#SAD! well theres other things to do

[nalver]

i guess i wanted to go back to C++ anyway so. godot looking real sexy right now

#havent really considered the weight of the situation until now #but hey i love godots language mix #ohh you want one file in ts? another as js? python also? sure ill work with all of those at once #SAD! well theres other things to do #you approach me with any sort of block scripting or visual or whatever im killing myself on the spot #i will NOT put blocks together

[puppyeared]

Atla live action 😐

#thats my honest reaction 😐 #to be fair ive only seen 20 minutes of the s1 finale bc my parents are watching it but. mmmmm kinda mid #like. the casting is definitely an improvement since the last time they tried a live action but it feels like the writing falls flat #or maybe im being harsh bc ive only heard negative criticism on it beforehand. but fr anytime u bring up the original its already #good and not just because its the original. so much fucking detail went into it to the point of someone noticing azula wielding mai's knive #to how well thought out irohs character is used as a way of uniting the cast especially as zukos foil #i heard that sokkas sexism was toned down and i have to agree that feels like a cheap move. like i get WHY they think it would be better #but its not about how that reflects on real world its about how it affects the story. sokka starts out as a misogynistic asshole because #it makes it that much more impactful when he changes. toning that down makes it flatter and makes his character development weak #and someone pointed out they didnt even make him wear the kyoshi warrior uniform and i know it feels like such a small detail but #come on man. they did that in the original because not only does it help him really walk in their shoes - wearing 'feminine' clothing and #makeup and having suki explain its significance but it also ties in with the shows theme of harmony and intersectionality #i was also disappointed when they had the fire sages explain how the water tribe draws power from the moon because in the original it was #IROH who explained it to aang and everyone else BECAUSE we as the audience is under the impression hes with the 'bad guys' #and it builds up to how he learned from the other nations which reconciles his past as a war general and his character overall #AND its an excellent starting point for the cast and audience to understand how the nations arent as closed off as you would think #plus you would think its only fire nation doing propaganda but they expanded on that with earth kingdom censorship and it WORKS #a lot of things in the live action also feel arbitrary like. they gave momo a near death experience for 5 minutes for no reason #im firmly on the stance of bringing back filler moments instead of putting major events right after each other so that u give your #audience a sense of time passing and to really absorb the story. but i think thats more like shock value than filler and yeah its a small #thing to gripe about but those things build up and its really annoying. the thing abt avatar filler moments is that however small #its at least meaningful. hell even the beach episode emphasizes how isolated zuko and his friends are as child soldiers #i also swore to never watch the first live action since it was that bad but i really liked the stylized tattoos they used for aang #anyway. those arejust my thoughts. im not gonna watch the rest because im a ride or die for the original aftr growing up and #rewatching it at least 20 times as a kid. but theres definitely room for improvement and i wish ppl wouldnt take it as 'better' just cuz #netflix is adapting it. i wouldve killed for them to just reanimate the entire avatar series and touch NOTHING ELSE no redub #no changes to the story. just reanimate the thing and leave the rest alone and youd make easy money just the same #ALSO its very jarring not hearing jack desena and dante basco voicing sokka and zuko cause their voices were the most recognizable to me #i get that its because its live action but im allowed to feel a little sad abt that. and uncle irohs accent was really soothing #yapping

[getougender]

ok enough time has passed that it’s started to sink in and i’m sad about gojou now

#riko.txt #on one hand. sad! well theres other sorcerers #but on the other. pov you are in high school and you watch your teacher get slaughtered by a thing wearing your classmate’s face #he died protecting you. he can’t protect you anymore. the title of The Strongest falls onto the shoulders of a nervous seventeen year old #he’ll die next #it’s only a matter of time before you die too. #gojou satoru #jjk leaks #gojou isn’t the last resort but jfc. what do you do now #being prepared for the possibility vs thinking it’s over and then seeing him get CUT IN HALF are totally different #he dies with regrets!!!!! he couldn’t save megumi he couldn’t beat sukuna and now his students are next #maybe they’ll save megumi. maybe sukuna will kill them all. either way he won’t be around to see it. #i hate it here

[divorcetual]

HELLOOOO !!

#queued on january 20th !!! #I ACCIDENTALLY POSTED THE FIRST VERSION OF THIS RIPPP tumblrs also messing with me bcs they deketed all the other weather reports besides #the one that posted 2day :/ #n e way. How are you !! any colleges accept you yet? #im abt a third of the way through the berserk deluxe edition 4 btw. gotten any further? did u finish it? #ugghhh still so sad abt the trigun deluxe printing being postponed until april :( #what are you drawing rn? im in a total art blockkkkk I havent been able 2 draw anything for a week #the last thing I did was the hikaru ocean one. the one that every1 keeps thinking is kaworu lolz #oh !! and gave you finished learning all the hiragana yet? im on the r line so I think theres only two lines left #have* #dont have much else to talk abt :p hope ur doing well !! stay safe !!! #weather report

[niishi]

the amount of times I've been (rudely) made fun of for using 3in1 makes me so mad every time I think about it.... bc like........ predatory capitalism will get you around every corner. I can't just be myself and be happy about it. tv, books, ads, family, friends, etc. everywhere you go. everyone's been brainwashed into thinking buying stuff and doing what rich ppl say makes you better. like idk I'm sorry but I TRULY do not care about materialism or looks. attractiveness to me, comes from confidence and a kind personality. it has nothing to do with how anyone looks, or what they buy and have. doing stuff to make YOURSELF happy is amazing. doing stuff to make a point to others that you're better than them.... idk man... seems like a waste of time trying to fill a pot that has a leak and could fully break at any time.

#listen #if you make fun of me in earnest #i will never forget it and i will think about it every time im reminded of it #like when I'm showering for example lol #im constantly worried theres something wrong with me #and that everything i do wrong could be The Thing #and i hyper criticize myself and remember everyones critiques of me #but all it does is make me feel so bad #like man idk.... im poor #i buy 3in1 bc i have great skin always have it smells good its cheap and it works for me #i want to stop feeling like im being bullied into having to change everything about myself #none of that stuff is truly fun to me bc no one does it for fun #everyone does it to feel better than other ppl and to compete and thats so exhausting to me #all the joy is sapped out of all hobbies once its made into a mean spirited competition For Me Personally #i could go on a whole other tangent about cosplay culture as well #and how ill just stop cosplaying if ppl keep taking the fun out it #its not about looking amazing and the best #its about having fun #the culture makes it so sad and miserable and unwelcome for poor/amateur cosplayers #or literally just ppl cosplaying for fun..... #tiktok cosplayers have been going off about this recently and i hope they rlly create a change in the community bc its too much #anyways back to ghe original point #i love joking around but making fun of me in a serious manner...... truly just sticks with me

[caruliaa]

got a sudden urge to listen to the twisted soundtrack and now i am. i should rewatch it

#i might tmrw but i prob wont 😭😭 wanted to rewatch pibtlw today then i decided to intead draw and watch cunk on earth #bc from what iv seen that is rly good but then i didnt do that either 😭😭😭😭 SAD !! #also i remember twisted being rly rly rly good but also in hindsight having a lot of issues #esp w alladin j bc they v much ended up going a weird like. route w him like #im listening to i steal everything rn and um. ykw theres an implication when ur taking a cahracters whos whole main thing (at the beginning #anyway) is that they cant afford to eat so they have to steal and u make them an antagonist and you can choose to play into tht or not #and well. they certainly did play into huh •__• !! #also like. i appreciate the making him a perv as a better angle from which to make aladdin a villian but i also remember that like. #reaching the point of feeling overly gross but maybe that pov will change watching it again idk #also sorry to say but no one remembers achmed isnt that funny imo like. its fine but everyone treated it like the height of humor #and its rly not. there r funnier moment within the show #but like. other than aladdin i remember everything else being rly rly good. and can confirm the songs r rly good #listening to a thousand and one nights rn and !! TT__TT !! #i never cared for stories until u entered mine... TT__TT /lyrics #flappy rambles

[1o1percentmilk]

i hope i can get a good big amazon or google job so that my siblings can go to college

#my sister will be fine but my brother probably wants to do music #i don't really want him to go thru the whole thing of ''well we dont have enough money for art school so ur going to do stem. lol'' #part where i reveal i wanted to go to animation school but even in hs i knew that was unrealistic #sad! well theres other ways to be happy

[stonerzelda]

K wtf why am i blocked by so many ppl that used to be so chill like is this rly because i blocked 1 (ONE) ex friend for being invasive and creepy to me multiple times despite me staying quiet abt it and everybody just took them at their word without me even knowing. Like bro its fuckin tumblr whatever

#cant even rb sick aquatic plant posts now. SAD! well theres other plants #normally whotever idc if i get blocked bc i do the same thing like if u dont vuve with me i geddit thats life #but when its because some asshole wanted to subject me to their sex life and had a tantrum about it years later like. grow up berhaps

[unfortunate-development]

wanting to be funny and get called mike (short for microphone) vs there is a guy named mike in my head. not even short for anything why are you named mike!!

#.communications array #WE’RE NOT EVEN HOME RN AND THE MAIN THING I WANT TO DO WHEN IM AROUND IS PLAY GUITAR. #sad well theres other days i GUESS

[thedogwhoisachair]

Thinking about zulius' parents messes me up sooo bad....

#like damn this whole thing is so sad #like the show was just like oh btw his parents were murdered after the be best. btw #we go to cataur valley and the closest thing to someone who isnt a direct cattaur is Splendib #and That's It #zulius was just alone well and truly #we don't even know anything of his parents #i assume cause theres no other zebrataurs zulius is a second gen immigrant and his parents moved there before he was born #but like. why did they move there? did they care about the be best as much as zulius would grow to #did they have any family except for themselves? did they still talk to them? #has zulius ever met them? does he genuinely know there are other zebrataurs? if he does does he know where they are? #if his parents still talked to their family did they just accept nobody was picking up their calls after his parents were murdered #did they ever come check? do they know what happened #damn im sad about this

[be-good-to-bugs]

AAAAH forever stress is going to kill me one day

#the bin #i hate knowing why i feel so bad and not being able to do anything about it #im scared that ill never ever feel better. its been so long since i felt ok. im worried that ill make friends and still feel horrible all #the time and it wont matter. i cant keep doing this. im so tired of being all alone. im so tired of the constant inescapable dread #im going to figure something out. in a month ill be moved and i can start figuring everything out then #i hate not being able to focus on anything besides how bad i feel. i cant enjoy anything. theres so many shows i wanna watch but i cant #because im so distracted by this. theres so much manga i wanna read and i cant. #literally the ONLY thing that has been able to make me temporarily forget this for any amount of time is dungeon meshi #its so fucking good and it sparks so much joy that it does help but not enough. i get sad again really fast. #well. im trying really hard to manage my stress. i did the math on how much i should be getting. i know that i will have rent at least. #there are 2 weeks that i dont know what my hours will be but assuming i get 13 hours at least then i should have an ok amount for #moving. its possible theyll be worse and its possible theyll be better. im really hoping theyre better. my hours have been SO BAD recently #i dont know why. i know im not bad at my job or anything. i sont think my manager dislikes me either. he does this whenever someone #hasnt been feeling well and hell do it for a couple weeks and i think its him trying to be considerate but i have bills to pay man #technically there is a shift i could pickup but the store has a drive thru so im nervous to bc idk how that works and if im asked to do that #then ill have no idea so ive been avoiding taking any shifts like that #hopefully enough will pop up in the coming weeks and i can get some more hours. i know i can cover moving vehicle cost but idk how much #gas is gonna be so im suuuuper worried abt that. hhhh. hopefully my sister and her boyfriend can get me back the $300 they owe too #honestly idk how they werent able to afford rent but immediately after they were able to afford a 40 hour roadtrip and yimw off work #whatever. it doenst matter. #i wish i could deal with the other stuff messing me up rn but i cant fix the loneliness thing without not being alone and i cant fix that #it doesnt matter how much i tell myself ill make friends eventually or if i believe it or not. i feel bad because ive gone way too long #not hanging out with anyone and my brain cant handle it. #im gonna see if maybe i can play a game with my sister soon. or maybe i couod play smth with my younger sister even #i pkayed roblox with her for a little while. maybe she would want to again. i miss her :(

[thedevotionaltour]

in terms of art alone im sorry. im a jrjr defender to my last breath you be fucking nice to him. i dont wanna hear shit❗️❗️❗️

#can someone also get him better inkers rn i am begging. pleading even. HE MAKES GOOD STUFF THEY JUST GIVE HIM SHIT INKERS WHO DONT GET IT. #MY FIRM BELIEF. im sorry. i like his stuff. there are certain things not quite my taste but i think he does good overall im a fan. BE NICE #static.soundz #sorry that last post was so directly inspired by seeing someone go can u guys be nice he is on a fucking nutbag schedule. which he is. #i dont think some people understand the insanity of comic production. and how much it takes a toll on you. #many have said and i will say it too: comics is a killing industry. it is a beautiful fun job. it is fulfilling. it will also destroy you. #the most common and easiest to use example is in fact the manga industry. they want chapters in a week. 20 page type chapters in a week. #A WEEK!!! and currently look at things like webtoon as well which also expect the same amount of pages. in a week. an issue in a week #is an insane demand. it is an unreasonable demand. it is scheduling that leads you to a crash and burnout and health issues #because it is fully finished polished pages. as much as i poke and complain about how some things look there #i am also highly aware of production schedules. even if some styles are not my taste that still doesnt mean it isnt insane work #and it's the same in american big industry comics too. it isnt weekly demand the way those are. but it's still an intense schedule #you are working on pages and can get behind years before those comics even hit shelves. #and as it becomes more individualized too as we lose the team element and work becomes more one person doing all pencils and inks #that schedule is a lot. it just is. it doesnt matter if theres more time in comparison to other parts of the industry #the point is that it is all very demanding and exploitative. there is a drive yourself to your grave mentality here and i've had ppl try #to shove that mindset onto my and my peers which is the worst thing possible to encourage. highly alarming and disheartening to encourage #impressionable students already so worried about making it to drive themselves to an early grave. abuse substances to get through work. #work excessive hours while you still can because when you hit your 30s youre gonna lose that ability #become bitter and prepared for rejection as opposed to success because this industry sucks! #it's just such an unhealthy depressing mindset. i've had more artists preach the exact opposite as that and more ppl have been trying to #shift over to valuing your time and health. but still a lot of people are in that other mentality. and it's very very very sad. #i am only a student doing very low stakes homework for classes. i have no industry experience. and i still get it taken out of me #to do fully fledged out pages in my style in one week. this is also just a thing for me bc certain personal factors just make it hard #but still. comics are fun. they are fun. they are fulfilling. they will lead you to so many fucking issues if you are not highly careful #there is a reason why so so so many fucking comic artists have very well known issues. why you hear about so many ppl with substance issues #artists with very poor mental health. when you are in comics this is how it is. #i am glad there has been a big shift in recent years towards taking care of yourself as an artist. and that more ppl try to value it so tha #things can hopefully change at large in a broader sense. but please remember. we are an exploited chew up spit out industry too.

[arolesbianism]

The sadness and agony that emerges everytime I start a new oni save and am forced to remember what it's like to have a dupe without a hat only to put them in a hat because I think they'd look cute only to remember hats make half of them look bald but I spent this long maxing out a skill for them so Im too stubborn to back down and remove the hat

#rat rambles #oni posting #it wouldnt be nearly as much of a problem if dupes didnt all have the same like 3 faces that I suck ass at differenciating at a glance #the amount of times Ive mixed up my maes and nikolas makes me sad Im sorry mae no one should be mistaken with nikola #if I knew how to acess the animation files Id be tempted to make a mod to change it but I dont so Im not #but imagine how cute itd be if abe and nikola had their side spikes stiking out from the sides of their hats #couldnt save the super short haired ppl tho sorry ren ari travaldo turner ruby and probably others too #speaking of my ari I keep mistaking my hassan for ari even tho I dont have an ari yet sorry bestie #hes my main storage and cleaning guy which is the role ari is in my other save #anyways the new save is continuing to go well even if things have slowed down a lil #I managed to get my salt water guiser up and running even if its a very lazy approach of basically just cooling it in a tundra biome #but itll work for the time being until I can get plastic from either drekos or by tapping into my oil biome #Im going for drekos rn since I have a lot of them around but if I can get some atmo suits set up quick enough I might just dive for oil #mainly because I want natural gas for a gas range tbh especially since I started farming waterweed as well #along with duskcaps so I already have access to the ingredients for several high quality gas range foods if I can get one running #now that might be a bit hasty but also I havent actually set base on the teleporter planetoid yet and both the transporters are right there #and I managed to find the sender on my main planetoid so I could pretty easily send over high quality food as a nice start up #this mostly tempts me because theres also a distinct lack of particularly easy to farm plants in the immediate vicinity of the teleporter #which doesnt mean there Wont be food but it does mean that quite a bit of digging will likely need to be done #with is also made tricky by the lack of early settlement oxygen sources available #and while I could theoretically send oxygen from the main colony Id rly rather not until I can get a spom or two set up #which leaves oxyferns and rust as the main oxygen options there until reliable water is found #now one thing I could do is fully transition my main base to getting all its oxygen from a spom and then send the rest of my algae over #my main thing is just Im not rly sure where I wanna put my first spom #I just simply dont have as many options as Id like due to being surrounded by mostly swampy and jungle biomes #not that I couldnt build there or dig them out its just Id rly rather have atmo suits first #which since I am very early in my dreko farm will likely take a lil bit #which also brings up the problem of getting my metal refinery up and running so I dont have to keep using the rock crusher #Ill probably just slap one in one of my tundra biomes as a short term solution but long term Ill probably have to take a shot at a proper #industrial sauna once I get plastic

[toastsnaffler]

ugh had to get up bc I'm too awake to fall back asleep and started getting hunger cramps

#FINE ILL EAT CEREAL #also made myself rly sad bc i was thinking abt phone calls and it made me think abt how i DONT miss my ex thats long dead and buried #but I DO miss there being someone who was always happy to hear from me or hear my voice any time of day to say anything at all #and always being happy to hear from them in the same way and just. that simple casual kind of love and how easy it was every time #not even talking just how easy it was to be around them and in the same space even if we werent directly interacting #and i love my friends but its not really the same as that i always feel like the longer i talk the more im keeping them from other things #and theyre pulling away and ik my roommate has said before she doesnt rly get anything out of just. being around ppl without- #direct interaction which is ok like thats just how it works for her but also it means whenever im talking to her theres a little desperate #part of me thats like u have to keep talking bc otherwise shes going to get bored and leave except she'll do that either way bc ill run- #out of anything interesting to say.. but again its not the same anyway tho bc we're just friends theres no obligation or anything #not that it was obligation with my ex gah. but it was just so mutual and EASY i dont knowww #i think its on my mind as well bc my roommate was talking abt friends of hers she can just. Always dip into conversation with #and that made me think of my ex but i didnt wanna say bc that sounds dumb and as though im hung up on them (which im genuinely not) #and ik she feels like that abt one of our mutual friends bc theyre much closer than we are and its cute how much she talks abt him and #how obvious her love for him is and i dont begrudge them that at all but i just miss having that myself with someone #but its been so long and itll probably be a long time yet before i ever have smth like that again. if ever man #and it doesnt even matter anyway bc i guess it wasnt ever actually mutual and my ex denied a lot of it afterwards and ik part of that they #were just saying to hurt me (which worked) but it probably was partly true too. maaaan. #i just miss having a favourite person and i miss being someones favourite person even if that wasnt real in the end and i wasnt #i miss at least THINKING i was someones favourite person like back when doubt rarely occurred to me bc i cared so much abt them #like it would hardly cross my mind they didnt. or if it did it was still ok bc it was easily reassured #ahhhh im going to drive myself crazy girl i need to Stop. it doesnt matter its not within my reach anymore but. wails pitifully #sorry for being so pathetic and needy and starved on main in my defence im sick. im gonna lie down for another half hour #and then i guess get ready for work. at least if im working i wont be thinking abt this shit anymore it doesn't matter #ougrhrhhhhgougrh. #.diaries

[kittykatinabag]

I think a lot of my anger at society is just a projection of my anger at the people throughout my life who never cared as much about me as I cared about them and who never noticed how much more support I needed than I ever indicated because I didn't know how to ask for it. All I knew, and still know, is that other people were getting something that wasn't being given to me on a regular basis because of opaque reasons like 'oh it's Kristen she's always on top of her shit/strong/smart, she can figure it out, she always has' or 'but you never asked for this specific type of help/support' even though I never was given the language to describe what I needed.

And I hate how this realization is making me realize that I still don't know what a passion or internal motivation is and that whatever I've been doing for the past year has not been any type of passion or motivation, it's primarily anger and hurt and desperation for any sliver of hope that I'm wrong about my current worldview. And sure parts here have shown me that parts of my worldview have been flawed and I'm very grateful for that, but the flip side is that those parts are over painted by other parts that have so dramatically reinforced this point of view that I logically know is not true.

#late night ramblings #i know ill feel a bit better in the morning but these late night thoughts do have many kernals of truth to them #its also frustrating when you know the solutions to a lot of your problems #but the solutions are money time and dealing with other people #other people who have their own lives and stuff and cant cater to you exactly when you need them to #also the fact that a lot of people arent actually open to having that sort of connection without copious amounts of time sunk into it #or maybe its all just my ego doing ego things again #but then theres the question of is it egotistical to get angry and/or sad that your needs arent being met and you want better for yourself? #because when you start insisiting on even the most basic of respect (and boundaries) from others when you havent before people dont like it #well at least thats what my family does in response. which is probably a bad standard because my family dynamics are complicated #complicated in that they say one thing than do a completely different action and fail to even recongize it as different #its not all malicious but it sure does confuse my mind that can barely keep up with normal socialization much less that type of behavior

[mothbeasts]

okay cleaver in dst would be interesting too i think personally. Something something can couriers survive HELL. cleaver voice ummm i dont think this is the mojave.

#bee's buzzing #benny fnv is there too they dragged him along for the adventure #benny is rapidly losing sanity and cleaver is skipping along and having a great time #they are foraging for berries in the woods #the worst thing for cleaver would be. no med-x. SAD oh well theres other couriers #theyre crumpled on the ground going through the horrors when they run out of their stash but like #otherwise? theyre so fine w/ this #they stare at wx with their autism eyes and go “technically im part robot. can i stick my hands in your wires” #what else. umm. cleaver would like several of th guys i think #theyre fascinated with wilsons pathetic guy swag #theyre like a weird aunt to all of the kids #i think theyd get along with just about everyone actually #debatably rocky start with maxwell if they know he got the others stuck here but like. shrugs. what can you do #they would also like wigfrid specifically i think. they're particularly fond of any performers tbh. #cleaver voice hi you seem cool. dont mind me staring with my autism eyes #THEY ALSO both have diets that primarily consist of meat. though #in cleavers case. they mostly eat. dubiously safe to eat raw meat off the ground like some kind of animal