, but dess WANTS TO. dess really truly cares about xir and xir life and who xe is which is very new for chara. cause before this all xe's had is frisk who is. literally a two year old and doesnt have any other choice lol.

theyre both people who have been dealt a poor hand in life in regards to dark world bullshit, something they cant exactly get help with through like, traditional means. they meet when theyre both super young--iirc dess is 18, chara 21? 22?--and yknow, raising a kid at that young an age isnt the most common experience. dess has run away from home, basically, and chara's a college dropout with a biological family xe never want to see again...neither of them have anybody else! they dont have any help! so they bond over that, a lot. its like...seeing someone Like You for the first time in your entire life.

and all that said its the kids thing that really throws a wrench into everything.

because dess cant stay still, right? she cant. shes not wired for it. but chara does, and she trusts chara, and chara doesnt mind watching kris, so dess doesnt feel bad leaving them with xir. but. a day becomes a week. week a few weeks, a month, a few months. as time goes on dess coming home grows more and more sparse. but theres this sense of like...chara doesnt really know who xe is, anymore, outside of this family xe has? outside of being a parent and spouse? so to chara, to leave dess is like, unimaginable. dess is xir person. dess loves xir, which is something xe cannot really comprehend as a loveless aromantic, but having never been loved in xir entire life (chara had a Bad childhood lets just say) its like...dess chooses xir. and sure, shes gone a lot, but when she does come home, her home is XIR. her home is chara. its gloriously dizzying.

and dess does feel the same way!!! dess never really means to leave chara for so long, she just...loses track of time. hates being Needed by kids in any way more than a cool aunt they see occasionally. funnily enough she gets on with frisk better because frisk doesnt really expect a mom out of her. (that isnt to say its returned lol kris likes dess wayyyyy more than frisk does. but for dess its easier to be around frisk cause they dont expect anything). if the kids werent a thing chara and dess would actually work a lot better--chara is a lot less adventurous and likes staying back and tending to things, but without frisk to like, REALLY cement that xe'd enjoy going out with dess, probably not into dark worlds but travel might be nice. and dess wouldn't feel so much pressure, if its just chara, 'cause chara kind of just likes dess for who she is. so for just-chara, dess could stay. dess is used to people wanting her to be someone else--her mother, her father, hell, even AZZY, who like...he never acted on it, but he had a crush on her for their entire friendship. she knows he'd rather she return those feelings.

but chara GETS HER. chara cares for her in a way that doesnt want her to become something she isnt--its why they get married!! dess never felt romantic love, and still doesnt, but its chara who makes her go--oh. oh, so i think i know why people might get married, actually. its saying--youre my person, and chara is her person. and vice-versa, of course. dess is this light chara never had.

but. of course. they have two kids.

which. complicates things. dess puts chara first--she LOVES chara, loves xir in every single way she can feel love. but chara...chara cares about dess, a lot. its why xe's really blind to a lot of xir faults for a while...because thats dess. xe doesnt know where xe would be without dess. but chara is a parent. frisk and kris do come first.

the kids are like, aware of this. frisk is very much aware of this--they're younger than kris but they dont have these rose-colored glasses about dess, and they sort of notice, how much of a toll it takes on chara to be a single parent, essentially, still. dess sends money back--she IS sort of the breadwinner lol, turns out selling weird dark world things is sometimes actually a viable career--but she doesnt, like, parent. when she comes home shes a friend. but not a parent.

kris fights with chara a lot. idealizes dess. its that idea that the parent who has to be the PARENT, be the one to say no, be the one to deal with all the crying and meltdowns and just general messiness of raising another human being, is the one that also gets the most flack. dess is never around! which is hard, but it also means she never messes up. at least in kris's eyes, lol.

for frisk and kris dess really is the one thing that like, gets in between all else. its the wound they all keep opening again, because shes never around, and it hurts. whenever she comes back and stays for a week when she said a month the kids know how sad chara gets!! how lonely xe is! but kris writes it off because dess will come back, and frisk grows bitter. its the one thing the two dont talk about because its the one thing that fractures their sibling relationship. every serious fight the two have is in some way about dess.

the entire reason why noelle and kris end up meeting? because kris thinks that if they prove themself as brave like dess, and dive into and close a dark world like she does, she'll stay longer this time. but of course all that does is get them stuck.

dess never does things maliciously. she does, really, truly, care about chara, kris, frisk. but she also just...does things. she never looks before she leaps. she shies away from facing consequences. and thats like...the sort of thing you CANT do, when youve got kids. but she never wanted them. she never meant to take kris.

she's just. in too deep. and chara does NOT hold her accountable which doesnt help. it would be best for the kids if chara got a divorce but. chara cant do that. xe cannot be alone again.

OKAY THAT WAS A LOT. uh. if you (general) wants to know more!! hit me up!!! tho i will say i'll have more to say about other relationships lol, i think i've said most of what i can able dess&chara right now. BUT I AM ALWAYS THINKING ABOUT THIS AU I HAVE SO MANY THOUGHTS ON HOW IT CHANGES THINGS--

#drkau #ask #deltarune #i hope this is! something lol #everything is subject to change as i write them cause im way worse at Describing this relationship than writing it #i wrote a lil 4k word test of it and i just want to gesture to that like there. read it. youll see #but thats just for me lol idk where id even post that. #but yeah. i say a Lot on this blog but i am better at putting that into like #writing yknow? where i can show it #BUT THANKS FOR ASKING I LOVE TO TALK ABOUT IT STILL EVEN IF ITS DISJOINTED AND MESSY #hint hint nudge nudge if anybody wants to ask about other character relationships :3 ive put a lot of thought into them all #like. did you know susie and kris went to middle school together. #that toriel and carol are married #that the asriel and noelle relationship is So Fascinating #DO YOU KNOW HOW KRIS AND NOELLE MEET AGAIN CAUSE ITS REALLY GOOD #god you dont even know what things are like when kris and dess are revealed to be alive. oh my god